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caelanglang · 11 months

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Are you by any chance gonna continue the le petit prince skk au, where they were childhood friends and got separated? I really wanted to end it well, it was so beautiful and hurting. T_T

omg yes hi ;w;)// I have a ton of unshared sketches of them actually! The only problem is that the scenes I'm drawing are all over the timeline >w<;; So I don't really know how to share them but!! Rest assured I am working on them ;3c Thank you for asking! It really means a lot to know people like this au ;w;

have this wip sketch of lil Dazai getting his first daruman doll!

#nyehehehehehehe #it's not angst i swear--#maybe i lied idk anymore #im still debating how to end this au tho #it makes me really happy that someone cares about this au aaaaaaaa #daruman doll #bsd #bsd au #inbox #inbox sketch #childhood friends au #skk #little prince skk au

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lucalicatteart · 3 months

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A new sculpture! Finally... I feel like I never sculpt anymore since I'm always sick or have some 500 other things going on or projects to finish, but I'm trying to schedule time to do it more often this year hopefully..! Just a generic fantasy creature as usual, but did try making the eyes a little more sparkly this time.. hrmm..

#sculpture #fantasy art #fantasy creature #art #elf #lol what are the tags I should use... I still never know.. EVIL social media.. hate the idea of tagging anything ever anyway. but alas..#I also would ideally like to start selling them again and open up custom commmissions and stuff again once I can hopefully get paypal #stuff sorted out. and find like.. a good way to do things.. etc.. I did still want to sell them through auction instead of agonizing #over setting prices being afraid they're either too high or too low. So being able to just be like. Here. this is $50. or more. or less.#negotiate. the worth is whatever you feel like it is so i personally dont have to make that decision. etc. lol... But etsy doesn't let you #do auctions or like pay what you want type stuff so.. then I was thinking ebay? but idk.. ANYWAY.. I want to set things #up so I can sell stuff again hopefully. I still haven't fully recovered from the costs of when I had to take my cat to the vet and put #them down last year and etc. So it'd be good to sell a few things. perhaps.. maychance... perhamble... so on and so forthe... ANYWAY #I was going for whiter more milky sort of hair that blends in closely with the skintone but after the paint dried it seems more yellowy kin #of. which is fine. But just not exacltly like my mind vision lol..#Also it's like... wow... someone with face spots and elf ears and a half open mouth with a gap tooth and wavy hair and kind of downturned #eyes... revolutionary... never been seen before... every sculpture I have ever made surely doesnt look licherally exactly like this... LOL #but maybe it's just a style. so what. People have their motifs lol.. Im just getting back into sculpting. I shall sameface in peace. huzzah #Just like the only thing I ever carve out of avocado pits anymore is eyes. Because that's just whats fun to do. I'm going to accumulate lik #25 similar avocado eyes and have nothing to do with them. I was thinking of stringing some together into a necklace of eyes or something li #like that but.. hrmm... ANYWAY.. Love to do the same things repetitively. :3c

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ambagel · 1 month

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Wait hold on, in his anniversary video Barbatos mentions the mc being the brother's attendant?

But in the other videos, it's implied that they don't remember the mc leaving (which is actually something im very disappointed about and really hope isnt the case in the actual story)

In these two specifically, it seems like they aren't aware of the mc's presence in the past/alternate timeline/whatever it is. The only other person who seems like they know is Lucifer

Which also lines up with the end of lesson 40, where he's the only one who says welcome back? So like?? Do only him and Barbatos know? Did they not tell anyone?? Diavolo would probably know as well but I haven't seen anything to show that yet. Anyways I don't really like where this is going, I would really prefer they not make everyone forget the mc disappeared

#of course they could always just be not quite putting the pieces together in these scenes #buuuut at this point im not so sure..#i was hoping theyd take a more “WE MISSED YOU” approach #because if im being honest those are some of my favorite moments #like yay everythings better now lets hug it out #i feel weird about them potentially not knowing about what happened #how would they play that off? solomon already said they were freaking out?#“oh whoops we time traveled just far back enough that no one noticed you were gone”#no #do not do that #that defeats the purpose of this whole shenanigan #they also cant just say it was the regular past #because story inconsistencies #solomon has even commented on how its different #hes like “simeon and luke shouldnt be here”#istg if they try to move past that without explaining i will explode #its a very plausible scenario at this point #theyve done it before #because oh does diavolo just not have the power to spot lies anymore?? ok #anyway im scared for the future of the story #this could go wrong in so many ways #obey me!#obey me! swd #obey me lucifer #obey me satan #obey me luke #obey me barbatos #posts #maybe barbatos just merges the timelines again and thats why everyone feels weird #idk im too tired to think more about this

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iceeericeee · 7 months

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I wonder how many tags i can add on to this

#there must be SOME kind of a limit otherwise posts would get suuuuuuper duper long like is it just 30?#idk but i'm going to find out by simply maxxing out the character limit for each tag and finding out the limit of tags for each post lololo #this is gonna be great. i just have to remember to type without ever using the comma. it shouldn't be too hard right? fuck i almost typed #the comma i'm already bad at this smh my head. also if your still here i commend you. you have a better attention span than i do.#i'm already starting to get bored holy shit this is not happening. i gotta power through this. FOR SCIENCEEEEEEEEEE. or somethinggggggggggg #but fr idk what else to say. maybe just saying that i don't know what to say will be good enough? but does that even count?#I don't even know anymore. ffffffffuck. this is gonna be a while huh? also holy shit if you're still here omg u deserve like. a prize or #something because u definitely didn't have to stay and read all of this bull shit. lololol i typed out bs but decided to just spell the who #thing out just to make it go by faster. i'm so lazy. this is only the nineth tag HOW will i make it to 30. i am sobbing the adhd is adhding #very hard rn. are you still here? bruh this is insane. i have somehow managed to keep ur attention this long and it's just me spouting #absolute balderdash. wait do you know what balderdash even means? i don't care if you do already i'm gonna tell you anyway. balderdash is #basically just another word for nonsense. boom. you learned something new today. balderdash equals nonsense equals this damn post.#why did i decide to do this in the first place. it was a dumb idea. i don't know if i can even keep going. this is only the *counts tags*#it's the 14th tag. we've got a long way to go boys. men. soldiers. comrads. friends. besties peeps. marshmallows.#where was i going with this? oh yeah. trying to max out the limit for tags. dang i almost typed a comma there. i haven't done that since #i think the third or fourth tag. dang that feels like such a long time ago. not for you guys probably. it feels longer because i have to li #type it all out and stuff. so it's definitely gonna feel longer for me. are you still here? good lord don't you have better things to #be doing than reading all of this? we're already on tag number 18. it feels like i should be on the thirtyeth by now. or however it's spell #'toast' you might be wondering 'why are you typing out the names of the numbers instead of say '9' or '5'?' well you see. young one.#this is a strategy i'm using to make each tag slightly longer. even if i don't know how to spell it. it'll make it just a little bit longer #anyway. i got off topic. not that there was ever a topic to begin with. unless it's about making this as long as i can.#which i am apparently good at doing. i guess. are you STILL here? do you seriously have nothing to do? i guess i'm flattered you stayed thi #whole time. instead of reading something else you stayed here. with me. listening to me talk. on the twenty-third tag. oh yeah its tag 23 #except now it's tag twenty-four. how crazy is that. this little talk is almost over. only 6 tags away if memory serves right. this's strang #i kind of don't want this to end. but i know it should. after all there is a limit. but all things must come to and end at some point i gue #i'm running out of things to say. it's probably a good thing it's almost over. hahahahah............... but i don't want to go. i don't wan #to leave this post. i've worked so hard on it. and for what. just for it to end. are you still here? yes? good. i'd hate to end this alone.#thank you for indulging me and my craziness. the end is only 2 tags away now. you can go ahead and leave. i'll be okay on my own. really...#...you're still here? i- i don't know what to say. i suppose a toast is in order. perhaps. for this journey. this stupid dumb post i though #would be fun. i'll make it short. it's the last tag after all. this was fun. but i will never do it again. so long as a i live. i'll miss y

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heraldofcrow · 5 months

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"I hope I could draw more diverse cast 🥺" you say, as you actually DID draw more characters than Bloody Crow this year but you STILL decided to showcase only fanart of him -_-

BECAUSE MY BEST DRAWINGS WERE OF HIM AND THIS IS A PROBLEM!!! 💀💀

#unless i am utterly delusional lol #but passion is where the heart lies!#i draw crow with so much love…i try to get every scar…every shade right…every detail on his hair….#i started drawing because i couldn’t hold back from wanting to draw him anymore 💀💀#i need that passion to extend outwards because it’s also just a safezone being formed #hence the limit i put on myself #“no i must draw Crow because he is the only one i draw well 24/7” umm NO!#i need to stop being a COWARD #there are other blorbos i know could incite my passion but also challenge my skill more #like maliketh maybe #idk it’s complicated and i am rambling lmao #asks #mutuals #art problems

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girl-bateman · 11 days

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Feeling a debilitating sense of dread and despair 🤨 Which probably means nothing😍👍

#girl help i cant get out of bed i feel so so awful for no reason at all #literally my soul is gone or something #i have no desires and no joys and no sense of being blessed #which is crazy bc i love life and im so blessed ! usually.#ig i should do something abt it tomorrow if it doesn't get better #alternatively get back into therapy bc tbh... after that horrible sex thing ive felt kinda off #like even after i was able to eat and sleep and function normally without the tremors and head jerks and whatnot #like its not dramatic anymore but i kinda feel drained of life and joy #moments of genuine happiness and fulfillment are ... ? idk. i did feel happy once this week and that was nice but it didnt last obviously #but like ! im not depressed in a depressed way. i take good care of myself and i read my books and eat food and hang out with friends #i just kinda dont recognise myself ig. i mean i know ill get my spark back but maybe i need some professional help #idk !! it kinda feels very silly tho #like ive been in and out of therapy for more than half of my life. and being one year therapy free was a big step for me !#so going back for this little ridiculous freakout feels like a setback #kinda like im making up things to be wrong with me just so that ill have someone to talk to ? or to have attention idk #it doesn't make sense bc i really was proud for getting bettter and i rly dont want to be in therapy anymore #but who knows 🤷‍♀️#there is also this slight risk. just clinically speaking by purely looking at symptoms of certain things. with no stake in the matter! lol #that there might be something bad and [lets not think too hard about it] that lies as a root cause of my little mental breakdown #like according to my sex having friends losing your virginity is awful but not THAT awful and not in THAT way #and my friend kinda said i scared her with how i was acting when i talked to her abt it. like my demeanour and body language and whatever #and i do trust her to know whats normal versus concerning when i dont have my own stable grip of reality #plus. if i was an outside party and applied my psych education on myself. i would say its not looking super good #but i cant really do that bc im not some random patient. im me myself and I 😩✋️ thank you #but whatever. itll be fine. tomorrow will be a better day ! yay !

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yourqueenb · 9 months

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I’m late on this, but has it already been established that Kaspar was the one who stabbed Nadja after she was already dead? It seemed like they may have been trying to imply that in the scene where we interrogated Kaspar and Emika the first time. But then Kaspar said he didn’t touch anything other than what he needed to to get the garrote out of Nadja’s neck. So I’m not sure if that means we should already know he stabbed Nadja (because you technically don’t have to touch people to stab them) or that he was trying to mislead us again by using that technicality and MC doesn’t know or that he didn’t do that at all and we should still be factoring in the stab wounds and dagger when considering who the murderer is

#choices CoP #choices crimes of passion #choices #choices stories you play #playchoices #the dagger is a collectible item/clue so maybe it’s the last one?#but then again Kaspar and Emika have lied to us by omission before so idk #it kind of makes sense that the murderer wasn’t the one who stabbed Nadja #bc I’ve been trying to make sense of why Nadja’s death would be personal or why they would want to make it *look* like it was personal #but I haven’t been able to come up with anything #I know in a previous posts I said it could’ve been that Vasili was trying to throw suspicion off of himself by doing that #but I’m not too sure of that now #I don’t know anything anymore 😭#choices app #pixelberry studios #pixelberry

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spencereid · 11 months

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thinking abt my dad and getting nauseous fr fr

#like is he the Worst dad? probably not #is he pretty bad? yes.#like as a person and it’s very sad of me being a grown woman and still believing that if i say the Right Thing the Right Way he’ll change #i don’t think anything i say will ever change the fact he thinks (and has literally said) it’s funny to make me upset #to such a point where when we argue he lich rally lies and intentionally miscontrues my argument so i get more worked up #like who says that? who does that? i’ve never had someone treat me like that EVER and if it were anyone else we wouldn’t be speaking anymore #bc that’s fucking sick and twisted and especially to do to YOUR ONLY CHILD #but i keep contact with him bc he’ll help me pay for college and i don’t wanna take out a loan for that #and i WANT a degree and i know i want a degree now but keeping contact with him for money makes me feel so sick #i feel like i’m having to sacrifice my integrity and my autonomy for this #maybe he knows that maybe that’s why he treats me like he does #idk #very long rant sorry it’s 2am and all my friends are asleep and i haven’t stopped thinking abt this for 3 days

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viovio · 2 years

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i swear i had some weird fucking childhood crushes but i can't remember em

#maybe this is for the best #back as a repressed kid i thought to lie about crushes because it was Normal to have them #the first time i head the word was in 1st grade. and when my friends were talking abt it #i thought it was a guy you were friends with and when i said oh (guy friend) they went OOOOO and people #made the friendship weirddd #boys i have lied about having crushes on: coco martin. lawrence from 4th-5th grade #Thats it #our teacher in 6th grade did this joke thing where she paired us up romantically(?) and when my name came up #she paired me with a guy ive never spoken to much and i was like oh i need an appropriate Reaction so iii #idk anime girl giggled and covered my face? weird times like i knew i was bisexual then idk why i did that #i figured it out now so i dont have to lie about having crushes on boys i dont find attractive anymore👍🏼#speak iza

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