Imagine you're Gabriel and it's your birthday. Your boyfriend Ferryman promised you a huge gift, but on your special day he never shows up. Crying yourself to sleep you wonder if he cared at all. The next day you wake up to the news Ferryman died trying to drive two ferries to heresy at the same time </3

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' why did you even go back to him ? ' / closed starter for @lvciddreamt , based .

i hate country music i literally cannot do this anymore

luke is shivering, he can't help it.

he doesn't- he doesn't miss this part of being sober. fuck, wasn't he just warm only days ago ? now it'd felt like- it'd felt like he's back there somehow, back there and terrified out of his goddamn mind, and he wants- he wants so badly to run away, to hide, maybe to be with joey while they shit talk about what the centre's gonna have for dinner that night, but- but he isn't. maybe luke isn't shivering from the cold at all, maybe it's just nellie.

and he doesn't want to blame it all on just nellie, because he knows what nell feels like, or- or what their twin thing feels like, and it isn't- it isn't this intrusive, this bad, so this must be something else. so this must be— luke doesn't want to think about it. ( big boys know the difference between what's real and what's not, that's what dad says, and dad is the adult, dad knows better, so he must be right. and steve— oh steve. fuck steve. but... steve would agree. steve would tell him that it's just - hallucinations. stress. drugs. anything - even though luke's been clean for 90 days, he swears. )

so he counts to seven: one, two, three, four, five, six, seven. again, dad, mom, steve, shirl, theo, nell, luke.

luke re-focuses, blinks, then tries again. ❛ i don't - i don't get it, ❜ he looks to nell, and he can tell she's terrified. he can feel it. underneath all that cold, or maybe mixed into it. it's so cold; it feels like the storm that night. like empty halls, and unoccupied corridors. like a ghost with a hat just waiting by the corner, crying come home, my love, and luke is frozen still - he'll focus on nell. because nell is real; because she isn't a hallucination, or byproduct of stress, or drugs. she's right here, and she needs him. and luke'll always help. always.

❛ you - you went b-back ? ❜

@sordidery :)

luke.

luke.

haley james scott  ,  what could be worse than getting to the end of your life and realizing you hadn't lived it?

             ‘ living a life so filled with annoyance that you’re running t’get to th’end of that life, ’  voice is flat, hard to tell whether he’s joking or not, though when luke does glance over the counter at haley, his features soften just so. hand works at a tough stain on the bowl in his hands. he doesn’t want to be that guy who says back in his day, but luke does remember being her age, having uncertainty settle a bit too deep into his chest. what was he going to do with his life? was he living it to the fullest? telling her all of those doubts usually went away with age didn’t seem the way to go, but they all knew luke wasn’t exactly the best at being sentimental, either.  ‘ you’re not really worried about that stuff right now, are you? you’re still young, you’ve got years t’live. why rush it now? ’     @ttrgrl.

kailee amore  ,  ✐ for a randomized dialogue starter.

             ‘ nothing I’ve tried to do by myself has ever come out, ’     @wornskirt​.

i keep looking at the gif of luke in ketterberg with mieu hiding underneath his cloak. thats so cute. theyre so cute. i have to actually watch the anime now.

@childactress​ asked: 📲 luke

📲 — to have my muse tweet at yours

Tracy Chapman and Luke Combs performing Fast Car at the Grammys

' it's just some errands for my father out of town , you don't have to come with me . i know you still don't trust me . ' / closed starter for @vitriolfilled .

that scene in tlo where thalia tells percy he can't start feeling sorry for luke bc luke made his choices. and thalia reveals that the reason they couldn't make it to camp in time for all of them to make it to camp was bc luke kept picking fights. and annabeth never saw this as wrong bc luke was her hero. so thalia had to pick up the pieces. and percy thinking both that luke was put in a cruel position and that luke was putting others in a cruel position. and percy is the only character who understood both sides of luke bc annabeth sees only the best of him and thalia sees only the worst. and that's why percy is the prophecy kid and the one who gives luke the knife. bc annabeth had spent the entire series essentially giving luke the knife when he didn't deserve it. and thalia was never going to give luke the knife. but percy is the only one who can see exactly when luke deserves the knife.

* a discussion :    nellie and luke's sensitivity — taken from fightsbck because... that's me lol :) but generally, this is the discussions of how i saw nell and luke's reactions are to the supernaturals and how much their "sensitivity", overlooked, in turn affected them.

to begin, first and foremost,    yes.    i do believe the twins have inherited olivia’s “sensitivity” along with their siblings upon birth.   olivia has established having known this,   or at least suspected,  when she openly asked nellie for her opinion about the house upon moving in,   and marvelled when all nellie responded was that it was “cold”.    without further ado,   let’s break down the exact abilities that have been showcased by the twins so far:

second discussion : establishment of abilities.

mediumship, the ability to observe and communicate with spirits.   additionally,   while the twins may not be able to differentiate it when they were much younger,   i do believe that they both eventually grew to learn to naturally spot spirits amongst the livings.   however,   given how their sensitivity was treated and past experiences,   they would either ignore it and pretend they haven’t seen it,   or,   they make a quick escape because spirits,  mutually sensing their abilities to see them when no one else could,   tend to flock around them.

precognition / second sight, the ability to perceive future and/or past events via extrasensory perception usually in the form of a vision.  think:  seer.

telepathy ( with high focus upon emotions-sharing ), ability to transmit or receive communication, in this case in forms of strong emotions whether physical or mental, via thoughts supernaturally.   however,  this ability seems to only be effected among the twins and not the rest of the crain family members. 

temporary possession of body, * highly headcanon based,   but i also believe the twins have a suspiciously sensitive vessel that may allow temporary  (  or,  in some dangerous cases,  permanent  )  possession by spirits.   with their permission,   the possession process is easier;   without,   the physical body may react negatively.

in my interpretation as well:   the twins are powerful psychics with an equal amount of power distributed between them.   however,  whether they both have manifested them at the same level during the same time is a different discussion altogether.

second discussion : sensitivity in reflections of health.

in any case,   luke and nell’s abilities as supernatural psychics depended wholly on their health   -    whether that being physical or mental,   it doesn’t matter.   the healthier they are,   the less haunting they will receive.    the longer their health deteriorates,    the stronger the haunting can become and the faster it will to overwhelm them.   

case-in-point:   when nell’s health soars as soon as she fixes her sleeping pattern and falls in love with arthur,   the less she’d see of the bent-neck lady.    luke’s case on the other hand,   can obviously be studied during the betrayal of joey,   how he’d gotten physically assaulted in the streets and then later felt the cold and painful sensation at nellie’s departing that his ghost, the tall man in the hat,  came to visit him again.

now a point can be brought up:    when luke was effected by the drugs and thus,  his physical health went down,   why wasn’t he actively haunted then?    well,  to be honest,   he took the drugs  because  he wanted the haunting to stop.   taking drugs dampened his abilities effectively,    but not enough   -   clearly   -    because eventually,   the hauntings always came back.    to add to that,   luke and nellie shared a strong emotional telepathic communication:   everything nellie felt,   luke felt with her.   and while it’s no excuse,   since nellie went through the same thing,    feeling her suffer and in pain can be too much for him when he’s struggling on top of handling his own haunting.   another reason he’s taken to the drugs was because he wanted that temporary dullness to their connection.   it’s shitty,   of course,   since nellie clearly depended on the connection, but it’s partly what led him to addiction.

third discussion : addressing ability of precognition.

i'm sure you're asking:   bella,   when the hell did they predict the future?    well,  to be fair,   i don’t think they are able to. i think they can somewhat perceive them rather than outrightly predict them,  though one may argue that this may just be something they picked up due to the sickly nature of the house not completely obeying to the rules of time.    however,  to further support my case,   remember the scene where nellie had visions of luke poisoned on the ceiling?   yes,   that’s what i meant by them being able to perceive future / past events.    (   past,  can be attributed to the fact that nellie has been visited by ghosts of her own self throughout the span of her being alive,  maybe ?   )     of course,   luke didn’t exhibit this ability.   but again,  remember:   luke’s health,  at this point,  was progressing well while nellie’s was going through the opposite effect. the haunting was stronger on nellie and her "sensitivity meter"  was going haywire.  it’s like her abilities are pouring out without any filters,  which isn’t all good since she’s had no proper practise nor firm understanding of it,   because eventually the haunting overwhelmed her and,   in spite of her last-minute realisation that she has been manipulated,   she was brutally killed.

fourth discussion : why was it important to address their abilities?

so anyway,   the summary for this is just that:   their lives would be so much better had the family genuinely discussed or they were not gaslighted into thinking everything was simply a tragedy, or something completely than whatever they were seeing.   i don’t think luke would be so easily dismissed from his “active imagination” and nellie’s cries for the bent-neck lady won’t simply be treated as a nightmare.   in fact,   proper discussions about how to handle  -  and possibly fight  -  the negative haunting’s influences could have been held, leading to  their mental health not having to suffer so much. had their sensitivity been addressed by either parents, or at least were acknowledged far more properly, they would’ve understood why this was happening to them,    or at least had known enough of their abilities to know that they aren’t “crazy” or what they’re seeing aren’t just “imaginary”. of course,   i won’t deny that luke would still  …   be experimenting with drugs.   choices of his life along the way may largely still lead him to be an addict,   but at the very least,   he would’ve been much,  much sober sooner once he knew nellie was in danger.   i believe like,   if they had known about their abilities,    “warnings” in forms of hauntings from the house would’ve led him to reach out to his family quicker because apart of him would figure that one — or more — of his family member are being actively targeted. nellie too,  i think,  would’ve had a better chance at possibly knowing she was in a trance and that arthur was just a figment of what the house wanted her to believe was real.   thus,  she could’ve had a chance at escaping much earlier than when she was fooled and realised she was already standing at the edge.

tl;dr    luke and nellie crain are powerful psychics / mediums by blood.   they just don’t know it.   if they had,  circumstances might’ve turned out differently for them and not necessarily have to end with one of the twins sacrificed due to ignorance on this particular yet large aspect of their lives.

as a sidenote ( added in 2023) i would also like to address how, it is easy to see these 'hauntings' were clearly a metaphor or parallel to the discussions of mental health, and how often even close family members could dismiss the issue or "pretend not to see it" until it is too late, or, how a deteriorating mental health could and has led to many burning their bridges when the sick are at their worst. haunting of hill house is a complex, realistic study on the subject revolving heavily around the themes of familyhood and, even years later, i'm in love with the series.

luke: *is the lightening thief*

me, who’s known that for literal years:

Everyone holding Annabeth to an impossible Standard

And then there’s Percy