"I told you I would always come for you. Why didn't you wait for me?" "Well, you were dead." "Death cannot stop true love. All it can do is delay it for a while." "I will doubt again." "There will never be a need."

True love! a bit ineffable, wouldn't you say?

I think that Good Omens is similar to The Princess Bride in that both are full of humor and maybe don't take themselves too seriously, but are also full of love <3

Happy Valentine's Day! Have a little silliness and a smooch!

more princess omens

yay i decided to release pt 2 today already! i have nine more participants left, they will be coming within the next few days for sure. already read for most of them <3

compatibility readings ˏˋ ꒰ ♡ ꒱ ˎˊ˗ pt. 2

pls remember this isn't a romantic reading. i just took a glimpse into what your connection itself has the potential to be like. take it with a grain of salt and as a form of entertainment only! don't get mad if you don't hear what you wanna hear ᰔᩚ thank you

lm 🌕🌑 with namjoon

10oc, 6osw, 7ow, tow, 9osw+2ow

+ so, the main vibe i get for you two, is bonding over your similarities and complementing each other in your differences. with the 10 of cups jumping out immediately, it's evident that both of you, being virgo suns, are highly perfectionistic people. this would make for a harmonious relationship. you both have high expectations for yourself and each other, and both of you are willing to work on the relationship in order to keep it strong. i can see namjoon and you are both very resilient and solid in dealing with challenges, you wouldn't be afraid of obstacles. even in stressful moments, the two of you would do an amazing job at approaching any issue with your patient and balanced but courageous and brave natures.

knoc&aceop, know

- hm, there is this clear lack of development i can see here. with the two knights and the ace of pents, i feel like you two would start out on a good solid foundation based on sweet and positive feelings, but would struggle progressing in your relationship. i keep feeling this frustration here, that might be a result of your desire for the relationship to get somewhere more significant, but it continuing to be stuck at the same level. is there a possibility that you can sometimes feel conflicted between being more of a slow-moving and patient person, but having that flighty aries energy in your rising sign? that's what i'm kinda feeling here.. like, you truly aren't someone to rush your relationships, but can still find yourself a little dispirited by things progressing too slowly.

ky 🌌 with sunoo

kingow, jus, 6ocrx&5ocrx, 4oc, knosw

+ so what i immediately got, is your relationship being of very warm nature. one where you push each other to be more confident and brave. a dynamic where you feel accepted for who you are, without feeling like you need to change in order for the other to like you. since both of you have strong cancer and aries energy in you, there is this natural understanding and non-judgemental vibe to your dynamic. i can just see the both of you letting out your frustrations and worries with each other, being able to just talk everything out in a raw manner without filter. i understand both of you can be very sensitive and might sometimes have this habit of feeling attacked a little quickly.. it'd be a comfortable thing for you to embrace your true self when with one another, freely talking about things that bother you you in life. i can see both of you whining together 😆 very cute dynamic.

queop, aceoc, emperrx, 4ow+3oc

- being very similar to each other can often be both, a blessing and a curse. although you'd be very understanding and tolerant with one another, there could also be the danger of you encouraging some of each other's more "bad" habits. since both of you are very emotional people, who can sometimes get overwhelmed by your feelings, your relationship could lack structure, and be in need of more level headed and rational energy. if you two ever fought, things would be messy. both of you might get overly emotional and kinda stubborn sometimes. like not wanting to consider the other person's side of the story, and feeling attacked and offended over even trivial things the other says. your relationship can be prone to lacking balance and stability.

lc 🌻 with johnny

5osw&pagow, judg, 7ow, kingoc

+ johnny and you could have a very meaningful relationship that has the potential to have a nice and positive impact on both your lives. there is this major feeling of understanding and supporting each other's ideas and goals in life. i feel like both of you have similar values, in the way where you're eager to overcome any type of hopeless situation with an eager and enthusiastic approach to it. both of you could have very powerful talks about life and what it is all about. i keep getting this feeling that both of you are people who aren't that easily discouraged. even if life hits you with a situation that seems hopeless and lost, both of you would still be ready to face whatever difficulty might hit you. you're always ready to learn from life, and believe that that's part of becoming a more mature and resilient person. there'd be a lot of encouragement and positive impact in this dynamic.

6osw, dev&mo, fo

- i can tell you're someone who's very loyal. once you start a relationship of any kind, it's important for you to hold on to it. johnny is a free spirit. someone quite freedom-loving, a person who takes life a little less seriously. i believe that the clash of values in that regard, could cause you to feel let down and betrayed to an extent. you might feel like you're the only one who dedicated so much of yourself to the relationship, which could cause this tough hit to your ego. you'd feel a little silly, like you really put so much of yourself into this dynamic, just for him to take it so lightly? you'd feel confused and wonder if he really cares about your relationship as much as you do.

fl 🧁 with jake

kingop, 4oc, knosw, tow, pagoc, emper, 5oc

+ your relationship could be pretty stable! there could be a lot of encouragement and support in your dynamic. especially you being of more rational nature compared to jake, could have a nice impact on him, whenever he might get overwhelmed or lost on how to move forward. your energy could ground him in ways which could be very beneficial to his confidence and bravery. are you the friend that's known to be reliable? like this friend that often becomes a stable rock to their loved ones? i believe that, even while you carry that solid energy in you, you also seem to have a patient and softer side to you. like you're there for your friends when they need a shoulder to cry on, and approach their problems in this very tolerant and non-judgemental way. i get this feeling that jake would genuinely appreciate this side of you, and you two would bond a lot over both just being sincerely nice people. like both of you truly give me this energy of upright and kind hearted people, who dislike conflict and enjoy harmony.

kingosw, 5op, aceop, mo, 9osw, temp

- you might have some problems with jake, when it comes to vulnerability and honesty on his side. being a scorpio stellium, he can often struggle displaying his raw emotions and thoughts in an open manner. you seem to be someone who values honesty in your relationships, a person who doesn't like it when someone beats around the bush or gives you mixed signals. this clash in your personalities could result in you feeling kinda unappreciated and confused. you wouldn't like the fact that you struggle figuring him out sometimes, meanwhile you yourself are always so real with him. and although you are pretty honest, i can tell you don't like offending or hurting people, or ruining the harmony between yourself and others. so you'd have some problems confronting him about it directly.. i can see some arguments or conflicts just remaining unresolved because of this, and this possibly standing in the way of your relationship progressing further.

jp ✨ with jay

7ow+temp, pagofp, 7oc&10op

+ so, you two seem to have some significant differences, that can make it seem like your dynamic could be more difficult. however, the cards are telling me that both of you being of very understanding nature, will find the necessary patience to make the relationship work regardless. i can tell that while you are someone full of passion and fire, there's still this sense of balance in your approach to challenges, which can be very beneficial for building stable relationships. jay and you can both have this modest and practical quality to you, where you're ready to acknowledge the ways in which you're still lacking and the things you need to work on. just like jay, you also seem very eager to be the best person you can be, especially when it comes to your relationships. there's this more realistic quality to you, that makes you acknowledge things for what they are, and identify the areas you need to put more effort in, in order to get to this place of stability you're eager to reach. you also seem to share this trait of having quite high expectations with jay, so both of you are able to push each other to improve yourselves for the sake of your relationship.

4osw, char, 5oc, kingow, 3osw

- hm, are you someone who might get a little impatient sometimes? i get this feeling that, you're someone who always wants to keep things moving, someone who's very eager to keep your relationships "alive". it seems that, if someone ever.. for example, doesn't text you back as fast as you'd like, you might have the tendency to worry deep inside. like "did i say something wrong? is he bored of me? what do i do?" you can get scared of people losing interest. this can cause you to get very eager to gain their attention back, which can backfire sometimes. especially someone like jay, who has more slow moving energy to him, might get overwhelmed by your abundance of energy. i can see you maybe doing some things more impulsively sometimes, and later regretting being so overly passionate about it. (side note, as a sag sun myself i totally get what that's like 😅)

eugene 🥠 with hongjoong

9oc&temp, wor&5osw, 3oc&sun, jus

+ oh, you two actually make quite a nice match! you can bond a lot over your more fun-loving and brighter sides, spend a lot of lively and pleasant times with each other, filled with laughter. i really just keep seeing you two joking and giggling together, it's quite sweet. it seems like this natural harmony between you two has the potential to fulfil and enrich both of your lives in a very nice way. like, you know those people you meet, and you're just so glad you came across them, because they match your energy and character so well. that's the feeling i'm getting with you two. very complimentary personalities. it'd be quite drama-free, i believe that the two of you would bring the more optimistic and positive side out of each other. one of the most pleasant energies i've read for in this game.

kingop, aceow, pagoc, 2ow, kingoc

- hongjoong is a very very mature guy. he does seem to have two very different sides to him, one that is very talkative, fun and cheerful. but, there also seems to be a very serious side that, i feel like might intimidate you in some ways. you have such sweet and more innocent energy, very dreamy and sensitive. hongjoong can be of sensitive nature, but he seems to carry a darker and pretty heavy side to him, which could get a little much to softer people. there could be this clear gap and difference in perspectives. he might see you as a little overly delusional, like you just have your head in the clouds too much or are too optimistic, while you might see him as overly serious and negative at times.

thank you for reading and participating ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ pt 3 (last one) coming soon!

Celestial Live-Reacts: STP 2.1, 'The Star Gazer'

(SPOILERS AHEAD, as you might imagine! Read down at your peril)

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- Uhm I'm sorry is this the opening to Ctrl+Alt+Del AND A Good Day to Die at the same time, HAVE YOU READ MY FICS CBS 👁👄👁

- This is a James Bond opening sequence

- He's so proud he knows Romulan, bless him ❤

- Oh, HE is dead! The more you know

- ... Yeahhhh, no. What *is* this romance nonsense? When has there EVER been anything between him and her?

- ... Awkward...

- Baby!card! 😍 All adventure and adorable

- "Why have you chosen to be alone?" "Idk queen not sure where my immortal husband's at rn"

- I love how English his mother is 😂❤ Really sticking with the theme there of being the most English French people ever. Also I love her and she's a girl boss 😍

- Earl grey, cold 🤣

- What *is* Laris talking about, that this has been building for a while? From WHERE exactly, pls explain

- THEY GAVE ELNOR A THING 🖖 Bless up, king ❤

- Hologram Rios! Seven! Beautiful folks everywhere 😍😍

- Is that the AGT phenomena?

- No synth ban; only progression

- Oh hey Agnes, it's once again hugely ambiguous to see you

- Soji's hangout is glorious, my god

- Rios is a captain again???? Like, an official one????? Bless him, he got over his shit 😍

- ... Anyone else forget that these two had sex?

- Sulu reference!

- 'Chancellor of the Academy', much wow

- "You two are so damn self-sufficient, happy to travel the stars..." 🤔🤔🤔

- Elnor has gone from confident young adult to overly tall child lmao

- "Live a little" 😂 I love him so much ❤

- Raffi/Picard friendship is gorgeous.

- Stargazer!

- 'Cigar in the captain's chair' is a VIBE 😍

- "Help us, Picard"????? ... Is that the fucking Continuum?

- BIG MOMMA G 😍 Welcome back Queeeeen ❤

- This bar music is a jam 😍

- "But you'll always be 'captain' to me" - amen ❤❤❤

- "With you pushing a century and me pushing several, I don't really think that at our age we should be reserving anything" 😂😂

- El-Aurians only age 'if they want to'? That's lore, kids

- Another beautiful male/female friendship! They can do it!

- "It's not as if I haven't loved before - I have, sometimes quite deeply." "But always with those that would only be temporary." "That's not entirely true -" "- So you'd never have to fear any of them taking root."

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"The problem isn't time, it's you."

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"You've been on your own for nearly a century - why, what's holding you back?"

Okay so a. this is hilariously Qcard and b. a beautiful character piece ❤ Fascinated by whatever this is alluding to, too?

- Oh hello, Admiral Great-Hair 😍

- ... Are you trying to tell me that the Q want in to the Federation, what in god's name

- Picard @ Laris: aight imma head out babe 🖖

- Borg stuff?

- IT'S THE BORG. OHHHH. Never mind my dumbass theories then... they want to join the Federation? Are they sick of getting their arse handed to them by Janeway?

- Nice bit of looping back to the beginning

- "We wish for peace", they say, walking in like the cyber fuckparty from my most vivid vodka nightmares

- Doc Ockto-borg????? That's a new take...

- Curse your sudden but inevitable betrayal!

- "We're out of options" - swear Rios says exactly that in Ctrl+Alt+Del, and Picard definitely blew himself up for Tapestry Day... and I had a bloody countdown... just call me Benjamin mes amis, I'm a prophet out here

- "Noooon, je ne regrette rieeeeen" 😂 Come on slut, get in the damn frame already 😍

- That was quite the flash... bit pissed off, are we mon dieu? Of all the men in the universe to kill, they have to kill yours huh?

- WELCOME BACK SLUT 😍😍😍😍👁👄👁

- "Oh dear, you're a bit older than I imagined - let me catch up." HAHAHAHA yes! Absolute perfection ❤❤😂 He de-aged just to age, that is phenomenal, and exactly what I wanted - just making a mockery of the whole concept

- "You've been talking a lot about second chances - well, my friend, welcome to very end of the road. Not. Taken." ... Fucking HELL 😍❤👁👄👁

Dear. Sweet. God ABOVE. What a fucking start lads 😍

Celestial rating: 7/10.

Relationships out of nowhere, some great leaps of time more or less waved away though still mostly nice to see, but a deeply fucking compelling narrative, and those last fifteen minutes? Wow.

... I have high hopes, dears...

yandere mammon content, pls . . . i just want some content with the idiot demon because he's so cute. like, even if mammon would be possessive as hell as a yandere, he'd probably wouldn't actually do anything that bad to his darling and that's why i'd choose him over his brothers any day. also bc i'm a morosexual and he's stolen my heart, but that's not the point-

I think I may have a soft spot for certain idiots. Not all of them, just the overly confident morons who don’t have a sense of self-preservation or the brain cells needed to think things through. Mammon was wormed his awful little way into my heart, understandably.

TW: Implied Physical Abuse, Threat of Physical Harm and Toxic Mindset/Relationship.

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The cut on his shoulder had started bleeding, again.

It was trying to patch-up a leaking boat, when Mammon got into one of his spats. His shirt was off, already deemed irreparable and thrown away, allowing you to look over your work like a practiced sculptor circling an untouched block of stone. An entire roll of gauze had been wrapped around his bicep, medical tape and cotton balls forming a trail from his collar-bones to his knuckles, and you were starting to think you’d need a cold-compress or two before the swelling on his jaw agreed to go down. It was almost impressive, how beat-up someone could get in such a short period of time. You couldn’t have taken your eyes off him for an hour, and yet, you still had to come back to a beaten, bloody demon-shaped mess sprawled across your bed and a note from one of his brothers asking you to ‘deal with him’ once he woke up.

You swore under your breath, tearing open another band-aid with your teeth and slapping it over the injury haphazardly. It did little to stop the on-coming flow, but gave you a momentary comfort, enough so to let you unwind and glance down at the boy on the edge of your bed, his own gaze fixed sternly on his lap. He always refused to look at you, during times like this. You used to think it was malicious, that he was embarrassed and unwilling to admit he’d ever crawl for a human for help, but considering the blush currently dusted over those tan cheeks, you had your doubts about your initial theory.

“What happened?” You asked, if only to clear the air. “It looks like you tried to fist-fight a pack of rabid dogs.”

“You’re not far off,” He mumbled, sighing, the ghost of a smirk already playing at his lips. It was more of a reflex than anything, an effort to lighten whatever he was about to say, but you knew him well enough to recognize one of his pacifying tactics as soon as it appeared. “You should’ve seen those ugly bastards. A real group of delinquents, even by my standards. They weren’t what did me in, though.” He paused, dramatically, as if the tale of how he’d ended up unconscious on your mattress was some epic conquest he just had to pass on. “I’m the second strongest for a reason. If someone put me over their knee, assume it was the big guy down the hall himself.”

Laughing, you took a step back, admiring your work. He looked better than he had, but that might’ve only been because you couldn’t see how scraped-up he was, anymore. Absentmindedly, your cupped his chin, tilting his head up back to check on the bruises forming around his neck. Choking was always Lucifer’s favorite way to start off his ‘lessons’. But, Mammon didn’t seem to mind your investigative efforts, leaning into your palm without his usual self-imposed restraint. “That’s not what I’m asking.” You paused, attempting to find the right words. “Why did you get yourself hurt? Don’t tell me they were the ones who started it, either. I’m not falling for that.”

He didn’t answer, and you pulled away, earning a stifled pout. “What if they were, this time–”

You cut him off, crossing your arms. “Mammon.”

“Fine.” The submission was abrupt, but nothing less than what you’d expected. Still, the strong arms soon wrapped around your waist managed to catch you off-guard, Mammon swiftly dragging you closer to him, only stopping once you were standing between his legs. He didn’t waste time, burying his face in your chest, attempting to muffle his voice as much as he was able to. “They… they tripped you. I had to do something.”

“What?” The question slipped out before you could stop it from doing so. “I don’t remember that.”

“They did.” His hold on you tightened, the pressure on your back quickly growing crushing. “You might’ve not noticed, but they did, I’m sure of it. And since I’m your first-guy and all, I had to do something. You see that, right?” You felt him shift, moving to stare up at you. Looking for approval. “And… you’re proud of me, yeah? Lucifer said you wouldn’t be, but he doesn’t know anything. You’ve got to be happy I was nice enough to rough ‘em up for you.”

You relaxed, but it wasn’t out of relief. You’d gotten so used to disappointment, you nearly welcomed it, especially when Mammon found it so easy to inspire so much of it. “We’ve talked about this,” You started, your voice more similar to an exhausted parent than a concerned friend. “You can’t just go around doing whatever you want to, then saying it’s for my sake and expecting me to pretend it never happened. I’m not going to thank you.” He huffed, and you noticed a laceration near the top of his spine. It’d managed to open up again, despite how minor it’d seemed earlier. “I’m not going to help you, anymore. Next time you get yourself into trouble, ask Beelzebub for help.”

You expected him to whine, to sulk or throw a fit or do something loud, but Mammon only went stiff. “You always patch me up,” He counted, tone uncharacteristically flat. “Always. I don’t want Beel to do it.”

You shrugged, doing your best to stay firm. “We don’t always get what we want.”

Mammon didn’t hesitate. He was quiet, for a moment, but as soon as you moved to seperate yourself from him, you were no longer on your feet, pulled flush against his chest and kept there by an iron-clad grip, his free-hand embedded thoroughly in your hair. You struggled, attempting to push him away, but if Mammon had any intention of letting go, you couldn’t tell. His face was buried in the crook of your neck in a matter of seconds, hot breath fanning over your skin, the tips of teeth too sharp making contact with your skin. “You don’t, but I do. Say you’re thankful, that you’re proud of me.”

He waited for a response. You weren’t sure if you could give one. “That’s not–”

A growl, dark and guttural, silenced you instantly. “Say it before I rip out your fucking throat. You know I can and you know I’ll do it.”

You couldn’t be sure if he was kidding, if this was a prank one of the others had put him up to or just a stress-induced bluff, but… he was right. He could, if he wanted to, and the possibility was enough to have you spitting an admission faster than you could think of one. “T-thank you,” You stuttered, hardly noticing as your vision began to blur. “Thank you for keeping me safe, I’m… I’m proud.”

Fortunately, Mammon seemed satisfied with that, throwing you onto the mattress behind him, acting as casual as he had before his breakdown. Tears were flowing openly, but he didn’t notice. He didn’t care. “Damn right,” He scoffed, only scanning you over briefly before that predatory smirk regained its territory.

“Those fuckers should know that I’m the only one allowed to hurt you by now, anyway.”

After watching nct dream reflecting back on their past and present selves for the hello future videos i'm honestly really worried for renjun. I think all of them went through a lot in the industry, especially considering they were minors and how controlled and handled they must have been and still are, not to mention just the general effects fame can have on you but renjun is such an emotional person, he was described in mental training camp as the "artist type" who feels a lot and gets lonely easily and he basically confirmed it himself by saying he gets lonely even on sunny days. He said he values freedom a lot and being able to hold conversation comfortably and without restrictions. I think he's a very determined person and has a good head on his shoulders (in the interview with eric nam he said he went to Korea at 15 bc he wanted to sing and would've done it even if his parents said no. When I was 15 I was just figuring out what music I liked and how I wanted to dress and trying to adjust to highschool, like his determination is insane) and he knows what he wants to get out of life, I think he also lives for himself, and is very confident in who he is but like everyone else he has bad days and I imagine if he gets down it really hits him bc of how emotional he is. It was even said that his personality is very rare and he's just such a precious person. I also worry bc he seems to look detached at times and not really present or in his head compared to the dreamies, but that may just be part of his personality. I hope he can always be happy and experience freedom in the way he describes it and live his life to the fullest. It's also clear he means a lot to his other members, especially jisung and I hope he can rely on them and confind in them (along with his other loved ones) when he needs it. Sorry for the essay but that video hit me and I'm in my soft hours 🥺

On another note he's just such a dreamy and ethereal person, like his mind amazes me. He's so well-spoken and expresses his thoughts so eloquently and gently. Whenever we get glimpses of his thoughts and imagination via his stories is so dreamy and beautiful. Again, with eric nam, when they described their own ideal country he said he would want people to live together in a tree and wear old, classic clothes. Like his mind bruh!! I also liked when mark said he wants to try a more acoustic sound and that he would like to write short stories, like edgar allan poe. It's obvious these boys are much more and deeper than what their loud, celebrity personas show and I really liked some of the personal things they shared.

yes omg get ready folks this is gonna be long lmao

first of all, i totally agree with you! i feel like renjun is getting to the point where he feels comfortable sharing this vulnerable side of his (and true self) with us, and maybe he doesn't feel the need to fit this certain image anymore. remember when he said that sm wanted him to act like a "pure" boy? right, i think he's done with that lol

and yes, they were sooo young when they got into the industry and it would honestly be scarier if they hadn't any issues mentally cause of this. but i love the fact that they are somewhat able to talk about it and while they probably have to walk on eggshells anytime they do, i can just appreciate that (esp. renjun) they feel comfortable enough to want to share it. renjun doesn't strike me as an overly sensitive guy, more like you described: emotional, passionate and introspective.

his determination is really something, like you're totally on point with that! with 15 i was in no way in a headspace where i could have pursued an artistic and/or public career like he has. especially with the harsh trainee schedules, pressure and everything. thinking about my 15-year-old-self moving to a different country and going under such strict training, i probably would've cried every night lol. i hope he could deal with it somewhat good and that with his therapy (and other means) he can take care of his mental health <3 it really itches me to think about him too much, because i just feel so conflicted for him and i can't even imagine how he must feel (since he is actually living this life ya know).

i just hope he doesn't regret with how he chose to pursue his life, i can imagine that, as an idol, you sometimes wonder if it wouldn't have been better to choose a more relaxed career (i have to think about mark saying that he had a lot of doubts). and with what they said about his personality... i mean yes, if he says he does get lonely often, then that isn't pretty at all. and all we can really do as fans is to support him and hope he takes care of his own well-being tbh. i totally agree with you that he has a very interesting mind and can express himself very uniquely, in a way that makes you instantly comfortable. i think that are definitely some of his best strengths. he's very compassionate and considerate and he shows it so effortlessly (honestly i don't even think he realizes what nice energy he has).

and boy, don't even get me started with mark. dude, he is one of the nct members that get reduced to like 3 character traits and then people just move on. like yes, he is a cheerful person who laughs at everything and it's adorable. he may be a bit awkward and he is an insanely talented rapper, but he is also so much more! the fact that he enjoys writing so much really makes me soft!! mark is also much more sensitive and emotionally tuned than what we give him credit for. i feel like people just underestimate fire placements and disregard their emotional nature so often, just because they usually are enthusiastic and not as much the "motherly/comforting" type like water placements. but they also have emotions!! a lot, actually! he is someone who can make people really comfortable around him pretty fast and i can not imagine that many people don't like this guy tbh. his Cancer Mercury (i think) also shows so much, because he is very considerate and i think he takes others way more into consideration than we think. and the way he carries himself in the studio is also so interesting!! anyway, i don't wanna go on forever, mark is best boy

(and side note to mark: acoustic sound?? yes pls i love acoustic stuff T-T i am becoming a #1 mark supporter haha)

and the dreamies in general are of course not those 2-dimensional characters that entertainment industries or their fans often make them out to be. i feel like almost all of them have sides of themselves that we don't know and will probably never get to see and that's totally how it should be. but i feel like people like jaemin or haechan, who have a very unique and expressive way of carrying themselves, get mistaken for just those things too often. the members have mentioned so often that haechan keeps them together and is the one who can cheer them up at all times. i do believe that he can act like "the glue" sometimes, because he is a person who can understand others very well and can communicate smoothly in order to mediate between them. he also has a Cancer Mercury, and from my personal experience as someone with a lot of Cancer/Gemini dynamic (and a Cancer Mercury), that is a combination that does make you want to mediate all the damn time haha. i often find myself in similar situations in my friend groups, where it's always the other people fighting and i become the neutral middle ground where both people go to vent T-T. but i think that is such an underrated quality of him! i feel like he picks up other's moods or problems quickly and is eager to help people, which are amazing qualities!!

and jaemin is just... a mystery to me as well ngl haha. but i feel like he takes such good care of the others without even wanting something in return. like when he talked about doing jeno's laundry in that one live and being like nagging but not seriously lol. he is just someone who takes care without much boasting around or smth and i feel like he plays an important role, that is more in the background. i often wonder what he is like in the dorms and in 7chillin i thought he had such a nice dynamic with all of them. but i feel like he isn't very open with his feelings, which is (his damn Cap Moon) unfortunate, but again, i can only hope he finds a way to cope with his feelings healthily.

anyway, to wrap it up finally; i really like the honesty the dreamies have at the moment and i am glad sm let's them talk a little more personally. i think after coming together again as 7 members, they really realized how much they like being together! and it's so heart-warming to see <3 renjun is truly an amazing person from what we see of him and i love having these conversations about him haha. i feel like he is really getting a lot of well-deserved attention lately and i love that for him <3

56. “I’m sorry, what? I keep getting lost in your eyes.” with ellisman lmao? i'm not being hinckman trash for once!

56. “I’m sorry, what? I keep getting lost in your eyes.”AN: Casey!!! It’s finally done! I’m sorry it took me so long. I had a real bad case of writers block, but hey! We got there in the end. Also, more ellisman content pls, I love these two sassy nerds. prompt meme + AO3 mirror 

Kyle wishes his mother would stop setting him up on blind dates. He knows she means well, but the dates are pretty much always terrible, and honestly, Kyle isn’t that worried about being single anyway. Only when his mother comes home all excited about having arranged something for him, Kyle doesn’t have the heart to say no. He never does, and so he ends up suffering through forced dates with people he doesn’t care all that much about in the first place, time and time again.He finds himself sat alone at the table of a restaurant that’s not too fancy, but is nice enough to warrant more formal clothes than a T-shirt and a pair of jeans. Kyle’s never been here before, but he likes Italian food, and the atmosphere is nice, and he thinks that even if the company is terrible, he’ll at least enjoy his meal.

As for the company, Kyle has no idea what to expect from his date. He knows his name is Bradley, knows that his mom has some connection to Kyle’s mom. He assumes that both of their parents seem to have a penchant for setting their respective sons up on blind dates, and that’s about it.He’s not expecting anything to come of tonight, that’s for sure. He’s been set up on enough of these dates to know how they go. He predicts another night sat across from someone, forcing awkward conversation with a guy he would never willingly go out with. He expects to enjoy his meatball parmesan and pretty much nothing else. He expects his date to be a little like him but not too much; not so similar to Kyle that they’ll actually get along, but awkward enough that his mom sets him up on blind dates.Kyle is thinking over the reassuring speech he knows his mother will give him when he sees her next, and so he takes no notice of the man approaching his table, until said man is standing over him, clearing his throat. Kyle looks up from the drinks menu he’s been pretending to study, eyebrows raised. The man is handsome, wearing fitted jeans and a leather jacket over a checked shirt. He looks like the type of person that is overly confident and popular. Not Kyle’s type. Upon first glance, Kyle would decide he doesn’t have the patience to talk to someone like this, but the stranger has somewhat forced his hand.“Can I help you?” Kyle asks, giving the man an expectant look.“I hope so,” replies the stranger, his lips quirked a little into a grin. Kyle feels like he’s being mocked, squints a little behind his glasses, his eyebrows creased. His opinion of the confident man is somehow falling even lower. Hih “I’m supposed to be meeting Kyle?”“You’re Bradley?” Kyle exclaims, disbelief obvious in his voice, in his wide eyes, and eyebrows that are now raised. Brad laughs and it’s a nice sound. It’s more genuine than the cocky grin, and suits him better, Kyle thinks.“Brad’s fine, but yeah,” Brad confirms with a nod. “Hi. Do you mind?” Brad gestures to the chair opposite Kyle, and Kyle, still a little shocked, nods slowly, making an active effort to keep his jaw closed despite the urge to let it drop as he stares at Brad in wonder. This does not look like the kind of person who needs their parents to arrange dates for them, and Kyle’s a little stunned.“Yeah, sure,” Kyle manages to say, but only after Brad has pulled the chair out and draped his jacket over the back of it. Brad grins at him as he sits down.“So, do you do this often?” Asks Brad, and Kyle has to make an active effort not to roll his eyes. He’s still trying to get a read off this guy, and for the moment all Kyle can think is he’s snarky and probably not Kyle’s type. No matter how objectively attractive he may be.“What, get Italian food?” He asks, keeping his tone serious. He’s playing dumb in response to the stupid and obvious question. “Yeah, I’d say I’m a fan.” Kyle’s answer makes Brad face light up, amusement in his eyes and in that stupid grin which is back on his face.“Is that why you’re here, because you love Italian food?”“It was a huge factor, yeah,” Kyle replies bluntly. He really has no interest in trying to be overly polite, or in trying to impress this guy. If his track record is anything to go by, Kyle won’t see Brad again after tonight anyway, so why bother pandering to him?“That’s fair,” Brad chuckles. “Blind dates don’t tend to be all that exciting.”“I can’t say I’m going to break that trend for you,” Kyle warns him. “I’m not really an exciting person.” Brad grins, like he knows something Kyle doesn’t and it just makes Kyle narrow his eyes a little again.“Hey, at least let me be the judge of that,” insists Brad. “Maybe my luck’s changed.” Kyle wants to roll his eyes again. He just wants to enjoy his food, has already had enough of Brad’s attempted smooth-talking for now.“Maybe,” Kyle mutters, though he’s clearly not convinced that Brad will even find him vaguely interesting. He goes back to looking at the drinks menu and Brad feels a little dejected. He thinks Kyle’s cute, likes his upfront, no nonsense attitude. He wants to get on Kyle’s good side.“You don’t think this could be an okay date?” Brad asks, keeps his tone light, curious. Kyle clearly hasn’t offended him. Kyle sighs heavily, looks back up from the menu again.“Look,” he says flatly. “It’s nothing personal. Just, speaking from experience, these dates don’t work out all that well.”“So you are experienced,” notes Brad, smirking a little at the fact he’s managed to get Kyle to answer his previous question. Kyle scoffs.“Yeah,” he snaps. Brad’s grin doesn’t falter as he sees Kyle’s frustration at himself grow. “I’m experienced. You wanna know my experience? I go on a date that my mom has arranged for me, sit opposite some person who is vaguely like me, and spend the night eager to go home again because and the company is terrible and I’d rather be alone.”“Sounds like we have pretty similar life experiences then,” Brad quips with a grin.“That tends to be pretty standard too,” Kyle answers, still not pleased. Brad’s overly optimistic attitude is starting to grate on him. Kyle’s being obviously miserable, but it’s not putting Brad off; if anything it’s making him act like he likes Kyle even more. “Oddly enough, the kind of quiet guys who need their parents to set them up on dates have similar backgrounds.”“Hey, who said I was quiet?” Jokes Brad, a teasing smile on his face. He’s so flirtatious, it almost pains Kyle to witness him. They seem to be complete opposites.“I will admit, you certainly break the mould on that front,” Kyle concedes, with no trace of joy in his voice. Brad grins triumphantly anyway.“See!” He cries. “Maybe this could be a date that puts an end to both of our unlucky streaks. I’m already spicing things up for you.” Kyle winces at that, smiles despite himself, though it’s more a pained look than one of genuine amusement.“Please don’t,” he laughs, an awkward and uncomfortable noise. “Don’t call yourself spicy.”“I never said I was spicy!” Brad protests with a laugh. “I just said that I’m making things more interesting.”“Being more interesting doesn’t necessarily mean you’re more appealing,” Kyle points out. Brad shrugs.“Maybe not. But, I could be both,” Brad counters with a look Kyle knows is supposed to be suave, but he finds it a little obnoxious. Kyle sighs. He doesn’t know what Brad expects him to say to that.“You’re off to a bad start,” he says, back to his blunt attitude. Now it’s Brad’s turn to sigh, shoulders slumping a little. It’s like Kyle can see him physically drop the cool guy attitude. Brad smiles sheepishly and Kyle likes that infinitely more than the cocky grin.“Alright, sorry. Can I start over?”“Sure?” Kyle agrees, his brow furrowed, his face a picture of confusion. What is the deal with this guy?“Okay,” Brad breathes. “Hi. I’m Brad, I prefer barbecue to Italian, but you seem really cool, so I don’t mind that we’re not getting barbecue.” He’s met with silence for a few moments, as Kyle stares at him, lips mouth slightly agape. He really can’t believe this.“That was… sort of better?” Kyle manages finally, but he’s still confused.“I’m sorry man, I don’t really go on that many dates, I’m not sure what I’m doing.”“You don’t go on that many dates?” Asks Kyle, eyebrow arched and voice dripping with disbelief.“Not really? Why do you sound like that?”“Because!” Kyle exclaims, gesturing to Brad. “Look at you!”“Yeah dude, I’m just another average guy.”“No, Brad, you’re like—” Kyle cuts himself off, realises what he was about to say. Though Brad’s not letting him off that easily.“Like what?”

“You’re like, super good looking,” Kyle continues, somewhat begrudgingly.“Says you!” Brad exclaims. “Have you seen yourself?”“Yeah, I’ve seen myself, I’m a huge nerd, Brad.”“Then that makes two of us!” Brad cries with a grin. “Two nerds who find each other attractive.” Kyle groans and hides his face.“I can’t believe I told you that,” he grumbles to himself, but Brad chuckles.“It’s fine, we’re on the same page, right?”“I mean. I guess so? But for the record, I when I first saw you, I thought you were not my type and out of my league.” “Out of your league?” Brad echoes. “Why?”“Because,” Kyle huffs, like it’s the most obvious thing in the world. “You came in with your skinny jeans and your leather jacket and your charming smile, and I’m sat here on a date that my mom set up for me because she worries that I’m lonely.” Brad chuckles at that.“Well, my mom set me up on this date too, so. I’d say were in the same league.”“Yeah, what’s the deal with that?” Kyle asks. Because apparently they’re having an actual conversation now, and apparently Kyle doesn’t hate talking to Brad.“The deal with what?” Questions Brad, a little lost.“Your mom setting you up on dates. You don’t look like a guy who needs his mom to get dates for him,” explains Kyle.“Oh! Yeah, that. Well, funny story, my mom assumed I was dating my best friend for years. I’m talking like, since we were teenagers. Then recently she casually asks me if we’re ever gonna get married and I had no idea what she was talking about. So, after a lot of clearing things up, she realised that I’ve been single all this time, and now she thinks I need to be dating someone. So here I am! Dating,” Brad nods once and grins at him. Kyle lets out a laugh of disbelief.“Are you for real?”“Yeah, dude! It’s crazy, right?” Kyle nods his head, lets out another laugh.Their waitress comes and takes their orders, returning a few minutes later with their drinks. Their conversation comes much more easily now, and they talk about their lives, their jobs, their interests. Kyle learns that Brad’s a hairdresser, and when Kyle reveals that he’s a QA tester, they discover they’re both incredibly enthusiastic about video games. Of course, Brad’s not the first date Kyle’s had who likes games, but he’s the first person Kyle has enjoyed talking to about them. Brad’s opinions are interesting, and whilst Kyle doesn’t agree with him on everything, he likes their discussion.They move on from the topic of the 3DS and Pokémon before Kyle can get genuinely offended at Brad’s (idiotic) opinion that the games have rapidly gone downhill and are no longer interesting or relevant enough for Brad to play them. Brad’s the one who cuts him off, asks about the games Kyle has worked on, which prompts Kyle to start explaining the development of Guitar Hero and DJ Hero.After a short while, Kyle stops talking, waves a hand and snaps his fingers in front of Brad’s face.“I’m sorry, what? I keep getting lost in your eyes,” Brad says after a few moments of Kyle looking at him expectantly. And Kyle wants to go back to hating him, he really does. He wants to hate Brad because he wasn’t listening and because that’s the cheesiest line Kyle thinks he’s ever heard and Brad doesn’t look like he’s joking. Kyle wants to hate him, but Brad is cute and charming, and Kyle enjoys talking to him, when Brad actually listens. Kyle wants to hate him, but instead his eyebrows raise and a smile of disbelief tugs the corners of his lips upwards.

“Are you even real?” He asks, laughter in his voice. “What is this?”

“Dude, I’m sorry, you just have really nice eyes.”

“No, Brad, my eyes are stupid. I’ve got a stupid face with stupid eyes. What is wrong with you?”

“Nothing’s wrong with me!” Brad protests, gets this teasing look about him. “There might be something wrong with your really nice eyes though. I don’t think they’re working properly. Maybe you need new glasses or something.”

“How,” Kyle groans, laughing again. He reaches for his shoulders before remembering they’re at a nice restaurant and Kyle’s not wearing a hoodie; he can’t pull the hood over his face and hide from this. Instead he rests his elbows on the table and hides his face in his hands as he giggles. “How can anyone actually be like this? You sound like you’ve been picked right out of a romcom.”

“Is that bad?” Brad questions, and though the fingers over his eyes prevent Kyle from seeing the fond smile on Brad’s face, his tone is light, laced with amusement. Kyle wants to hate him even more.

“I don’t know, Brad,” Kyle admits, pulling his hands away. He looks at Brad and Brad looks back, both of them grinning. Brad arches one eyebrow, questioning, and it makes Kyle smile, all open mouthed and gleeful.

“You don’t know if I’m bad or not?”

“Oh no, that was bad. You have bad, corny pickup lines and they make me want to kick you under the table,” Kyle replies, flatly, honestly. Brad lets out a short burst of laughter, but Kyle’s not done. “But I think it’s so bad that it’s good, y'know? You’re like a Popsicle stick joke.”“So terrible then?”“What?” Kyle answers with a frown. He looks offended. “No, Brad, Popsicle stick jokes are the best. I love them.”“Kyle. No, Kyle, they’re terrible,” Brad tries to reason, acting like Kyle has lost his mind. “They’re the worst jokes. They’re not even jokes, they’re just bad puns.”“Bad puns are great!” Kyle refutes. Brad shakes his head.“And this date was going so well,” he sighs, dramatically. He looks wistfully up at the ceiling, chin resting on his hand. He’s clearly joking, or at least Kyle hopes he is.“This relationship would never have worked out if you don’t like bad puns, I can assure you,” Kyle laughs.“Well, I might be able to look past some bad jokes for someone with a smile like yours.”“Oh my god, Brad,” Kyle groans, face flushed with embarrassment. He puts his hands up again, hiding his cheeks which have reddened from the flattery. He really can’t believe this man is real.“What? Was that too far? I’m sorry,” Brad, starts, but Kyle’s hands fly away from his face and he holds them up in a ‘stop’ motion, palms facing Brad, fingers spread.“No! No, don’t, don’t apologise, it’s,” Kyle rushes to get out. He pauses, sighs and reminds himself to relax. He sounds calmer when he speaks again, slower. “It’s fine. You’re fine. It’s just that you’re like, this handsome cliché with cheesy chat up lines and I don’t even think you’re doing it ironically.”“Did you just call me handsome?” Asks Brad with a smirk. Kyle groans loudly, puts his hand to his forehead.“Of course, that’s what you took from that. Yes, you’re handsome. Handsome and cheesy.”“But you like cheesy,” notes Brad with a cheeky smile. “So I’m good, right?”“Good for what?”“I don’t know, this? Like, you don’t hate me and want to get out of here as soon as you can, like usual.”“The people I go on dates with aren’t usually you,” Kyle points out, not thinking before he speaks and immediately regretting it. Brad seems to have developed something of an ego over the course of the night, and Kyle would like to avoid stroking it if possible. The smirk on Brad’s face tells Kyle that he’s failed in this instance.“Are they usually flattered this much?”“I’m not flattering you,” protests Kyle, raising his finger as he tends to do when correcting people. “I distinctly remember saying I want to kick you under the table.”Before Brad gets a chance to contest Kyle on the flattery front, a voice from beside them says:“Meatball Parmigiana?” And prompts them both to look up. Kyle glances to the side at the waitress and raises his hand to indicate that the dish in question is his. He notes that the waitress seems amused as she sets their plates in front of them and tells them to enjoy the meal. Kyle wonders how much of the conversation she heard and what she must think as he begins cutting into his food. Kyle was half right with his predictions for the night, in that his meal is delicious. He finds he’s happy to be proved wrong on the other front, is glad of Brad’s company, is glad he didn’t insist on bailing on tonight.They continue with light conversation as they eat, back to the topic of Nintendo, talking about recent games which prove the company isn’t doing all that badly. The tone is still playful, they’re still teasing one another in a way that feels flirtatious, but it’s nice. Kyle thinks it feels natural, this bickering between them, and he likes that he doesn’t have to worry about what he says or how he says it.Kyle finishes his food and continues his rant. Though, as he’s halfway through making his case for why Super Mario Maker is such a great game, he realises that Brad seems distracted again. Kyle stops talking mid-sentence as soon as he notices, waving a hand in front of his face once more.“Brad? Hello?”“Huh? Yeah, sorry, what was that?” Brad asks, snapping out of whatever daze he was in.“Were you being weird about my eyes again?” Kyle replies, with said eyes now squinted as he looks across the table. The question makes Brad let out a soft chuckle, but he shakes his head.“No, actually,” he says, grinning. “You just have sauce on your face.”“Oh my god, Brad,” groans Kyle dramatically. He reaches for a napkin, a little flustered from realising he probably looks like an idiot. “Why didn’t you say something?”“It’s cute,” Brad shrugs. He watches Kyle scrub furiously at his face, on the wrong side of his mouth, and Brad’s grin only grows.“Getting food all over your face is not cute. At all,” Kyle says definitively. When he’s done scrubbing, he looks at Brad again, head tilted up a little. “Did I get it?”“No, c’mere,” Brad laughs, leaning forward over the table. Kyle doesn’t have time to ask what the hell is happening before Brad takes the napkin and uses it to wipe at the corner of Kyle’s mouth. He lingers for just a little too long afterwards, a few moments which stretch on past the acceptable period of personal space invasion. Brad meets Kyle’s eyes and offers a small smirk and Kyle’s hate for Brad grows because of the way his heart feels, the way his pulse quickens under Brad’s intense gaze. “Got it,” Brad says finally, in soft voice which Kyle barely catches over the blood that seems to be rushing in his ears.All Kyle can manage to do in response is swallow nervously—Brad’s close enough that he catches Kyle’s throat move from the action—and nod his head.“Thanks,” he breathes out finally, cheeks flushed and his focus still a little lost. He doesn’t understand why he’s so worked up; all Brad did was wipe at his mouth after all, it’s not like he leaned over and kissed him. Although, he thinks that doesn’t sound too terrible.“No problem,” Brad says, shrugs but doesn’t move back. He’s still so close, and now he’s grinning, like he knows exactly what kind of effect he’s having on Kyle by staying there. After a few moments of Kyle still not composing himself, Brad leans back and returns to casually eating his food, figuring he might just be making Kyle uncomfortable.Kyle isn’t uncomfortable, he’s just kind of shocked. He hadn’t even expected to like his date for tonight, and even when he and Brad found they had common interests, Kyle remained adamant that it would just mean pleasant conversation throughout the evening, instead of forced and awkward small talk. But it’s worse than that, because Brad is oddly charming with his stupid attempts at pickup lines and his insistence on invading Kyle’s personal space. Normally Kyle would hate that, but he likes Brad, had briefly thought about kissing him and wasn’t instantly repulsed.Brad clears his throat, and Kyle comes to again, blinks owlishly at Brad.“Sorry, I spaced out,” he apologises, shakes his head. Brad’s still grinning.“Don’t tell me you were lost in my eyes,” he teases. Kyle’s shock is quickly forgotten, and he lets out a small laugh. He likes that Brad can laugh at himself, doesn’t take himself too seriously.“Yeah right,” Kyle scoffs, rolls his eyes. “Like anyone would actually fall for such a stupid, cheesy line.”“Are you saying you haven’t fallen for me?” Brad asks, sits back and clutches his heart dramatically, as if Kyle has pained him. It’s enough of an act that he can pass it off as a joke, but there’s a genuine question behind it. Brad really does want Kyle to have fallen for him, wants to impress him and see him again.“Not quite,” Kyle laughs, light and genuine. Brad’s nice, and despite all Kyle’s internal moping, he’s had a really great time. He doesn’t want this to be the first and last they see of each other. “But, I am a little bit swayed.”“Oh yeah?” Brad says, trying to sound teasing. He hopes that will mask all the hopefulness that’s swelling in his chest from actually showing through. Kyle recognises it nonetheless, and he grins.“Yeah. I’d like to do this again some time. Well, not this, exactly, but. Another date. If you want?” he manages, a little flustered. Brad doesn’t mind, thinks it’s cute. He nods eagerly.“Another date sounds awesome,” agrees Brad. He’s not able to hold back his smile, is so glad that Kyle seems just as keen as he is to do this again.“Good! We can do something more exciting than getting dinner,” Kyle suggests.“Wait, I thought you loved Italian food,” Brad counters, smirking. “What could we possibly do that would get you more excited?” He asks, sarcastic and teasing.“I can think of a few things,” Kyle hums. It takes Brad raising his eyebrows and looking slightly startled for Kyle to realise he implications of that, and as soon as he does, he feels his cheeks get warmer as they flush pink. “Not like that! Oh god,” he groans, hides his face in his hands again. He hears Brad sniggering at him across the table.“It’s fine, Kyle,” he chuckles. “I know what you meant.”“Okay. Good. Because that sounded— and you’re nice, you really are, but that’s a lot, and I don’t know that I—”“Kyle,” Brad cuts in, voice firm, but there’s still laughter in his eyes. “I said it’s fine. How about we finish this date before you start stressing about our next one?”“That sounds like a good idea,” Kyle nods. He takes some deep breaths, trying to regain some composure after his mini freak out. Brad smiles and finishes up his chicken Alfredo, and when he’s done, they fall back into a normal conversation where Kyle isn’t stressed at all.They order dessert and flirt some more over their gelato, and they trade numbers as their plates are cleared and they wait for the bill. Brad and Kyle leave together, walking out into the dark parking lot, their laughter carried away on the night breeze.Considering Kyle didn’t want to go on this date in the first place, he’s having a hard time leaving and heading to his car. He stops and looks up at Brad, gives him a soft but genuine smile. He thinks back to the restaurant, to Brad wiping sauce from his mouth. The moment seems much less intimate when he looks at it like that, and so Kyle dispels the thought almost as quickly as it came.“I’ll see you soon, then?” He says, somewhat awkwardly. He’s never had to say goodbye to a date he actually likes before.“Yeah, sure dude. I’ll text you,” Brad replies with a grin and a nod of his head. Kyle nods and returns the smile.“Okay. Good. This was nice. I’ll see you,” Kyle repeats, his thoughts scattered and his anxiety flaring up as he tries to think of what he’s supposed to do, what he’s supposed to say. Brad’s much calmer, seems to notice Kyle is getting worked up, and he reaches his hand out. For a moment, Kyle thinks Brad’s going to touch his face again, and Brad considers it, but he settles for resting it on Kyle’s shoulder instead.“See you Kyle,” Brad laughs softly, gives Kyle a fond look. Kyle’s heart is doing that stupid thing again and Kyle reminds himself that he hates Brad.“Don’t get lost again on the way home,” Kyle quips teasingly, and Brad laughs, pulling his hand away.“I’m sure I’ll be fine. I won’t have you there to distract me,” he says with a confident smirk. Kyle rolls his eyes and scoffs, bumps Brad’s shoulder playfully.“I’m going to go home and spend the night recovering from all your cheesy comments.”“And then you can start preparing for all the ones I’ll bring to our next date!”“Goodnight, Brad,” Kyle laughs.“Night Kyle,” Brad parrots, waves his hand in a way that Kyle, quite frankly, finds kind of adorable. Brad walks away to his car finally and Kyle watches him for a few moments, stunned by how well that turned out. He’s actually very excited for the next time he gets to hear Brad’s cheesy flirting again. Maybe Kyle does spend his car ride home thinking about how the lines weren’t that bad, and maybe he considers they were part of the reason Kyle wants to kiss him, but that’s nobody’s business but Kyle’s.