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thisiseditsandstuff · 3 months

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Metal Gear Solid: Sons of Liberty ( comic ) - Olga Gurlukovich

#metal gear solid #metal gear solid comic #metal gear solid 2 #metal gear solid: sons of liberty #mgs2 #olga gurlukovich #i love her #so much i might make a second part of this #i got more panels lmao

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not-poignant · 3 months

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Raphael has a very poetic and grandiose way of speaking that is absolutely not the norm for day-to-day life. How do you get in the mindset to come up with his dialogues? They're perfection and I just can't even imagine how long it would take to do one paragraph of the way he talks, but you're writing an entire story with him...

Oh I love this question because I can answer it, lol sadlkjfsda

Okay so, Raphael's character is tough for me.

Normally I do a lot of dialogue research before starting to write a character in fanfiction and original fiction, but Raphael actually gets proportionately very few lines that really show his full emotional range (compared to say, Astarion), and he's got an incredibly specific way of talking that sounds similar to Astarion but at the same time is very different.

They share enough similarities (calling people darling and dear for example) that it's easy to fall into the trap of giving them the same 'voice.'

I find Astarion's voice a lot easier to 'get' and I feel like I can hear him better when I'm writing him. But Raphael I'm taking into emotional spaces we simply never see in the game, and then I have to really guess how he'd sound (like coming up with the idea that the theatricality vanishes when Raphael is genuinely panicking).

I ended up listening to a lot of interviews with Andrew Wincott, the Voice Actor for Raphael who is an incredible actor and extremely articulate. He was very clear in one of his interviews that one of the reasons he was selected to play Raphael was because, in part, he already sounded like him. Obviously there's differences / skill in changing cadence and more, but for the most part, Andrew Wincott uses similar vocabulary and talks in a similar manner to Raphael naturally, so I had an abundance of interviews that I could then listen to in order to get a feel for Raphael's voice. I picked the things that felt more 'Raphael' and added them to my dialogue notes.

I often have to go back and edit Raphael's dialogue. Sometimes it's very simple things, I had him say 'much more' in the chapter I'm editing right now, and I edited it to 'far more' because I think he'd just phrase it like that. Sometimes I expand a sentence into an entire paragraph.

I've also leaned a lot from Korilla's transcripts in the game, which have been super useful. They really cement, more than anything, how much he loves lullabies, nursery rhymes, children's tales and more.

HOW TO DO DIALOGUE RESEARCH:-

If you're new to dialogue research, it mostly involves listening to - and watching a character and then literally taking notes of how they talk. The things you observe are:

The tone of their voice - Fast or slow. Loud or soft. Musical or flat. Theatrical or matter-of-fact. High or low. Questioning or complete statements. Considered or hedging (i.e. very well constructed sentences, or a lot of pauses, ellipses, broken sentences). Rambling or concise.

How often they talk - Some characters actually say a lot with very little. Raphael is actually a lot of observation and facial expressions and eyebrow movements in between his dialogue. Little smirks, hand gestures and more. Do they interrupt or let people finish their sentences? Are they comfortable with silence? I find Raphael oscillates between long theatrical paragraphs, single sentences or words, and then a lot of silence. He's actually not very conversational, in that you can have a conversation with him, but I doubt he'd see the point of two hours of small-talk. (At this point you might be realising that dialogue research is also character research, how a character talks tells you so much about a character.)

The words (and metaphors/subjects) they use - This is a big one and I'm going to break this down a little bit more:

How they pause if they don't know what to say. Is it 'um' 'uh' 'ah' 'hm' 'mm' 'mn' or nothing at all (or something else) because they've mastered self-control over their dialogue? If Raphael says 'ah' he does so on purpose.

Filler words. Things like characters saying 'like' in a sentence. 'He was like, 'I can't believe it'' etc. This is very similar to how they pause, but it's the things people say to get from point A to point B. People who don't do this have often had training or think very hard about what they're going to say before they say it. But people say 'like' or 'and then' or 'well' or 'i realised that' or 'i thought that' etc. to carry them on. Some are more acceptable than others (people do just have realisations for example).

Profanity. How often do they swear, and how intentional is it? Some characters only swear when they get hurt or stub their toe or get angry. Some characters swear all the time for fun. Some characters only use some swear words and not others. Be specific. Be aware that some swear words are cultural! This includes blasphemy. In Faerun they use 'gods' and 'gods damn it' more often than we use 'god' or 'oh my god.'

Vulgarity. This is useful for Raphael (and Astarion) because he's very happy to be vulgar. This is like... how comfortable are they talking about sex, about sexual subjects, being crude, being seductive, flirtatious? And if they use it, do they use vulgarity to shock, seduce, scare, threaten, or for humour?

Salutations and farewells. How do they greet people? Silence? A calm hello? (A lot of greetings are omitted in dialogue but this is still good to know). How do they say hello, goodbye. How does that change between friends and enemies and strangers?

Single word sentences. This might sound weird, but sometimes when a character hears something that shocks them, or needs to acknowledge something, they may say anything from 'huh' to 'yeah' to 'fuck' to 'okay' to 'all right' to 'sure' to 'go on' to 'indeed' to just laughing out loud. The list goes on. Raphael is team 'indeed' lmao.

Sentence structure. Raphael's sentence structure is - when he's most comfortable - gently provoking, teasing, vaguely threatening, and makes liberal use of simile, metaphor, fairy tale, rhyme, sayings, colloquialisms and more. Raphael talks like someone who knows someone could quote him at any moment lmao. But from here, how a character structures their sentences can be helpful to know. Go back to 'the tone of their voice.' Those notes will give you an idea of structure.

Emotionality. How emotional are they? Do they have rage rants? Joyful giggling dialogue? Do they infodump with little emotion? Or with sheer excitement? Does their dialogue feel fake or real? Opaque or transparent? Some people wear their hearts on their sleeves, and others will never be able to say 'I love you' in anything other than actions. Raphael's emotionality in dialogue is more present in his anger and irritation, and also when he feels triumphant and/or turned on.

The symbols, sayings, colloquialisms and metaphors themselves. Not all characters use these. But some people/characters will talk through analogies, colloquialisms. This is actually Raphael's biggest dialogue departure from Astarion, imho, aside from the fact that Astarion is a lot more emotional with his dialogue.

Take into account their culture, ethnicity, conceits, upbringing, education and the people they're close to:

This one is vital. Firstly, some people tend to 'absorb' elements of those around them. A person raised by affluent people will often 'sound affluent' and a person raised in poverty will often have dialogue that reflects this and if they don't there will be reasons for that. It might be a conceit (some people self-teach themselves different accents), it might be education, it might be training, it might be the subculture/s they've entered into, and so on.

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When doing this research, you'll end up with a kind of master-list of actual words and probably some sentences you've written down, along with a lot of notes. You can also do this for any original characters you're making at all, you're just then making it up based on the character, and this research will also give in many ways the shape of the character.

It's a fun exercise and I highly recommend everyone tries it literally for people who don't exist and also observe your friends and family, and do a dialogue cheat sheet for some of them. It's pretty eye-opening! Even one page will teach you more than nothing at all. You can go deep and write many pages, or you can do what I do and keep it lean at 2 pages. Anyone who struggles with characterisation I suggest at least try this exercise, because anyone can put on a YouTube video and/or streaming service or even a favourite Tiktoker and start doing dialogue research! It's a way of building a character from the top down while also getting information about their foundations.

#asks and answers #pia on dialogue #pia on characterisation #pia on writing #reference #on writing #writing techniques #writing advice #dodgy advice #i might just take the second 'how to' part and make it its own post #but anyway here's how to do it!

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 1 year

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You used to be my rival!

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#Poorly drawn MDZS #MDZS #wei wuxian #lan wangji #season 1 #If you caught the mbmbam reference you're a real one #This one was fun! I enjoyed trying to figure out a background and while i still have a ways to go I think it adds to the panel a lot #This scene doesn't quite play out with lwj doing the sleepy head on the shoulder #but the audio drama makes it ambiguous for a few seconds and *I* want to believe #Also rip to wwx you should have paid more attention to how close you were sitting to your frenemy #Watch out! He's touch starved and pining after you!! Noooo he cant hear us he's playing with corpse parts!!!#I think it would be funny if the resentful limb was stuck in a resentful pose. Might keep the joke up so we can get to 4x middle finger NJM #After this its Cloud Recess flashback time! Lets go Teens!#Edit: I live in a place that still has daylight savings so this is the new queue posting time. Yes I am miserable #Currently making this note and feeling like LWJ in this comic (sleepy)

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humaforever · 2 months

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I feel like the whole fandom can agree that Harry Hook would just offend a bunch of the gods. But what he's doing and saying that offends them so much is what's interesting to me-

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Harry: So you're the pretty goddess?

Aphrodite: Yes. The goddess of beauty

Harry: Cool. Uma's prettier though.

Aphrodite: :0

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Dionysus: *handing Harry a cup of wine*

Harry: Mmm, I prefer rum

Dionysus: :0

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Harry: So you just shoot lightning bolts out of your hands?

Zeus: It's more than that, but yeah I'm the god of the skies

Harry: Lame

Zeus: :O

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Poseidon: Nice to meet you, I'm the god of the seas

Harry: *laughing* Nah, the oceans belong to Uma. She's the sea goddess.

Poseidon: :0

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Harry: You know what they say, strict parents make sneaky kids

Demeter: Excuse me?

Harry: Strict parents create kids that wanna eat pomegranates is all I'm saying.

Demeter: :0

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Cut to Hades laughing hysterically because someone is finally humbling these gods.

#Uma's not stopping him #Hades is highly entertained #harry hook #huma #i was gonna do more but I might just make a second part

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vroomvroomgofast · 1 year

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F1 drivers as ✨️tumblr porn bot accounts✨️

Lewis, Seb,

Charles, Nando,

George, Mick

#these are in fact actual accounts i created fkehjvwldck #lewis hamilton #sebastian vettel #charles leclerc #fernando alonso #george russell #mick schumacher #f1 #formula one #might make a second part who knows #my post

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the-butch-of-blaviken · 8 months

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hm. thinking about Geralt, Eskel and Lambert watching Vesemir doting on Ciri like the granddaughter he never had, going easy on her during her training when she asks for it politely, making a show of lecturing her when she's being mouthy when it's obvious to everyone he's already forgiven her. Lifting her off her feet and spinning her around when he sees her again for the first time in years. And all the while Vesemir's sons in every way except blood are watching and watching and thinking, so you were capable of being affectionate and considerate and a decent fucking human being all this time. You just chose not to be this man with us.

#of course it's so much more complex than that but can you imagine!!!!!! seeing their father finally acting like one with someone else!!!!!!!#and they're happy for ciri but i'm CONVINCED a part of them couldn't help be at least a little bit jealous of her #also i might make a follow-up on this post about this but. i KNOW vesemir was also making up for all the ways in which he failed his sons #with ciri. trying to atone for following the guild's rules and being an instructor first and a father second to them all these years.#frothing at the mouth rn #vesemir #my post

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fractiflos · 4 months

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Incorrect Quotes!

Hikage: As you know I keep a list of all my friends in order of how likely they are to betray me.

Banjo: Where am I on the list?

Hikage: Well I can’t tell you that because then you’ll quickly move up or down depending on your reaction.

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Second: You are the love of my life, and I would do anything within reason to make you happy. Yoichi: I would be happy if you ate, stayed hydrated and got a reasonable amount of sleep. Second: I said within reason, Yoichi. How about I murder that guy? Yoichi: So, murder is in reason, but proper self-care isn't? Second: Well, duh. What kind of question is that?

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Second: The moon looks beautiful, doesn’t it? Third, looking at Second: Yeah… but do you know what’s more beautiful? Second and Third in unison: sighs Yoichi

#just clearing out my drafts #yoichi shigaraki #second one for all holder #third one for all holder #hikage shinomori #daigoro banjo #this has been in my drafts since august #I might make a part 2. I was just playing around with an incorrect quote generator when I made this #mha incorrect quotes

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kickbutts-singsongs · 5 months

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Okay, not that I’m not totally stoked for season 7, but I have to admit that I’m a little bit nervous. Because the anime’s coming out pretty soon, and it’ll be going into the final arc.

Which.

Horikoshi’s not done with yet.

Soooooooo ummmmm I have a pretty good feeling we’re getting like an AoT final season type of thing. You know…

Separated. Into parts.

Which, I mean, I guess I can handle cuz I read the manga updates, but likeeeeeee

Where are they gonna end the season?????

#cuz there’s the Stars and Stripes fight #and then the ~traitor reveal~#and then the *fun* begins #aka fight after fight after fight #so which fight are they gonna stop right before and be like ‘to be continued…’#my money’s on when All Might starts his mech suit battle but idk #bnha spoilers #mha spoilers #selfishly #I hope they make Bakugou’s death completely unresolved #before the second part #so the anime onlys can suffer as WE DID #bnha #mha #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #bnha 409 #mha 409 #my thoughts

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teastarfall · 6 months

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why do they call it little nightmares when i have big dreams about it

#i got a hold of the undertale font nothing can stop me now #i am evilly grinning as i type this #tumblr cropped the nomes head in 2nd pic so badly thanks tumblr #tbh i keep getting emotionally attached to the idea of hunter finding the nome in his attic #he’d look at it for ten seconds and automatically goes ‘im keeping you’#<—i know this because im little nightmares itself this happened /j #ive been thinking abt this all day so i might as well make it a part of my main au lol #how’d the nome even get there though #ok too much nome talk my brain is very nomecoded today ghh #little nightmares #little nightmares 2 #little nightmares fanart #ln six #ln mono #ln rk #ln hunter #ln lady #ln thin man

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moghedien · 8 months

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I'm like, actively not looking forward to the next episode because I know what's gonna happen but let me just say

I have not seen a single show only fully grasp the situation that Egwene is in right now and the sheer hopelessness and horror the situation. I am kinda looking forward to seeing them figure that out

#I think its fine that they don't fully get it I will say #because the next episode is so clearly gonna make people get it based on the teaser alone #so I think the way information is trickling in is affective for the most part #but not seeing people understand how fucked Egwene is is sure something #people being like 'oh she's gonna escape. oh she might get roughed up a bit but she'll probably learn stuff from them to use against them'#like yall #yall really don't get the sheer torture my girl Egwene is about to go through or the the fact that escaping on her own is literally impossi #and the fact that the only people who can help her now will very easily be put in the exact same situation the second they're caught #its FUCKED in here #wheel of time #wot on prime #wot show spoilers #wot book spoilers #egwene al'vere

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fighting-these-demons · 2 days

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Hello Internet Stranger looking up G Gundam on Tumblr dot com!

This is an idea for a fic set in an Alternate Universe involving Queer Non-Canon Relationships between the characters of the series.

If you are not looking for this content please scroll on.

If you ARE looking for this content - and you're ok with reading my and other's Headcanons for this Alternate Universe I've haphazardly spun up -

Then go ahead and feel free to:

Check The Tags Of This Post For The Pairings

and click the Read More below!

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Ended up outlining a completely different fic as a Segway for an explanation instead of making progress on the Royal Flush Haunted Honk AU's Clown Motel Fic like I wanted to but uh....

For y'all's review for the AU: A Prequel Outline - Divorce Saga Domon

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Hey real quick - I'm thinking of maybe changing the timeline to 2 years post canon as opposed to 3 years and change post canon.

The reason being: I had a thought that this scene could either be part if the fic or if it's getting to big then it could be a stand alone tie-in prequel fic as part of this AU but - like

Immediately Post Divorce Domon Needs Space and runs off. As one does. And he runs to Earth because he just wants to Get Lost for a while.

He has Argo smuggle him out to avoid detection.

Argo has Andrew help stow Domon in a storage hanger of a Neo Canadian supply ship that's returning to the US - they have trade often enough and share agricultural resources - which leads to Domon ending up in New York when he hits Earthside pavement.

He's privately worked on his English the last couple of months and after being dropped in New York with a different hairstyle, outfit, and accent he's unrecognizable.

He considers making his way west to get some solitude in the wilderness, but something about that initial plan feels off now that he's on the ground.

Chibodee is also Earthside for a special series of prize fights aimed at raising charitable appeal for the US in the eyes of Neo Americans.

Domon decides to hit up Chibodee for a fight on a day between matches hoping it'll clear his head and give him the clarity to decide on a course of action. What ends up happening is an unexpected heart to heart via blows and a breakdown.

Domon is happy for Rain and Kyoji, and he knows it's not true; but he feels like he lost a piece of himself when his relationship with Rain fell apart.

Domon's instinct is to run after that but Chibodee knows this city and Domon doesn't hide out for long before Chibodee drags him back to his place to stay and just "Chill out and breathe. You don't have to be anyone but yourself here. You can take as long as you need to find out what everything changing means for you." Friends and teammates stick together.

So Domon spends a few weeks with Chibodee sparring and hanging out in New York. Chibodee does a frankly awesome job at containing his feelings because he's focusing on Domons feelings and being a good friend first and foremost. Whatever he's feeling can wait until after Domon is done going though it.

There's a bit of a twinge in Domon's heart as he leaves that he can't really place.

After he returns to Neo Japan and gets settled back into life with his family, The Dreams start.

They're mainly set in New York. Small things first like noticing Chibodee's smile and his eyes. Then sparring sessions that begin to turn lurid.

He thought these kinds of dreams would stop after he was married.... he doesn't know what to do about this.

I just figure it gives more clarity and sense of time for the journey from Comphet Marriage Dissolution to Feelings to Confession. Idk.

But I got stuck on a bit and then had this thought and needed to get it down before I lost it and it was so long it made sense to make it its own post as opposed to several replies.

The Maize and Clown Motel will probably still be 3 years and change post canon for clarification.

@thedragonchilde @amplexadversary @youreaclownnow

#Domon Kasshu/Chibodee Crocket #Royal Flush #Chibodee Crocket/Domon Kasshu #Royal Flush Haunted Honk AU #mobile fighter g gundam #I imagine he hasn't had time for a Big Gay Crisis yet but the time is absolutely now #Kyoji absolutely helps him through this crisis because he had a normal environment and university to figure his own shit out.#Kyoji has to figure out WHY Domon is imploding and explosive and avoiding everyone a second time though.#This doesn't seem related to the Divorce but it doesn't seem immediately obvious either. 🤔#Cue Schwarz FINALLY getting a fucking break and immediately coming to stay with Rain and Kyoji at their place.#Domon was aware that they had been living together in Neo Japan briefly before Schwarz was called back to Neo Germany for questioning #Once his rank was stripped of him he was back with Kyoji for a short period before the Divorce as part of Kyoji and Dr. Kasshu's study of #DG Cells. Once they had a breakthrough - Schwarz was sent abroad with a small military group and Doctors Without Borders group to assist #With immediate infection cases on behalf of Neo Japan as part of reparations. So Domon hadn't seen him in quite some time.#Domon certainly wasn't expecting to see him in the garden when he rounded the corner of the Mikamura residence #Leaned over Kyoji who appears to have been working outside on his laptop. Fingers intertwined a hand on Kyojis jaw and locked in a kiss.#Which ends pretty much instantly as they sense Domon and break apart. It occurs to Kyoji and Schwarz that Kyoji never #Got the chance to actually tell Domon much about himself and the man he'd grown into while Domon was training in Hong Kong with Master Asia #This might be a pretty significant shock to him.#I can't decide between Domon running from his Gay Revelation or IMMEDIATELY Losing His Shit at the thought of Rain's SECOND marriage ending #And knowing for sure now the reason why his and Rain's marriage didn't work out. He really does prefer men.#Bu HOW DARE Kyoji do this to her!!! She's been through enough!!!! This will HURT her SO BADLY!!! (Projection of guiiillllttt)#Back to square 1 fir a moment like damn #And once he starts fighting Kyoji about it (Thank God the ressurection gave them the option to make Kyojis new build similar to Schwarz's)#It comes out that Rain cant go through this AGAIN and he won't let him do this to her! Her honor means something to Domon #And it should mean something to Kyoji too as HER HUSBAND #Kyoji and Schwarz catch on the Again bit and Kyoji makes it clear that Rain has known about his situation with Schwarz since they returned #That they're quite literally inseparable and that Rain married him knowing this. She's fully aware and an active participant.#Domon takes a leg sweep and doesn't quite make his recovery as Schwarz steps in #Pinning his arms and one leg in place so he can't run from Kyojis question. Kyoji grabs Domon's hair to turn his head and asks

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amaranth-moths · 9 months

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Do you think white pikmin are very self destructive since their gimmick is getting eaten to deal damage

#pikmin #white pikmin #purple pikmin #bulborb #its so joever #might make a second part

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give-me-one-good-reason · 7 months

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Trounced

I promised the next six or so pages of FYE, and I do, in fact, have them drawn out. Almost. Almost, because everything is done except for the drawings of Luigi himself, which remain in a state of constantly modified draft sketches because, as it turns out, I am completely incapable of drawing Luigi consistently. So, instead, I will be putting out a lot of fanart for a while as I try to settle on a consistent design for him.

Anyways, here is my first time drawing Mr. L. I am very happy with the debris in the background as well as his boots.

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i-am-a-fan · 10 months

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Was Red in too much trouble after PIF and DBK found out she was eating bacon

Oh. It's really not how the DBK family reacted that you should be worried about..

#Because of yall i am making a second part that might never get posted #who knows #lego monkie kid #lmk #my art #monkie kid #lmk qi xiaotian #lmk redson #🐊?#thank you for asking!!#sorry i took so long #i actually love how this sketch turned out

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skoulsons · 1 year

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Analyzing?? :) This is a long one again. And their second scene at the end of episode is really just gonna serve as a second parter to this bc there’s CONNECTIONS. I was going to make a cut and put this all below it, but tumblr was like deleting it so..no cut

“Ah, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck.”

Immediate reaction to her applying pressure to his wound is to grab her, hard. She reacts to it, hence her swears because he’s hurting her. But she would never tell him to stop because he’s in a lot of pain and can’t get it out any other way, so she lets him. But I think Joel recognizes he is hurting her. When it cuts to Joel’s face (possible continuity thing, but we’ll say no for the sake of overanalyzing bc this is my blog), he just has the side of his hand pressed, albeit hard, against her arm as opposed to gripping it. He recognized he was hurting her and tried to change to keep from continuing. He’s also trying to be quiet despite his very obvious need to scream about how much pain he’s in because he’s bleeding out with no medicine, no clean materials, and nothing to even try and disinfect his wound with.

“Come on, you gotta help me. Come on!”

baby, he is in a lot of pain. I don't know how much more pressure he can add. But I also think, in a way, she’s saying this to keep him awake and giving him something to do while she goes upstairs to look for something. She can’t have him passing back out, not with a life threatening injury, so she tries to give him something to do.

And something else (and I’m not the first person to recognize this), he’s trying to be quiet still. He could scream blood murder because he wants to because this hurts, but he’s trying to

“Leave. Leave.’

“Shut up, Joel.”

“Take the gun-”

“Joel, shut the fuck up!”

He is begging her to leave. Pleading with her as much as he can muster to get out. To leave him. To grab the rifle, because she can shoot, and go. He was just trying to leave her last episode because he was terrified for her and her safety because he knows he’ll kill her. And now, he’s begging her to leave him because he may kill her like this. It’s a harsh winter. She is giving him their warmth, food, and water. She is not taking care of herself the whole time because his life is on the line, and he is what matters. And knowing there is infected out there and people who she is all alone to defend herself against? She is capable to an extent, yes, but not to a group. Him being out like this could kill her, and he can’t risk that, not a single chance of it, so he tells her to leave him. Because he can’t fail her again, and dying while she’s still with him and not safe with Tommy is yet another fail.

And she tells him to shut up because what else is she supposed to do? She knows he’s trying to push her away because he just did it like a week prior to this. He can’t let people care about him, let alone letting them in in the first place. And this tiny, little girl was let in (with a little shove against that hard exterior of his) and she cares about him, more than he understands. That feeling being mutual and oh so complicated. No one since Tess has cared about him like this. But it goes deeper than that because this is a kid. His kid, now. She shouldn't ever need to do this or want to do this, but that’s the circumstances of their world, and he can’t help that. He can’t help the size of her heart or the fact that she cares so much about him because he did first. Through his protection, reassurances, and selfless caring in how he treated her, she grew to, too. And he never wanted that. Even now, the two of them being a ‘we’ now, she still shouldn’t have to because he’s the caretaker, and he’s failing.

“You go. You go. You go north. You go to Tommy. You go.”

This. This is a father’s anger. The absolute certainty and seriousness and the listen-to-me attitude. He needs her to leave. Because, like we’ve all discussed on a number of occasions, she is his weakness and he is her strength. And he does not believe he is that to her, especially not on the level he truly is. But beyond this, he needs her safe, as I already mentioned. So he grabs her and pulls her to him so she sees and hears him. He shakes her his second “you go” because he needs her to listen to him. He needs her gone, as much as it kills him to. But her safety is his first and highest concern, even if it means separating. He is willing to be separated from her and die alone in a cold basement if it means she gets to safety and is able to fulfill her journey.

This is after he shoves her and there’s already the glimmer of a tear in the corner of his eye. He does not want to send her away. He wants to be responsible for her. He wants to stay with her. He wants to hold her and he wants them to be okay. But he has to, for her safety. He reacts with force and he shoves her away, rejecting her care. Rejecting her help. And he just shoved her. Joel “ever so gentle with his little girl” Miller just shoved that little girl away from him, and that hurts.

Even after being shoved away from him, she doesn’t walk away in anger. No. No, she stands and lets her hand fall to his, just to brush against his. Despite being angry, upset, fearful, and pretty amazed at the fact that he’s still trying to get rid of her and won’t let her just take care of him, she lays a brief hand on his. Comfort? Reassurance? “You’re an asshole, but I still love you”?

And she moves to his coat, which I imagine she took off to better access his injury, and lays it across him. She evens it out across is abdomen and brings it all the way up to his chin to keep him as warm as possible. And Joel (pedro you mastermind I hate you) looks in…disbelief? Absolute unparalleled love at her that she loves him just the same? He just physically shoved her away. He has been nothing but physically gentle with her their whole journey, and now he just grabbed and shoved her away to reinforce his point. And in response, she quickly touches his hand and then lays his coat over him, covering him up to the chin. She is kind to him even after what he did, what he’s trying to do, and it’s almost insane to him. He’s used to violence. He’s used to using force and being given force back. And when he uses every ounce of power he has to use that force against Ellie to push her away, he is met with her kindness and unending care for him

They watch each other for a minute, no spoken words, and Ellie walks away. And he sheds a tear watching her go. His breath gets rapid and shaky, in part because he’s cold and losing blood and dying, but he’s watching her walk away and thinks she actually is going. That she is leaving. That they’re done, for good. That this little girl that is so important to him and that he loves way, way too much is leaving. And he watches her, thinking she’ll be the last thing he gets to see before he dies. He burns her into his memory, so that even after she’s gone and safe, a part of her is still with him. That he can picture her clearly in his mind to keep coming back to as he fades away.

And Ellie waits at the top of the stairs, but only for a moment. She waits. Does she think about what he said? Maybe for a split second, but no more. She needs him, but more than that she wants him. She wants to keep going with him. And, as much as he may hate it, that means suffering through it at his side and freezing through the nights just so he has a chance of surviving. She sits on what he told her, but she won’t listen because It’s him. Because It’s them. And that connection, that relationship, is worth it all

#I hope this is coherent I wrote it from 2-6am #I know this is like a heartfelt scene with a lot of subtext and blah blah blah #but the way his coat is sitting on him and his face is hysterical to me #he just looks all bundled up and it keeps making me laugh #anyway this was really freaking long I apologize I’m having #many many thoughts #the second part might be worse #who knows #the last of us hbo #tlou spoilers #joel miller #ellie williams

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ok yeah, I'm willing to put Young Royals up as one of, if not the best teen drama ever written

and not just writing! cinematography, costumes, music, performances! this show truly is a masterpiece

#young royals #Riverdale wishes it had the thematic consistency #this is the show euphoria thinks it is but its actually competently executed #teenagers who get away with nothing every action has a consequence #its about making mistakes and fucking up and forgiveness where its earned and moving on even if you cant forgive #its about love mattering even when it ends nothing is a waste it matters that the love was there even if its not with you forever #its about the first loves of yout life and that those loves wont always be Romantic and theyll be just as if not more important #its about loving yourself enough to push back against the system that is trying to break you because you dont deserve to be treated that way #its ALSO about wild parties and doing shots with your teachers and celebrating when the end comes cause you might as fucking well #its about first loves second chances three cheers for the end of bad things the coming of the future #because some things can and should end and the pain of it will pass and the love you felt wasnt wasted and you can take the good parts with #but that car is leaving down that forest road and you cant stay here you gotta go so who are going with and how loud can you sing with them #look right down the lens smile at the camera baby you might as well #netflix drama #wille x simon #crown prince wilhelm #simon eriksson #sara eriksson #felice ehrencrona #august of årnäs

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