#perfectionism is the bane of my existence…
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How do you envision the Uchiha clan culture to be? Collectivistic? More individualistic than the Senju's? Harmonic? Militaristic? Merciful? Ruthless? Generous? Selfish? I'm so curious!!!
Hello anon! Thank you so much for your question - and what an interesting question indeed! I have had thoughts of pinning down how I perceive the Uchiha clan - so your question feels like the “answer” that yes, its time to finally do so. x3
But I wish not to keep you in suspense for too long, and I hope this answer will satisfy your curiosity:
*Note* the following headcanon(s) is not an accurate portrayal of Japanese culture. It is inspired from some historical and cultural aspects of it, but I have taken liberties in my portrayal of a culture to a fictional clan.
And yes I did not respect canon 100%…
This is also the type of headcanon that might undergo changes in time, but this is how I would answer your question atm, anon.
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I see the Uchiha clan as more individualistic than collectivistic. They value harmony and peace, but not to the same collectivistic degree as the Senju. Their mentality was first and foremost focused on their loved ones - then the clan as a whole. But even then there existed those that saw the collective before the individual.
From the eyes of outsiders the Uchiha appear quite selfish and ruthless, but each and every Uchiha has a strong sense of kinship with one another despite their loved ones being their priority. Trust flows freely between one Uchiha member to the next.
Everyone also has the back of one another in times of need, but it is no secret that they do value a sense of independence before a sort of “hive mind”.
In a sense “survival of the fittest” can be used to describe the clan - but it is a very simplified way of viewing the clan.
The Uchiha clan of old - long before Konoha was even founded, and the Warring States Era had even begun - was actually a very peaceful clan that shunned conflict and preferred a peaceful living; until the daimyō began to grow both restless and dissatisfied with the land and power they already had. Conflicts broke out and spread quickly. Before they were called “shinobi” all the different clans that would emerge during the Warring States Era were called samurai. It was only around four centuries before the Warring States Era happened, that the different clans began calling themselves “shinobi” and began the form of “hire for coins” that would define the entire Warring States period.
During the Warring States Era the entire world was in upheaval because of the earlier power structure completely breaking down.
The Uchiha clan quickly made a name for itself, and it took not long until the daimyō had formed a cycle of hatred between the Uchiha clan and the Senju clan
Leadership
The Uchiha clan is unified by one single leader, who then guides the entire clan to follow a shared conviction. The Uchiha clan chooses their leader on the basis of strength (physical and emotional) and there is a high degree of trust in their leader’s decision(s).
Leadership is generally given to males, but there have been three cases of women leading the clan as its leader.
The process of leadership itself is a dance of ruthlessness (in the eyes of outsiders) and democracy (unity).
While anyone in the clan has the potential to become its leader, throughout the history of the clan many of its leaders has had a military background – whether high-ranking or not. Aristocratic and peasants is a distinction that doesn’t exist in the clan, unlike in the Hagoromo clan (which is said to be direct descendants of the Sage Hagoromo himself).
Uchiha Tajima was a renowned warrior, but a “mere” lieutenant, by the time his successor – with no living child of his own, and dying on the field of battle – asked him to lead the clan.
A leader undergoes a strict “appointment ritual” before they are officially made leader. This ritual includes a process of voting (to see if they are in favour of the rest of the clan), to battle the other potential candidate(s) (which is often the son or someone close to the second-in-command) into submission, battle strategy/war meeting and philosophical questions to discern values and whether they align with the wishes of the clan.
The leader appoints a second-in-command, and it is not unusual – as a sign of respect – to give that specific role to the very person they fought for leadership. The prior second-in-command steps down if that is the case.
Co-leadership (or “symbiotic leadership” as it also is called) was very common, and yet it is not the same as being appointed the role of second-in-command, not entirely. If the leader of the clan appoints someone as co-leader, they have the role of acting as second-in-command, as well as a “pseudo-leader”. This type of leadership was common during the peaks of the war, as it kept leadership intact should one of the leaders fall in battle. It was most common to appoint a fellow male as co-leader (often a relative to which there was a strong bond), but Uchiha Tajima was one of few that made his wife his co-leader.
The most famous example of co-leadership throughout the entire history of the Uchiha clan, was the co-leadership between Uchiha Madara and Uchiha Izuna. It was so effective at keeping the clan unified, yet it also polarized the clan – something that was painfully seen the moment Izuna succumbed to his wound – that the entire clan was split, and many even defected to the Senju of all clans. Even years later the death of Uchiha Izuna would forever haunt the clan, and it was only during the founding of Konoha that co-leadership was abolished once and for all.
While leadership generally falls onto the son of the current leader, that is not entirely a given. There have been exceptions in the past (as was the case for Tajima) as well as not all leaders having had a son. Leadership comes down to their readiness to rule and care for the clan in the end, but the oldest son of the leader (Madara in Tajima’s case) and the son of the second-in-command, tend to be those that are trained into the role of leader.
While the “me versus you” system puts tremendous pressure onto each of the children, they know that it must exist as a precaution should one of them be deemed unfit to care for the clan.
The wife of the leader (matriarch) has a very high position socially. She cares for the clan the same way the leader does - but on a different front. Tajima cared for anything related to the battlefield, and used the funds for the sake of battle, while Kiyo - his wife - cared for the clan’s internal order. She used the remaining funds for medication, food (that they could not get themselves) and other necessities to keep the clan afloat.
Climate
Despite the leadership being a ruthless affair, the climate in general is one of harmony and a peaceful co-existence – if a highly competitive one as well. As much as the clan cares for one another outside of battle, during the midst of combat everyone is expected to fend for themselves.
Weakness is frowned upon in other words. As well as being “sloppy” and “careless” with training.
Training itself is harsh. It is here that the more individualistic mindset of the clan reveals itself at its strongest; kill or be killed is drilled into every child.
Children have to be strong so to fend for themselves, if they don’t, they will only bring everyone else down with them. Families do try to keep an eye on inexperienced members, but there is only so much focus they can expand without dying themselves.
Weakness also guarantees death.
Parents teach their children early the life of shinobi (it is to them the morally right choice, not necessarily the choice of the highest love) and children as young as three years old begin their shinobi training (said training becomes much more ‘real’ around the ages of 4 – 7). Generally children follow their fathers into battle around 5 – 8 years of age depending on the circumstances.
Children are barely allowed to be children at all. Everything they know is the lifestyle of a shinobi, even something innocent like playing “tag” is training. Even skipping rocks across a river is treated as training.
Despite the above the clan is in general a generous one, sharing with the less fortunate ones and helping one another, but everyone does first and foremost care for themselves and living by the premise of “I can only help others if I myself am taken care of”.
This is easily seen as being a “survival of the fittest” scenario - and on some level that is correct - in the eyes of outsiders, but the clan knows from experience that they cannot help their kin if they, themselves, are dead. It would also be a waste if their help was met with death, especially if resources are scare.
That is the most genuinely cruel the Uchiha clan will be to one another.
Social hierarchy (family + clan)
The social hierarchy in a family is well defined and each member addresses their fellow family members with respect (as well as affection through their tone, or the occasional use of nicknames that have a very deep, profound meaning). “Anata” is common to hear from married couples (the names of husband and wife only pass their lips when there is obvious disagreement with a choice).
Izuna, for example always called Madara “nii-san” (and was called such in return by their three younger brothers), and addressed Tajima as “tō-sama” and his mother “kā-sama”. His deepest sign of love for his family was calling Madara by his childhood nickname, “Mada-nii”, his father “tō-san”and mother “kā-san”. But no matter if more formal or not, there was always a particularly strong bond between them.
The oldest children help care for their younger siblings, and they are also taught various skills from their mothers (cooking, sewing, treatment of illnesses) to be there for the family should the parents be away at the time (war meetings as in Tajima’s case, or traveling for supplies or other reasons) - but the entire clan is there to help their fellow Uchiha.
Tajima has never laid a hand against his sons, and never would dare to do so. He shows his disapproval through voice and eye-contact (never with the Sharingan active though). And that is in general how parents discipline their children. Physical violence to discipline children is met with contempt, which is partly a reason the Uchiha loathe the Senju and their willingness to resort to physical violence against a child.
When amongst their kin the Uchiha clan are respectful and mindful of the social hierarchy in place. Younger children are chided should they make mistakes, but its only when they are a tad older - and step out of line - that the tone of guidance becomes a sharp glance in disapproval.
While families primarily focus on their loved ones, the Uchiha clan of old was not below caring for other children, or the elderly and sick, as a group. Compassion and kindness is very important for the clan, but their strongest drive to care for one another was out of love for one another.
Affection and gestures
In private families are very affectionate towards one another (some more than others, of course) but physical touch is not frowned upon. Children generally sleep in the same room as their parents (more common during winter than summer) both for their comfort and their safety.
While perhaps more a social gesture, to take a bath together is still a very intimate experience as well. It is a sign of affection to wash the hair of a fellow Uchiha (a gesture reserved mostly for family - but between potential lovers it is a first sign of trust and that there is fondness there that goes deeper).
Hugs are more common among children than adults, through. But its not unheard of for adults to embrace each other - it is simply very intimate to do so.
The most intimate gesture of affection between a couple is to look into each other’s eyes, and watch their emotions reveal themselves.
Kissing someone is generally a very sacred gesture, and is done in private with their life partner. It is also a very intimate gesture as Uchiha - who rely heavily on eye-contact for communication - close their eyes while sharing a kiss. To brush a kiss against the eyelids of their partner is considered the most intimate of kisses - as with it follows the unspoken promise to look for one another in the next life.
The gesture above would be interpreted as romantic in the following generations, but during the Warring States Era this particular kiss/oath is platonic in nature. It was actually more common for siblings, rather than lovers, to exchange it. The bond between lovers had to be exceedingly deep to make such a promise as to reincarnate and look for one another again.
Gesture-wise the above has the same meaning as saying “Ai Shiteru” to their lover. Uchiha generally prefer gestures of affection over words, but if a couple speak “Ai Shiteru” to one another their love for one another is profound, absolute and genuine.
Children
Children are generally born in the winter months (December - February/early March) as it was the winter time that (while harsh in its own right) allowed the clans a brief respite from the wars that raged at the time (most of the time). This weakened state was as much a disadvantage as it was an advantage for the few clans ruthless enough to strike outside of a contract.
Most families had many children. To have 5 to 7 seven children was not uncommon. Not many reached adulthood, though. Most barely made it into their teens when the wars were at their peak.
Children, sons rather, were acknowledged as adults by the time they mastered the “Katon: Goukakyuu no Jutsu” (daughters were taught the jutsu by the time Konohagakure was founded and equality could be established)
It was not unusual to know the jutsu by the age of nine to thirteen. Cases than the usual development frame are not unheard of, such as Madara - gifted beyond compare - who learnt the jutsu by the time he was seven. Izuna was close to seven himself (the age gap between them was 14 months) when he followed in his brother’s footsteps.
But those cases were exceedingly rare as most simply could not handle the destructive nature of the fire element until they were a touch older than the above mentioned prodigies.
Wedlock and parenthood
Wedlock was done out of love and compatibly. It was also not as common as it was in other clans at the time - the only exception to the rule was the leader of the clan: they were required to enter wedlock out of legal reasons. It was both for the sake of their wife - securing her status to the rest of the clan - as well as having a potential “crisis mediator”. While it was very rare that the clan’s structure would collapse, there was once a particular siege that nearly eradicated the Uchiha clan. During that particular battle they were wounded severely in every way imaginable. Only the wife of their leader remained from the Uchiha in high-ranking positions - and that particular woman single-handedly brought order and structure back to the Uchiha clan, that was on the verge of internal collapse from having lost their entire leadership in the bloodiest war in that particular period. It was thereafter that marriage was required of their leader, and the matriarch gained the single most important role in a time of absolute chaos, a role that throughout history became more or less obsolete - but it would remain up until the founding of Konoha just in case. When the matriarch had made her choice for a fitting candidate she would often step down from her position and work as an advisor for the next wife of the leader.
Like wolves, couples (whether married or not) lived together their entire lives (or until death parted them). Most found someone new, but those in the position of leadership generally refused to love anyone else. Wearing black was the sign of their grief, and that was something they wore until their death.
The Uchiha clan made a very important distinction between love/emotional partnerships and sexual partnerships. While most loved (and were emotionally faithful) to only their lover, it was not uncommon for men (and women) to seek out sexual pleasure with someone else. The act of love-making, however - the creation of a child - was a sacred experience that was shared only between lovers.
While the Uchiha strongly preferred unions in the clan, it was not unheard of for Uchiha men and women to form unions with one of their allied clans at the time (Like the Hagoromo clan). While still out of love, most of these unions were the very few cases of political marriages existing in the Uchiha clan.
Marriages were kept purely in the Uchiha clan after the Hagoromo clan were eradicated.
It was not unusual to become parents young (15 - 25). To become parents around 15 was common when wars were many, but not as common in more peaceful times. Wedlock was usually entered around the same time or even later than that. As only the leader was required to marry, most others saw no true need for such (it was more a symbolic gesture in those cases).
Women and their role
Women were treated with respect and even reverence - despite not fighting in the wars with their loved ones. As much as the notion appears sexist, the reason was because women secured their survival at the time (through children, yes). Exceptions existed, such as women who were infertile, but pretty much all women were taught the art of hunting and gathering rather than combat for the battlefield. During the winter months, especially, women secured the survival of the clan through hunting of fish (and some meat), gathering of herbs and resource management.
Women were exceptional at treating the most various of illnesses - from fever to hyperthermia, to more complex cases of amputation to removal of eyes and even cases of organ transplantations - and from a young age girls were taught to help out during childbirth.
Young daughters were seen as women the day they “bled”.
While most women were not taught the art of combat in the same capacity as men, they were taught to defend themselves should other clans perceive themselves as particularly clever for going after them.
Madara and Izuna were two of the first Uchiha teaching their lovers combat the way they were taught since childhood (a training session that would have appeared abusive in the eyes of outsiders).
Their lovers would end up becoming the clan’s strongest women, as well as a symbol for many young girls who wanted a different life for themselves.
Women were known to nurse their own children and children of others if breastfeeding did not work for a new mother. Older women were especially considerate and kind to young, inexperienced mothers and helped out their fellow woman the very same way men supported each other on the battlefront.
Women were also known to adopt orphaned Uchiha children if they had the capacity to care for them. As was the case for Ryoko - a healer in the clan - who adopted a fair share of orphaned children (girls) to teach them the art of healing (not medical ninjutsu as we know it from the Naruto canon), they were much more primitive with treatment of illnesses, as records of more elaborate healing had vanished through time (yes, that includes the Senju as well, who were quite advanced for their time)
Medical ninjutsu - both in theory and practice - began in this era through.
As absurd as it sounds, barely anyone saw the very fact that chakra - which caused such destruction - could be used for its opposite as well. That is how destructive the Warring States Era was to the generations living through it. They could only see destruction rather than healing.
Religion
Religion and particular shinto practices were quite important to the Uchiha clan. Families would pray at particular shrines for good health and the safety of their loved ones.
Reincarnation was a deep seated belief in most Uchiha, as most of their gestures and social practices actually originated from the belief that they were allowed a second chance at life (which did not mean that they were reckless with the life already given, not the Uchiha of Tajima’s era at least).
Their were many deities that the Uchiha believed in, but the most respected deities were Amaterasu, Tsukiyomi, Izanagi and Izanami and Susano’o.
Children were especially fond of hearing the various stories about the above mentioned deities.
Another mythical creature that children enjoyed hearing about was the Tengu and Minamoto no Yoshitsune.
Sharingan
The Sharingan was something the Uchiha clan was proudest of. In battle it was the greatest asset of the clan, but outside of battle the Sharingan was not seen activated, and if so, it was under very specific circumstances.
Most Uchiha actually sparred without the Sharingan to better hone their abilities. Over reliance on the Sharingan was frowned upon, as - while it was their greatest strength on the battlefield - it did not make them invincible. Arrogance was often met with warnings to be careful, at least on the battlefield.
The Sharingan was NEVER manifested while disciplining a child. To do so would be akin to physically hit the child, which is the type of abuse the clan abhors in the Senju clan.
To reveal the Sharingan to a fellow member of the clan was a sign of open contempt for said member. This hostility was often fought out and ended not seldom in death.
If a man revealed their Sharingan when looking into the eyes of their lover, it was the deepest sign of love for his partner. If a women did the same (the handful that actually gained the Sharingan during this time) they exchanged a vow that was even stronger than the vow of marriage.
If the Sharingan was manifested during love-making it was a sign of reverence and respect.
Uchiha clan (Konoha)
The Uchiha clan living in Konoha was not much different from the Uchiha clan of old. The climate did change a touch more than during the Warring States Era, such as becoming even more individualistic than during Madara’s era. The clan remained important, though, and especially when the clan was pushed to the outskirts of Konoha. It was during that time that they returned to the values of their ancestors.
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And that concludes my answer.
Thank you, anon for this question, it was a lot of fun answering this. :)
All the best and take care o/
#anon ask#uchiha clan#uchiha madara#izuna uchiha#uchiha tajima#uchiha oc#apologies for the delay#perfectionism is the bane of my existence…#it took a while to order my thoughts and define the clan#hope this answer is satisfying though :)#headcanons#long#very long post#the headcanon that probably will change the most#there are so many details to consider
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It’s finally done! I wanted to see the Trickster’s suit as a more classic tailcoat tuxedo 🎀 The process of which involved drawing stripes for like five hours and had me questioning my life LOL Why did I have to make the outfit even more fiddly
#also colors are the bane of my existence#I just slap my hand on the tablet and eventually call it at some point#Trickster forcing me to draw stripes and use colors the horror LOL#this is the one I’ve been plugging away at for like weeks#and by that I mean I worked on it sporadically#haven’t really drawn anything for a couple weeks so even though it was just finishing up this one I’m happy about it#maybe for my next thing I should try something less fiddly and less likely to proc my perfectionism#Trickster#Cirque du Soleil Trickster#Kooza#Cirque du Soleil#my art
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@caller-id-cant-stop-me's Nyamco!
#toontag#toonblr#Perfectionism is being the bane of my existence still#The hand took so many tries I hope it looks ok#I also drew 4 different patterns which was a first#Nyamco#toontown#requested
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WAAAA I wish I talked more during the trans gathering there were so many ppl I wanted to talk to.... curse u social anxiety!!!!
#smudgy.txt#well its more like im just not used to having the power to simply Talk to ppl so i just. dont#there was a kid there w the coolest sense of fashion & im pretty sure they were a warriors fan but they seemed so shy and IM so shy#& i didnt want to like put them on the spot by bringing it up 😭😭#plus i had the stupid mask on for like half th3 event even tho practically no one else did so it was pointless#& made trying to talk to ppl so hard bc it was a thick mask + it was very loud in there#& as we all know the bane of the socially anxious's existence is Not Being Heard The First Time#AND I HEARD SOMEONE MENTION C*NTAURW*RLD I ALMOST LEAPT FROM MY SEAT TO JUMP INTO THE CONVO#BUT i was so introvertedly engrossed in my coloring page i didnt even move -_-#omg plus the ppl discussing marvel RIGHT NEXT TO ME i couldve cried#(I DIDNT I WAS STILL COOORING IN THAT DAMN BOOK!!!)#literally had my nose in that book the entire event. not just bc of social anxiety but bc#of my audhd need to Fill In The Entire Fucking Page#its still not done. this thing has so many details#i refuse to look at it again lest i be pulled back into that wretched trance for another 3 hours#someone pointed out how engrossed i was in the book & i simply nodded and laughed half paying attention i am not kidding i was Hooked#do not put an adult coloring book in front of an artist with a perfectionism problem they'll be stuck there as if cursed
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Im starting to realize that the reason I burn myself out and stress out over doing things I enjoy is bc I expect to be great and successful at it immediately and I get upset if I’m not or if not everything is perfect
#{ perfectionism is the bane of my existence }#{ I wish it had an off switch }#||❧ нανє уσυ нєαя∂ σƒ тнє нιgн єℓνєѕ? ;; ooc ☙||
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Despite knowing better, I had given myself a deadline. Today. A big project that I've been working on for months and needs to be Finished already, thank you very much. It's all going well, I think I'll get it done and then ... I get lost in some very very specific sauce.
My therapist is in my ear as I slowly dig myself a deeper pit. Perfectionism, the bane of my existence. Well, one of them. It's at the origin of this particular time-lapse. I want to be Accurate and Complete. Before I know it, I'm covered in mathematics, percentages, statistics, graphs. I become very intimate with a graphics editor, discover functions and shortcuts that were a still a mystery to me three hours ago.
It's almost done when I realise it's wrong. Not inherently but vaguely, marginally, circumstantially. So I delete the work. Start again. It's all or nothing. It's a chore, a mountain, a this-and-then-that-and-then-thus-and-then-so, a finish line somewhere but not visible, not yet.
Then it is Done. I copy, I paste. Then I have something to eat. I've already decided, this deadline today, yeah, will be for tomorrow or the day after that. Time to relax and then go to bed. And then. My brain. Just realises. Out of nowhere. There's something not right. I check and my brain is - of course, flawlessly, inevitably - correct, for fuck's sake. It's fine, I fix. Re-copy, re-paste.
And I kid you not, this exact same thing happens as I am writing this post. So I've just, a minute ago, gone back into the graphics editor. A-g-a-i-n. I do the thing. I copy. I paste. Now, now, now it must be right. Please let it be so. But for all I know, my perfectionism-soaked brain will see it tomorrow and go, "Wait a minute ..."
#perfectionism#perfection#personality#personality traits#finishing things is hard when perfectionism hits#'cause you can always do better#writing#my writing#a story every day#23 february#2024#the day I didn't finish the thing I wanted to finish today
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I need to let go of my perfectionism for writing because that is the bane of the creative’s existence
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needing to be right all the time and wanting to make 0mistakes is kind of a blessing and a curse cus you will more likely actually think on when youre about to make a mistake or not be right self assessment is good but then there's the horrors aka when you make a mistake its the bane of your existence and y9u have to die immediately and also you end up just not doing shit cus the risk of failure and emotional damage it will do is not worth it but tje smaller shit u do is kind of super awesome still more good then normally it would be. I couldve made this post way shorter by just saying im a perfectionist and it has its pros and cons. But you wouldny get that deep into it then, youwouldnt delve into my mind. #Perfectionism
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Here’s an excuse to ramble about Roxy!
I don't know why I find it so hard to ramble about her honestly sdfsdfd we'll give it a go though!
I love giving her a fascination with fire. She collects lighters and burns stuff when bored and can sit and watch the flames for hours. It's probably the only time she's completely relaxed when she's not asleep. Roxy loves fire and she deserves it! The others also collect lost lighters and stuff to give to her as gifts and have asked Vanessa to buy a few especially for her before. Her favourite is the one shaped like a dragon that opens up like a Pez dispenser and she lends Chica the frog shaped one on occasion.
Roxy is so dog I love her. Self esteem issues and perfectionism for days and needs that validation or she'll combust. She doesn't sleep great because she doesn't have a good outlet for her endless energy that doesn't get her into trouble. She can run for days and days and if there's ever a situation where she can't leave her room for any reason, the place is wrecked because she's just been bouncing off the walls like a game of pinball. She also cannonically is the most violent of the animatronics and I think that's very cool of her.
Yeah sure, Monty destroys his room but Roxy? She rips apart robots and tears up the track. She literally is the bane of the staffbots existence and you know what? She deserves it! However! This does also make her a pretty good candidate for killing Bonnie since Monty doesn't have that track record of robo-murder.
But I don't think she or Monty did. I like to give Roxy a fun platonically married or sibling level relationship. There's definitely been a conversation like "Oh what are you and your boyfriend doing for valentine's?" or something and Roxy has just stared at whoever said it like "My what now????" They're both bi and extremely close so it's a fair enough guess. They like to dance, sing, bowl and race together with frequent arcade battles. They make such a dynamic duo they are so fun to think about.
Anyway, Roxy! I like to think she gets bored really easily. She always has something she's doing because doing nothing just pisses her off and also she has the energy to run for days and she gets in trouble for sprinting laps for hours so what else is she gonna do?
She's like the band's doctor in a way too. She loves all manor of vehicles and fixes and tinkers with the go-karts and company vehicles in the loading docks regularly but at some point she learned how to repair herself which allowed her to repair the others on occasion, which eventually led to her being their go to repair guy since she'll fix them then and there and doesn't make a record of it that can get them into trouble. For this reason, she's the favourite amongst all maintenance workers. She makes their job easier after all!
Honestly, given her eyes, speed and apparent ability to smell people out, she could easily have been designed to help out security find and deal with intruders and to find missing kids. Depending on the AU, I like to make her the one that finds the left out kids and either bring them into the party or give them one on one time doing whatever it is she can get them to do with her. She's skilled at finding missing kids and reuniting them with their parents and most of her fans are kids or teens she's supported in this way. Especially popular with the teens because well... at a kids birthday party it's the older siblings that get left out the most, right? Speaking of birthdays, she gets so damn excited for when she has a party booked. She will spend weeks planning and making sure everything is perfect though she will never admit that.
She doesn't admit a lot of things like that. She loves all of the other animatronics and would take on the world to help them but damn she has a hard time saying it. She's not great with her words unless it's sarcasm, jabs or insults. Has absolutely told a pain in the ass customer to fuck off and dropped a bully into the nearest Freddy themed bin. Does she get in trouble for this? Yes. Aboslutely. Does she care? No. Absolutely not. Complaints from customers and about how she treats troublesome customers are the only time she's completely deaf to criticism. Any other time? Her ego is bruised and she pretends its fine but she's inwardly screaming.
I've given everyone a different amount of animalisms but Roxy by far has the most. She's the one that's closest to the animal she's based off and this can be both a pro and a con. She can struggle to hide how she feels since dogs are so open with body language and what not, and certain noises can trigger a bout of zooms from her. She has a really strong need to chew on stuff, and it's both a pain in the ass because if she can't get away and chew throughout the day she gets restless and jaw snappy but it's also a great stress reliever. Sucks that the programmers thought it would be funny if she howled at the moon but forgot that they had an animatronic that looked like the moon. She has to go against her programming every time she sees Moon. She can get by with Sunny, but Moon is hard. Which is a shame because she really likes Moon! They're friends! Moon calls her in to help find missing items in the daycare sometimes and they both get a kick out of hiding fake spiders in Monty's room but sometimes it's so damn hard not to howl her ass off at them to the point she will physically hold her mouth shut sometimes. It sucks
I have more to say about her but this? Is a long ass post. This'll do.
#oh wow this is way longer than I thought it was#roxanne wolf#fnaf security breach#/chill#pop rox answers
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Perfectionism. Bane of my existence, you cling to me. Grip tight and damaging but somehow remain unseen. I try my best but deep down I know it is never enough. But I keep going strong. Keep going on. Pretending that I'm tough. I'm fragile. I'm weak. I want to take a break. Like a drug you are, a bad habit I can't shake. You're a lifestyle, an influence that binds me to the edge. I'm flirting with being pushed to the brink. Between a rock and hard placed I'm wedged. Many times I often almost free myself and give into the flaws. I almost accept its okay. I almost leave the burden behind.
Almost.
Almost.
Almost.
#spilled inks#spilled words#spilled thoughts#writing#writerscommunity#writers and poets#writers on tumblr#writeblr#perfection
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idk why gifs are like..... the bane of my existence lmao like last night i was so hype about my settings and now i'm like :// but ugly :/ i blame the adhd and capricorn combo , the perfectionism is gonna kill me
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Okay, but there is nothing more frustrating writing wise than realising the comfort character you’ve created for yourself, however unintentionally, cannot exist because it’s just not realistic.
Realism and perfectionism are the banes of my existence as a writer. I can’t give a character the traumas he possesses and have him be the person he currently stands in the story. It feels too disingenuous to those who’ve gone through it in reality. His behaviour also feels like falling in to the stereotypes bi people already face, and both the trauma community and the LGBTQIA+ deserves better rep.
Sorry Danny, it’s been fun and this feels like a weird grieving process, but duty calls. I want my stories to expose shadows and help lift people out of them into the light, to help uncover truths and offer comfort. I can’t do that with a self destructive, avoidant yet somehow vulnerable, antagonistic, hypersexual, bi SW with a lifetime of trauma who flirts too much for his own good. May the force not be with you as I chuck you out and start over with the foundations. Rest in mentally stable peace, I guess.
#you gotta go mate#bye bye#I’ve loved you but you’re bad rep#writer problems#writer struggles#oc#why am i sad
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Perfectionism and overthinking will forever be the bane of my existence
#I'm making this first draft more complicated than it needs to be bc i feel the need to prove myself#i just want to be done with it because I'm tired and want to do creative stuff#but I'll probably spend the rest of the day writing this essay because I want it to be good
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definitely agree, like obviously researching astrology and getting to know the signs and planets etc is helpful but i think actually putting it into practice helps the most. i love reading idol’s and my friends charts for this reason; so i can get familiar with making those astrological connections! ohmygosh so ur a taurus moon ??? thats so cute !!! does one of ur love languages happen to be gift giving/ or receiving ? also i am a taurus rising <33
hshshs joshie will have to do a LOT for me to ult him, I’ve only got two ults, one of them i considered more of a semi ult >_> but yeah! my ults r v special to me :33 but i wouldn’t mind him joining my ults hehe. and i would love to see what you write for him but dont pressure yourself too much, out yourself first.
hshshs my perfectionism tends to lean more towards being a downfall but it has its good moments. and i 100% get it, i also like writing and have had multiple blogs on tumblr before but more often than not, perfectionism takes over and i abandon the blog bc its not “good enough”. i do want to get back into writing but it takes me a long time to complete one piece. ahhh thank you 🥺🫶hehe thst made me blush a tad !!
question of the day who are your kpop ults ? >:D btw do you prefer longer asks or shorter ones ?? <3
💌 — virgo anon
yes, me too! i am so known amongst my friends and family to be like "his ____ moon is popping out rn" because i familiarize myself with idol birth charts so much hahah. yes, i am a taurus moon! tysm you're so sweet <333 the love languages i receive the best are actually quality time and physical touch, but i do LOVE gifts and especially giving them! i find that i tend to prioritize all 5 love languages equally when giving love to another... virgo perfectionism, perhaps. hahah.
aah, who's your other semi-ult? i think you've only talked to me about taehyun before joshua so i'm curious! my personal ult list is LONG and grows all the time. what can i say? i've got a lot of love to give dsdfgs. i think i will write something for joshua soon! he is quite inspiring. thank you for not pressuring me though, i appreciate that so much <3
oh, me too. my perfectionism is the bane of my existence tbh. i'm glad it helps me put out good work when i need to but it makes me feel the need to be perfect in EVERY way and that is just not realistic nor sustainable. i love hearing that you've had writing blogs before! i can't blame you for feeling that way and taking them down because i have thoughts like that from time to time too. and writing does take SO LONG to complete like... anything. and it's the worst because most people don't care as much about the quality of my work as i do. there's no reason for me to be so obsessive about it ahh. you can always dabble in writing by posting little things to me if you feel inspired! i don't want that love of writing to go to waste entirely <3
oh gosh, i mentioned earlier my ults list is long and i meant it gjsgs. my ults are pentagon's wooseok, cix's hyunsuk & seunghun, ateez's yeosang & yunho, wayv's ten, seventeen's junhui, wei's junseo, omega x's junghoon, and seungwoo! i love them all to pieces <3333
and i don't think ask length matters to me much tbh! i think the content is more important. i can answer a long ask that inspires me much easier than a short one that i don't feel inspired by.
i hope you're having a lovely day, my virgo anon <33
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I want my sketchbook to be a free space where I can draw and doodle without restrictions. Instead I have a crushing amount of unwritten rules in my head and what and how I'm allowed to draw in there.
Transcription:
"This should always have been the place where I'm completely free of rules and preconceptions."
"But there is a gazillion of rules now that make it impossible for me to sketch freely."
#art rant#perfectionism is the bane of my existence#sketchbook#the artist draws about their brain#the humble artist herself
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M'gonna disappear for a bit (ó w ò ;;;) homegirl's gonna be pulling all nighters so I can finish my projects with much focus (pray for my soul and my hand orz)
#ann-nouncements#ramblings#animation is the bane of my existence#or is it my incessant perfectionism#either way kek
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