a collection of people that are alive (but really shouldnt be)
because i realized that i have a suspicious amount of characters that either have been alive for a little too long or have been alive for a couple too many times. heres a collection.
haoyu who has been alive since long before the jade winds, has seen his home be ruined, built up, ruined again, countless times and still manages to find joy in the beauty of tyria
ayzeelia who came to the desert to feel free, just to be ripped from freedom and enslaved under joko, now wandering elona once more in an attempt to undo what joko had inflicted on the lands she loves
baldyr who couldnt be held down by death, who is too curious about the world to already leave it, who used his death to learn, and would die again many times for the sake of knowlege
alastor who is too loyal to his kind to be killed in a war against traitors and lunatics too hungry for power, who was the first to die and the last to survive
elisa who has spent her long long life training to become what she is today, who had to give up her humanity to be of use, who rediscovers that humanity in the worst moment possible, when she is needed the most
carry who was ready to sacrifice herself to raise the desert from the dead, "survived" because of her sheer power, a dead body walking tyria, and though her heart is no longer beating, it is still filled with kindness and love for all living and dead
lucien who was brought back by his own god he loved so much, just for him to come back not quite as intended, who has no memories, no purpose, who was discarded, who is lost forever without divinity to guide him, but who still feels that call in the back of his head to be what he was awakened to be
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Dreamer of Light
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Chapter 2
Chapter 1
"Alone again"
My dreams have always been something else entirely, as some may say, that you cannot dream of someone you haven't met before, and yet, those exact beings haunt my more quiet nights. One night I see violet eyes, ones that look mischievous yet are full of warmth, who is one of my favorites, as he is always present with my sister. Whom I miss terribly, so I try to get every scrap of her whenever I can, trying not to let her abrupt absence hurt me, yet I still remain unsuccessful. Sometimes while I look at them being happy, hearing her laughter and sometimes even the song she used to sing to me when we were children. I can still see her, in the old cottage, on the floor with me, singing loudly until Nesta barged in only to tell us to be more quiet.
I sigh as I get up to look outside, hugging myself in an attempt to find some comfort. The sun shines even more brightly than yesterday, the rich tones of the sun reminding me of two pairs of amber eyes that come, that give a sort of brotherly comfort, somehow. They seemed warm. Then there was a pair of silver. Those I can not say if they were dreams or nightmares as I find myself getting chills any time I would stare directly at them. They felt, she felt , like death incarnate. Yet felt terribly familiar.
I shook my head as I heard a soft knock on my door. "Come in." I said before turning around only to find Nesta entering, closing the door with a click.
"Good morning, Nes." I smiled brightly as I greeted her, she gave a nod back before I continued "May I help you?"
She simply nodded as she made her way to my bed, taking a seat and motioning for me to join her.
"How have you slept? Any nightmares?" She still had her usual stony face but I believe I saw a mirage of worry behind them. I shifted as I sighed.
"Not today, but I sometimes feel it, feel them, as if they truly existed. As if they were indeed..alive." Only the thought gives me shivers, the metallic smell of red coming out of nowhere.
"You know that it is impossible." I nodded as I tried to keep my breaths even, I need not worry anyone today. "You have to stay strong, it'll pass." She put one of her hands on my shoulder in a comforting manner, still keeping a mask of iron close to her, I still attempt to see through the cracks after all these years.
"I know, but that red-headed woman is simply..terrifying does not even compare. She feels worse than decay, worse than falling, not bad, but pure evil." Nesta hummed as she moved away to prepare me a cup of tea, which she handed me only seconds later. "Thank you."
"Look-" Her visage slightly frowned, I am wondering what she wishes to say, but the words die in her throat as I hear Elain's loud scream outside."Feyre!"
My whole body locked in its place, the joints so tight that they started to hurt as I tried to process her words as her name echoed in my head: Feyre, Feyre, Feyre.
Nesta takes me by the hand and gently guides me to the hall, to assess the situation. But with every step, my breaths become heavier and heavier. And as we approach, I am finally met with the figure of my older sister, as I feel stiff once again, so shocked that I barely registered Nesta's quiet gasp. I tried to take a step, but my breaths felt short and my heart beat so wildly that my vision became spotty and I fell into complete darkness.
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My head hurts terribly as I start hearing some muffled voices, which start becoming more and more clear by each second, as not only my hearing, but my memory also becomes better. And then I hear her voice, the one that I have waited to hear for months. "How am I in the wrong here?" She sounded annoyed yet saddened.
"Because, we both suspected the fact that you lied, Feyre. Which wouldn't be so bad, but she felt it. She fell sick for a month when you left, suffered enormously, and dreams of a certain golden beast with green eyes, rings any bells?" I heard a gasp before an impact on the ground. The sudden noise was enough to jolt me awake, gasping for air. Both Nesta and Feyre got up from the table as soon as they saw me awake. Was I dreaming that part of the conversation? I think not. That means-
"Feyre…you lied?"I turn to look at her, I have always had quite the skill of telling if others lie. It just gives me a certain feeling, one I can not point out. She opened her eyes wide, most probably not expecting me to be so straight forward, but this may be my only chance to find out the truth. I had to take it. She only averted her eyes and muttered the smallest "yes" I've ever heard. After a moment of reflection she finally met our gaze, more confident than the last as she said " We need to talk."
And then, Elain burst in the room, looking terrified as she joined me by my bedside. Breathing a 'thank goodness' before starting to dote on me as Feyre got up to close the door to my room. "Let's talk."
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To be frank, I was not expecting this, not at all. A Fae Prince that took her away, same one that has been haunting me in my sleep, leaving me with full nighters as I couldn't escape those green eyes that were different than she described them, not full of kindness and love, but pure, wild and uncontrollable rage. That our riches came from him, and her coming back was also a courtesy of his.
"There is no way that we are living off of a wretched beasts-" Nesta protested, her face reddened by all the anger she tried to contain while Feyre told us her story, trembling with rage, however, our sister bit back as she replied defensively "Do not talk about him that way Nesta, you don't even know him." She sounded so sure that I was afraid to even mention the fact that her newfound lover has been torturing me for the last months.
"And you are starting to sound even worse than those children of the blessed. And how about Sienna's nightmares then? She had them even before we had our suspicions. Or are you too blinded by that monster's-" And then, Feyre exploded.
"Who cares about some dreams?! He is out there risking his life while I am here. I shouldn't be here. I should be there. Damn it." She then burst out crying, sobbing uncontrollably as Elain jumped to hug her back, sobbing and crying with her. Somehow their sadness feels worse than a heartbreak as I then take both of them in my arms as I played with their hair until they calmed down. Another occurrence that usually happened when we had bigger arguments, and I can finally see the whole image, of us little and on our small bed, huddled together as the girls cried in my arms all the same, when Nesta finally laid her head on my shoulder, the only time she had allowed herself to feel some emotion, when the others were occupied with their own heavy hearts. I always helped them through hard times. I loved that I could do that, at least.
As everyone calmed down and went about their own business I saw Feyre go off with Elain , and Nesta went to, probably, let off some steam. So I decided to also consult my own itinerary for today.
I haven't felt the rest of the day go by as I tried to keep myself occupied, to try to keep my emotions at bay. But still, every time that day that I saw bright red or green the same shiver went down my spine. By that time, I was certain. I had to warn Feyre about him. Or she will suffer because of him, and that fae female. They are always a dark cloud or an obstacle that turns my dreams of her into a nightmare.
At dinner time, I went to check on our staff when I only found Nesta fast asleep next to a bottle of wine. I tried to wake her up as gently as possible. "Nes, please wake up. You know I can't carry you to your room." She just groaned and stood up, before placing an arm around my shoulder for support, as I took it to stabilize her. "I dismissed the staff. Too many fae discussions for listening ears." I hummed as we reached the stairs, with her holding onto me fully. "I'll whip something up for our sisters, then."
She said nothing as we reached the top, however, when we reached her door, she turned around and said, quietly "She doesn't belong here anymore. You need to accept it or you'll end up heartbroken again." She now had much bigger cracks in her perfected façade that made it more visible that she was tired, so incredibly tired.
"I wish I could guarantee it, sister. Goodnight. " I turned on my heels before making my way through the kitchen, preparing something simple yet tasty, I believe. One could never go wrong with pasta, after all. Twenty minutes later, I heard the girls coming in, giggling, which brought a small smile on my face. As I took each of our own portions to the dining room.
"You were talking about that female, who you have heard atrocities about?" Elain asked while digging into her plate, she has been encouraging my cooking from day one, sweet Elain.
"Yes. Amarantha. "That name… the red-head. She is real she is real she is-
"Sienna?" Feyre raised an eyebrow while looking worried at me, same as Elain, their attention now fully focused on me, it was now or never.
"I've dreamt of her, Feyre. Of her and…Tamlin. " At that her whole face paled, as she started getting agitated, maybe I shouldn't have said anything.
"Tell me everything Sienna, please." In a couple of seconds she crumbled completely yet again, but looked determined. To what? I have no idea. But still, I agreed and told her every single one of my nightmares, but when I asked about the violet eyed man she simply shrugged her shoulders, concealing her opinion on him. By the time I told her of every way they tormented me in my sleep, I finished with a warning. "If you ever hear the name Amarantha again, or of a blood red-haired woman, please, do not go near her or them, for that matter."
However, her reply left me speechless as my blood boiled. "That is exactly what I will do, when I find out more about what happened." I can never say that I felt angry, until now, but maybe angry wasn't the right word. I felt frustrated and worried for her, so I replied. "And do what, exactly? You'll be a human, weak and fragile, breakable, on a freaking continent of fairies, ones who wish us harm, no doubt."
"But I have to do something! At least I will know that I gave it my all." She looked determined, but I couldn't let her do this to herself.
"It'll kill you, Feyre." That she dismissed, shaking her head while continuing on with her determination.
"I'll get through somehow, all I had to say was that I love him, but I wasn't able to. I owe it to him to at least try." That made me look at her for a good minute. Owe him? No one who says that they are in love should ever owe each other anything other than respect, love and care. Ever.
"You do not owe him anything, do you even know his true intentions?"
"Of course I do. He loves me, that's why he let me go." Her reply was always the same, but somehow, the one note of her voice when she says this, makes me think that she's mainly trying to convince herself, not me.
"At least promise me you will find the violet eyed man." At that she froze, eyes wide and full of something similar to panic, however I couldn't quite put my finger on it.
"No." She looks upset now, I wonder why.
"Feyre." I tried to sound authoritative, but I don't know if I succeeded.
"Are you sure Tamlin is the High Lord the Suriel was talking about?" That hit a nerve for her.
"Why-?" Her voice cracked slightly, but I can't back out now.
"There are six other courts for a reason." And that was the cherry on top.
"You know what? I'm done." She wiped her hands and left the dining room, the atmosphere got heavier, and Elain slipped out of the room with a quiet 'goodnight '. I groaned as I got up from the table, cleared it out and returned it to the kitchen, from where I snatched Nesta's unfinished bottle of wine, a glass and rushed straight for my room. I messed up yet again. I poured myself some of the wine left as I tried to think about anything else to no avail. I could've been more firm in my point, Gods I wish I would've. At least I knew it would ensure her safety. Or maybe I'm imagining things. As my thoughts spiraled I got another glass and a half and finished the bottle, slumber taking me right after finishing, in my chaise.
The next morning, when I went to her room, she was nowhere to be found, and when I spotted Nesta and questioned her about Feyre's whereabouts, she looked at me with a grim expression as she asked me quietly, the words carried by the wind. "Didn't she tell you? She left."
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