I never quite knew anger, until I knew fury borne from pain.
He who chose to break you, deserves to hurt the same.
Love, I was late to shield you. But this I now proclaim.
My wrath will destroy any who dare touch you, if you ever cry my name.
---penned by bird-inacage
(A few people have asked, so I thought I’d add a note here. I wrote these lines myself. They’re not taken from any quote/poem).
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I am reviving the child I killed in church.
I choked the holy rebellion out of that child
in centuries-old pews and
the cramped chairs of my old school's cafeteria
when the first church wouldn't do.
I worshipped false gods, Behavior and Belonging.
I pretended at godly womanhood at 13 because
I could not be that angry, bloody-knuckled, righteous
child anymore. It hurt too much.
I failed my new gods miserably, but that didn't
stop me for years. I was not palatable.
I could not be delicious to those
who would devour me whole, so I kept devouring
myself and tried again. I was Prometheus and his eagles
together in one flesh. I denied myself my fire
with religious zeal. I would save the ending world
and the world would let me--if I could only learn
what sweater to buy and how to straighten my hair.
God, I never should have rejected
my rage. Restore my heart.
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(never) give me what you’ve got, I’ll take you for all that you have
it’s never been easier or harder to use someone else’s words
how easy it can be(come) so complicated to rest in someone else’s dreams
how can I not explain it when someone else who doesn’t know me can
(someone i’ve never met can somehow still write me best)
it’s like there’s a well inside me waiting to be unlocked
but i can’t twist the key or the words with my own hand
i can never be satisfied with what comes from me but i fall in love with nearly everything else i see
i’ll always be second (to last) best
~ Love yoU (best for your broken heart)
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14 Lines From Love Letters Or Suicide Notes - Doc Luben
one. don't freak out.
two. we both know this has been coming for a long time.
three. i've been staying awake at night, wondering if i should tell you.
four. i bought the kind of crackers you can eat. they are in the hall cupboard.
five. now that we have watched all the episodes of True Blood, i do not know what else to do next.
six. i always imagined this would happen without warning, and like suddenly on an ocean cliffside. but this is the kind of thing where waiting for the time to be right would just mean waiting forever.
seven. i've just been too afraid for too long.
eight. i came home on tuesday and found all of the chairs i own stacked in a tower in the kitchen. i don't know how long they have been like that, but it could only have been me who did it. it's the kind of thing a ghost might to to prove to the living that he is still there. i am haunting my own apartment.
nine. my grandmother was still alive when i was five years old and asked me to check and see if the iron was hot enough yet. so i pressed my hand against it, and it was red and screaming for hours. twenty-five years later, she would still sometimes apologize, in the middle of conversations, "i feel so bad about making you touch the iron," she'd say as though it had just happened. i can't imagine how we forvive ourselves for all the things we didn't say until it was too late. but how else to you tell if something is hot but to touch it?
ten. i keep imagining my furniture in your apartment.
eleven. i wonder how many likes this will get on facebook.
twelve. my dad used to tell same joke, but i can't remember the punchline.
thirteen. i was eight years old, and it took three weeks, three eight year old weeks, imagine, to gather everything i would need to be batman. rope. boomerangs. a mardi gras mask with the beads cut off. i couldn't find a cave near my house, so i buried them in a bundle under the ivy. for years after, i tried to find that spot again. the ivy grew too fast. i searched in so many spots, it seemed impossible that i had missed one, but i never found it. how can something be there and then not be there? how do we forgive ourselves for all the things we did not become?
fourteen. i never had the courage to buy bright green sheets. i wanted them, but thought they were too brash, even with no one but me to see them. i bought a set yesterday and put them on the bed. i knew that you would like them.
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"does it know that we love it? that the universe Is kind?"
such a epros and kinaxus talking to anyone in fable coded line and i take no criticism
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