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Ok so. "Why does this sound like a goodbye?" Was fucking heartbreaking, right; we have the full-on uninterrupted eye contact, the head tilt, Dean's already open mouth twitching before the scene cuts to Cas' "I love you," like he had more to say, but Cas beats him to the punch. It's great, we love that. But for the dialogue to be sequenced that way, and to have Dean reply with, "don't do this, Cas."
I'm only just realizing how fucking insane it was. And sure, I might just be coping here, at the end of the day who fucking knows, but look at it. Think about it. Now let yourself feel it all over again.
It's Dean's death knocking on the door behind Cas, and it's Cas' death emerging behind Dean. Like this, they're directly facing their own demise—but they're too stuck on each other, in their moment, to give a damn. And then Dean doesn't say, "I love you too." He says, "don't do this."
He isn't disgusted or ashamed or put off in the slightest by Cas' confession, because if he is then why is he on the verge of tears? In what world would it make sense for him to want to cry after his best friend confessed to him, if the confession was something he did not want. He says don't do this here, don't do this to me now.
Even if, and that's the most unlikely if to ever exist, Dean did not reciprocate Cas' feelings—don't do this is still so fucking powerful. Because Dean's connected the dots, happiness [...] is in just saying it, and Cas said it, so where does that lead Dean? That's right, with Cas dead again, trying to save him again.
Don't do this. Don't die for me, don't love me only to die for me, don't love me at all, just stay with me.
Don't let me watch you die again and not even let me follow you—because, at the very least, that was a consolation. She's gonna kill you, which Dean knows that Billie knows will hurt him more than his own death, and then she's gonna kill me.
"Don't do this," was actually so fucking powerful, I don't know how it slipped past me until now...
#MORE destiel fuckery#supernatural#spn#destiel#castiel#dean winchester#deancas#15x18#spn 15x18#spn despair#dean studies#spn castiel#spn dean#spn meta#spn analysis#destiel angst
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seeing the y yo a ti version of this moment only makes you realize how incredibly tender and intensely romantic Dean's expression was when he said "don't do it Cas"
GIF CREDIT: @sunglassesmish
#spn#dean winchester#destiel#spn despair#y yo a ti cas#supernatural#deancas#castiel#dean x castiel#dean and cas#destiel angst#spn 15x18#destiel confession
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Dean ‘Blue Screen’ Winchester, the man that you are
#if it helps no one is more disappointed in me than myself#it had to be done#supernatural#spn#dean winchester#destiel#castiel#deancas#misha collins#jensen ackles#spn crack#destiel meme#dean x castiel#dean x cas#cas x dean#dean loves cas#dean loves him back#despair#spn despair
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A little fanart for today's anniversary
#destiel#spn#supernatural#nov 5th#nov 5 2020#spn fanart#destiel fanart#deancas#deancas fanart#castiel#castiel fanart#dean winchester#dean winchester fanart#supernatural fanart#spn 15x18#spn despair#destiel kiss
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I Watch the bees
#destiel supernatural#castiel angel of the lord#deancastiel#castiel and dean#dean and cas#spn despair#colored pencils#queer artists#lgbt artist#destiel fanart
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If you are the sun, then I wanna be the moon
I wanna reflect the light that shines from you.
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Happy November 5th !
original poem
#this took me HOURS jfc I was upset until 5am finishing it#OH MY GOD HOW AM I STILL THIS INSANE ABOUT DESTIEL 2 YEARS LATER#time for year 3#sketch.art#November 5th#Nov 5th#the confession#confession scene#destiel#spn 15x18#destiel art#spn poetry#deancas#spn fanart#spn despair#seraphcastiel#becauseofthebowties#castiellesbian
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Dean after the 15x18 confession
#spn#supernatural#Dean Winchester#castiel#spn 15x18#destiel#deancas#spn despair#john mulaney#destiel confession
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#i may have left this fandom#but i’ll never escape destiel#anytime a major world event happens#i am reminded#destiel day#destiel#destiel confession#spn#supernatural#spn memes#destiel meme#spn s15e18#spn despair
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Ok maybe I’m crazy but Dean’s mouth doesn’t match up with the words. I sometimes have to watch a persons mouth to understand what they’re saying and this has bugged me for a while so here, see for yourself:
He’s either saying “we can’t” or “wait Cas”. Personally, I’m pretty sure it’s “we can’t”.
#supernatural#spn#dean winchester#castiel#destiel#destiel confession#dean x castiel#casdean#spn 15x18#15x18#spn despair
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Is there any fic out there where in 15x18 after the confession instead of the empty taking cas billie breaks into the room and kill dean instead and cas has to deal with the consequences PLS i cant be the only one who think about it
#its not a fix it its a break it#spn#dean winchester#deancas#castiel#supernatural#destiel#cas#sam winchester#jack kline#pls its a cry for help#15x18#spn despair#ao3#fanfic
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getting my friend into supernatural and talking about this meme (he knows about it as a meme but not that it’s spn) and not being able to explain it to him until he finishes the show feels like sending my son off to a war I know he’ll die in
#cal.txt#spn#supernatural#they silenced you#destiel#15x18 despair#spn despair#he has No Idea.#<- clueless
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Do you guys ever think about this?
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No words appear before me in the aftermath
Salt streams out my eyes and into my ears
Every single thing I touch becomes sick with sadness
'Cause it's all over now, all out to sea
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
You were bigger than the whole sky
You were more than just a short time
And I've got a lot to pine about
I've got a lot to live without
I'm never gonna meet
What could've been, would've been
What should've been you
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Did some bird flap its wings over in Asia?
Did some force take you because I didn't pray?
Every single thing to come has turned into ashes
'Cause it's all over, it's not meant to be
So I'll say words I don't believe
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#swiftnatural#destiel#spn#taylor swift lyrics#bigger than the whole sky#deancas#dean winchester#castiel#dean and cas#dean x castiel#cas#don't mind me#just me swimming in a pool of feels right now#supernatural#taylor swift#midnights lyrics#spn destiel#spn despair
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just finished 15x18 :(((((((((((((((((((
i’m crying. also how does anyone on earth think cas’ confession is not a declaration of love. the one thing that can summon the empty is his true happiness? and is true happiness is telling dean he loves him. richard speight excellent directing, all excellent acting. misha’s monologue was so good :((((
#supernatural#spn#dean winchester#castiel#destiel#misha collins#jensen ackles#richard speight jr.#sam winchester#jack kline#spn 15x18#spn despair#deancas
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Deancas ❤️🩹 The Antidote - Simple Plan
Every time I feel alone, like the walls are caving in, like I never win, like it’s crawling under my skin, you’re the antidote
Happy November 5th to those that are still insane about it
#poppunknatural#destiel#deancas#destiel amv#november 5th#simple plan#the antidote#spncreatorsdaily#userda#creativecaviar#deancaskiss#universalcas#emeraldcas#spxcekya#usermoogs#userjdw#cw flashing#spn despair#spn 15x18#nov 5th
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Happy Valentine's day 2022
Don't fly away. Stay with me to drink coffee.
(Print available on my Kofi .Link pinned)
#destiel supernatural#destiel spn#destiel art#destiel#dean and cas#castiel and dean#castiel supernatural#destiel is canon#spn destiel#spn despair#pencilart#queer artist#queerartwork
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