I am she, we're here and evolving!

It is a human right to manage periods in safety and dignity at all times. Via @unwomen Note to Muslim women: You don’t have to pretend to your male family members that you’re fasting while you’re on your period. Periods are natural, healthy and nothing to be ashamed of. Own your body and all the ways it expresses itself. __________ www.colouredafrica.com | #2020 #colouredafrica #feminist #feminism #periods #periodstories #mybodyisnotanapology #mybodyisamazing #periodsarenormal #doitdifferent https://www.instagram.com/p/B_xeHAvhkBt/?igshid=xyk2wvev0h5w

I have worked on being proud of who I am over the past three years. I’m damn proud of who I am today. Now i have been working on being proud of and living my body. This has been such a struggle for me. I’m happy to say I’m finding happiness in my body. In the curves, rolls, stretch marks, and all that it says about the story of my life. I am learning that I do not need to be ashamed nor apologize for my body! #mybodyisnotanapology #loveyourself #lovemybody #bodypositive #mystory (at South Jordan, Utah) https://www.instagram.com/p/B50oEV2HWQN/?igshid=y3os94ueyt2k

We all make mistakes! If you've make a mistake then it is really good idea to correct it, so that you can move on....#apology #apologyaccepted #notanapology #thebodyisnotanapology #apologyquotes #blackwithoutapology #mybodyisnotanapology #apologyletter #apologynotaccepted #publicapology #theapology #apologycake #apologyflowers #withoutapology #sorry #imsorry #mistake #mistakes #mistakesarelessons #mistakeshappen

If my life is ever taken unjustly, do whatever it takes to reverse the social and legal acceptability of it. If there is a legacy I want to leave behind for my child, it's that her mother was more warrior than wounded, more realistic in her readiness to do what's right than self-righteous, more change empowering than socially accepting. She needs to know that race or gender should not dictate ones worthiness to live. If I am taken unjustly, I expect my daughter to witness a people who reflect that faith without work is dead. That words and actions are required to be synchronized. And if it does happen, do me a favor, expose this blog,which captures all the imperfections that make up my human character, before they do. So that when they try to validate my injustice with my flaws. Let it show that I've been voluntarily doing it my whole life. S.H.I.F.T in Progress!

Last night I was up until almost 4am shopping for SO much Fitness equipment to make my home capable of empowering my life goals in all areas. I threw down a whole stimulus check + worth of funds to get everything. And I'm grateful to be in the place where I can. I have to start over again, but I need it. More than anything. I need to exist in my skin peacefully, content with what I reflect, confident that I am and can be FREE. Free of insecurities, health concerns, body image issues, mental discontent, fear. I'm afraid I'm falling into a generational cycle of obesity. I need to heal to be FREE for ME. Free to dream, make plans, sets goals, have faith, embrace love, persevere, make memories and most imortantly LIVE.

So I started over AGAIN today. To be who I am worthy of embracing. And it was SCARY as hell to struggle with things that I once mastered. It hurt to want to stop and give up so soon after starting. I felt ashamed at times how overpowering such temporary actions could effect me both physically and mentally when I KNOW what I have done BEFORE and am capable of. But I started again TODAY and I will commit to continue on the journey tomorrow. Because I'm worth reaching my destination.

So around the end of April I reached the end of my three years with the Skylar IUD which over the last 6 months or so has made my periods unbearablypainful at least 2 days of that week duration usually between the 2nd and 4th day. I'm talking excruciating. I was barely making it between Pamprin user time restrictions before taking more. Got so bad I was using 800mg ibuprofen alongside the Pamprin blue box and STILL just getting through bare minimum task.

But now I have had the Mirena IUD for about two weeks. I came on my period April 30, 20 and have noticed drastic difference ALREADY. I haven't taken any medication because I haven't needed it. On yesterday, day 3, I was able to workout for the first time while on in almost a Year. This is amazing for me.

Mental health day out in this amazing weather with the water as my main catalyst. Walking the length of the beach was the most therapeutic!

So apparently I went so hard today, I broke my Polar watch!!! That thing had held me down for 6 long years! * * * #instafitness #blackgirlbodyrepresentation #fit  #blackfitness #bodygoals #bodypositive #fitlifestyle #postworkout #instafit #gaintrain #fitness #progress #gym #bodylove #nofilter #fitnesswatch #workout #gymrat #workout #fitspo #instafit #fitnessmotivation #mom #fitcurvy #gymjunkie #healthylifestyle #fitmom #girlswholift #beastmode #bodytransformation #mybodyisnotanapology

FYI: I never left I'm just focused! * * * #blackgirlbodyrepresentation #blackexcellence #postworkout #blackfitness #carolinagirl #ebonyfitness #fitness #blackgirlmagic #instafitness #fitnessmotivation #girlswholift #fitspo #bodybuilding #bodylove #thickthighs #fit #strengthtraining #gym #fitlifestyle #cardio #instafit #gymrat #workout #fitcurvy #fitmom #slimthick #myjourney #beastmode #mybodyisnotanapology

Today I decided to raise my expectations of myself. #blackout #blackfitness #strengthtraining #instafit #fitness #curvyfit #fitmom #fit #workout #mybodyisnotanapology

After 99 minutes of realizing I can feel depleted but be indestructible 💪🏿💪🏿💪🏿💪🏿💪🏿 * * * #blackgirlbodyrepresentation #chevygirl #postworkout #blackfitness #carolinagirl #ebonyfitness #fitness #blackqueen #instafitness #fitnessmotivation #girlswholift #fitspo #bodybuilding #bodylove #thickthighs #fit #strengthtraining #gym #fitlifestyle #cardio #instafit #gymrat #workout #fitcurvy #fitmom #slimthick #myjourney #beastmode #mybodyisnotanapology

I looked in the mirror today after my workout and I was humbled. I have to be grateful that I truly accepted that I’m worthy of becoming my best self and committed to do so.

Sidenote: don’t ask me why my face looks like a 90s r&b singer right before my verse starts 😂😂

So I made the decision to go to Prime (a black owned gym) today to train like a God and look like a queen! My old gym condemned me for my shape filling out my workout attire too well. Mind you they’re all progress made from being in the gym. And so I’m supporting my black community in another area of life. If I find a black dermatologist then I’ll have EVERY area of my life handled by black businesses.

Shout out to @kevinrossmusic motivating my journey to my greatest me daily with his music. If you don’t know him, YOU should!

I've started on a thorough core regimen and I'm really seeing and feeling the effects. I'm worth it is all I can say to keep from caving. Oh and I finally got a better phone to capture my fit pics with. So my photo quality upgrade is officially in full effect. * * * * #instafitness #blackgirlbodyrepresentation #fit  #blackfitness #coreworkout #durham #fitlifestyle #thickfit #gymbody #gymrat #workout #fitspo #instafit #fitness #mom #fitcurvy #wellness #fitfreak #fitmom #girlswholift #beastmode #bodybuilding #mybodyisnotanapology

Increasing reps dropping weight tremendously.

Did 8 reps at 205lbs to maintain my current starting weight. Then gradually dropped to 100lbs to do 25 rep sets.