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crystalline-coochie · 8 months

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MEW IS QUITE LITERALLY INSANE AND I FOR ONE COULD NOT BE HAPPIER ABOUT THAT!!! Like listen yall...do you know how fuckin batshit you have to be to fully know that your boyfriend fucked your best friend and just....hold it together?? Any bitch can fly off the handle and cause a scene but Mew?? Nah he's not some regular bitch. My man was out here PLOTTING. SCHEMING. He had a plan and he executed it beautifully. The look of shame on Top's face?? CHEF'S. FUCKIN. KISS. especially after he did all that bragging to Sand earlier "I aLwAys GeT wHAt i WaNt" omgggg it felt so good to see thatttttt. My baby done entered his revenge era and it's gonna be a sight to behold :3

#only friends the series #only friends #only friends mew #that boy TOLD YALL he wasn't naive and yall wouldnt damn listennnnn #yall confused not knowing with willful ignorance and that was where yall FUCKED UP🗣🗣🗣#the fact that he had to punch ray to keep him from messing up his plan is lowkey hilarious #ik for a fact he was panicking in his head when ray kept talking and just swung #very beautiful very powerful #i knew something was off when he said screw ray bc like wtf he loves ray hed never say that?? AND I WAS RIGHT

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the-gayest-sky-kid · 1 month

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Tell me what u think dazai would be like with a pet (type of pet is your choice whatever u think he’d have 🫶)

i think realistically he'd probably not be the most responsible pet owner... HOWEVER annoying cat owner dazai is kind of dear to my heart. but i also feel like its funnier when the cat in question is atsushi

#all his pets are other people because he cant actually trust himself to take care of something that depends solely on him #ALL that being said i think dazai with some weirdly resistant stall prize goldfish would definitely fit #goldfish singular that is #get him on an arc like that 4chan greentext post about the guy with the shrimp #maybe not to its entire extent but i think him genuinely putting the effort into having a decent set up and food for #a bag goldfish he thought wasn't going to live another week when he first brought it home #i think itd probably make a neat story. something about resilience and self care idk #thats way off topic though yfhgfhfhrrheh #ANYWAY if dazai had a cat fr i think hed be one of those 'it can do no wrong' types. kunikida kun theyd never even hurt a fly !!!#meanwhile hes encouraging them to mess with shit #its the cat to cat communication #aethers asks

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science-lings · 2 months

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I love that Phoenix's type is just 'guy/girl that starts out/appears perfectly nice but turns out to be/ ends up as the worst most nasty evil person who hates him specifically' no wonder this guy has given up on romantic relationships he has the worst luck.

#i mean in canon he has had One relationship when he was 21 and that fucked him up for life #but i like to think that it just keeps happening over and over again #at least edgeworth gets fixed and iris wasn't that bad but still the whole situation was so fucked up #why is he a magnet for toxic people he's just some spikey haired guy who wants to be nice to people most of the time #either Dahlia messed him up forever or he just keeps falling into toxic relationships and both of those options are so sad #anyway building on my aroace!phoenix bc of trauma headcanon #dahlia really said 'no one could ever love you' and phoenix was like 'okay what if I just never love again' and he did #putting the ace in ace attorney #local lawyer is deeply afraid of love but keeps falling into it bc its in his nature and it only ever hurts him lol #phoenix wright #ace attorney #asexual phoenix wright

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wildmelon · 1 year

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Why do yall act like anyone makes yall play sims 4??? Just go play sims 3. Its STILL available! Just stop playing it. Dang.

why do you act like meaningful criticism is the same as ruthless hating? this is such a strange reaction to what i said. not only was it framed through the lens of personal opinion and nostalgia, it was completely respectful and free of inflammatory language. i'm allowed to offer feedback on the games i've played on my own blog. the sims is a franchise, of course there's going to be varying opinions on the strongest elements of each installment. (in case you missed it, this is what i said about missing ts3)

#also last time i tried to play ts3 it was a buggy mess like i never said it was perfect #but i pretty much can't play it on my computer lmfao #idk why the internet still surprises me anymore lol but i just don't understand this takeaway from what i said #i wasn't even rude about ts4 i literally just evaluated my personal thoughts on the games' strengths and weaknesses #ask #sanmyshunosunset

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paris-geller-was-straightwashed · 1 month

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'I just don't believe in/understand it!' well unfortunately for you I just don't stop existing as an agender person bc you don't believe in it. I'm not fucking tinkerbell.

#vent post #transphobia #let's play a game where we guess if my mom can ever learn to apologize when she did something wrong on accident #and that answer is rarely if ever #a lot of this isn't going to make sense #so just ignore me #also class move from my mom in response to being told she was (potentially) misgendering to RANDOMLY BRING IN MY FATHER WHO I'VE BEEN TOO #SCARED TO EVEN COME OUT TO YET #LIKE NO I HAVEN'T BROUGHT THIS UP WITH DAD AND YOU FUCKING KNOW WHY #BUT THANKS FOR BRINGING HIM INTO THE CONVERSATION I GUESS THAT WAS SUPER RELEVANT #maybe I messed up but so fucking did you #confronted her in the most neutral and nicest way I could bc I KNEW she wasn't misgendering on purpose and so I SAID THAT #and /I/ get called TOO SENSITIVE when asking them too be a bit more careful #I'm not asking for tHE FUCKING MOON HERE I'm asking you to LEARN TO CORRECT YOURSELF WHEN MESSING UP #and I keep fucking saying sorry why do I DO this the second there's friction #I just start apologizing for her and saying I never meant to cause harm I can never stick to my guns when I feel someone's mad at me #especially someone I'm close to why am I LIKE this #this happened the last time we argued and then I feel bad and she gets off scott free #this sounds one-sided but to be fair I did make a misunderstanding #but I still get called ''''too sensitive''''' while holding no accountability #I was APPROACHABLE and NEUTRAL in bringing it up so we could HAVE A CONVERSATION LIKE ADULTS #and yet STILL ASKING FOR TOO MUCH and get the cold shoulder #I knew she was mad from the first text #this shifts lines a little for me #misgendering #tw transphobia

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bisexualsfromouterspace · 3 months

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sometimes being the bigger person is like. such a bummer

#god it's such a mess to explain but #my friend still associates with an ex friend of mine #not even associates with they're like VERY close friends still #and i never explained to my friend what happened between this ex friend and i because it felt like #impolite? not my place? idk just not something i should get into with a third party i guess #but my friend was going on tonight about someone else she knows #who cheated on her boyfriend and is now engaged to the guy she cheated with #and my friend is saying how she can't look at this person the same way #and i'm like................#ya ever wonder why me and [redacted] don't talk anymore???#because that's exactly what happened #well not the engaged part but she is 1000% a cheater and i just couldn't be around her after she started doing that #but like my friend..... i couldn't just..... it would just be petty of me to say something about it now #it's been like 5 years already #and my friend wasn't really close with [redacted] when her and i fell out #but i always think like what has this ex friend said about me? what reason does she use to explain why her and i don't talk anymore???#our fallout was certainly not MY fault if that's the story she's going with #idk i just wanted to say something sooo bad but. i won't.#not my place #be the bigger person!!!!

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lunarrampage · 4 months

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I'm a big advocate of just blocking and moving on when seeing bad takes about your interests but that's mostly because I rarely travel outside the small circle of artists and mutuals I follow and ohhhh boy after having seen the worst take about a beloved blorbo I suddenly understand everything, it was like a redditer overtook my body and I almost went into a rage as I resisted the urge to "um actually" and type up an entire essay in ops comment section but I persevered. Are you all proud of me.

#im mostly being hyperbolic but gosh #it's still eating me up inside so i will continue to complain about it here in the tags lol #so just scroll away if you don't wanna see me complain about things that don't matter<3 #anyway i just saw someone say how karlach worked dorna slaver and would still be working for him if he hadn't betrayed her #implying she was only against gortash because his actions directly affected her #when FIRST IF ALL SHE WAS AN ORPHANED CHILD WHO WAS MANIPULATED BY HIM #AND SHE EVEN SAID IN HER OWN WORDS THAT SHE NEVER WOULD HAVE WORKED FOR GORTASG IS SHE HAD KNOWN WHO HE TRULY WAS #SHE WAS A KID AND WORKED FOR AN AWFUL MAN AND MOST LIKELY DID SOME PRETTY MESSED UP THINGS FOR HIM THIS IS TRUE #BUT SHE WAS A CHILD AND SHE LOOKED UP TO HIM WHILE HE MANIPULATED HER SO SHE WOULD ALWAYS PROTECT HIM AND DO WHAT HE SAID WITHOUT QUESTION #then he sold her to zariel and it wasn't until it was too late did she realize how evil gortash was #im unsure if she new he was a slaver when working for him but since she was a kid with nothing it's not like she's going to fully commit to #being a morally upstanding citizen when she literally couldn't afford it #saying karlach was only against gortash because his action affected her is BLATANTLY WRONG #she has flaws and is a deeply written characters and she cares so much about other people thats on of the reasons she worked with gortash #she cared about him and he used that to his advantage #okay rant over i love u karlach im sorry people refuse to look into your charcter beyond surface level assumptions </3 #babbles #dear god there are so many typos. i aint retyping all that shit tho good luck deciphering that #i say as if anyone is gonna read it sjkdkf

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aroacehanzawa · 1 year

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#i am sooooo annoyed with my flatmate #who never cleans or does anything for the household or rather her idea of 'cleaning' is wiping down the surfaces maybe twice a year #never cleans the kitchen surfaces after cooking except she only does a mass meal prep like once a month and then leaves a mess #while knowing that i always clean after myself and i cook like every other day so i end up hacving to clean her mess too #because if i point it out she'll be like oh it wasn't me #we only have one other housemate but they're a postgrad who is rarely home and mainly eats ready meals #seriously this person is disgusting like they will leave a pile of dirty dishes for weeks #and they even leave the sink dirty after washing the dishes???#like i get that you don't always have time or energy to do chores because of mental health or studies #but this person dropped out of uni like she isn't even studying meanwhile i have four exams to study for rn #i just think that when you're living with other people you have to put an effort to keep communal spaces clean and be considerate #like i've been cleaning the bathroom almost all the time this semester so i finally asked her to do it and she said she'll do it today #i got home and she only bleached the toilet so i was like how come you didn't clean the sink?#and she was like oh i just bleached the toilet so now i'm taking a break and watching a youtube video :)#like?????????? and then she never continued the cleaning??????????#she also keeps wearing shoes indoors like idc if ahe wears shoes in her room but i've said again and again to please not wear shoes indoors #in the hallway/kitchen/bathroom because it's disrespectful in my culture (and we have CARPETED floors)#and she keeps doing it and even steps inside my room with shoes #or when the other day i was sweeping the kitchen floor and she just walked in with her shoes and didn't even more away when i was cleaning #my good friend actually lived here too before she got fed up with this person and moved away #because this person lied to us so much about how often they clean things and basically gave the wrong impression #she also broke my spatula and lied about it and ate my friend's food and lied about it and used up my ingredients and lied about it #and also complained behind my back that i was 'so annoying' for not answering the intercom when HER packages were being delivered???#and she claimed that i was cranking up the energy bill because i keep the heating in my room at a normal level during winter #because she likes to keep her room freezing cold and she also keeps her room in pitch darkness and would complain #that me having the lights on in my room like a normal person increases the energy bill??? like yeah that's literally what i'm paying for?#she also got mad at me for throwing out a literally MOLDY sponge because she was 'still using it' like FOR THE DISHES? THAT WE EAT FROM???#i am so sick and tired of this person i cannot wait to move out in 3 weeks

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thanksatt · 6 months

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AU in which Zog was the one to manipulate himself the entire time into doing everything he has done + rescuing Talion and becoming his ally only to make both of them spiral and later Talion becomes a nazgul and this is up to debate if it was a consequence of their actions or it was up to Talion exclusively. The fact is that it's the event that pushes Zog into this huge manipulation game because he can't accept Talion's fall and so he has to destroy himself in the process to; he also can't get over the fact that he was defeated by Talion so he's also taking revenge. It ends with both of them dying.

#inspired by aot because I absolutely adore characters manipulating themselves and those around them to do horrible things #for seemingly grand purposes only to be revealed as nothing more but egotistic often childish desires #I also like when said characters are so messed up that they don't know anymore what's in their sphere of action and what's outiside of it #'have I caused this? Is this a consequence of my actions? But I have never wanted this. it wasn't supposed to happen. is it my fault or it'#'or is it just fate?'#anyways #I'm treating zog like a punching bag #zog the eternal #talion #both are so messed up it's so fun

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idiosyncraticrednebula · 6 months

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I will never forget this picture with a quote that said "The devil is a woman". These chicks expose themselves lmao

#txt #“it's a joke” that wasn't a joke tho #obviously these women hate god because of the fact that god brings ORDER and STABILITY and they hate that #that's why god is referred to as our heavenly FATHER #that's why they hate men masculinity and everything that has to do with them because they know that's what men represent #they'd rather indulge in satanism because it appeals to their chaotic nature #honestly i don't condone what a lot of men say online but i understand why they say it #i mean i guess she's right since it's said that the devil is a woman in a red dress #she had another image on her pinterest that said “f*ck the patriarchy”#these chicks don't hate the patriarchy because of “historical abuses” they hate it because it represents ORDER and they f*cking hate that #she also had quotes about breaking men's hearts and souls #there are A LOT of women like this. they have a serious disdain for men #“she probably suffered in the past” and well so have many guys who do messed up sh*t but y'all never make excuses for them

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pomfiores · 2 years

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i am taking the title of being the sophisticated cat woman. why?

this is Vincent, Lucifer's brother.

#◟ ⋆ㅤㅤif my hair's a mess﹐my mind's a mess.ㅤ( ooc )#I was gonna name him Simeon but he wasn't the half white/half black after all.#plus Vincent is Suuuuper sleepy. and very quiet. he's also p charming bc he approaches w manners and purrs a lot #I never had sibling pets before this is v weird.#I got him for Lucifer though. bc he was bonded.#3 boys. I like to think that's enough.#Vince got settled quicker than Lucifer I think. Lucifer was quick to see him in the kennel.#and once Lucifer went and said hi; Binx was cool with him too.#Binx had no issue at all tbh.#my winner of a cat. mister Binx.

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kyuala · 2 years

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HE TOLD US HE'D BE BACK!! YOU CAN'T BURY THE LEFT WING IN THIS COUNTRY

#you guys brazil's history in the last 10 or so years have been so fucking insane #what started as a general discontentment over a rise in the public transport fare prices somehow turned into #an unprecedented reactionary extremist right-wing wave that only got worse and worse through the years #our first and only woman president suffered a literal coup and in the 2 years we were governed by the mild right #a politician who did nothing - and i do not say this lightly - literally NOTHING in like 20 years as a deputy gained so much popularity and #social media attention using nothing but hate speech fake news and the instrumentalization of the Christian faith and masses #somehow won over the public opinion - thru dishonesty n prejudice that's how - and was elected president. that's bols*naro #his mandate was marked by lies prejudice incompetence and negligence. thousands of ppl were literally dying in brazil everyday bc of covid #and u know what he did? mocked them. said he wasn't an undertaker so it wasn't his problem. mocked ppl's difficulty to breathe. caused a #animosity in the population against SCIENCE and health organizations. schemed to overprice when buying vaccines when companies were willing #to give them to us literally for free so the government could cash in. not to mention he dismantled federal operations against crime just #bc they were the left-wing govt's legacy he messed with the legitimacy of the federal police when it went after his sons he created a #scheme to divert public money into politician's pockets instead of employing the resources in u know. the public collective well-being #his govt created a law to protect said politicians and hide the money for 100 FUCKING YEARS from public records #the lost money already amounts to over 65 billion reais. that's roughly 12 billion dollars in taxpayers money. all lost #and he and his supporters have the NERVE to say he's an honest man. that he's a Christian. that he represents goodness.#when he did nothing but spew lies and prejudice and kill us and fuck us over the past 4 years.#his government is the definition of fear politics and necropolitics. it's a stain in the fabric of our country's history. it's never been #anything but a threat to our democracy. our senate n house of deputies r filled with bigoted extremist right-wingers now. but we have hope #now we can have hope! lula has been dishonest and corrupt in the past. he should pay for what he's done like almost every single high #ranking politician in this country should. but not like it was done! after they staged a coup against his ally they unjustly arrested and #convicted him SPECIFICALLY so he couldn't run for president. they KNEW our country would choose him. if he was free bols*naro would've #NEVER won. he's wrong and corrupt and now a convicted criminal turned free man but he represents our country and our democracy!#he's always been our only hope! he's not the right choice but the only choice. and that's how now we have - for the 1st time in history #- not only a president serving a historical THIRD mandate but a president who was arrested and freed between mandates #which is. fucking insane if u ask me #also blsnr is the first president ever in the history of brazil to not be able to be reelected lmfao fucking loser #what's also historical is our divide. lula won by 1.8% can u IMAGINE how split the public opinion is rn #but we won! and we're free of this vermin and on our way to rebuild our country. and i couldn't be happier or feel lighter #and not to mention they tried to stage another covert coup literally during the voting process today 😶‍🌫️ but anyways

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dokyeomini · 1 year

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why do ppl expect chemists to have the entire periodic table memorized??????

#as if we have time for that lmao???#every time there's a chemical element question a hint is the number they're like expecting me to just spit out the answer agjslhl #sure i know hydrogen and helium an calcium by heart but that's honestly abt it #i remember where they approximately are but i forget how many rows and colums there are sometimes #in the transition metals section #and that messes up trying to figure out where which numbers are #in uni we didn't learn the 20 first epements by heart like we did in middle school #but we learned abt which characteristics change in which direction in the table #suprise suprise we were always allowed to use the table printed out during exams when it was necessary #pub quizzes and trivia is another thing #i could learn it for that but i've never bothered #sorry i just get annoyed at it algkg #today someone said they didn't expect me to get the answer wrong #and tbh i only got the answer wrong bc i forgot they asked the 19th element (it wasn't in the question but they gave it as a hint #and i was thinking abt the forst 20 elements we learned in middle school and i knew the 20th was calcium and i was just so focused ln that #that i forgot they asked the 19th aglkslj #so im SORRY i disappointed all lf you aglksj #i have never claimed to be smart but everyone expects me to know everything to do with chemistry......#as if i expect my geographer friends to know every fucking flag or country by the outline.....#god what an essay alhkdöj #this didn't end up in my notes app after all #i actually wanted to vent akhksj

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gottagobackintime · 2 years

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What is going on inside Stede’s head at the party for hoity-toity people? That episode is hands down my favourite episode, and not just because of the “you wear fine things well” scene. And the reason for that is that I love Stede so much in this episode. But I can’t figure out what’s going through his head. So I’m going to ramble about it a bit.

So at this point Stede and Ed have agreed to help teach each other about what they know about piracy and high society. Now we all know that Stede has rejected that part of his life. Well, parts of it really. Because he does still enjoy fine clothes, he uses money not just to pay his crew but also on useless things like the treasure map. Because he can and that’s what he’s used to (although he does finally give all of that up in the end, but that’s not important for this). But he does not enjoy other rich people, because they are his peers, the people who have bullied him since childhood. While he’s never seen these people, they still represent the things he hate about belonging to high society, what he wanted to get away from.

He instantly says that they have no interest in the invitation to the party only for him to reluctantly agreeing to read it on Ed’s insistence. His immediate reaction is to mock the person who was invited, to really make sure that everyone knows he doesn’t want to belong to that part of society. But then Ed ignores him and says that they should check it out. We don’t even get to see Stede agree with it, Ed just walks away after saying that they’re going to the party. When they arrive Stede reassures Ed that they could leave anytime he wants, if he gets uncomfortable (something I doubt he was allowed to do himself when in similar situations) but Ed sees this as a challenge, as his dream coming true. He’s surrounded by fancy people, fancy clothes and people who doesn’t know him as Blackbeard, he is simply Jeff the accountant. But I don’t think it’s that easy for Stede. While he’s there under another name, he’s been at fancy parties before, he’s encountered people like this before and he doesn’t like it. He doesn’t feel comfortable, because he’s never fit in. And then he’s immediately thrust into the spotlight by two of the most obnoxious people ever. And he goes along with their suggestion of him palpitating her. And it’s from that moment that I really can’t make my mind up about what he’s thinking.

When Ed says that thing about having once killed a Prussian and Stede begging him silently to stop talking, that’s where Stede starts to be pushed aside. Antoinette pushes his hands away and he’s surprised or maybe even a little offended. And then it just escalates from there. Ed steps into the spotlight and they all seem to love him. And Stede is stood beside him, not being able to do anything. Ed has succeeded to charm these people in like 30 minutes, something Stede has never managed to do during his entire lifetime, not even when he’s playing a part. He tries to enter the conversation and he’s interrupted and mocked. Even Ed joins in on the mocking part and Stede forces a smile. And yet he stays by Ed’s side. He tries to tell Ed that even if they seem nice they’re not. And Ed doesn’t really want to listen, because he’s having a great time. It’s only after Ed played the piano and danced that we see them separating. With Stede eventually ending up talking to Frenchie about how he never were any good at these kinds of things. And I find it interesting that he told Ed when they arrived that they could leave whenever he wanted, but when Stede himself is feeling uncomfortable he doesn’t afford himself the same luxury. He just leaves Ed to enjoy the evening while he himself is sad about never fitting in. Then we ofc get the wonderful scene where Stede takes them down. And he does it with such confidence and he’s enjoying it too.

Now then, what is he feeling? I go from thinking he’s jealous of Ed being able to charm these people, something Stede was never able to do properly and then I think, no he’s afraid that Ed will end up with his feelings hurt, because Stede knows what they are like. And then I think that he’s feeling sad because Ed seems to enjoy their company, perhaps even more than he enjoys spending time with Stede, considering the fact that he joins the French in mocking Stede. But maybe he’s feeling all of these things, all at once, some emotions taking over momentarily before being replaced by another, but they’re all there during the whole party. Perhaps no emotion is stronger than the other, or perhaps sadness can be interpreted in all of these scenarios I’ve written about. Sadness felt when you don’t fit in, sadness when the one person you trust more than anyone sides with the people who are being mean to you, sadness when the one you care for ends up hurt and that sadness quickly turning into anger and an urge to defend. I don’t know. And I hate that I don’t know but I also love it. And I also think that this really shows a lot of Stede as a person. And why he does the things he does. Especially when you put it together with the scene where he goes back to his family. The way he deals with his own feelings, denying himself to feel certain things and acting on those feelings. Even if it ends up hurting him in the end. While he is dramatic and hysterical a lot of the time, he feels so much more than he lets anyone see. Because of the fear of being seen as weak.

The work Rhys put into that whole episode, but especially those scenes at the party are Oscar worthy! The looks, the forced smile... I feel so sorry for Stede in those scenes and I so desperately want Ed to see how much being there hurts Stede, how condescending they are towards him (something that also ends up happening to Ed). If I could only pick one scene that I love, from the entire show, then I’d choose the one where Stede is forcing a smile after he’s been mocked by the French, with Ed joining in. That scene lives rent free in my head.

Once again, hope this makes sense. Feel free to add your thoughts, I enjoy reading other people’s thoughts and it helps me to expand on my own.

#our flag means death #nicole watches stuff #god I really do feel represented by Stede #in a way I haven't really felt before #as a victim of bullying who never ever contemplating taking my own life it's refreshing to see someone who has been bullied #just trying to go through life and wanting to live their life but still being affected by the bullying they endured #because that's me #a lot of things I do makes no sense to anyone else and some even find it odd but it's something I do because I was bullied #for example if I'm having lunch with other people I always ask if I can sit down beside them #so many times people look at me like ??? ofc you can you don't even have to ask #but the thing is..#I do..#because for years I wasn't welcome to just join people #even if I did ask I wasn't always allowed #and that shit hurts and it messes you up #I often sit down by myself and let other people join me instead #because there's also that little tiny voice saying ''yeah they said that you can sit with them but they don't actually want you here''#but if I sit by myself first then I'm not forcing anyone into feeling obliged to invite me to sit down #does it make sense probably not #but I can't stop doing it #and I'm soon to be 29 and I was bullied as a child #so yeah bullying really does affect your life even if you think you're over it #but as I said I love that we don't have to see him being suicidal #sad yes but not to the point of it being hinted at him wanting to take his own life #because while that absolutely happens for a lot of people as a result of bullying #it's not the only story that needs to be told when it comes to victims of bullying #I've always felt alone in the way I felt as a victim because all I ever saw on tv and in movies were victims killing themselves #I even started to think that I might be exaggerating my feelings as a victim that perhaps I couldn't even count myself as a victim #because I never had those thoughts #now I know that my feelings are valid and that I am just as much of a victim as anyone else but I had to fight against my own doubtful voice

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thenerdcommander · 1 year

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My family is so fucking exhausting I'm so fucking sick of it

#mom was complaining about noise at night so I made a joke about her sucking it up and sleeping in her bedroom with dad (he snores)#and just collect on life insurance #they all pretended I made a threat/serious suggestion despite THEM making ACTUALLY suspicious jokes all the time (about murdering people/#using racial slurs/doling out general hate speech and laughing at it as though it's funny)#and they tried to gaslight me into believing they DON'T say worse shit every time they open their mouths #“We've NEVER heard a joke like that!!! That's messed up!!!” lies. You “joke” about killing/enslaving black and trans people all the time #and you make no effort to make it come off as a joke (because it's not and you mean it) but when *I* make an OBVIOUSLY NOT SERIOUS #comment it's suddenly horrible and I belong in a psych ward??? just because the delivery wasn't to suit you????#then they turned around and cried racist because I called them out on their bullshit because apparently pointing out that the things THEY #say and do they're going to eventually do in front of the wrong person and they will get attacked for it (esp using racial slurs #openly and with the mentality that “Only white people get mad at them!!!” like no I'm sorry that's just not the case) is??? Racist???#POC (black and otherwise) have been telling white people not to use those words for a VERY FUCKING LONG TIME you shitstains #and me saying you're going to get retaliated against has nothing to do with whatever skin color you attributed to that statement. Another #white person would attack you for using those words just as likely as the people you're oppressing. So how about you don't??? Use them???#but nah that makes me racist apparently #racism according to repubs: telling them not to use racial slurs #they seriously cannot fucking grasp that what I said does no harm but what they say ALL THE TIME causes a LOT for a lot of people #but *I'm* the bad guy??? Ok.#my humor and yours aren't comparable but sure. Keep projecting

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churipu · 3 months

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YOU SLEEPING ON A COUCH AFTER AN ARGUMENT 𓆝 ⋆｡𖦹°‧

featuring. gojo satoru, geto suguru, toji fushiguro x reader

note. i hv so many ideas right now apart from what i'm actually supposed to be focusing on, so...pls excuse me.

GOJO SATORU. arguments with gojo are a pain in the ass, he's petty and everything will be a mess. he's so stubborn that it actually baffles you sometimes — and he calls you rock head?

being a sorcerer is never an easy job. gojo wakes up every day, not knowing whether he'd die in a mission or get to live another day. so when you brought up your concerns about it to him, the male didn't take it lightly. things have been tight for him, and you're walking on eggshells for the past few days.

the slightest thing angered him, like how his sleeve got stuck on the door handle, or the way he curses out loudly when he stubs his toe on the coffee table. it puts him in a shitty mood, so when that happens, and you try to talk to him about his job.

gojo gets very pissy about it.

frankly, you understood where his anger comes from. and it was part of your fault to bother him the moment he came back from work exhausted, it was bound to happen so you weren't really blaming him at all from the projecting of his anger to you the night before — he didn't say hurtful things, gojo knew better than that. all he did was tell you to leave him alone and get out of his sight for the night.

and you did. sleeping alone on the couch, all sprawled out, an arm dangling on the edge; while a string of drool dribbled down the corner of your lips.

you seemed to not mind having to sleep on the couch (under your own want). but your boyfriend did, the moment he knew your bed time strikes — he came out of the room and eyed your sleeping form. guilt washing over him when all you did was care about his being and how dangerous the jujutsu world is.

gojo approaches you and gently carried you in his arms, an arm right under your bottom and his other arm around your waist. hoisting you up like a baby as your cheek leaned onto his shoulder, letting the drool blotch his shirt. he doesn't care at all.

the male tucks you in the bed, pulling the covers over you before slipping next to you, chest pressed to your back and an arm resting on your hip. gojo will never let you sleep a whole night on the couch, he will bring you to sleep with him and apologize the very next day for being such an ass.

he also, tried to make it up to you by cooking a classic english breakfast. which ended up in chaos — and you both decided to order take out instead.

GETO SUGURU. geto is usually calm and collected; he doesn't really get angry at anything. even if he does, he mostly keeps it to himself unless it really bothers him. but since humans have certain capacities to their own emotion — geto is not spared from being angry, no matter how calm he is.

after the death of amanai, you could feel him change. your geto. it was traumatizing for him, and you understood. always being there for him, never leaving him alone. the dark circles under his eyes were apparent, and it looked like he hasn't had a good night sleep for what seemed like . . . weeks, or months, if that's even possible.

geto appreciated your company, really. but sometimes, he also wanted to be left alone to dwell on his feelings. he didn't want to end up saying hurtful things to you because he was so angry at himself. but he did, and god was it horrible.

he was already feeling like shit before the argument— which if you see, wasn't really an argument at all. it was one-sided, geto was telling you off and you didn't say anything back. because you knew he didn't mean it. he almost desperately begged for you to leave him alone because your presence was "annoying" him and he couldn't stand it.

although geto said it in a heap of moment. he didn't mean it, and before he could say anything else, you tell him that you were going to be sleeping on the couch, so if he needed anything he was free to come to you.

geto didn't stop you. he was busy hating on himself for telling you that — and believe me when i say that he, right there, almost cried out of frustration.

he tossed and turned on his bed. where you were usually on too, beside him, holding his hand whilst he sleep. your hushed voice lulling him into a peaceful slumber; but you weren't there today, all because he told you to leave him alone. geto sat up, his eyelids heavy, but no matter how long he shut is, they always open back up.

with slow and heavy steps, he approaches you on the couch. and geto had always knew that you were a light sleeper, so his footsteps awoken you. seeing your eyes flutter open, geto slid on the couch, laying himself on top of you — head on your chest, arms clutching onto your shirt like he's desperate for your presence, and his legs intertwining with yours.

getos' hushed apologies were heard as he leaned into your warmth, and you told him that you were never angry. brushing his hair, massaging his scalp using your fingertips before lulling him to sleep, and geto did. almost immediately. and so did you.

he could never sleep without you. whether it being on the bed, the couch, or anywhere else — as long has you were with him, he will find the ability to drift off.

TOJI FUSHIGURO. is an ass. let's face it — he wouldn't give a fuck if you decided to sleep on the couch after an argument, at least for the first couple of hours. toji is a blunt man, and he's a sole believer that nobody could bear sleeping on the couch when there's a bed in the house.

but you were there to prove him wrong.

after an argument going south, he finds you grabbing your pillow and then seeking shelter on the couch. and he clicked his tongue in annoyance, knowing you'd come crawling back on the mattress after a few hours — because who'd choose the couch over the bed?

you. apparently.

he slept without a single care, thinking of words to say when you finally decided to come back on the bed. but when he woke up at three am, his arm searching to find your body, but realizing all he was catching was air — he finally realized that you weren't coming back onto the bed.

and it annoyed him. he was angry that you weren't there. and at three am? he was already wide awake, walking out of the room angrily. but his gaze softened when he saw you asleep, the constant flashing light from the television panning on your body; toji walks over, snatches the remote and turns the device off.

letting out a soft sigh, toji squats down, flicking your forehead. and the action was enough to make you grimace lightly in your sleep — although not enough to wake you up completely. the male chuckled and prepped an arm under the hollow under your knees, and an arm across your shoulder.

with ease he brought you into your shared room and he laid you down on the bed, covering your body with the blanket before he slips into his own portion of the bed. scooting closer to you as you instinctively nuzzled into his chest, seeking for comfort.

toji wouldn't admit that he was the one who brought you into the bed and would end up saying how you came crawling back at three am. you always find out the truth though, and toji tells you to forget about whatever he did because he won't be doing it again (he will).

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