"I learned it from watching you!"

The night of the Bor'dor betrayal, Prism is beset with this unchanging guilt. She'd usually go to her books for comfort, but not even that was working.

She knew she needed someone else to help her feel okay enough to sleep.

That someone was Ashton.

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For Prism and Ashton enthusiasts, I just put out a cute lil fic! Hope you enjoy!

CR3 EPISODE 64 SPOILERS

(im probably missing a bunch of shit since the episode just ended and im sort of rambling)

i did an oopsie and stayed up till 1 am tonight to watch the bells hells reunion and while i don't regret it, now that the party has been split again, im so sad. i understood they couldn't have stayed but it was still so hard.

deanna and frida especially just... fit too well, and i really really fucking hope nothing bad happens to either of them because mentally i couldn't handle it.

laudna and ashton vying for attention with prism was really funny and accurate because I'd argue that she had more a connection with them both. she still had very good chemistry with orym, so it was funny to see her claim him as a bestie.

i FUCKING LOVE AABRIA SO DAMN MUCH SHE'S PERFECTION. it sucks we don't get to see more of deanna and everybody else bc she has such a good spirit and her chemistry with every single person at that table is unmatched. gonna miss her and chetney as horny but beautifully intimate lovers, and im gonna miss her and fcg bickering, and im gonna miss her and fearne flirting, AND im gonna miss her and imogen's sweet dynamic of faith and understanding and comfort, AND im gonna miss seeing her and frida's unbreakable bond.

christian was a gift like no other, and i almost started bawling when fcg and frida had to actually come to terms with saying goodbye. i hope that frida stays safe, and that nothing happens to fcg, and i want them to be together for a long long long LONG time. it's what they deserve.

fearne and ashton had some...vibes this episode and i dig it because it's more fuel for my poly bells hells harem agenda

IMOGEN AND LAUDNA'S REUNION GOD I WISH THEY'D GOTTEN A MOMENT ALONE BUT THE CHAOS AT THE TABLE WAS TOO GOOD!!!! i am so happy that deanna picked up on the imaudna vibes and did her best to make it known that she SEES their bond. she's just like me fr. i love my witches. (also, i was watching laura the whole time laudna was fawning over prism and it's very funny how jealous imogen gets and poorly hides it behind smiles).

i would have liked to see ashton and Deanna become even closer but sadly we cant always get what we want but what we do have is CRUMBS which i will devour with no second thought.

KEYLETH IS ALIVE ‼️‼️‼️‼️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ injured but not dead, thank GOD. honestly i don't even wanna think abt vax rn 😭😭 all we need now is confirmation of beau and caleb's whereabouts..

‼️‼️I NEED THE NEXT EPISODE NEOOOOWWWWWWW MATT MERCER ‼️‼️

prism promising fresh cut grass that she will bring F.R.I.D.A. back safe, and saying “but I need you to promise to bring my new best friend orym back to me.” 🥹 (bonus: both laudna and ashton leaning into her field of vision as they hear this 😂)

I just want to say I'm really here for whatever was going on between ashton and prism toward the end there

anyone else feeling a bit of a vibe between Ashton and Prism?

Saltburn fic wasn't happening in my brain so i wrote critical role character study fluff to reset have some ashton and prism several months late

callowmoore, fearnechetney, prism x ashton, deanna X chetney

fearne and ashton

i was this close to getting a bingo thrice and i JUST missed it (that asterisk is reserved for people who are rude about it)

fearne and chetney

girl you know it

prism and ashton

not my favorite but i like it. tetris block of approval

deanna x chetney

if knittingwood has a million fans i am one of them . if knittingwood has ten fans i am one of them. if knittingwood has only one fan then that is me . if knittingwood has no fans, that means i am no more on the earth. if the world is against knittingwood, i am against the world. i love #knittingwood till my last breath. die hard fan of knittingwood

aabria iyengar please keep divorcing white men on critical role, you do great work. I want you to divorce matt mercer himself next.

Huzzah! My lab notebooks and label maker and page flags made it! I can get started on the reflection process shortly! Bonus photo of the collection of stuff I pulled together for my grad school altar reflection process.

Photo description: two photos. One has a blue notebook, a label maker and some extra label tape, and page flags in red, yellow, blue, and green. The blue notebook has some labels that say 2021- and Ashton. The second photo is a stack of four books and two small notebooks. There's also a blue box with a crystal prism in it and a box with Poco Graphite logos in a repeating pattern. One book is titled, "Diffuse X-ray Reflections from Crystals."

CR3 EPISODE 59 RANT

Okay so I've finally watched episode 59 and... it was so good. utkarsh as a fresh player is such a good addition to the table, i ADORE the way he plays because it's the lack of experience of the player really making the lack of experience of bor'dor that much more delightful.

aimee is always a joy to see and im so thrilled she brought deni$e into the fray because that's such an hilarious gag character. reminds me of travis making chutney his PC and it actually becoming a very good character. (miss you already pock o'pea 💏).

AND EMILY!!!! im more into cr than d20 but i fucking loved a court of fey and flowers so much and emily was an absolute fucking gem in that, and she was an absolute genius in neverafter. i've seen clips of her brilliance but getting TWO crits back to back almost immediately was fucking crazy, matt I'm praying for you fr. love prism, she's so funky and cool, and so autism coded. (just like bor'dor)

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on to the three hellians we're following this go around. taliesin and marisha are trying to ruin my life, im absolutely fucking convinced. marisha already knows how to pull on those imogen heart strings, just like Laura. and taliesin plays ashton as completely wired and absolutely determined to not fall apart even though they lost their shit pretty fucking immediately after they teleported.

ashton saying they'll do whatever it takes to find their people again, fuck saving the world, was just absolute gold. ashton and laudna's motivations have never struck me as particularly martyr like so their single-minded focus on making sure the band is back together was so refreshing i love them so much, i can't wait for more rp moments between them.

LIAM O'BRIEN. YOU ARE INSANE SIR.

i need ashton and laudna to give orym ten thousand hugs and never let my little guy go holy shit he is at his wit's end. all those little moments of trauma flashbacks just running through his head was just *chefs kiss* thank you liam. i know orym said he doesn't have anyone but that pause... that pause was both heart breaking and also gives me room to hope that liam is cooking up a slow burn for the ages. (peep taliesin's face the entire time orym was talking to deni$e -- ashrym nation RISE UP)

i do really hope that orym and ashton have more moments together, especially considering the conversation they had on the skyship about orym not always being able to be "the good one". i hope orym reaches out, and hell, if not then i am BEGGING ashton to reach out cause i really think this group in particular has one of the most best subtle emotional connections for ashton and i just djsjdkdkdl I LOVE THEM AND I WANT MORE ANGST.

CR3: EPISODE 62 RANT

Spoilers Below, duh.

All in all this episode was really fun. I really enjoy episodes that include a journey towards a destination and I love when each player has to roll for an outcome.

I liked the quiet moments between all of the characters as we're getting further into our time together and are becoming somewhat friends.

prism I think is the most likely to stay with the group (if that will ever even work out, like marisha said idk how they're gonna pull that off but i really hope we get a huge ass table full of players). bor'dor, who i am still incredibly suspicious of, seems genuinely distressed by his brother not being there and i think they brushed off the possibility that he got yeeted too quickly because it's honestly more than likely that it did happen. or he doesn't exist and bor'dor is a dog (I don't even like that theory it's just funny). denise seems like she just wants to find dariax, kick his ass and then get married and run off where ludinus can't touch them. i don't think she thinks that's possible but i really don't want her near the fray. dariax and the crown keepers seem like they're in the shit though.

orym didn't react to ashton bringing up the ashari (and i don't know if taliesin meant to say hishari but whatever) and (idk if i just forgot) but im pretty sure they still haven't talked about that since laudna encouraged ashton to speak with orym about it. i kinda remember orym not knowing about it but i could be misremembering though. either way, i think this particular episode ashton is... really desperate to figure themself out.

between asking orym to help him meditate on rocks (which was a really cute scene) to his interest in the skeleton embedded in the stone (plus the cool new shiny ring they got out of it) and the crystals at that creepy ass cavern -- i really hope he gets some answers soon. i have a feeling this might be the place to get it though, idk.

bor'dor seems to have the impression that the hellians think they're strong enough to stop the god eater but they don't even think they're strong enough to stop ludinus. they couldn't even beat otohan thull. they're not fighting because they think they can win, they're fighting because not fighting is no longer an option. there's nothing to do BUT fight. they know too much, and they have too much at stake to leave the battle.

imogen and orym especially. and there's no way in hell any of the bells hells will try to pretend to be okay with anything ludinus has done or will do. they know what he and his cult are capable of. I'm glad they got to express a bit of that though.

laudna called Imogen her sister but i lived through a time where dean winchester called the angel who is in love with him his brother so i didn't even flinch.

ashton got a massage from orym. it was appropriately sweet and hilarious. i think... orym might be one of the only people who consistently has touched ashton. i can't remember anyone asking explicit permission to touch him. i am so jazzed that they ENCOURAGED orym to touch them.

i think ashton has some of the best moments in their ability to create moments where between PCs where rp is at its finest. we haven't gotten another round of "what the fuck is up with that?" yet but that pipe was inspired. i love the little moments between him and prism. whenever ashton does something incredibly thoughtful they act like it's uncommon or a fluke and it's such bullshit cause he's SO consistent with his empathy. he's not a fucking public speaker by any means, but he has an energy around him that is unironically great to be around.

on a lighter note, my favourite moment (aside from the ashrym massage) from this episode is either orym praying to the wild mother or orym fucking hang gliding a eagle sized raven down a ravene. he's such a cutie.

i can't wait for the next episode. team issylra seems to think abadina betrayed them but i think the dude they're supposed to meet has been murked by whatever is in entombed. maybe it was set free by the same sort of dispelling magic shit that hit uthodurn and unpetrified the bull. if that's the case, hopefully this ends with the power of friendship prevailing as well.

CR3 EPISODE 63 SPECULATION

its like 3 am right now and im just thinking about the next episode. matt didn't mention deanna and frida, and he basically confirmed they did in fact make it to jrusar which i have honestly missed more than i realized. the moment ashton says they're going home i got this overwhelming clarity that they didn't just mean the place he'd been living. jrusar IS bells hells home in my eyes. i think bells hells is the kind of group that a willful separation in the future feels... unlikely. and i like it.

we're still in the shit now but i just can't think about anything beyond the character reunions and introductions.

i didn't expect deni$e to stay obviously, but i was worried that prism would leave so im so glad that emily misunderstood what was happening because she has no idea what jrusar looks like. it's PERFECT for prism and it means that i get to experience a little more of whatever the hell she and ashton have going on.

im a very firm believer in the slow burn potential of ashrym but it didn't really feel hard to attach to the chemistry that ashton and prism have together. it might not turn out romantic but i saw the vibes the same way i saw the love letters vibes immediately.

I CANNOT WAIT FOR THE GUESTS TO MEET THE OTHER HELLIANS. i can't even imagine what ashton's reaction to fcg and frida would be 😭😭😭 or his reaction to whatever deanna, fearne and chet's situation is now. i think that prism and fcg, prism and fearne, and prism and chetney will be very fun interactions.

when laudna and imogen reunite you will NEVER hear me shut up and im so serious. laudna needs her and i need them back together.

this is all me assuming that all the players will be at the table but i have hope they'll be able to squeeze in three more seats they have room for at least two, no? dusk joined just fine and it's not as big as it could have been