she is a 2001 hyundai elantra. she was owned by an old woman for most of her life so she's very clean and very tidy. very well looked after. with great mileage. she only plays cassettes. and i love her.

i just bought my first car!!!!!

i just bought my first car!!!!!

eddie meets me and is like “this girl is stunning and kind and smart and funny and she’s into me there has to be a catch” and it turns out that there is and it’s that he has to watch hockey games and pretend like he remembers the difference between offsides and icing

have you ever felt that intense need (i guess?) to take care of your f/o? like, they have helped you so many times, you love them so much that you want to aim a laser beam of pure affection at them. you want to hold them and make food for them, to comfort them,, it's such an intense feeling! i don't know what to do with it, i just really really wanna take care of them and support them.

i feel this way all the time!!!

i am always thinking about taking care of my f/o!!! i am always thinking of being gentle and tender with him, of making him his favorite food, of washing his clothes and folding his laundry, of holding him, of making sure he feels safe and loved. sometimes i cradle my pillow and i pretend i'm cradling him, scratching his head, rubbing his back. sometimes i don't know what to do with it either. i just think about how beautiful it is to be so in love!!!

You can hear him muttering because he can't find the right one.

ok to use for moadboards, banners, and graphics -btw.

you can tell it's over for me because when eddie says m'lady it actually makes me smile and giggle

thinking of that little peek of skin when your f/o sits down or leans over and their shirt raises and you can see the small of their back <333

thinking about you today, liv ! <3 i hope everything is going well for you, and if not, eddie is here with all the blankets and pillows and movies you could image :3

(also so happy to hear your acting classes went well!!! i used to work in tech theatre a bunch and i lowkey miss it, so have loads of extra fun for me !!)

anon!!! you are the sweetest!!!

i'm doing okay!!! i'm doing good!!! i've been trying to be a little more present in real life lately!!! as much as i love being on this blog, sometimes i get a little lost in it and it's not good for my mind. so i'm trying to find a happy balance between here and there!!! i'm trying to take baby steps towards my dream life!!! and eddie has been my biggest inspiration!!!

also!!! working in a theatre sounds so much fun!!! i promise i will have extra extra fun in your honor!!! i got together with a scene partner last night, we had the best time running lines and practicing self taping, and i've got another class class on friday!!! i can't wait!!!

thank you so much for thinking of me!!! i hope you're doing well too!!! i hope you're doing things you enjoy, i hope you're enjoying the present and looking forward to the future, and i hope you know how grateful i am to have you around!!!

f/os who are not only your significant other but also your best friend. f/os who you laugh and joke with and can make fun of but also know how much you care for each other. who you can go all day without talking to and come back to each other like it's nothing. who tease you and give you silly, stupid nicknames and who show up at your door at the most random of times, but also know you'll always invite them in. who can talk about your relationship so nonchalantly, who can name off every one of your favorite shows and snacks and songs but also talk with each and every one with such reverence and adoration. f/os who, if nobody knew, would lead people to believe you're best friends, because intimacy between you is so casual and laid back because they know not everything in love has to be some serious, grand gesture all the time.

basically. f/os who are your best friend before they're your partner>>>>>>>>

pr*ship/c*mship dni

If no one has told you this today, you f/o misses you.

They're holding the token you gave them and fidgeting with it, rolling it between their fingers and sighing as they stare at it. It makes them think of you. They wish you were there.

They deserved a happy ending

maybe for my boyfriend, eddie? 🖤

self ship reblog game bc i’m sick in bed !!

reblog with one of your f/os (one f/o per reblog, multiple rb is ok!) and I’ll assign them an obscure type of beauty that reminds me of them!

example ft. my enstars beloved ;

pretty like a Roman Cathedral

. . . ethereal, elegant, & grand 🩷

this is probably for a grand audience of one but !! I’m hyped regardless !!

prøship/adjacent dni

what do you mean he's fictional, we sleep in the same bed every night

oughhh ..... waking up in the middle of the night or just a little too early and your f/o groggily tugging you back into place with some little half-coherent words of encouragement. call them selfish, but they'll take the label with no complaint if it means they get to have you lie down at their side just a while longer. the tired little motions they go through to try and make sure that you're able to fall back asleep before they let themself do the same, whether that be tracing shapes along your skin in gentle little gestures or even humming, they're putting the effort in even though sleep might be clinging onto them like a 2 ton weight.

#this man’s hands i swear to god [part 2]

just a sweet boy looking for his drugs

Whenever I try to join the selfship community I find it so hard because it feels that almost Everyone already know each other plus whenever I try to ask people about their ships they are really happy to do so but no one does the same for me, and I also feel like no one cares about my ship compared to the ones that their friends have which makes sense but it’s so demoralizing and at this point I’d rather just celebrate my ships on my own rather because even promo posts don’t work 😔 the community is supposed to be friendly and accepting to others and filled with close bonds that anyone can have but i can’t find the same experience for me :’)

i'm sorry that your experience hasn't been what you hoped it'd be!!!

finding your place can be hard sometimes. it can take a while. it can be disappointing and discouraging. but it won't always be that way!!! you can still find your place!!!

even if it feels like everyone already knows each other, they can still know you too.

something that can be helpful is to start sorta small. it is completely understandable to look at the community as a whole and want support from the community as a whole, but the community is really just a lot of very different people and a lot of very different friends! and because everyone's so different, it can end up being a wide search. so try to start small! start with one friend!

"but liv, making one friend working." making friends isn't always a quick and easy thing, and maybe it isn't working right now! but it doesn't mean it'll never work! sending asks about ships is a great way to start, you're doing great! and i know it sucks when you show interest and that interest isn't returned, and i know it makes you not want to ever do it again. but sometimes it's really, really worth it. sometimes you just gotta keep trying.

sometimes it takes several asks or interactions from someone for me to realize "oh! hey! i like them and want to talk to them!" and it's not because i don't care, it's just because sometimes i'm in my head and it doesn't occur to me! sometimes people have stuff goin' on and they don't think about it. sometimes people forget, sometimes people are overwhelmed, sometimes people are scared. but i know that you're not alone in this feeling, i know there are people that feel like they're on the outside looking in too. so i know that there are people you will connect with when you find each other.

and then! when you start small! it can be easier to make another friend, and another friend, and another friend. you'll get to know them and they'll get to know you. you'll talk about ships. and slowly but surely you'll be able to find your own little circle in the self shipping circle.

be patient with yourself. it's okay to get upset, it's okay to feel disappointed and discouraged, it's okay to feel lonely. it's not a failure on anybody's part and it doesn't mean you're unwanted. it happens sometimes. it's okay if you need to take breaks. and while you're finding your place, try not to lose the reason you fell in love with self shipping in the first place. there is nothing wrong with wanting a community, wanting friends, wanting validation, just try not to let the search for it take away all your happiness!!!