¡Rise Raph headcannon time!

Raph often gets hit with intense body dysphoria because of his size.

I have this Headcannon for a few reasons.

1, It’s angsty.

2, Most of the time people just refer to him as “big” or “heavy” or something along those line’s, and after a few years it starts to take its toll on him.

3, It’s not just about his weight here. It is also about his spike’s. Both on his shell and all around his body. (If you’ve seen my design for Raph you know what I mean).

I’d assume this reason would arise from when he was little and maybe he accidentally poked one of his little brothers with his many, many spikes. So in the mind of a child, you’d want to get rid of the thing hurting your family, so he’d find like a nail file in the bathroom and started filing them down. It hurt like hell but it’s not like he could stop, he couldn’t let himself hurt his family again, no, he wouldn’t! Thankfully one of his brother’s, let’s say Leo, got concerned on why he was in there for so long, saw what he was doing and ran to go get Splinter. When Splinter does show up, it’s not like Raph would just stop filing them down, no way! He needs to protect his family, not hurt them! He is the big brother, the one that is the biggest, he wouldn’t ever hurt them again! Splinter has to literally pry the file out of his hands in order for him to stop. His shoulder’s, elbow’s, knee’s, and a bit of his thighs are bleeding from the damage, many spike’s are now a lot smaller and dulled than they’re meant to be, and the spike’s on his shell have a few chips and scratches on them. Splinter doesn’t bother to ask why right now since Raphael is crying to much to answer, all he can do right now as his father is comfort him and wrap his injuries before they get infected.

Later when he asked Raph why he would ever do something like that, he answer’s with a hiccup, tears returning to his eyes, and a sorrowful smile and say’s;

“I-I don’t want to hurt you guys anymore. My spikes hurt you guy’s, I don’t wanna anymore! Don’t want them anymore! I keep doin this an-and I don’t want to!” Splinter felt horrible, down right horrified at the thought that he hadn’t even noticed his eldest son’s— Who is only seven mind you!— greatest fears and insecurities get even worse to the point that it would get this bad, in fact, he’d been neglecting them for so long that- Wait, did he even know what his biggest fear is? What’s his favourite food? Colour? He’d just gotten so used to red looking out for his brothers when he was out looking for food that he’d begun to neglecting them completely. Oh god, he didn’t even name them, they named themselves. How horrible of a father was he? As these thoughts began to plague and infect his mind like a virus, he could do nothing but helplessly cling his bandage covered child in a fit of sorrow before another depression episode kicked in, and the cycle would just repeat.

HAHA! Surprise Splinter angst at the end there! Anyways, if you guys like it, you can adopt it, but please credit me.

Now, have a lovely day/night/whatever your time zone is, g’bye my bakery subject’s!

Here's some funky MS Paint art for my Teratism AU!

Donnie is terrorizing New York, one gas station at a time.

Home

Synopsis: Everyone comes home.

Raph didn't know where he was at first. It looked like the lair but it was so quiet. He hated being alone. He was scared to be alone. But at this moment he was happy to be alone. He hoped that he would be alone for a long time. As long as possible.

Splinter came home first. They hugged, both of them crying. They kept apologizing and saying how much they missed each other. Raph felt bad that he came home before his dad did, but he didn't exactly have a choice in the matter.

Draxum and Donnie came back at the same time. They were both so confused it was almost hilarious. They tried to come up with some science reason for how they got back but Raph shut them up pretty quickly. He told them how happy he was to see them again and how he wished they had taken longer to come back.

It was only a year later that Cassandra came next. She looked delighted to be there. She told them her valiant stories of protecting everyone and how big her son was getting. How she had protected him until the end.

After her it had been many more years. They all stayed happy in the home as they told stories of their lives and created new ones to tell the others when they came home. They only wished that when the next one came it was a happy moment.

The next one to come back was April. She was terrified and told them what happened. The rebellion. The war. The ambush. It took so long to get her to calm down. A group hug was the best method of course. Raph would make sure that his sister was protected for the rest of their time together.

Mikey came right after. Immediately after. He was bawling when he saw his family. After twenty years they were back. Oh so many apologies sang through the air as he broke down.

Right after him, Leo walked through the door. He stared at his family almost as if he didn't believe what he was seeing. "You're... here. You're all here." His voice was hoarse.

"Leo." Mikey called out to him first. Leo looked at Mikey. A flash of him smiling before he disintegrated in front of him appeared in his mind. "Did it work?" Leo felt tears brimming his eyes as he smiled.

"It worked... You did amazing little brother." Mikey laughed weakly as more tears fell.

"Did what work?" April asked, looking between the two. Leo felt his throat begin to close up as he imagined her corpse. There was phantom pain in his side from where he was stabbed when he tried to protect her from the krang. He was ashamed that Casey had to pull him away from her body.

"Casey went back in time. Mikey opened a portal."

"Casey... he's doing good?" Cassandra took Leo's attention. Her standing in front of him, standing against the krang that invaded their base. Yelling at him to take Casey and go. Leo blinked away a few tears.

"Yeah... he's saved me on more than a few occasions. You should see him in a fight." Cassandra smirked and elbowed Donnie next to her.

"He better not have broken any of the tech I made for him," Donnie stated as he crossed his arms. The memory of holding Donnie in his arms came rushing back and caused the tears to falls from his eyes.

"He would never. That boy is almost as smart as us," Draxum spoke up. Draxum using his vines to hold up debris of the Hidden City. The city was finally collapsing in on itself. He demanded everyone out of the area as his vines finally gave out, crushing him beneath it.

"My son, are you alright?" Leo looked down at Splinter as he walked up. Leo felt his knees give out as he finally broke. Splinter smiling at his boys before he turned back to the krand that infiltrated their lair. The last smile Leo saw of his father.

Leo weakly smiled as he hugged his dad tightly. "Yeah I'm good, Pops." His voice trembled as he spoke. A hand on his shoulder caused him to look up. A smile from Raph was all that was needed to cause him to sob.

"RAPH-!" Leo called out. Raph grunted as he tried to hold back the Krang. Leo gasped for breath as he held his arm- or where his arm was cut off.

"Guys, get him out of here!" Raph ordered. Donnie and Mikey held Leo and stared at their oldest brother in worry.

"But-"

"Go!" Raph cut Mikey off as he glanced over his shoulder. He looked at his brothers and smiled softly. "As long as there is Hamato, there's hope."

"Raph, don't," Donnie pleaded. Raph turned back to the Krang, sais shaking with how tightly he clutched them.

"Anata wa hitori janai."

"You did good, Leo." Just like that, Leo was a sixteen year old again. He was bawling like a child and all the responsibility of leadership and people's lives were lifted off his shoulders. He was home.

Warning: Angst and MAJOR spoilers for the ROTTMNT movie!!

"Restless"

The room was pitch black. Nothing could be heard other than heavy breathing. Another nightmare. Leo often struggled with not being able to rest, but his sleep related problems only got worse ever since the Kraang came to earth several months ago. It still felt like yesterday. How could he not think about it? It was his fault the Foot Clan got that key. It was his arrogance that almost cost everyone their lives. Cold sweat ran down his forehead and hot tears streamed down his cheeks. Leo would do anything for his family and wouldn't hesitate to sacrifice himself again if he had to, but wow, was he thankful to not be trapped in that prison dimension. A part of him still felt it's almost what he deserved. After all, it was his fault the Kraang came to New York. It was his fault Raph was taken by the Kraang. His fault Raph has a hole in his shell and could've lost an eye. His fault Mikey has those burns on his arms from opening that portal to save his sorry ass. His fault everyone could've- A hushed sob escaped from his lips and his hands darted up to cover his face. Leo knew everyone was okay. That, against all odds, he was okay. Yet he also knew that he'd been a burden to his family. Even after they all saved the world, he was still nothing but a problem to everyone. Even after giving himself up to save everyone else from the Kraang, he still ended up being an issue when his brothers saved him from the prison dimension. Leo would be dead if it wasn't for his brothers, but being stuck in bed for so long due to his injuries wasn't exactly helping anyone. Hell, it was still a struggle to even walk on his own, but he wasn't going to bother any of his brothers this time. He needed to try to get out of his head. Grabbing onto the nightstand, Leo slowly got out of his bed and propped his body up before taking slow steps out of his room. Pushing the curtain aside, he wobbled into the kitchen, grabbing onto the counter to keep himself steady. He hated feeling so helpless and not being able to do simple things without struggling. Leaning over the counter, Leo's hands we're pressed firmly against his forehead. His body trembled a bit as more tears streamed down his face. Why did he have to be such a burden? Why did he have to be so arrogant? How did anyone put up with him? Why was he- Soft footsteps brought Leo out of his thoughts and his head darted towards the direction of the noises, revealing Raph standing in the kitchen doorway. His head turned down towards the counter. Leo could barely even look at Raph anymore without thinking about what his big brother went through because of his mistakes. He really wasn't in the mood to hear another lecture from one of his brothers, yet what happened shortly after the thought popped into his head caught him off guard. Instead of telling him some bullshit about how he needed to stay in his room, Raph had moved closer to Leo and placed a hand on his shoulder before speaking up in a soft tone of voice. "We're all proud of you, little brother, and we're all glad that you're still here. Hope ya know that." Leo couldn't even look up at his older brother because he knew he would've broken down entirely if he did, yet he didn't need to look at Raph to start sobbing. Not out of sadness or fear, but out of shock and pure joy. Being gently pulled into a soft embrace by his older brother, Leo knew this wasn't some sick figment of imagination. Everyone was okay. Raph was okay. He was okay. Leo was beyond lucky that everyone was still alive. He was beyond lucky that he was alive. Maybe he felt like a burden deep down sometimes, what mattered most was that his family was okay. And as long as his family was here, Leo knew he would be too, even if it took a while to truly be okay.

This was originally just written for a character rp audition, but I didn't get accepted lmao

I don't want this writing to just go to waste, so I decided to upload it :]

ROTTMNT Theory

So I was doing some research on turtles (I'm big into herps), and the video I was watching threw out a random comment about Alligator Snapper's lifespans. This piqued my curiosity, so I did a quick search of how long the other three Rise turtle species live.

The shortest lifespan goes to the Spiny Softshell (Donnie). They only live about 20 years.

Next was the Red-Eared Slider (Leo) at 30 years.

Following that is the Oriental Box Turtle (Mikey), which doesn't have a confirmed maximum lifespan, but typically lives between 40-50 years in captivity.

Finally, the Alligator Snapping Turtle (Raph), lives between 150 and 200 years.

Even if their original species' lifespans aren't observed perfectly in-universe, because they do have human DNA which would probably serve to extend the shorter-lived one's lifespan, that's still a massive difference.

Raph is going to outlive his brothers. Most likely by a huge margin.

Even if their lives are extended to a normal human lifespan of about 80 years, they won't be around for even half as long as he will.

I just think it's so sad that the guy who lives for his family, who would die for them, will have to watch them grow old and leave him. He's going to end up alone.

Reposting bc the first one got maturity rated when I’ve gotten away w worse

My brothers got me a tmnt keychain and a last ronin figurine which feels humorously on point

Survivor’s Guilt

A sketch of Replica Leo immediately after his EPF Interview in this scene, but before being reunited with his brothers here. I hope to dive more into the fallout of such a defining moment in Leo's young life and how it would go on to affect him once I get my Patreon up. In the meantime. Enjoy the little angsty sneak peek.

pt. 11 | pt. 13

Father and Son.

Happy ending

I was sad so I decided everyone else has to be too.

Okay so this is rushed.. but this series has inspired me so much i have another animatic that I’ve been working on for 3 weeks on its way. Just had to poop something out quickly to post because I felt like it. Go read @somerandomdudelmao comic!

TW: character death, sibling death

Turtle fanfiction strikes again!

The spirit of chat fics possessed me and made me write this chapter.

Phantom pain

A lil art request by @/intotheelliwoods hehe~

shh they are sleeping

more context,, raph declares its TURTLE PILE TIMEE so here are the mimirs!! they havent done this for awhile ever since they were tots but i think they deserve it after all the fighting

Finally finished this bad future angst comic my lord. Had a dream about it like two months ago. its nothing special, bad future interpretations are a dime a dozen, but the bad future fascinates me! thinking bout how things could just go SO WRONG etc etc  anyways enjoy!!