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@egrets-not-regrets @bleedingichorhearts @kit-williams @sleepyfan-blog @barn-anon
Spoilers for Warhammer Fulgrim Lore.
I think the husbandry fandom has missed a profound opportunity for some juicy conflict!
So we have some general agreed upon notions for how certain legions react to Husbandry Terra. Now obviously not all of a single space marine type behave the same way but there be trends.
Salamanders, Ultramarines, Blood Angels, Thousand Sons, Space Wolves, Imperial Fists: these groups generally accept bonds and human companionship as they had decent human contact in their original timeline.
Then you've got the grumps who love the attention but getting them to admit it is like Pulling Teeth: Night Lords, Iron Hands and Iron Warriors.
But we have been missing out! On a delightfully painful side of our favorite premadonnas. The Emperor's Children.
Now they and their sire Fulgrim are often stereotyped as such. Elegant, pompous, snooty and post heresy they go completely mask off a drive full into unbound freak territory.
But their story is much more tragic than a spoiled brat leading other spoiled brats into serving the God of overdoing things.
Fulgrim isn't spoken of as much in terms of being screwed over, but looking closer he really was.
Shot to an awful industrial planet where he watched his adopted family struggle to feed him let alone themselves. It would give anybody a complex.
Needing to be useful, needing to contribute, needing to not be a burden.
And once the The Big E showed up it didn't get much better.
His sons? Suffer a geneflaw that gives them astarte cancer. He not only loses many of them, but has to make due with what he has left. Meaning no matter how well trained, he just can't conquer planets at the rate dear old dad wants him to.
His brothers? Got there own issues and probably don't take Fulgrim's struggles seriously. He's just at that spot of "Wow that sucks," and "But the others have it worse.' He probably doesn't feel like he can talk deeply to anyone.
So Fulgrim does what many unloved children do, in fact he does the same thing as Perturabo, Pushes Himself to The Breaking Point.
In Fulgrim's case, any failures he blames completely on himself. Where Perty lashes out, Fulgrim turns inward.
Until he just can't take it anymore. He decides he's going to finally be selfish. Commit fully to the pleasures and pain so he never has to remember the agony he feels, that he will Never, be good enough
Heck killing Ferrus probably cemented that feeling in him. I'm not worth anything, so why bother trying to be good. Why not just be the absolute Worst.
Heavy stuff. But this leads me to my main musing.
In 40k the sins of the father very much affect the sons.
So my proposition is...you think other space marines are clingy? They hold not a Candle to an Emperor's Child. Especially one post heresy.
If you show an EC that they can be open, vulnerable, Imperfect, around you, and you don't immediately turn tail and run from the baggage, You Will Never Escape.
They don't just crave intimacy, they crave stability, affection, LOVE.
And if you give them any indication you'll supply it, they will Never let themselves be cut off.
#primarch#fulgrim#space marine husbandry#space marine husbandry sentience#emperors children#C-U-C-Koo ramblings
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Watership Down - first the film, then the book, is one of the most formative media influences in my life. I’ve written about it briefly, here https://i-blame.tumblr.com/post/69030937937/moniquill-moniquill-kucala-moniquill
but having watched the above video essay, I want to say more.
The first time I saw a deer up close was in my grandfather’s back yard; I was about four years old. I don’t remember the reason that my mom dropped me off at my grandfather’s house for an afternoon, but I know that it was unplanned - because he was in the middle of processing a deer. It had been field dressed, organs already removed, and was hanging by its ankle tendons from the t-shaped steel pole at one end of the backyard clothesline. I was startled, worried, concerned that the animal was hurt. There was blood! There was flesh!
My grandfather responded by calmly explaining what he was doing, step by step. Explaining why he was skinning the deer, and quartering it, taking it from this https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/White-tailed_deer to this https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Venison
He talked about hunting, and about gratitude, and about humans and our proper place in the world - what meant to live in a good way.
By the time my grandfather was cooking tenderloin medallions and plating them up to me with grape jelly (don’t knock grape jelly on meat until you’ve tried it!) and instant mashed potatoes, I wasn’t startled or concerned anymore. I had a deeper understanding of the way the world worked, of my role as a consumer, a predator. Of the responsibilities that entailed. I couldn’t have explained it then, of course, with my 4-year-old mind and vocabulary - but Philosophy had been set into motion. This is a core memory for me.
I did not have nightmares about the butchered deer.
I was six when I first saw Disney’s Bambi. I DID have nightmares about that; between Bambi and The Land Before Time, I was absolutely convinced that my mother was going to die. That I was being presented with these media themes to educate and prepare me for that eventuality. I am the youngest daughter of a youngest daughter, and I have an extended tribal family. My grandfather died when I was six. His was one of many funerals I attended at that age; his generation succumbing to age and illness. I was aware of mortality.
I wasn’t a ‘normal’ child, by the standard of the community that I went to school in. I was too poor, too indigenous, too very obviously autistic (without being diagnosed). I had very different media influences and interests than the other kids at my public school. No one else was deeply obsessed with David Attenborough’s documentaries (Life on Earth 1979, The Living Planet 1984, Lost Worlds, Vanished Lives 1989). No one else had even heard of Dot and the Whale. No one else in my class had Lifeways Lessons classes, because they didn’t have tribes.
I wasn’t terribly interested in most media intended for children; it was boring because it was simple. I didn’t feel motivated to watch Disney movies over and over. Don Bleuth films had more staying power in my mind; An American Tale, All Dogs Go To Heaven, The Land Before Time. More complex stories, stories that confront suffering and death. My mom read me CS Lewis and JRR Tolkein, Jack London and EB White - lots of other stories that were not ‘age appropriate’, stories that were written for People, not Children.
I watched Watership Down for the first time when I was about five, and my mom read the book to me when I was about six. I was not disturbed by the violence, being far more interested in the themes explored in the video essay above. I had, by this time, seen a rabbit skinned IRL. I’d eaten rabbit stew.
I did not have nightmares about Watership Down.
I failed to make friends with the kids at school, for the most part - I primarily socialized with my cousins. In fourth grade (age 9), my class did a unit on tropical rainforests, and I brought in this video: I did not think that there was anything at all controversial about it, but at about 32 minutes in David Attenborough talks about the Guarani people and their traditional ways of life. There’s footage of an unclothed man climbing a tree. His penis is briefly visible. THE CLASS WENT WILD, and the teacher rushed to turn the video off, and I was sent to the office. It caused a school-wide incident, and bringing in videos was thereafter banned. I was deeply, deeply confused by this series of events. The video had come from the public library - how could it possible be offensive? But the incident became a vector of bullying that followed me until middle school - the adults had confirmed to the kids that I had done something taboo, that I was fundamentally wrong in some way. I quietly came to the conclusion that Most People(™) are very stupid and very reactionary, that one has to carefully coddle and explain things to them.
It took me many years to only mostly overcome that conclusion.
Later that same year, I had my first real success in making a childhood friend - someone who came to my house after school and had sleepovers and such. She had transferred from another school and didn’t know I was THE WEIRD GIRL the way my other classmates did. I remember trying to introduce my favorite movies to her, as she introduced her favorites to me. She was a Horse Girl(™) and much more interested in Age Appropriate Girl Things than I was, but we shared a love of My Little Pony - I had a bunch of episodes on VHS, recorded off TV. She thought that https://mylittleponyg1.fandom.com/wiki/Rescue_at_Midnight_Castle was ‘too scary’ and preferred https://mylittleponyg1.fandom.com/wiki/My_Little_Pony:_The_Movie.
I showed her Watership Down. She freaked out about it. It gave her nightmares.
She was, as many people, deeply disturbed by the violence of the film. She had not, at the age of nine, seen animals butchered. She didn’t seem to care about the deeper meanings and philosophical treatises presented; the fact that there was violence and death was too shocking.
I’m not sure how to conclude this essay, except with this: Watership Down is now a litmus test, for me. If a person is aware of it and appreciates it, we’re intellectual compatible. If a person’s whole reaction is shock and disgust and cries of ‘nightmare fuel!’ then we are not.
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I love when a person is so trans you can't really tell exactly how they might be trans - all you know is that they are trans-something
#trans#transgender#lgbt#lgbtq#ftm#mtf#nonbinary#trans meme#call me dumb but i watched a vodeo with wendy carlos and i didn't recognize her and i was watching thinking 'wait...'#and she was in a gorgeous suit and had sideburns that could kill and honestly it was a look and i felt so dumb when i realized OHHHH YEAH#iirc that video was when she was transitioning and trying to go towards a more feminine style so#this doesn't really apply to her it's just an anecdote that reminded me of other things#obviously it's more complex than what is in the post#i guess i mean that you kmow that they are trans but that is all you know and honestly that's a mood#somebody who goes 'yeah i'm trans. good luck figuring out the rest tho!' is somebody i respect immensely
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I think a solid marker of identifying a truly complex, compelling, and unique character is seeing the frequency and scale of how OOC they are written in fanfic
#Example 1: Luffy#Example 2: Feanor#Example 3: Venti#(which is was inspired this post)#I’m guilty of it- why do you think I avoid writing Feanor and luffy like the plague?#fanfiction en masse just cannot abide truly unique character and that’s fine#as a genre rather and again- that’s fine this is doll playing most of the time BUT#like… if a character has more than two layers of stuff going on it is almost entirely lost en masse#if they can’t fit a ‘fanfic comedia d’artte’ role because the original author truly wrote someone unique? it’s already fucking over#and this is not to say that less unique complex or layered characters aren’t compelling#they are very obviously#but when an author truly creates a character who is just THEMSELVES and fits no role…#what to say but I want to do that one day#it is rare and very hard to replicate#also Venti is not nearly as much that as Luffy and Feanor askfkfks#those two are… literary marvels tbh#venti is on the same level as say Gintoki#still means they’re massively ooc in most fics lol#Tribble post
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a while back i made a post (that of course i now won't be able to find) that was like, two really popular (complementary!) fallacies are (1) thinking an experience is universal, when in fact it's specific to one's particular body/psyche/milieu; and (2) thinking an experience is specific to a particular body/psyche/milieu, when in fact it transcends such divisions—
anyway i get that the phrase 'purposelessly cloistral' is fun to sneer but i'm afraid that, like rhetoric about 'touching grass,' i actually think it's both unkind and intellectually unrigorous as analysis. yes, exposure to a broad variety of people is good for you, and can help you realize that positions you've taken for granted aren't shared by everyone; but people tend to cluster into insular echo chambers anywhere they congregate, whether that be in chatrooms or churches or cities, and i'm frankly very tired of this recurrent urge to, like, resurrect middle school ideas of coolness and use them as cudgels. clubbing—of either variety!—doesn't make you a better person.
#you'll also note the 'like this' in the post i'm criticizing‚ which is elusively‚ frustratingly vague as a condemnation—#like *what*‚ you may ask!#but if you have to ask‚ you're obviously not cool enough to be part of the in crowd#god forbid we define our terms and have a conscientiously careful discussion#that's a CLASSROOM standard for NERDS who spend time INDOORS#so if you object to our framing‚ you become exactly the sort of loser we're denigrating!#anyway. some of us are‚ in fact‚ purposelessly cloistral#and frankly deserve better than to get subtweeted with sloppy sneering analyses like this.#like i PROMISE you there are people out there getting warped into absolutely wild shapes by insular environments based on irl socializing#everyone wants to connect! dots! and it's like#sometimes—often‚ even—the real picture is in fact more complex & less binary than yr simplistic dot-connecting urges are allowing for#anyway‚ as with all such rhetoric‚ pushing back at this unavoidably makes me sound like exactly the sort of hothouse loser it skewers#but what can you do? accept that or else be preemptively shamed into silence (which is of course its goal).#✌️
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I think some of the arguments about fan interpretations of characters and OOCness forget a fundamental part of human nature which is this: each of us perceives the world and the people in it in slightly different ways based on our own experiences.
Most people have certain characteristics they consider fundamental to their Blorbo and some characteristics that are less important and could be changed, ignored, or scrapped for AU purposes. Unfortunately, which specific characteristics fall into which category are not going to be the same from person to person. Sometimes the overlap between two people's interpretations will be huge, and those two people will probably enjoy the same fan content. Sometimes not so much.
Personally, I write for a ship that were childhood friends that became lovers. In many AUs, people have them meeting for the first time in adulthood, and for me, that changes the nature of the ship and their characters so much that I can't really get into it. I consider their childhood friendship fundamental to them as people, and those authors don't. Which is fine. Many other people like those AUs. Nobody here is really in the wrong, we just have different opinions on what makes these particular Blorbos them.
In almost all cases, someone out there will find your interpretation of a character OOC. And that's fine. Hopefully they are polite and simply choose not to read your fics/engage with your HCs/whatever. But I think all of us have had the experience of reading a wildly OOC take and seeing other people enthusiastically going along with this "wrong" interpretation of the characters and thinking, "What??!?!"
It's fine. It's normal. It's annoying as hell (people are wrong on the internet), but it's inevitable. And if you find that interpretation particularly heinous to your Blorbo sensibilities, the block button is your friend.
#fandom#fanfic#idk I saw that one post where someone compares like#some people saying chess is beating each other with sticks and it's normal for someone who likes actual chess to be disappointed#as an analogy for bad fandom takes and like... nah man#tons of games have different rules and that doesn't make the game wrong#like maybe you thought all poker was just texas holdem and someone comes along playing five card draw#you are both right they are both poker but you are coming from different life experiences to expect what poker is#characters are so much more complex than games with rules#what speaks to me about a character might not be what speaks to you and this will affect what we focus on/exaggerate/emphasize in ourfanwor#like yeah obviously some people are stone cold wrong BUT it is our burden to bear the weight of knowing and understanding their wrongness#I see new authors freaking out about like what if I'm OOC!!!!!!#and it's like... eh you will always be ooc to some goober out there go have fun#will never forget that one post with like over a thousand notes about how Fenris doesn't use contractions in speech#it was just... provably untrue#posts I expect no one to read lol
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what if i was cringe and stupid or just not very super smart in the smart ace attorney fandom with their deep meta (that i adore btw) complex theme analysts (that i adore btw) admiration for character complexities (that I adore btw) and all that smart analysis stuff... what if I was this weird kid who makes aus where there's nothing left from canon but they're having fun with it... what if I looked super dumb compared to my mutuals and all the smart people I follow... what if I wrote ooc sometimes and didn't feel bad about it... what would happen then
#maya posts#talking to mia#I can't do this anymore i feel really bad about not being as intellectual and having more fun with my headcanons than with analyzing canon#i feel stupid I feel unworthy of bring in the fandom i feel like i bring nothing good to the fandom and like every post that talks about#bad media literacy is talking about me personally although I never have the takes these people mention but I'm not actively media literate#Im just passively not too illiterate#and like these people obviously mean no harm and are doing the good thing and my victim complex is the problem here#but like Oof i do not feel important or needed or loved i never really made friends in the fandom and I feel like I'm just annoying everyone#I guess I shouldn't have expected for that to happen maybe I should just stop my active presence in the fandom idk#maybe I should just interact with the creators although I want to be noticed too#fuck that shit man i don't know what's wrong with me at this point
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utterly cannot stand the type of post thats like "what are the female characters you like" and i KNOW it's not the fault of the people who make those posts i know they only do it because 95% of this site's blorbos are men. but i hate it anyway. like really the only way you can get fandom people to talk about women is to explicitly tell them to talk about women. and it always comes off so disingenuous because i KNOW most people reblogging those posts would never say those characters on a generic "what are your favorite characters" post. like it's all just so bleak :/
#like. tumblr user on an average blorbo tag post: omg dean <3#tumblr user on average Woman Blorbo post: well i really like woman 2 from netflix original bullshit show#and i don't mean to suggest these people DON'T really like woman 2 from that show. i just think like.#well i've seen ur posts and 80% of them are about a man. and you only ever even mention HER in relation to men or when specifically prompte#like. idk. i promise female characters are interesting when you take off the patriarchy goggles. i promise they are also usually much bette#written than whatever man you're obsessed with. i promise you.#like. clary gets almost no love from this site at large but she is probably one of cassie's most complex characters ever#meanwhile everyone here lovesssss will herondale. and i won't continue that thought lest i be blacklisted#so you see what i'm saying.#most tumblr users could not defend their love of a female character against their raw posting data#beth.txt#don't mean to suggest i never like male charaters we all know i have my guys#but i don't think i talk about men more than women. actually lets review the characters of the year#i'd start with danny obviously danny was huge in january#alina. alex. liv. i'd say call tamara and aaron all count#livvy ty dru and kit are a contant and don't need to be included in the data. but if they were it'd even out anyway#ok so that's 4 men and 3 women. not a bad ratio#didn't mean to make this post about me but well it is my post so yk. whatever#anyway. basically some of you could stand to get really weird about a female character sometime. sick of your deans and whatnot!
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Someone needs to write the essay on Betty Cooper, the sins of the father, generational cycles, serial killer genes, and Calvinism
#Riverdale#Betty Cooper#not me obviously#because I don't know enough about Calvinism to go into depth on it#I just know enough to recognize that Betty's worries about whether or not she is evil#and how those worries are based on her father and her serial killer genes much more than on her actions#and how they are wrapped up in some idea of fundamental goodness and 'good' as something you either have always been or have never been#are very Calvinist concepts#scholars specializing in Calvinism and its influences on America and American society where are you#god I love Betty she is SO INTERESTING albeit sometimes in a frustrating way (it's all the Calvinism)#has she--like the rest of the core four--been flattened as a character? yes obviously#is the Calvinism getting old? again yes obviously#but is she still complex and interesting? yes OBVIOUSLY#I have Betty Cooper brainrot#she lives in my head rent-free because I do not quite understand her but I want to SO BAD#I thought I did before but apparently I was wrong and I especially don't post-time skip#and I just want to pick her apart and put her back together#in the end Riverdale's success as a show and as a commentary on Archir Comics and America and Americana#and the darkness under the societal ideal of normality#rests on where they go with Betty and how they handle her and what her arc ultimately is#and if they stick the landing on her relationship with societal pressures and norms and boxes#and the archetype of the perfect girl nextdoor#my thoughts on Riverdale let me show you them
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doing one of those like, making a list of things to do so i can positively change my life etc and its like, the main thing blocking my ability to live my best life or whatever is the fact that i hide so many major parts of myself in my day to day living and i should stop doing that. but i am terrified of stopping so it's like, as time goes by, what will be stronger: my fear or my misery… hmmm
#just some musings during the football game lol#i mean obviously things are more complex than whatever fits into a pithy tumblr post but this is the bare bones of it#probably if i lived somewhere not around like ten family members things would be a little different but this is where i'm at now#and probably where i will be for a while so... what to do..#if i weren't like the least brave person who existed in the world things would be easier too#or had a supportive friend group to hang out with regularly... my social life is like only doing things with family members#which is ... not great#anyways... just thinking out loud.. won't have an answer for this any time soon
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Living as a trans man, I can personally confirm that, truthfully, we transition for the betterment of our well-being. "Escaping misogyny" hasn't been a goal of mine because (at least personally) I'm still persecuted because I am a trans man. Legally, trans people are not at an advantage. Socially, trans people are not at an advantage. At least currently, trans people are encouraged (or forced) away from being trans, because transphobia is rampant. At the very least, what people can do is rely on us to narrarate our experiences, not to assume what our motives are. Nine times out of ten, you will be wrong
#trans#transgender#lgbt#lgbtq#ftm#nonbinary#transphobia#transphobia tw#i used to question if i was trying to 'escape misogyny' but what i learned was...#...even in the most misogynistic circumstances women do still identify with and as women...#...and the women i talked to about this really confirmed that they've thought about what life would be like as a man...#...but would HATE if they were men because they're women#i feel like i'm explaining this really weirdly#i just feel like this is a case of occam's razor#because politicians SPECIFICALLY go out of their way to target trans people. and so do regular people#cis people don't go 'oh you're ftm? well gee time to treat you well!'#in fact it's the exact opposite in many of my experiences#like... obviously it's more complicated than what a tumblr post can delve into. i might follow up if there's questions#these are generalities by the way. our experiences are multifaceted and complex#described images#image desc in alt text
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wednesday was mid af
#i mean it obviously had style#just... not much more than that#SO MANY pseudo feminist buzz words jesus christ i'm a feminist and i'm embarrassed#there were only 2 women in the writer's room and they only worked on 2 episodes and YOU CAN TELL. way too many men#talking about men let's talk about tim burton. he hasn't done anything good since 2005#maybe an exception with big eyes in 2014?#in the end of the day Wednesday suffers from the same complex tim burton himself does#he really believes he's an underdog. unfairly bullied for his unfitting personality. opressed for daring to step out of the norms#when the guy's a fucking millionaire. and so is wednesday#for someone SO OBSESSED with feeling 👉👈🥺opressed by normies UwU he sure seem to forget to include actual opressed people as protags#it's cool jenna is latina. maybe we can see some change for now on!#very normal post#OH and that scene MORTICIA THE WHITEST BITCH tells the mayor a BLACK MAN he would NEVER KNOW what is like to say things and not be believed#???????????#HELLO?????????#not to start the opression olympics or anything but i am pretty sure black people are familiar with being dismissed in their denounces
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I know that terfs aren't gonna have their minds changed by this but the other thing about the whole "don't go on testosterone bc it causes vagina atrophy" thing is that some of us don't want our vaginas. Like there are treatments out there for people who do want to keep theirs and that's a really good thing and I'm glad those treatments exist but also my personal goal is to rip everything out and sew the hole shut as soon as someone lets me so I really don't care about the risk of eventually getting too dry to have vaginal sex
#disclaimer that the dramatizing what bottom surgery entails & slightly downplaying vaginal atrophy is intentional#obviously those two things are more complex than how i described them i just think that anyone who is actually going to listen to this post#and be respectful about it probably already knows that#2pm in the morning
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y’know, honestly, having a minimum wage job for eternity sounds more realistic than any of my dream/ideal careers right now :/
#obviously not what i want to do but whatever#don’t mind me while the current state of reality gives me several crises at once#my writing project is probably far too long & far too gay to get published anywhere#& making a manga is probably off the table for the same reasons#being a full-time artist is definitely in no way sustainable in this economy#& of course i currently know nothing about the construction of music & it’s probably far more complex than i originally anticipated#it’s all so. AUGH.#grace being stupid#text post#personal
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THIS POST CONTAINS GOTG3 SPOILERS, YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED
so it was only through this movie that I realised how incredible nebula and rocket’s relationship really is, or rather could be if they had more screen time.
they have the exact same backstory. horrific and violent experiments were performed on them both by galactic assholes with god complexes, and obviously they have both been recovering and running from that their entire lives.
but also, their personalities are just super similar - closed off, rude, no-nonsense, angry, etc. and that means that they can relate to each other in the same way as each other. what I mean is, they have spent their lives suffering in silence, and are not the type of characters to have long heart to hearts and open up to those around them. but that’s okay, because they can suffer in silence together. they can wallow in their pain together. no words required, just pure understanding.
and the fact that they were the only main guardians left during the blip?? are we just going to overlook how close they would have gotten?? a close knit family unit reduced to two people?? literally the only people each other had left?? LIKE???
UGH and the fact that she gets him bucky’s arm for christmas. it was on a different planet. she had never celebrated or even heard of christmas before. but it was THAT important to her to give it to him?? and the looks on their faces!!?!? YES
and just that scene where nebula hears his voice again and just sobs. and mantis (a literal empath) looks at her and says to rocket, “we love you and we appreciate you and we are so happy you’re okay because you are our best friend.” because nebula, just like rocket, isn’t the kind of person who would feel able to say that herself. but actions and reactions speak more than words, and those tears spoke VOLUMES of the value nebula places in her friendship with rocket and it just makes me so feral
#gotg#guardians of the galaxy#guardians of the galaxy vol 3#guardians of the galaxy volume 3#gotg3#gotg spoilers#gotg 3 spoilers#gotg vol 3#nebula#rocket raccoon#jesus christ this post blew up ummmm hello marvel fandom back from the dead are we??
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