i need them to explode

Reki and Kyoko for the character bingo asks!!

Ok, I'm not sure if I'll be able to say as much on these two as Viri would, but I'll try my best!

Reki is interesting in that she has this level of emotional distance from others but is still really caring, definitely more caring that she believes herself to be. I really like her dynamic with Rakka especially. I feel like both characters explore a lot the concept of guilt, self-loathing, and fear being inherently "bad", in both similar and different ways. I think I more closely related to Rakka's take on it, but I think really like the sort... What's the word? The closeness they could share in both struggling with similar self-worth issues and the shared secret between the two of them. And I did find it interesting how as Rakka started to work through her issues and get better, Reki was conflicted because she was happy for her, but worried about not being needed by her anymore, but didn't feel like she could voice it. I also feel like something that heavily impacts Reki is her having grown up longer in the community and under the struggles of being "sinbound" and how that's isolated her, so she feels lonely but doesn't feel like she can ask for help without being selfish. It made me feel frustrated sometimes honestly, because I know that Rakka worried about her and would help her as soon as she let herself be helped, but I also understand why, with her upbringing in that town, that she thought that way. I suppose if there's one part more unique to her that I can relate to, it's her fear of whether or not her kindness towards others is genuine or selfishly motivated, since I struggled with similar things growing up being raised Christian and thus having "good" linked with "worthy of being loved". Also, the way she started to give up on herself and decline heavily at the end of the series really terrified me, but I'm glad she was finally able to accept help and that Rakka was able to help her pull herself out of it.

For Kyoko, I don't think I have as much to say about her, but I liked her dynamic with Sayaka, how they balance off each other, and thought it was interesting that even though she initially appeared selfish and scary, that she used to be very hopeful and selfless, and was coping with a tragedy that made her feel like looking out for others too much would ultimately do more harm than good. And she does make some really good points, even if not always in the best way, about the dangers of Sayaka martyring herself out for others and not allowing herself to acknowledge what she wants for herself.

literally just stop watching shounen and this shit goes away.

haibane renmai

Rakka & Reki

anyways, animes i watched for niche hipster points:

mushishi (this one was good, but at age 14 i just wanted to look deep)

subete ga f ni naru (HORRIBLE SHOW. AZING OPENING)

saraiya goyou (lol)

rainbow nisha rokubou no shichinin (this was my fav anime for a few years. i barely remember anything abt it. it takes place in prison tho)

evangelion (i dont remember shit abt it. esp the rebuilds)

flcl (amazing ost)

haibane renmai (that put me to sleep at age 14. i don't remember shit except the wall and the wings sprouting that was horiffying)

every yoshitobe abe show (lain, texchnolyze. i legit dint remember them. i was 12 and thought cyberpunk was cool)

ping pong (i remember liking it. and its critically acclaimed but lol)

azumanga daioh (i didnt actually find it funny in middle school. ik ik)

paranoia agent

a lot more but point is. i was a strange child and i shouldve spent more time really thinking about what it means to enjoy stuff but i do now and thats all that matters

I finished watching NieA_7 last night and... I can't tell if I liked it or not? I know Yoshitoshi Abe's whole bit is doing series full of mysteries and never answering them but...

It feels like NieA_7 had no point. There is barely any character or story development throughout it's 13 episode run. I liked the second half better because there was a shift tone change that was more reminiscent of Haibane Renmai but then it quickly reverts back to its original goofy self.

haibane renmai dvd’s

AND ON THAT WE FINALLY FINISH THE EPISODE. If you enjoyed please thank @rhiorhino​ for picking this as her liveblog win! 

On Patreon not only do you get extra liveblogs and stuff, but at the liveblog level you have the chance at an extra entry for this draw! 

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Tomorrow is going to be very busy and weird, but sometime that day, we will do HAIBANE RENMAI. What the fuck is going to go on with the angel humans? I DON’T EVEN FUCKING KNOW WHAT I WANT NOW. 

Schedule this week!

Ongoing: I desperately try to get back my blog! 

Tuesday: THE FINALE OF HAIBANE RENMAI HOLY SHIT ARE WE READY NO WE ARE NOT I CAN ALREADY FEEL THE HATE PULSE THROUGH ME

Wednesday: Flowers: Lesbians are idiots! Continues. I feel like we’re getting close to the end but also perhaps we are not? Erika continues to be the most valid person alive. 

Thursday: Writing writing writing! Also the draw for the liveblog comment thing. 

Friday: @incorrecttact won the birthday contest and selected Twin Peaks to continue! 

Saturday: I have a private stream! 

Sunday: Shanghai Noon livestream for patrons! I know it seems an odd inclusion, but I think it’ll be fun! 

haibane renmai au because I will be self indulgent you can't stop me

also this lol

IS THE ANIME WEIRD: Haibane Renmai (2002)

Haibane Renmai

Born from a cocoon in the village of Old Home, a young Haibane—a being with a halo and small gray wings—awakens to a world she does not understand without memories of her past. Named Rakka for the dream of falling she had while inside the cocoon, she soon becomes accustomed to life in the strange town.

Rating: 1 (Normal) 

Personal Feelings:  A fun anime if you like a more obscure plot. Haibane Renmai is almost entirely focused on the relationships of a small group of female characters, and the mysterious workings of its world.  An interesting mood piece thats halfway between horror and slice of life.  No sexualization, and some gay undertones between the two main female characters. 

Great soundtrack and 2000′s era animation, especially in its backgrounds. 

🕹 Video game you are currently playing 📺 Fave anime🎥 Fave film 🎒 Are you in college, major area of study

🕹 Video game you are currently playing Hades! Really enjoying it.  📺 Fave anime Shin Sekai Yori and PMMM have been consistent faves. However recently I watched both Lain, Haibaine Renmai, and the Children of the Sea movie, which were all super good! 🎥 Fave film In terms of films I enjoy, Jane Austen movies and period war pieces like 1917 and Dunkirk are usually favs. However there was a Japanese movie called Departures about ritual memorial services I thought was very good.  🎒 Are you in college, major area of study Finishing my senior year in Biochemistry...............im literally dying. (._.) 

this is going to be pretty short, but basically, this is a ride or die type of friend groups made from mid 20s idiots, the majority native to the small town of port southerby. while some of them would have moved to seattle and others stayed in town, they always make sure to stay in touch, meet up and just be there for each other in their own unique way. they’ve been friends forever, or even if there are more recent additions they feel as if they’ve known each other forever. 

there theme for this group is the aligments, so if you’re interested all you need to do is take a look and decide which open spot your character will fall into. 

you can either reply to this, or catch me on discord at renmay#1446

LAWFUL GOOD - LOTTIE MILLER - 24 - EMILY

“it doesn’t mean lawful nice”

NEUTRAL GOOD - LUCA GIORDANO - 24 - LANA

“hero for hire”

CHAOTIC GOOD - NICOLAS LAURENT - 24 - MAY

“doing the right thing even if it means i have to kill everyone in the process”

LAWFUL NEUTRAL - FIRST LAST - 2# - OPEN

“ultimate rules lawyer”

TRUE NEUTRAL - OWN TILLEY  - 24 - EMMA

"because decisions are hard”

CHAOTIC NEUTRAL- STELLA LAURENT - 24 - ANA

“i like to keep my options open”

LAWFUL EVIL - FIRST LAST - 2# - OPEN

“one nation... under ME!”

NEUTRAL EVIL - NOAH REID - 2# - FIONA

"when you don’t care where the xp comes from”

CHAOTIC EVIL- RESERVED - 2# - SUKI

"you will curse my sudden, yet, invetible betryal”

Any anime shows/movies be they new or old you’ve been meaning to watch but just haven’t got round to yet ?

That’s a list that could go on 5ever ^^;

Just some off the top of my head, in no particular order:

From Up on Poppy Hill

Miss Hokusai

Paprika

Summer Wars

My Hero Academia

Mob Psycho 100

Bloom Into You

5 Centimeters per Second

SSSS. Gridman

Blackfox (which I said I’d watch last weekend but of course I didn’t I’m so unreliable I’m sorry I suck at doing things :((((( )

Bokurano

Haibane Renmai

Cowboy Bebop

Tokyo Godfathers

Porco Rosso

Ashita no Joe

Violet Evergarden

Demon Slayer

Parasyte

The Dragon Dentist

Snow White with the Red Hair (started but would like to finish)

Space Brothers

Wandering Son (also started and would like to finish)

When Marnie Was There

Mary and the Witch’s Flower

Revue Starlight

Dororo (the 1969 series, which I’ve started, but I’d like to finish now, especially with my disappointment in the conclusion of the 2019 series)

And this list could go on and on and on…..