I’m so ill thinking about the fact that Apollo was essentially abandoned by his adoptive father at 9 years old, and clearly never found another constant family by the fact that no one is ever mentioned. So until he was an adult, he was bouncing around the foster system.

And then he finds Gavin Law Offices and, based on the little interaction we see, we know he had a very deep respect for Kristoph, and that he was obviously treated very well.

I think about the fact that Apollo probably found him to be the closest thing to a father figure, or any kind of trustworthy mentor, for the first time since he was literally nine years old.

I think about how he probably held him in such high regards, he probably went to his work every day looking forward to doing literally anything to make his boss proud.

I think about how fucking crushed he definitely was when he found out how horrible and corrupt Kristoph actually was.

Imagine how he is trying to grapple with the fact that someone so evil treated him so tenderly and fondly.

Imagine, even further, he later becomes very close with Klavier and immediately feels guilty whenever Kristoph is mentioned. Not because he is responsible for his imprisonment or anything, but because he knows Kristoph potentially cared for him more than his own flesh and blood, and Apollo only knew him maybe a few years in comparison to the 24 that Klavier had been alive.

Imagine how awful that feels to be loved by a monster.

all of the torchwood shooting scripts (minus miracle day but who cares about that) are on the bbc website so i'm reading them because why not

and it's giving me Feelings about owen because the emotions primarily used to describe him in the scripts are variations on scared, vulnerable, angry, "like a little boy", and sad

except in fragments, where (before katie's death) he's described as kind, patient, and "so in love"

Okay, All Quiet On The Eastern Esplanade is out in the states, so time for a listen and a rambling track by track reaction. I'm listening to the whole album through and writing my thoughts, and then listening to it once more and adding any other observations.

I've already heard Run Run Run, and like I said before, it feels very classic Carl track. It's very catchy. I think I have the same complaint as everyone else, which is that it feels over-produced. No one should autotune the Libs, the whole point is that they're a bit wonky. Also I don't like that they've fucked with the equalizer and the vocals sound weirdly muffled? Also, upon this listen-through, this song reminds me a little of Frank Turner, which is a weird musical callback to like 2012. My favorite thing in any song is when the instrumentals cut out and it's just drums and vocals, so I love that as the ending of the song. This whole album has so many varied cultural references which I find very entertaining. Does Peter yell "Get your pants off" or "Get your hands off"?

Already I like the lyric to Mustangs A LOT. Feeling a Lou Reed influence there. Love Peter's high-pitched backing vocals and also the Pigman reference. I really love Libs songs where it's just a little scene set to music. And this is exactly that, in such a good way. Again, not a fan of the mixing. What is it with producers these days and mixing so shittily that the vocals get lost in the background instruments, and everything gets muddied? I had the exact same complaint with the last Manics album. Anyway, love the little jokey bits at the end. The second verse about the nun is such fantastic imagery. (Lastly, I thought it was Mustang, singular? But it's plural on Spotify?)

I Have A Friend has an AMAZING chorus I love it. Also that solo guitar bit from Carl right after, I literally could see him hopping up and down in my head. Love Peter's rolled R's. Okay, upon listening the second time round I really really really like this song. The lyrics are incredible. I think they're my favorite on the album. Social commentary but also absolutely beautiful and amazing imagery.

Merry Old England has a bit of a Hamburg Demonstrations vibe to it, which I love. The further I get into this song, the more I love it. It's such a creative and sarcastic critique of Tory policies and all that. Again, I've criticisms about the mixing. Also the pretty violins makes me miss Miki Beavis's wonky violin in Madres, which I think suits Peter/The Libs way better. Still, they add a nice touch.

Ohhh I love Man With The Melody, the clear pretty vocals. I like that each of the Libs have their own verse, that's so cool! Fuck the autotuning though. I really like this song. Melodically it sounds like a sequel to Milkman's Horse, and thematically a sequel to Fame And Fortune. It sounds like a "reply" or a look back at Anthems. Very pretty, with the lovely piano and minimalist guitar.

Hahahha Oh Shit! feels soooooo early 2000s American pop, in a fun way. It reminds me of something but I can't quite put my finger on it. Something that was on the radio a lot in like 2003 or 2004 maybe? This is clearly a Fun Song, like a slosh your drinks around while dancing all goofy type song. Peter's "And that was the news today" at the end is so silly. I think this track is my least favorite but it is fun.

I already know I love Night Of The Hunter. Firstly because anything that uses the Swan Lake motif has my heart instantly. But also because I love the lyrics, I love when Peter writes songs about noir-type vignettes. Finally, some good shared vocals that aren't drowned out by instruments. Gosh, I love the lyrics of this song, I love the dual meaning in that it is technically about an actual noir film but could easily be talking about Peter's past as well. I really like that the lyrics get priority on this one and the instrumentals are pushed back in the mix with the Swan Lake motif coming forward sometimes. It feels like it needs that minimalism.

The guitar on Baron's Claw is already great from the start. I hear Peter's taking a leaf out of Daniel Darc's book with the close-in breathy vocals, which I'm so into because since I learned about Daniel Darc from Peter and Frederic Lo I've actually fallen in love with his music too. Melody-wise it's very close to The Glassblower from the Fantasy Life album, which is my favorite song off that album, so I'm not surprised I like this song too. I like the story in the song and I like the jazzy brass and piano and Peter's vocals. It feels like it's being sung in a smoky jazz bar. This one is so good.

Shiver is sooo catchy. I find myself humming it sometimes at work even though I haven't yet absorbed all the lyrics in my memory. This is also the real "Libertines mythology" song, so of course it's good. The fact that the lyrical subject matter is made up only of criticizing the monarchy and talking about specific Libertines lore is just so them. It's so short, though! I wish it were longer!

The guitar on Be Young is so chaotic lol. It reminds me of Horrorshow a bit. Okay, actually this whole song is chaotic. Melodically, lyrically, it sounds like they were crashing around in the studio while recording, which is very fun. The random calypso bridge bit is so....random! I like it, just a surprise in terms of musical style change. Suddenly they're the Clash! A fun way to pay homage to influences, I think. Also Carl yelling "Woo!" and then collapsing into a cough at the end is really really funny.

I can definitely hear the early-ness of Songs They Never Play On The Radio. You can tell the scaffolding is there from that early set of Libertines-to-Shambles transition songs like East Of Eden/Love Reign Over Me/Merry Go Round etc. I really really like the guitar on this one. And the vocals are so nice. Again I don't like the mix, where Peter's voice is a bit overtaken by the muddiness of the backup singers and instrumentals. But I do like this song a lot. The lyrics are pure Libertines mythology. Ahahah the dogs howling! The bit of acoustic and messing about and chat, I really like that. I think it's a really lovely ending to the album, just a glimpse of them obviously being friends and having fun. It's like a beautiful reply to the question "What became of the likely lads?"

As I've only listened through the album in full twice at this point, I'm sure my thoughts will change over time. But at the moment I think my favorite is torn between Night Of The Hunter and Baron's Claw. I Have A Friend and Songs They Never Play also are just so lyrically good. Least favorite is definitely Oh Shit. I'm excited to see which songs grow on me and in what ways.

reminder that this is canonically what sigma wears to sleep

actually. Louie poisoning himself compilation. there isn't as much as i thought there was but it's fun to read regardless

+ bonus olimar cringe bc he's not immune to eating the planet either:

Ngl Mic's reaction is giving me Nana vibes. The whole grief of their situations being brought up and wanting so desperately for it to end already, to choose the easy way out just so it stops hurting

Nana going from crying because Izuku wanted to save Tomura and feeling grateful to then shouting at Izuku to kill him already. Mic going from "if you aren't Shirakumo fade away but if you are come back to us" to then grabbing Kurogiri by his clothes ready to punch him and yelling about how he shouldn't have given him the benefit of the doubt

I think it's also shown in the way Mic lists things that dehumanise Kurogiri too. "He's not crying, it's just the rain" "he has no tear ducts, he's a noumu" It's so clear he wants this to be over already

Same thing happened with Nana and Tomura. The vestiges too. They kept saying how he is destruction incarnate, how it's too late for him, how he's a "thing" "not human", just like Tomura said himself

Mic and Nana just let themselves think that way because it's the easy way out. They put a lid on their feelings, and in the final war arc it's like the lids got ripped off and it's all coming out now

That's why I think Aizawa and Izuku sort of parallel here. They wonder about their supposed enemies. "Why didn't he get rid of us? Why didn't he kill us when he could have?" Aizawa asks, physically reaching out to Kurogiri. "I have to ask why he can't let go of that sad lonely past of his!" Izuku says, also attempting to reach out to Tomura in his own way

"That's where their origins lie" Aizawa says as he thinks back to those school days. And Izuku was in Tomura's mind, literally at the center of his "origin"

Even though it's painful for Nana, Tomura and Mic, Aizawa and Izuku press on anyway because they can't help but wonder whether things can change. If things don't have to be this way

Ok everyone... HEAR ME OUT-

Is it just me, or Aiden's face is really squishy?

I'm so excited and proud of this boy. He's just getting better & better. Today he ate some mustard greens for the first time, didn't even skip eating a day or two to protest first. Ate a full third of the greens I put down. So he got roaches as a reward & was SO quick to zoom over when I showed him the bowl. Chomped them all down in no time!

And as you can see, he's shedding!!! Already gotten a bit off the neck. The rest of his body is getting dusty looking, so will be joining the party soon.

I'm just so happy about him today.

I've gotten myself into a bit of a predicament where the new d20 ep was yesterday, and tonight is cr, but listen summer just started on my Meadowlands file and I have so much work to do–

suffice to say I am teetering on the edge of falling behind on these very long shows I have committed myself to and that is sooo dangerous for my adhd brain

behold my squash

I've decided just now his name is Gerald

Happy Halloween from me n Gerald Squash

Does anyone know any affordable swimwear brands for people with larger breasts (in this case, 36D). Bonus points if they do higher coverage or androgynous designs that aren’t binding/compression, but this is less important than affordable and comes in cup sizes.

HEY YOU

you should give me ace attorney short fic prompts (if u want, I’m hoping it will motivate me to write and eventually I’ll migrate to my big fics in my doc)

more owen harper script-related observations (aka mostly interesting/important stuff that got cut that i wish hadn't been because it adds so much depth to owen):

there's a scene that was cut from dead man walking where gwen, tosh, and ianto realize that they don't think owen has any family members/loved ones that he'd want notified of his death

the scene where owen throws away everything in his flat in a day in the death originally had him throwing away photos, including himself as a child and one of him and diane

there's a huge amount of the scene between owen and henry in a day in the death that got cut, a lot more owen being compassionate and caring in a bunch of different ways and i'm very sad it was all cut out

there's way more about owen's childhood in the "core memories" segment at the end of adam, just more indication that his childhood was shitty, that his dad left his mum and his mum hated him

all of the scenes where owen is doing doctor-things specifically describe him as being very focused and concentrated on his work

owen is a lot more aggressive/confrontational with jack and a lot more crazy in end of days and i really wish they'd kept that in because it really ramps up the tension before and even after owen kills jack, and then the scene where jack forgives him becomes way more intense as well

tagged by @stylecouncil

Five songs which have been on repeat lately:

(tbh I've had the whole Mandy, Indiana album on repeat for a while now. It's currently my favorite album.)

I'm tagging @missoneminute @suchasinistergame @riverfetus @realdeathwaltz @totallyfuckd

I have 6 kids now any other eggs wanna get in on this at this point im at 2.55 precent 😊

im not gonna lie error would fuckin despise the bad sanses. nightmare wouldnt give a shit about murder time trio. killer would break free if he was under nightmares orders. dust would never join even under threat. theres no reason for horror to be recruited.

does that mean im gonna stop drawing them together OF COURSE NOT