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Happy birthday!

do you ever start blocking dialogue that makes you really upset <3

This was drawn while Against the kitchen floor played on loop

“To think I thought you must’ve hated me…”

“My child… I could never.”

When does Volo get to talk to Arceus GF. Nintendo. Pokemon Company. Let him HAVE HIS MOMENT WITH GOD-

ID below cut!

[ID: Four sketchy, non-colored, digital images done in Procreate. They feature Volo, who has long, dark hair, that lightens out at the ends, and parts to the right to cover the (viewers) right side of his face; a squared face; a wide nose; full lips; and a hint of scarring underneath where his hair is covering his face. He’s wearing eye makeup that mirrors the design of Arceus’ eyes. The images of Volo are only chest-up, but he’s wearing a “kimono” and vest reflective of traditional Ainu wear (I unfortunately could not find the proper terms for the clothing), drawn in a way that mirrors the design of Arceus. Arceus is also present, a Pokémon that is goat-like in appearance, but if that goat was a god and had eight eyes and was almost 11 feet tall and it’s head was elongated. Fucked up goat.

The first image is Arceus staring at the viewer, but implied to be staring at Volo off panel. They appear to be crying. They say, “I wouldst never claim to be a perfect deity. Contrarily… Thou art the imperfect creations of an imperfect god. A mere fragment of one greater, with only a fragment of thine’s divine abilities. However…”

The second image is of Volo, looking to Arceus off panel, grief and sadness present in his face. Arceus continues, “… I love each and all of mine creations more deeply than thou might imagine. Thine included, even if thoust does not believe it. … Had I the ability to create my world without suffering, so that mine own creations I adoreth so much need never be troubled… I would have.”

The third image shows both Volo and Arceus. Volo has his head bared down, not looking Arceus in the eye, tears trailing down his face. It’s hard to discern from Arceus, but they appear to be saddened as well. Arceus continues again, “… I love you, Volo. But I have let thou down. Let thine people down… I am sorry. I was… never as strong as thou all believeth me to be… an imperfect god, indeed.”

The final image shows Volo and Arceus again from the same angle, but Arceus is resting their head on Volo’s forehead, their eyes closed. Volo is reaching a hand up to Arceus in a comforting manner, now looking Arceus in the face. Volo says, “Oh creator Arceus… What I wouldn’t give to understand your divine psyche, your doubts and uncertainties that feel so… human. I know them well, my lord… I wish I could ease your fears. Divinity must be a difficult burden to bear…” Arceus responds, “It is a burden I would not wish upon anyone… certainly not thou, who hast been through so much…”

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How does mc spread their attention among 7+ people??

here they are! the hippest friendgroup that has barely interacted in canon

Im still so upset abt my family pulling a Charlotte Lucas on me this weekend but like. It's fine. I am going to get So Buff so I don't have to hate having a soft "feminine" body and also so I'm strong enough to bear the weight of their Ongoing Disappointment (TM) about p much every single one of my life choices and also maybe my very existence

what are some major events that happened in your lord eclipse au? and do ones similar to canon like old moon sending him a wither storm go differently?

is there special events that eclipse, Sun, or that one of the followers made around him? does he have activities he likes to do in general?

OH MAN. I'm gunna be honest, I'm actually not entirely sure about the first question?? The timeline/canon I have is very loose and changes from scenario to scenario, but I suppose a few events that are pretty consistent are "The Centipede-ening", Eclipse's fall from grace (isolation from his followers due to boredom) with unwavering loyalty happening somewhere around that time period, Moon n Lunar show up... and then i Guess they release the wither storm?? Though, I do like to replace the wither storm with something that isn't. The Minecraft Story Mode Wither Storm LMAOSJWLDK

After that, though, I usually divide into two different outcomes from there and either go "Sunvant dies and slowly heals in the afterlife with his Moon, Lunar, and Bloodmoon" or "Moon and Lunar takes Sunvant back home with them and he slowly heals in the main tsams universe." Both are varying levels of angsty and bittersweet so he has to endure Healing Horrors no matter what LMAO

ALSO YES ‼️ I actually started making a small list of events/important days for Lord Eclipse's world (before getting distracted so there's only one date on it LMAO 😭) but I imagine that some days were sort of... pre-installed?? by Eclipse, like his primary day of worship (which is June 1st bc that's when he first started existing!), but some events may be entirely made by the rest of the followers! I just. dunno what those events would be yet LOL. I could also absolutely see Sun making his own personal special days that revolve around Lord Eclipse just so he feels like he's especially faithful tbh!

It's really hard to be positive and hopeful when you have Mindless Self Indulgence playing on repeat in your head and American Psycho on the brain.

just me and my obscure little specific AUs //(that i keep inside my mind) against the world tbh

Lazy Friday afternoons. Nothing beats a rough morning like a noon nap.

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Any advice on writing when you get no feedback?

I assume you mean posting some writing and then not getting any interaction? The cliche and true answer is to write for yourself, which you should be doing always.

But that's lame and abstract and, while true, not actually helpful.

First of all, it sucks. There is no way around it, it straight up sucks to not get any interaction on something you spent lots of time on and is very personal and takes guts to share. Let's all put an F in the chat for those snips and fics that just didn't go anywhere after posting. We remember them, at least.

Second, after poo-pooing the advice "write for yourself", I am going to seriously repeat it but expand on it so I'm not an asshole for doing so. I'm going to be honest, getting (positive) feedback on writing is like, the best drug I know. It feels incredible. It motivates like nothing else. It feels terrible to not get any after getting a taste of it on a previous project and it makes it hard to want to write (hear that, readers? tell your favorite authors you love them and their writing if you want more writing!). It's really hard to have a healthy relationship with comments and interactions because of that validation and dopamine rush they give. But you have to figure it out if you want to make writing/sharing writing a long term hobby (of which sharing is an optional part).

Forget, for a second, about readers. Are you excited about what you're writing? Do you think about it and can't wait for a chance to write those ideas down? Do you like reading it? The answer to all of those should be yes. That's not always achievable - I know many authors can't read their own work because they are their own worst critics. But you should at least be a little obsessed with your idea and thinking about it and the process of getting it down onto paper (er, screen). If you are writing something you don't care about but think readers will like, you've already lost. You are going to have 100x more fun writing some bullshit no one but you cares about than a plot you think is more boring than khaki but is all the rage in your fandom right now. Practice thinking about writing as a fun hobby for you rather than content creation for internet validation. If you can't, it might be a good idea to step back and take some space for a bit - it's fine, it will all still be there for you when you're ready to come back. I had to do that a bit ago. There's no shame in it.

Next bit is, if you can, find an enabler. Just one person you can throw snips and stories at and they want to read them and want to talk about your ideas (I hope it doesn't need to be said but you should reciprocate and chat about their ideas, too). If you have this outlet, rejection from the masses is a million times easier. You have someone to share all your thoughts with, someone you can go "look! I made this!" to, you don't have to bottle it up by yourself. I'm lucky, I have a few great enablers. I found them through mutuals and discord servers. Find your little private pocket of support.

Last bit is putting the feedback you do get into perspective. Set your expectations correctly - most people aren't going to be that Big Fic that everyone in the fandom has read and kudo'd and commented on. If you end up there - how lucky! But 99% of us are not that person. Set your expectations to the size of the fandom - is it huge or are there like 8 of you. Remember that every like or kudo or comment you get is a real, live person on the other side of it, who came and read your writing and took the time to signal to you that they liked it.

Picture it like you're in a bookshop, doing a book reading of your fic. Got six likes? Those are six real people who sat through the whole thing and clapped at the end. Got a comment? That's an actual person who came up at the end to tell you, to your face, that they liked it, which is much harder than just clapping (kudo/like). And that's not counting for the other people loitering in the shop, not committing to sitting down to listen but still listening and enjoying your tale while they browse. Can't forget our lurkers even if we wish they'd just take a goddamn seat and clap!

What I'm getting at is that the interactions you do get can't just be numbers, because they're not. The internet right now is so focused on quantifying interactions and follower count and numbers numbers numbers - it's easy to forget that there are real human beings on the other side of those numbers. The value isn't in the quantity, the value is in the individual you touched in that brief moment while they read what you wrote. For me, at least, that makes it easier to appreciate the interactions I do get.

Secret actual last thing I'm going to say on it? Fuck 'em. You wrote some good shit, it's their own problem people are sleeping on it. Fandom is fickle, you're not going to please everyone, might as well please yourself. Keep going out of spite, keep putting your shit out there until it finds the right people who will appreciate it or the others get their heads out of their asses.

TLDR: Write for yourself, enjoy what you're writing, find an enabler, remember every number is a real person, and - at the end of the day - fuck 'em.

long time no squeacher! i gave em a bit of a design update and im way happier with them heheh (pls excuse the background)

Time makes fools of us all and ten years onwards i realize my opinions on awakening have marginally changed. a part of that is legit developing tastes and opinions, i can appreciate what works about it more and all that, even if i'll never quite be in love with it.

i think whats kinda more so shifted for me however is expectations of the series going forward. around when fates was releasing and awakening was still hot, three houses probably would have sound very appealing to me on paper. now and especially with the previous three years of fandom and discourse in mind

i think i just want something thats willing to poke fun at itself more, something that still tells a good story mind but doesnt feel like its so wrapped up in its own self importance like both houses and hopes do. cause houses and hopes i feel pretty clearly illustrate how that lack of self awareness, when your story is being incredibly fucking stupid, can really hurt a narrative.

sighhhhhhhhhhghhhhh :-(((((((((((((((((