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Hey not the prev anon but I think I know what they're getting at: they might not be able to do anything to financially assist and Tumblr is often a safe space for people to escape from reality. It can be distressing seeing posts of genocide on your dash regularly when it's already everywhere else. Not wanting to engage with it on Tumblr doesn't mean they don't want to or don't engage with it elsewhere outside of Tumblr. Plus there are people's triggers to consider. Unfollowing is an option, but it's a shame to need to do that.
no im perfectly aware, yeah, and this is said as someone with pretty bad ocd. i just think the fact that people are asking for help right now isnt a reality thats possible to escape until the world itself changes. we should all be trying to look for opportunities to make a difference even if we cant presently take them. you dont have to doomscroll, you dont have to watch upsetting videos, and if theres really nothing you can materially do to help that thats that and you shouldnt blame yourself, especially if you or family or friends are being directly affected, but i have this platform and im using it to do whatever i can and if the existence of donation posts is too much, then social media may not be your best choice of escapism. its actually one of the worse choices of escapism in my experience. make your own anagrams
#not answering any more asks about this. again unfollow if you really have to#bask ox#mayo nouns#not an anagram
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Are you not writing for COD anymore or are you on a small break? If it’s a break, how long do you plan on being gone and is there a timeline for when you’ll post the Designer Dress drabbles and Selcouth?
It’s a little frustrating to say you’ll post and then leave us hanging for so long…
i'm gonna be real with you anon - i don't know and i haven't really thought about it.
i've been busy with irl things and protests in my area so cod hasn't really been at the forefront of my mind. i plan on clearing out my inbox this weekend and catching up, but i have very little motivation to write for cod rn. i don't know when i'm going to write for it again, i don't even know if i'm going to write for it again. given real world events and my feelings on the new game and activision, i just don't feel comfortable with writing cutesy fanfic about war criminals right now, even if they are fictional.
i get that it's upsetting to know a fic was planned only to have it left unfinished or not posted, but you want to know what's actually frustrating?? it's every time i talk about the islamophobia and racism in the games and esp in the fandom (or having any criticism of the fandom in general) and having my inbox look like this:
for days after. and these are the nicer asks.
i am sorry that i don't feel like writing for cod rn. i'm sorry you may have to wait a week/a month/a year for the fics you want from me or that i may write for other fandoms before i finish my cod projects. i’m sorry i can't give you a definitive answer on when i'll feel more comfortable writing for cod or participating in the fandom again. i’m sorry for leaving you hanging, but there are so many other incredible and talented writers to fill your cod fix, so please respect my decision.
if this isn't the answer you wanted, you're free to unfollow me or block me or whatever, but right now i need a break from the games and the fandom. i'm tired, and i think there are things that are more deserving of my attention at this moment.
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red flags waving
george russell x reader - series masterlist
784.
men like george don’t come by often. so when he asked you out on a date about six weeks ago, you said ‘yes’.
george had been so upfront and direct with his intentions with you: to be with you. but what you hadn’t expected was for the man of your dreams to be more sensitive than the average person.
sometimes you don’t get it. you don’t get it to the point where you question if you’re too desensitised to understand where he is coming from. has your mind been poisoned by every other guy you’ve been with that you can no longer consider yourself a sane and proper person to be in a relationship with?
it can’t be, right?
to put it into perspective, you’ve had just gone through a bad and messy break up a couple of weeks ago. putting yourself back out there was a choice out of boredom, clearly not expecting to hit it off with anyone so soon.
so it’s only natural that you’re not prepared to be in anything serious. if anything, you’d very much prefer to get to know george better before dipping your toe into the thought of potentially being with him romantically.
truth is, you should have walked away. but with somebody so upfront about his intentions with dating you and making it serious, could you really blame yourself for compromising with his seemingly unreasonable demands?
but what your friends told you is that you should have walked away for your sake.
because here you are again, in an argument with george because you had casually brought up a story that you thought was funny; about a guy from your past that you had hooked up with.
the kicker is: he didn’t think it was funny.
george stands in front of you with his hands on his hips. “why would you think that was appropriate to say to me?”
you furrow your eyebrows. “what do you mean? i was just sharing a story with you.”
“about your time spent with guys that’s not me? what makes you think i wanna hear about that?” george scoffs, rolling his eyes at you. “that’s so stupid.”
“i just thought it was funny!”
“well, it’s not. it just tells me that you’re not over these men if you’re still talking about them.”
“what?”
what an absurd way to look at telling stories. you hadn’t even gone into detail, just a brief story of another mishap on one of the many dates you’d gone on a couple of years ago.
it’s weird that he’d have such a take on it.
“yeah. if you’re over it, you’d not be talking about it right now,” he shrugs simply. “wait– you still follow those blokes on your social media?”
you press your lips together, trying to gauge his reaction. you’re not quite sure what to answer. “yes?” you answer in a small voice with a head tilt. “we don’t talk anymore, obviously, but–“
“have you got any idea how fucking ridiculous you sound right now?”
“i’m sorry, what?” you cry incredulously. there’s just no way.
“what is the point of following them?”
“what’s the point of unfollowing them if there’s no bad blood? it’s just social media!”
“you’re keeping a line of communication open for them to get back with you.”
“i’ll just ignore them if they try and reach out. which, for the record, has not happened yet.”
“but you’re giving them the opportunity to do so.”
“no, i’m not. it just doesn’t make sense for me to be so particular about it.”
“then what’s the point of following them?”
you have to admit — that question caught you off guard. when you really think about it, there is no point still following men you used to go out with. but isn’t that the point of social media; to connect with people?
and if it hadn’t ended on a bad note, what is the point of cutting them out from your life completely?
but this is now what you believe in. social media is just a way to keep you connected to people you used to know. it’s nice to reminisce sometimes, but it doesn’t have to have a deeper meaning to it.
“but–“
“i don’t know,” george mutters softly, shaking his head at you. he’s slowly walking away as you try and reach out for his hand. “you gotta figure this out. i’m not compromising with this — it’s weird.”
@cashtons-wife @darleneslane
#george russell x reader#george russell x you#disneyprincemuke#disneyprincemuke imagine#disneyprincemuke imagines#disneyprincemuke f1#disneyprincemuke iguyg#f1 x reader#f1 x you
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howdy fellas! i guess it's that time of year again
i'm sure all of you that have been following me for a while are sick of hearing about everything i've gone through over the past interminably long year of my life, and i'm really sorry about that... believe me, i'm sick of it too lol. anyway that's why i don't always talk a lot on here at the moment, because i'm worried about answering too many asks and coming across as annoying.
the truth is, just recently, things have finally hit a place that i can at least describe as "fairly stable." i'm hopeful i'll soon be able to afford to go to an IT place and get my files rescued, which will be a godsend for me. i'm really relieved about all of this obviously, and i keep thinking about making a post because i'm so excited to think about being able to jump right back in. but i've held myself back from telling you all that hopefully things will start moving again soon because i'm anxious about overpromising and don't want to disappoint any of you guys (any more than i already have).
if it makes any of you feel any better, i have no plans to stop writing damnation even if all of you unfollow me and i'm just writing it for myself XD i just needed to. you know. get a house and food first. so. hopefully i'll have proper good news for you all soon!
#posts from the mortal world#i opened with howdy because i live on a farm right now in the middle of nowhere#i had to move out here because nowhere in the city would let me bring my cat lmfao#anyway. there's a non-zero chance i could have been homeless and destitute when you sent this ask :)#and i'd still have been expected to receive it with unmatched grace and be considered unreasonable if it made me upset lmfao#i hope this answers your question
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Okay, here we go then! Waterdeep magical zoning law anon again.
I had followed so many new blogs after bg3 came out and then unfollowed so many more over this hot take. I don't know if you read the article but Gale's writer said that Gale is annoying. And as some one who loves his character and deeply relates to his struggle with suicide, I 100% agree with his writer's take. Gale is annoying, he is more than a bit of a prick, especially at the beginning. He is pompous and elitist. But that is literally his character growth; to either becoming more humble and sensitive to others or lean hard into his worst nature.
When you first meet him, he asks if you are versed in magic. If you answer "I'm not, why do you ask?" He says "No matter to worry the unlettered over." A completely normal question to ask and he answers in the most condescending ways possible. He straight up calls you illiterate unprovoked.
When arriving in the Shadow Cursed Lands the first time. He begins tell you about shadow magic. A sorcerer can respond that they know shadow magic and they don't need him to explain it to them. He will laugh and express his relief and how he sometimes forgets that he is traveling amongst peers again. Very much an "I'm glad you aren't an uneducated peasant."
However, I feel like his super fans, (and fans of another paler white man in the party,) will do everything in their power to sand down any and all rough edges for a white male character. All I am hearing from them is Gale can go through character devolved but only if he was unproblematic to begin with. Which they try to make him into. Its him being a pretentious asshole at the beginning that makes his argument with Lorroakan, if you convince him not to pursue the crown, so much of a great character moment for him. Its his moment of self reflection to go "good gods, is that what I sounded like????" And that is super interesting to me about him.
Abused as he was, and yes I very much think he was, he is still someone who acts and sounds like he comes from privilege. The famed arch wizard Elminster Aumar became his mentor when he was eight. He went to one of the most prestigious schools in Faerun. He can be both in need of a sympathy and also of scorn.
I feel this leads into a wider problem with fandoms that you can only like a character that is pure and good in every way. If they are not, then you have to obfuscate or bend a character to make them too good for this world. Because heaven forbid if this character doesn't get the Good Boy Stamp™️ of approval then you too are also a horrible bad person for liking them. We can't just find interest and relatability in flawed characters. This is a courtesy only extended to white male characters by the way.
Gale has to be an annoying pretentious prick at the beginning to become the humble professor ready to teach young wizards about illusion at the end.
Also I think him using the orb to kill the Absolute at the end is beautiful and tragic. I plan to do that ending with a Durge who romances him and is unable to escape Bhaal. Making it a tragedy about how people Faerun; from Ketheric, to Dame Aylin, to the Dark Urge and Gale are unable to escape the god manipulation over mortals and the deep pain that causes.
Only slightly sorry for this book I just wrote.
Ooooh anon you’re bringing the spice into my inbox!
So as somebody who relates to Gale really really way too much… honestly I know I am annoying to people and I know I was also insufferable before I was humbled by life. And I think Gale had never felt humility before his downfall! I love his mix of wild pride and self deprecation a LOT, super relatable to me.
That Lorroakan point too! Really on it for me. I think it’s VERY easy for wizards with access to power and status to go off the deep end.
I do think that when you have a character like Gale who a lot of people are going to relate to there’s going to be a lot of big feelings about the sort of stuff inferred from that interview. But I also think you’re right that the journey he goes on is a transformative one and is thematically in line with others!
I also think the happy ending was a really late addition - I fully believe EA Gale only had the sacrifice and pursuing godhood (though I thought it might be through lichdom) endings. That like more of the others there was no easy ending, but then with the rewrite it made sense to have something a bit softer. I fully intended to do the sacrifice ending and then just. Got too emotional about the possibility of happiness for him and my tav!
Basically I like Gale’s flaws a LOT and I love the complexity in his story. And probably have even more controversial takes on his complexity as a person. I love that he’s elitist and a bit of a snob but is earnestly, desperately wanting to connect and be different. He’s very special to me. Oh Gale!
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hi foibs, hoping you’re doing well. there’s something i’ve wanted to ask you since burning shores…can you say more about why you weren’t impressed by seyka/seyloy? i’ve valued your hzd opinions for a long time and am curious and interested to learn more about this one. but if you’d rather not answer that’s fine!
Hi nonny!! I told myself I wasn't going to answer any of these, but I really appreciate your kind tone and am happy to address this again for you!
I won't go into a list of specific reasons why here. I do enjoy a good bit of piece-by-piece analysis a LOT but--frankly, picking apart another ship in a public zone like this is not what I want to exemplify on my blog, at all. It's not the kind of environment I'd like to create or discourse I'd like to foster. If those conversations are to be had at all--which, let's face it, they're probably not--they're to be had one on one, with a promise of good faith and open-mindedness between participants.
So to answer your question, I'll give a little more info, but still in generalities.
First and foremost, it's the simple fact that their dynamic, as portrayed in HBS, didn't spark for me! If y'all know me, you know that there is a very specific ship dynamic that I tend to latch onto, and this repeats ad infinitum across fandoms. I just wasn't compelled by the material, which is fine! More power to you if you were, for sure.
That loops into the second reason I'll give: yes, I did find the writing of HBS to be lackluster in many aspects, including the relationship between Aloy and Seyka. The sloppy writing absolutely influenced the way I viewed/reacted to Aloy and Seyka as a ship. To me, it did feel rushed and very much removed from the character and pacing of the series we've known for years. And that was not a boon for connecting with the presented narrative, the same way I began to feel disconnected from HFW. Once again, though, totally subjective and valid if it did hit for you!
I wanted to like Seyka so much more than I did. (This is--as I've shared other posts before--commentary on the writer's room character work, not on Seyka.) I wanted her to oust Alva as my favorite Quen babygirl (A HARD CHALLENGE, I'll admit). I wanted to be compelled by her, and by her dynamic with Aloy. She didn't, and I wasn't. And that's not an attack on Seyka herself, or on folks who enjoyed her. That's my own peeve with the writing and the way she was presented both in the narrative and in the HBS marketing.
If I can also use your ask to be a little vulnerable, nonny? It's been a hard six weeks. I feel like the posts I've put up and the opinions I've offered with regards to this have been nothing less than respectful and pleasant and, in a lot of cases, that grace hasn't been returned. From being blocked/unfollowed/vagued by other Horizon wlw shippers with whom I've built a rapport over the years (which of COURSE it's anyone's right to curate their feeds--still stings on the other side, in this situation especially)--to being directly compared to the Actual Homophobes for supporting the idea of romance options in game three (the same Actual Homophobes sending death and other threats directly to my inboxes)--it's an unfortunate state. I'm doing my best to be positive for the whole fandom, but some days it's harder than others.
In any case--I'll say, contradictorily--there is a Seyloy idea I've been working on, in attempts to connect more with them and sublimate my quibbles with what was presented in canon. So I hope any Seyloy enjoyers who might read it eventually (and this!) will take it in good faith when it's finished, as it's being written in nothing but good faith!
And, FINALLY, because every single time this question comes up, I say "I DON'T DISLIKE SEYKA" out loud in Nadja's voice, and this is the perfect opportunity to finally make the joke in public:
#again I appreciate you nonny and thank you for asking so genuinely!#horizon zero dawn#horizon forbidden west#horizon burning shores#horizon critical#seyka#not tagging the ship in a critical post because we don't do that here my siblings in GAIA
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Hi x i wanted to talk about something that has happened to me recently, because i feel like it needs to be addressed lol. I would have never considered talking about it if the person in question had had an ounce of maturity and respect, but she obviously doesn’t, and it’s my reputation on the line and my fault for expecting it hahahah.
So a few days ago, the whole Jake is Jacob debacle happened on tumblr, which to me was cute and harmless and fun. Now some people really feel the need to bring other people down and prove (to themselves only, let’s be honest) how “superior” and “intelligent” they are, so she started making fun and basically insulting the OP of the post, which really upset me. I didn’t say anything about it and quietly unfollowed the person, because if i find content I disagree with, that is (to me) the only way to approach the situation.
Anyway, later, i was made aware that she continued trash talking people in the fandom, continuing this tired narrative that despite being the one to initiate it, she was the “victim” bullied by “kids”, which i resented, for a couple of reasons.
1. Ageism is ageism no matter the form it comes in. It is no different to shit on a person just for being young and minding their business, than it is to do so with people who are older.
2. I’m tired of the “i was here first and therefore i am inherently better than you” stupid narrative. You don’t get a cookie cause you found something sooner, pls PLEASE understand that.
3. The “everyone is so young” bs is simply not true. I am the same age as her, so are some of my mooties or just a couple years older, and we’re all here, and we’re all trying to have a good time, and that’s what matters. None of us are out here flaunting our age or our maturity, because it is inconsequential.
4. Saying to someone that their “pre-frontal cortex” isn’t fully developed, is fucking ridiculous. What a stupid argument. You’re really going to insult someone for something they have reasonably absolutely no control over and try to use it as an insult against them? Girlie, in 2023? Do you understand how stupid that is? You think you’re superior cause your mum pushed you out a few years earlier like you had anything to do with it??? Like idk that is wild to me.
5. You can’t insult people on here for “being young and dumb” and how much “better” and “more mature” you are, and then in the same breath pick a fight with them and be willing to die on that hill. Because if you have any sort of common sense, that would imply that you must be succumbing to their levels and you are not capable of having any higher level discourse. Like how do you not see that that you're just proving to everyone how immature you truly are?
So, i wrote her an ask. Not on anon, not trying to start anything, just an ask telling her my opinion and telling her that as someone who is the same age as her, her behaviour is disappointing.
Now i need you to see the message because she won’t show it to you, because she wants to build this narrative that people are “harassing” her. Please note that nobody is “harassing” her. If i wanted to harass her, I could and I would not do it with my username intact. I wanted to her to understand the opinion (that i share with my friends and mooties) of someone who’s the same age as her. She won’t answer it because she knows there is no way to spin this in her favour.
Instead, what she can do, is what she does best. Trying to spin this negatively, insulting me and my writing (you’re 26 and the best you could come up with is “god awful cringey ass fics”? ouch, that hurt.) and tagging it “neteyam imagine” cause what person who wants to read neteyam fics doesn’t want to see that. Now again, she is blocked for me because I absolutely do not want to engage with people like her, but i was made aware of this and since she’s talking about me and could potentially come to people’s inboxes or dms and talking trash about me, i wanted you besties to know and to read everything and make your own minds about it, having all the information, not just what she deems appropriate to give you.
Anyway, sorry for this long ass rant, but it needed to be said. Please, if you don’t agree with someone, especially if it’s over something so incredibly trivial as a name, let it go. It’s not worth it. If it’s something not trivial, block. It’s not worth it. Insulting someone for things they have no control over doesn’t put you on top, it makes you a dick. Acting like you’re inherently better cause you’ve been in a fandom longer isn’t cool, trust me. Just please, save your energy and put it in your art, in your job, in your relationships, in yourself.
Now, i will go write my cringey ass fics 😉 good luck besties, and smooches.
ALSO!!! DO NOT engage with this person. PLEASE. Please do not prove her right. Please do not leave her anon hate or anything of the sort, please please please. It’s not worth it.
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I'm sorry if I have hurt you in any way because that was not my intention. I don't really mind who you ship or what you ship. It's just, I open my Tumblr and the first I see is someone calling something I like a crack ship while talking about their favourite ship. My point is why talk badly about something/someone else's ship when you're also shipping something which is also very unrealistic? Like I get it you have a favorite, but you can talk about your favourite without saying someone else's ship is not possible/crack for that matter. My bad if I made you feel bad because I really didn't want to do that. I just didn't want to the see someone bashing my ship as the first thing I see when I open Tumblr. I just don't get why people can't ship their own things without calling others' ship crack. Either ways, I'm sorry you felt attacked honestly; I really respect you as a person and a writer. And that's why I was sad to see you say those stuff. I really liked your fics as well and I love how you write Tom, I really do. That is why I was so surprised to see that post on my feed, but oh well. I do hope you have a good day and again I'm sorry if I made you sad in any way.
I appreciate the apology. I understand that it's not fun to see something that you interpret as critical toward your ship on your dash, however, I did not put that post in the Tomarry tag. If those kinds of posts are upsetting to you, then consider unfollowing me, because when I receive asks, I will answer them with my honest opinion. Coming into my ask box like that is not appropriate.
I'm just scratching my head here, because tbh that wasn't an anti post? To say that Tomarry requires a reimagining of canon or that there are plenty of things they could dislike about each other is not me saying it's a shit ship. Drarry's my OTP after all, lol, hate = spice. I also didn't call it crack, though I don't think crack is an insult either. Most Tom ships are crackish to some extent, especially ships that require an AU for the characters to even be the same age (Tomarry, Tomione, Taco, etc.). Harry Potter x the dude who tried to kill him a bajillion times is pretty implausible to most people, but that doesn't make it a 'bad' ship. You can make any ship work and there are many, many writers who have brought more life to Tomarry than Canon Hinny received from JKR (before someone else comes for me, this isn't a Hinny critique either, this is a critique of JKR's ability to write romance lol)
This is what I've said on Tomarry and Taco previously.
^FYI this was a joke
Finally, it isn't your ship vs mine. I've shipped Tomarry longer than I've shipped Taco. I'll ship Tom with a pair of snakeskin loafers if I thought they'd have chemistry. I can ship something without singing its praises endlessly. In fact, I reckon I've said way meaner things about Taco on here than Tomarry lol. I've said that Tom would loathe Draco under most circumstances and that he would murder him for sure since lil bro can't stop yapping. I've also said Draco is ugly an acquired taste and Tom has no game 💀. My DAD has come to Draco's defence over some of the things I said about him as we were watching the movies. Roasting is my love language, pls don't misunderstanding it.
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alrighty so after some reflection and getting some outside stuff prioritized Im done some blog housework so I can get comfortable here again.
im still gonna continue my hiatus until november cause the rest of October still has a lot of rl appointments and stuff going on. ill be nuking my ask and drafts to get into maximum turtle plot overdrive and just start things clean, but here's the skinny under cut:
. Ive went and cleaned up my followers list. mostly of inactive blogs, non-mutual or blogs that haven't reached out or interacted at all. I use to think I liked a busier dash but I think trying to keep up with it had been giving me anxiety even if my muses weren't involved in anything plot wise. FOMO has been really killing my vibe more then anything and I need to cut that habit out.
you're a-okay to refollow though! I'll do the same. none of this was done out of malice or a personal dislike, and I get being so busy w/ life and personal plots that you cant interact with everyone in a convenient moment. but if you see this as an opportunity to reach out then by all means! that and I might've accidentally unfollowed one or two of you cause side-blog deal, clumbsy thumbs, and uuh, dont mind me realizing that later down the line-my bad!
. unless carefully plotted otherwise, anything outside my own canons, affiliated blogs/mains or plots is no longer canon to my own. any interaction or thread initiated towards my muses will default fall into my lore/verse unless vice versa or its plotted and etc etc. It's no longer just hanging there in the void so to speak. I need to feel more in control of my own narrative I think and trying to puzzle a lot of contradicting outside plots, dash events, etc has been mentally taxing when rp shouldn't be occupying so much space or anxiety to begin with lol.
this isn't to say everything thats happening in the dash or w/ other characters isn't important ofc! and I still want to participate; it'll just fall under a crack/non-canon tag. if things end up lining up p' well with whats going on here then I might take it into canon. This is p' much what I've been doing to begin with, it's just more concrete now and Im being more careful of what Im willing to accept now. Im ofc open to discussing stuff! DMs and disco for those who have it are open always even if I take a moment to get to it!
. Im no longer answering anon asks that are personal in some way, ie, around subject matters that aren't general headcanons asks or 'hey how do you feel about-' sorta deal. I dont feel comfortable taking it to public and while I understand having the fear of being identified, it's not fair if I'm the only one bearing the subject so to speak. If you want to talk to me through DMs you can either tell me your UN (no burners either) so I can bypass permissions here to chat or you can reach me at @shiny-miltank where my IMs are not barred to mutuals only. I don't bite really! and my discord is not public. tbh Im still very anxious about being on disco to begin w/ cause social anxiety flare ups. idk tumblr dms always seemed easier to chat until I know you on a personal basis-its just worked that way.
. making it more strict that you dont? put my geeta in place of plots, events, etc that I havent participated or plotted with, nor can you make assumptions for them based on said events. as slapped on every piece on my about/rules/pinned/etc shes heavily canon-divergent to begin with so no one knows her intentions/actions (save for me ofc) and wont act in what presumed canon-geeta would do or your own version so to speak. easy enough to slap me an IM for "is it okay to-", plotting, or just make a nebulous npc stand-in.
. things that havent changed are the use of my lore and headcanons into your own! I love seeing it integrated or adapted into other lore and seeing just how much it inspires and changes over time!
this all seems rigid but really it's just reiterating whats already in my rules and no one here has been a huge offender at all :' ) this is more for me to follow and I cant thank everyone enough for their patience and creativity for as long as I've been here. Im loosey goosey and go with the flow 90 out of 100 times.
this goes for the rest of my muses, which Ill probably clean up when Im back-but yeah! miss ya'll! hope you've been doin' good! the terrapagos plot will continue then and Ill resume reaching out and leaving details! hopefully in time for dlc ; >
#ooc. ･ﾟ ✹#queue. ･ﾟ ✹#importante and stuff#sorry this is at 3 AM gdfgfd-this is like the only time Im awake ironically#but again ill be really back in november! see ya then!
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Hey ~
It’s been so amazing seeing the positive change on this blog, we are so here for that kind of growth and energy!
We saw that you recently reconciled with @/sophieinwonderland, and we have a couple questions.
Are you okay with and support those who use “tulpamancy” language (a huge thing she defends)? Curious about this because we have seen many Buddhist POC systems express genuine concern with that language (not the practice, just the words “tulpa” and “tulpamancy”)
Are you okay with those who equate therians/nonhumans and the people who love them to zoophiles (another thing she has stood by which was incredibly triggering and offensive to us, a therian-heavy system).
Personally, we followed her for a long time then unfollowed after we saw someone else’s post which brought this stuff to light. We are just curious what your thoughts on this are!
(Also as far as we know she has shared some really harmful misinformation about dissociative disorders… specifically iirc that DID can form after childhood and trauma is not necessary for this disorder to form. Just letting you know in case you weren’t aware!)
- Starling
I kind of went back and forth on whether to reply to this, but ultimately decided that it would be for the best. I'm sure many of my followers are wondering the same thing and what it means.
The truth is, we're married now. I finally wooed her with my charm.
@sophieinwonderland just so you know that this is out here. I hope it's a fair response to both of us.
No, in all seriousness and honesty, I reached out to sophie because she had the largest audience and sway, and when you're so violently mean to each other, you develop a special bond. It's been... jeez, monthsss since I interacted with sophie directly. I don't know if Sophie will agree, but I think we had a habit of getting each other going, with more ridiculous posts on each side the longer the spats went on. I think the fact that we both left each other alone for so long was really good for both of us, and over that time, as much as sophie saw changes in me, I saw them in her. I found that when she wasn't being an inflammatory twot (/aff) and stayed away from the tulpa-language debate, I agreed more and more with some of her posts. She's really been doing good work with the stuff on reddit-- the RAMCOA deniers and fdc.
And what kind of person would I be if I didn't give her the same chance that she and her followers gave me?
Yeah, she's done some really shitty things, but so have I, just to different demographics (? Does that make sense??).
As well, reconciliation and interaction doesn't mean total support. I'm sure I have beliefs that sophie doesn't support. I'm sure sophie will reblog posts of mine that she agrees with, and skip the ones she doesn't like, and I'll do the same.
All that said, let's get a bit more specific.
The post linked in the ask. I am going to link it so that people can make their own informed decision. I think, though, that most of you reading this answer lived through all of that, experiencing each event first hand as it unfolded. Many people have issues with other events not listed. I can't cover everything. Again, interaction doesn't mean total support, and I can decide at any point to step back in support.
So.
Tulpamancy: I'm white as shit. I made my posts about the topic, and I reblogged everything I could in support of changing the language. I will continue to support changing language. This is a topic that is so much bigger than me, though. That's not to say I don't want to try and that I won't support efforts, but... I think the easiest way to explain this point is to use an example-- that it's not feasible to block and refuse to engage with people using the language. However, in those interactions, I can advocate where possible, and not interact with content I don't agree with.
Therians: I'm going to be super honest... I don't know what that is. I especially don't know how it relates to zoophiles. I do remember there being a lot of talk about this, I remember reading what people were saying and Sophie's response, but... I think the only thing I can pull specifically to mind was reading her response and going,
I really can't comment on this. I don't think that having sex with a therian is the same as having sex with an animal?? If you were hurt by something, obviously I support you.
Dissociative disorders: again, I've been watching her grow. I think she's been doing a lot more research as she's been battling fdc and it really shows. She made a post recently about whether DID could happen without trauma and I think I even agreed with it-- something about rare, fringe cases being inevitable in all things, and I was like, you know, I can agree with that. That's a good, happy medium. It's a far cry from what she used to say. I'm seeing a lot more respect about the topic and research, I see better advice to her followers. I want to give her a chance on this front.
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Ahhhh, I’m not the original anon who sent that they want angst for Lio and Sav but I do want it as well! Maybe Lio liking girls bikini pics or even just pics in general on instagram cause he doesn't see anything wrong with it. Maybe they argue because Sav wants kids but Lio doesn’t really want kids?
Maybe they have a pregnancy scare…
We all know that new man Lio would never cheat but he probably at first doesn’t understand how liking other women’s pics can upset Sav
The people want angst! And I am here to deliver the angst! Channeling some of this blurb and your thoughts above for this one 🥰
Savannah does not consider herself a snoop. She trusts Lio. She respects that he has a past from before her, just as she does before him. But she also has eyes. Blue ones that can’t help but wander over his shoulder as he scrolls through Instagram.
Model after model sprints across his screen as he scrolls with his thumb.
“Wow, more boobs than a swimsuit edition of SI.” She mumbles under her breath.
“Hm?” Lio asks, looking over at her. She flips the page in her boring magazine, scanning the newest living room decor trends from Pottery Barn.
“Nice couch.” She diverts the conversation. She points to a brown leather one. “Would look good in here.”
“Yeah I like it.” Lio nods in agreement. “Should I get it?”
“You should ask Kendall if she would like it too before you make any decisions.” She flips the next page.
“Who’s Kendall?”
“The girl whose tits you are engrossed with.” A wrinkle appears between Lio’s eyebrows. He takes in his girlfriend’s set jaw, then realizes she means Kendall, his ex fling, who he just scrolled by.
“Sav…” Lio chuckles. “I didn’t even notice. She’s an old friend.”
“I bet she is.” She responds, slapping the magazine shut. “What time are we meeting Lucie and Connor?” Lio stills, watching her cross her arms tightly across her chest. She rolls her foot in annoyance where one leg is folded over the other.
“About an hour.” Sav uncrosses her arms, scratching distractedly at an itch in her hair, then stands up.
“I’m going to go read my book.” She announces over her shoulder, not even turning to look at him. She heads down the hallway to his bedroom, closing the door with a soft click.
Lio sighs, then pulls up his Instagram. He may be new at this, but he knows whats bugging her. It’s not like she hasn’t brought it up off handedly, especially when she is drunk.
“I’m a cool girlfriend! I don’t even care that he follows over 100 models on Instagram.”
Lio gets it. But he wishes she would talk to him instead of being so passive aggressive about it. He thinks about Lucie, wondering what she would say if it came up tonight at dinner.
Unfollow them you asshole!, probably.
So that is what Lio spends the next hour doing, unfollowing all the girls he doesn’t know, hasn’t spoken to in years, and especially the girls he has hooked up with.
He wants Savannah to know she is the only one on his mind. He is willing to do whatever necessary to make her feel comfortable in their relationship. He knows he hurt her before. He doesn’t ever want that to happen again.
Lio raps his knuckles on the bedroom door once he is done.
“I'll be out in a second.” She calls to him. He frowns, hearing the tears in her voice. Shit, he should of come to talk to her earlier. He rubs at his hair in frustration. Fuck, why is he so bad at this?
“Hey, time to go?” She asks brightly, sniffing discreetly when she opens the door. She tries to step around him, not waiting for an answer.
“Babe.” Lio takes a hold of her arm softly. Sav purses her lips, keeping her eyes down the hallway. “Will you talk to me?”
“Do I really have to, Lio?” She pushes back.
“Would be nice if you did.” He shrugs. “I’m new at this.” His reminder is delicate, pleading even.
“I hate it. It makes me feel like shit that you have all these options at your fingertips.”
“Sav, you know I’m in love with you?”
“Yes, but-“
“That is the beginning and end of it all.” He cuts her off, leaning down to smooch her lips. While he is kissing her, he slides his unlocked phone into her hands. “Look at whatever you want. Unfollow whomever you want me to. I’m yours.”
Then he slides her hips to the side to go into the closet to change for dinner.
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Hi Sarah, I probably should just unfollow you and keep curating my experience here, but you've been one of my fave blogs for years so I'm gonna try to explain it just in case it helps. The reason why I'm leaving and other people I know have left is because your blog is so draining... Obviously we don't know you personally or how you behave on a day-to-day basis, and it's not all your fault since 80% of your blog is usually asks of people complaining, but do you really not realize this? I remember that you said once during your hiatus that you were going to focus on enjoying things and getting rid of the negative vibes and stop responding to asks that only created drama. That felt so refreshing and good for you, but it keeps getting worse now. And if it feels this way to me and others, I can't imagine the weight that you must carry every day from the moment you log in... I'm telling you this because I don't consider you a toxic person and I think that you'd like to know if someone perceives you the same way as you perceive that one blog you hate (only in your case, it's the other way around) because to be fair the differences are not that huge... Obviously you're the opposite, but in terms of behaviour and perception as a whole, the vibes are there. I'm sorry if any of this has offended you, you're free to ignore it, keep feeding your anons and move on. I know it feels like an attack and that you losing one or two of your followers that you don't even know isn't gonna affect you at all, that's not the meaning behind this. I say this because I genuinely care as I know how toxic these apparently harmless environments can be to your own mental health. You are so much better and clever than that. Anyway, I wish the best for you, maybe I'll be able to follow you again some day. Good luck and please take care 💕
You know what. You’re right. Obviously you can unfollow me no matter what that’s your choice but I’m going to be honest, I am really tired.
I kind of have begun to dread looking at my inbox in the morning because of all the negativity and while I agree with a lot of it, it gets so repetitive. I have been trying to practice not answering the worst ones because my god are they bad and I’ve been doing a good job at just deleting them but there’s so many. I honestly just don’t want to not answer people, so many people have told me this is safe space for them and when they’re venting to me I feel like I have a responsibility to reply and have them feel heard, and I have thought about how it must feel to follow me and have to deal with all these asks.
It’s also really hard to get out of. Like every time something happens I get 20, 50, even 100+ asks about it and I feel like I have to respond. And that’s not even including the insane amount of troll asks I get, it’s exhausting. And I don’t wanna sound ungrateful, people have been so nice to me and appreciative. But for the past week or two, I’ve been wanting to just turn my inbox off because of how bad the troll asks have gotten and how I dread seeing more complaints first thing when I wake up but I’d feel so guilty taking the space away from people.
I feel the need to apologize but I don’t really know what for, the negativity I guess. I do not like what my blog has become to be honest. I think I’m gonna take the day and think about some stuff. Thank you for sending this in such a respectful, constructive way.
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I accidentally unfollowed you when I went to your ask box, so ignore that, but congrats on 2.5k! Here's a gif for you, and maybe something fluffy but sassy with Jay? The reader is trying their hardest to be immune to his charms, but Jay's ease and sarcasm bend the reader to his will? Thank you :)
Pairing: Jay Halstead x Reader
Word Count: 366
gif credit to @5021upstead
Warnings: none
A/N: Thank you so much for always being here Claudia!!! Hope you like this! Adding the gif in the body!
You were laughing at something Jay had said when you noticed him watching you.
“What?” You asked with narrowed eyes as Jay let out a small smirk.
A cute smirk.
You caught the thought just as it formed in your brain and you inwardly groaned.
Jay and you had always had this flirty thing going on but you’d been resistant. First, there was the rule you’d made up in your head that you weren’t going to date another cop. Then there was the fact that this wasn’t any cop, you’d reminded yourself a bunch of times that Jay and you worked in the same unit and that was always a recipe for disaster.
You thought Jay would have gotten tired by now but seeing him smile at you from where he was standing next to you, you’d known for at least the past week that it was a lost cause and that all the reasons in your head about why you weren’t together, or shouldn’t be together, were just excuses.
“You know you really should smile more.” Jay said, stepping just half a step closer to you again. “It’s like the second best thing you could do.”
“Oh, really? And what’s the first?” You countered, but you knew the answer already that was hidden in his smile and twinkling eyes.
Jay smiled. “How about I show you?”
You knew Jay was testing the waters and this time you didn’t step back or push him away playfully.
You saw a small flicker of confusion flit across his expression and you returned him an inviting smile.
“I give up.” You said in a low voice. “I’m not fighting what this is anymore.”
You saw his smile widen before he responded to the invitation, stepping in with no trace of hesitation, one hand cupping the side of your face before his lips landed right on yours. Your eyes fluttered shut as your body fit right into his, the electricity of the contact almost surging through your body.
When he pulled away, Jay was smiling. You didn’t say anything, merely echoing his smile as Jay threaded his fingers gently through yours, his eyes not leaving yours for even a second.
#resa.fics#resa2.5kcelebration#resa.writethatgif#jay halstead#jay halstead x reader#jay halstead drabble#jay halstead fic#jay halstead oneshot#jay halstead imagine#jay halstead x you#jay halsted x y/n#claudia tag
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Blog update
Hi, everyone! I hope the holidays are treating you well. I'm doing okay.
For those of you that missed my announcement, or didn't see my previous pinned post, I wanted to quickly clarify what's going on. You might have noticed that I didn't answer your ask. I'm sorry about that.
I'm stepping down from writing meta and sharing my thoughts on recent manga events, on the fandom, on expectations/predictions for the series, and on any hot topic being discussed by other meta bloggers and doing the rounds in the villain standom. Basically, don't expect me to engage with much meta anymore. I'm taking a break for an indefinite amount of time because I find this fandom too hostile currently; since my anxiety is triggered by any tension, be it real or the product of my brain contemplating a fear and running with it, I have to disengage and just focus on myself. I hope you'll understand.
What does this mean for this blog?
Meta and asks are normally a huge portion of the contents of this blog. Most of you probably followed me for those. And let's be real, meta is my passion so it will likely resume at some point. Idk when that will be, tho. Maybe I'll wake up next week and be relaxed or uncaring enough to brave the thought of diving back into the disk horse pool, maybe it will be in a couple of months, maybe I will switch to another fandom entirely. I don't know yet.
In the meantime, please know that I will most likely not respond to anything meta-related or any ask that expresses frustration, negativity, disappointment or anything in that vein, be it a comment on the series or a request to comment on the takes floating around the fandom.
You're still welcome to drop by my askbox with anything else if you feel like it. I'm keeping it open because I do like chatting to people, and I'm too socially awkward for dms. I'm just trying to limit my chances of ending up being the target of someone writing an essay about why Take X or Y is wrong. There's been a lot of those lately, and they stress the fuck out of me.
That being said, you're also free to unfollow me if you don't have fun here anymore. I don't mind.
Oh, please also refrain from answering this announcement by showering me with support and positivity! While I do wholeheartedly appreciate the sentiment and feel very thankful for your kindness(💙), I don't really know how to answer it. Again, socially awkward! Just to put you at ease, I am aware that for every hostile take there's dozens of people who genuinely enjoy hearing my thoughts and talking to me. I do! I'm not looking for reassurance, I'm just trying to draw a boundary. Writing meta is my passion, and I normally have fun with it, but as of now it's not that fun anymore. That's all. I am taking care of myself and spending more of my time on my fics instead.
Thank you all so much in advance for your understanding, and I hope you have a nice day/night! Take care 💕
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the fmv reminded me of what an amazing actor chen kun is. he throws himself into his scenes with his whole chest. do u have a fav moment in the show thats stuck in your mind because of his acting performance? maybe even a list? // seperately: it feels redundant to ask the same just with ni ni because (gestures at the entire show) but which scenes did u find yourself speechless at that u maybe even replayed because ni ni is stunning and great in them and she moved you deeply? // also fav headmaster scenes and are they the ones with his wife? if the answer is no, why not!
Siren you're too good at getting me to talk a lot! lol (also sorry not sorry to the person that unfollowed me probably because I'm talking too much pft).
Chen Kun really is such a fantastic actor! Some of my favorite scenes are:
The battle at Minhai! We finally get to see Ning Yi at his most desperate and violent. It's the first time we actually see him in combat and without any of his masks. All of his plans have sort of fallen apart and so he's acting on instinct. Chen Kun has this uncanny ability to go from calm to terrifying with such subtle expressions! So good.
Reuniting with his mother (and the subsequent scenes after he renounces his title and tries futilely to live as a commoner). There's something so painful seeing Ning Yi almost childlike, trying to recapture a time that's long gone. It's such a tonal shift from the Ning Yi I described above and, once again, Chen Kun pulls it off so well.
Any scene where Ning Yi interacts with Ning Cheng or Shaoning. Something about the way he treats them both being on total opposite sides of the spectrum even though Shaoning is his sister and Ning Cheng is his servant really does something to me lol.
My favorite Feng Zhiwei and Xin Ziyan moments under the cut:
Ni Ni is also fantastic and truly embodies Feng Zhiwei. Seeing how much time she put in to learning the character in the behind the scenes footage makes her performance even more impactful to me. I was captivated by her acting from her introduction but the scenes that rattle around in my head the most often are:
The deaths of her mother and brother. I cry every time I watch that scene. It's gut-wrenching because the pain Feng Zhiwei feels is so visceral. Ni Ni just absolutely crushes it. (sidenote but I'm always happy when actors can ugly cry. Just feels more realistic to me).
The scene where she first runs into Gu Nanyi and tries to get him to leave her alone. It's such a fun interaction and given that Gu Nanyi is a very stoic character, Feng Zhiwei's exasperation carries the moment (not that Gu Nanyi isn't great in his own respect; Feng Zhiwei's personality just really shines through here).
Every scene with Zhiwei and Hua Quiong. I maintain my belief that they should've kissed at least once. They really act well off each other.
Xin Ziyan! Headmaster Xin! He's amazing! Okay, so, while I do enjoy every scene he has with his wife, the scenes that I love the most are:
When he has that serious talk with Zhiwei on the balcony and we're given our first real look at who Xin Ziyan is at his core. He will do anything for the greater good of the kingdom. His loyalty is not to a single person but to the empire. He has no qualms about telling Zhiwei he'd kill her in a heartbeat, despite Ning Yi's feelings for her, if it meant Ning Yi being able to take the throne. He says it all so nonchalantly which makes the entire scene so nerve-wracking. I can only imagine how FZW felt in that moment.
The scene with Ning Yi towards the end, where Ziyan is desperately trying to get Ning Yi to wake up, and Ning Yi is simply refusing to acknowledge him. Knowing that Ziyan's sister in law(?) has been killed, his wife had a miscarriage, and he's there at Ning Yi's house - not begging, not pleading or crying - trying to reach him as his teacher and getting nowhere. Really hammers home how, despite how close they seem, Ning Yi and Ziyan have this disconnect between them. They both choose to hide their most vulnerable pieces from each other and that causes a rift in their relationship that will likely never be mended.
Every scene with him talking to the Emperor. It's like a smaller scale version of the cat and mouse game everyone's playing but it makes me anxious every time lol.
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I have followed your account in the last week because you seem level-headed and I appreciate that. I am 36 and will be honest I didn’t listen to Taylor (besides hits on the radio) until I was 30. So I am not aware of all this 1989 vibe type behavior but as someone of a similar age it’s been very interesting to observe her actions and “stan culture.” I had actually heard of Joe from Billy Lynn before knowing he was her boyfriend so I have followed him outside of their relationship and really enjoy seeing the projects he is fortunate enough to pick from. (People do not give him enough credit for the caliber of people he has worked with. He’s also worked with people who I personally think never gave a shit about who he was dating.) So to see the reaction to their breakup has been somewhat expected but disappointing. I just don’t see how a man, who has never had any interest in public discourse, deserves to be treated so badly. Relationships are complex, I have been with my husband for 15 years, since I was 21, and it’s hard! Constant ebbs and flows. Then add on being one of the most famous people on the planet. I have so much empathy for that struggle. Whatever happened in their relationship (I personally don’t think he cheated) is of course none of our business but also what sins would he have to commit to justify this behavior?? I’ve seen people who have done way worse stuff THAT WAS CONFIRMED get treated better. The unfollow nonsense frankly makes me question the maturity of the situation. I get the passive aggressive urge but after like the 6th one come on now lol
Anyways with all that said I hope people can just encourage positive behavior and support whomever they choose to and leave it at that. The hypocrisy and toxicity of stan culture is not fun to watch and while I know Taylor has limited control, I do find myself wishing she would make more attempts sometimes. While I greatly admire her I also accept she has faults just as anyone else. So fans please stop with the hate. It brings out the worst in everyone and I can’t accept that a relationship that brought so much happiness at one time and so many beautiful songs is being reduced to this. Thank you again for your perspective and safe space to talk about it 🥰
This is an amazing ask, anon! Thank you so much for sending this in, and thank you for your perspective. I agree with pretty much everything you said. I’m gonna leave this up as the last ask, and I’ll go back to answering those missing tonight, if I have time.
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