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shenheshipwindow · 2 years

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much ado about nothing

✉️ happy gorou day! istg i did not forget, just posting this late. gave the self insert a bit more personality so, if u cant relate, dont be mean :,)

🎥 gorou x gn! reader (though acting a female role), modern! high school! au, theatre kids :), wc: 700~

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you had no idea how you got into your school’s production of shakespeare’s much ado about nothing, but there you stood, across the stage from your fellow lead actor. you’d gone for auditions hoping to get a side part but fumbled the act SO BADLY that you somehow got the lead as beatrice. and it seemed gorou, who stumbled upon the part of benedick, was in a similar predicament.

this was bad for several reasons.

firstly, you just wanted a side part but ended up as the main character, which was terrifying enough if not combined with the fact that you had to perform in front of the entire school.

secondly, gorou seemed to have no idea how to act, and you’re pretty sure he got tricked into the part.

thirdly… you may have a bit of a crush on the brown-haired boy. was it perhaps a blessing that you ended up love interests in this play or a curse instead? you didn’t really intend to find out, but you knew the teacher in charge would have your head if you were to chicken out now, after three gruelling rounds of auditions you’d rather not recount.

so, back to standing on stage - your first rehearsal. act 1, scene 1.

you grimace, channelling your inner beatrice as you run through the lines, trying not to glance at the script crumpled in your non-dominant hand. you speed your way to the part you’re simultaneously most excited and most nervous for-

“i’m surprised that you are still talking, signior benedick,” you quip, “since nobody’s taking any notice.”

gorou, who is nothing like benedick, you find, is quite a great actor. his normally anxious energy seemingly disappears when he is onstage, quite the opposite of stage fright; he seems to get stage confidence. which is attractive. you suppose…

“what, my dear miss high and mighty? are you still alive?” he responds, with the most scandalised expression you have ever seen.

“is it possible that high and mightiness should die as long she has such nutritious food to feed on as signior benedick is? courtesy itself would convert to high and mightiness if you came near her!” you exclaim, a small smile creeping its way onto your face.

“excellent!” the teacher-in-charge, mr tartaglia, claps, pointing at you, “that expression exactly! like you want to smile but are trying not to!”

you’re a little shocked at how easy this role is. perhaps you are quite similar to beatrice.

gorou doesn’t seem the slightest bit miffed that he was cut off, smiling a little too as he responds with a “courtesy is a traitor then, but one thing is certain: i am loved by all ladies except you, and i wish i could find it in my heart that i didn’t have such a hard heart, for to tell you the truth i don’t love anyone!”

the rehearsals go smoothly, and in a matter of seconds, it is the date of the performance itself. you stand illuminated by the brightest lights in existence, opposite your crush, surrounded by a mass of people you can’t recognise. doesn’t seem to be an ideal situation.

but it goes smoothly. almost… too… smoothly.

none of the actors misses a line. nobody stumbles over their sentences. no one falls off the stage. the audience laughs at the right parts and applauds when each act is finished and when the curtain falls they even give a standing ovation.

but when the big red velvet curtains start to draw together, gorou steps closer and kisses you. yes, on the lips, and yes, when the audience can still see you. their cheers only get louder.

“that… that wasn’t on the script,” you mumble when he pulls away, and his familiar sort of nervousness comes back.

“um, yeah, sorry,” he nearly whispered, which was soo different from how he’d been for the past few months it gave you whiplash.

you laugh, trying to muster your beatrice-like confidence again, “i’m afraid you misunderstand, good sir, for i quite enjoyed that. mind if i take you out for ice cream?”

and he agreed! guess this was a blessing after all.

#i forgot how my writing account works what do i tag 🙅‍♀️🙅‍♀️#also changed the layout if u couldnt tell! lmk if its too messy etc #idolteyvat #merry go round of life ; 🪅#canis bellatoris ; 🪐#gorou x you #gorou x reader #gorou #genshin impact gorou #gorou gi #i think that is sufficient #wait #genshin impact #k there we go #knock urselves out

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shenheshipwindow · 2 years

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reverse streamer au! thoma x gn! reader hcs

pairing: thoma x gn! reader

genre: fluff; reverse streamer au (aka you're the genshin character in thoma's place); headcanons

cws: mild swearing but that should be it!

a/n: HAPPY THOMA DAY!!! #1 malewife <3 hope this isn't too weird,, it was fun to write!

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thoma's twitch user is "th0maz" and he had been streaming various games for a while before genshin was released

he got a little famous for streaming acnh among a lot of other games like omori, stardew valley and minecraft

his taste in games is very varied so when someone in chat brought up "genshin impact" he was immediately interested! he signed up for the pre-release and streamed it since day one

he was an amber main for the longest time - he loved her lore, playstyle, design - and well, everything about her!

he became a very devoted amber main and rolled her c6 (dw he has money) which attracted more people to his streams!

then... the inazuma archon quest dropped. he is very much a lore and quest enjoyer so he played it as soon as it dropped

that was when you appeared for the first time - welcoming the traveler into inazuma and bargaining w the locals

all the y/n fans in his chat were going crazy and thoma just kind of sat there and admired your design

"whoaaa what's this character's name again?! i need them!" as soon as 2.2 dropped and you were made playable, he pulled out his wallet, thanking mhy for making you a 4* as he whaled for your c6

he also r5'd your best in slot weapon - something he'd never even done for amber, which made his whole chat start chanting "SIMP!"

he blushed at that because- well- it was kind of true! he knew that if you were in real life he would totally be head over heels for you.

ofc, you became his new main even if it wasn't "meta" which in turn attracted even more people to his streams - so you made him famous!

he also has a shit ton of your merch, from pins to keychains to little plastic stands- and has commissioned prints and posters of you - everyone knows him as the #1 y/n main!

he may be a little bit tooo devoted to your character, but you carry him through the game and he really really loves you :D

#rubeum scutum ; 🧨#merry go round of life ; 🪅#thoma x reader #thoma x you #thoma x y/n #reverse streamer au #genshin writing #genshin fluff #genshin headcanons #hm i dont think this is gonna do too well #thoma kissers pls help!!

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shenheshipwindow · 2 years

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new years w/ the inazuma folks ♡

pairings: all inazuma characters x gn! reader; can be interpreted as platonic, & sayu's is strictly platonic!

genre: modern au! headcanons; fluff; a smidge of hurt/comfort if you squint

cws: mentions of food

a/n: this is rlly short but i tried lol .. happy new years!!!! may ur 2022 be amazing & full of cool stuff >:)

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arataki itto

very hype about new years! his energy is contagious and makes everyone around him (including you >:)) also very excited

will stay up. the whole night. parties til you have to force him to sleep, and he still has so much energy on the 1st of january?!

he is very hopeful towards the next year, and is all like "new year new me!!!!" except nothing really changes :,)

gorou

kind of indifferent to new years, but he takes the chance to eat cake.

consumes a lot of dessert... like a lot a lot- you need to remind him to stop! eating!

will stay up til midnight and wish you a happy new year, then blacks out as soon as he lays down, making you laugh- you stay up a little longer though

kaedehara kazuha

goes outside with you to popular spots to watch yoimiya's fireworks with you, and you go for little strolls along a river

he listens to your new year resolutions and shares his own, and you pinkie promise to support each other all the way

he wishes you a happy new years with a small kiss on your forehead and serenades you with his leaf flute, before going to sleep in peace

kamisato ayaka

she loves celebrating any small holiday bc she gets a chance to just be herself!!

very committed, has an essay-length list of new year goals, which she always manages to meet! you're very proud of her each time :<

tries to stay up late and watch some films w you, but is so tired she falls asleep a little bit before midnight, so you whisper a quick happy new years and sleep next to her

kujou sara

doesnt particularly care for new years but makes an effort to celebrate just because!

vows to become a better person each year, and sticks to it; beating herself up when she doesn't manage to reach her goals. so she needs you to help make sure she knows her worth :)

she values a decent sleep schedule so she gets all her greetings done and over with by 10pm,, then goes to sleep

naganohara yoimiya

is super pumped as well!! she gets in the holiday spirit very easily and is bouncing around all the time

sets off a special firework formula she made for the two of you on the rooftop, bright smile on her face

stays up til 3 am with you, as she enthusiastically rattles off her new year's resolutions, making you swear to hold her to her words

raiden ei

she doesn't care about the new year at all, it's just the same to her- plus she doesn't like acknowledging the passing of time, and is scared of change

so it's a normal night for her and for you too, except you manage to sneak in extra dango for her

before she heads off to bed, she wishes you a quick happy new year with a small hug, and leaves you to stay up without her

sangonomiya kokomi

she finally gets a day of rest and spends it to the fullest!

buys a bunch of decorations for no particular reason and brings you to the rooftop for a party- the only occasion she'll willingly socialise for

she conks out at 1am after wishing you a happy new years, because partying used up all her energy and she needs to recharge,, but she always tries her best to stay up all night

sayu

loves new years because everyone is too busy partying to notice her snoozing in the background

every year her resolution is the same: to grow taller (though she never seems to), you try to convince her to change her goal to working hard, but she stubbornly refuses- on the outside at least :>

sleeps the whole night away, waking up at like midnight for a snack and some new years greetings, before promptly going back to sleep

scaramouche

is scared of the year ahead and what it holds for him, but hides it behind a smile and celebrates with you

smirks and makes fun of your new year goals, though he secretly supports them (and you can tell) and the next year he does everything to help you achieve them

stays up all night, and because it's new year's eve, he can't help but feel pessimistic, so you sit next to him and hold his hand, reassuring him that everything's gonna be alright :)

thoma

takes a break from his housekeeping duties to spend some time with his friends, and you! really likes new years!!

he reassures you about any concerns you have about the future, and shares his new year resolution- to be the most supportive and helpful person he can be!

stays up as long as you do, and cooks a yummy meal for you guys to eat to show his appreciation for everything you've done this year!

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shenheshipwindow · 2 years

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lunar new years in liyue

pairings: all liyue characters x gn! reader; can be interpreted as platonic, qiqi's is strictly platonic! including childe bc he lives there so he celebrates now.

genre: ambiguous time frame - semi canon, semi modern au! fluff, headcanons / mini scenarios(?)

cws: mentions of food, fireworks, firecrackers

a/n: 新年快乐万事如意心想事成虎年大吉 etc etc... hope yall have a nice lunar new years!!! format idea was inspired by this post

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during lunar new year, they get you ...

红包's stuffed with dollar bills ... despite being unmarried ── NINGGUANG, xingqiu, childe, zhongli; (he may or may not have taken the money from childe)

gifts! ── CHILDE, keqing, xiao; (he gives you crystalfly jewellery!!), yanfei

on 除夕, they prepare a feast that they ...

cooked themself! ── XIANGLING, hu tao; (she experimented with xiangling's recipe... and it tastes surprisingly great!) beidou, xinyan, QIQI; (are those... herbs? forgive her, she saw shenhe eating them and thought they tasted nice...)

bought from ── wanmin restaurant: chongyun; (he's supporting his friend!) YUN JIN . xinyue kiosk: XINGQIU, zhongli . liuli pavillion: childe, keqing, ningguang . mt... aocang?: SHENHE; (she mainly has little snacks like pineapple tarts :0)

to decorate, they ...

hang up lanterns! ── KEQING, xiao; (shh... he dislikes crowds, not deco <3) ningguang, xinyan (she makes em out of old 红包's!)

do calligraphy ── ningguang, GANYU; (她写的春联很好看 <3) shenhe

bonus !!

they put on a performance! ── keqing: fireworks show! xinyan: rock concert of popular LNY songs <3 yun jin: puts on an opera of the 年 story, complete with firecrackers and a smoke dispenser ganyu: plays the 古筝 for you ><;

+ shenhe, yun jin & with xinyan as the drummer, do a lion dance performance for the whole of liyue !!

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shenheshipwindow · 2 years

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astronomy

pairings: ei, gorou, kazuha, kokomi & yoimiya (e)x gn! reader (separately).

genre: angst; partial songfic - astronomy by conan gray

cws mentions of death in ei and kazuha's part

a/n: this took so long to finish *head in hands* anyways sorry if some parts are too long / short. and yes im posting this at like 1am the brain works in mysterious ways

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ei; a tale old as time, young love don't last for life. and now i know, now i know. it's time to go, time to go.

you leaned back against the age old sakura tree, your emotions mirrored in it's state of full bloom. you took ei's hand in yours as you pulled her closer to yourself.

"we'll be together forever, right?"

"of course, y/n," she pressed a small kiss to your cheek.

the next couple centuries were a blur. you watched your girlfriend change, as wars raged on and people dropped like flies. people you both knew. you watched as she got a hard earned victory, but at a cost- the death of her twin sister.

you needed to be there for her, and you were! you took her in your arms every night, you let her cry into your shoulder. you were the only one she could truly put her gaurd down around.

she set her sights on eternity, but by then it was too late...

"eternity, huh," you mused. it sounded like a good idea to you, after all, "doesn't that mean we'll stay together forever?" her gaze turned stony. "you're not a part of this," she replied curtly.

it was as if a trapdoor opened beneath your feet as you fell, down, down, down. "...ei?" you tried, reaching for her hands, which she only yanked out of your grip. "young love doesn't last for life. we are simply an ephemeral affair in the grand scheme of things."

with those harsh words unfurling like a trap, engulfing you in them, it was as if a filter had been yanked off the way you saw the world. you knew the wars and losses would change her... but you never expected it in this way.

now, years later and as the vision hunt decree ravaged the lives of inazumans, you were ashamed to even have been in love with someone like that. you slumped down on the stump of the same sakura tree that you had spent happy years of your youth with raiden. "never again."

gorou; i thought if i wanted, i'd fall back in love; you said "distance brings fondness", but guess not with us.

every time you saw gorou, his eyes would light up, his tail would start wagging and you'd immediately jump into his arms. he caught you every single time, dropping anything he was holding to capture you in a tight embrace.

this time was an exception, however. you waited at sangonomiya shrine, excitedly bouncing on your tiptoes as the resistance warriors flooded into the shrine, trying to spot gorou's familiar brown ears. as soon as they came into view, you immediately manoeuvred through the crowd and into your boyfriend's arms.

except he wasn't there.

he slipped away quietly, and as you pushed through hordes of soldiers you found him sitting on a stack of crates, cradling a small box in his arms.

"gorou!" you nearly yelled, as you ran towards him, the sheer force of your happiness knocking him over. he gave a small smile and an apology to you, and you thought nothing of it.

but it kept happening. after every single battle he'd slip away from you, offering the tiniest of expressions and a half hearted greeting. until one day you couldn't take it anymore.

he came back after the biggest battle yet, all smiles as he chatted with his subordinates.

"y/n! we won! raiden demolished the vision hunt decree!" he said, running towards you this time. except his smiles and excited wags of his tail weren't for you. were they ever for you?

this time you pulled the disappearing act, slipping away to gorou's house, turning the words over in your head, as you put pen to paper.

i thought if i wanted, i'd fall back in love- ignore how after every battle i'd be stoked to see you while you never cared, but it became too much. they say distance brings fondness, but guess not with us... shouldn't you miss me more when you go away? i don't know if i love you anymore, but i wish you all the best.

and with that you left watatsumi island. who knows, maybe in the time you'd be properly apart from him would rekindle something in your hearts, though you doubted so...

kazuha; we've traveled the seas, we've ridden the stars, we've seen everything, from saturn to mars. as much as it seems like you own my heart- it's astronomy, we're two worlds apart.

you had traveled with the wandering samurai for the longest time now. you knew how to draw your blades in perfect unison, take people out with a single slash; you knew when the world went still and when the sound of your own breathing was the only thing you could hear, it was going to rain; and you knew him.

you knew how his eyes would flick to the sky when he was worried, how he would get the faintest blush after a couple glasses of wine, how he would pull on your collar to draw you towards him when he needed attention. but this meant nothing to him, apparently.

"kazuha, what do you think of fate?" you'd asked him one day as you lay in the sun side by side on a rock, relishing in his response; "whenever we part, i'll still find my way back to you. the fate that brings people together is not a cord so easily cut," he said carefully, picking his words like he was playing a chess match, "i love you, y/n, fate or no fate, we're meant to be." you wished he had been telling the truth.

you two had traveled the seas, ridden the stars, and seen everything from liyue to inazuma. he owned your heart, and as much as it seemed, as much as you wished, you didn't own his. it was foolish of you to think so; sure, you knew everything about him, and you'd picked up all his habits, but his heart belonged to nature, to the thrill of adventure.

as long as he had his blade in his hand and peace in his heart, he was satisfied. you weren't part of the equation.

you came to this revelation on a fine autumn day, when the winds were still, not a sound to be heard. the leaves turned red and fell, only to get pelted by raindrops as they brushed the ground not a minute later.

you and kazuha took shelter, and you pulled him in for one last kiss.

"you don't love me," you said frankly, as you studied his reaction carefully. he tucked his hair away behind both ears- shame.

"y/n..." he began, voice softer than you'd ever heard it. you quickly pushed a finger to his lips, effectively shutting him up. "no need to explain. i get it, it's fate, astronomy, we're two worlds apart."

you wished desperately for kazuha to love you, your entire vision of the world distorted. nature was no longer something disgusting as you had once thought, but rather beautiful, because of kazuha. poetry was no longer a waste of time, but music to your ears, because you were so far gone.

"i'll never forget you, y/n," those were the last words kazuha ever said to you, and you held them close to your heart.

the leaves on the trees turned red, slowly falling off the trees. "autumn comes when you're not yet done, with the summer passing by- but i don't think i could stand to be where you don't see me," kazuha remarked as he pushed a lock of his hair behind his ear.

"kazuha... what is it that you always told me when the leaves turn red?"

on this mountain path, where the red leaves lifeless lie... my heart class for a companion, echoing the deer's cry... "hm... i do love maple leaves, but it is a shame that so many goodbyes seem to happen when they turn red."

kokomi; from far away, i wish i'd stayed with you. but here, face to face, a stranger that i once knew.

a fleeting moment of sunlight where it broke the surface of water. ripples of multi coloured jellyfish dancing all around you. you held your breath as you sank beneath the waves, clasping her hands as you exchanged a kiss.

you couldn't wait to see kokomi after 3 years of being apart while you decided to explore the rest of inazuma, your heart fluttering as you flipped through a scrapbook of memories in your mind. you couldn't wait to sink into her hug and place a kiss on her forehead, so you marched onward to the island.

you stood at the tree with familiar purple foliage, grinning to yourself as you found the hideout you and kokomi frequented as children, giggling and playing around in.

you were surprised to find a whole setup in there, bookshelves, a desk, chair, and the like. "huh, guess someone else found it?" you mused to yourself, before coming across a thick military volume on the wooden desk. you chuckled under your breath. nevermind, kokomi was probably still using this little nook to avoid social interaction and recharge.

speaking of kokomi, you hadn't seen her in so long, excitement fluttering in your heart as you took a stroll through your homeland. you returned to watatsumi island, eager to ask her a certain question. after being apart for so long, you'd come to terms with your feelings. surely she would reciprocate your love... right? or were those kisses you'd shared merely trifling exchanges to her?

you stood frozen at sanganomiya shrine. kokomi was there, looking gorgeous as ever, wearing a floaty shrine maiden outfit while surrounded by a crowd of people. she had a geniune smile on her face, as she spoke to them one by one. more and more people arrived, and with each one of them leaving with contentment written on their face, you heart started sliding lower and lower. what happened to you being the only person kokomi could talk to with a smile on her face? were you not as special to her as you remembered? what if... what if she had found someone else?

after the crowd had dispersed, you watched as she took out a book and lounged at the side of the shrine for mere seconds before someone in soldier's garb ran in, yelling for a "her excellency!" to which kokomi responded to immediately, putting her light novel away without any hesitation. your heart pounded against your chest, as reality slowly caught up to you.

exactly how much had changed in the years you had been apart? ... it wasn't exactly a question you wanted answered. who was this stranger that you once loved?

with tears spilling uncontrollably out of your eyes, you turned and fled, away from kokomi, away from watatsumi, away from change.

yoimiya; you're pointing at stars in the sky that already died. stop trying to keep us alive! you can't force the stars to align when they've already died.

they were the same fireworks she set every year on your anniversary. the same slip of paper with the same formula, meticulously written down so they could be replicated to perfection each year.

it was a tradition held near to both of your hearts, something you had repeated for the near 7 years you had been together.

this year however, something was different. something was missing, and you both knew what it was. feelings- love.

you sat on amakane hill admiring your girlfriend's handiwork with her. she leaned her head against your shoulder, a familiar gesture, but this time devoid of affection.

people often say that fireworks come and go in a fleeting heartbeat, but if they are memorable enough, they will remain in bloom forever in people's hearts. those who accompanied you and the loveliness of the moment itself, will burrow deep into your mind as a beautiful memory. and as you look upon the same fireworks, many years later, that same memory and the feelings that came with it will surely rise again to the forefront of your heart.

that was a saying you've heard time and time again. you completely agreed with it, especially since you were dating the queen of the summer festival herself. so, as beautiful as the fireworks were, they were meaningless with no real love behind them; just the desire to hold on to something- something that wasn't really there.

you sighed as the last fireworks popped and fizzled away in the night sky, pushing yourself away from yoimiya.

"y/n, what is it? are you upset?" she asked earnestly, and you tore your gaze away from the sky and to the ground.

"no, it's just," you said, trying to gather the courage to start this conversation with her, "yoi- yoimiya, don't you think something's a little off this year?"

you glanced up towards her, and you could see it from her eyes- she knew.

"y/n. we should break up, shouldn't we?" she asked, her voice lacking it's usual enthusiasm; and even in the last few seconds of your relationship, she still cared about what you thought. you were the most important person in her life, clearly meaning a lot to her, but you guys were simply not meant to be.

"yeah," you said, voice coming out a lot shakier than you'd like it to. you'd both tried to keep your relationship alive for the longest time, and it hurt to finally face the harsh reality. your vision swam with tears, as you buried your face into your hands. you couldn't force the stars to align if they'd already died.

but there was something else, a fear that you'll never be loved again. you'd clung tight to your relationship, even when feelings started to dwindle, because what if you never found someone who loved you again? what if yoimiya was the only one who was capable of loving you? and even she was mercilessly ripped away from you by the endless whims of the universe.

you wiped your tears away with an unnecessary harshness, and when you looked up she was already gone.

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shenheshipwindow · 2 years

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jean headcanons + scenarios

pairing: jean x gn! reader

genre: fluff? slice of life i guess

cws: overworking is all i can think of. as always ask to tag!

a/n: a day late but happy jean day + pi day + ides of march when this comes out >:)

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jean overworks. you knew this, of course, but only found out the extent of this after you started dating her -

jean sighs, pushing the pile of paperwork she had just completed aside. "y/n, love, i've got a couple minutes to kill, before my meeting with albedo. shall we take a little stroll?" she says, a faint blush coating her cheeks. after all, she isn't used to taking breaks, let alone with you! you nod eagerly, glad jean is learning how to relax. "c'mon, let's go to marj-" your sentence gets cut off by huffman rushing into the acting grandmaster's office. before he managed to blurt out the whole story behind his sorry state, jean had taken it upon herself to solve the problem?! it took so long for you to convince her to leave the matter to kaeya, or amber, or even lisa; even on your window shopping trip around mondstadt, she was still jittery. she lightened up in the end, and it was quite enjoyable... but situations like that just kept happening!

pet names aren't quite jean's cup of tea, but she calls you "my love" and "dear" as she thinks they sound the most natural, and can be used with your name too -

"y/n, my love, how was your day?" jean greets, dropping her coat by the front door of your shared cottage. she smiles fondly as you recount the day's adventures (or misadventures 🥴), only interjecting with small exclamations at the interesting parts, and small sighs of sympathy at the rather sad ones. "don't worry, dear, for i'm always here for you! don't forget it!" and placing a small peck on your cheek, she disappears into the bathroom for a nice warm shower.

gift giving -

her love language! she loves quality time as well but she has so little time to spend with you. so, she makes it up with gifts! every friday before she heads off, at the crack of dawn, to the knights' headquarters, she leaves a dandelion on your bedside table, so you can awake to it's soothing glow. every anniversary, she picks up something related to your newest interest from "with wind comes glory". and every time she goes away on a business trip, to the corners of fontaine or even to the depths of enkanomiya, she'll pick up a small souvenir, no matter how dangerous it was to get (you've gotten several monster drops from her, and put them to good use at timaeus' crafting station. still... it was a little concerning).

bonus - jean's playlist for the two of you <3

tender as a tomb - tennis / dandelions - ruth b. / space girl - frances forever / strawberry blond - mitski / blueberry eyes - max, suga / softly - clairo / romantic lover - eyedress <3

#merry go round of life ; 🪅#leo minor ; 🌬#idolteyvat #jean gunnhildr x reader #jean x reader #jean x you #jean x y/n #jean genshin impact #genshin impact #jean gunnhildr

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shenheshipwindow · 2 years

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insecurities

pairing: shenhe x gn! reader

genre: comfort; reverse comfort; no set time frame; scenario but in bulleted point form / maybe headcanons? idk actually

cws: being insecure ? , cursing

a/n: happy belated shenhe day hehe, love herrr

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shenhe considers your insecurities to be... well, insignificant

she's quite straightforward when telling you how you shouldn't be insecure, as it seems ridiculous to her

"you think you're... ugly? no matter, you don't have to be pretty to have worth. and for the record, i think you're quite attractive."

"what, you think so little of yourself just because you couldn't complete a commission? just try again! you have the ability."

it makes you feel a bit better, or maybe a bit worse? but she's trying her best

she really does not think there is anything you should be ashamed about, but you may not share the same 'idgaf' attitude she does

she'd never heard of insecurities before, until she met you, and that's not necessarily a bad thing

but then she realised she sometimes does give a fuck

"ah, sorry y/n, i can't stomach that much food... body image issues?! no, i don't... care about what i look like."

she's not very convincing.

all she eats are medicinal herbs, please get her some real food </33

she thinks she can't stomach all the food but really, she's a bit insecure about her body and hence doesn't want to eat that much

"shenhe, your worth doesn't depend on what your body looks like, remember? you told me that before. 'and for the record, i think you're very attractive'"

she's also a little afraid of emotions and doesn't understand them. so, she avoids people as much as possible

"just give it a try," you coax her, "just try empathising. i'll help!"

doesn't matter how not-in-touch with your emotions you are, you're bound to be more emotional than shenhe is

she's really just afraid of hurting people with her insensitivity, especially with the red ropes around her

you'll get through anything together!! :D

#merry go round of life ; 🪅#crista doloris ; ❄️#idolteyvat #cw cursing #genshin impact #shenhe x reader #shenhe x you #shenhe x y/n #shenhe genshin impact #shenhe genshin #shenhe gi #shenhe

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I'm so sick of myself, I'd rather be, rather be Anyone, anyone else

,, uh. 3 am lmao and uh <3 xiao please <3

💌 this is FUN <3 TY FOR THE REQUEST hope u like it hehe. idk i think i went a diff writing style for this one?

📌 angst; hurt/comfort ish; took less inspo from the lyrics and more from the vibe <3

[ 3 a.m. ]

it's three in the morning and xiao is plagued by nightmares he can't eat to get rid of. he tosses and turns in bed, expression the same as it always is, which makes you kind of sad. you lift him by the armpits like he's a cat, enveloping him in a hug, and he remains asleep. even you can't get rid of his nightmares for him.

a minute or two pass, and your boyfriend stirs in your arms. "[name], i'm having nightmares again. i'll go sleep on the couch, you stay here," he offers, mind surprisingly sharp for someone who's mind is probably swimming in memories they'd rather forget. you shake your head, too tired to say a word, but awake enough to care about xiao. xiao nods, but doesn't make an effort to go to sleep, and a sense of sadness and jealousy suddenly overwhelms you out of seemingly nowhere.

"do i make the nightmares worse?" you ask tentatively, finding the strength to talk. you know the answer to that. xiao glances away. "you're too good for me, you know that? you're way out of my league. i know you love me, and i love you too, i just wish i could be anyone else. someone who can stop your nightmares," you continue with a heaving sigh. xiao frowns, and this time he's the one who snuggles into your embrace.

"i love you too. and i'm sick of myself too. and the nightmares. god, you make them so much worse, but it doesn't matter. you just remind me of..." he trails off, and you get the feeling that there's someone else who made the nightmares better, and who could probably stop them. you feel a surge of jealousy again, but xiao's expression is soft, eyes brimming with tears. a lover, perhaps, who's name still hangs on his lips, and who's smile still haunts his dreams. that's the someone else you'd rather be, but not the someone xiao'd rather you be, for he loves you as you, nightmares and all.

you're guessing, anyways, and your brain is starting to haze from tiredness. you know xiao loves you and nothing would change that, so right now you're pushing his hair behind his ear and kissing the purple teardrop on his forehead. you try to put a past you never lived through behind you. you know it's not as easy for xiao. and though you both still hate yourselves, you love each other, and by the time you fall asleep, limbs entangled, the nightmares are gone - just for a night (or rather, morning).

#merry go round of life ; 🪅#slow dance with you ; 🎐#anon ; 🔖#lover ; 💌#alatus nemeseos ; 🌬#xiao x reader #xiao x y/n #xiao x you #xiao genshin impact #genshin impact

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shenheshipwindow · 2 years

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hello ariah i am here >:O to req fr ur event !! mayhaps "it's like a polaroid love" - polaroid love, enhypen + 2:19 am (or anything early morning!) w/ kazuha (or xiao!) !! no angst fr this one if possible <3 tysm bb, enjoy ur day! oh but if the song needs to be full ENG tho, then "fly me to the moon, let me play among the stars" - fly me to the moon, frank sinatra instead ^^ c:

💌 fun fact enhypen is the only kpop group i stan huhu~ and ofc non eng songs are alright,, tysm 4 the request !!! hope u like it <3

📌 fluff; canon verse but polaroid cameras exist; much more lighthearted; kazuha is possibly a little drunk.

[ 2.19 a.m. ]

kazuha hangs up the string of polaroids with you, little moments in time neatly captured in small rectangles. kind of a documentation "of your love" as kazuha stated earlier, before realising how sappy he sounded, but you're never gonna let him forget~ you laugh and elbow him in the side, making him yelp and jump aside, dropping the twine. he blushes a little, but picks the string up again, rolling his eyes at your smug expression.

"c'mon, even you have to admit that was so... cringeworthy," you tease, taking a little pleasure in seeing him blush over and over again. "fine," you relent, "it was sweet, but really? lights?" you say, incredulous. kazuha has pinned the string of polaroids onto the wall of your shared home, and is now putting up little crystal cores hung on a string - fairy lights?!

"okay, i know i can be very extra," his voice slurs, "but i just wanna do something special on our anniversary!" you spin around immediately, "our anniversary? of what??" you don't remember anything about an anniversary, on... the 16th of march?! "yeah, this is when we first went to liyue together!" he reminds you, and you choke on air. "really?? and it was so significant that you had to do," you gesture around, "all this?!" kazuha can really be over the top, but you have to admit it's pretty sweet.

as the night (or rather, morning) streches on and kazuha keeps pulling out more decorations out of seemingly thin air, quite like a magician with a string of never ending handkerchiefs, except 10 times more romantic, of course. soon you have a whole picture wall, and kazuha's slumped over your shoulder, snoring just the slightest bit, and you can't help but think to yourself how lucky you are.

#merry go round of life ; 🪅#lover ; 💌#astria ; 🔖#slow dance with you ; 🎐#acer palmatum ; 🌬#kaedehara kazuha x y/n #kaedehara kazuha x reader #kaedehara kazuha x you #kazuha x reader #kazuha x you #kazuha x y/n #genshin kazuha #genshin impact

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shenheshipwindow · 2 years

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rosaria's birthday!

pairing: rosaria x gn! reader

genre: short lil drabble; fluff fluff fluff <3

cws: mentions of alcohol, mentions of knives

a/n: dude this is 3 days late but it's still in her bday week so >:) also the self control i had not to write angst lmfao

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the fact that rosaria even bothered to tell you her real date of birth was something to be proud of; normally she'd come up with a random date to get people off her back, but with you she confessed her real birthday as if it were a crime and she was asking you to cover her up.

she'd normally spend her birthday wiped out at diluc's tavern, til he kicked her out, and then stumble to the church for her duties, very hungover. not that she particularly hated it, but spending time with you was so much better!

she drops her cold and uncaring facade when you show up, hands tucked behind your back as you shielded a nicely wrapped gift from her eyes. you motioned for her to hold out her hands with a smirk, and she squints suspiciously but complied. the grin on your face grew, as you noticed a little bit of colour come to her normally zombie-like complexion, after handing her the gift.

"can i open it now?" she inquires, her voice soft and a little hoarse from misuse. you can feel the butterflies flitting about inside of you as you nod, watching her use her (in)famous silver knife to cut neat lines into the wrapping paper.

she gasped a little when she unveiled the present, her blush getting a little deeper while she thanked you profusely. then she shook her head as if to clear it of thoughts. i have a reputation! she seemed to be thinking, as she returned to her cold-ish demeanour. though a small yet geniune smile stayed hanging upon her lips, which you found yourself kissing as you wrapped her close to yourself.

you pulled away after a little bit, admiring how pretty your girlfriend is under the sunset. you get up, dragging her up to her feet before giving her an invitation; "c'mon, let's go to the cat's tail for a very special drink! i'll pay of course!"

#merry go round of life ; 🪅#spinea corona ; ❄️#genshin writing #rosaria x reader #rosaria x you #rosaria x y/n #rosaria headcanons #rosaria genshin #rosaria genshin impact #help rosaria doesnt sound like a word anymore #rosaria

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shenheshipwindow · 2 years

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do it for her

pairing: fatui harbinger! gn! reader x eula drabble.

genre: angst with a happy ending

cws: mentions of death, killing, kidnapping & drowning.

a/n: sorry if the lore for acquiring a delusion / joining the fatui is inaccurate lol i just went with whatever. anyways, hope this is good enough for my first fic here (longer than i expected lmao) <3

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you didn't mean to get into this mess. but they were threatening the person you loved.

you could tell the fatui were very eager to have you fill in the now empty spot of the 8th harbinger, because of your strength, or wits, or something else entirely. it was quite flattering, you had to admit, but of course you could not accept their offer. the fatui had caused so much death, destruction and overall hurt to mondstadt, and as a proud mondstadter you could and would never do any harm to your hometown.

so, as you sat in a chair, tied up in a dim and dinky basement, you made up your mind that you wouldn't take up their offer. you could find another way to escape, as the people holding you captive were merely henchmen, and no match for you whatsoever.

but your determination was killed, extinguished even, as soon as they brought up her. your beloved girlfriend. you wouldn't put it past the other fatui harbingers to kill her just to get you to join them, the organisation's desperation as obvious as the fear on your face must have been, as hundreds of terrifying scenarios flew through your mind. no, no, eula was more than capable of holding their own! the fatui would be no match for her either! that's what you tried to tell yourself, over and over, but to no avail. the fatui harbingers were strong; if someone of your strength could only be placed 8th on the list of harbingers, you could only imagine how strong the rest of them were.

you had no choice. do it for her.

that day, a mere evening but what felt more like years ago, you left the fatui's dumb basement with the heaviness of your newly acquired delusion weighing down your pocket and an even heavier ache weighing down your heart.

a few months later

eula stormed into the room you shared, her right fist clenched around something, something shiny, fear, hurt and confusion etched onto her face.

"what the devil is going on," eula said in a voice so cold it sent shivers down your spine, "care to explain this little trinket?!"

you'd never heard her this angry, her tone absolutely nothing compared to the 'vengeance' comments she usually made. so you turned around, dreading the worst.

the worst is exactly what you got. the shiny thing in her hand? it was your delusion, glinting with anemo energy. you felt a nervous laugh bubbling up in your throat and tears of frustration welling up, but you quickly shoved all your emotions down. you had to answer her question and explain the situation. you couldn't afford to let things go south, you knew what eula was like.

"listen, eula. they were gonna hurt you! they would kill you if i didn't become a harbi-"

"HARBINGER?! i was expecting you to be a henchman, and that's already despicable of you," she took a sharp breath, eyes shooting daggers into yours. you immediately averted your gaze. you knew how much she hated the fatui, especially given that the lawrence clan had collaborated with them to bring down mondstadt.

"i had no choice, okay!" you blurted out, as her unrelenting glare seemed to bore through you, right into your soul. you bit your lip and stood up, beginning to pace the room, feeling your emotions fighting their way to the top. "they threatened your safety!"

"...and you thought lying to me for months would be better. you know i could have- would have- helped you! the fatui are the bad guys," her tone turned surprisingly soft. she walked towards you, taking your hand in hers. "how much... how much have you been hiding from me?" she said, her voice cracking slightly.

you stared at the ground, adamant not to look at her, yanking your hands out of her grip. that was it for you, emotions surging forward in a giant wave, tears spilling out of your eyes. it wasn't supposed to end like this. she wasn't supposed to find out. "i stole the hydro archon's gnosis, for the tsaritsa. i got into a battle with the- the traveler. and i, i was the one planting those death threats in amber's house that one time." you admitted, voice coming out softer and way shakier than you would have liked. you expected your guilt to dissipate somewhat, expected some sort of weight to be lifted off your shoulders. but instead, it only got heavier.

"you lied to me. you said it's because they would have killed me- do you not trust me, not trust that i can protect myself? it's bad enough that everyone in mondstadt thinks the worse of me, thinks that i'm in the wrong. imagine how they'll react if it turns out the person i loved, the person i thought i could trust, turned out to be a fatui harbinger."

you finally met her gaze, regretting it as soon as you did. it hurt seeing her cry, and it hurt even more knowing that it was because of you, what you did.

"i couldn't risk it..." you whispered, regret engulfing you, filling your lungs. you nearly choked on your tears. your knees shook, sending you straight to the ground, overwhelmed.

"you will pay for this," eula said, and with a sharp turn of her heels she was out of the door.

you wanted to run after her, apologise, leave the fatui. she hadn't officially broken up with you... so you swiped your delusion off the table, ready to break it into pieces, but something was holding you back. it thrummed with an angry energy. unbeknownst to you, you picked up your weapon and followed in eula's footsteps.

you feel like you're trapped in someone else's body. you're still seeing through your own eyes, but it's not your brain doing the thinking. before you can blink, you're outside the knights of favonious office and right in front of eula, weapon raised dangerously close to her chest.

"y/n? what are you doing?" she said, and for the first time you heard some semblance of fear in her voice "i don't hate you- you know, you just betrayed my trust. of course i'm upset! we can work this out you know."

you wanted desperately to agree with her, wanted to thank her, tell her you loved her, but you couldn't. your mouth wouldn't open and your weapon only got closer to eula. she whipped out her claymore then, using it to flip your weapon out of your hand, sending it skidding on the ground. she went quiet, scanning your face in a way that would normally make your face heat up, but you still weren't in control of your body.

suddenly, she snatched your delusion out of your pocket, smushing it triumphantly under her boot. then, feeling suddenly rushed back into your limbs, and you fell forward into her arms.

"thank you, eula. i'm sorry i made such a terrible decision, i-" you immediately stuttered out, "i love you."

"love you too. but, never do that again," she said, kissing your forehead. you nodded, and she led you both home.

#merry go round of life ; 🪅#hope this isnt that bad lmfao #eula x reader #eula lawrence x reader #eula x you #eula x y/n #eula lawrence #eula #genshin impact #genshin writing #genshin eula #genshin eula x reader #aphros delos ; ❄️

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