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ilivelikeimtrying · 24 days

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Imagine if Ambrosius was that kid that said random shit when he was little so innocently but still that left everyone confused and scared, especially his parents.

Like:

Like Ambrosius, 5, wakes his father up for a glass of water, and his dad gets him one and walks him back to his son back to his room, where he tucks Ambrosius in and says "goodnight" but instead Ambrosius says "Goodbye daddy." to which Ambrosius' dad stops in his tracks and turns around saying "... No, Ambrosius. We don't say goodbye, we say goodnight." and Ambrosius shakes his head and snuggles up in his bed saying "No, not this time. Goodbye daddy."

Mrs. Goldenloin woke up the next morning to her husband sleeping next to Ambrosius' door.

Or

Ambrosius: I hope death is like being carried to your bedroom when you were a child & fell asleep on the couch during a family party. I hope you can hear the laughter from the next room.

The person next to him (either Ballister or his father): ..... Ambrosius, please.

#nimona #ambrosius #ambrosius goldenloin #ballister #ballister boldheart #ballister blackheart #a bit of projection #real life scenarios I've dealt with #and also random thoughts with dialogue i remember seeing that had me going 'Yup- That's how it is'

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kentray · 3 months

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Seven months later - Rant about Ted Lasso

How is it that I'm the same age as the creators of Ted Lasso (yes, that old) and I've never held a grudge in my life with a real person or fictional entity as long or in any similar way as I hold a grudge over S3 and the ending of this show.

They sucked me in as S1 gave me a false sense of security by not going down the predictable, awkward scenarios and flipped the narrative on time-honoured tropes. I trusted them... and they tricked me.

I am not a TedBecca shipper (but I get them), I saw clues to Nate's personality in S1 (so I wasn't surprised), I knew Jamie would have a prodigal son arc (been there, done that), I even understood why they put Rebecca & Sam together even though I hated it (Age gap: too icky for me, but May-December flings are fine. Employee/Employer power imbalance? No thank you!)

But S3? It went against everything I hoped for in that season. The way they told the story, the individual arcs, the lack of accountability (a theme from earlier in the series), and the finale ... oh, the finale.

Honestly, they kind of lost me in E1S3 due to the way they dealt with Roy & Keeley. As you can tell from my posts, they were my favs. Problem was I waited for SOMETHING every episode that would help them and when nothing happened, I just got deeper and deeper into noticing how LONG the show was or how MESSY the editing was or how BORING or CONVOLUTED or BUNGLED certain arcs were. I noticed it all because from the get-go, E1S3 prepped me for disappointment.

I guess they wanted a certain type of person to be unhappy. That type of person was me...

How do people get over this kind of weird, obsessive disappointment? How do I get rid of this hyperfixation? I'm a full-grown adult. I've handled lots of trauma and tension in my life, but I can't get over being mad at this fucking tv show.

#ted lasso #Ted Lasso S3 #actually obsessive #disappointed fan #Roy Kent #Keeley Jones #personal rant #tv critique #fan discussion #hyperfixation #i am crazy

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inchidentally · 5 months

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Just had a random thought.

I know a lot can happen in this sport but I was thinking about how as Lando and Oscar are very talented and more or less the same age they could be part of the grid potentially for more than a decade (this expecting not damaging injuries, a dramatic loss of performance level, or a lack of motivation to carry on)

Which means we could see their relationship going through a lot of different scenarios: rival teams, battles on track without the 'teammate respect', maybe even teaming up again after some time in different teams, one fighting for victories and the other for points...

Can you see them being close while being in different teams or do you think the base of their relationship is just being teammates and they will only hang out occasionally in Grand Prix weekends and that's it?

I personally think their bond is a work in progress and if they separated ways right now they would just get along and be nice to each other, but the more years they spend together at McLaren, the stronger their relationship will be.

this is such a good ask that I feel bad not having more to add to it bc I honestly agree with you on a lot of it!

I think the biggest thing that a lot of us are picking up on with Oscar and Lando is that they deliberately chose to not go the whole bromance angle… but that they also genuinely like each other so it was never due to coldness or being stand-offish. at first I think a lot of us assumed Oscar was just super nervous and that Lando was picking up a lot of the slack in terms of media work. folks who knew more about Oscar from F2 and F3 had more of a leg up bc they knew a lot more about Oscar's genuine personality.

it became clear sometime around spring? that Oscar's eyes tracking Lando and the soft smile on his face was genuinely that he Thinks Lando is Neat and Wants to be Around Him. I think that's also when it was clear that we were seeing overall a different Lando who was a little quieter and a lot more chill. Lando has no poker face to speak of and so it all suddenly made sense for me that not only were they not awkward around each other but they had just formed a super chill and comfortable friendship. do I think that as of winter break they've formed a friendship that transcends F1? truly I don't think they had the time for that and it's why I'm like you and so glad they've got two more years for sure. 2023 was such a boring season EXCEPT for McLaren so I feel like what Lando and Oscar developed very strongly was a bond of pushing each other (in a healthy way, as Oscar said) and sticking together no matter what. and it worked! the parallel of them accidentally coming together in Monza in the pit lane but then driving back to the pits together in Qatar and Japan is like. F1 teammate poetry.

I've said before that I feel like Oscar is a really natural fit for Lando's Quadrant/gaming friendships. I know we tease the hell out of Oscar for his fanboying over Lando before the McLaren seat (like, YEARS before lol) but I for real think it's bc he saw someone he would want to be friends with. not so much that they're similar but because Lando's humor and confidence and lack of filter is something Oscar clearly likes and he openly respects how Lando has dealt with his career and his ambition.

and Lando's said as much about what Oscar has brought to him as a teammate, that Oscar's calm and focus has been good for him and Oscar's talent has pushed Lando to a banner year for him. which let's remember just how much success in F1 has meant to Lando his entire life… it is possibly the biggest compliment he could pay Oscar to say that he's played a role in making Lando better !! and close to that is the fact that Oscar going out of his way to play a supporting role to Lando and hold up the fact that Lando deserves respect and acknowledgement for his status and experience in F1 and McLaren has like, genuinely made Lando happy. for someone who can plunge to the kinds of depths that Lando can, seeing Oscar waiting to celebrate him after every race or knowing that Oscar stands in the crowd with the rest of the team for Lando's many podiums this season… just imagine what that means to a guy who shown so much loyalty to his team as Lando. that his new teammate is matching that level of loyalty to Lando and to McLaren in his rookie season??

idk I feel like for two guys who have given up so much to be where they are (I know they're super privileged but they also missed out on a LOT of good formative stuff and left their families early) would a bromance or common interests feel more significant than forming such a deep amount of respect for each other in just one season? it's very sweet seeing Lando meet up with Carlos and Daniel in down time during the season and I'm not taking anything away from that. but Lando is in F1 for F1 - not for bromances and he doesn't carry those F1 friendships over to his other work or his other relationships. Lando's a very very serious guy under all his fun and jokey sides and even when reporters push the bromances angle he's quick to remind them that he's there to race and on track those buddies disappear into mere obstacles to him winning.

tl;dr I feel like we're going to learn a lot about Lando and Oscar's relationship in the next season but for me I'm spending so much of my time still bursting at the seams for how quiet and sweet and significant things have been for them this past season that I'm not even going to worry too much about what the future brings!

#inchreplies #landoscar lore

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they-call-me-haiku · 9 months

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one thing that i love about infinity train is how REAL the characters are, despite being in a fantasy setting, and the narrative of how experiences shape individuals. the way they speak and act are so realistic, their choices are understandable and their arcs are so well-written. all of the characters have glaring flaws they need to work on, but it's also clear that these flaws are the results of some kind of trauma or the way they were treated.

tulip was disillusioned with the world, angry and distant. and this is a direct reaction to her parents' divorce and her inability to cope with it. which is sympathetic, of course, it's a hard thing to go through as a child. the show also reveals that tulip blames herself for her parents' divorce, which can hit close to home for many people.

lake was similarly angry and defiant, even outright hostile in certain situations. again, this comes as a response to the way she was treated in the train, the way she was never granted her freedom and individuality, and how she was trapped in a role she didn't want to play. it's no wonder that many queer people identify so much with lake, because the rules of the train mirrors real life.

jesse has people-pleasing tendencies that reach the point where it actually hurts people. we've all seen protagonists who are people pleasers or eager to appear likeable to people, but usually it only hurts themselves. jesse's case is the prime example of "a friend to all is a friend to none". you can't please everyone, there are people you should oppose or ignore. otherwise, you end up hurting people who actually matters in your life.

simon and grace are straight-up villains, or anti-villains at the very best. grace is manipulative and cunning, playing on people's feelings and insecurities to serve herself. simon is controlling and somewhat egotistic, refusing to change his mindset, regardless of what happens. again, both these characters are shown to have reasons for why they became what they are, even if it doesn't justify their actions. grace grew up in an environment where she was neglected and felt lonely, and found out that her only sure way of making any sort of connection is to manipulate people. simon is implied to have dealt with someone's death before he got on the train, since he seems to have an idea of what funerals are like. that, paired with samantha the cat accidentally leaving him behind in a crucial and dangerous situation, he develops some very intense abandonment issues. again, both these issues can be very relatable to a lot of people, even if we aren't as bad as either of these characters.

min-gi was shown to be insecure and uncertain, but at the same time, arrogant and condescending. the pressure he recieved from his parents has fueled his gifted child syndrome while simultaneously making him depressed and burned out. ryan is probably the closest we have to a "conventional main character", hyperactive and quirky. but he is also not exactly perfect in all other aspects, as he wants to push things forward and refuses to give min-gi some time to think and make a decision. as a child who grew up with lots of other siblings, ryan struggles to prove himself to his family, since they don't seem to pay him much attention. both these scenarios are especially relatable to asians, but of course, anyone who may have trouble pleasing their parents and living up to expectations.

i just gave a character analysis of each protagonist, but my point is that while other cartoon protagonists tend to lean more on the heroic side, the characters in this show doesn't. in most other animated shows i've watched, the flaws a protagonist is allowed to have are either "heroic" flaws such as being too forgiving or being self-sacrificing, or shallow flaws such as clumsiness or being kind of an idiot.

but not in infinity train. the protagonists in this show aren't heroes, they are normal people. they don't have a magical destiny, they don't have to fight for the good of the world, they aren't the "chosen ones". their ultimate goal is to get out of the train (or in simon and grace's case, to be superior to everyone else, to "win").

so it really feels good when one of the characters does choose to do something nice. when tulip chooses to empathize with and help amelia, when lake bonds with alan dracula and jesse. when grace chooses to change for the better and face the consequences of her actions. when ryan chooses to stay with min-go despite getting a door, and when min-gi does the same later on.

i watched this show about a year ago, and it's still one of the best animated shows i've watched. it's so uncomfortably real sometimes, you stop and go "am i like that?" when a character does something wrong, you know that the show addresses it and their actions have consequences. the show doesn't hand out redemption arcs to everyone or sweep things under the rug like some shows *cough* steven universe and she-ra *cough*

there's a reason why a lot of people seem to relate more to villains than heroes, because villains are allowed to be flawed while also being sympathetic. infinity train managed to create a cast of protagonists who are exactly like that. they are more than heroes, they are people.

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mylovecardan · 1 year

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Promise Me? (A small Jurdan fic)

Part I

Cardan's p.o.v

"Your majesty, you have to come with me, they've got her!''

I would've expected to feel joy at finally hearing those words, but all i feel is dread. It was the look on The Roach's face and the way with which he said those words that made it clear it was nothing good.

i hurry out of the Throne room and follow him. I keep thinking about all the worst possible scenarios, but nothing prepares me for what lies in front of me when I enter my room.

Jude is lying on the bed, all bloody and unconscious. Her right hand is twisted at an odd angle and I can see her bone sticking out. A couple healers are working to stitch her up. The sight makes me sick and I fight the urge to throw up.

''Where?'' I force the single word out with great difficulty. I feel so enraged at the bloodied sight of her body that i can hardly manage to breath.

''found her at the edge of a forest somewhere near the mortal lands.''

It's The Ghost who replies. His clothes are covered in blood and it's hard to tell if it's his, Jude's, or someone else's.

''There were about twenty fae, dozen of them redcaps. They were all fighting, and our queen was in the middle of all this''

''And how, dare i ask, did our queen ended up in 'the middle of all this', all alone?''

Randalin, The minister of keys, asks eyeing me and I avoid his gaze.

I know, ofcourse, exactly what she was doing there. We had discussed it. They were part of a group who wants to overthrow our us. Believe that Elfhame shouldn't be ruled by a mortal. They've even sent assailants after Oak. In short, they've been a real a pain.

She was tired of all of it and wanted to put an end to all the nonsense once and for all. Only we never agreed on her going after them. She insisted that she go but i didn't want her to. I mean she's the High Queen! She shouldn't be going hunting for assailants. We've got spies and knights for those stuff.

We had a big discussion. I tried persuading her, told her it was very dangerous and more trouble than worth. Our knights would've handled it. It wasn't that i believed she couldn't handled it. No, I've always believed in her. If there's anyone who can get out alive out of any situation it's her. I just didn't wanted anything to happen to her. Just thinking about it freaked me out and at last she agreed to not go after them. She vowed that she'll let the knights handle that and she won't interfere.

Or, so I thought. I keep forgetting that she's mortal and can lie. She reminded me, yet again, that a mortal's vow is worth nothing.

Jude. My beautiful, lying, stubborn Jude, decided to sneak out while i was asleep, without any of her spies or knights. Broke the promise she made me and went after the assailants.

The worst part, is that when i woke up, and found her missing, I believed that she could handle it. I thought she's been in worse situation and dealt with more dangerous. I mean this is the mortal girl who murdered Valerian, Balekin, beat Grima Mog in a duel with nothing but a long knife, and has defeated countless others. Dealing with some assailants should've been child's play for her. Yet i decided to make the Court of Shadows follow her trail and help her if needed

Too late. I was too late. I took too long to send them after her. It took too long for them to reach her. And now here she is. My brave, fearless wife, barely conscious, fighting for her life because i was incapable of making a simple order.

I ignore the question Randalin asked. My guilt and pain and anger, all the emotions too high for my brain to process much. I instead keep my eyes locked on her figure.

''The question should be why she was in the middle of all that. Is it possible, my king, that she might've mentioned a rendezvous with these folks?'' Nihuar asks me.

''Might've heard something.''

''Your majesty, I hope you understand the-''

''What happened to those fae?'' I cut in between. I don't care to explain the whole story to them.

''All dead.'' Grima Mog answers.

''Good. You can take leave now. Except for you all.'' I say pointing towards the Ghost, the Roach and Grima Mog.

Randalin turns sharply towards me at this. ''I can't believe yo-''

''I.SAID.LEAVE!'' I say gritting my teeth. It's getting harder to contain my anger now and if they don't get out of my hair right now I'm afraid I'm gonna have to steal a page from Jude's book and resort to violence.

They leave after this with sour expressions on their faces. Well I don't give a shit about their feeling. I've got more pressing matters to deal with right now.

''Now, tell me exactly what happened?''

''When we got there, she was already fighting them all. It seemed to be going good.'' The Ghost says.

''Then how, pray tell, did she ended up like this!?''

''Some coward bastard attacked her from behind. Broke the hand with which she was holding her sword and stabbed her. It all happened so fast, others took the opportunity and started cutting her up. We reached her just in time and avoided the worst of it.'' it's Grima Mog who says and i feel my rest of my control vanishing.

''Avoided the worst of it? You think you managed to avoid the worst? LOOK AT HER!! DOES IT LOOK LIKE YOU AVOIDED THE WORST OF IT? SHE IS BARELY BREATHING. WE DON'T EVEN KNOW IF SHE'S GONNA MAKE IT AND YOU THINK THAT YOU 'AVOIDED THE WORST'?'' I can't keep my anger in anymore. Seeing her like this has broken something inside me. I'm experiencing a pain I thought I'd never feel again. The first time was about 6 years ago, when I saw her falling down and into one of the banquet tables. I thought it would be the last time I'd see her so broken, but oh how wrong i was.

''Cardan, she's not dead yet. The worse has been avoided.'' says Grima Mog.

''Amazing. She's not dead yet. Thank you so much. I feel so much better now. Should I plan a revel for this miraculous occasion? My dear folks, your queen was almost killed tonight. She is currently lying in bed barely breathing but don't worry, our grand general avoided the worst of it as she's not dead yet.''

''Well weren't you the one who was supposed to persuade her to let it go? Pardon me my king but it seems if there's someone who failed to do their job, it's you.''

''SHE VOWED TO ME THAT SHE WOULD LET YOU GUYS HANDLE THE SITUATION. IT DIDN'T OCCURRED TO ME THAT SHE'D BRAKE IT SO SOON.''

''Didn't it. I mean it's Jude we're talking about. That girl is an expert at telling lies.'' the Roach says quietly, but loud enough for all of us to hear it.

''I just- I-I thought- maybe this time-'' I sit down and bury my face in my hands unable to complete the sentence. I feel a sudden burning behind my eyes and try to fight against the tears.

I feel someone's hand on my shoulder and look up to see that it's the Bomb. I didn't even realized when she came in. She must've used the hidden secret passageway in my room.

She gives me sympathetic smile and I gulp back the tears. I can't lose control right now.

''None of us can imagine what you might be going through right now. But you should know that we're all here for you and she will make it. She's Jude Duarte, she's stronger than we can imagine and she will fight through this.'' She says.

''You mean Jude Greenbriar. It's not Duarte anymore, it's Greenbriar. She's my wife. Don't forget that.'' I say stupidly.

''Yeah you keep saying that. It's kinda hard to forget your majesty'' the Bomb says, rolling her eyes.

''Your majesty?'' It's one of the healers who interrupts us and I stand up too quickly, feeling a sudden ache and fear in my heart.

''What is it? Is she alright? Will she make it? The questions rush out of me.

''Y-yes she'll be fine my king. We've stitched her up and fixed her arm. She's still unconscious though and it'll probably take some time for her to wake up.''

I feel relief flood through my body at those words. She'll be fine, and she'll make it. My Jude will fight through it just like she always has.

''Thank you. You may leave if you're all done for now.''

''Your majesty.'' They bow to their waist and hurry out of the room.

I sit down again, a heavy weight lifting from my chest and I can finally breathe.

''Well, we shall leave too. There's some other things that needs to be taken care of.'' the Ghost says and with a quick goodbye they all leave.

I walk up to our bed and sit carefully next to her. Though they've washed her wounds, she still looks terrible. I carefully caress her face and wait, impatiently, for her to wake up because there's no chance I'll be able to sleep tonight.

I press a light kiss on her forehead and at last, let go of my tears.

To be continued........

A/N: my first language isn't english so i hope you will forgive any mistakes Imight've made. I really hope you enjoyed this as much as I did. I will be writing part II as soon as I can. lots of love <3

p.s : the second part has also been posted. Do check it out if you liked this

#this ended up being more emotional than i intended at first #jurdan scene #jurdan headcanon #jude x cardan #cardan greenbriar #jude duarte #high king cardan #high queen jude #high king and queen of elfhame #the court of shadows #the cruel prince #the wicked king #the queen of nothing #the folk of the air #holly black

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madraleen · 2 months

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me: omg please tho, not actual author dazai's ending for dazai, don't follow the pattern, omigosh also me: but don't we literally start at the ending, surviving the river, another beginning, another chance? and aren't things generally reversed, eg akutagawa looking up to dazai vs their reversed real life counterparts etc? so, shouldn't that also be reversed, or at the very least not written in stone? also also me: girl, are you serious?! this is a 10+ years scenario, why are you even thinking about this? dazai is bsd, he ain't going nowhere any time soon. also also also me: ...meh, i've dealt with aot, i can deal with anything.

#bungo stray dogs #osamu dazai #bungou stray dogs #this is normal for me #i go through new fandom turmoil until i regain balance #it's not pleasant by any means. in hindsight it is bittersweetly funny. but it is what it is #bungo stray dogs spoilers #bungou stray dogs spoilers

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ultfreakme · 5 months

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What did you think of Saturo Gojo's death? Was it a forced and anticlimactic death? Do you think he can come back to life again? If he comes back will he lose his powers? Thank you for always answering our questions.

Initially I was disappointed and felt it to be anticlimatic because Gojo v Geto/Kenjaku has been built up since JJK 0. The strongest sorcerer and the worst curse user! Former friends(lovers), current enemies(exes)! The set-up seemed like it was Sukuna v Yuuji and Kenjaku v Gojo.

But after some time, I get it, tbh. Yuuta was the MC of JJK 0 and his animosity with Geto has already been set up. Gojo himself brings up Yuuta when mentioning fighting Kenjaku so this was a long time coming. It makes sense to me now why Yuuta dealt the killing blow. Love is a curse, Gojo killing Kenjaku would curse Geto indirectly again and Gojo doesn't want to do that again, ever.

The only other opponent left is Sukuna and the final fight with him will HAVE to be Yuuji. There's no other choice.

With Kenjaku gone, Sukuna weakened, and Yuuji growing strong, there's no point in Gojo returning. What's he gonna do if he returns? With or without his powers? He also got what he wanted.

Raise a group of sorcerers who work together for the common good? Check

Have Geto's body put to rest? Indirectly check because Yuuta is his student and he trusted him on that

Find someone he can be on equal grounds with and finally be understood in his loneliness? CHECK

Find satisfaction? Check. He said he's happier in his death dream/actual purgatory/ airport afterlife thing. The two people who could make him satisfied were Sukuna and Geto. Sukuna gave him the best fight of his life where he actually had to work and got the chance to go all out, Geto's dead so in life, he can't do anything about what he wants from Geto. Dream or not, Gojo finally met Geto again, he WANTS that meeting to be real. Bringing him out of it is just going to take away whatever peace he found in fighting Sukuna and speaking with Geto.

Gojo's story is done. He'd be redundant now. The only big bad left is Sukuna, and whatever Kenjaku has planned could probably be dealt with by the rest of the cast (it's a fucking powerful cast too). It's time for the new gen.

I also can't see Gege wanting to bring him back when he has stated a bunch of times how difficult it is to write Gojo. Practically speaking I think he could do RCT and come back. but like, I don't see it happening.

I do have one scenario in which I'd like to see him revived; He makes a binding vow or something which sacrifices his Six Eyes in exchange for an extra few minutes(heheh 6 minutes maybe) of living where he can assist the kids and he's back to being dead again after the time is up. An encouraging message to Yuuta and Yuuji maybe and bye-bye.

If he does come back to full-time, his story arc might be about defining himself outside of being 'The Honored One' but lbr he'd be fucking miserable because all his friends sans Shoko are dead. Does Gojo WANT to define himself outside of his powers? I've never seen him express the desire to lower himself, only that he wishes others would rise to his level. This is, I think, the best way to end his story. A tragedy, a young god.

The only thing keeping me not depressed is the idea of the after life being seemingly canon in JJK so hey, maybe Gojo will find happiness, a long life and satisfaction in his next life cycle?

Also thanks for sending all these asks I adore answering them, it gets my brain juices flowing, I love looking deeper into my fandoms and their stories!

#riki asks #jjk meta #gojo satoru #jjk manga #jujutsu kaisen

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koskela-knights · 4 months

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I’m trying to make my own AW2 playlist of chapter ending songs—do you have any recommendations? Feel like we’re similarly obsessed with the spiral…

Thnx for your question! And well yeah I might be a bit obsessed with the spiral/loops and its endless possibilities & scenarios that could've been 👀

Besides the official ending songs the game already provides, there are some other songs that give me general AW/AW2 vibes or specific feels for certain characters! I've been pondering about songs to share for a while, so this is a great opportunity! Thnx again for the ask!

Also feel free to share your own songs in my inbox if you feel like it :D

It's gonna be a long post so buckle up 😅

This is the moment to share my love for Lord Huron, specifically their Strange Trails album but also Vide Noir one.

Strange Trails is, to me, an album about being lost and cursed and it's about love. Honestly, I don't think The Night We Met is a good representative about the entire album.

Meet Me In The Woods

This entire song just screams Alan Wake to me.

I took a little journey to the unknown, And I come back changed. I can feel it in my bones. I fucked with forces that our eyes can't see. Now the darkness got a hold on me.

(...)

How long, baby, have I been away? Oh, it feels like ages though you say it's only days. There ain't language for the things I've seen. And the truth is stranger than my own worst dreams.

(...)

I have seen what the darkness does. Said goodbye to who I was. I ain't never been away so long. Don't look back them days are gone. Follow me into the endless night. I can bring your fears to life. Show me yours and I'll show you mine. Meet me in the woods tonight.

Like, how can you read those lyrics and not think about our boy Alan.

2. Way Out There

Drifting in a land time forgot If you think that I've changed, you know me not I belong bodily to the earth I'm just wearing old bones from those that came first I been unraveling since my birth

Those lyrics and partially the song in general remind me of Alan in the Dark Place trying to escape. How many loops has he been through? (Thus in this context, kind of wearing 'old bones from those who came first, aka older iterations of Alan himself) Also, the theremin they use is so fitting and it's an instrument often used in horror movies so <3

3. Vide Noir (both album itself & song)

Where can you go when it’s all in your head? These are the last words that I ever said Where can you go when it’s all in your head? These are the last words that I ever said

Tbh, this album also gives off major Control vibes with its themes and songs about the Astral plane & the black void. Many other songs on the album talk about the main character getting lost and drifting in-between time/space and living/dying

4. War by Poets of the Fall

You might be familiar with the song already and its music video 👀

I like how all the Poets were involved in the video as Taken (have you seen BTS shots of Olli with a fake beard?!!) Anyways, the song makes me think of how Alan has to remember that there are people out there who want to help him. That there are people out there fighting against the Darkness, even if he is mainly unaware and might even feel he doesn't deserve external help. It also reflects Alice being Alan's bright light in the darkness, and the reason he wants to keep fighting to get back to her.

In a similar vein, Lust For Life (also PoTF haha) this song could also be seen through an Alan/Alice lens, the shared shoebox mechanic and Alice trying to help/guide Alan back to the real world.

What is lost may be found Safe and sound

5. Hello Cabaret by PoTF

Now this song is maybe one of my faves of the Ghostlight album. Relistening to my fave lyrics of the song, it reminds me of the Koskelas and Ilmo specifically.

For when you come calling Dancing on my grave For all my choices made Judging me for how I played The hand you dealt me Stains the blood that flows

(...)

Of all I once did love but lost Nothing comes without a cost The wise fool said that's just the way it goes

(...)

Most will never comprehend Till' they're in the very predicament

To me, Ilmo at the end of the game is heartbroken and dead inside now that his other/better half is gone. The 'you' in question here might as well be the player or Scratch/Alan and he feels judged by the narrative of his previous actions. He's made decisions and sacrifices and used the Cult as a palpable 'villain' for the greater good. Something many probably didn't/wouldn't understand unless they were in his shoes.

6. Chasing Echoes by PoTF

It's a fun coincidence that in AW2 you have literal Echoes to chase huh.

Is this a role or disguise seeking mercy in creation? Just another device or truly a time when we will rise? Oh one and all, to the occasion And bridge the gap to see the other side?

The more on-the-nose/literal meaning aside, I think this song can be read as another one about Alan trying to escape the DP/spiral upwards toward ascension. Again, there's a 'you' in this song that could be interpreted as Alice who is a light inside Alan's darkness.

7. Brother by Lord Huron

How long have I known you, brother? Hundreds of lives, thousands of years How many miles have we wandered Under the sky, chasing our fear? Considering the spiral and the historical background of the Koskelas and their (indirect) ties to the Huotaris, they might as well known each other/been brothers for longer than what we see in-game. Some kind of trouble is coming Don't know when, don't know what I will stand by you, brother 'Til the daylight comes or I'm dead and gone

(...)

I know we can't stop what's coming But I will try, oh how I'll try Will you fight with me, brother One last time, one last fight

We know Ilmo got visited by the Dark Presence and has had nightmares about killing Jaakko. Luckily, he rose above that (as far as we know) but I think the dread and fear of losing Jaakko keeps lingering just underneath the surface. Personally, I enjoy the thought of people sometimes remembering the previous loop/spiral and that those affected/remembering would try anything to keep the loop from repeating.

8. You Belong To Me by Cat Pierce

If you're a fan of Alan/Scratch, this song has that obsessive/possessive vibe to it that seems to be a dialogue/mix between them.

I've heard allegations 'bout your reputation I'll show you my shadows if you show yours Let's get it right dear, give a good fight dear We'll keep it all up behind closed doors

(...)

I must confess to you, I want to possess you Feels like we're dreaming, we're tripping and reeling Just say that you belong to me I could get lost in the feelings we're feeling Just say that you belong to me

#anon ask #alan wake 2 spoilers #alan wake 2 #alan wake #alice wake #TLDR: Lord Huron Strange Trails/Vide Noire albums and PoTF's Ghostlight album <333 #koskela brothers #ilmo koskela #jaakko koskela #my posts #my ramblings #songs I listen to for years now and always like to reassign to the fandom at hand

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moonyinpisces · 6 months

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very validating to hear about your takes on Thirsting For The Boy as a lesbian, i personally am on this weird kind-of-opposite end of the spectrum where i've dealt with intense comphet since a young age, later realized some of that was gender envy (ESPECIALY especially with david tennant my god), but also ultimately realized that even if i think a guy is aesthetically attractive and make jokes about him with my friends, in any real-life scenario i absolutely Do Not want that man and feel very similarly sick like you said. that being said i do want crowley as nanny ashtoreth to break me in half like a kit kat bar—

you lost me a bit along the way there but hey! at the end of the day if you’re solely attracted to women irl then what do your fictional preferences really matter? for me fandom is a fun space to explore things that i do Not want to take part of in real life. in a way i am simply a voyeur for the dirty dirty things i want crowley and aziraphale to do to each other. like hold hands and cry and kiss and show hole as a treat

#ask box

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schizosupport · 9 days

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Hi!! I dont know where else to go but im suspecting i may be on the schizo spectrum? Or at least just wondering way too hard. And i have no where to look into more trustworthy specifics besides brief nformation about the common disorders (that i dont really think i fit into at all btw but then again im undiagnosed with everything so im forced to rawdog it and come to conclusions on my own) and no where to find information about specific symptoms that can be overlooked as "normal behavior"

I have psychosis and its been like this since 2018, slowly growing, getting more intense i guess especially during a traumatic event that happened a few years ago *really* increased my delusions. Thats the only primary thing i experience i believe, but now looking back i am unsure if i experience some level of hallucinations as well like thinking im seeing flies n such fly around me trying to bother me or bugs crawling near me in the corner of my eye. Though it may be because im sleepy or something as i like to stay up a lot! And maybe because ive dealt with annoying flies one too many times that im just paranoid abt dealing w them now.

this thought has been on my mind for a while (mainly speaking in terms of hallucinations) but recently i saw a post on twitter about someone asking if other people "have intense fear of monsters or the dark" before going into deph about how her brain is constantly afraid of her life will turn into a horror movie. Like "what if a zombie breaks into my house" and her brain imagining scary scenarios that genuinely terrify her when she does anything. And reading that sounds very familar to something ive experienced even to this day, esp if im alone at night or alone n looking into another room thats dimly lit.

I really do understand her fear of closing her eyes n seeing scary scenarios. Ive noticed ive weirdly been seeing stuff too, mainly faces and eyes that i would see when watching analog horror and it *really* terrifies me and makes me think that ive somehow spawned it in real life (esp if i think about it too much)

Sorry if this is too long. I normally do this when im rly stumped abt whatever brain thing i got n no google search can help me. I guess im just lookimg for some insight. Thanks! <3

"Also forgot to clarify that the person is recently discovering/coming to terms with that shes schizospec too so thats why upon reading that im pretty much going "....huh!" Bec this implies this may not be normal (i mean of course not but. Never really bothered to say or think anything about it until now)"

Hi there anon! I'm glad you're reaching out, and I hope I can help you a little on your way!

What you're describing, intense fear of hypothetical scenarios and "closed eye hallucinations" are both things that I can definitely relate to as constants in my life. I don't have enough information from just this ask to say whether your experiences are full blown delusional/psychotic, but regardless, it sounds like it's taking a toll on you, and have been getting worse. It's common for this type of experience to worsen with stress, so it's no wonder it worsened when you were going through something traumatic.

When I first talked to a psychiatrist about some of my beliefs, they wrote something that I later found kind of interesting, that some of my beliefs were like those of a scared child. As if I had never quite learned how to regulate that type of fear and my imagination would get the better of me. I don't know if your experience is anything like that, but from the way you described it, I thought that might be relatable to you.

The line between fear, anxiety and psychosis can be hard to define. One thing I've learned is that most people with "pure anxiety" are not having anxiety about bizarre or paranoid things, but about more mundane matters that have been blown out of proportion. But obviously there's variability. But I remember when I met my partner of now... 9 years ...? I wasn't diagnosed with anything yet, and we were both like "yeah I have anxiety" and thought we knew what the other meant by that. And then they were confused when I was like "yeah I'm anxious that the spirit of the lamp will steal my soul, and that people are putting poisoned coins in public spaces". But like the anxiety was similar, it's just that the things I was anxious about were odd, I guess.

Anyways, I'm rambling, sorry!

About the images you get when you close your eyes, that is most often described as a type of intrusive thought, and I've also heard people call them "closed eye hallucinations". I get icky and scary images like this sometimes, and it can be really distressing.

I hope your symptoms don't get worse, and I hope you can feel at ease knowing that no matter the exact cause or name, you are definitely not alone with having these experiences, and they are common experiences for people on the schizospec and people with some other related difficulties.

And if you find that you relate to the schizospec experience, there's space enough for everyone, and you are welcome here. Even if you don't fit any specific disorders or you conclude that your symptoms are "sub-clinical" or more related to something else, I believe in an open door policy and I think anyone with this type of experience can benefit from spending time in/with the community, and can bring unique insights to the table themselves.

I don't know if I'm making any sense, I'm super tired today, but yeah that's my two cents I guess ^^

Edit: It might give you some insight to look into other symptoms associated with the schizo-spec, like negative symptoms, cognitive symptoms and ipseity disturbances :) I think that will give you a stronger idea of whether you are likely to relate to most of us 🌼

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// This is just my personal opinion, but innocence and Megatron don't often go together well for me. I mean this from an entirely pre-war perspective when I say innocent. I often see people portraying him as this sweet, kind, innocent person, and although we know a 4 million year war can totally change people (and Megatron dealt with a LOT), I still feel like those things stem from a deeper place of violence and trauma that he'd had to cope and deal with from the beginning of his life.

I've never seen Megatron as an innocent. Innocent in the sense that he was obviously not born/created as a killer. No one is (although there's that funny little nature vs nurture argument that we still haven't managed to put our finger on). At the end of the day, people are all shaped by what is around them and how they manage to cope with those things. Some people snap, some people don't. What makes those people snap, though? Well, we've not quite figured that out yet.

if you put two people in the same scenario, they could still turn out completely different--whether or not genetics makes a difference (as a twin, I find this stuff interesting as well, because despite that, twins can still grow up to be very different people). People perceive things differently and uniquely, and thus we all feel differently and cope differently.

Megatron grew up in one of the hardest environments on Cybertron, I just can't see him being sweet and innocent. There's always been a gruffness about him, a temper, and a broodiness.

I have big issues with how soft MTMTE made him, because it just doesn't feel entirely Megatron. And therefore, it doesn't feel genuine to me, but a way for them to just slap a "good guy" badge on him (let's be honest, it's not that black and white and it never should be). It feels like we're supposed to believe this lovely, sweet, innocent peace keeping poet just dropped everything he believed in one day to become a warlord that murdered and killed whenever he pleased, and it's just not believable to me.

Megatron Origins did a really good take on his earlier life. It showed the harsh conditions that Megatron lived under, it showed the pressure building, and it showed a reasonable young mech snapping beneath that pressure (which we also know people can do). But it being a one shot comic, it was enough to get that GLIMPSE and not have to expand too much on it, which MTMTE ended up doing as it was a much longer running comic series. It then felt... pressured? To me, I guess? That we must see this nice, peaceful mech who Megatron once was if we're to believe he's REALLY going to keep the peace post-war. Fools energon makes him weak (even if it's a placebo), because everyone is worried he doesn't snap, and I'm kind of... annoyed he doesn't? Because people CAN heal, yes, but not often without setbacks and taking one step backwards before taking another forward.

And I think that's my biggest gripe. Megatron never came from a happy place. That doesn't mean he can't be kind (people choose kindness over violence every day even though they've been brought up around it). Like I said, Megatron wasn't born a killer. But there's just something that never sits well with seeing him as some sweet, innocent mech who is cheery and kind.

I want to see that inner turmoil that was building up to the point of exhaustion. I want to see his frustration at the state of the world, and the PASSION behind the words that he wrote. I understand he was a "peace keeper" in MTMTE's flashbacks, but honestly, I wish he was the young, angry, passionate revolutionist that we missed out on seeing. Because that anger, that passion, that crazed and twisted world he ended up making came from those feelings. And I have a hard time with MTMTE's version of Megatron and seeing how he turned out to be the thing he hated most when there's no real UNF in that younger Megatron.

Another reason why my Megatron is just heavily HC based tho and I don't follow the MTMTE timeline.

Anyway, night time ramblings...

#ooc #headcanons #meta #// These are just my thoughts you don't have to agree with me :)

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scribble-dribble-writes · 1 year

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Hello I wanted to ask you something since a few days now.

I REALLY REALLY LOVE NAMOR X SHURI❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

But he killed Ramonda and there's no going back from that 😭😭😭😭

Could you please give a deep analysis of how and why Namor x Shuri can be a thing in the future (IM SORRY IM ASKING TOO MUCH)

There was clear chemistry and I (& many others) HAVE SEEN IT. But damn he ruined everything and my girl's devastated and so I am. How's she gonna get back to him? How will he even make up for everything?

And ugh..... these antis call him manwhore, horndog, toxic and that's really hurting my shipper heart. Even paedo because of the age gap and that Shuri is not matured etc etc.

I really need you to lift my spirits.

And again I'm sorry for the trouble 😕

Never feel sorry for asking me stuff hahaha, I love answering them 💖💖💖

I don't get why people put characters into a box, like he's a villain so that's all he's gonna be. Dealing with anti-heroes, we need to understand that they are morally grey first and that adds a lot of complexity to how they operate.

Now as much as it's difficult to comprehend, none of these characters are real. These characters are on a page and the beauty about that is, their story can be changed however we wish like.

People acting like Namor is irredeemable and making others feel bad for shipping him with Shuri is absolute bollocks lol. I've seen so many ships that are even more problematic and yet people cherish them.

This may not be kind but having been on the other end of dealing with antis, most of them talk about toxicity and all that stuff as though people have not dealt with it in real life. The beauty of these characters is that we don't have to project people we know in real life onto them.

They facilitate ✨escapism✨ and make life a bit more bearable.

So my advise to you is *ahem* build those fake scenarios, enjoy Namor x Shuri, think of them going on dates, anything that makes you happy. That's the point of films and the reason they get made.

The Talokans and Wakanda are two kingdoms, we're not just dealing with two individuals. And in war, the inevitable tends to happen. So many real life scenarios where kings would kill the 'father' and then marry the princess when they conquer a land. Now if you think about it and replay those scenes it's quite clear how everything happens. Ramonda could have easily swum up to the surface and saved her life, but her CHOICE was to go back for Riri.

And what do we expect Namor to do? Put yourself in his shoes and see that he's doing it to save the secret of Talokan. He has no reason to trust these people, but you see him trying to build that through Shuri first. So it's a complicated turn of events. It's as it is, war between two kingdoms. In a scene like that, Namor is a king, Ramonda is a queen, Shuri is a princess. It's political, it's business.

As he hovers there, he can actually conquer the rest of Wakanda by killing Shuri to take the throne. But he doesn't. He's shifted the tide, as a king would do for his country and people, and put Shuri in that spot of being queen because he needs to be reassured of Talokan's secret. He's dealing it like how he would have dealt it because "he was blinded by hope" before.

So that whole bit, you can't actually blame anyone. Each one's doing it for a purpose. If we follow the antis logic, Bucky and the avengers were involved indirectly with regards to the death of his father. Then he should have never been a part of the avengers or helped bucky. He should have held onto that grudge.

To resolve this confusion, I keep going back to Killmonger's appearance. He starts off with the same sentence that Namor tells Shuri. "It's never about the how but the WHY?", killmonger should have been the first to be Namor's fan boy. But he's quoting that like he's a mirror, that Shuri is having those thoughts in her head focusing on the "Why" for her vengeance. He then could have approved of Namor's actions by saying that he killed her or that Shuri's family deserved it for having murdered his father. But instead, there a clear point being made that Ramonda sacrificed her life as a QUEEN not as a mother, to save another life.

So I interpret the whole thing differently but ultimately I would say Ramonda's death was an indirect loss because of the Talokan and Wakandan conflict. Yeah Namor will have to work his way back and realize what he had done on a personal level but I don't think he will apologize for it in a politically sense. He did what he had to, to keep his people safe. And diving into why he's like that will need another post lol.

But I don't get people calling him all those stuff. It hurts, I've been there. I literally am staying off til tok and other platforms because I don't want to hear about it hahaha.

Ps- so many books have 19 years old girls falling in love with a 2000 year old demi god or fae or eleven king. Shuri is 25 in this movie and is well capable to make her decisions as an individual. Namor is a mutant technically. Sooooooo age gap doesn't make sense here 🤣🙄

#shuri x namor #tenoch huerta namor #namor #mcu namor #namor x shuri #shuri #queen shuri #shuri black panther #shuramor #mcu shuri #mcu

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marshmallowprotection · 5 months

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Do you think shifting is real? I’m getting tiktoks on it again and I won’t lie it messes with my mental health as it convinces me I can go somewhere where I’m actually happy with all the media that’s comforted me for so long. I like how I’ve seen old posts of yours where you slap sense into people who want to shift and I need that right now. Ha.

If you're not hurting anyone or yourself, it's perfectly okay to journal, draw, and write all the fantasies you want. After all, what is the great comfort in media and fandom if not the experience of getting to see what it might be like to be friends with your favorite character? Or to see what it might be like to be with your favorite character in a more intimate setting like a date? There's nothing wrong with that!

Hell, I'll be writing these scenarios all day long for my comfort and others! It's fun to dabble in the heads of your favorite characters and see what it could be like if there was no universal divide. There's a lot of fun to be had in making your characters or even self-inserting into the media.

However, I don't care for the in's and out's of Reality Shifting in the sense of someone trying to explain to me how it isn't just another form of daydreaming. I won't argue if it's real or not. I will just say Shifting looks no different than daydreaming to me.

I'm sure that Shifting is just a form of mediation and daydreaming at the end of the day. It isn't harmful unless it impedes your life. Now, I won't tell people not to have fun. Listen, if you're having fun and you see that it helps you, that's okay. There's no need to get into the thick semantics of if Shifting is "real or not".

I'm not going to scold people for it. I want people to be able to have fun at the end of the day in the way that works for them best, and me talking about this isn't to shame anybody or make them feel bad. I'm just concerned for people's health. I just want people to be aware of the risks of excessive daydreaming and dissociation.

Because, it does not matter what you believe Shifting is, if you spend hours of the day in bed with your eyes closed tight when you have to do other things, that's not healthy for you. This goes for fantasizing of any nature, not just Shifting.

I say this as someone who experiences Maladaptive Daydreams.

Your average daydream as you stare out of a math class window is not the same as a maladaptive daydream.

“Maladaptive” means you have an excessive amount of daydreams to cope with or adapt to a problem, and it doesn't solve the problem, it just allows you a chance to disconnect from reality to survive. It's not a healthy thing. It's not something I always enjoy. I wish people were more informed on the subject but it's not it's widely known.

I genuinely just want to warn people about excessive daydreaming. I want people to be well informed about what can sometimes happen when you experience a disconnection from your sense of self or your sense of reality.

Hell, someone who's reading this might not even realize that there's a word to describe their Daydreams, and if that can at least help somebody understand that they're not alone, it's worth talking about.

[Maladaptive Daydreaming]

Ever since I was young, I've daydreamed excessively to cope with things my little mind should've never had to have dealt with. It's a form of dissociation that's continued into my adult life to kept me cope, and that's true for many other people. This condition isn't a very widely known one or even vastly studied, but it does fall under the dissociative umbrella.

Imagine being immersed in a world that is so much better than your reality, now imagine what it might feel like to be pulled out of that. In that sense, you wouldn't want to leave the daydream. That's why it can be so addictive. It can get to the point where it interferes with your life on a day-to-day basis.

I don't think there's anything wrong with daydreaming. I don't think there's anything wrong with having fun and imagining different universes. I think it's great that we can shape our minds to create so many wonderful things. I just worry for people who aren't informed about making sure that they are mindful in their consumption of fantasies.

I can spend hours at a time in a daydream, totally disassociated from the world around me, and while having these vivid daydreams can make for a great writing experience later on, it's not fun to lose hours of your day. It is addictive, as it is a lot better to be in a reality where everything goes the way you want it to instead of the one where we live, you know, where things don't always go right.

I've got a way better handle on this these days because I've got more tools and means to keep myself grounded, but the dissociation is still a part of my day to day life, even with progress.

I experience Derealization and Depersonalization in part because of this.

[A visual of Derealization vs Depersonalization].

I understand how people feel when they want nothing more than to be in a reality where they feel loved and cherished by characters who love them all the same. I get that, because that's where people start excessive daydreams when they are young, in most cases, not all of them.

I just worry for people who get too caught up in their fantasy that they forget to live in this reality, if that makes sense. We can "Shift", Daydream, or what have you any time, but at the end of the day, we live in this reality, and we can't change that.

We have to fight to make this reality a better one, even if this one doesn't feel as fun as holding Saeran Choi to your heart, you know?

Make this reality the one you want it to be.

Don't let yourself not have fun with fantasies, though, because there's nothing wrong with that. Make those CMCs and Self Inserts to have fun! I do it, too. At the end of the day, just be mindful of the way you consume daydreams and roads that help you shape realities in your mind, no matter the avenue you explore them because you deserve to have fun.

Keyword: Moderation in your teenage, young adult, or adult life.

#not mm #mod kait

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feisaru · 8 months

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Oooooo may I ask about 🫂 and 🎭 headcanons for Fei please?!

And if you're still up for more, than 👗 and 🧸 headcanons for Saru please and thank you! uwu///

Thank you so much for the ask! Sorry this took so long, I had to think about it

🫂: a hc about friendship

WHOA buckle up this one's a tad bit personal. Him and Saru have been in a "friendship" until they were around 20 years old. Maybe they updated the label to "BEST friends" once, but that was the peak of it (still was a huge step for Saru) (and this made me remember a really bad shitpost scenario ft. my OC). That's when Saru went "haha if it weren't for him, I would be dead by now, might as well just-" and pulled his head out of his ass (this means "stopped being a coward" for those who don't know) and really said "I love you" for the first time without beating about the bush (The reason Fei didn't feel the need to confess before Saru is a topic for another time but here's a hint: it was not because he was afraid of rejection). The thing is, by that point they had been kissing (and everything else basically) in high frequency for a few years already. Most things you'd think are a couple thing, they probably had done already. Their Something, as I like to call it bc that's how Saru started thinking about it one day as well, just had no real label beyond friends (which to Saru is already a special thing, anyway). And they didn't even really feel the need to label it. It was beyond categorization. Their special Something. I'm relatively new to this label in particular, but I guess this goes in the direction of the QPR domain (label that's v dear to me also). Yeah so turning their weird little beautiful Something into an official relationship was in and of itself just a matter of formalities. Quite literally almost nothing changed after they became official partners. But they sure do enjoy telling each other they love each other from that point on. (This makes me wanna reread the other times I've talked about this... damn)

Okay all jokes aside, the real hc was, Zanark and Fei actually get on pretty well. Fei gets on with a lot of people, sure, but Zanark is not so into being friends with everyone and he likes Fei a lot. He thinks Fei is amazing for still being the way he is, for not caving in and letting all that happened weigh him down forever although life has evidently dealt him a bad hand. But he also thinks Fei should most definitely not be shouldering all the burden by himself. I and a friend of mine agreed that it would have been nice if Fei had gotten to structure his thoughts in a more personal talk with someone before the final match. You know, unpacked a bit about Everything that was racing through his head, stated his motivations to someone, made up his mind on some stuff. More explicitly and in more depth and length than canon allowed him to. And even tho Zanark is no expert at comforting, we both thought that Zanark would have liked to check up on him. And Fei would have not had such a hard time explaining some things to him because they are from the same time etc etc. So we roleplayed something that you can imagine as a scene that happened off-screen. It was very very nice I loved that

🎭: a hc about what they lie about

Hard one. Fei doesn't lie a lot. He really sucks at that, as Saru mentioned once. He downplays things or avoids talking about certain topics altogether instead. So even if that's technically cheating, I'll tell you about that instead. He has a tendency to downplay his own feelings and needs. He wants to look after everything and everyone as much as he can and he forgets that he deserves breaks and somebody looking after him too.

👗: a hc about their clothing style

HHHH lotta thoughts on this one actually. But I'mma control myself. Saru is half This Guy Has No Fashion Sense, half Extra. He only knows how to dress when he really wants to. He's gender non-conforming about it. The harder you tell him he shouldn't wear this or that, the harder he wears it. Because he runs on spite. He will wear it because he can, fuck your whole life heteronormativity. He has overly specific kinds of clothes that he feels good in. He loves wearing heels because he is like the dog on the counter that likes feeling Tall.

Okay, so I don't get carried away any more, here's sth more specific: in his generally tad bit less bold first 3-5 years post-CS, he always found himself returning to oversized hoodies and pullovers. There was a rather simple black one that he wore often.

🧸: a hc about their childhood

Hah this one's hard... because these are the thoughts I really only speak about once in a blue moon, even privately with the people closer to me. Let me try and find something that won't feel so exposing (for lack of a better word) in my head.

Once again a beta hc that may change in the future: I like to think that similarly to Fei's rabbit, he once owned a monkey plush. Basically from birth on. I have not yet made up my mind about what exactly happened to it, but whichever was its fate, it wasn't good. Saru quickly grew to be not very fond of it because of who he got it from and what it stood for, to lightly put it. The plush has experienced his beginner attempts at externalizing his inner pain.

Ask game from which this is from

#yea i felt sappy up there dont touch me sniff #and locket #i wanna thank you for always being so kind #it really gets to me🫶🦔#feisaru receives asks #ask game #princesslocket #ask #the only thing that initially came to my mind for the last one was something im not ready to discuss yet actually thats why this took #hella long #inazuma eleven #feisaru

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asirensrage · 10 months

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I've been playing with the idea of expanding my "Dealing with Unwanted Attention" fic to a series. A multifandom one.

The fic I did, "Dealing with Unwanted Attention", was a small series of scenes of how characters from Demon Slayer would react to seeing someone deal with unwanted attention from a neighbour. I was considering just doing the same for other fandoms (like Tokyo Revengers, maybe MCU, etc) but then I thought...maybe I'd reach out and see what you guys think.

The interaction with the neighbour was based on a real-life situation I dealt with. What if we did other scenarios? I know I have a few, but I'd be willing to take examples or experiences from others. Thoughts?

#musings #fic ideas #fic: dealing with unwanted attention

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loose-cannon-wrestler · 1 year

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Okay, I gotta get out my bcc take just to clear out the sandstorm in my brain.

A lot of things hit hard and rang true in that segment. There is a lot of deep real life emotions and trauma and pain coming out in that segment. But some things rubbed me the wrong way.

Saying that someone will have to teach Mox's daughter to love him in spite of himself hurt a lot. It felt like by Bryan comparing their situations and relationships with addiction he was equivocating the two? And they're very different scenarios. Bryan lived through his father's illness. For Mox, (as far as the public is concerned) that's in his past. Lord willing, Mox's daughter will never have to experience what it's like to have a parent with such severe illness.

But as someone with various mental illnesses, that went untreated for years, that really fucked up some shit, I don't have to apologize to my new girlfriend for that. I've dealt with the situation and it's repercussions. I've apologized to those I've hurt and righted what wrongs I could. THOSE people love me "in spite of my past" bc they were THERE for it. Bryan was there for his dad's illness. Mox's daughter is not. She will have to confront it one day, but lord willing it will not be in the same way Bryan did. Those two situations are NOT the same.

Also I felt like bryan implied that the reason Regal betrayed them was because of his past illnesses and injuries? Like? What?

#personal #probably poorly written #cannot possibly convey my full feelings in words that make sense #i just know im a bit hurt #despite the many sincere emotional and personal truths that were part of that segment #im still a bit hurt by some of the comments and implications

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