Thinking about how the plot of season 6 wouldn’t make sense if you do not acknowledge the fact that Cas and Crowley working together was an affair, or at least it felt like so to Dean.

Majority of the people that I heard saying that they disliked that conflict, say that it doesn’t make sense because Dean should’ve understood Cas’ point of view. And that Dean has also worked with demons before, more than once, out of desperation. Which is why he doesn’t have the right to be mad. And I understand that. But it wasn’t about working with demons. No. Not really. The thing that hurt Dean the most about Cas’ choice was how he chose to ask for help from Crowley, instead of him. Cas chose Crowley over him.

“Look me in the eye, and tell me you’re not working with Crowley…”

“You’re in it with him? You and Crowley?? You’re going after purgatory together??? You have, huh? This whole time!”

“No, you had a choice. You just made the wrong one.”

“I was there. Where were you?”

The plot literally doesn’t make sense if you do not acknowledge destiel or crowstiel or deancascrowley. And I think that’s insane, especially for a show from 2005.

Men will go into the woods with other men

I read Misha’s poem, men go to the woods to kiss

Dean: running frantically around the whole Purgatory for a whole year looking for his angel

Benny: dude, I can get us home like right now...

Dean: keeps running frantically around the whole Purgatory looking for his angel

Benny: 💀💀

Purgaygory

in bennys words “what happens in purgatory stays in purgatory”

Team Purgatory

Art masterpost: the long hill home story by @angelcasendgame (starlingcas) art by @hawkland​ (sidewinder)

Yes, two days in a row I’m coming at you with new art, and today it’s my @deancaspinefest collaboration with the fabulous @angelcasendgame!  Do you love angst and longing? Do you love our Dean and Cas bloody and dirty and suffering while they pine? Do you love Purga(y)tory stories anywhere near as much as I do? If so, then you are going to love this story! 

I’ve been so giddy waiting to share these pieces for some time now—I’ve been sitting on that last one in particular since December as it was the first scene that jumped out at me from the story that I had to try to draw. I was so excited to have the chance to do my first portrait of Billie as well, and I really love how she came out.

renu was an amazing bang partner as well, so enthusiastic and encouraging and I really hope this story gets the love it deserves. <3

Read “the long hill home” at AO3

People out here like "why are you trying to make supernatural gay?" And like... the found family, religious trauma, free will as a main theme, angst, monster hunter/fucker, show? I think i just summoned all gay people???? Like be fr

Dean really is god's bravest soldier because me personally if I saw Purgatory Cas in person I would've kissed him right there

Happy boyfriends hugging

Today I learned that deancasbenny is sometimes called destiny and God. I’ve never seen such a name for a ship that’s equally poetic as it is ironic. I would’ve called it poetic irony but that would wrongfully imply that they’re given what they deserved. It’s hauntingly beautiful.

Happy Birthday Dean Winchester, you deserved to go on nature walks with your Angel boyfriend and vampire best friend. Honestly, how could they not fall in love in purgaytory

When I say slow burn, I absolutely mean that it took me 16 chapters for Dean and Cas to even kiss for the first time.

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All the while Benny and Dean were dry humping in the woods 😂

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The curious case of "How did you find me?" in S8, purgatory

Really, how did Dean find Cas?

Dean's answer to Cas' question "How did you find me?" is "the Bloody way." Yes, we all know Dean found Cas through torturing monsters, grilling them with the line "where's the Angel?" It's hot, it's cool, and what the writers intended was probably to show Dean's selflessness and loyalty towards his friend, for not giving up on looking for Cas even when he has a one-way ticket out of purgatory.

Let's think about the Watsonian perspective, however. Yes, think about what makes sense within the crazy universe of supernatural. Castiel ran off the moment he arrived at the purgatory with Dean because he wanted to protect Dean from the leviathans. "I've been trying to stay one step ahead of them, to-- to keep them away from you." Dean accuses Castiel of ignoring Dean's prayers ever since Castiel ran away: "I've been praying, Cas, every night." Dean has prayed to Castiel for a year, every day, and we know that Cas can hear prayers in purgatory (s15: "I heard your prayer.").

What makes sense from all of this is how Castiel managed to keep the leviathans away from Dean. If Castiel does not know where Dean is, Castiel cannot keep the leviathans away from Dean, he cannot stay "one step ahead of them" while simultaneously keeping them away from Dean if he did not already know that the direction to which he's leading the leviathans are a direction away from Dean, not towards Dean. Castiel, an angel of the lord, is a size of the Chrysler building. He's not the human vessel Dean sees him in. In purgatory, Castiel's real self exists by himself, which is massive. From Dean's prayers where Dean sheds information about his whereabouts and his future plans (For example: "I'm going north tomorrow to find you, Cas,") and from his own massive, numerous angelic eyes of his angelic form, it must have been easy for Castiel to know exactly where Dean currently was in purgatory. That way, Castiel can easily stay "one step ahead" of Dean and of leviathans, making sure that the two do not meet. That way, Castiel managed to hide himself from Dean's relentless seeking for a whole year. Simple. Makes sense. Great.

What does not make sense is that suddenly, all of a sudden, Dean finds Castiel. Castiel still wants Dean to be safe from the leviathans, and he still has the ability to run away from Dean wherever he is. So how and why exactly, when Dean started getting near Castiel, that Cas somehow suddenly did not know about it? How could Dean's basic human approach of torturing monsters for information and then walking towards wherever the monster suggested could ever beat Castiel's angelic abilities to see, hear and feel much far and beyond what Dean can do? Even without all the prayers and the angelic super-perceptive abilities, the fact alone that the massive being that is Castiel somehow did not catch Dean's footsteps as he approached near Cas does not make sense at all.

One hypothesis I came up with is this. Dean finds Castiel after he meets Benny. We don't know exactly how much time has went after Dean met Benny before he found Cas, but we do know that from the moment Cas meets Benny, he was, to say the least, wary of the vampire. The contempt and disgust when Cas denies being called Benny's "aunt" -- it seems quite uncalled for, especially when Cas just met him.

So what if the reason Dean found Cas was because Cas let himself be found? And what if Cas let himself be found, thereby risking Dean's exposure to leviathans, because he learned from the latest prayers from Dean that he was growing close to Benny? A little too close, maybe?

Cas, for an entire year, listened to Dean's prayers every night like a lullaby. He must have listened to them while his heart broke at how desperately Dean looked for him, how loyally Dean looked for him, knowing that the only way to keep Dean safe is to not grant Dean's wish. He must have told himself no, I cannot tell Dean the truth, Dean will never leave me behind if he knows the truth, therefore the only right thing to do is to avoid Dean at all costs, repeatedly, reminding himself the cause of his actions. And one day, Dean's prayer includes the name Benny -- Benny tells me I should sleep, but I can't just go to sleep while knowing that you're out there by yourself, man -- and it must have rattled Castiel, with worry (what friend can Dean ever make in a purgatory where there only are monsters?) and, as Benny appears in prayers more frequently and with more fondness, with jealousy. Who gets to be with Dean when I have to be away from Dean? Who is this Benny, who gets to protect Dean and watch over Dean while he sleeps and gets to earn Dean's gratitude for it? Who is this monster who somehow wormed their way into Dean's heart while Dean is resenting me for leaving him behind, for betraying him with Crowley, for not listening to him about being pseudo-God?

It just makes everything so seamless. Cas let himself be found because Dean's recent prayers include Benny a little too fondly which leads Cas to experience a moment of weakness in his resolve to keep Dean away from him. Cas, not wanting to reveal his possessiveness to Dean (for many reasons), fakes his surprise to being found by Dean. The moment he sees Dean, he glances at Benny warily, and he cannot hide his hostility against the vampire although they technically just met.

Cas, as expected, finds that Dean refuses to leave Cas behind; he also learns that Benny is not an evil creature (Benny saves Cas from a leviathan even when it would be more beneficial for Benny that Cas dies.). Cas believes that he deserves to be left in purgatory. Therefore, even though Cas let himself be found by Dean in a moment of weakness spurred by jealousy, as he finds his cool and reassesses his situation, his plan readjusts, with the same conclusion as before -- to stay away from Dean, to not let himself be found by Dean. Benny proving himself to be a decent being possibly let Cas feel okay about letting Dean go with Benny without Cas protecting him from the vampire.

Gif & image credit: @carveredlund and @imeaglejd

Daily Destiel 💙💚

Purgatory. It’s their place. 🥹😍❤️

Art Masterpost: Nice Like Author: MBQ (@mbqnoyolo) Artist: sidewinder (@hawkland) My art for the @bsideminibang!

I had to jump on a Purgatory story when I saw it up for claims and was happy to work with MBQ again (if you haven't, check out our collab for the @bottomcasbigbang earlier this summer, "Rutting Moon".)

I wanted to really embrace the B-Sides/music theme of the Bang, and had just picked up some very cool round watercolor blocks earlier this summer when I was in Italy. It seemed like they'd be perfect for this event (and I ended up really liking the texture/quality of this paper as well—Magnani Italia is the brand, if any of my fellow watercolor enthusiasts want to check it out.)

I imagined the title art to be like a 45/single cover sleeve, and the other two pieces to be "picture discs". The title art was meant to be a direct homage to Lord Huron's Strange Trails album cover. This was my first chance to do some Benny art, too, which was a lot of fun. I hope y'all like it, and do check out the story! Read "Nice Like" on AO3