I love you fat people. I love you fat people who are struggling with keeping a stable weight and I love you fat people who don't diet or exercise and I love you fat people who have health issues because they're fat and i love you fat people who are fat because of health issues and I love you fat people who are fit and I love you fat people who eat junk food and I love you fat people who eat sweets and I love you fat sex workers and I love you fat people who wear hoodies and baggy clothes and I love you fat people who struggle with hygiene and I love you fat people of color and I love you fat people with eating disorders and fat people with disabilities and trans fat people pre or post op, trans fat people who have been refused gender affirming care, or sick fat people who have been refused medical care. I love you. I love you. I love you. You're beautiful but even if you weren't you still have worth. It is worth it for you to live. You have value alive in all your fatness. I love you. No matter what anyone else says. I love you. I love you because you're you and I love you fat.

DDVAU! Joel design update!! Silly human that works in the shadowbeans cafe with his wife

daily joel #117 - small one today because i am sick and suffering

so. didn't take a pill for my headache when it first began like 3 hours ago. may have made mistakes

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I think the saddest part about secret life Joel is just how futile all of his actions are in that season. On a surface level i mean stuff like all of his more careful gameplay being cancelled out by a singular failed tnt trap but on a deeper level i specifically mean how that character contrasts with last life Joel. Joel is undoubtedly at his lowest point in the life series in Last Life. He goes down to red in session 2 and spends the majority of the rest of the season alone (and when he does have allies it’s only bc of a shared bloodlust). The red bloodlust completely takes over and this festers for nearly *8 sessions*. Not only that but the one time he is given a chance to restart and go back to yellow his old alliance member goes to red, leaving him alone again, and he is made boogeyman the next session. This, overall, has lasting consequences (he actually wanted to be fairly friendly at the beginning of LL, a stark contrast to how bloodthirsty he was at the beginning of DL or Lim L), and gained him a reputation that has never fully gone away. This is especially bad bc most people agree that LL was the most violent season (despite the lower kill counts in comparison to LimL) and was generally the worst and most traumatizing experience in the games for most people involved. Compare this to secret life, which everyone agrees was definitely the happiest season for Joel (or at least the most normal. His life is a tragedy no matter the season.) he has allies that (for the most part rip mumbo) stick with him until the end, he is friendlier with a larger group of people, and when he initially has to deal with the loss of some of them he has people who can ground him (bc as much as I adore the bad boys, grian was not qualified to do that). He was so hopeful that season, and was generally in a much healthier place mentally. And yet, despite how much he seemed to have grown, those 2 seasons ended so similarly for him it was almost comical. Joel engaged in a fight at the end, watched his ally get killed by scott, and is then forced into a 2v1 against Scott and another player that results in Scott taking his final life and him finishing 5th overall. I was describing both of those seasons here. After everything he did to grow, after all the improvements he had made, everything ended *exactly the same*

Making this about the bad boys for a second (because I’m me) they kinda suffer similar fates. Grian learned in the most tragic way possible that his allies were doomed to fail as long as he was with them no matter what, that this was not something that he could control by simply avoiding killing them himself. Even when he actively tries to save them (“let Tim do it he needs the time” “Joel you can kill me!”) he’ll still lose them in the end. I think this realization is also what made him stop trying to fight it, which resulted in him killing or almost killing his allies from previous seasons immediately afterwards (stabbing scar in the back and that one scene where grian kinda ominously jumps with a sword like he was about to crit and kill bigb after finding out he had 50 seconds left on his timer). It’s sorta like a way of telling the universe “fine. You win”

Similarly Jimmy. Well. I don’t think I need to explain that one. Even when he was given hope that things could be different, that he could break the curse, he died only a few minutes later. I still hold on to the narrative that the watchers only allowed that to happen to give Jimmy false hope that things can be different only to rip the rug out from under him and drive home the point that he is in a losing battle because by the time of secret life Jimmy was one of the only few people who genuinely still believed he had a chance. Obviously this is not something that can fully be a reality until he goes out first next season so if he doesn’t that’s a little awkward but just work with me here

TLDR; here is reason number 672 on why I believe the bad boys are the most doomed motherfuckers on this server and their alliance is a modern tragedy

missing somebody you never knew

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128- kira kira~

a fancier outfit (with inspo from mellozheist)

i miss them

@treebarkweek Day 2 : Sweet / Salty

Ren won't be home for a whole day but that won't stop him from celebrating his Hand's birthday! So he decides to leave a little something for him :]

as it turns out, working on an au has the unintended side-effect that my mind immediately starts coming up with words. making me want to write. which i'm deliberately trying to Not Do

guys i'm experiencing fic withdrawal. i want to write but i know i should take a break while i can. help

daily joel #116 - he was originally going to look confident but then something made me give him a blush

day 45, late bloomer (flower/frost)

Apocalypse buddies

happy late third life anniversary :-)