Penance

"I envied my Shepard, my Lord, my Savior. Adorned with a golden halo atop his head, I wore a crown of thorns. He, who can do no wrong in his Father's eye, and full of love and light who brings and gives to all without exception.

I instead, am poison in the water, the great plague who has come to rampage your village and feed upon all that you love, ripping and tearing through you ravenously and carelessly. Consuming you whole, marrow and all until there is nothing left.

And when I am met face to face with Him, and he asks me why, I cry and scream with a voice that has always been there-"I had just wanted to be heard, to be seen, believed as much as He, believed in you. You, are God-Perfect in image and I, I am human, imperfect in many ways and in your shadow."

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THE SUN☀️

I want to see something

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Daiishi in mourning

havent posted in a while since I wanted to finish this! It took me a lot motivation :`) which version do you think is better?

I'd rather drown in the ocean

Wither on the shore

Undying devotion, feel you in my core

Veneration, this faith's got me high

Nothing without you, live for you t'ill i die

T'ill i die, t'ill i die, t'ill i die, t'ill i die, t'ill i die

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Random Horror Drabble:

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Welcome! To this adventure! apologize for any poor jokes, bad spelling, and terrible grammar. Without further ado, please enjoy the content. ♡

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"how did it end up like this? What did we do to piss the gods off this much?" These are the questions Ruins has asked himself since the end began. The priest had watched as devilish monsters rose from the cracks in the earth that formed when earthquakes started all across the world. Armies across the world tried to fight the monsters off, but it really didn't seem to have an effect, the monsters seem endless. Ruins has tried to find some religious solution, has waited and waited for the angels to come down and scoop those worthy out of the situation..but it still hadn't happened. The priest hadn't given up yet, even as he watched the community he was trying to protect be picked off one by one by the monsters. Ruins was alone now, having long lost everyone either to them dying or being separated from him by the monsters. The priest was running aimlessly, praying for salvation, begging to be saved from the damnation around him. He hadn't seen any humans or any of the monsters for an uneasy amount of time, he was trying to plan the best move. He ran from alley to alley as quietly as possible, avoiding the streets as they are filled with empty cars that block the way, and trash has scattered the streets, it is being blown around by the wind. Ruins decides he wants to get to the biggest chapel in his city, so he traverses through the alleyways as silently as he can. Everything's going fine and Ruins has no troubles for about 10 minutes, but then he hears some sounds coming from ahead of him in the alleyway. The sounds make Ruins stomach churns, it sounds like bones being crunched and by the quiet sobs he hears, he assumes the person is still alive while the monster is eating them. Ruins hides behind a dumpster and peaks around the corner, watching as the monster moves to head out of the alleyway and onto the street, dragging the body with it. The priest only catches a small glimpse of the monster but it's enough to remind him that hell has really risen. The monster has a grotesque form, large and lumpy looking, but lanky and agile looking. The monster is dark colored a midnight black color almost, so dark that the monster is easily able to camouflage in the shadows. Of course the most terrifying part of the monster was it's razor sharp teeth and its clawed hands. The monster is dragging the person it has been eating behind it as it walks, the person is a girl, the monster has eating most of both her legs. The girl sees Ruins hiding, the girl reaches out in the direction of Ruins as if asking for him to come and save her, he sees her mouth move but no words come out so he just assumes she's asking for help. Before he can really react the monster has her dragged out of sight, both her and the monster exiting the alleyways. Ruins lets out a shakey breath, clutching his rosary beads tightly in his hand as he mummers a quiet prayer, praying the girl is given peace and salvation. Ruins takes another shaky breath before he takes a wobbly steps his heart is pounding in his chest, his mind is racing, he feels like he could hit the ground, he's absolutely terrified. Hell on Earth is way worse than any hell that had ever been described to him. Ruins takes a few deep breaths, before the priest continues on, sneaking his way through the alleyways in the direction of the largest chapel in the city. That was his only plan, where else was there to go? What else was there to do other than pray to the gods for forgiveness of humanity?

It takes about 20 more minutes but eventually Ruins comes to the chapel he's been trying to reach. Ruins looks at it from across the street in the alleyway he's in. His heart pounds against his chest and his stomach drops at the idea of having to cross the street, but the priest had already come this far, he needed to try and reach the chapel no matter the costs, what did he really have to lose anyways? Ruins looks around thoroughly trying to spot if any monsters are nearby, he was honestly hoping he'd spot one and have a reason not to cross the street..but he doesn't spot any monsters. Still he stalls, fearfully not wanting to cross the street, he felt like it'd be a wrong move, like he'd become a sitting duck, his strategy had work so far, he shouldn't go against it and cross the street. Despite his gut screaming at him not to, Ruins goes to cross the street, just wanting to get to the chapel to pray. Ruins gets halfway across the street when he hears a bunch of loud low rumbling, almost growling sounds. It's not long before he watches grotesque twisted devilish monsters emerge from the shadows. He looks around for a direction to run in, but he quickly realizes he is surrounded. With a defeated sigh he holds his rosary beads tightly, muttering one last prayer, praying it'll be quick and that salvation will come afterwards. As the monsters get closer and closer, Ruins accepts his fate, a bittersweet acceptance and the optimistic outlook that he'll be able to ask God his questions soon. Like why? Why did no angels come to save anybody? Why did he let devilish monsters roam the earth with no intent to help? The monsters get close enough, attacking him all at once, the pain is immense, Ruins can feel every bite and rip of flesh, his bones being crushed in the monsters jaws. Despite the unimaginable pain Ruins is experiencing, he thinks solely on the moment he gets to the afterlife. The opportunity to meet the maker he's worshipped his entire life, and ask that maker what humanity did wrong. Eventually Ruins begins to grow weak, his eyes shut on their own, his breathing shallowing until eventually he takes his last breath. Ruins life flashes before his eyes and then he expects to be greeted by a bright light, but all he sees is darkness. ...as he walks around in the darkness he can't help but sigh...great another test from the gods.

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Thats all for now babes! Hope you enjoyed!! ♡ This is not proofread. Feel free to comment or reblog any thoughts or any add ons you have! Kinda rushed the end because it's late at night and I'm tired but I hope you enjoyed it. Anyways more content is coming soon so Stay Tuned! Stay Safe! & Stay Groovy!

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⟡˙⋆Masterlist⋆˙⟡

ROTTON BLOODY MARY

Imagine after a few months of dating your girlfriend tells you she's a demon. You laugh a bit at first, but she takes you back to her apartment and shows you her true form, something horrific and inhuman, but stunningly beautiful. You think she's going to kill you, but she doesn't.

She tells you that demons like her, who are sent to earth, have more autonomy then those who live in the underworld. As long as she sends a letter back to her demon lord every night, and doesn't invite the ire of any gods, she's basically safe. You ask if she needs you to leave, she begs you to stay.

You don't sleep together that night. You're both to afraid.

You go throughout the city the next day asking people who you think might be able to help. Scientists, scholars, priests of every faith, warlocks and witches of every school. They all tell you the same thing, they tell you it's impossible for a creature like her to feel something for a human, that she's just going to use you, even if she tries to do good. They tell you that you only love her human mask, that you'd run away from her true form, but you've seen her true form, and it was terrifying and inhuman, but it was beautiful.

When you next come to her you keep things you'd need to protect yourself from her. A cross, passages from the Torah, a pendent of Thor's hammer, a small statue of the Buddha, any holy force you could think to keep her at bay. When you lay eyes on her again you feel like you're betraying her just by taking such protective measures.

She seems afraid. Humans have tried to hurt her before. You hold her for a momment, pet her head, tell her that everything is going to be ok.

When you sleep with her that she doesn't need to wear her human disguise. She only needs it when other people can see her now, you're safe. It would prevent her from feeling anything anyway.

When you embrace her true form it's like nothing else on earth. Something you can't describe. Something terrifying, and inhuman, and beautiful.

"𝔶𝔬𝔲 𝔭𝔬𝔬𝔯 𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔫𝔤

𝔰𝔴𝔢𝔢𝔱, 𝔪𝔬𝔲𝔯𝔫𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔩𝔞𝔪𝔟

𝔱𝔥𝔢𝔯𝔢'𝔰 𝔫𝔬𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔶𝔬𝔲 𝔠𝔞𝔫 𝔡𝔬

𝔦𝔱'𝔰 𝔞𝔩𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔡𝔶 𝔟𝔢𝔢𝔫 𝔡𝔬𝔫𝔢"

- 𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐥 𝐜𝐚𝐢𝐧. (𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟐). ‘ptolomea’

A drawing/painting I made <3

ok, if you can stomach absurd amounts of gore, horror, death, i think i should say gore twice, body horror, religious trauma, implied s/a and post apocalypse i need you to go read hell followed with us rn. best book i have read in fucking years. i literally just got it last night and finished it that night. here are the pros:

what if body horror was related to the trans experience. what then.

the gore is described so naturally. cant describe it perfectly but god the gore feels as natural as weeds sticking up between cracks in the sidewalk.

this is also a case where imo body horror is used properly and it isnt just "what if.. deformities!! ooh spooky!!" its the horror of being changed against your will and the horror of pain and the horror of loosing yourself and the hope of taking that back.

two seperate characters who use neo pronouns!!!

erin, trans girl!!!! love her

love interest is autistic and shows symptoms of autism and thats ok and good, actually.

RAGE!!! RAGE IS GOOD AND YOU ARE ALLOWED TO BE FUCKING ANGRY!!

they represent the feeling of being loved/worshipped in a way thats too much so so so good it made me physically sick. having them who you dont know grab at you, like you are so beautiful they can only plea to touch you, to have you. looking at you like you are the most beautiful cattle.

set in future but politics feels.. chillingly similar to what were experiencing rn. genuinely thought some quotes were real or this was based off a real group for a moment till i saw the date 2025. only difference is that its more ecofascist.

the body horror never makes anyone inherently unloveable. even with flesh tearing and teeth nashing and too many eyes and blood where organs once were you can be human. you can be loved.

terrifying but hopeful. they are dead but we are alive.

HYSTERICAL insults to kalvin garrah in this shit. make an entire character to say fuck him.

the inherently disabled horror of having your body and mind fail on you against your will and the hope of never being the same but surviving.

also the disabled horror of having your body taken from you and changed and twisted for others betterment. to be a martyr by sake of suffering.

The Kids.

From left to right:

Samantha Phalm

Xavier Phalm

Lauren Phalm

Lucas Bernard

Christian B Walsh