would you mind terribly? 🚬

So uh. My freelance work here is kind of dying.

I thought i'd keep my long-term followers on the know-how, so i might as well write about my current circumstances here, give y'all an update, so to speak.

So, for several reasons, most of them not even my fault, i've been getting less and less commissions, almost none, actually, and the ones i get are usualy on the cheaper side, which is bad concidering that this is my livelihood, commission money pays my bills, my groceries, and my taxes, and now i sure as hell am strugling to imagine this will sustain me for long. Twitter is a sinking ship ever since elon went over, Specificaly for people like me. I had just broken into 12k followers there, a huge milestone for me, and then i got shadowbanned, and for the last few months i've gotten *nothing*. It's completely dead, i'm stagnated there, all my arts are censored, and there's no way for me to undo it or fix it, and so i've gotten less and less comms out there, which sucks because its the only reason i was even on that stupid site. Here on tumblr, meanwhile, the CEO went on a massive transphobic streak, and a lot of lgbt folk (which composed a lot of my following,) decided to jump ship, and i sure as hell dont blame them, but sadly that's more potential costumers that bailed, and there's no proper website to go to. Anywhere i'd go, i'd be starting from scratch again, which would be utterly disheartening and frustrating, and there no website that is kind to artists, with no algorythim, that also have a messaging system (the latter being ESSENTIAL to the way i do comms) So i'm kind of stuck. I just. have nowhere to go, and nothing to do. And last but not least, my own fault, I've just been drawing and creating what *I* specificaly want, on an hedonistic streak this year. That's why theres so much pony bs on this blog now, and why i was straight up posting poetry a while back, and have written hundreds upon hundreds of fanfiction pages in the last few months; Which, unfortunately, is a terrible business decision if your intent is making money. Which I surely should have prioritized, but in the end, its not up to me, its up to the costumers... So now i'm a bit stuck. I've enjoyed the things ive drawn and written more than anything i've ever done, and yet, i've never been less successful on the actual business side. I'm still considering my venues, my possibilities, but there's not many. Trying to get a job would certainly pull me away from creation, and i'd hate it regardless of what it was, and on another venue, theres no guarantee that going back to furry titties would bring me money.

and that's whats heartbreaking about it too. no matter how much effort i put on my work, theres no guarantee of sucess, so why even spend time trying to craft a masterpiece? why not just follow trends and make a tiktok account or whatever the fuck makes money these days. I'd rather not, frankly. And i wont. Well, that's about it. Thanks for reading this update, that's how my life is goin atm. i'm going to continue doing as i am right now, but yknow... I'm not sure what i should do, if you want to give me suggestions, feel free.

the way people talk about smokers will never not infuriate me btw. u understand that is a human being yes? a human being who I Promise understands the health hazards, the risks. a human being who is well aware they smell like smoke, a human being who is well aware it's a "disgusting" habit, a human being who feels guilty and shitty every time they smoke, yeah?

Also also smoker and crocodile valentinessssss <3

arrangement

yes !!! them !!! did i ever tell you that Sir Crocodile was the first character to awaken my attraction to fictional middle aged men ? i just decided to binge one piece in two weeks and by the end i was just sitting there like "fuck me, Crocodile was actually kinda hot huh"

but yeah anyway i just kinda whipped up some clothes for the love of cleavage and man boobs 😌

anything for my mans Sir Crocodile 💖

(also partly bc i refused to look at refs while sketching lmao)

*vomits this sketch*

I just had this in mind all day and I needed to draw it quickly

disclaimer: I do not condone smoking. It's bad for you, children.

u look like a guy who can make good bbq ribs. drop the recipe

Beef ribs Recipe

-20g Salt -20g Whole Black pepper -20g Onion Powder -Ribs, 300g for single portion Grind Salt and Black pepper together, mix in onion powder, Rub it on the ribs Warp your ribs in aluminium foil, put in the Oven for 2 hours at around 130-150C Take the ribs out and let it rest for an hour

If you got a smoker then I'd personally use Oak for better smokey flavor. You'd want to smoke it for 3 hours while flipping every 30 minutes or so before putting it in the oven. Happy?

hi happy halloween im out of food again

please commission me or donate

ive pretty much given up on being able to afford moving out so just being able to afford to live until i get kicked out would be nice

c*sh*pp (does this actually need to be censored?) is delilahswagga, p*yp*l is @delilahkill

not asking for a lot here even a few people donating a few dolalrs or getting 2 dollar commissions would help me a lot

I am fascinated by how the quarterfinals of @captainsvscaptains seems to be four match-ups of

(1) one person who is, in theory (I think) part of a structural system and get their title of captain from their status therein (Star Trek)

(2) and another who is anti-structure or ambiguous (pirates, space, taking out slavers*) and get their title of captain more (maybe?) from an acknowledge by others/by choice

*I saw this in Inej's propaganda and I know it applies to Luffy

at spirits & such mob learns important life skills like for example holding your pencil between two fingers really close to your face when you're doing homework and how to inhale secondhand smoke

the whole one hour and forty minutes of op stampede are worth it even just for that half a second of interaction between mihawk and zoro actually thank you and amen 🙏

Helloooooo Cev! Hope you're having a wonderful day because my day became wonderful after reading your request for Mihawk & Crocodile! Unfortunately, the simp in me is always craving for me 🥺 May I request one for Mihawk, Crocodile, Smoker and Shanks (you don't have to do all of them if you don't wish to!!) please?

Prompt: The reader has hanahaki disease but still refuses to confess because they're scared to lose what they already have with said character, even if it's just platonic. You can decide the readers fate for Crocodile, Smoke and Shanks - I don't mind angst. But if you do, do Mihawk 🥺 May I ask for a happy ending for h because my soul would not be able to take it HAHA

Omg, sorry that was soo long! Thank you for reading it thus far! And thank you for writing these requests!!!

hi i'll have you know that i'm liquifying this ask and injecting it into my veins JASDFHGRSDGH CITRUS OMGGG 😭💖 dilf time baybee lets gooooo ✨✨✨ (no i’m not sorry for the pun in mihawk’s first point <33)

Hanahaki HCs (Smoker, Mihawk)

gn reader, angst, hurt/comfort word count: 0.9k

Smoker

He’s frustrated, first and foremost

Frustrated that you didn’t have the trust in him to be forth right with this, frustrated that you let it get to this state, but more importantly frustrated with himself for not noticing

Smoker’s a busy man, between fielding his superiors’ scrutiny, making sure his pack of bumbling G5 idiots (affectionate) stay alive while also whipping them into shape with Tashigi at his side, he doesn’t have much time to focus on the fine print

He wasn’t even aware such a disease existed before he’d caught wind that you collapsed at another base he was stationed away from because this ailment had weakened you so

Some plucky foot new recruit from HQ had to explain, in detail, to this fuming (quite literally) vice-admiral that no, Hanahaki wasn’t a poison, or some attack, but rather.... a matter of the heart

Smoker left that conversation more confused than when he entered it - said recruit themself weak kneed and near tears - but Tashigi managed to clear it up for him in his office later on

The next time he sees you, there’s an air of concern around him but you wouldn’t be able to discern it from the way he addresses you - curt, formal, like everybody else - when he has a moment with you alone, however, Smoker takes it upon himself in all his wisdom to tell you that it would be in your best interest to get the flowers removed 

You’re taken aback, speechless at how callous he could be as Smoker talks about how the jobs you share are difficult on the individual, even more so for potential loved ones, so all things considered, being that this plant was clearly hurting you, then--

He didn’t get to finish before you left his office in a huff, fighting back tears and the itch in your throat as you weave past both subordinates and superiors alike, determined to keep this all to yourself at least until your own quarters or the nearest bathroom where you could hurl

You’re not surprised when he doesn’t follow you, if not a little hurt, but after today you actually are considering his suggestion

Mihawk

He’s more perceptive than most - Mihawk is an observant man by default, but when it comes to those close to him, he’s especially... Hawk-eyed 

Which is why you start avoiding him

It’s very gradual at first, not being as physical with him aside from sparring, giving him a wider berth when the two of you are in the kitchen together, but eventually it spills into things like making excuses for not being able to come over and such, actually affecting your time spent with him

Mihawk doesn’t want to intrude at first, he has clear boundaries set in place that no one is to cross so he’d treat you with the same respect

He is a little disappointed, though, when your visits to his home lessen, if not a little worried - he sees the petals following your very presence but doesn’t bring it up

It’s when the twinge of iron hits his nose, however, far way from the battlefield, that he knows something is awfully out of place

Again, Mihawk doesn’t want to push too hard, but he insists on having dinner with you, citing your frequent absences, and telling you not to fret because he’ll simply come to you, ingredients for a fantastic dinner in clutch

It’s easy to hide the tell-tale signs when you’re going over to his place, but an impromptu visit with little time to prepare (raze your home of all evidence) just isn’t fair

It’s business usual when he arrives, you chat with him as he cooks, relax in the (although somewhat awkward, now) silence for a bit, and chat a little again over dinner - Mihawk was never that talkative to begin with but now more than ever you noticed just how much you used to fill the conversation, you wonder a little to yourself if it ever got tiresome for him..

Before you can sink too deep into your thoughts, though, he pulls you from them with a gentle touch to your shoulder, leading you to the worn loveseat in your living room

He takes your hand and you have to suppress the urge to cough when something physically blooms in your chest, Mihawk then asks if there’d been anything bothering you lately, his gaze gentle yet still characteristically piercing, how if there was then he’d be more than willing to lend a hand but if it’s not something he can help with, he’d like you to know that you’d always have a shoulder to lean on with him

It’s then and there that everything you’ve tried to cast aside in his presence comes to ahead - the sincerity in his voice, how his eyes seem to soften ever so slightly just for you and only you, the growing sear in your chest - it’s all too much, and you crumble

The first thing out of your mouth is a fit of coughing, followed by the petals that always came with ever since you realized your feelings for this man, but after that it’s a stream of apologies, for worrying him, for ruining your friendship, you struggle to properly put words together, although they were all in your head

You can’t look him in the eye through your tears, but stiffen when you feel his arms tentatively wrapping around you, Mihawk says that he wished he pursued his hunch sooner; you relax and hug him back, still not quite believing this, all you can do is laugh

He holds you wholly and tight, now with your full permission, and presses a soft kiss to your temple, returning your smile with one of his own

feeling sooo normal about the new album (is actively frothing at the mouth and will listen to nothing else for at least two weeks)

Nah, that pink twink really stole Usopp’s arc. He’s lucky Luffy’s LA portrayal is so nice cuz manga Luffy would have told that bozo to fuck off

ohhhh..ohhh..oh..LAW..oh that law speech ohhhh

just watched synecdoche, new york and i can definitely see its influence in the rehearsal lol

kinda in a synecdoche ny / the rehearsal / the curse / the truman show / house of leaves / dark city kinda mood rn in general. i’m sure it doesn’t mean anything

“gintoki is better with this person not that one” bestie, respectfully.......that man is a whore, he’d be fine having sex with all of them at once tbh