Tempted to do yet ANOTHER make over for my dead was-to-be-story-blog @/nervoqat but change the user and make it an oc kind of blog. Um.

i've noticed a bit of discourse over the span of me being back here about peer recognition &what that does to a person's mental on socials.

idk if it's because of my inactivity or because i've just been on tumblr for 10+ years but it really puzzles me when i see someone fretting over the amount of notes and/or social engagement their posts seem to lack. of course we as humans love peer recognition &validation but i'd hate to think that's all some people care to focus on when it comes to their blogs.

i think we all should be posting whatever we want without trying to calculate how many notes we'll receive on any one single post because that's setting yourself up for disappointment. if you're a simblr.. i'd like to assume you came here because you enjoy playing your game, creating content or using it as a creative outlet to express your form of individuality.. the notes in this case should sort of act as a bonus.

people have lost their heads.. ranting in txt posts about their content "flopping" or feeling like they don't belong here.. &it's just like.. take a deep breath.. it's okay.. you'll survive. also idk what flopping is when it comes to simblr, because.. if i get anywhere between 10-100 notes from loyal followers that have engaged with me from day 1, can recognize my OCs &are genuinely paying attention to what's going on (because they care that much).. that's a hell of a lot more rewarding to me than amassing 500-1k notes because a popular simblr randomly decided to reblog me that day.

please learn to love your game, your blogs, your cc & yourself. because what's the point of notes if you're not even genuinely happy with your game in the first place? you'll continue to have unrealistic expectations &end up in that rabbithole of forcing yourself to do tzrs, spam liking &reblogging others just to get that in return &trust me it comes off super fake &people will notice that too.

Bit of a (late) long-ass personal post, but this past year has been insanely monumental for me and a lot of it, if not almost all of it, was centered around this silly comedy show.

Starting the year adopting the most perfect cat in the world purely because he looked like Agent Jack Bauer, I've ended up meeting amazing people and making great friendships, both online and in person, I met Glenn and Charlie and MEE and Meg (and Humphrey) and Danny?? got my first tattoo, bought way too much whiskey, and I've just really, genuinely enjoyed my time posting on Tumblr, making shit, and writing fic more than I have in half a decade. It's stupid, and sappy, and probably pretty parasocial, but I owe so many of my best experiences this past year not only to the show, but to joining this community. Because I wouldn't have experienced much of any of this if I hadn't jumped the casual fan on r/IASIP ship and washed up ashore here. And being here has improved my life and my mental health in ways I can't even begin to properly express.

So here's a photo dump of what I have to dub "A Very Sunny 2023":

To everyone here, thank you for being a part of my 2023. I'm not sure what 2024 has in store, but I'm happy I'll be here, creating and experiencing whatever it is, through and beyond.

you have the best atla takes

thank you i think the secret to having good atla takes is watching the show as a kid and becoming so obsessed with katara (and azula and toph, but mostly katara tbh) that the narrative ferments in your brain for years until all your opinions about the show have developed like a fine wine with subtle flavors and undertones or whatever wine people say. and also—and this part is very important—you must vehemently hate the united states of america.

so like..

is the idea that as a compromise to only having to toggle off tumblr live once a month, you now have this permanent tumblr live icon regardless of ur setting choice stuck to the bottom in the middle of everything in the hopes that i click on it accidentally anyways even though it's clear i don't want it or? where is the NO 100% STOP GIVING ME THIS SHIT I DON'T ACCEPT YOUR POLICIES AND LITERALLY COULD NOT CARE LESS ABOUT TUMBLR LIVE AND WILL NEVER BE INTERESTED IN THIS TYPE OF FEATURE OR FORMAT.

@zingring @photomatt @humans idk how many feedback requests people have to cut tumblr for "no" to just be a valid response here. ppl aren't dumb and see u inching over the line trying to force this on them despite the snooze choice.

what, are there so many ppl snoozing and such a low adoption rate that you know you need to trick users into using it so you can "make number go up" or? 🙄

getting actual scene ideas for the whole 'the girl still exists in termina as an expulsion of the god of fear + hungers hope+contentment ragnvaldr+friends had instilled in her and is now augusts weird kind of kid who snuck onto the train w him bc she wanted to see le'garde' idea. head in my hands

rest in peace michael afton you wouldve loved the pokemon games

it’s that time of year where i want to remake my blog so so so bad it’s unreal and then i don’t. lol

now that dsmp season 1 has ended, are you gonna keep watching season 2?

ah i'm pretty sure the other members have more plot/lore/episodes planned before the end of volume 1, it's only wilbur's character's finale that's done. so there's still a bit of content planned for volume 1.

and to be honest, i probably won't keep up with volume 2. at least not in the way that i did for volume 1. regardless of criticisms people have about wilbur's finale, i think the fact that it Exists and was Released gave me the final bit of closure i needed to put the dsmp's content officially behind me. my life looks completely different now than it did two years ago, so i simply don't have the time or intense interest anymore. and i genuinely find it more fun to engage with the fan community we've built and the people i've met along the way than to spend hours and hours watching streams. im just here vibing in the garden i helped grow.

hope that's not too disappointing. tho i'm pretty sure no one here is following me for my dsmp content anyways loll

Having a post get popular enough to be independently reblogged by someone you follow but aren't mutuals with is. Wild

i need to find tumblr blog of that f1twt thief soon i absolutely despise that person 🥴

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whew... i just cleaned up my saved urls... deleted every url i never used bc i will probably never use them anyway.

also, heads up, im changing to @ babieken soon for as long as this vixx promotion lasts (which probably isn't that long).

do we have anyone from my babieken era here?????hello???

can we talk about how hard it is to be a poc in iwtv fandom though?? its awful cause while i ship loustat i ship it in the sense i want them back together only in like season 12 or whatever the final season is but almost all the non-white ppl i interacted with on twitter during the start of the show just hate the ship now (which ofc i don't blame anyone for but they made good content and had good discussions back then so its a shame) but i also avoid the white side of fandom like the plague cause they got weird about louis by episode 3 and refuse to even acknowledge the abuse. there's like maybe 5 people total who aren't completely antis but who also don't woobify lestat its HORRIBLE ur my only hope!!!

awwww anonnie…. I felt like this too and of course sometimes still do for like all fandoms but I think the best thing you can do re iwtv is to not go on iwtv twitter 🥺 the loudest ppl on there are doom posting, the whites on there are doing modern rendition of white mans burden or heart of darkness in real time, some of the poc on there just just realized they’re poc like three months ago and don’t know how to engage w things or define their world outside of white ppl and some of them don’t actually like the show 😭 i noticed that i was only able to start really enjoying engaging w ppl when i got on tumblr and there really are so many more ppl who are having a good time than not, the annoying ppl are just allllways the loudest. you’ll never be able to enjoy yourself if you keep having to see tweets by ppl whose analysis of the show starts and ends w louis/armand/claudia being poc—both the white book fans angry at this and the ones infantilizing jacob/assad/bailey—so it’s in part just coming to terms w not seeing everything and not feeling obliged to keep speaking about it w so just bc they had good takes for the first 2 eps before the show got real 😔 i hope it doesn’t seem like I’m just putting all the onus on you! i’ve just kinda learned this by fire if that makes sense like my last fandom was so miserable that iwtv fandom doesn’t even phase me that much bc I’m almost numb about it but idw you to not enjoy the best show in the entire world and the doom posters and racists are not going to stop doom posting and being racist so sometimes all you can do is tell them to Jill themselves and log off… and that can be very freeing!! i hope this was helpful in any way :-( but dw EYE will always be here for u w complementary loustat brain rot that prioritizes louis hole and lestat death above all else 🫂 if no one else got u i got u🥺😔

i love having dc mutuals! would love to follow one some day…