not to be cynical but i feel like there is such a culture of misery online

Hello, my beloved moots!

I know I'm always behind on my Asks and DM's, but I had a little bit of time yesterday so I wanted to share the love and appreciation I have received in the recent months. ♡

♡ Personal post below! ♡

My darlings @underthenightskydreamsneverdie @evaslytherpuff @shanaraharlyah @hotcinnam0nspicy @valyrra and @sevprince-91, thank you so much for dropping by to remind me that you think I am wonderful and for spreading your sunshine into my humble blog! Please know I love and cherish you all! ♡♡♡

And to the kind anons who had sent me nothing but positivity and love, I hope you know you've brought a smile to my face! 🥰

After one whole year of being in this fandom, I am still awed by how supportive and generous a lot of you are! I feel blessed to have had been able to curate my experience in this fandom in a way that makes me feel happy and safe in this little chunk of internet I call my blog. And even though it hasn't always been smooth sailing for some of us, myself included, I'm glad I still share the same space and niche with some of the nicest, craziest, most creative lot I've ever had the pleasure of calling my mutuals!

And lastly, I feel so bloody blessed to have met my soul sisters through HL! Like, I cannot truly imagine what my life would be like without the unwavering love and support of two of the hottest people to ever walk this earth @esolean and @valyrra! Like, sheesh! Have you seen these two?! And of course, what would I be without my girlfriend, confidant, and sisterwife @subastian-swallows? Babe, it's you and me forever. Sorry I have to drag you into this emo fit.

Apologies for the long post. I just wanna remind everyone that my blog is a safe space and that I really do genuinely cherish you all even if I'm not able to mention you by name. Like, my ride-or-dies know who you are. Okay, I'm going now byeeee! ♡♡♡

I'm confused about the reblog post you shared, I've only been on this app for 5 weeks and I joined because I wanted to see extra stuff from my favourite authors off AO3, and while here I've found a few users who also post fics to tumblr only, but I've never reblogged anything because most posts I see have lots of likes and the reblogs are tag conversations. I didn't want to have those tag comments to users so I've never reblogged, I just leave a comment if I wanted to. And I've also liked over 1000 posts since being here so wouldn't that be spam if I reblogged everything I like?

I'm definitely more of an Instagram user, and very new to Tumblr so I don't understand the workings of it and I can admit that, but should I not be here if I'm not reblogging posts? The community here for Wenclair and fics is superior to Insta, and I'd like to stay but I also don't want to ruin the site for the people who have been here for longer because I don't feel comfortable sharing things. I guess I'm just not sure how to proceed now 😅

Well, darling, let me just say that I reblog infinitely more things than I like, because I want to know that my personal blog has all the stuff I like seeing on it. Tag conversations are fun for me personally, having grown with this app and have seen reblogged comments get tucked into the tags instead. Reblogs, especially of creations like art or stories, help spread awareness for those things! We all like some positive encouragement 🥰

Ultimately the experience is yours, and if you feel better dropping comments as opposed to reblogs, that's okay too! Just think of a like as keeping a secret only for you, and a reblog is shouting the news from mountain tops. Tumblr is a weird place, especially because it doesn't work like most other socials, and you really curate your own experience here. Do I see the same post reblogged several times when scrolling my page? Hell yeah, but that just means all my friends are talking about the same cool things. 😊

You won't ruin anyone else's experiences if all you do is like and comment though, trust me 🖤🩷

(💫🌿🎈💞) for fic writer asks! 💓

Oooh good questions beets hehehe 🥰

💫what is your favorite kind of comment/feedback?

I love comments where people point out something they liked! It helps me to know what’s working well and what I can do more of/expand on!

Of course I love ALL comments but I just really love knowing why somebody would want to read or what they enjoy about my writing! 💞

🌿how does creating make you feel?

Oh! I love it. For writing in specific it really makes me happy and helps me relax/clear my mind. It’s so nice to just be able to even sit and think about fic ideas or come up with little scenarios or work out plot points. Sometimes it’s frustrating, but I think everybody gets that. At the end of the day I’d call the process restorative and rewarding.

🎈describe your style as a writer; is it fixed? does it change?

I’ve never thought a ton about my style! I’d definitely say I use a lot of long flowing sentences (probably run-ons, if we’re being honest), and em dashes. As far as changing, I try to really dial up settings or emotions when the reader needs to feel in extremes, and turn it down when I think the experience would benefit from being slower or more calm. I love luxuriating in detail, but I push and pull how much so I can draw attention to or away from certain things! For long fics I think that can really be helpful with pacing!

💞what's the most important part of a story for you? the plot, the characters, the worldbuilding, the technical stuff (grammar etc), the figurative language

Characters hands down. For me the characters make a story, and everything else is secondary. If I feel like I’m not with real people it takes me out of other’s stories, so when it’s me I really want to make characters feel whole and real. It’s something I’m constantly working to improve on! If I don’t care about the characters I won’t care about anything else.

I love world building, though, depending on what I’m doing! In original works I love making sure that whatever world I have is curated to the feel of the story. In fic I don’t do as much because the world is already a pretty clear picture and established, but I still sneak in bits and bobs if only because I think it’s super fun! Environmental storytelling can be so fun !!

3, 13, 23 for the fic writer asks

(for the ask game found here... feel free to submit an ask!)

3. What are some tropes or details that you think are very characteristic of your fics?

Oooh this is a good one! Without a doubt angst and hurt/comfort. One of the things that I really enjoy while both reading and writing is curating tension. I also really enjoy reading darkfic/dead dove (and have a few of these I'm currently working on writing), because I really like to delve into deeper exploration of more taboo subjects and the discomfort surrounding them. I think it all leads back to an enjoyment of a deep exploration into the characters inner narrative.

BDSM/power exchange is another theme that shows up a lot. I've got a lot of real life experience with kink, and I really enjoy curating scenes that are both true to life and heavily respect proper consent and negotiation.

Finally, figurative language/imagery shows up a lot. Purely because I'm extra af and LOVE flowery writing. I'm definitely not the type of writer who gets to the point quickly... I could make my point in 1-2 sentences, but it's usually a paragraph. 😇😇😇

I'd be curious to hear what others think are super characteristics of my fics!

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13. Are there any tropes you used to like but don’t anymore?

Overall, I don't think there are any tropes that I explicitly used to like and don't anymore! I totally go through phases of searching out certain tropes more than others, but if it's written well or by a favourite author/friend of mine, I'll absolutely read!

Though if I really think about it, kid fic may fall into this category for me, but it really depends on the fic itself. This used to be a trope I'd search for more often in the past, but has decreased over time. Personally, I'm not the biggest fan of the idea that one has to have children to be happy/have a happy relationship/succeed in life, so I tend to avoid fics with this narrative. This is not to say that I don't like kid fic (like... Obikin with kids is the cutest thing ever). It's just that I prefer to read fics with more... complex family dynamics. If you haven't already figured it out, I'm not the biggest fan of the idea of the nuclear family... give me a family with three parents, or a woman who's children are her three cats!!! 💖💖💖💖💖

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23. What’s a trope, AU, or concept you’ve never written, but would like to?

I've already answered this one here!! 💖🥰

hiii Ro 💕✨ cactus, ivy, and aloe vera for the ask game? 🥰

Jules, beloved, apple of my eye, absolute curator of spotify playlists, thank you!!!!

cactus ⇢ something you’re currently learning (about)?

hm. Well, I'm currently at Uni, so I'm learning a lot of things in my actual meatspace life. Today I went to lecture and learned about successful seed propagation (ensues, a 1-hour lecture about optimum moisture regimes for petunias).

In my personal life, I've just started reading Colonizing Nature by Beth Tobin, which is a long criticism of British colonialism exclusively through the lens of botanical collections and illustrations. I've only just started, but its got some really interesting stuff so far.

The only other interesting thing I learned recently was how ovipositors worked. I had always wondered, and finally curiosity got the better of me.

ivy ⇢ what are your ‘tells’ for your emotions and moods? how can someone tell you’re happy, annoyed, upset or tired?

I am really, terribly blunt and pretty bad at hiding my emotions in general, so people can almost always tell. Online I think its a bit harder, because it's much easier for me to hide things online due to the barrier of written language.

aloe vera ⇢ what’s something (mundane) you really want to experience in life?

Oh, god. I mean, I've never been in love, so I guess that would be a start? That seems to be a thing a lot of people have experienced, for better or worse. Not to opine on the mundaneity of love, because I certainly don't think that love is mundane, but there's a weird separation between people who have and people who haven't, and that has been recently reinforced as the semester has begun again and I've started making new friends. Nobody really gives a shit really, but it's always strange to once again be in the middle of people's partners and boyfriends and crushes and wanting wanting wanting for love. Like, I know that I (some of the time) Write Porn on the Internet, and am therefore fulfilling some stereotype, but damn it would be nice! It would be nice.

Other than that, I'd love to be a homeowner. Gimme a white picket fence. I tire of careerism. I was raised in a church; I know how good of a househusband I could be. I am tired of living in unprecedented times. I'd very much like to be at peace in the world. I don't think that's really mundane though.

Anyways.

Recently I've seen some new users on tumblr getting overly aggressive in kuro fandom, and kind of lashing out at others enjoying other characters outside of Grelle :( Like I hope this doesn't come off as whining or making up shit I'm seriously anxious about interacting with people cause it's gotten so pushy lately... Just wanted to send this to you, just like a warning that people are being like that, Idk I hope people calm down, thats all?? you have such good vibes on your blog though :)<3

Hi, anon! We fangrelles certainly are a passionate bunch (and, in my completely unbiased opinion, Miss Sutcliff is Kuro’s shining star 💞), but I don’t recall seeing anything too egregious lately? 🤔

That being said, I can understand your frustration. There’s a bizarre prevailing attitude in some circles of the fandom that all of Kuro aside from a couple of characters is irredeemable trash, which, to my mind, not only lacks nuance but is patently untrue. Although compelling characters (or merely ones with squandered potential) are a big draw for me, I also need to enjoy the story itself to become invested in a series, which is why I’m left baffled by folks who aggressively reject the work aside from one tiny piece. But, that’s just my opinion! Other people are free to engage with media however they please as long as it doesn’t hurt anyone, and we don’t have the right to gatekeep their fandom experience.

Based on my own observations, I haven’t necessarily endured much overt “lashing out” barring a handful of nasty anons here and there over the years. Instead, the issue tends to manifest as subtler forms of peer pressure that exist as this undercurrent within the fandom, like the pushback against fluffy, wholesome content (because the manga is DARK and EDGY and how DARE we write about Dadbastian or Kuro characters in loving, healthy relationships?! 😡). Or folks who deny that a gentler fanon version of Sebastian’s character is worthy of exploration and act as though hating him and insulting him in every breath somehow means they are consuming Kuro in the “correct,” morally superior way, even though their faves are equally problematic (I love dragging my trash demon, too, don’t get me wrong. But as someone who also genuinely likes the demonic characters, that atmosphere grows discomfiting at times).

Here’s the thing, though—we can’t control other people’s attitudes or what they post. We can, however, curate our own journey through Kuro-hell. At the end of the day, it’s best to focus on making and reblogging content you enjoy, engaging with trusted mutuals, and biting your tongue and taking your business elsewhere upon running into blogs you don’t vibe with. Despite our differing opinions, members of the reasonable side of the fandom have learned to coexist with each other in relative harmony. My hope is that we can keep it that way.

And I’m glad to hear that my blog has been a nice place to visit! 🥰💖

It’s normal to not have big feelings about a show while it’s on hiatus, especially these streaming shows with absurd w waits after binging lol but I’m sure once s3 finally comes your inspiration will come back!!!

I totally see this. I think what's tripping me up now is that the time between seasons is usually when I feel most passionate about the show. Granted, there was a lot of comfort attached to season 1 bc it was my quarantine show, and we all know how that goes haha. A few things have happened over the last couple of months that I feel just killed it a little bit.

I kinda joke about it being like someone stole my obx feels bc it does feel so much like I flipped a switch. I think it was a combination of some really nasty fandom drama and some personal things I had going on at the time that turned me away from it. And I hate blaming the fandom bc I could just...ignore it (in theory haha), and curate my own experience. But it gets to the point where it's just not worth it anymore. Some people are really mean when you don't update and it just automatically turns me off and kills my joy. Which sucks for my poor brain bc all I want is for all of my wips to be finished and posted and out of my drafts ajfkfkf

That's just really where I'm at rn. It's not fun anymore, and I don't associate the show with good things atm so I have no idea what s3 will bring for me. Thank you, though, that's really nice🥰 I hope you really enjoyed the teaser!!

# ZESTIHELL - Independent, Private & Selective Low-Activity blog for Zestial of Hazbin Hotel. Headcanon based and not affiliated with Viv.zie P.op. 20+ to interact and rules beneath the cut.

BLOGROLL : @rockange (adam), @fruitlutes (lute)

CARRD. / PROMO.

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Don't be weird. I do this for fun and as such will not treat RP as a job. It is a hobby and nothing more. Dnf if you are racist or against any in the LGBTQIA+ community. I don't want you here 🥰 I keep my mutual count low for the sake of my mental health, and when I break a mutual I hardblock given Tumblr's glitches when it comes to softblocking. Though I do rarely block as it stands.

Anon is on but I never answer anon hate, and I have 0 qualms about turning it off. Don't be a dick and if there is an issue I ask you come to me about it so it can be resolved in an adult manner. Do not include me in drama at all. I do not care for it, nor do I care too much about DNI. I will follow who I please UNLESS said person is genuinely harmful irl (ie a predator, abuser, things like that).

Curate your own experience & don't try to police mine.

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Shipping and NSFW is not my top priority so if that's all you're here for then shoo. If I do end up shipping Zestial with anyone it HAS to be with chemistry, and NSFW will be scarce as well. If it is written it will be beneath a 'readmore' and properly tagged with 'nsfw /'. Speaking of tagging I do tag all the things I believe might be triggering, and just like the nsfw one the formatting is much the same.

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I write. A lot. I've many thoughts that I simply must get out. Due to that I tend to write multi-para but am in no way saying you must match my length. Just give me something to work with and we'll be fine! As for formatting and the like I only use colored text in my pinned post and promo, otherwise I use small text and a mix of bold and italic in my replies.

Aside from this Zestial's blog is low-activity and I am slow to reply, so I ask that you do not pester me. If a thread is dropped I will notify you promptly.

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My name is Iggy and I am so glad you're here! I run two other blogs which are listed above so my activity is quite sporadic due to that. On top of that while I currently am unemployed Tumblr is not my biggest interest. I am usually available on Discord which is fine to ask for if we're mutuals. It is my preferred method of communication anyway!

Onto other things I do tend to talk a lot ooc but it normally pertains to my muse or things happening with my mutuals. Aside from that I tend to post a lot of edits and silly memes, all of which are normally deleted after a few hours so as to not clog up my blog nor the dash. I just get overly excited and have to get my thoughts out. I do not do passwords but know I have read your rules (likely triple read) as I have a bad memory and constantly check things to ensure I'm getting it right.

Once more tysm for checking out my blog and reading my rules. I do hope we get to interact and if you ever need anything at all please know both my inbox and DMs are open to all!

I’m also worried that my presence impacts people negatively and I’m not sure why? I haven’t done anything to go out of my way to send hate, be strange or anything. I think it’s just my mind telling me that. Sometimes being in fandom spaces can be overwhelming for me at least despite how welcoming and fun it is. I have gotten hateful messages in the past calling me names and deleted them but in the back of my mind I wonder if my presence is just bothersome to others even though I know I shouldn’t be thinking about that. It just crosses my mind at times. I do ‘curate my experience’ on here as people advise to do and it helps but I still wonder lol

I'm mainly worried because of a lot of real life experiences I've had and when you're online people only get bits and pieces of you. I feel as though I'm sharing the bits and pieces that ppl usually don't like in me lolol but I know I should just ignore that because I still have people I talk to on here. I haven't gotten any hate and I definitely don't send any. I rarely even do fandom discourse unless it's like a serious issue.

Sorry that you also feel that way , it's annoying as hell to feel like this but you're having a good impact on me 🥰🥰

I adore your blog! This is more of a question for you even though your posts all revolve around GGDD, but are you a writer in any capacity? Like novels or even fanfiction? Your writing composition and analysis of any given situation makes me think that if you aren't, you should be haha!

Aww, thanks Anon, you're too kind! 🥰

I have worked as a writer, yes. Non-fiction. I won't give too many details about my IRL stuff, but writing is something I'm into. I do dabble in writing fiction and poetry, but not anything I would share here. I have thought about writing fan fiction but haven't had a lot of time for it. Although I've had some hilarious ideas for stories. Maybe one day!

I'm autistic, and when I'm asked a question I have to think through all of the implications of it and write it all out before I have it settled in my mind. This is actually a big part of why so many apparently 'simple' questions I'm asked end up getting huge long, analytical answers. It's just my mental process at work.

Some people really hate that, and I've even gotten hate mail about it, but it's just my way of going about things. People who don't like it are under no obligation to follow my blog or read my posts. I have found that most people seem to like that I go into more detail, so like anything it's down to everyone to curate their own internet experience and find what works/fits for them, and avoid things they don't like. Attacking someone for not serving our particular interests/needs is just pointless and mean.

Anyway, Anon, thanks for your kind words. I'm glad you're enjoying my blog! 💛

I can’t help but get angry when Louis is MIA before big things. It makes me feel uncared for as a fan. he’s been waiting for so long does he not give a shit about us? would he rather go out partying or liking shit on instagram of other people being successful and not him? it just really bothers me this is always how it is. no headlines either of his tour starting.

you are allowed to feel however you want to feel, so first off, you’re valid for that. if you want my opinion though I feel it goes much deeper than that (louis’ number one defense person coming in 3..2…1)

so first off, I think lack of promo/coverage is entirely different than louis staying quiet on social media. the absolute silence from his team and NO effort whatsoever to get him coverage and promote his tour like every other artist is blatant, and nothing new unfortunately. but I believe that’s separate from him not interacting with us prior to content. because if it’s not……..that’s a really big and upsetting door to open and even think about (if his actual social media interactions are 100% restricted and limited at times like these) but also, you never know unfortunately.

personally, I think we have to remember that louis is just human. this tour is HUGE, and I think we can all agree what it feels like going from being quarantined in a pandemic for two years and then resuming work. louis’ work requires unimaginable hardships on his body, vocals, sleep schedule, and mental health. we don’t know what all it takes to prepare yourself for something of that scale and nature. we also don’t know what casual interactions on social media are from his perspective. I mean I know by now he’s probably curated his social media experience to be what he’s comfortable with and he most likely knows how to put up a mental barrier between his mental health and…..twitter lmao. but in the end we don’t know that for sure? we only see cute tweets and those tweets getting more engagement than literally anyone else on twitter, causing trends and thousands of people saying/posting/posting images of….a whole bunch of things. we don’t know if and how that affects him mentally. we don’t know what all he needs to avoid to get in the proper mindset for something like tour. we also don’t know how superstitious he is! he very well could be laying low because he doesn’t want to jinx tour. we don’t know! it’s valid to get upset, trust me, I know how difficult it is being so passionate as a fan and there being such little content. but I do think there’s a huge difference between his social media presence (I mean interactions and stuff) VS what all his team and the industry does not do, and he shouldn’t be punished any further for it. he loves us, he’s so grateful for us, we literally have hours until his tour starts 🥰❤️ you’ve got this ❤️

I wanted to ask you about books but I'm late :( you answered almost all of them! Je suis desole! So, lets do this - answer any of the questions left unanswered, or, tell me anything about any book/s you've read that you'd want me to know about 🥰 if you want ofc! Love you darlingest darling 💜💜💜

You're such a darling <3 (also the je suis désolée made me cackle you're way too hell bent on it xD.)

So without further ado:

Did you get into any new genres? I don't particularly read with a genre logic so I can't say I have really.

What was your favorite book that has been out for a while, but you just now read? L'Abolition !

What were your least favorite books of the year? I think I can safely say Chinese Queer.

What is the most over-hyped book you read this year? The first tome of Grisha, bc of the show, but mostly bc of Rini's hype lmao.

How many books did you buy? ......... is that a real question? Seems so. Lemme get up and go count. OK SO. Counting only those I paid, and not counting those my partner paid but were for the both of us still, 21.

Did you use your library? once only this year.

What was your most anticipated release? Did it meet your expectations? I have 3 answers, that are all wrong lmao. Première Née was my most anticipated one, but it released in late 2020, and it met more than my expectations. 4th Heartstopper is the most correct answer even though it was released previously on the internet, but it went way further than I expected and it was great. The last tome of Bergères Guerrières would be the correct answer if I actually had read it when I bought it. But i'm pretty sure it's gonna be excellent.

Did you DNF anything? Why? I didn't because I don't know how to but mostly bc I curate my own experience quite well. The only thing I didn't finish was, when I finished the first two tomes of 10Dances I went to find the next issue through fanscan to see if it was worth keeping buying, and I wasn't convinced so I stopped.

And BONUS anything about any book/s I've read that I'd want you to know about? The Ogre Gods just got kickstarted for its english trad and I would love you to read them. You're gonna get The Priory of the Orange Tree for some occasion because you're gonna absolutely love it. I wish I could send you a bunch of french comics that don't have translations yet bc you'd like them.