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Songs That Remind Me Of Attack On Titan
Tags: Headcanons (Formatting), Eremika
Warnings: Season 4 Spoilers
Songs that remind me of Attack On Titan or that I associate with the overall series.
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╭┈─────── ೄྀ࿐ ˊˎ-╰┈➤ ❝ [06/11/23] ❞
This Could Build Us a Home - The Garden
Cell door slams
Right into my face
Immediately, these lyrics remind me of when Eren was imprisoned in Season 4.
Actually, there were a lot of times that Eren was behind bars I think 💀 jailbird fr HAHAHAHAH
I've gotta beat time
We're running out of time
Now this one is a bit tricky to explain.
While Eren can't physically time travel, I find that these lyrics can relate to how he kind of knows what's going to happen and despite trying to change his fate, or at least trying to make choices to lead to something different, he can't.
(I'm assuming that was how it worked anyway.)
But you can't outrun the preordained. You can only act with the hand you've been dealt.
I also think of the titan shifter's lifespan and how they don't live forever, despite being so powerful.
Promise me
That this can build a home
Promise me
That we will not get old
Oof...
This part of the song is definitely a little heartbreaking, knowing that Eren dies and he can't grow old with Mikasa.
Despite that, everyone moves on and builds new lives for themselves with the temporary peace they've been given.
Eren is the only one who doesn't grow old - but it's because of this fact that the others could finally settle down and build a proper home for themselves.
… … … … … . . ꒰ ♡ ꒱ ,, ⌲˘͈ᵕ˘͈
My Kind Of Woman - Mac DeMarco
I'm feelin' so tired
Really fallin' apart
And it just don't make sense to me
I really don't know
Why you stick right next to me
Wherever I go
Relating to the line where Eren talks about his head is all messed up to Armin.
His mental state has kind of reached a point where it's a little fucked up, and he's done fucked up things.
Despite it all, Mikasa sticks by his side because her love and devotion to Eren keeps her loyal to him, even if at times she's a slave to that love.
You're my, my, my, my kind of woman
Is there anything that really needs to be said about this line?
Eren Yeagar, everybody. The man that taught us what not to do when you have a fine ass girl by your side.
… … … … … . . ꒰ ♡ ꒱ ,, ⌲˘͈ᵕ˘͈
I Love You So - The Walters
I just need someone in my life to give it structure
To handle all the selfish ways I'd spend my time without her
Eren's life has inevitably become a mess.
Frankly, everyone in the AOT universe lacks structure in their lives. They all have had to constantly adapt to change.
Mikasa is a constant in Eren's life, but he isn't one in hers. The second line can be attributed to when Eren says that truly, he doesn't want Mikasa to forget about him.
That he wants to be on the forefront of her mind for at least another ten years, despite being dead.
It's a selfish desire, despite the fact that he won't be able to spend time with her. And yet, Mikasa is still the one thing Eren can count on to still be there for him, waiting.
After all, she did say see you later, Eren.
I'm gonna pack my things and leave you behind
This feeling's old and I know that I've made up my mind
I hope you feel what I felt when you shattered my soul
'Cause you were cruel and I'm a fool
So, please let me go
Definitely much heavier meaning to this part of the song.
Of course, Eren leaving Mikasa and Armin behind. He's known for a long time what it is that he has to do and nothing can change that.
It's a cruel fate for them, honestly.
Eren makes stupid decisions all the time, but at the root of it all he doesn't want his friends to suffer, even if some of his actions still caused that suffering.
Think of when he told Mikasa that he hated her.
But at the end of those lyrics, you can feel that sense of sadness where he tells Mikasa to forget him and throw the scarf away.
To let him go.
… … … … … . . ꒰ ♡ ꒱ ,, ⌲˘͈ᵕ˘͈
Moon River - Frank Ocean
My heart (you heart) breaker
Wherever you're goin'
I'm goin' that way (the same, the same)
Jesus a lot of these songs can be Eremika based 😭
Once again, Mikasa being a devoted and loyal to Eren, even if he has left her heartbroken.
I think at the end of the episode when we see that she grew old and passed away, we also see that she's holding the same flowers that were on Eren's gravestone.
I think this may be why she said see you later, because she would reunite with him in the afterlife. The last two lines of this song remind me of that.
Two drifters off to see the world
There's such a crazy world to see
We're all chasin' after all the same
Chasing after our ends
Obviously this song is in the perspective of a couple but I think you can be a bit imaginative and include Armin in part, regarding how he desperately wanted to see the outside world.
There was so much they hadn't seen or explored yet, and that was one of their original ambitions/goals. They used to be so bright-eyed.
At the end of the day, though, everyone knows that with being a scout comes inevitable death, pains, and losses.
While chasing for that freedom and exploration, everyone drew closer to their own demise - some just luckier than others.
Also, the title? Moon - when it was a full moon when Eren asked Mikasa what he was to her, and river - the ocean and how it was always Armin's dream to go there.
… … … … … . . ꒰ ♡ ꒱ ,, ⌲˘͈ᵕ˘͈
I Bet On Losing Dogs - Mitski
I bet on losing dogs
I know they're losing and I'll pay for my place
By the ring
Where I'll be looking in their eyes when they're down
I'll be there on their side
I'm losing by their side
When you think about this song as a standalone, it is clear that the overall message is about trying so hard to make something work when it just can't.
And you know it can't.
But knowing this impossibility, everyone's beliefs, choices, and devotion are unshakeable.
Even if they're losing, or if they can't change their fates, whether or not this is a never-ending loop they'll keep their place and pay for it.
Because at the end of the day, these characters wouldn't be who they are or do what they need to do without betting on something to lose.
Just as Armin said, you can't change anything if you aren't ready to abandon something. Is it love? Giving your heart to the cause? Your own freedom?
It changes depending on the perspective of who you're looking at this song from.
Whoever it is, they all stick by each other, knowing that there is one losing dog they bet on: Eren.
But not just them, so does humanity. He was humanities last hope in the beginning.
He doesn't get his happy ending, but Mikasa looks into his eyes before he goes "down".
Figuratively and literally.
How you'd be over me looking in my eyes when I come
Someone to watch me die
SOBBING.
ENOUGH SAID.
#↳˳☁️;; ❝ headcanons ᵕ̈ ೫˚∗:#headcanons#headcanon format#aot#snk#attack on titan#shingeki no kyojin headcanons#shingeki no kyojin#snk headcanons#aot headcanons#attack on titan headcanons#attack on titan final season#attack on titan season 4#attack on titan season four#snk season 4 part 2#snk final season#i mean not really headcanons#not sure what else to tag this tho#eremika
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will we meet again in a garden somewhere?
#ultrakill#gabriel#v1#gabv1el#very much getting the feeling that gabriel will be present throughout act iii#but i wonder in what form#im not sure but i love soulmates that are never meant to be#so maybe they'll meet again in a graveyard#ultrakill spoilers#i suppose for the environment#nothing else tho#doodle tag
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"I think this is the most inhuman; and human, that I've ever felt.."
MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN A YEAR. IN FIVE YEARS. A DECADE. imagine how much can happen in a century. just ONE (1). How will you grow? what phases do you find? even in 5 years, you will find patterns.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi suckening#jrwi suckening spoilers#jrwi the suckening#arthur bennett#HEY SO THE REALLY FUNNY THING THAT THE CHARACTER DID THAT SEEMED RLY SILLY N GOOFY IN THE MOMENT?#LIKE THE WHIPLASH BETWEEN SERIOUS N SILLY ALMOST PISSED YOU OFF? WHAT IF I FOUND A WAY TO MAKE YOU SAD ABOUT IT#this was meant to be a scribble that would be a bigger part of a bigger page.might leave it on that page.#but still. bc o that i nearly posted it onto my wacky side blog.BUT NAYY I SPENT TOO MUCH TIME N ENERGY N YOU GOTTA SEE IT#ARTHUR BENNETT DRIVES ME CRAZY. I FEEL LIKE ITS ODD FOR HIM TO BE SO TECHNOLOGICALLY OUT OF TOUCH#WHERE HAS HE BEEN. HAS HE BEEN IN WAR? IS THAT WHERE MAGNUS CAME FROM? WHERE WAS HE WHEN HE WAS WITH EDWARDS CREW?#ARTHURRR I HAVE QUESTIONS ARTTHUUURR!! HEY CAN I ALSO ASK; WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU BECOME#DO YOU THINK HE HAD ANY IDEA HE WOULD VEER CLOSER AND CLOSER TO THE MONSTER HE DESPISES. ALL BC HE DESERVES IT. OR WATEVER#HE FASCINATES ME SO MUCH. TO LOOK AT THE STONE COLD STOIC FOOL FROM THE START OF THE SHOW#AND TO FIND OUT THAT HE USED TO BE A BAD BOY.. A DELINQUENT... A LIL PRANKSTER.... MY GODDD THATS ADORABLE#I WOULD LOVE TO KNOW MORE.... BUT I DOUBT THE LAST EPISODE IS GONNA ANSWER THOSE QUESTIONS..i love arthur bennett so much....#AS FOR THE ART!! i mostly used the fire alpaca watercolor brush. tbh im not a brush guy. anti aliased default pen tends to be my main game#but LATELY IM SQQQUIRMIN OUT OF AN ARTBLOCK so expirimenting like this is helping#DONT LOOK TOO HARD AT IT!! im still proud tho. colors are fun :3 im also very proud of the backgrounds#I LOVE THE CARTOON THING where the background looks all fancy n painted but the characters are solid colors#what else can i ramble abt. OH YEAH. i looked up the bikes to make sure they were time accurate tehehehe. 1913 to 2012.#almost a century apart!! isnt that neat? ALSO FUUUCK CAN I JUST MAKE A QUICK CONFESSION. DOWN HERE IN MY TAGS.#only the strongest can read my tags anwyay. SO I REALIZED WHY I LOVE ARTHUR SO MUCH. TIME IS A FLAT CIRCLE#while arthur is a Stoic and Cool vampire w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORs#THERE HAPPENS TO BE A ROBOT FROM A BAND W A TITANIUM ALLOY SPINAL COLLUMN#WHOS A Stoic and Cool ROBOT w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORS#the fuckkkiiinnngggnn The Spine from steam powered giraffe. WHATEVER. i cant escape from my heart. i guess.#i think The Spine and Arthur could be friends. Arthur saw the band perform back when they were the Steam Man Band#EDIT: WOOPS I DIDNT REALIZE THIS WOULD END UP IN THE SPG TAG. HI GUYS DIDNT KNOW U WERE STILL ALIVE SORREE 4 THE CROSS CONTAMINATION
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The "why can't you leave me alone" line to nmj's head is so insane on multiple levels because the first time you hear it you think. You said that. To the head. Of the man you killed. That you keep. In your special secret bedroom closet. Jin guangyao, what the fuck?
And truly that's already insane enough but then you think about it a bit more and you realize that he's right. First thing Nie Mingjue does when his body is back together is make a beeline toards jin guangyao. In that one extra scene we get the delicious knowledge that Nie mingjue apparently escaped from his grave just to go bother him. Jin guangyao is the only man who can look at the disembodied head he keeps in his secret bedroom closet and has conversations with and go "why are you so obsessed with me?" And be technically correct.
And then the third layer of insanity is after you realize that and wonder. Then why is it there? Cause first you think he's keeping it there as a trophy. And i've seen some people say he's keeping it there for safekeeping so the body doesn't reassemble and while I'm sure that's a factor- and the reason the head is covered in all those talismans- he canonically kept the rest of the pieces so well hidden from each other that even knowing his brother was murdered nie huaisang could only find a single arm in the years he kept looking so clearly jgy knows how to keep the body from reassembling itself even if he's not physically keeping an eye on all of them at all times. So this? This is an acknowledgement.
Oh you wanted to come back for me da-ge? You found it that hard to leave me alone? Fine. You can stay. Just one part of you though.
The true fucking layer of insantity is that Jin Guangyao is keeping nie Mingiue's head there consensually. They both want him there. Nie Mingjue just kinda wishes the rest of his body was also there. Especially his hands. Wrapped around jin guangyao's throat.
Nieyao are killing me (and also each other)
#and nmj got what he wanted eventually!#the real truth of nieyao is that the one most eminating the 'i hope you die i hope we both die' vibes is nie mingjue#and jgy was like ok <3 you first tho#mdzs#nie mingjue#meng yao#jin guangyao#i lowkey want to tag the ship but i'm not sure if everyone else agrees with me on the inherent homoromanticism of beheadings
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Workin on Redesigning Jackies Colorful version and Im stuck as hell on clorors to pic for their Hair. Tried a billion different ones but These 5 seemed to work best I think
Also also Redesigning Isaac as well as his Sister. The old story I had for them was okay but then I got a better idea that makes Isaac the irredeemable shit I wanted him to be originally!
Also this idea allows me to tie in the whole thing from the cannon creeps comic of everyone seeming to hate LJ. Only in PM I plan on it to be a bit different with Ragz. Mainly that they didn't really do anything but SOMEONE did.
A Hint on why Ragz may be heavily disliked.
#im very unsure on a hair color so by all means give opinions!#either way its gonna be black in the version of them with less color#on another note#if it wasnt obvious Isaac is just being straight up malicious by dressing like that in the underworld#mf is intentionally pretending to be this clown to cause problems because hes pissedbabout being very justifiably killed#I'll get into that backstory one day#i gotta admit tho. Clown Isaac is very fun to draw#i got the idea because when reading the original LJ origin story#the thought of 'hey what if LJ is actually just Isaac?'#like yeah LJ killed him blah blah#bit what if LJ really was just an imaginary friend and the death was more a metaphorical one#im sure someoen else has had the idea before#but it came to mind a long time ago and it inspired me to be like#“what if after getting killed by this clown Isaac said he ruined my life so ima ruin his now”#and just dressed up to cause problems on purpose for them#anyway actual tags now#creepypasta#proxymorons#crp#creepy pasta#creepypasta art#doodleteeth#creepypasta redesign#laughing jack#isaac grossman#Izzy Lockwood#Isaac Lockwood#Ragz#Jackie Ragzdale
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scribblezone again
testing out brushes, early grey oru, and ace attorney-style psychelocks
#witch hat tag#orufrey#doodly. i like one of the brushes tho.#oh and i was thinking how the girls have qifrey's hat design but oru's (current) tassel and how that makes me feel#ppl will surely be thinking umm WHY do they have a different tassel to him unlike every other atelier ever. the whole tassel thing is just.#whatever. *keeps the rest to myself as i fall down a zelda-style chasm of emotion*#i JUST wanna know if tassel swapping is a cultural witch sign of commitment OR if it's something they just made up. JUST TELL ME. NAAOOOOWW#the girls are too young to hear about it because oru has the inbuilt belief that kids will mercilessly tease ppl#ok what is going on someone said the psychelocks art made them laugh and someone else said it made them smile#sometimes when i try to get out depressing ideas ppl are like hehe aww and then for those pink clothes i got surprisingly much sad response#it wasnt THAT sad........maybe. anyway genuinely interesting . this world is a mystery#i think its bc i mix humour & tragedy more than i ever imagined i would. i mean witch hat is like that so thats why im doing it. well anywa
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found out while putting together matthias's oc page that his name has the exact same etymology and meaning as theo's name...
i’m sure this is information matthias is very normal about…
#theo is in fact a gift from god so jot that down !#river dipping#i've been throwing myself into oc stuff bc i'm not doing hot mentally which is... tbh when i do my best writing 😭#none of this is new tho i wrote the bios and 'at a glance' intros months and months ago when i first made an oc page#which is why i do plan on rewriting them but for now i'm leaving them like this... so i guess the echthroi page is done?#obviously echthroi has more characters than this but i haven't taken new screenshots of everyone yet...#i put the gray cas bg back in my game a few days ago only to completely forget i wanted to take new headshots for the oc page 😭#like these are just placeholders... i want the backgrounds to match the oc page. oh... or maybe i could just do transparent pics?#i think i remember vyx made a post abt how to do that... will look into that when i open the game again. rn i'm at my keyboard 🧑💻#like i am writing new things! started a google doc for theo yesterday and have been writing on it here and there since then#i've already cried in there... lmaooo. i like oc pages for sure but i think a huge google doc is what i really need to keep track of things#i drop so much lore in tags on here and it's like! river write that down somewhere else or you'll lose it 😭#like i fr have never actually written down any of the info i've shared on here. i've just had all this oc knowledge stored in my brain.#so i went through and copied over a tonnn of tags and posts i've made into google docs but i just know i'm missing things i've probably#said in the tags of their core tagged posts... 🧍 if my blog didn't have so many posts i'd have an easier time going through it but 🤷#and on top of that i've been making a bunch of posts about theo and matthias on my main acc. which is like 🧍 well great now there's more#i'm gonna lose track of...... i fr have gottt to get into the habit of actually putting things down in theo's google doc!!!#i'm just trying to figure out the best way to format it all but i've downloaded a few templates that i've been messing with.#...anyway. if it isn't obvious i'm trying to get back to posting on here. i'm opening my inbox now with the intent to just.#sit here in my inbox until i can get myself to reply. lads... avpd is actually so torturous i'm not kidding.#i feel like i'm dying trying to get myself to interact with people sometimes even despite how badly i want!!!! to interact!!!#theo and me and our avoidant trauma responses holding hands and skipping around together
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I DREW THEM. For my favorite artist: @kick-girl
These two belong to @kick-girl, no matter what the copyrights say.
#aelith art#kickgirl#revan x malak#darth malak#i dont know anytihng about star wars its been a literal decade since ive seen the movies#i sure did like the game with the red headed guy tho#malak#revan#fluff#space#star wars#kotor#knights of the old republic#i dont know what else to tag this as
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Donno if y’all following this art blog are aware that i like Star Trek and our flag means death, but i had the wonderful opportunity to be a part of the @ofmd-reverse-bang and drew these pieces who turned into this absolute legend on a fic https://archiveofourown.org/works/48449449/chapters/122207104
Here are the my drawing for the rbb and i hope you enjoy the fic!!
#my art#our flag means death#star trek#reverse big bang#edward teach#stede bonnet#ofmd#ofmd fanfic#ofmd fanart#star trek tos#star trek the original series#no idea what else to tag im sure there is tho#edward/stede#blackbonnet#what’s their ship name?
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my book just got to me! these photos are so bright on my phone and so dull on my laptop lol
anyway here's the rundown: everything seems to be in order in terms of page order, page count, colors look really good, and nothing printed blurry or resized. That being said, the last two images are mistakes I made. Only one illustration has the printing problem from above, and it's likely because I made a CMYK off the wrong version of the file. The second one is dialogue in my comic getting a bit cut off because I failed to move it far enough away from the edge. There are some other formatting mistakes but none are as bad as these 2 examples.
This was a learning experience for me, I have never printed comics before so now I know what to expect and look for in the future. The affected images are viewable online at least.
Overall most pages look beautiful and it is a thick book of 110 pages, so hopefully that makes up for my mistakes. 😔 I will make another post to announce my shop opening.
#idk what to tag this#i want to make sure you're informed on the mistakes i guess#not much else i can do about them tho im sorry
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Drew 2 Narrator designs from two of my favourite fics to keep up with updates atm (At least how I imagine they look, might've missed descriptions lol)
This Belongs In A Museum! by Rexila (@rexila-rites)
Never An Ever After by scramblecat (@scramblecat) and Taking_Ls (@surftail_warrior tumblr won’t update it :( )
#human narrator#the stanley parable#tsp fanfic#tsp fanart#Not sure what else to tag lol#Love these fics tho >:D
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i'm going to be fucking sick
#they're snotstrid#what else do u want me to say#rose rambles#snotstrid#dragons off the coast au#EDIT: I WILL NOT MENTION THE MAIN TAGS#TOO LATE THO I'M SURE 😭
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YHS YANDERE HIGH SCHOOL
(grian pretending to be taurtis episodes; 51-58)
45-(1:28) grian introduced(?)
51-forced to dress up as taurtis.
52-(13:08) sam pressures grian to kiss pepe??
53-(4:20) the famous plastic bag eating scene! 6:20 gym teacher being a creep 21:00 grian tries to run
54-(2:13) grian tries to run again
58-(19:00) taurtis remembers who he is
60-(21:00) pie&grian "fair knife fight" over majo ellen
64-(8:40(10:50)) put in "crazy people room"
STAR WARS 1-(1:20) grian forced into leia cosplay, in the basement for 3 days. (18:20) Grian is taken by stormtroopers
STAR WARS 2-(5:52) nurse is weird abt grian, he threatens to report him. (16:50) sam&taurtis try to give grian away to greode
#yhs#yandere high school#not sure what else to tag this as#grian#yhs grian#this is mostly for myself#DISCLAIMER;; i have not watched the majority of yhs#these are from me going hunting for grian angst#i dunno when grian eats salex tho#so if anyone wants to point me to the right episode that'd be great#og post
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DOODLEPAGE COMMISSION CREATED FOR THE WONDERFUL @reallybelt
do YOU want me to draw you a doodlepage of your blorbo? im still doing commissions!! more information here. cmon down!! get em before the 15th when they put me down witha really big hammer
#cw gore#cw blood#NOT SURE WHAT ELSE TO TAG THIS AS....#but i WILL SAY OUH MY GGOOODD THIS ONE KICKED MY ASS FOR A MINUTE.. drawing guns is so hard....#im RLY HAPPY N PROUD WITH IT ALL THO.... i love the lil birdies...#ALSO BELT UR CHARACTER IS JUST RLY COOL N INTERESTING TOO#THEIR WHOLE BACKSTORY IS SO INTRIGUING AND TRAGIC...#im prouda the mildewy effect i did for the bg aswell.. ALSO prouda my line work just in general#im also very happy w the blood and gore n such#i LOVE a good sliced eye ball!!! i also enjoy the detail of the glass eye not being as bloodshot or expressive as the other eye#alright uuhh uhh what else do i even say here.. its 2 am and im sleeepyyy im sleepy im falling asleeeep imm gonna go to bed now.#love you guys sleep well#also PLEASE feel free to commission me. could REALLY use the money. got big things coming
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I decided to watch the Latino Spanish dub of Promare last night, and I thought I should draw the two. There is sooooooo much queer (sub)text in the film, and the fact that there are people who don't see it baffles me.
I think they are pretty cute together.
#promare#galolio#galo thymos#lio fotia#spoopy-sloth art#not sure what else to tag this lol#the spanish dub is so good tho!!! it was fun to hear Galo say some Spanish slang#and it's a bit more gay too 😳#originally posted this on my other blog but felt really weird about it so i deleted it and posted it here instead sjdflsdlfjl
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📓🕯️🐇🖤pt.2
#only 30 tags lol i ran out... so furthermore#we only get one life. im gonna try as much as i can to enjoy the little moments. nd to not give up on myself nd my life#i will die one day anyway. why rush it. i'll enjoy as many books and as many walks and songs and tv shows as possible#if i get a loan nd have more money i wanna bleach my hair nd dye my hair green#and later this year i think i might change my name#it was the name i wanted to change to from the beginning. but i was in such a bad headspace i just picked eden at random#i do kinda like it now nd im attached to it but i more feel like this other name actually is me. my birth name nd my current name dont feel#really right. so maybe. i havent decided yet. like i rlly dont know. im also attached to this name for some other reason. like it's who i am#to a person i rlly like and if i change... will i be anything to them? i cant put it into words but that makes me hesitate#but it's unhealthy to stay attached to someone i cant truly have even if i want to. so i mean. idk im just weird abt it#but i do kinda wanna change my name (to embla. my mom wanted to give me that name but my dad was like nooo >.<) i am not 100% sure tho so#when i've been getting used to going to school nd working out at the gym. nd after my surgery nd i have more energy#i will try to face my avpd and try apps for making friends. there r two apps where u can find new girl friends!! maybe i can try that#also like i've never tried apps but i think maaaaaybe i can use bumble to try to find friends and women to date. potentially. idk.....#rn it's hard for me to think in those terms bc. i mean i am hung up on someone!!!! i cant evwn imagine dating or being intimate w anyone els#sometimes i feel like.. they're the only person i've ever felt like it'd even be possible. who i'd event want to do that w#not only physically but emotionally. so ig it's even harder to let go bc im so scared i will never feel like that w anyone else#but i rlly need to try to make the most of whatever life i have. the world will collapse soon anyway#that makes me even more sad that i cant be w who i wanna be w nd do what i wanna do but#all pain will all be completely descimated eventually. it's not forever bc life isnt forever#i've just never felt this before. like i want smth to be real so bad but if it happened once surely it can happen again? right?#i wont spend my life alone without intimacy and love and comfort nd support nd understanding right???? :o hope not#im still so sad nd exhausted rn. nothing in my life is working nd theres no repreive nd no help#it gets sooo hard to endure everything sometimes when everything just keeps piling up and gets so heavy it feels like im drowning#nd atm i dont feel like i have any anchor. nothing that keeps me grounded nd im just floating away nd im constantly being overwhelmed by my#feelings nd emotions. im like a stupid little kid who dont understand how to handle what im feeling. or make rational decisions#i feel so ... stupid and useless. i dont know what im doing. i have no idea. i have no compass. its so scary
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