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whumptimebaby · 2 years

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If it all ends tomorrow (alternate ending)

@wondero28 @5town ask you shall receive 🤝

CW: Mentions of plane crash, CPR, hospitals, mentions of temporary character death (?)

The italicized bit at the beginning is copy and pasted from the original fic, it’s just so you know when this takes place!!

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“They're here, they're ready to take over.”

Aaron Z. looked up, meeting the eyes of a person in a bright orange jacket. Her bangs were plastered to her forehead. She gave him a kind smile.

And then Robaire’s arms were around him, pulling him back. He was too exhausted to object.

He watched them take over CPR. He watched them set up the AED. He watched them administer the first shock.

Aaron T. jolted once, remaining limp.

Another person, clad in an equally hideous orange jacket, watched the machine for any signs of life.

“Nothing.”

He sat there, and watched. Robaire didn't leave him. He didn't dare move, he didn't want to mess anything up, all the while they cycled through those steps. CPR, “clear,” shock, jolt, wait, repeat. At some point, one of the helicopters left with Jesse and Taeyoung. He supposed it should make him feel better, but he didn't want to be very far away from them, let alone let them disappear in another aircraft during a storm.

He couldn't let himself lose hope.

"Clear!"

Another jolt. Robaire's breath caught in his throat.

He waited. Robaire waited. The search and rescue team waited.

Beep. Beep.

"We have a pulse!"

He was weightless. Every ounce of pressure, every muscle in his body, every tense part of his soul eased.

It was euphoric. Blissful. The rain stopped feeling like bullets against his metal skin, and became a cool, cleansing stream.

He could be celebrating too early, but he knew it. He knew that some divine force had decided they needed to be five. Somewhere out there, somebody was on Aaron T.'s side, and that being was what changed whatever that crash was supposed to do.

He knew, of course, that this wasn't meant to happen. Aaron T. shouldn't have regained his pulse, not after an injury like that. He knew enough about medicine for that.

But it had happened, and to whatever force made that so, he was eternally grateful.

"Ro." He nudged him. "It's over."

He squeezed Aaron Z. just a little bit tighter. "Yeah?"

"Yeah. We're going home."

"All of us?"

"All of us."

The search and rescue team split, some sticking around Aaron T. as they worked to keep him stable, and some busied themselves with checking Aaron Z. and Robaire.

He found himself drifting. Now that safety cradled him and his adrenaline was fizzling out, the exhaustion settled back behind his eyes. He found himself fighting to keep awake, to answer the questions he needed to answer, to make sure he actually made it onto that helicopter.

***

Aaron Z. wished he was allowed to strut around the hospital and enter the other members rooms without permission from his nurse. He wished he had the freedom to do something as simple as going down to the cafeteria and picking his own lunch, but alas, the life of a celebrity.

Ever since the company put out a statement saying that they had been involved in the crash, the hospital had been way more busy than it should be. To his nurse, Madison, he complained about them making the hospital staff's job much harder, but privately he was kind of honoured.

They were there because they cared, you know?

The receptionist had been collecting cards for them, so around twice a day he got a delivery of hand-drawn, sweet cards from the hospital hopping 4*Townies.

His favourite card was done by a thirteen year old boy. He talked about his friend group a little bit, how they were all 4*Townies, and how his group of friends were all happy they were okay.

But that wasn't the part that made him love it.

The boy went on to talk about how Aaron Z. had changed him, how he'd made him feel seen, and how someone who looked like him being successful made him believe that maybe he could be too.

He talked about his love for basketball, his friends, and 4*Town. He wished him a speedy recovery.

Aaron Z. was never letting this card go. It stayed on the tiny plastic table next to his bed.

Speaking of the bi-daily card delivery, somebody knocked.

"Come in."

Instead of the receptionist, or even his nurse, it was Taeyoung who poked his head in.

"Surprise!"

"Tae!" He broke out into a grin. "What-"

"They just moved Jesse out of the ICU!"

"For real?"

Turns out, after getting Aaron T. on some IVs, it was actually Jesse who'd gotten the most seriously injured. He'd been pretty much entirely isolated since they got back from the island.

"Does this mean-"

Taeyoung wasn't letting him get a word in. "We can visit, yes, hurry up!"

He slipped out of bed, fumbling with the damn hospital slippers as his brain moved faster than his body. Taeyoung whisked around, not bothering to wait.

He fell in step behind him, and soon, Robaire and Aaron T. did the same.

None of them said a word, not until they stood outside Jesse's room. His nurse was standing, arms crossed, in front of the door.

"Your doctors know you're here?"

"Mhm," Robaire said absentmindedly, "can we go in?"

"Ask him. He's allowed visitors."

Robaire slipped past Aaron Z., and knocked twice.

"Come in."

They opened the door.

Jesse's room was much nicer than his. He had a massive window, lots of natural light, and he suspected that his bedding was more comfortable too, considering how snug he was in it.

Jesse watched them stream in with wide eyes. When they landed on Aaron T., his shoulders lowered, mouth fell agape, and eyebrows curved down.

"T.?"

"Hey." He waved awkwardly.

Jesse looked between the four of them, speaking quietly. "You all see him too, right? He's really here?"

Aaron Z. nodded, a smile breaching his well-practised neutral face. "He's really here."

Jesse's eyes grew teary.

"Nobody told you?" Taeyoung spared no time crawling onto his bed.

He just shook his head, still fixated on Aaron T.

Aaron Z. couldn't blame him. He'd done the exact same thing the first time they talked after everything.

He nudged Aaron T., and despite seeing him, feeling him so many times before, it felt electric. That brief moment of contact was so warm, so real, so tangible that it made him relive their best times all over again.

God, he was a mess.

Aaron T. turned ever so slightly, looking up at Aaron Z. with a tiny, probably unintentional pout. He nodded toward Jesse, and the two of them got closer to the bed.

Jesse reached out, and cupped Aaron T.'s cheek. "It's so good to see you."

"I missed you too, super-grandpa." Aaron T. closed his eyes, and leaned into the touch.

Robaire chuckled, and sat on the far end of the bed.

Taeyoung nuzzled into Jesse's shoulder. "You smell clean."

"Thanks?"

Aaron T. stole Jesse's hand, giving it a hearty sniff. "You do!"

Taeyoung sighed, shifting to get more comfortable. "I never thought anything would smell clean ever again."

"I bet it feels so nice to have showered."

"It actually really does," Jesse admitted.

"Oh! Before I forget." Robaire reached a hand into his pocket. "I had a staff member bring this for you."

He opened his palm, revealing chapstick.

"Robaire!" He snatched it, popping off the lid and applying some. "Oh my God, you're the best."

"Hey! Robaire brings chapstick and suddenly you're done with me?" Aaron T. complained, "C'mon! Dote on me some more."

Jesse rolled his eyes. "I was done when you started talking about what I smell like."

"Besides," Taeyoung added, "you're the one who scared us half to death, you have no right to complain."

"In all fairness." He put his hands up. "Everyone thought I was dying, me included, so that like, cancels it out or something."

"It's good to hear you joke."

Something on Aaron T's face shifted. "I'm really sorry."

"Hey." Jesse gestured for him to get onto the bed. "This is nowhere close to being your fault. Oh my God, it's really you?"

"Yeah?"

Jesse's eyes started to water. Again.

"Hey, hey, it's okay." Aaron T. snuggled in. "We all made it."

Taeyoung tilted his head, the beginnings of a warm smile playing at the edge of his lips. "Why are you still on the floor Z.? Get up here."

Robaire shifted to make room for him. His eyes shot silent words

Are you okay?

He nodded. Are you?

He nodded back.

"I missed you so much," Jesse sobbed, "I, you, you were gone."

"I know," Aaron T. mumbled, "and I'm back. I'm here."

"You're here."

They sat together, chatting, catching up, crying, laughing, and reminiscing until Jesse's nurse came in to inform them that Jesse really needed rest. They said their goodbyes, and one by one got escorted back to their rooms.

On the way back, Aaron Z. stopped by Aaron T.'s room, just to briefly stand in the door and chat.

He was standing by the window. "I can't believe they didn't tell him, that's so cruel."

Aaron Z. just nodded.

"You're quiet today," Aaron T. observed.

"Just taking everything in."

"Oh?"

He broke eye contact, his eyes drifting around the ugly, dark hospital room. "I can't believe they put you here."

"It's pretty bad, isn't it?" He tugged at the curtain.

"Wanna come back to mine?"

"Oh my God, you're inviting me to your place? After just one date? Very bold.

"A near-death experience will do that to you."

He laughed. "In that case, of course I'll accompany you to your room, Mr. Ay-ron-zee."

"Not this again."

"I have 'literally died' privileges."

He blinked. "If you had privileges, I wouldn't be complaining."

"Okay, then don't complain."

He huffed. "Whatever, let's just get out of this room."

"Wow, you want me that bad?"

"Because this room is depressing, and it's making you act weird."

"Jeez, fine." He slung an arm around Aaron Z., and led the way out of the room. "Hey, actually, hold on a second."

A twinge of worry festered in his chest. "Yeah? You okay?"

He shook his hands out, laughing nervously. "So uh, I heard from the staff, they uh, they told me that I was... dead, before the search and rescue people were around, and that you did CPR for a bit."

Oh...?

"They also told me that." He averted his gaze. "If you hadn't done CPR, there was a pretty good chance that the search and rescue team would have been unsuccessful, y'know, in that regard."

Oh.

"So I wanted to thank you."

He didn't know what to say.

"For saving my life," he added, "thank you for saving my life. I know I joke a lot about you being my hero, but you really, really are."

"Aaron." He pulled his name twin into a hug.

"You're incredible."

He shut his eyes, a hand combing delicately through Aaron T.'s hair. "I seriously love you so much."

"I know." He could feel his smile. "I love you too."

They walked back to Aaron Z.'s room together, arm in arm.

Despite its briefness, their reunion as five was enough to make Aaron Z. glow. They were okay. Everything was going to be okay. It would take time, and work, and more pain than they could conceive, but that didn't matter because they were five. They were okay. Everything was going to be okay.

Once again, Aaron Z. found himself thanking whatever cosmic force kept them together. He was starting to think that maybe they weren't just born for this, for each other, maybe it came from before that. Maybe their connection started back when everything started.

Maybe these moments, the moments where they were bound to each other against all odds, were destined from the start.

He liked that thought. As Aaron T. settled into bed next to him, warm, smiling, alive, he knew it was true.

#hope this was satisfactory :')#sorry for any mistakes this is not beta'd nor edited #yaaaay fluff :-D #kinda?#hurt/comfort?#hurt/C O M F O R T?#idk guys idk how to tag this #n e ways thanks for asking for this #because it was super fun to write!!#4*town #4town #4 town

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emry-stars-art · 8 months

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Have you ever heard the noises axolotls make? its kinda quiet blub!, when they reach the surface of the water to gulp down some air. Anyway any time i see JellyNeil my mind immediately goes to Neil just making that noise

I HAVE NOW. wow I made a reel for the first time in forever just so I could get this across properly, here you go

(Audio from this YouTube video)

Find the mer au masterpost here 💕

#this was DELIGHTFUL #it’s okay for the first few years I bet a jelly mer could do quite well in a tank or fishbowl #as long as you are aware it will try to eat everything in there #e v e r y t h i n g #so keep it with some crabs and snails probably #or any fish big enough to fend for itself #I cannot promise the safety of your little shrimp #and give it toys #why am I getting into ‘the care of your jellyfish’ rn #stop that we got work to do #(@ myself)#but thank you for the ask I loved this hehe #also explain to me why my brain is so sure that jelly mers can breathe air easier than most fish #not like a mammal like a whale or whatever #it’s not the ideal way to get oxygen #but jellyNeil breathes air better than the sharks #and for why #no clue #anyway #fan art #my art #aftg #all for the game #neil josten #jellyneil au #jellyfish #mer au #asks #jellyneil #mer research notes

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mydemonsdrivealimo · 3 months

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YOUR bryce is a serious surgeon who likes to surf w a wife and kids. MY bryce carries a stanley tumbler, is going through years of cultural healing, and sleeps in shorts that say slut across the ass. we are not the same.

#this is not meant as hate so stfu #i was looking through my bryce posts and yeah ive really taken him in my own (canonically correct) route huh #n e ways he is my fav boy ever thanks for asking #but seriously obvi i dont think yall are horrible for having him that way #i just like my queer af and obnoxious as hell bryce #once again realizing i hate this fandom though like actually this post is funny as hell but yall are gonna throw a fit no matter what #bryce lahela

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that-was-anticlimactic · 27 days

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"can you stay?" + atsushi & kyouka

"can you stay?"

atsushi's voice trembles as they speak, and kyouka freezes.

"nevermind."

atsushi laughs almost immediately, blinking away the impending tears and wavng their hands in front of them. "sorry. you don't... that was stupid of me to say. i'm-"

"stop apologizing."

kyouka slides beside them, curling up against their side. she head plops on their shoulder.

they're warm and shakey, and kyouka feels soft on atsushi's neck.

"i don't mind staying."

honestly, she wanted to stay. no matter how many times she watches atsushi - her sibling by everything but blood - get stabbed, the more she fears for them.

it's a little foolish, she knows; she's been familiar with blood and death and gore since her parents died. limbs being torn off and blood slowly oozing out of the body doesn't scare her.

but it does when she sees it happening to atsushi.

(and she doesn't say anything, but atsushi isn't the only one who gets nightmares - she's just better at keeping them quiet)

"you're just a kid..." atsushi mumbles, breaths shaky and uneven. "you shouldn't have to-to comfort me."

even so, kyouka soon feels the cool pads of their compression gloves rubbing her wrist.

"doesn't matter," she says, because she knows you're still a kid, too only upsets them more.

"okay."

they whisper it so quietly the only reasons kyouka hears it is because of her assassin training.

good.

she snuggles closer still and listens to their heartbeat. it starts off quick, but gradually falls until it's steady.

and kyouka is able to fall asleep with the reminder that her sibling is still alive.

(send me a sentence (+ a ship/character) and i'll write the next five sentences)

#ela tag #here you go *hands you nb atsushi. as a treat.*#sorry you were prolly expecting this the other way around but my gut said no no no atsushi asks sooooo ijuhygtfgyhujio #went with my gut! i don't write kyouka much (i feel like i peaked with how i wrote her in my t.achi fic tbh) so hopefully it's in character #also just to clarify this is Not in any way shape or form romantic! SIBLINGS!!! platonic cuddling is ALLOWED!!! ESPECIALLY WHEN #THEY ARE CHILDREN!!! WHICH THEY BOTH ARE!!!#n e ways iouygtfgyhui #sorry it took me so long to respond - i have a horrible work/life balance that i need to work on😅#i appreciate you giving me inspo!!!#also compression gloves atsushi is SO IMPORTANT TO MEEEEEEEE #aNYWAYS DONE RAMBLING NOW FOR REALSIES IUYGTFTGYUI #ilyyyy thank you <333 #bsd #kyouka izumi #atsushi nakajima #corey writes:)#corey rambles:)

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bangcakes · 2 months

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#god i was so giddy today (or well i guess yesterday. its almost 2am JDJFJFJF)#i was waitin all day for him to finish work so i could message him n he messaged me in seconds... triple texted NDNDJDJDNDNDMDMDN #god hes so cute. im so !@@@@@ i like him so much. like ..... !!!!!!!!!!!!#he makes me so happy idk how to explain. i just !!!!!!@@ like him so !!!!@@ much !!!!#why do i deprive myself of him 😭😭😭😭😭#but i mean we did talk for 2 hours straight in person a few weeks ago. not much you can like. converse about after that JDJDJDJDJDJDJ #:')))))))))#maybe i'll let myself be a lil hopeful.... 🥺🥺🥺#personal #also omg i think i figured out why he was so combative??? when i saw him last #i think it was bc of our mutual friend...........#n e way HDNDNDNDNDN #so maybe thats why he was like that. bc with me.... sure we tease each other but hes not like....... out for the kill idk JDJDJDNDNNDNDND #hes so sweet.... like not in an obvious way but like NDNNDMDDMD IDK.#we'll put it this way....#when ppl ask him for help... he tells them to google it #meanwhile hes explaining stuff to me in detail; going up to the teacher n asking questions for me; getting up out of his seat n #looking for a plug for me JFJDJDJDD LIKE ?????#hes also so polite... thanks ppl... holds the door for ppl. god hes so......#if he's like....... the guy im gonna be with for the rest of my life... o i'll be so happy BDJZNZNNZNZNZNZNZ #THIS IS SO SAPPY GOD.#if u saw the messages you'd be like literally what are you giddy over HFJDJDJJDJDJDJD AND THATS OKAY #hes just some guy.... love that about him the most.....

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dungeons-and-dragon-age · 3 months

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18 and 19 for va’Renan and Noya!! And also 9 for Noya and June <3

[ask game]

Heyy, thanks for the ask! :]

18. What is the most recent thing you’ve discovered about your OC?

Var'renan: That they probably have a kid??? I thought Morri wouldn't have Kieran since Renan refused the ritual but sb told me she still has him when the Warden sleeps with her at any time so uh. Yeah. Haven't sat down and thought about it properly yet though. (also, still need to play Witch Hunt)

Noya: That she and Zev maybe become an item some time after the Blight? Not set in stone but in one version of events it could happen i think

19. What is your favorite fact about your OC?

Var'renan: That since Tamlen was the one with a troublemaker reputation, whenever Renan did something and people automatically assumed it was Tamlen he'd get insufferably smug about it.

Noya: That she is very eager to try out and learn new things

(i don't really have One Favourite Thing about them so i just picked something i like abt them x'd)

9. Are they based off of you, in some way?

Isn't every oc? xdd But to name some things i have in common with them...

Noya: Being short xD Their "the more i fail the more determined i get to succeed" mentality. Their brand of humour. The tendency to talk too loud. Her love for drawing :)

June: The ADHD. Her having a hard time with social graces. Her general logic/way of problem solving. Her vocal range kinda? Also again being short lol. Tho her body type is closest to mine out of the bunch.

#the Actual most recent thing for noya was a bit darker so i opted to not answer with that one fsdfjlk #but yeah idk she and zev werent Super close during the blight but they bonded afterwards over grieving #& zev hanging around a bit before deciding what he wanted to do with himself now #and i can see them meshing well? but havent thought abt it in too much detail #in general i admittedly havent thought out much abt noya (or survives-the-battle timeline renan) in a hot minute #(at least not beyond the timeline of the base game)#but i Will play thru the dlcs at some point and then they will be back on the brain!!#but ye n e ways thank you again! <3 #oc ask game/ my answers #my ocs #oc: noya tabris #oc: var'renan mahariel #oc: june trevelyan

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a-plethora-of-midnight-roses · 4 months

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30 for the ask meme :]

Deino!

#I panicked so much this was my first ask #I googled dark type pokemon at the speed of sound because I forgot every pokemon that existed #n e ways THANK YOU #midnight speaks #pokemon #deino #ask game

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vamptastic · 2 years

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it's just like. okay. when i say i like men in a gay way and women in a lesbian way i don't mean that i think straight attraction is icky or my attraction is somehow more enlightened and progressive. i mean that I've spent the formative years of my sexuality in a place with my gender presentation where people are equally as likely to see me as a man or a woman and often seem to think of me as both, and i cannot separate both my attraction to men or to women from that. ive always felt drawn to butchness because its this concept that your love for the same gender shapes your gender presentation and vice versa, but it's specific to womanhood and attraction to women as a woman in a way i can't entirely relate to. like, in many ways i am both a man and a woman, and i am attracted to both men and woman in a way both shaped by and reflected by that fact.

#there's not really a clear label for that is there #i suppose i don't need one it's just to have that cos you can find similar people #i suppose bisexual as a gender is the closest i can get #like both sexes and also attracted to both sexes and those two things each are linked to and affected by the other #i don't know. i expect my feelings on this will change as i transition and people start to really see me as a man #and not the in-between ive been in since puberty (thank you pcos combined with massive badonkahonkawonkadonks)#it's just sort of frustrating to feel like nobody gets it #like lesbians are into me cos they think im butch #a specific type of man-autistic nerds (affectionate)-seem to just see me as a regular ol woman #and when confronted with the reality that i am not seem to not really care either way about my gender #other trans people are into me and they do generally get it but not always #and gay guys are into me sometimes but i don't really pass consistently enough for it to happen often #like im not actively seeking a partner n i don't both passing day to day cos everyone knows im trans already #n binding is a living hell when you're fat with a fucking. idk the size like E or F probably. cup size.#so mostly ppl approach me thinking im butch but occasionally ppl think im a guy in photos i post and such or #strangers will ask my friends abt me thinking im a guy #but like generally speaking no matter what i don't get to just be A Man. and i don't know if i really want to be! i like being trans #and it sucks because ive missed out entirely on dating in middle/high school like when you find out who you like #simply for being trans. ik most queer ppl end up doing it all in college its just frustrating yk. cos all my cis friends get to do it #realistically speaking im p much just t4t i really only have actually tried to date trans people + trans people are hotter + they get it #which im fine with. i love trans people . just sucks to be excluded sometimes even when u don't want in

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canongf · 6 days

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-hugs you real tight- would you please send this to the first ten people on your dash? make sure someone gets a hug today, and stay safe 💖💖💖

THANK YOU, JAZZY!!! i am hugging you back and i am squeezing you tight!!!!! 🖤

#also when i hug ppl sometimes i do the little back rub thing #but saying it like that makes it sound like #a back massage #which sounds weird #so i didn't add it #but i just mean. like. you know. sometimes people give back pats and sometimes people give back rubs #when they hug #N E WAYS #THANK YOU THIS MADE ME SMILE!!! :''')#ask liv #retrojem

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lovesickeros · 1 year

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im pretty adamant on being a genshin only blog atm bc this game has me in a death grip and won't let go for anything but at the same time.....path to nowhere..

#not genshin #this is fem!chief shes the loml and technically the player character but n e way. wife :)#idk what they r feeding their designers but the women go so hard thank u g-d for making me a lesbian #but also thinking abt chief!reader in sagau bc its a mental illness atp. its rotting my brain AND NO ONE. ELSE IS INTO IT #i just think the whole thing w the shackles would be. neat :) (i am going to put everyone thru unbearable agony and angst)#especially in imposter au....#'but the shackles wouldnt work bc they arent sinners--' IDC. my lore now #mmmmm genshin characters in the ptn verse.......good food actually.#im just trying 2 spread the good word (there r lesbians. its very gay. please play ptn)#thats all im just a woman liker and i make it everyone elses problem gn #i am ignoring that i havent written a fic in a hot minute or answered my asks. i do not see it. i do not perceive it.

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queerregulusablack · 11 months

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For what it’s worth I’ve read pretty much all of your fics and never got the impression you don’t like Sirius! Sirius and Regulus typically have a complicated relationship in which they have their resentments towards each other but that’s to be expected. I think the fandom has geared towards this squeaky clean, can do no wrong interpretation of Sirius (much to my eternal dismay) but you don’t shy away from making him a flawed character. He can be impulsive as hell and a very reactionary person but the flip side of the coin he loves enormously and would always rather die shouting than live in silence. Regulus doesn’t always understand him and Sirius doesn’t always understand Regulus but they’re almost always trying their best. I think Sirius and Regulus are more interesting and nuanced as flawed characters who trying their hardest to overcome their personal shortcomings out of love for each other.

#submission #favourite follower tag #I've left this sitting in my ask for the last couple days bc it's just been making me so happy to return to and read over and over #gonna pin it to my fridge #n e way thank you sm this does mean a lot bc that is what I am TRYING for when I write Reg and Sirius' relationship #there is so so much love there it's just hard to always see or understand #you ever been so fundamentally different from someone and at the same time Exactly The Same #bc that's Reg and Sirius for me #concerning qrabs fic #for later

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bluewinnerangel · 1 year

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top 9 albums you listened to this year? totally random question 🤪

Unlike last year I did listen to a lot of new music this year so 2022 albums this time weee it was even hard to pick a top 9 but in order of release (probably):

Nilüfer Yanya - PAINLESS

ROSALÍA - MOTOMAMI

Kendrick Lamar - Mr. Morale & the Big Steppers

Harry Styles - Harry's House

Steve Lacy - Gemini Rights

Joost - Fryslân

The Snuts - Burn The Empire

Louis Tomlinson - Faith In The Future

Little Simz - NO THANK YOU

ramble in the tags

#yeah i totally did not basically beg to be asked this thank you for taking the bait askldlsakjskl #albums of 2022 #Nilüfer Yanya - PAINLESS only discovered recently and it sent me into a zone a Z O N E do get in there do it #ROSALÍA - MOTOMAMI when that one came out it was blasting in the house like this only for a good while #Kendrick Lamar - Mr. Morale & the Big Steppers I feel like I'm listening to something not intended for me but i should be hearing ?#like it just wrecks me from a place that was never there just unknown and i cant begin to imagine what it can do for people where its known #Harry Styles - Harry's House I THINK IVE SAID QUITE A LOT ABOUT THIS ONE ON HERE #Steve Lacy - Gemini Rights what in the masterpiece is this ??? like????? seriously? SERIOUSLY WHAT IS PUT IN HERE #Joost - Fryslân THIS IS MY BABY he makes this variant of dutch white trash music that is horrid in the most delicious way #unserious but THEN he comes in hard with extremely painful honest lyrics in between utter crap LIKE #love it when music doesnt take itself seriously and still has a huge heart and soul and this is that #this dude is making me cry singing about the grief of losing both parents and minutes later interpolating crazy frog.#The Snuts - Burn The Empire obviously introduced by Louis. I didnt really take them in properly till we saw them at #Lokeren. I did listen to some songs here and there.. Glasgow was a fav. and that was kinda it. but then they came with this album #i always feel regret when i start listening to an artist bc they impressed me live like i should have known before.. which is weird.#that happens. but hearing burn the empire live i was like FUCK and then i was hooked #Louis Tomlinson - Faith In The Future I MEAN YOU KNOW WE KNOW I KNOW EVERYBODY KNOW WE ALL LIVE IN A FITF #Little Simz - NO THANK YOU this one was released this week! still taking it in but like? FUCK? HELLO? fav: No Merci #honorable mentions (sorry):#Björk - Fossora how the fuck you make an entire album sound like a heavily distressed mycelium network beats me but call me a shroom (idk)#Taylor Swift - Midnights had a bit of a meltdown over this (understatement)#IDLES - Five Years Of Brutalism okay okay it's a rerelease but THERE ARE LIVE VERSIONS

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mydemonsdrivealimo · 1 month

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You know, I'm a lurker here, I used to spend a lot of time on tumblr, loved Choices, specially Open Heart. I also wrote lots of fanfics, with Bryce as MC, and today I logged in and... Can I just say how sad it made me read about Bryce having depression? Sad but also understood, because you read his character so well. Everyone writes him so simple, charming and non-chalant, happy-go-lucky; without realising he has a lot of issues. The thing with his parents it's BIG. The thing with Keiki is real stuff, but everyone writes him as if he just cares about his hair and surgeries, but he's more than that. So you writing about Bryce struggling, having his house a mess and not being able to do anything for it, and having a partner that helps him with it without recriminations... It just... Made my heart swell. It's what my MC would've done, because they have struggled pretty serious too. So. Yeah, thanks for this, for giving him humanity even if he's just a goddamn Choices' character. Bryce deserves the world. Deserves being supported in difficult times, so thank you for showing him in such a true light 🤍

have been screaming over this all morning bc YOU GET IT!!!

"even if he's just a goddamn choices character" THIS IS WHAT I MEAN. he is a short lived character in a mobile story app that is currently in its downfall. but he's the character i, and others, choose to write ab. choose to create for nearly every day. even though he IS just a choices character, what he represents, to me, is more than that. his character had so much potential (more than pb probs meant to give him) and like. i needed to do something w it

i am the first person to say a character has to have some good trauma for me to truly enjoy them, and he is exactly that. he has a fucked up family and somehow he came out of that "unscathed"? like all he is is a pretty surfer boy w good hair and obnoxious confidence? no!! that is coping baybeee. he is literally hated by so many people in canon and truly does not have many close friends besides mc. like. his character is SET UP for this shit. yeah im gonna pack him full of issues bc he HAS THEM!!

his dysthymia is a super important part of his story (in my hc) bc it is so easy to mask. he puts on a confident face for everyone all the time bc then they don't ask questions. but being at home alone all the time? being independent since 17-18? separating himself from his family so suddenly that it becomes habit for him to avoid the potential for that closeness again? it's gonna hurt him

and on top of that him being demiro is very hard in relationships bc most people dont get it so even in that sense it makes it difficult for him to make connections. people would rush him into relationships he didn't really care about so yea it was gonna crash and burn. obvi

so to have an unknown like that where all of his friends are possibly leaving including the only person he's every truly wanted in both a sexual And romantic way? not gonna go so smoothly for him

#i could go on but alas i am eepy. so.#n e ways thanks for this!!#bryces character is truly one of my favs in media #bc there is depth behind everything he does and why #and sure people are free to just take the surface layer #he has that surface layer for a reason. bc he doesnt Want people to see more than that #but actually creating characters who are able to see past that. that he ALLOWS to ask questions. yeah <3 #bryce lahela #asks answers #keep

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eileenwdj · 10 months

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I see your jun wu as miguel o hara idea and raise you the angsty idea of :

Jun Wu actively trying to kill MQ and him figuring it out over the 800 years. JW isolating MQ and making sure that there's almost no other god ( except fx maybe) at his side. Spidey!MQ could also make it harder for MQ in the Cuocuo storyline bc him and fx are even more distant than in canon.

Also consider : MQ choses non-deities to carry similar powers and helps pick Spiders in different dimensions, even acting as a guardian for some.

(The Miles Morales and Mu Qing parallel is real.)

anon how does it feel to have a big beautiful galaxy brain

god imagine mu qing getting his own arch nemesis like his own green goblin or smthn and the guy just. fucking hounds him. never leaves him alone. everywhere he goes, the goblin is there, lurking and quietly sabotaging every aspect of his life. it fucks mq up so bad. and the worst part is that bc the whole spiderman thing is a secret, he has no one to tell all of this to. all the other heavenly officials notice him becoming weirder and angrier with every passing year but no one has the guts nor the compassion to approach him abt it. all except fx, who tried to help mq despite them being rivals and even though he has no idea what mq's whole deal really is. for a short miniscule second, everything seemed like it could be better.

this is where jun wu swoops in, offering an extended hand for mq, a pillar to lean on. jw checks on mq every so often under the pretense of doting on his officials, keeps him behind after meetings and slowly gains mq's unwavering trust. and i imagine him slowly twisting mq's viewpoint and using all the manipulative abuser tactics to isolate mq and keep him in his grasp. "you can't trust everyone, be wary of whose company you keep." "do you truly believe nan yangs concern for you is genuine?" "i am the only one who understands you, xuan zhen."

and so mq strays even further from everyone else. fx, who had thought they were getting somewhere, is thrown to the side. he has no idea what to do now that mq has fully shut him out.

my god my god...... and the moment when mq finally realizes the goblin has been jw all along.... the heartbreak... the betrayal.... 💔 i'm going to go insane thinking abt this

#so much angst #so much pain #thank you so much anon i love you guys so much (idk if the anons has been the same person or not but n e ways)#ily ily you guys are so big brained #love all the spiderqing lore ideas and takes #we should turn this into a whole story someday #mu qing #feng xin #jun wu #spiderqing #ask #anon

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