Another day another accomplished disappointment

I know no one probably will see this but please I need help. I have the most fucked up sleeping schedule simply because I procrastinate going to sleep and everything I have to do beforehand like brushing my teeth and washing my face. For example, if I need to take a shower before going to bed I procrastinate until it’s like 9 in the morning because I don’t want to, then I fall asleep (without changing clothes or anything) because I’ve stayed up for too long, wake up in the afternoon (at like 5 pm) and repeat the same routine because well now it’s already so late and I need to eat something because I haven’t eaten all day and then when it’s like 10 pm again I continue procrastinating until it’s too late to shower and I repeat everything all over again. So I just continue this cycle of procrastinating doing basic self care, staying up too late and waking up when it’s already dark outside. I feel like I’ve tried doing everything to change this behavior but I always end up in the same routines. I don’t even know who to go to with this and I feel like I can’t do it alone. Please if anyone has struggled with this and knows what to do pls help me because it’s ruining my life.

Settled on some actual decisions. Reading Watership Down, finally. Plan to follow that with Dune (finally!) and hopefully it won't be November yet and I'll have wrapped up Songbirds and Snakes (finally!!)

Regarding the rabbits. I've never seen the original film, and due primarily to being extremely distracted by other things, I've only seen the first twenty minutes or so of the mini-series, the Netflix one. The majority of my familiarity with it therefore comes entirely from Stu Redman reflecting on it in The Stand, and the vague understanding that for a story about rabbits, it's fairly unpleasant (or at least, unforgiving).

Didn't read too much, so I don't really want to call this an official Day One for the simple reason that I chose to start it at a quarter from two in the morning, and I have to work early. So, Day Zero post, I guess.

Glancing over how this book is divided, I would sort of like to have finished Part I at least before the week is over. There's no reason, outside of work, Persona, and pretending to have a social life that I shouldn't be finished before August, so eleven days, about.

I'm only twenty-odd pages in, but Fiver is adorable. Reminds me a bit of an old friend of mine who was afraid of storms (yes, I'm talking about a cat). The fact that a society of rabbits has the need for a police force does entertain me. What sorts of crimes do rabbits commit? I know what the wild ones which occasionally show up around my house do, but I suspect the Owsla doesn't exist purely to punish bucks for disturbing cats.

Will have more to say when more actually happens (the rabbits are beginning their departure). So officially, I will be spoiling the book, sometimes lightly, sometimes majorly, as I progress.

I hate myself, why do I need to stay up so late?

Why?

I mean I have no reason to. It’s not insomnia, it’s not work. It’s. Just. Me.

Staying. Up. Late.

Am I going to be sleep deprived forever? All because it’s my fault?

How does one fall asleep?

Its a little past midnight right now but i don't want to go to sleep

enjoying season 10 immensely

Can someone please tell me to write that goddamn summary

Insomnia and Revenge Bedtime Procrastination

Future ADHD

playing with dionte's hair bc i'm procrastinating

Cody once again disappointed in me for still being awake at 02:22am

in. clover lives aus or aus where they choose to live in the underground whatnot. i think more ppl should play with the idea that their friends know Jackshit About Humans. please and thanks

You know what? I don't even care that I have to wake up early for work. It's two a.m, there are no more fireworks, I finally bothered to shave after like a month. It's quiet, and the universe, for once, seems to make just the slightest bit more sense.

There's a kind of bliss, late at night, that can simply never be obtained during the light hours.

+ og post !