funny

i wanna write this thing where y/n and scara r like.. rivals in a modern au and yk they end up making out in the end cus like theyre arguing and how does it happen? Reader is sarcastically flirty but scara is flirtier. (IDK HOW TO WRITE IN THE NORMAL GENSHIN WORLD YET) but.. i also have this other thing up my sleeve bc i have an oc and i rly RLY want to write their backstory into an angst type of series... and i just know itll fit with one of the cold boys of gi or those u can headcannon like rly well in acting but has no ffeelinggfss... iil write both but which one should i write first

sometimes i wish my mum actually poisons my food and i won't be surprised if she does

i wish i knew how to make everything okay. I get so jealous when people know what to do with their emotions. it frustates me so much that you cant ask people how to deal with emotions. Everyone makes it seem like it is so easy. I push everyone away and I am actively working on pushing away those around me. my life is so good. it is so much better than what it used to be. I have a sweet girlfriend that is always so nice to me no matter what. and her friends are so sweet and nice and always make me feel so included. I live in a house where i no longer have to walk on eggshells. sure i have a lot more responsibities now but at least not every aspect of my life is micromanaged like crazy anymore. WHy cant i be happy ? why do i push people away ? why do i get so angry when people are sweet with me and have so much patience. why do i always try to ruin everyting for myself. why do i always settle when i know there could be more? still ? at the same time why nothing ever enough for me ? how can i deal with this ????????? everytime i try to look for the answers somewhere theyre always the most dumbass stupid basic ass duh ass answers inthe world. like yes obviously i need to love myself more and have more fucking compassion for myself but how do i even fucking do that?????? im so fucking mad right now so fucking frustragted i wish i could smash this computer in to pieces. i wish i couild die its not worth its not worth its not worth its not worth its not worth it. it genuienly doesnt matter how much i fucking try to make things better all my progress is always dilluted in to fucking nothing. i cna never have fuciogh as;l ;rvseagfdtgrfjgrjji73

assorted doodles and noodles because again, i am insane

idol au stuff, at/fc au doodles, more priest kink moment, and stupid shirts (below the cut)

ME WHEN THE GODDAMN FANFIC I'M CURRENTLY READING JUST KEEPS GETTING BETTER BUT IT'S UNFINISHED AND THE LAST UPDATE WAS MONTHS AGO AND AND AND. I SWEAR TO GOD I'M GOING TO FKCN KMS.

Anyone else just ever get the feeling like

It’s bedtime

You’ve done nothing else all day

you’re tired as fuck

and then you actually get to bed, and sleep is just AWOL? Sleep is the equivalent of a braincell in a horror movie. Sleep is the equivalent of a cat when you want a hug. Sleep is the equivalent of a teacher when you know the fucking answer. Sleep is the equivalent of a coherent thought or argument against your parents. 

There is no justice for me, cause I’m still awake.  

Do any other emotionally damaged and broken people want to be friends and try to act like normal people even though we all just want to kill ourselves?

Wow, did I deign to make a new art? :0

Yes, I decided, so that the blog would not be empty, to upload a simple article with a beautiful young woman! (the second favorite character from Undertale :>)

I think now I can officially disappear for another month :Dd

(p.s work on the WLY character checklist is still ongoing... I am tired..... plskillme,_,)

2 new standee prints for no reasons lmao plskillme

source: plskillme t-shirt

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I really am a disappointment, ain't i?

Is it just me

I do this weird thing in the middle of the night where I'm tryna sleep but my mind comes up with embarrassing things I could've done.

Like I didn't do them, but I will imagine them and cringe to myself.

me: ah, finally time to sleep after a long da-

brain: HEY DO U REMEMBER HOW TODAY U BOUGHT THAT STARBUCKS

me: yeah?

brain: WELL WHAT IF U ACCIDENTALLY SPILLED IT ON URSELF AND EVERYONE STARTED LAUGHING AT U AND U BECAME A MEME

me: AHHHHHBSDKEFGYEFH WHY

I am not sorry

bro like pls my eye so mudafukin tired. I REALLY FEEL THE URGE TO CUT AGAIN SPWOKXNQND I - PLEASE i want to sleep and i’m very fucking tired and my one side of my eyes is like blinking slower. also sorry that i long timeno

update. I’ve just been lazy to journal lolz. also i hate my. That’s it. i hate my.

socioqodiqkdkwk

it’s u know- i’m. how now la cb. my intrusive thoughts are back. Time for incest porn. fml. Not @ me thinking about harming myself and people i cherish. :D i’m terrified. omaolaoya. Oh and kimchi so good. EVEN THOUGH IT MAKES MY BREATH SMELL LIKE SOUR DOG SHIT. but no cap shits good.

i also don’t think scratching out ur loved ones face is very normal. I know it’s not normal BUT WAHT DA FAWK AM I AUPPOSED TO DO. IM JUST

rip. my knife mad rusty so i scared the rust will like kena infecriom or some shit . but jesus fucking did it make shit feel slightly better. i really was clean for the past sixmonths. And now i am d i r t y. honestly why am i like this.

which mtf biTCH MADE ME LIKE THOS YES I AM PUHLAYING THE BLAME GAME BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO FEEL LOLE THOS. I ONLY WANT TO KILL MYSELF

stop making me aroused to incest porn da fawk. i d w to fuck step dads. i only want step washing machine .

so anyways i really don’t understand why i so toksik la tbh. No excuse for it legit. i’m feel so bad. i feel like a person as dysfunctional and unhealthy and disgostang as me shouldn’t be with someone so... normal and healthy ig. Yo can’t ever imagine having supportive parents yo yo ... where can i sign up please take me. Like please he’s trying his best and ima be horse shit. He’s going to be tired of me and it’s gonna fucking hurt so bad purr. and ima have to find shit to fill the void. but if he leaves me, he wins. literally. nobody deserves to get with me, like nobody should have to suffer with me.

it’s just difficult. I’m sorry but i might accidentally unbag several experiences of my childhood trauma.

sorry gurlie 💆🏻‍♀️✂️ but i’m just mad that my mom didn’t just CHOKE ME HARDER. probably why i so into choking la deng , kinks are formed so as to reenact traumatic experiences under a controlled and somewhat ‘safe’ environment where you are the one in charge. also tip: put fingers around back and like idk how explain but yeah anyways, i’m mad at my mom for being toxic. and i’m more mad at her for not being toxic enuf to kill me.

why didn’t u just kill me why didn’t u just kill why didn’t u just jul me why didn’t u just kill me aozkwkkxkwks i hate everybody i hate everybody die die die dude i want to die I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE PLEASE FUCKING KILL ME PLEWSE PLEASE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO SOE NOTHING IS EVER ENOUGH LZLWODOWKKDKS

i’m . maybe i’m gonna get better. i got through 2014,2015. It gon be cool. Just kinda hate it la when ppl compare toxic relationships LOL at least ur mother din take out knife because u don’t know 加減乘除 loh deng.

but rn i kinda mad she dint stab me la. and wow why my dad so hamsap. sometimes i’m scared to dress up. i’ll probably never forget that time. pls stop scratching ur dick lol it’s more traumatising than funny :D.

i just wish a car fucking bangs 9 me and kills. air will be the best bang of my life BABAHAHAHA. sohai i damn funny sia.kekekekekelek

ok la hope i die in my naps or something. and like hope ev realises his worth and that he shouldn’t stoop so low. He’s just too innocent for all this man. i’m thinking about selling my soul to capitalism and working my ass off just to be placed at a value of THE bare minimum.

You don’t need to worry about what you have to do in the future and work to get out of this ass country. WE ARE NOT THE SAME.

ok srs bye liao . i need to like scroll tiktok before i think about some blood and killing and the time we were at china and i thought about this big drill thing that had spikes all over it shaped like an ice cream cone then i imagined it jabbed onto my ... birthgiver. It felt scary yet satisfying.

i swear i not murderer tumblr pls dun block me ah. I AM LIKE 30% EQUIPPED WITH HEALTHY MINDSET. i am cognitively empathetic . ig idk la i go scroll timtok liao so idt about shit...

FUCK SHIT FUCK SHIF FUCK