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Death At The Hands Of A God
Warnings: general sagau, imposter au, light descriptions of violence/gore, you die/are killed (by Venti), angst
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It seemed as if the rain was particularly heavy, almost unusually so as it fell in sheets, occasionally catching the light of the moon, making it look no different than strands of silver.
That should have been a sign, the rain, the fog, the agitation of the weather. Mondstadt hadn't faced a storm this bad since before their current Archon, even the winds of Dvalin paled in comparison.
Venti was so ignorant not to pick up on the clues laid out before him by his own nation as he trudged through heavy rain, his bow at the ready and a sinking feeling in his chest.
He would never say he disliked the rain, despite what unpleasant memories linger in the back of his mind from those times. But everything carried a harsher weight when was faced with his current task, one assigned to him by no other than his creator.
Venti stopped to rest a moment, leaning against a tree for partial coverage, though it did little to shield his already soaked clothes. He felt something heavy and unpleasant in his chest as he reflected on the situation, an unshakable sense of wrongness, one that clouded his mind and dulled his senses. You were what he was after, you who posed a threat to the divine order simply because of your face.
He thought back on his creators’ honeyed words, a sickeningly sweet tone that he had never heard them use before, not that they very commonly addressed him at all, which made this particular summons out of place, a mixture of excitement and worry bubbling in his chest as he walked through their temple. To kill someone impersonating them, that is what they ordered him, hinting at the possible consequences his nation may face if he didn't comply with the utmost enthusiasm, the threat of which rang particularly loud when faced with what they had done to other nations in fits of anger.
He knew deep within him that this wasn't remotely justified, that he might as well be punished alongside you if the crime was simply stealing a face. If only you chose to look like another human, or even an Archon, he would have taken your mimicry of him as a complementary. But alas. Those feelings were pushed down and covered by the vow he made to his nation, one born of nothing but love and a promise for a brighter future.
Venti had considered alternatives, confronting you with your motive, begging you to make yourself scarce, making his own judgement on your reasons and framing his response accordingly, but those were all fleeting thoughts, quickly pushed away as soon as they arose. He couldn't get attached, he couldn't afford to think of you as human, and he certainly couldn't afford it getting back to his creator that he failed them.
He had heard about your existence from other sources, apparently being so bold as to walk directly into Mondstadt. You weren't met with pitchforks and torches, his people were more civilized than that, but the hostility was as sharp as a knife. You had left of your own accord after having no luck obtaining food or a place to stay, he had only heard after the fact from gossipers drinking late into the night, the faces of which were forced into his mind as he once again thought of his creators’ threat.
Venti was pulled from his thoughts due to a subtle noise, one almost unnoticeable through the heavy onset of rain, but it was there. A branch and a pile of leaves, something big enough to break them, and no one in their right mind would be out in this weather, except...
He swallowed what little apprehension he’d not already buried, reverting his mindset to something it had been five hundred years ago with the quick draw of his bow. The Archon saw you in the distance, just as soaked as he was, clothes tattered and foreign, scared. A quick death was the least you deserved, one free from suffering, and maybe your next life would be more forgiving.
He aimed for your head, a clear shot even now, but it seemed the moonlight that glinting off his bow caught your attention as you quickly turned your body to face him in a defensive stance, eyes wide, fearful, as if you could see what was about to come to fruition.
Your mouth moved, only fragments of the noise it produced were carried to him, broken syllables and muffled notes the very wind urged him to listen to.
You had said his name.
Venti faltered before the arrow released, for the first time in centuries, its' path no longer as steady or sure as it had been.
It hit your throat.
Venti's legs were moving before he consciously realized, forcing his body to where you fell, as if collapsing in on yourself, until he could finally see you clearly, drenched in rain and golden liquid, mixing together indiscriminately as they soak into the ground below.
There was a feeling of shock, which developed in his throat first, spreading evenly throughout the rest of his body, as if it were in his bloodstream. He looked at your terrified expression, a pained and now lifeless one, holding only fragments of the fear you felt.
What had he done.
Venti felt himself fall to his knees, hands immediately going to where his arrow lay firmly lodged, feeling for a pulse in an act he knew to be worthless.
"No. No, n-no— no. Please!" His voice cracked as his mind caught up with what his eyes were forcing him to behold.
You were the divine creator, Teyvat's one true God, and he had—
No. He couldn't even think it, the word that was on the tip of his mind carried nothing but pain, anguish and insufferable heartache, the likes of which he hadn't felt, well since...
Without thinking, Venti wrapped his arms around you, laid his head on your stomach, forced his eyes closed, and prayed. For your return, for forgiveness, and if not for any of that, then simply for a form of retribution.
He hadn't realized he'd started crying, tears and rain alike falling from his face onto your form, pooling at his eyes until the world around him became harder and harder to see.
The position you both rested in was not unlike that day long ago, forever etched in his memory and resurfaced through reflections.
Was this simple his fate? To find himself holding in his arms the corpse of someone he loved so dearly, over and over again. Was it written in his very being that all good things would be torn violently from him with little care to how it left him shattered, scrambling for the pieces of what little piece of mind he had left.
There was no coming back from this, no form of atonement. He could feel the shackles encasing his wrists, invisibly tying him to this moment, to where you had stood alive moments prior. His days of living freely died with you, forever encased in the space between where your souls had briefly met, and it was no more than he deserved.
It was only a moment later that your body was gone, dissolved into the stardust it was born from, slipping through his arms and carried by the wind that no longer obeyed him. That didn't stop him from reaching desperately, gasping and clawing at the air for what remained, heart in his throat as he begged for mercy, for anything but you depriving him of your vessel even after death.
You couldn't really be gone, not fully, you who so powerfully morphed this world from willpower alone, who disappeared for an infinite stretch of time only to descend again. Even if your vessel may have been no stronger than human, your soul was as old and powerful as existence itself, it would linger on in whatever form it had existed before, watching, waiting.
He would be ready for when you decided to give this world a second chance, he would wait an eternity and more to see your face again and repent a thousand times over, bear any hardships in the time between only to fall to his knees in complete acceptance at whatever you deem an acceptable punishment when faced with your light again.
But first...
It seemed as if there was a loose end to tie up, a deceiver bearing the ultimate sin, one much more deserving of his arrow, and one that would suffer a fate worse than death in your name.
Venti roughly brushed the tears from his face, eyes darkening as he shakily pulled himself from his knees, feeling as if his body couldn't decide between flying or collapsing.
His ‘creator’ would soon face all the fear and pain that was forced upon you, the wrath of a god who had lost everything for the second time, a goal he planned to pursue till his dying breath.
#genshin impact#sagau#genshin venti#sagau impostor au#genshin angst#my attempt at imposter au cause why not#I didn't realize there was like no dialogue until editing whoops#kind of set up so that I can do a part 2 where you come back and we get that fun dynamic#don't know if i will tho#also hi#it's been a minute#how you guys doing#school sucks that's how I'm doing#despite that I'll probably be posting another oneshot tomorrow#not as sad thankfully#anyway yeah this was more just a self challenge to see if i could do imposter au without breaking the characterization I've got going rn#luckily he's just so full of trama that i can make constant references to that to help tie things together#anyway lantern rite how we feeling
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calloway family reunion ✧
#ts4#sims 4#I HAD A BLAST DOING THIS#the amount of lore i have for these guys swimming around in my head#too bad i don't know how to logically get it out of my brain#i'm gone now though bye see you in march#unless i spontaneously drop out of school because i can't take this much longer#will answer asks when i get back sorry to keep u waiting#ily 👋#also#top row cillian and cathal you know them#row 2 felicity daithí's daughter and margot felicity's mother#row 3 the twins aunt róisín and their sister who's name i can't remember i'm so sorry LMAO#and finally their mom muireann i LOVE HER#i would like to do a part 2 with the dad n uncles and the twin's other sisters#but they don't fit the prompts and i don't have time!!!#i also really want to make a family tree but plumtree sucks#gonna have to just make one in photoshop#ts4 cas#goodnight it's almost 1am
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Serious chaos one-shot snippet
“Hey, Dami?”
Boy hadn’t looked up from kittens he was bottle feeding but let out hum indicating he listened.
“I think about trying out more girlish style. Do you think it would suit me?”
Well, Damian had no idea but if Dani wished to give it a chance, then, well, the only appropriate course of action was to offer his aid.
Also features: Dani and Damian working at an animal shelter, Steph being fashionable, and Batman's rouge gallery and no, it's not a spelling mistake :)
#dpxdc#dp x dc#dc x dp#dcxdp#serious chaos#dani/damians#fanfic snippet#batman's rouge gallery#idk i have kinda shitty day and need a validation#i hate timed tests#i know all answers but how the fuck do you expect me to answer all this broad questions in 45 minutes#I would write an an answer for one of them in this time#i would like to infodump about it. give me chance to infodump about it not punish me for knowing too much#really history is only subject i actually still care about#so failing it majorly sucks#and now i have to learn something totally else also for history for tomorrow#i'm not mad about it#i have kinda special treatment because i'll write exam at the end of the high school and I have to study harder than my classmates#still I'm frustrated#sorry for spilling my guts like that#I lowkey want to scream rn#anyway how do you like this snippet?#have a nice day dear stranger who got to this part
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i've been wondering how common hand stretching before drawing is among artists. bonus question: did you go to art school, and if so, were you taught to stretch your hands before drawing there?
#i've noticed i have polls on this acc so i'm going to use it to see how many of you are doing carpal tunnel prevention#no but seriously i have both carpal tunnel (right) and cubital tunnel (left) and doing hand stretches before drawing#not only made it possible for me to do long drawing sessions without my hands going numb#but also made it possible for me to actually jump straight into drawing and be more time efficient#answering my own bonus question if anyone's interested: i'm self taught#i wasn't accepted into an art school because my art sucked LMAO and instead i took the life sciences path#so i started stretching on my own#szad.txt#poll
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[rocking back and forth in a corner] it's alright that your writing isn't structured as well as you would've liked, it's alright that it feels shaky and unnatural, it's okay that there's plot holes, what matters is that you keep going, get that idea down on paper, and you can go back and expand on it later. yes even if it's bad yes even if it's messy. and even then if it doesn't feel quite right it's still worthy of respect and love and appreciation because you wrote that with your own two hands and the words came from your own mind. perfection is nothing, improvement is everything, there is no such thing as a perfect piece of writing.
#in case anyone is wondering how i'm doing with my fic#UGHGH i keep rereading the parts ive written so far and i'm starting to get annoyed with the first chapter especially#like i feel like more experienced writers than me will find my fic and be like. Wow. This sucks!#its Such a ridiculous fear im sure nobody is gonna think that but STILL#especially for this thing which i'm determined to put so much effort into. like what if i do all that#and then it still turns out to be like. unremarkable#god. GOD. it's FINE writing a fic which is slightly messy will NOT be the death of me#dear lord i hope someday my perfectionism is easier to shut up because it Will Not fuck off right now#theres also smth to be said here about how school messed me up but i cant put my finger on it#feel free to reblog btwwww#i know some of my mutuals are fellow writers and tbh itd be comforting to know that im not alone SDJKKJDVS#although if you do relate im also. patting you on the back bc its a terrible feeling#ferret rambles
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having a somewhat shitty evening which means it's time to think about my fave burping for me so I don't lose my gd mind
#only a few more weeks in this godforsaken place and i'll never have to deal with these assholes again 🙏#i'm so tired of this place man#thinking about my fave has gotten me through... maybe a concerning amount of frustrating things this year#my baseline for how often i think of him is already pretty high but he's on my mind almost constantly here#bc i am that desperately in need of something happy to help me take my mind off of stressful shit#if there's any genuine advice for me to give on this blog it's this:#when considering a college do some digging online about the culture#ESPECIALLY if you're a minority#and i mean dig deep too#if a school has money they may try their damndest to hide all the problems they have through whatever means necessary#people told me i'd fit in here which is true academically#but socially and culturally this place is full of the most toxic people and mindsets jfc#i could go on about this place and how much it sucks for hours#but anyway... my l*ndo burping 🤤🤤🤤#thinking about drinking soda with him and him not letting me touch myself or burp 🥴🥴🥴#sighhhhhhhhhhhh#not sfw#londarling
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school kinda sucks, not even gonna lie
#its been one day#how am i gonna do this for 10 more months??#nothing bad even happened! and it still sucked!#and new uniform rules like oohoohoo that'll make the kids happier#no more sweatpants under my skirt?? have they forgotten we like in canada?? where its fucking freezing??#and we got a lecture in each class about “academic integrity”#and also my hair looked like shit even though it looked good when i woke up#and i have 2 classes with my arch nemesis (some kid i hate for literally no reason other than we compete for top student every year)#very frances and daniel of me#UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#and my friend who i have a crush on moved schools without telling me (we're not that close)#and moved to my ex's school (they're friends)#but she's twins with my good friend who didn't switch schools so i'll see her again#but i wish she didn't leave#and she told some of my friends i think but i only found out cuz my ex told me (we're still friends)#and also my parents didn't let me go to a concerty thing tonight that i really wanted to go to because i have dance#but now i'm not even going to dance because i'm so fucking tired (i need my full 9 hours)(i got about 5 hours last night)#sorry about how many tags i put but i'm too worried to make an actual long post
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They say I'm not so good with circles. Or air. Or control. But I can still blast your ass to the end of days if you're not careful, so!
- Derivative High Fantasy Adventuring Duo
#I won't write them they're so clearly cliche and derivative and unoriginal#I just. hmm.#I have an Image.#Anyway Fel's a novice sorcerer who's running away from magic school because of how much it sucks#she meets Kosta (I think I still dk his name) who's a sword for hire/adventurer#but the thing issss that basically no one will hire you for quests without magic because they think you're pointless#so despite him being very competent he's just been. lying.#so he's like girl do you WANT to come and use your half-assed magic and we can be a dynamic duo? and she's like sure absolutely.#she is sixteen and it shows. he's twenty six and it shows. they are Best Friends and if anyone ships them I'll kill them#haha when I said this was derivative you didn't realize the parallels that could be most easily made are with mob psycho if you made it#fantasy DID YOU#also Fel is short for felicity fyi#I say she 'meets' Kosta more like Kosta finds her crying on the side of a mountain and is like what's wrong with you#and she's like dude I'm lost and sad and hate my school#and he's like ok want a job?
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why does everything have to be a hecking issue with my sister
#she keeps getting on my case about the Theatre Boy thing which I would just like to hecking leave in the past#she keeps getting on my case bc I wear short shorts and spaghetti strap tank tops AROUND THE HOUSE AS LOUNGE CLOTHES#she's like DO YOU EVEN CARE ABOUT MODESTY and I'm like YOU WALK AROUND IN SHORTS AND A SPORTS BRA ALL THE TIME#(possibly bc I thought I could get away with wearing lounge clothes with a long shawl thing overtop the other day to worship practice#but I did in fact change my trousers after my mama pointed out that it wasn't super modest)#she keeps making comments about how I do inappropriate stuff on my phone bc I... watch one(1) sitcom?????#shows like that are IRREVERENT AS HECK like come on of course I'm not going to be totally open with my kid sister about them#I am an ADULT I can make my own choices about what content I will put up with in media#I can make my own choices about clothing if I think my mom's idea of ''anything more than an inch above the knee#is immodest'' is silly and restrictive for my body shape and comfort level personally#like... why does she have to act so high and mighty around me? she's in MIDDLE SCHOOL and I know I haven't always been the nicest to her#but I'm making the effort. I'm trying to get along with her and what I get is disdain on the daily in return :/#our mom said it's probably bc she was hoping I wouldn't move back in so she'd have our room to herself and now she's mad#that I'm back bc she has to share a space again and like I KNOW middle school ages SUCK I've BEEN THERE#but still I just. want to get along. but she picks on me and then I get frustrated and then I snap at her and it just doesn't end well#it's a nasty cycle tbh. I'm praying about it.#Lu rambles#personal#delete later
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god i can't fucking stand people who come into a community having an issue with someone and decide to make it everyone else's problem. as someone who's been both the victim and the server owner forced to sort through their dirty laundry - quit trying to guilt mods into banning people you don't like. quit asking them to be the judge and jury of your interpersonal issues. you are on the internet. you have a block button. use it. the world doesn't fucking revolve around you.
#prattledisaster#once a-fucking-gain. a mod's responsibility is to keep the general peace and deal with misconduct within whatever community they're modding#not to get sucked into playing justice because someone never learnt how to set their own boundaries and avoid people who make them upset#for the third fucking time - i'm not your goddamn mother#this isn't a playground#this isn't school#no one's gonna hold your hand and call the parents of the kids who upset you#because we all know that the real problem isn't the existence of that person on the outskirts of your life#the real problem is that you want everyone to hate them as much as you do#it's social power and ostracization and the game of who's more well-liked all over again#so shut the fuck up and keep your shit to yourself#for god's sake
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Guys (gn), how do I get my life under control again?
#look#i'm done with school now#and i don't really have anything to do right now#and my parents are like#why don't you get a job?#like a small job not a full time one#because i am going to uni next month#amd i'd love to get a small job#because then i'd have a bit more money and i think working can also be fun#but#it's just hard#like it feels like So Much#just to apply to stores#and nobody really taught me how to do that#cause school actually kinda sucks at prepating you for real life#and it just sounds really difficult#even though it probably isn't#and idk#i just don't know what to do about that#and now my mom had a Talk with me about that and that i should do more#like i don't even have any hobby where i move a little bit#but i'm procrastinating finding one#it all just feels like a lot#why can't stuff like that just be easy??#lea's random thoughts
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hello... (and bye ig 👋)
#👋😭 hi...#i haven't come on in about a month and i didn't realize a month passed by like that... i've kinda stopped using any apps on my phone#i barely even talk to my friends anymore lol 😭#i just saw my follower count this morning and realized i hit 13k and i was like 🥸 huh...#uhhhhhhh 😭 idk i wanted to say thank you i guess 🫂#i'm done with stayblr and tumblr in general 😭 this much has been obvious for a while now... i tried to fit myself back in during 5star but#i think i realized i've outgrown the vibes here and in online spaces in general... i don't really enjoy it anymore 😭 which is weird cause#i've used tumblr since i was in middle school so 🫡 end of an era some would say...#i think it sucks because i don't have the same feelings about this place or skz or anything in my life right now... i tried to ignore it bu#it's so obvious now that the entirety of december passed without me really talking to a single person / without me using social media /#without me really doing much except for like homework and assignments lmao#i think genuinely i've stopped enjoying everything i used to like and i don't know why 😭 it hit me the other day bc i don't even enjoy#pc collecting anymore which is CRAZY considering how much time and money i've put into that hobby so 👋🥸 who knows what goes on#i haven't consumed any skz content since rockstar dropped 😭 and that also feels weird to me... idk... i would say maybe i'm going through a#depressive episode but i don't really feel how i do then... i think i'm just tired like i always am and that's just how i am now .. i think#i'm just not really interested in things anymore? weird but .. yeah idk😭 if i knew what was wrong i would Fix It sndjdndkd mostly i'm just#sad because i haven't been talking to friends... i keep ignoring everyone and not replying to any texts from anyone because ????#i tell myself i will do it later but i know i won't ... idk i genuinely don't know why i'm struggling to talk to ppl anymore 😭 i've become#even more of a reclusive hermit than i already was 💀 and the worst part is i feel normal abt it#i don't feel /bad/ i just feel guilty that i'm not replying to ppl bc i don't want to hurt ppls feelings... on my end i feel Normal abt it#like i ??? is it weird that i'm so detached from everything that not even a month ago made me so happy..? that's weird right 😭 like idgi#i don't feel (as) depressed (as i usually do) but clearly ?? smth is wrong ?? like ik i'm not a clingy sentimental person but ? it kinda#makes me sad wondering if i really don't care abt ppl anymore ... but i think 😭 it's also the object permanence issues that come with adhd#not seeing or talking to the ppl i love . not doing my hobbies or seeing the groups i care abt . makes it easy to not care or forget what#they make me feel etc etc ... i get it... but idk 😭 if that's what this is . well wow it sucks ASS.. cause i feel guilty for not feeling#anything at all ... 😭 idk how to explain that HENSKDNISJS anywayyyy 💀#i came on cause i wanted to say thank you for 13k followers 😭‼️ and that i probably will not be online anymore unless i really want to say#this was a really long winded way to say i feel bad but i'm done with stayblr fr 👋🥸 i tried so hard for the last 2 years to make it feel#like home again but it stopped ages ago so 🥹 that's ok.. i still cherish my memories here 🫂 anyway thanku and sjsjsksksks bye i guess 😭#who knows maybe i'll enjoy it one day again and come back :') never know what the future holds 🫡
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there is no fucking way that tom king's shitty oneshot, featuring the most out-of-character riddler known to man and a batman who breaks his no kill rule and waterboards people, got nominated for an eisner award...
#i hate the riddler issue of one bad day so much it's unreal#1. why write a riddler comic if you're gonna be like 'actually he HATES riddles and puzzles and won't be using them anymore'#now he's just some guy who kills people#2. i don't think i need to explain why i hate the concept of batman breaking the no kill rule or waterboarding people#3. trying to make the killing joke relevant again after 30 years? to say that ed was the mastermind behind it?#4. the plot is just. incredibly silly and not in a good way like you're telling me once the riddler stops using riddles he#becomes powerful enough to take over the entire city and batman can't do anything about it except kill him?#and i'm not talking taking over the city like in zero year where there was an actual plan#in one bad day everyone just gets sooo scared of him and his massive brain that they fall in line#5. that is not his fucking backstory#that's like. the complete opposite of it. keeping only the part about him having a shitty dad#he was never a prestigious prep school kid under immense pressure to be the smartest#he was just some kid who went unnoticed by everyone and that's why winning that puzzle contest was so important to him#and then his dad refused to believe he was smart enough to win the contest without cheating and you know the rest#he has a very ordinary backstory that explains a lot about him#meanwhile i feel like tom king was like 'oh shit this series is called one bad day'#'i need to give ed a pivotal moment in his life that made him fucked up and evil'#'how bout i write all this stuff leading up to him brutally killing his teacher at the age of like 15'#and it just sucked ass#i feel like there was more stuff i hated that i'm forgetting but i am not gonna re-read this comic to remember! at least the art was good#oopsie daisy these tags turned out to be much longer than i was expecting - i don't even care about the eisner awards i just saw the#category pop up on the library app that i use and i was like Why is This in here#ransom.txt
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i gotta be honest i am stoked to be a janitor. i see mops and i get excited
#guys i have opinions on mops now#why does anyone use string mops. for instance.#they suck. they're heavy. use a flat mop for heaven's sake they're so much better and you can actually launder them???#i think janitor is the perfect job for me i fucking hate being looked at when i'm doing things#i loved working at the greenhouse where i could just do repetitive tasks all day and then go home and#shake the cuttings out of my boots & pockets and then go and immmmmmmmediatelly buy candy#it got mind numbing but it was NOT that bad. and with janitorial work the tasks are always getting switched up#you're mopping or you're vacuuming or you're wiping something up and there's always a different tool to learn how to use#i am NOT excited about the swing machine but apparently people don't use it much anymore anyways? so. yeah :3#gonna work for the school district. gonna make friends with all the teachers who stay late after school. fuck yeahhhhh#maybe they'll tell me about school drama shit and i'll be like *leans on mop* oh yeah? :3c tell me more#i'm a simple animal with simple animal dreams#i DO dream of labour actually i love doing things#and actually since this is being treated like an actual profession these days you get treated way better#there's workplace safety and focus on ergonomics and proper training#i'm just really excited to get out there and do stuff
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tomorrow-me's gonna hate tonight-me, part 3522
(an incoherent work-related rant in the tags, read if you will but it's boring lol)
#due to bus schedules i go to work every morning almost two hours before my actual work starts#and i always use this time to plan the day's lessons etc.#(in case someone's somehow missed this i'm a language teacher 👩🏫)#which is convenient but often i underestimate how much time i'm gonna need#and so i end up in a race against time to finish everything before i actually need to be ready (=my classes start)#so far i am yet to go to class without having prepared all the stuff. more or less at least lol#but it really sucks to have this rushed feeling to everything 😩#and so every single fucking day i'm like ''when i get home i'll do this and this so that i can for once be ahead of myself''#but the second i actually get home i'm like ''...nah 🙂''#because goddammit i'm HOME pls don't make me work there 😭#but some stuff i just don't have the time to do at work. such as marking student essays 😟#at least that i COULD do at home if i wasn't so protective of my free time 🤧#but lesson planning? lots of the materials are at the school anyway#so that's sort of my excuse to NOT do any of that at home but. sometimes i know i should 🤡#because tomorrow-me would appreciate it#however tonight-me tends to be a lazy fucker who wants to just imagine blorbo nonsense or stare at a wall doing nothing 😭#i have regrets about this career choice lol don't become a teacher kids istg
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crazy how 8am classes have such a clear, immediate negative effect on my mental health
#i am not making it up but i don't think anyone i've ever said this to took me seriously????#but legit like 85% of the time if i'm like “wouagh why do i want to kill myself because everything sucks suddenly and i'm gonna cry”#the answer “idiot you had to get up for an 8am class today”#how the fuck did i survive high school
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