And every time I try to pick it up Like falling sand As fast as I pick it up It runs away through my clutching hands But there's nothing else I can really do There's nothing else I can really do There's nothing else I can really do At all.... A smile can lie a lot! #mentalhealthawareness #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bipolar #bipolarawareness #bpdawareness #suicideawarness #mentalhealthunderstanding #neadawareness #nonepilepticattackdisorder #fndawareness #functionalneurologicaldisorder #nonepilepticseizures #NEAD #fndaction #fndhope https://www.instagram.com/p/CBjGCDOAF3P/?igshid=1p6u9p6rirwtg

The face of someone who is 5 months seizure free!!! #nonepilepticseizures #nonepilepticattackdisorder #pnes #pnesawareness #seizurefree #seizures #celebrate #happyface #goodnews https://www.instagram.com/p/B9sLMqrlDnM/?igshid=odpw2hpqtv73

Fully having an identity crisis right now. I've spoken about unstable sense of self before, it's one of the main symptoms of BPD. Unstable sense of self basically means I struggle to really know who I am and what I really like and what feels most like me, it also covers physical appearance too, it's why I change my style so often, it's why I change my hair so often. I feel different every day and I channel a lot of that through my appearance. Last night on a whim I decided to dye my whole head turquoise instead of having different tones of blues and greens through my hair, it's gone much bluer than I thought it would and I feel so wrong. I have this insistent urge in me to change it right now, to do something to make it feel more me. But what is me? I'm not quite sure right now. I feel lost, I feel like an intruder in someone else's life. I wish I was here posting something positive tonight but I'm here to be real and right now this is my reality. #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #borderline #borderlinepersonality #bpd #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #identitycrisis #unstablesenseofself #complexptsd #cptsd #complexptsdawareness #anxiety #depression #nonepilepticattackdisorder #endthestigma #honest #iamworthy #keepgoing #loveyourself #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthday #mentalhealthadvocate #mentalillness #mentalillnessisreal #mentalhealthwarrior #psychotherapy #mymhjourney #therapy #recovery #senseofself #vulnerable #raw #mentalhealthsupport #mentalhealthblogger #mentalhealthdisorder #mentalhealthjourney #mentalhealthadvocacy

In #Honor of our #Veterans and Veterans Day for the dedicated service of people who have worn the uniforms of the armed forces to protect us, I am running a special of 80% off for all my services. Offer is good for 24 hours starting now! November 11,2019 HTTP:// EnterYourMind.com #veteransday #veterans #soldiers #ptsd #ptsdrecovery #ptsdsupport #ptstudents #depressionhelp #confidence #healing #hypnotherapy #hypnotherapyworks #doreencohanim #doreencohanimcelebrityhypnotist #doreencohanimhypnothetapist #doreencohaninexperthypnothetapist #doreencohanimnlp #nlppractitioner #nlp #nlpcoach #nlpcoaching #nlpmaster #enteryourmind #enteryourmindcenter #nonepilepticseizures #nonepilepticattackdisorder #nonprofit (at Sherman Oaks, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4vjtbnAN8j/?igshid=11rbe2p2qklso

Our for a beautiful evening drive and walk with this one ❤️😍 #mindfulness #positivethinking #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthrecovery #nonepilepticattackdisorder #neadawareness #fndawareness #fndhope #nonepilepticseizures #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpdawareness #bipolarawareness #bipolar #suicidepreventionawareness #suicideprevention (at Abinger Hammer) https://www.instagram.com/p/CByh49sgsnu/?igshid=1qqtxdn1bqotg

I've had an incredibly hard weekend health-wise! Both nasty Meniere's attacks and a black outs which resulted in a nasty fall on Friday and another black out Saturday! This again lead to a really bad depression throughout the weekend cause it's not easy to keep my mood up when so much goes on at once. When you're living with chronic illnesses,extreme migraines, sensory changes, tremors, numbness, pain, fatigue, dizziness, fluctuating hearing and black outs that comes out of the blue it becomes your normal everyday. Most of the time you have to work so extremely hard with yourself and your mental health, anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts, your more serious underlaying mental illness diagnosis like BPD and PTSD and try and stay happy and make the most of what life has to offer. Soldier on and enjoy the little things. The small moments where life actually feels good, like in this photo where I'm swimming (something I love! Although it's not great for my Meniere's)! I think i am quite good at doing exactly that, but I'm not going to lie, it's fucking hard to live. But this is the life I'm having and I'm lucky to have a life. I have people that loves me, I have a home, I have a supportive and loving husband, a beautiful daughter and great friends and family who all play a part in making this journey worth it. I hope for a cure one day, research is important and I hope that one day I'll be attack free and not scared of little things that i used to take for granted like going out on my own. It would be wonderful. #fndhope #functionalneurologicaldisorder #nead #nonepilepticseizures #nonepilepticattackdisorder #painsomnia #fndawareness #fndaction https://www.instagram.com/p/B3leSqogBmP/?igshid=16lj2dv88wvmf

Been to the hospital today to learn how to put on the equipment for tonight to start the sleep studies so the specialists can find out why I have such bad sleep and so much pain and if there can be any connection between that and the frequent black outs, migraines and body pain I've got with my #NEAD and #FND as it increases the subconscious stress. So it's extremely important and interesting for me, my health and my MH to come to the bottom of this! #positivethinking #cantgiveup #sleepdisorder #functionalneurologicaldisorder #nonepilepticseizures #nonepilepticattackdisorder #fndawareness #fndhope https://www.instagram.com/p/B4vMsxfgnMM/?igshid=czhp003owz19

Yesterday I had to go to hospital for an appointment, I had to go on my own and I got through it and managed it but it doesn’t mean my anxieties weren’t there, it doesn’t mean past memories didn’t come flooding back to me. I spent a good chunk of my life in and out of hospitals, mostly my teen years. Getting rushed into a&e on a regular basis to be spoken down to by medical staff who just didn’t understand my condition. I have non epileptic attack disorder (psychogenic seizures) It took years to receive my diagnosis, I was put through lots of testing, I was made to feel uncomfortable by medical staff who interrogated me as to why I was ‘faking’ seizures, an ambulance driver once took my mum outside and said “I don’t know what’s going on in your household but whatever it is your daughter is clearly doing this for attention” I lost friends, I was bullied relentlessly, I was scared to leave the house, I didn’t want to live. No one understood the fear I lived in on a daily basis. Hospitals bring all this back, the emotions, the memories, the pain, the depression. Today I am not okay, today I am experiencing a huge emotional flashback and I’m struggling to move, I feel heavy and bound to my bed, unable to move out of fear. Today I need to do what I can and just be okay with that and not feel guilty if I can’t do everything I needed to do, one of the hardest things for me is being kind to myself and being okay with myself when I can’t do the things I intended to do. Complex ptsd is kicking my butt today, I can’t shake it, I feel like that teenage girl again. #ptsd #complexptsd #complextrauma #flashback #emotionalflashback #emotionaltrauma #trauma #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthadvocate #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd #depression #anxiety #triggers #psychogenicnonepilepticseizures #nonepilepticattackdisorder #seizures #emotionaldysregulation #emotionaldysfunction #mentalhealthwarrior #psychotherapy #therapy #recovery #posttraumaticstress #struggling #exhausted

Galentines has been spectacular. I went to a waterpark with my ladies and I did so many things that I’m so proud of myself for. So I have a fear of swimming pools for starters so just going was a huge deal for me. I have never worn a bikini and I wore one today and I didn’t even feel self conscious! I trusted people to keep me safe in the pools as I can’t swim. I trust my ladies so much so that wasn’t as hard but still to some degree. And are you all ready for the big one? I WENT DOWN A FRICKEN WATER SLIDE! I’ve been terrified of swimming pools, water slides and showing my body of for as long as I can remember and tonight I conquered all of them, thank you to my incredible friends for cheering me on and always providing me with the support I need. I laughed so much, in fact I haven’t laughed like that in such a while and I can honestly say tonight has been one of the best nights of my life. I feel empowered. I feel happy. I feel stronger. I feel grateful. I feel blessed. This is why I continue to fight, I may be worn out and aching now but it was worth it! (I cropped the photo because i wasn’t certain my friends were comfortable with me sharing photos of them in bikinis) 💖💗🧜🏻‍♀️🧜🏻‍♀️ #conqueringfears #fightingfear #iamfierce #bodylove #bodyconfidence #bodypositivity #selfcare #weareallworthy #galentines #girlpower #empowered #empoweredwomenempowerwomen #support #chronicfatigue #chronicpainwarrior #chronicpain #endo #ibs #mentalhealth #anxiety #depression #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #nonepilepticattackdisorder #fibro #anxietydisorder