sun has returned
however; however
i can’t stay awake
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Mark Strand, "Eating Poetry"
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~ starry
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Niche - an aspec poem
Apparently, I’m not alone.
I showed my friends
my poems
unleashing the deepest whispers of my soul,
my yearning for intimacy, but never sex,
for sensual touch, for nudity and closeness, for even things considered sexual but aren’t sex to me,
and my friends,
they have said,
it resonates with them.
They get it.
And it isn’t something I expected
because nobody ever talks about us.
So here we are.
This one goes out
to the asexuals who want all that intimate depth
but with none of the expectations
of sex.
This one goes out
to all the aromantics who want that intimate depth
but with none of the expectations
of romance.
We’re out there,
and sometimes,
we are beautifully passionate
or quiet and subtle.
Whether it be to hold hands tenderly
or it be to bask in one another’s unclothed glory,
never feel an obligation to do it the way society says is Proper
because it is the allo way.
Disregard it, dear,
throw it to the wind,
and forge the path that works for you,
in all its complexities,
with all your specific wants and needs.
Do not let such things go unspoken and unfulfilled.
Let this world know what you want and expect.
And maybe, you’ll find
you’re really not as alone as you feel.
It turns out, more often than not,
someone feels the exact same way.
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writing is kind of torturous why did i have to choose the art most likely to drive you fucking crazy
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are there any poems u could recite from memory?
yes there are! ❣️ off the top of my head, i can recite first fig by edna st. vincent millay, wet evening in april by patrick kavanagh, wild geese by mary oliver, won’t you celebrate with me by lucille clifton, summer night by yena sharma purmasir, this be the verse by philip larkin, rain by raymond carver, and asami writes to korra for three years by natalie wee, which is the longest poem i can recite, which i chose as my first ever favorite poem about five years ago, and which still makes me feel as though i’ve lit a small lantern inside my heart to this day
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wanna drinka lotta fluids
get my calories in
tho i hate my job i do it
that's my salary sin;
and i'm screwin' up the mission
every fuck that i give
so i used to have ambition
now i just try to live.
i had my share of trauma
startin' young as a child
so i stay prepared for drama
can't be dumb in the wild,
but to fit the smaller spaces
thaat i could do me in
i split and caged my face:
masks in a museum.
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🪆would love one featuring Russian thoughts on God! ✝️
SO. I could have sworn that I've posted "Avvakum in Pustozyorsk" on this blog before, but I can't seem to find it so here it is.
(For context, this is written in the voice of a 17th century Russian Orthodox priest and religious dissident (an "Old Believer"). Avvakum was sent to the military outpost of Pustozyorsk where he was imprisoned four fourteen years, then eventually burned at the stake. It uses this historical voice to reflect on the religious persecution of the Soviet era. Also, it's fairly long, so I've highlighted my favorite stanzas.)
Avvakum in Pustozyorsk
The walls of my church
are the ribs round my heart;
it seems life and I
are soon bound to part.
My cross now rises,
traced with two fingers.
In Pustozyorsk it blazes;
its blaze will linger.
I’m glorified everywhere,
vilified, branded;
I have already become
the stuff of legend:
I was, people say,
full of anger and spite;
I suffered, I died
for the ancient rite.
But this popular verdict
is ugly nonsense;
I hear and reject the
implied censure.
A rite is nothing –
neither wrong nor right;
a rite is a trifle
in God’s sight.
But they attacked our faith
and the ways of the past,
in all we’d learned as children,
and taken to heart.
In their holy garments,
in their grand hats,
with a cold crucifix
in their cold hands,
in thrall to a terror
clutching their souls,
they drag us to jails and
herd us to scaffolds.
We don’t debate doctrine,
of books and their age;
we don’t debate virtues
of fetters and chains.
Our dispute is of freedom,
and the right to breathe –
about our Lord’s will
to bind as he please.
The healers of souls
chastised our bodies;
while they schemed and plotted,
we ran to the forests.
Despite their decrees,
we hurled our words out
of the lion’s mouth
and into the world.
We called for vengeance
against their sins
along with the Lord;
we sang poems and hymns.
The words of the Lord
were claps of thunder.
The Church endures;
it will never go under.
And I, unyielding,
reading the Psalter,
was brought to the gates
of the Andronikov Monastery.
I was young;
I endured every pain:
hunger, beatings,
interrogations.
A winged angel
shut the eyes of the guard,
brought me cabbage soup
and a hunk of bread.
I crossed the threshold –
and I walked free.
Embracing my exile,
I walked to the East.
I held services
by the Amur River,
where I barely survived
the winds and blizzards.
They branded my cheeks
with brands of frost;
by a mountain stream
they tore out my nostrils.
But the path to the Lord
goes from jail to jail;
the path to the Lord
never changes.
And all too few,
since Jesus’s days,
have proved able to bear
God’s all-seeing gaze.
Nastasia, Nastasia,
do not despair;
true joy often wears
a garment of tears.
Whatever temptations
may beat in your heart,
whatever torments
may rip you apart,
walk on in peace
through a thousand troubles
and fear not the snake
that bites at your ankles –
though not from Eden
has this snake crawled;
it is an envoy of evil
from Satan’s world.
Here, birdsong
is unknown;
here one learns patience
and the wisdom of stone.
I have seen no colour
except lingonberry
in fourteen years
spent as a prisoner.
But this is not madness,
nor a waking dream;
it is my soul’s fortress,
its will and freedom.
And now they are leading me
far away and in fetters;
my yoke is easy,
my burden grows lighter.
My track is swept clean
dusted with silver;
I’m climbing to heaven
on wings of fire.
Through cold and hunger,
through grief and fear,
towards God, like a dove,
I rise from the pyre.
O far-away Russia –
I give you my vow
to return from the sky,
forgiving my foes.
May I be reviled,
and burned at the stake;
may my ashes be cast
on the mountain wind.
There is no fate sweeter,
no better end,
than to knock, as ash,
at the human heart.
--Varlam Shalamov
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TTPD Poetry Week #3
Song: The Outside
The greatest breakups happened last spring
Ask your ex husband and all of his flings
Ask yourself why you're still standing on the outside looking in
I tried to take the road less traveled by
But nothing seems to work the first few times, am I right?
Except for the words and their dwindling mercurial high
A drug that only worked the first few hundred times
The saddest breakups happened last spring
And ever since
I've been to a lot of lonely places
Will you now please let me in?
I want to know how lonely it gets on the inside
I still don't feel seen
@ttpdpoetryweek
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the stale end of summer, dripping away, a poem by me - this summer is gold melting in the sun.
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a photograph cracked
with age, years glued
to a page opened
occasionally,
i stare back at you
from a place too far
away for clear
remembrance
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since i started testosterone in february i have been reading a stanza of andrew marvell’s poem ‘the garden’ every month to track the way my voice has changed. today i finished it :-)
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hi! i'm here with another poem. :) this was basically an experimentation with white space and line breaks. i really liked how it came out, ESPECIALLY the structure. so! yeah! sorry the image sizing might be weird? i can't be fucked to really fix it akdsdfjs
full poem transcribed below the cut.
"a step by step guide to stopping a panic attack"
step one:
Remember that this will not last forever.
step two:
Take deep breaths
my lungs wheeze and shudder
like a car that won’t start
like they’ve been emptied
of the gasoline and of the breath
and of the will to keep functioning
and on the phone my mom asks
have you tried controlled breathing
i say mom
i don’t know what control feels like anymore
step three:
Find a peaceful spot
once i read online that panic
attacks can be stifled with distraction
and to put ice on the inside
of your wrist to confuse your brain
but i forgot to fill the ice cube tray three days ago
i attempt solace on the bathroom
floor with fingers digging into grout and bars
of soap and consider sitting
in the shower
so i can at least be clean
step four:
Smell some lavender
my body is stubborn
allergic to things like
fresh-cut-grass or scented
bath soap like arms wrapped
around diaphragm squeezing
like hot tea and hemp oil
and body scans like blankets
like hand holding or soft melody
allergic to things
like lavender
step five:
Tell someone
your mom or your partner
or your father or your roommate
or your best friend or your therapist
that says sounds like you need to verbalize
so it’s off to talk to the neighbor
downstairs or the dog in the park outside
or the dog’s owner who asks if you need
them to call someone
such as an ambulance or the bottle
of ibuprofen or your failing kidneys
or your mother again even though
it’s only been 48 hours since the last
call or the hotline that will ask
if you’ve tried
just talking it out
step six:
Repeat a mantra
remember this will not last forever
this will not last forever
this will not last forever
this will not last forever
this will not
this will
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The Two-Headed Calf
Tomorrow when the farm boys find this
freak of nature, they will wrap his body
in newspaper and carry him to the museum.
But tonight he is alive and in the north
field with his mother. It is a perfect
summer evening: the moon rising over
the orchard, the wind in the grass. And
as he stares into the sky, there are
twice as many stars as usual.
Laura Gilpin
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I don’t know if I just haven’t found the right poetry yet, if I’m engaging with it wrong, or if poetry just isn’t for me, but man I wish I understood and connected with poetry on the level the rest of y’all seem to it looks nice
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