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I might lose followers for this but this is the thing i wanted to reveal...
I am a Red fox Therian! And I rally hope y'all support me ^^'-
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Kitty's Daily Pride — Day 6
prompt ; anniversary
pairings ; MtF!Lily Evans x FtM!Reader
summary ; Coming out is hard, especially when you struggle with communication and your partner also has something they're struggling with telling you.
+ reader is ftm & no mentions of y/n
warnings ; food mention , mention of feeling sick , lack of communication in reader's relationship but it gets resolved , descriptions of anxiety , gender dysphoria
genre ; hurt/comfort
word count ; 1178
A/N ; wee woo ! here it is !! me making everyone withing hand's reach trans >:)
do not steal, repost, or redistribute my work in any way.
Your leg wouldn't stop bouncing. Your heartbeat, no matter how many deep breaths you tried to heave in and out of yourself, refused to calm down. You could feel uncomfortable beads of sweat dripping down the back of your neck.
Curse your overthinking, curse your paranoia, and curse the subsequent anxiety that was unravelling before your eyes.
You really didn't expect yourself to end up here, a thinly veiled shaking ball of nerves. No, really, you thought that all you'd do today was go on a fun date with your boyfriend. Which technically yes that's exactly where you were right now, on a date with your boyfriend, but there was one big difference, you were not having fun.
You thought the two of you had discussed seeing a movie, somewhere where you could avoid talking to him for a majority of the time (not that you mentioned that deciding factor to him). But apparently he'd changed his mind, So now you were sat at a park bench, all your favourite foods set on the table, which now just felt like a cruel taunt.
You'd both long given up on small talk, it seemed that every word that came out of either of your mouths sounded unsure, like a question. Shaking and nervous, neither of you dare to look in even the vague direction of each other. The air is tense and you both know that there's an unspoken fog floating between the two of you.
You think that maybe you should just break up with him, it feels like that would be far easier than coming out, a feat that terrified you to no end. You spent day and night wondering and wondering about how he might react, how your family might react, how the world might react, to you being like this, it was something you lost sleep overthinking over.
But no matter how much you try to justify keeping the secret out of fear, you still feel sick. You feel like you're lying, and you figure that in a way, you might be.
The person sat next to your boyfriend is not the real you, it's a mask, a disguise you throw on each morning, in the hope that maybe if you wear it for a moment longer, you'll convince yourself that this is you and you won't have to live with the overwhelming discomfort that cramps itself in your head and pools behind your eyes.
But it doesn’t work, and your hollow hope is shattered beneath your shaking feet. Every day that passes, you grow greyer and your costume of a person grows thinner. One day you’re going to wake up and search your closet for this disguise and all you’ll find is a cupboard full of ill-fitting dresses and cardigans. One day you’re going to wake up to find a note on the counter in your boyfriend’s handwriting, it will say something about the barrier between the two of you, how he knew that you weren’t normal, how he knew you were hiding something from him. And he’ll be gone.
You feel like you should be able to be yourself and keep your boyfriend at the same time, but the days grow longer and you grow to feel like you just can’t.
Some days you wake up and decide that you’re keeping him, and that no matter how hard it is, you’ll remain covered by the veil of womanhood. It never works out. So the next day, you decide that you’re going to be yourself, no matter what happens when your boyfriend finds out, because you deserve to be yourself. But then you look in his deep green eyes, his soft smiling face, and you just can’t bring yourself to risk what you have…
"Hey um, I need to tell you something"
You look up from your lap to see your boyfriend restless and fidgeting. You feel horrible that you've been such a burden on him, and brace yourself for the upcoming break-up speech.
Taking your silence as an invitation to continue, he croaks out, "Well, I'm so so sorry for... you see i..."
He stops again, taking a moment to collect and reorganise his thoughts before he says anything more. However you misinterpret this as a moment of pity, a grace period to give you time to realise and accept your fate, or a second to perhaps just walk away, (preferably run) as far away as possible, to avoid embarrassment and even outright heartbreak. But your brain is spinning full speed and now your mouth is open and now you’re interrupting your boyfriend’s speech and saying things you don’t even have time to comprehend before they’re already out in the world for anyone to hear-
“Ok listen I’m an idiot for being like this, and i’m so sorry for not telling you everything and you deserve so much be-”
“I’m trans”
“-tter and I'm so sorry that you were stuck with someone li- what,” your brain stops and now you’re staring at your boyf- no, partner? Now you’re just staring at your partner, your heart is skipping beats left and right, but your brain can’t seem to catch up.
“Yeah um… yeah,” Your partner is scanning your face for any reaction, but comes up empty handed. You can’t even figure out how you’re reacting.
“Oh yeah wow yeah um cool wow um-” You stop yourself and slowly rub your forehead, as a small smile grows on your lips, leaving your partner even more confused than before.
Taking a deep breath, you try again.
“Yeah well uh i that’s really cool, and well yeah the thing is um so i am i,” Now you and your partner are both looking into eachothers eyes, neither of you having a clue where to go from here.
And suddenly your partner is laughing, and now you are too. Your heart melts watching them being so happy and enjoying themself as you both laugh over everything and nothing.
“So.. you’re a trans man and i’m a trans woman?” Your girlfriend smiles.
You laugh lightly, “Hah, yeah i guess so,” you scoot closer to your girlfriend and lean your head to rest on her shoulder, and she rests her head atop yours, “We really did a full 180 within like, a minute, didn’t we?”.
You girlfriend giggles, your heads bouncing a little from the vibrations, as she twists her neck so she can kiss the top of your head, “Also…”
You hum a ‘yeah?’, looking up to see her already lovingly gazing down at you, your eyes catching on each other's, hers sparkling a beautiful green.
“I really want to be called Lily now,” Your girlfriend, Lily, states barely louder than a whisper.
“Of course I can call you that, Lily,” you whisper back, grinning impossibly wide, mirroring her reaction, "Lily's a beautiful name, it suits you".
You're finally living as yourselves, your eyes fluttering as the sun sets and the sky paints itself orange, your Lily held in your arms and you in hers, how it should be.
reblogs are appreciated so much !!
#lily evans x reader#lily evans x you#lily evans x y/n#lily evans fluff#lily evans angst#lily evans hurt/comfort#lily evans imagine#lily evans fanfiction#lily evans fanfic#lily evans x masc!reader#trans!lily evans#mtf!lily evans#trans lily evans#trans reader#ftm!reader#lily evans#🌈 — kitty's pride writings#i'll be a leading lady if i get my shot — my writing
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hellooo how r u:D
i hope ur period isnt being a bitch anymore<33
hello lovely!!!!!
it’s bidding its farewells now thankfully. thank you!!! i wish the same for you 😣 <3
i’m alright! upped my meds last night so my anxiety is going WEE WOO WEE WOO but it’ll settle down lol. hope you’re well, my love <33
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First post! Woo!
This is just a small story I’ve been thinking of for a bit, it’s not really proof read and I wrote it in like 10 minutes, hope someone enjoys this though!
omori masterlist
MINOR OMORI SPOILERS AHEAD!
“ Kel!!! Hewo!!!! “ A small child with brown hair, medium length, cried out. She was desperately calling for her brothers, since she had gotten lost during their trip to the theme park.
She sniffled, “ Aubwey… Wunny… Bawil… “ Her older brother’s friends had come along too. She held the purple dress she put on for the occasion. Kel had helped her put it on.
Her brown locks were tied up in a small braid at the back of her head with a flower pin securing it. Courtesy of Basil and Aubrey.
Many people passed her, only giving her a glance before they walked away, not willing to help the small child all alone.
“ I-I “ She hiccuped. “ Kel… Hewo… “ She wanted to see them again. She didn’t recognize anyone there; it felt too disorienting.
“ Are you lost? “ A gentle voice spoke through the crowd, making the girl turn over to the source.
An older woman stood under the shade of a tree, in front of a brown bench. Her black hair danced in the wind, along with her white dress.
She felt so familiar.
The woman walked over to the small girl, kneeling down to her eye level. “ You’re Sally, right? “
Sally ceased her tears and blinked, before nodding reluctantly.
“ You got separated from your big brothers right? “
Sally nodded, feeling tears stream down her face once again.
The woman smiled, softly grabbing Sally’s hand.
“ I can help take you back to them. “
“ Back… to evewyone elwe…? “
“ Yes. And you’ll be reunited with them. “
“ …Yew… I want to wee them again. “
“ Then let’s go, take a hold of my hand, Sally. “
Sally gripped to her hand, strangely she couldn’t feel anything but she knew she was gripping this woman’s hand. Somehow.
The woman got off the ground, leading Sally with her. Sally’s hand stretched up all the way up, so she could have a hope of reaching her tall figure.
They parted the crowd, Sally glanced around seeing the people pass them without even batting an eye.
“ We’re here. “
Sally looked up to see her brothers, Sunny, Aubrey, and Basil in the distance, yelling out.
Sally started to run forward but stopped and looked back at the woman, who had a smile on her face.
“ I’m glad I could help you, go now. I’m sure they’ll be thankful that you're safe. “
Sally nodded before turning around and running towards everyone else.
Kel noticed the running girl in the purple dress. “ Sally! “
He ran over and hugged her tightly. “ I’m so glad you're safe. “ Kel breathed out as everyone ran over, relief spread across their faces.
“ Where did you go!? “ Aubrey asked, kneeling down to Sally’s eye level.
“ I-I’m wowwy… “ Sally frowned, she could feel like they were mad at her, or was it just her anxiety?
“ Don’t be sorry. We’re just glad you're okay. “ Hero patted Sally’s head.
“ Nice lady helped me find… evewyone… “ Sally sniffled, making everyone raise a brow.
“ Whe’w wight ovew theiw. “ Sally turned back to the spot where the woman once stood, but nothing could be seen.
“ …Well… Whoever found you, I hope they know we’re thankful for them. “ Basil smiled, everyone nodded.
“ Yes… Thank you… “ Kel whispered before hoisting Sally onto his shoulders. “ So! After that, where to next? “
“ Didn’t Sally want to go get ice cream? “ Sunny commented.
“ Ice cream does sound good. “ Hero replied, the group continuing their adventure in the theme park, keeping an extra close eye on Sally too.
“ I’m glad she’s safe now… I would’ve loved to meet Sally not in this state. But I guess I’ll have to settle for this. “
#omori#omori fanfic#one shot#omori Kel#omori Sally#omori hero#omori Mari#omori Aubrey#omori sunny#omori basil#🐬
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02. 28. 23 - Doopeedoop
Jobless. Smoker. Spiraling again :>
Just remembering the time when I was young when I was catfishing guys online before the age of 11. Man, was the internet my playground and now I'm scouring for an online position because the world is shifting online and more as we speed through decade the disaster that was 2020. Beep boop. Home is almost done but even then it's giving me so much anxiety. I hate feeling like this. Weed would fade this out but I know I have to face this. Grrr. Dogs are the best emotional escape. And food. Don't know what's ahead but I'm still alive so wee woo. Back to spending hours on YouTube lol.
Also, I hate being raised by New York because I feel out of place in the Philippines but I got to move on from that feeling. It's just getting harder to be in a circle now that I'm older. So, thinking of going back to school just to get another starting pad as we start over as family. It's nice to be home though. It feels like it's going to get better but gaaaah. Anyways, it's been awhile and this helps. :)
-reve.
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Alright, I've asked about your thoughts on the Paldea Gym Leaders. But instead of the Elite Four (there are only 2 Elite Four members [3 if you count the Champion] that don't have another significant role, anyway), I'm gonna ask what your top 3 favorite and least favorite of the Academy teachers in Scarlet and Violet are.
Sorry for the late reply. I was taking a wee break from pokemon related things! I'll get to teachers happily in a moment, but there's something I want to say first. And, as always, POSSIBLE SPOILERS FOR SCARLET AND VIOLET THINGS AHEAD WOO WOO! Also probably unpopular opinions! Lets get this shit!
Gotta disagree about what you say about the Elite Four. Loathe as I am to view it on equal footing with any of the other established elite 4s (even freaking Alola's) because of the GODDAMN LITERAL TODDLER IN THE RANKS, it's still an elite four with 4 members. I'd argue Mrs. Topmost champion isn't exactly the best at her job running the league considering said toddler's status as well as the fact she's placed people who clearly prefer their other jobs to being a gym leader. Plus, listening to what Larry has to say she seems to be a bit of a shitty boss, too. Can't get another person for the elite four so you pick the one regular joe who sees this as his 9 to 5 and then you make him use a completely different type of pokemon than what he specializes in? Damn, Geeta I think I hate you. Top Champion, my ass. Nemona's final fight was harder than yours. There didn't turn out to be an actual villain team in this game, but god damn if I didn't spend the whole game hoping it would be Geeta so I could kick her ass and jail her. She runs a joke of a league, and is a joke of a champion.
Now then! Onto the main establishment in the Paldea region! The school and its teachers!
Favorites first!
#3. Mrs. Tyme. I adore this woman. Her makeup and fun hair style are as on point as her sister Ryme. She is a delightful woman and I loved her classes. Plus, according to Bulbapedia, she's the homeroom teacher for the STEM track at the academy. Something something women in science careers booya! I also liked her little side story as you got to know her at the school. At first I thought it was odd that she had such a strong sense that someone was watching her. I mean, I suffer from anxiety and paranoia about people around me and even I don't really notice when someone's staring at me unless I see them doing it. But, remembering her sister's basically a rapping medium (which by the way is still fucking awesome goddamn), it wouldn't be too strange for Tyme to have a bit of a sixth sense about her.
#2. Mr. Saguaro. I looked forward to his classes almost as much as the top slot's classes whenever new classes unlocked. He's an absolute delight. I love when they make tough intimidating turn out to be actual sweethearts. When I sat in on my first class I had to tell my girlfriend that I'd found her fairy trainer OC's real father. Buff scary looking man who isn't afraid of wearing pink and does presumptuously feminine things? Dead ringer, son. Now if this guy trained solely fairy types I'd be getting a paternity test ready! xD
#1. Mr. Hassel. What can I say, I'm an artist at heart. It was my favorite class in school growing up, and it will always be. Hell. My senior year schedule was 50% art classes. It was the greatest school year of my life. Anyways. Hassel. I love this man. I am in love with this man. I would marry this man, damn. He is so damn sweet and emotional and I just want to hug him. I wanted to learn so much more about his history after his side event at school. When I first saw him I thought 'oh god this guy's gonna be unfun and boring teacher man'. I could not have been more wrong. This man? This man is my favorite adult character in the game. I'd pair my player character with Arven, but me? Mr. Hassel. GIVE ME A RING, SIR. (Sorry that got kinda weird but dang this character is wonderful.)
Now here we go! To the fun part! Get your pitchforks ready kids because I'm sure someone's gonna be unhappy here!
#3. Ms. Dendra. Hoo boy. I am a fat kid and I hate gym class. So taking her class and standing in the middle of a running track gave me some bad Mile Run flashbacks. Her class was actually nice, though. Simple, I'd argue. But I have at least two decades of pokemon battling under my belt so I wouldn't expect to be challenged by the battle instructor's lessons. So why did I put Dendra down here? Well. It's not her design. I like it (even if she screams Dark Types and not Fighting Types) as simple as it is. No. She's friends with Tulip. She makes me do that fudgemuppeting ESP training gym challenge. I still don't know if I was only supposed to emote once or spam the button since my character didn't hold her pose like the rest of the people there. Dendra is getting hella hate by association, and I feel kind of bad. However, that's not hte only reason I am unimpressed at her character. Her side story is the least impressive of all the teachers. Well besides another on this list, but yeah. Ha ha tough girl character can't cook (or in this case, make a sandwich how is that a thing these crazy bastards would happily eat a pickle and cheese sandwich slathered in mayo and enjoy it). Her story is learning to make a decent sandwich. And as far as I can tell, she still didn't 100% figure out how to do that. Good lord, woman. Meat. Cheese. Lettuce. Condiment of your preference. This would at least make a little sense if she were in Galar struggling to make curry. You could burn that shit. In Paldea your cooking only screws up if you fail to stack the stupid sandwich right. (And I did often because the table liked to shake for some damn reason. And then there were hte times everything fell off when I put the top slice of bread on. My sanity is in shambles, there's bacon all over the table and I am inconsolable.)
#2. Mr. Jacq. He was almost #1. But while thinking about it I decided I dislike the other teacher more. I don't hate Jacq's class. If anything I wanted to learn more about pokemon biology. Dude's a bishie and I like staring at his face. So long as I ignore whatever that eyebrow situation he has going on. It looks like he drew it with a dry erase marker and the maker faded at the ends. Why is he so pretty. Anyway. I hate everything else about his design. Dude literally looks like he rolled out of bed and put on a lab coat and sandals. Dude is wearing pajamas and you will not convince me otherwise. Doesn't even look like he fixed his bedhead. Good lord man a little professionalism's too much to ask, apparently. I hate those sandals. His classroom looks like a science lab classroom. Put on some gosh damn shoes, sir. The only worse job he could have had with that outfit is teaching cooking. And I get it my dude. You're the pokedex guy this generation. Which is funny because you're not even the same kind of professor as the others. The actual professor's Sada/Turo and those two are [a pair of peas in a pod]. Yeah lets no spoil that one. Thanks, Spamton. He mentions that goddamn pokedex more than I care about. He even puts a damn question about it on his midterm and gets in trouble for it. My guy. My dude. This is the age of the internet just ask online. You did a good job on the pokedex design it's actually really neat to get new entries and see the pictures and the book design is really cool. I think that saved you from being #1 on this list. But the fact you can't separate your two jobs makes me more than mildly salty. They may go hand in hand but I will throw you into the bowels of the deepest volcano for wanting me to get the entire pokedex again to finish your stupid side thing at the school. You don't get a story, you just give me my least favorite challenge in the game. My guy that pokedex has entries for pokemon from the ancient past and I chose Violet. I will strangle the life out of you. How in the in-universe fuck can you expect a child to accomplish that in a timeline where we had Professor Turo as the professor? When its clear the strange pokemon are from the future? Frick off with that nonsense, Jacq give me my shiny charm.
#1. Ms. Raifort. Oh goddamn. This woman. Best teacher sidequest because of what it unlocks and its unsurprisingly interesting lore-wise. But I'll get to more on that later. I have some words about this woman. Bench cannot even come into class with her shirt tucked in. I don't care about that sort of thing but god damn woman either leave it untucked or fully tucked in you look as sloppy as Jacq. And this woman is obsessed with History to the point I don't want her teaching children. She's one of those asshole teachers that picks someone to answer a question if you make eye contact. God damn did I hate teachers like that. Do you want your students to disengage from your lesson? Do you want to really mess up the kids with social anxiety? That's what's gonna happen. The air she has about her reminded me of my French Teacher in Highschool and that woman was such a massive bitch that I dropped the class completely. She doesn't care about her students. Not unless they meet whatever standards she sets up for them. And boy howdy does she go about making you feel stupid if you answer wrong. And did I say this woman is obsessed with history already? Because damn I meant it. Whinges about a new addition added to the school building because its marring the ancientness of the structure. I remember her also complaining about events that occur more recently to present day because they're so recent. Even wants a time machine so she can go see things back when they were pristine and untouched history. Bitch be crazy. Now, back to that side quest. While I enjoy the side quest for the pokemon in it... this woman is completely off her damn rocker for setting it in motion. "Hey kid, remember that story I talked about where Paldea's empire was torn asunder because of pokemon that were cursed treasures or some shit? And they were sealed away afterwards? You know what would be absolutely poggers? If you went out and removed all the spikes keeping those seals shut! I bet the pokemon will be thrilled as can be to be free and I'm sure this won't have any negative effects what so ever! HISTORY! HNNNNNNN!" I didn't get to finish this side quest yet because I didn't find all the spikes before needing a break from pokemon for a bit (oops accidentally wanted to play Fire EMblem Three Houses again and then got further distracted with Deltarune Fanfiction) but if my character wasn't so gosh darn special because she's got me controlling her, I can imagine all of Paldea would once more be turned asunder by some angry chinese monsters. Because looking at the dex entries.. hoo damn are those some vengeful spirits taking the form of pokemon. And to top it all off. When you finish this sidequest and show her all the angry spirits you captured and prevented from being unleashed had someone more stupid and less powerful did it? She gives you the TM for Nasty Plot. What is it with the characters being obsessed with other time periods in this game and seeming sus as all fuck?? Someone give me Looker's phone number I need to make an anonymous report on dangerous individuals.
#pokemon scarlet and violet#pokemon scarlet#pokemon violet#hot takes#Moonvale is ranting again oh god#get the popcorn ready#possible spoilers
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Omg how am I supposed to wait for a week?! That noise that came out of Hailey when she got catapulted to the ground and Jay shouting for her?? Yeah that's gonna be haunting me in my dreams for the next seven night good lord. This show is something else.
The wait is going to be excruciating. Hailey really got yeeted to the ground and the sound she made and Jay screaming out her name?? Absolutely shook me. This show really does make my heart race. So much anxiety. Stupid wee woo show. Why do we do this to ourselves?? 😅
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hey guys its me zach i am going a little insane! sorry for my not posts but i am currently thibking about working on jrwi writing stuff and making friends with mutuals more (hi blue!) and also v busy week with testing for school, a concert coming up on wednesday, field day thursday, the anxiety of jrwi 100 is also kinda playing in so! uhm!
sorry for the sort of vent post! brain said kaboom so uh
wee wee woo woo <- is hungry and also not, tired and also not, highly dysphoric, down in the dumps
okay bye
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Still sad with the thing about my parents and next were overwhelmed with all other things. Thank you anxiety
Gonna go to sleep. Hope next day would be better (and wee woo show not killed me with 6x16. Give me something for comfort or something to scream with excitement about 911. Please🥺)
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When your dumbass forgets to read the tags in ao3 and while reading you come across something deeply triggering😌💅
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If Pokemon really become a part of Twisted Wonderland thanks to the kingdom rulers and Soni's efforts.
I just like to see Therapy Pokemon tbh, emotional or physical support, can be any trained Pokemon. But especially Audinos, they can be useful for that job. They would also be good for a daycare job too.
Dont put Hattrem in therapy duty djdbdjsjjs
But also picture this... police getting help with interrogation with Hattrem of somth. Overwhelming anger or anxiety and the Pokemon just goes WEE WOO WEE WOO DAS A LOT OF ANGY, HE DID THE CRIME OFFICER!
Community service Pokemon, often using Muks or Wimpods to clean dirty environments. Also Galarian Weezings to be kept around factories to lessen maybe pollution.
There's just a lot of opportunities for the Pokemon tbh.
Ooooh 👀
Soni actually has an Audino and it will certainly come into play (hasn't been introduced just yet in the fic) Makes me wanna reorganize my list of her Pokemon, it's a mess rn alskdfajk
🤣🤣🤣 Hattrem would definitely not be put on therapy duty. Soni would tell them that, especially when people assume that it'd be good for that sort of work.
Soni going into Casual Pokegraphic Mode with the people who suggested that: "It would vibecheck you the minute you show any strong emotions. That Pokemon would clock you so hard that not even a professional boxer would be able to withstand that one hit. Whatever you do, keep calm around this Pokemon."
Hattrem being a part of the police tho 👀 I can see that happening. It's certainly strong enough to defend itself.
I love Pokemon being involved in the community in an average life.
Trubbish, Alolan Muks, Wimpods, and Galarian Weezings, all of them can help with cleaning different environments. Alolan Grimer and Gulpin are possible candidates of that project, and Lilia is proud of his little ones! Little Toxel produces electricity from the toxins that it has, making it a great assistant in that sort of work as well. Oooh, turning poison into usable electricity sounds cool ngl.
Poison types would get a lot of love for what they do in the community, which is cute.
One of my personal favorites for this sort of idea is Butterfree. Based on the Pokedex entries, Butterfree can fly in the rain due to the poisonous scales that it has. This means that if there's any trouble in the forest and it's raining, Butterfree can go and find help. Not only that, but they can also help with pollination with flowers, which is definitely a big help in farming communities.
I think that's why I like Detective Pikachu (both the game and the movie) since it helps give a glimpse into that lifestyle of Pokemon helping out. That, and Poketoons. There's so many things about Pokemon that could help out in TWST that I can't name them all in this instant or they are to be announced/not known to us yet.
Ahhh, makes me wanna write faster for the fic
#twisted wonderland#pokemon#twisted wonderland x pokemon#pokemon au#ask#pokemon doing things#so many opportunities#poison type#soni becoming like casual geographic#soni monet#hattrem#trubbish#muk#wimpod#galarian weezing#alolan grimer#gulpin#toxel#butterfree#what if
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im rewatching jatp instead of studying for the 3 tests i have tomorrow and i thought i would share my thoughts and reactions with each episode so enjoy!!....
wake up
- hearing the “1, 2, 3″ at the start of the episode gives me more serotonin than my antidepressants ever will
- julie’s slippers...that’s it...that’s the thought
- that dry ass pasta the molina’s are eating for dinner??? someone needs to give my man ray some cooking tips or a cookbook... something
-the looks the boys give julie when she says it was an OLD cd she found. as if they could be old??
-the entire julie and luke kitchen scene i mean there are no words to describe how much i am in love with scene. the banter, the flirting, luke giving this girl he literally just met an actual PIECE OF HIS SOUL so she can get music back into her life. not a single time have i watched that scene and not felt my heart literally grow cause of how cute they are.
-the entire scene when julie is singing wake up. that scene is what made me literally CRAVE watching the other episodes. like of course i was going to watch them cause i wasn’t gonna just stop watching a show after one episode, and yes the show was good already but seeing the lighting and her voice, and just everything about the scene,,,,*chef’s kiss*
bright
-flynn drinking seven sodas....SEVEN??? i would be throwing up if i drank more than like 2 and she drank seven,,,no ma’am.
- flynn and her trumpet. talented queen
- “ i wouldn’t have given you the song if i didnt think you were gonna rock it.” lmaooo im crying:)
- i start tearing up every time julie goes to play the first notes of bright,,, and then i’m full on bawling when the guys come in and play with her cause...they weren’t playing to be seen they were playing to be there for her and play to comfort her. pls i love them<3
- nick vibing in the front row
- the tech guy deserves so much more praise
flying solo
- reggie’s little butt shake or whatever you wanna call it!!
- julie’s little laugh when she yells at the guys to stop it
- “and we’re on the runway again” GENUINELY one of my favorite lines of the whole show pls i love luke’s humor
-this is the first time i noticed this but reggie’s face after alex says “DONT TELL ME HOW TO GHOST!”
-WILLIE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU<3333333
-the slow mo helmet take off,,,,me too alex me too
-willie’s little giggles:))))
- “oh-oh!”
- “no clue” alex i love you baby<3
- next season better give us a scene of flynn throwing eggs at someone’s house because i think it’s safe to say we were robbed of that experience.
- the flying solo performance is just amazing
i got the music
- just the whole opening scene is so cute ....the dancing, singing, happiness RADIATING from julie
-nick in an all white suit and fedora
-WILLEX MUSEUM DATE YEAH BABYYYYY
- carefree skateboarder bf and anxiety ridden drummer bf
- yelling. in. museums.
-alex thinking he’s literally dying again because of the salt... zero braincells in this band.
- another scene we were robbed of that i need to see in season 2...reggie singing “home is where my horse is” while alex and julie sit patiently and attentively listen to him but luke looks like he’s about to commit murder
- i get SO MUCH second hand embarrassment for julie when she looks through luke’s songbook and says “ wow luke I didn’t know you were such a romantic” julie baby i love you but...eekkkkk
- “he looks like a substitute teacher”- where did he come up with that like so many other things he could be compared to but a substitute teacher??
- “luke introduced you to rock” heck yeah it did.. literal soulmates
- would like to see a picture of the raccoon in Flynn’s backyard
- wee woo wee woo police sirens://///
- julie’s outfit ughhhh i love it
- the poster that im pretty sure says “sexiest role” behind caleb... why was that necessary
the other side of hollywood
- THE ENTIRE PERFORMANCE OF THE OTHER SIDE OF HOLLYWOOD
- i lose my absolute shit over this song omg literal chills
- the cape grab i cannot physically do this rn
- willie being so excited the entire performance and looking over to see alex’s reaction
- reggie being in awe everytime one of the girls performing does something.. me too reggie
-”well i wouldn't really call it mAAgiCcCC bUT”
- nick and his fedora again
- alex has a crush, alex has a crush on.....WILLIE
-the boys eating food for the first time in 25 years is honestly so realistic
-alex shoving a whole slice of pizza in his mouth
- lukes ‘OH MY GODDDDD’
- reggie kissing his meatball sub that looks painfully dry but also delicious
- the continuation of the other side of hollywood performance and everyone dancing
-reggie imitating caleb’s evil laugh and owen trying so hard not to break
-me getting mad at the boys for not showing up for julie and being sad with her but at the same time i’m obviously not mad at the boys just...disappointed?? idk
finally free
- how did julie get to the school if she missed the first three classes?? wasn’t she still at flynn’s house from the night before cause she slept over so did she walk to school or was she just sitting in flynn’s house by herself and one of flynn’s parents was like you gonna go to school or???
-dance class with nicky poo<3
-reggie fixing his amp in the rain
-julie’s blue dress outfit in this episode is my ABSOLUTE favorite
- the birthday candle scene makes me sob like a little baby,,,and rightfully so
- julie smart, smart to be taking calculus as what a sophomore??
- all eyes on me yes queen iconic
- alex dancing is how i dance in my brain whenever the song comes on
- finally free as a song is NEVER given enough credit and why not?? it’s my favorite song they do as a band AND the madison’s vocals and the echoing part omg i loveeeee
- and the whole performance with luke’s heart eyes. i count this performance as the moment luke like fell in love with julie...like full on just blown away with how much awe and admiration he has for her in that moment and all the time.
- julie and luke singing “and you’re a part of me” while staring directly into each others soul,,,yeah that’s love kids
edge of great
- carlos being the ghost hunter he is and tía being done with him
- luke’s pouting face
- reggie and ray making breakfast together is so wholesome. reggie really loves and seeks comfort in ray and i love that
- luke just waiting next to julie’s locker and his little “hey”
- the first time i watch this scene i thought charlie was from new york cause of the way he says “ i can't do this without you” and then i watched the cast interviews and just realized he is somewhat joey tribbiani
- jealous luke hehehehehhehehe
- “well dont you look shARrP”- yes he does luke thank you very much
- “uh oh i think someone has a crush on julie” yeah you do you little shit,,, now admit it to her
- the proud look on luke’s face when he realizes julie is still paying attention to HIM even though she’s supposed to be having a full on conversation with nick
- the shoulder push ( as someone who has had their own shoulder pushed in the middle of a high school hallway as a weird way of flirting,,,,i can definitely somewhat attest to how luke is feeling in that moment and i too continued to flirt with the person who shoulder shoved me while we were still standing in the hallway)
- the flow from whatever the hell dance nick and julie are doing and the perfect harmony dance is so special to me and i love it
-ADOANCLOBNAOVBCOAB THE HAIR PLSSSSS
- EVERYTIME THE SCENE COMES ON AND I SEE HIM WALKING THROUGH THE MIRROR I HAVE TO PAUSE THE SHOW FOR LIKE 10 MINUTES WHILE I DIE LAUGHING BECAUSE THE HAIR IS SO BAD EVEN THOUGH I SHOULD BE USED TO HOW IT LOOKS AFTER WATCHING THIS SHOW LITERALLY 30 TIMES
- i think people see my username and assume i like his hair in this scene but...ummm fun little fact i do not like it
- the dance is so good though ugh my babies
- the hair
- madison is gorgeous
- another season 2 scene i need: julie teaching this dance to luke and they perform it in front of alex and reggie so they can see luke roll on the floor like that
-the hair
- the lift i loveeee
- the voices at the end of the song *chef’s kiss*
- the way julie spins out from luke and into nick omg so good
- “thAnKs pArTnER”
- luke denying his feelings for julie,,,babe pls
- the whole edge of great performance is so good and beautiful and the colors are SPECTACULAR
-julie avoiding luke’s gaze lolz
- can't believe my mans really tried to deny he didn’t have feelings for julie like 5 hours earlier even though he’s getting upset because she hasn’t looked at him in 2 minutes
- THE. GUITAR. RIFF. SOLO.
- when i finally learn how to play the electric guitar well enough to learn the guitar solo... it’s over for everyone
-nick just came to watch the girl he likes perform not watch her flirt with a hologram plssss can we give this man a break next season.
- “we have to say goodbye to julie”- that’s literally more important to luke than not playing music anymore because julie is music to him now
unsaid emily
-already crying and the episode hasn't even started
-willex in the orpheum
- alex literally being OVER reggie
- nope too emotionally unstable to watch this scene right now
- my therapist will be hearing about this tomorrow
- show us the baby picture of luke cowards
- this is such a beautiful song that makes me cry every fucking time gosh damn it
- everytime i watch the flashback scene of luke on his bike i think of “christmas song” by phoebe bridges and i cry even more
- i tried to learn how to play this song on my electric guitar (because i dont have an acoustic guitar) and i ended up crying half way through so i do not think i will be playing it anytime soon:/
- the harmonies *chef’s kiss*
- THE POLICE LIGHTS ....i cry
- FAT tears rolling down my face
- there's literally not a moment i don’t cry during this episode
- interesting little relationship :0
- when i played percussion in 7th grade i used to lay down on the couch in the practice room at school ( which god knows what people did on that couch...ew) and stick my drumsticks up my nose too,,,, just another similarity between alex and i
stand tall
- willie really drove a bus 200 miles into the desert for his crush
- WILLEX HUG
- i love willie no last name so much,,,i just wanna hold and protect him
- alex’s ballerina dance
-julie’s overall outfit i love<3
- “im swimming”
- the way carlos hangs up the iPad on tía makes me CRACK UP he’s just lmao bye girl
- another julie outfit i love
- “anything julie. you know that.” AHHHHHAASIDSJFPACISN love bitches
- the suits
- luke’s hair in this episode is so much better than the perfect harmony hair pls
- YOU GOT NOTHING TO LOSE
- the way luke looks so restricted and confined in his suit... but at the same time he looks like a 10 week old puppy
-luke’s AGGRESSIVE but small foot tapping leading up to being on the stage
- the solos:)))))
- crying again over julie’s monologue to her mom
- julie really was brave enough to be ready to perform by herself
-the way Trevor looks at carrie when she says “been here before”
-ALEXXXXXX
-REGGIEEEEE
-luuukkKKKEEEEEEE
- this performance makes me cry
- especially the first time when i saw luke flickering...sobs
- he finally looks free in his suit:))
- alex’s solo is so pretty i love him
- reggie’s solo too
- nick just straight up vibing the entire performance
- alex and luke holding hands...hehehe cute besties
- “thank you, guys” NO THANK YOU
- the way julie begs for them to do something about the jolts for HER cause she knows luke would never say no to her
- “no music is worth making, julie, if we’re not making it with you,” I JUST SCREAMED AND IM PRETTY SURE I WOKE UP MY ENTIRE HOUSEHOLD...whoops
- going back to that line i could say so much about it but....for someone who’s life was literally MUSIC for the 17 years he was alive, and after finding out he could play music again even though he was dead and saying it made him feel alive, he would give that up- he would give up playing his guitar, playing in a band with his friends, give up writing and singing music- if he wasn’t doing that with julie. that’s more than saying i love you,,,that’s literally like saying i’d give up my ENTIRE LIFE and what i love to do if i dont get to do it with you
- i just made myself cry with that description...wow
-the hug<3
-also imagine how luke felt in that moment,,, hearing this girl, once again that he would give his life up for, saying in his ear that she loves them. i would motherfucking glow too, luke
- *passionately but gently holds each others faces*
-HANDS OFF MY BABY NICK, CALEB
- caleb’s outfit is....something
- the head turn plssss
this was so long and i am so sorry but if you read this far.....leave some of your own reactions or thoughts:)))
k goodnight im gonna, ugh, finally go study ://
#julie and the phantoms#jatp#julie molina#alex mercer#luke patterson#reggie peters#willie#flynn jatp#nick jatp#carrie wilson#renew jatp#netflix PLEASE we are begging give us a season 2
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Okay who wants some Artbreeder spam??? GMB Edition! Let's gooooooo
First off:
Natalie Thornell (Bokuto): I don't know how to add details so uhh just use your imagination for her eyepatch. She looks like she has good stories to tell, for real. She's also definitely 6'2" and has arms that could crush my skull with a little headlock and squeeze. Her mama's half black and her daddy's half Cuban but she's allllllll babe
Delilah Bellerose (Akaaahi): I wanted her to look like she has anxiety and she does look like she has anxiety. Hasn't brushed her hair in about a week, little bit of acne, dark circles under the eyes... anxious baby 🖤
Roger Demore (Daichi): handsome handsome handsome handsome. Can you imagine this man baby talking to a corgi? Cuz i have and I've cried. I wrote him with shorter hair but I mean... cmon... I'm such a weak sucker for curly hair hnnnn sue me
Gael Laskaris (Suga): insert giant facial scar because i dunno how to do that. I decided I wanted him to be a premature grey, started going grey in high school and he just owns it because it cute. I wouldn't trust this man if I happened to cross paths with him on the street, day or night
Willa Rosdahl (Kuroo): I dunno man its kinda sus that I made her so hot. But I just gotta make up for Kuroo's ickiness somehow, ya know. Shes much shorter than Kuroo though. Like 5'6 or so. Doesnt stop her from chloroforming strangers though. Go girl
Nayeli Tezcucano (Kenma): made her the hottest because that's hilarious. Shit ass personality and antisocial behavior but damn she hot as hell. Gamer tag is TezcuNaya and she's like 5'1". I honestly love thinking about this babe talking about butthole orthodontistry, its so stupid
Adrian Carby (Oikawa): wee woo pretty boy alert. I just think about him saying "eat a dick, Dylan, choke on a dick and DIE Dylan, get fucked and evaporate into dust DYLAN" and it makes me giggle. Ew he's really pretty its not normal
Nazmi Qasim (Iwaizumi): Nazmi was the name of one of Suga's and Iwa's army friends but I liked the name a lot so I used it for Iwa in the rewrite. I tried to make him less hot but my bisexuality took over and I made him hot anyway. I mean, he kinda had to be hot for dumbass Adrian to turn into a bluthering idiot in his presence so 🤷 insert scar on his lips and 😘👌
#literally i just make everyone too attractive#but oh well#this is hollywood babeyyys#next ill work on june issei takahiro kiyoko and yachi#gmb rewrite#sorry for the spam babes
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my anxiety's going wee woo YEEEEEEEÉEEE
mewd
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I was tagged by @whatwouldmickeydo like 2 weeks ago but rn I need to remember little joys of life, so there goes nothing.
Thanks Leah!!
✨Joy List✨
1. My kids plus Dante.
2. All of them putting their paws to their eyes when they get sleepy.
3. My little collection of second hand English novels.
4. The papyrus art i covered a wall with.
5. Watching movies with y'all on weekends.
6. Going out to have my fave coffee with friends.
7. Watching crime shows with my family and trying to guess who the killer is.
8. Walking while it's raining.
9. All those vegan&vegetarian food i tried lately.
10. Seeing foxes (and otters) on my instagram.
11. Having a wine night with my little sister.
12. Annoying the said little sister.
13. Dante trying to wag her tail when she sees me from the balcony.
14. Dante failing to wag her tail and instead shaking her butt.
15. The fact that my stupid wee woo show will be back less than a month.
16. Writing fics (but not publising them lmao the anxiety is real)
17. This corner of tumblr and you guys.
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I was super late but if you need to remember the lil joys of life, consider yourself tagged ♡♡♡
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You have not made me uncomfortable, and I know you aren’t trying to.
There is a lot that happens in my very damaged brainhole, and this has been caused and/ or forwarded by instances of assault or harassment, multiple abusive and toxic “romantic” relationships, as well as destructive general relationships around me, so there’s a lot I get scared of easily or just don’t understand with people.
I’m not looking for a romantic relationship, and I don’t want to potentially block you from finding something with someone who very much is. You deserve that, and you deserve not to have to wait on someone who cannot promise anything.
You know, I can’t even go to a therapist right now for all of my disorders and feelings and the issues I have. I went through so many therapists, and then at fifteen, I found one that was really understanding and he treated me somewhat like a niece or granddaughter. I had appointments with him off and on until I moved at eighteen. He asked me about giving him an update once I was settled, so I did, and it seemed fine. Until I visited my family back home, got a coffee with him, and he told me on my nineteenth birthday that he had feelings for me. That begs so many questions, right?? So many alarm bells doing the wee-woo??? “How fucking long?? Why someone 40+ years younger than you? The hell is wrong with you? What would your WIFE think???” etc. It was sort of terrible and I felt disgusting (which, I shouldn’t have had to) but I was forced to play nice because he had driven me to the coffee shop, and I can’t drive, and I don’t know why bothering my mom to come get me gave me so much anxiety. I think I was just scared in general. After that, too, he kept messaging and trying to manipulate me and I did not know what to do. I finally sent a big (polite) “fuck you” sort of message and blocked him. But the fact that I can’t just see a therapist and be normal is upsetting in itself, and then add to it that every time something works, it goes wrong? It feels like I shouldn’t bother. I can’t make myself bother right now, anyway. That wasn’t even a full four months ago.
So, as you may see, trust is not in my wheelhouse.
Turbulence and confusion were not anything I meant to bring here, and I feel like I’m apologizing so much that it becomes meaningless, but I am genuine in them. I hope the explanations help, I guess? But it also feels good to sort of talk about things. I don’t really talk to people. I hardly know how to talk in general, about feelings or otherwise.
I’m sorry.
-💙📘🖋
Wow that’s uhhh super fucked up. We never really know what’s going on with people, huh? I’m sorry that happened.
I hear you with relationships. I haven’t had a healthy one, like, ever. Which really sucks. And some of that was on me and being young and not understanding people. So I saw all that yesterday and my mind went “yes! Someone likes you! We can try again!” And I got carried away. And I’m sorry about that.
It’s always good to talk about things. Especially when you learn that a lot of this is common (good or otherwise). And to just talk about things to someone who you don’t have to pay is even better. I’m a good listener.
Anyways I gotta go make some bone wafers. Feel free to keep talking at me :3
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