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older art from when i was REALLY brainrotting abt him
#persona 5#persona 5 royal#p5#p5r#goro akechi#posting him here cause.... idk who cares ig#god this really lasted 4 months huh#rip goro got dethroned by music video corporate depression man
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Pac: Oh, Nenê... How cute... 🥺💕
After dying to an atomic creeper in a cave and stressing over potentially losing all his items, Pac returns home to set his spawn and receives a sweet surprise:
His cat falls asleep on top of him and purrs when he goes to bed :')
#QSMP#Pactw#Pac#March 28 2024#I had the exact same reaction as Pac my heart frickin melted THIS IS SO CUTE.... AND THE PURRING.... MY HEART#I desperately wish Pac got to hang out with Madagio (in his cat-form)#because cats clearly adore Pac just as much as he loves them#Maybe in an alternate universe Madagio spent a day with Pac#And in that time he learned why Fit came to care for this man so much#I don't need more WIPs on my plate but I am Pondering the idea#If the cat-hybrid Cellbit thing was canon I could crack a joke about the ''cats clearly adore Pac just as much as he loves them'' thing#but alas#For real though lock Madagio in a room with Pac for 12 hours and he'll leave being grudgingly charmed by him#aghhhh#Anyways this is so cute#but also really sad#because how many times do you think Pac's been in his room depressed over his missing son / friends / roommate#only to have his cats burrow under his arm and nudge their way onto his lap?#Don't get me started I'm feeling Emotional about cubito Pac lately
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i really sincerely hope there’s a cool homestuck event this 4/13 because i still haven’t really gotten over my sadness from not being able to attend the cafe one last year
#homestuck#i was supposed to go and was planning to go and then shit Happened#and it was really depressing since the cafe was a One Time Only Thing#and like. a really fun big celebration of fandom history#and a LOT of cool people were there and. Aughh#man i wish i could have gone.#got some of the merch though luckily <\3#op
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SAGESUNE MIKU >:DDD
#i rise from the dead once again!!#sorry about the long periods of time in between me posting#school is absolutely kicking my ass right now and i havent had any time to draw the creatures :(#ive also just been feeling unsatisfied with my art as of late#its probably just too much time online looking at other peoples art making me feel bad about myself#even though im improving as fast as i can it doesnt feel like im getting any better#but i know from experience that that feeling doesnt go away with time#so i guess ill always see flaws in my art no matter how hard i try to get better#man. that got really depressing :/#anyways SAGE!!! i love her she is my favorite of all time and im going to draw her so much yall dont even KNOW :D#ive got tons of other stuff planned too so watch out >:3#i could hit you guys with 6 paragraphs of au lore any day now#sonic the hedgehog#sage robotnik#AWWWHHHGG SHE HAS HER OWN LITTLE TAG IM SOBBING#anyways#sage sonic#hatsune miku#i guess#whoof im scared to post this#or maybe im just exhausted#probably both :/
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of fucking course the best, most harrowing, most gut-wrenching tugs character only appeared in one episode (a bit of ramble in the tags)
#this is tugs#tugs boomer#tugs sunshine#boomshine#<---- evil sinister laughter#fortezza bigg city#senjart#I think he's neat. I also think a bottle of antidepressants could help with whatever hes going through#okay I'm gonna talk for a bit about boomer (mostly about his canon counterpart rather than solely his fbc version)#boomer's character struck a deep chord within me that when rewatching jinxed while sleep deprived I got so scared#his depression? thoughts of sinking himself? claiming that he didn't want any help yet attempted to push just a bit longer when supported?#putting his worth on how useful he is as a machine first? an individual with selfism second? thus deeming himself as a lost cause?#and despite his jaded sardonic demeanor he genuinely cares about others and puts their safety before his own?#like mannnnnn come ON no wonder I couldnt stop thinking about him#his struggles as a clinically depressed person is.... so real?#he says ''I don't want any help'' but he clearly does want AND need help. he goes along with TC and sunshine's hijinks of helping him#gradually went from ''whats the point I'm gonna jinx it anyways'' to ''Ive tried so hard I really have but I cannot. I never had a chance''#he even went ''okay but don't toot'' to TC before his final job! he's entertaining TC and sunshine's theory! he really does want help!#boomer's whole character screams “I want to live but I don't know how”#and man oh man I feel like s01e10 reached out of the screen and drove a stake through my heart#because it's so visceral. it's rang true with my personal experiences#it's so sad. it's probably because I'm sleep deprived but I want to take care of that poor orange thing so badly#boomer most likely thought his final job to tow the schooner will end badly as usual but with how he sounds way more upset when he failed-#-and how he even went ''I can't be bothered to argue anymore''. I have a feeling there's a tiny speck of hope inside him-#-that quickly died out the moment lightning struck and he got towed by the fire chief#and of course he's upset. hes tried so many times to find a way to get rid of the jinx but now? it's as if he's given false hope-#-and the thought of the jinx leaving is something akin to a fairytale. as long as he bears the name ''boomer'' and not ''captain harry''-#-he is doomed to this constant cycle of messing things up when its not his own fault and having other point their fingers at him#that is until he got refurbished into a houseboat (essay material for another day)#theyre never going to write another anthro vehicle character like this anymore . sad
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Come back home when you have some sense
You can throw your life away just not at my expense
You’re not the son I raised
#jhariah#this one just rawrrfrrr#and then uh another line thats like ‘tell me did you raise a man?’#nice#im just listening to the new album to cope with nasty sickness and feeling out of it#god this album is really good it has every emotion in there like this song for example just the part where they scream the chorus its like#hnnnghhh#hm some other moments from the album im liking a lot uhhh i love re: concerns a lot#the part where hes like reading off the complaints and then the part where hes just screaming and its like BAM BAM BAM BAAAM#sasuke is so good and the bit at the end where its like ‘i just want you to know im so so...’#like hes gonna say sorry but cant seem to say the word for whatever reason and i know nothing about sasuke#but i has to imagine the fan girlies are eating gravel over that one lol it gets me#and theres just that like spooky echoing afterwards#the intro to fire4fun goes SOOOOOOOO hard i was losing my shit its awesome#the entirety of trust ceremony is giving me big feelings but specifically that part towards the end where its all quiet and you hear#its like whistling i think? like a marching band is coming in maybe#but it also kinda sounds like nature too and idk i like got a little bit um magical at that part cuz i was driving down a big hill#and it had been raining but there was a clearing in the clouds and the sun was bright and like at this particular hill#you can just see everything like the land stretches for miles theres trees hills the river farms all that shit#and idk with the extreme stress and depression ive been feeling its hard to have these moments where life seems worth it#and its hard to really feel anything anymore or to feel in the moment but idk i was just going down that hill seeing everything and it was#very majestic so yeah that song is definitely gonna have the same effect as pin eye for me#which i must mention pin eye again its still OOOOGHH very good it came at a pretty good time for me#yeah basically this album is uhhhh whats keeping me somewhat grounded rn i recommend 👍
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forever friends................dream team...............for all eternity...........
#the ghost and molly mcgee#tgamm#tgamm spoilers#scratch mcgee#scratch tgamm#molly mcgee#todd mortenson#thank you for everything tgamm 😢#the series finale absolutely WRECKED me#i was BAWLING#what a perfect ending...#scratch is such a special character...the way this show depicts depression and mental illness really hit me so personally#it's really making me rethink my perspective on life...i'm gonna hold this stupid ghost man close to my heart for a long time#i've been watching this show since the day it premiered so it's crazy to see it end...#i wish it got treated better by disney but i'm so grateful for what we did get#also while i was coloring this i realized the shirt scratch wears at the end of the episode is the same color scheme as his ghost design...#😢😢😢
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the fact there's a parallel universe out there where he actually named the channel "sneeb" instead of "chonny jash" terrifies me.
#like “man did you see sneebs upload today?” “aw yea it was good as hell i love sneebs voice”#“man sneebs song really hit me today it got me rlly emotional”#“damn sneeb rlly knows how to make a good melody”#“did you know sneebs album is a metaphor for depression?” like i do not want to live in that world that name is so unserious#like no one would EVER take you seriously#a joke name off of johnny cash is one thing but like....*sneeb*#i don't wanna be the me that talks about some guy named sneeb all day#i dont want on cover duty like your name was fuckin sneeb in my song man#i cant#also i almost typed sneeb snogs instead of sneeb songs#the evil chonny jash is sneeb#sneebs shitty sophisticated syllabus#its like 3am bro idk what im saying#chonny jash
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How had ryukitann got together? 🤔
sorry this is a little rushed, but in general i think this is the gist of how they’d get together
#persona 5#ryuji sakamoto#yusuke kitagawa#ann takamaki#ryuann#ryukita#annkita#ryuannkita#PS SORRY IF IT SEEMS LIKE I POSTED TWICE. TUMBLR REALLY WOULD NOT LET ME INTO MY QUEUE I PROMISE#I remember trying to write fic for them and gave up#there are no non-E rated fics for these guys and that is so depressing man#I hold this ship so very close to my heart fr#it’s the only one that’s really survived from my first playthrough of p5#bc before I was into Shu///ake I was huge on Shu///yuu and polythieves in general#then I kinda settled into what I like now as I got more into the fandom#aNYWAY THO THANK U FOR THE ASK#my brainworms are progressing#I can see some people thinking ryuji is problematic here and. yes<3#I didnt have time or space really to like. make a bigger fallout before everything is resolved#so obviously intruding upon dates is not healthy but let’s just ignore that for my boi ryuji#long post#ask
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Spirit animal SQH
#svsss#shang qinghua#but mainly I'm just here to vague post LMAO I don't like to vague post its not very effective in terms of venting but#but basically I guess I'm becoming hyperaware of my like... cognitive dissonance codependency and derealization ee#also my general laziness ig and where it overlaps into executive dysfunction or whatever like I may genuinely have some issues but#I am also a lazy son of a bitch jfjfkgkg and i need to figure out how to figure it out so I can work on both in more effective ways hhggg#oh yeah but basically the thing to remember for later is the silence in the call and the immediate unmute and chat activity once I left#I should remember this and stop interacting I think? I should try to give em space I think I'm being too clingy or something#or maybe my own silence is too awkward and dampens the call? I was kinda just spacing out and not doing anything so I get its kinda weird#LMAO so I should just like try not to be in call for those times mm#I just like being in call with my friends jdhfkg but I suppose its not very good either#I overindulge I suppose another friend pointed it out to me before too haha but fjfjjt its just easier than facing bouts of dread by myself#eehh and that's why I gotta do something about my Metnal Ailneses hfjfj but ngl I don't really know how to go about it...#I get embarrassed looking stuff up djfnfkg and half the time I don't even know what to look up I just draw ?s and I give up#I suppose I also have commitment issues too but that ones not new which is an issue of itself aaaaaaaa#man idk idk I just don't really get it I guess djdjfjf and I've got existential dreads and think maybe it doesn't really matter whats wrong#cause there's no point to fixing them because ultimately I'm gonna die alone and a failure anyways? so like ehfjgkg idk#its depressing and I know its like sabotage cause my brain is being a little silly a little goofy and its not a shared sentiment#with the better half of me and the entirety of my friends but yknow its just ee harder sometimes to believe in the optimism ig#and i can talk about it somewhat normally and without like having a ✨️break down#but yknow djfjgkg I'm very emotional a person ya? I think sqh is relatable for gods sake 💀#irrationality sentimentality nihilism and existential dreads... wanting to die because living is too hard despite all my hopes for living...#just the ol regulars yknow?#and another thing... do I talk to my friends about these things? I vent them out here a lot but what do I really want?#I'm not strong enough to keep it to myself clearly but I'm also too proud to share these thoughts? I dump them out in the open and for what?#whenever someone reaches out with concern and care I don't respond in kind and refuse to elaborate?#so like what do I want with this? I guess I want someone to know I'm going insane half the time I'm awake? but not do anything about it?#that's pretty unfair I guess... and stupid I think I do want to share my thoughts with someone but I'm too scared of the ramifications#and that my pride can't stand the fact I might be looked differently by my friends even tho the image they have of me is already quite silly#man.... idk.... I'll come to conclusions myself and do nothing about them so I guess that'll happen again aah idk idk idk
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CRYING CAUSE WHAT IF-
FT. Jotaro Kujo
WARNINGS: angsty fluff. Please tell me you see the vision too and that I’m not just going crazy.
“Jotaro… do you think things will be like this forever?” You ask as your back hits the grass, your eyes focused on the beautiful stars of the night sky above you.
It’s always been like this.
It’s always been you and him, against the world.
He scoffed, pulling out a cigarette and lighting it before answering you. “That’s a dumb question.” Though, he couldn’t help but wonder the same.
“I know,” your voice came out as strained, and you had to turn your head away from his so that you could hide your quivering lip. “But I just don’t know what I’d do with myself if things changed…”
You were met with silence, and it only worsened your grief. Your high school years weren’t supposed to be like this. You were supposed to go off and discover who you wanted to become in life, and to grow as a person. You were supposed to enjoy what little youth you had left, not have it torn away from you so quickly.
Jotaro wanted to tell you that it would stay the same. He wanted to say that he would always be here for you, but he’d be lying.
After all, the both of you had totally different plans for yourselves after graduation.
He was supposed to go to university and you were going to travel. You had tried to convince him to come with you, to see the world in all its glory, but he refused.
If he had gone, he never would have come back, and he couldn’t do that to his mother.
“Yeah. We’ll be stuck together for a long while.”
Finally, after all your time going abroad, you’ve come back home to the place you grew up.
You’re in your forties now, and aren’t exactly as young as you once were, but you haven’t changed a bit since you left. Many people had recognized you, and had smiled when you walked past them on the street.
But it just didn’t feel right.
Actually, you felt more alone than you typically did while on your journeys.
Was it because you had just passed your former high school? Or was it that every man you passed reminded you of Jotaro and your time in Egypt?
Either way, something felt off.
“Y/n?”
You spun around as quickly as possible, your eyes wide in anticipation as you met the man that had consumed your every thought since you left.
“Jotaro.” You grinned, and your gaze moved to the young woman that stood behind him, awkwardly looking away from you. Ah. So he did get married after all. “It’s good to see you again.”
Wow this was awkward.
“We should meet up later, or something,” he avoided your gaze, which you found to be strange. “A-Actually- can you come over?”
Did he just stutter??
The woman behind him snickered and he rolled his eyes. “What I mean is that you and I have a lot of catching up to do,” he paused, his eyes finally meeting yours in a way that made your heart melt. “And… I’d like for things to be how they were. If you’re alright with that, of course.”
“Jotaro Kujo,” you smiled brightly, barely able to contain your tears of joy. “I’ve been waiting years to hear you say those words.”
#I’m going through it rn man I’m not well (I’m fine I’ve just got early fall depression)#fuck man I’m really living it up at uni#I need like a hug or some bs JENSNNSNWNSMA#jotaro x reader#jotaro kujo x reader#jjba angst#jjba x reader#jojo’s bizarre adventure#jojo’s bizzare adventure x reader
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Chapter three was, something
So here is my tribute for it because God it’s so good. Here’s the link for this chapter, if you haven’t read it yet please I beg you to do so💖 read @flowercitti works they’re awesome ✨
I’m not even sure if I did Vash right but fuck it we ball, truly sorry if it is inaccurate ㅠㅠ
#trigun fanfiction#trigun fanart#Trigun#vash the stampede#Vash#nicholas trigun#nicholas d wolfwood#nick wolfwood#trigun fic#i am abnormal about these two and will spiral into insanity gladly and for free#spreading the pretty WW agenda too bc he is and idc#he’s handsome too but he deserves to look all pretty as wel#never going to draw this man the same way twice probably#anytime I read about his curls framing his face or bouncing a lil I get a bit more crazy#and about Vash#well he is turbo depressed#wolfwood really saw this mentally ill man and didn’t hesitate to swipe smash#and Vash isn’t any better that’s the whole principle of it#isn’t that Vashwood in a nutshell anyways#I also got the wonderful experience of looking up references for Vash’s coat based on the manga#if you know how it is you know what I’m trying to say#lenssi draws#lenssi reads
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Seriously tempted to make a highkey detached headcanon/pseudo-analysis post regarding Zant and gender. Probably a bad idea.
#scrawny rambles#zant#strong emphasis on the pseudo it's red string pins and corkboards fueled by audhd & months if not cumulative years of hyperfixation#my thing is that the optics are awful and this is tumblr#when it's like. alot of finding my gender issues and feminine rage in a character that... does not play *well* with that#it could be seen as crossing a line when i'm closeted transmasc and i see them as. well closeted *something else*#if that makes sense#it's deeply meaningful to me and comes from a place of compassion#but i think even someone in good faith can see the obvious issues with that#let alone the numerous people who either don't/no longer have the patience#or are looking for a fight#idk man. don't really have anyone personally to talk about this with that has the same extensive bg on the guy as i#i've got good and eager friends#but i'm giving them the context— the conversation is inherently led and skewed by my biases in a topic i have wayyy too much investment in#and they don't. yknow?#as opposed to presenting it to other people who share it and have wider context#and the sense to know if i'm bullshitting#the lens ends up being an addition instead of the groundwork; y'feel?#it's 1am god help#seasonal depression has my sleep schedule in a shit pit. sad!#tl;dr: things that look bad unfortunately compell me and that's why i give villains 18752489 flavours of queer biracial and neurodiv. ty.#just like me fr frrrrr
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yes, death mark is a rather flawed game. its got a lot of problems in all three iterations and in some ways death mark one, while being less technically impressive (lack of animations, no character sprites actively moving, art a little worse overall, less character sprites in general) it kind of handled a lot of very important aspects of the game better. namely, the plot, character integration/interaction, timeline, and yashiki just being a lil baby who isnt straight up inexcusably bad at his job--
but you must consider this:
Death mark 2 yashiki bondage CG,
#its got so so so many problems that felt easily fixable with just. more or better writers#the ghosts are less scary and the fanservice is still gratuitous to hell#the new system for battling is cooler i Think maybe havent decided but#man MK ghost was So disappointing it was unreal#thaat ghost was just... not scary#they went a kind of comedic route with the designs that feels underhanded#why do they have googly eeyes who decided that#also the weird student teacher love stuff#which makes sense considerin ght eplot but i wish it was handled better#in general a lot of the writing could have been handled btter by far--#regardless of that tho the presence of flaws make it easier to latch on as a creator#bc theres LOTS to do in terms of fix ups and changes in fic#and lots to discuss#depths' talks#death mark#i really hope this isnt the last of the series but according tot he studio it is#which SUCKS im DEPRESSED
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My little brother (an adult) (autistic) found out I wasn't feeling well and asked me what would make me feel better and when I said I wasn't sure, but I was doing my best to keep busy and cheer myself up, he went quiet for a little bit. And then started meowing at me and using his favorite phrases to denote when he's thinking about cats and it took me a minute to realize what was going on and ask him to clarify, but he was trying to make me feel better by getting me to think about cats because that's what makes him feel better when he's sad???? Anyways that put years back on my life
#personal#He's got a hard time understanding concepts and ESPECIALLY emotionally involved ones#so going “Sorry man I'm just mega depressed for no good reason bc my brain just kinda Does That every couple months for funsies”#doesn't really click for him and I don't blame him bc it's STUPID#So I simplify with “I'm just sad for no reason and that's kind of silly! I'll feel better later though don't worry"#And this was the first time he's really thought about it and done something without direction to try and help and ngl the sentiment did mor#than any antidepressant ever did for me
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other swtor players: move onto an understandable objectively better pipeline game like bg3 or ffxiv while waiting for new content
me: it's-a mario time
#ooc#funny observation.#thousand year door announce awakened something in me and it was the bing bing yahoo game#this is such. a dumb hyperfixation phase to be in but i think i got tired of serious games and needed something fun.#weirdly enough i didn't even like mario when i was younger but now i do???#it's just a charming/fun series that helps a lot with depression or not having enough energy to do complicated mechanics/pay attention#im kinda mad that the funny yahoo pizza man games are really good.#that being said the mario luigi rpg games have made me swear out loud like 45 times#im also sort of sad that my ffxiv interest is falling again
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