MCLLL Episode 17 Rayan

I finished Rayan’s route of MCLLL episode 17. It cost me 844 AP. I got Rayan’s illustration. Here is the link to his illustration because of NSFW: https://magicbelodie.com/wp-content/uploads/2023/07/1427-4446b332e9ceb50e1688630333.jpg Here is the summary:

You start this episode on a plane. You are just waking up. Rayan is sitting next to you on the plane. Rayan kisses you and you two look out the window. You two could see a group of lush islands. Rayan and you are going to spend here 15 days. The flight lands, you pick up your luggage, and a limo brings you two to the hotel. The hotel you two are staying is the same from episode 5 alternate life Kentin. Darma welcomes you two and brings you both to the honeymoon suit. At the last minute, Rayan and you changed plans to go here instead of the Mediterranean region. Your Aunt told you about her trip and stay here. It just sounded like the place to go. Rayan and you are very happy with the room. You two deserved this after the year you have been through. You two kiss tenderly. After that long flight, you could use a shower. After you get out, Rayan goes in. You are both now only in your underwear. You suggest to Rayan to get a little massage. But when Rayan sees you like that, he wants to do something else. You think Rayan's right. He wants you to close your eyes. You close your eyes and Rayan puts your eye mask over your head. You are left in the darkness. It heights your other senses. You feel his hands move over your body, undoing your clothes. Rayan guides you towards the bed. There, his hands go over your body while he whispers in your ear; that you wanted a massage. He starts kissing your neck well, massaging your breast. The kisses go lower on your body. You open up your self to him. You don't know how long he keeps desiring you, you are totally lost in the dark. Rayan goes up again. His hand move back to your breast. Then he starts to kiss your breast. You can't take it anymore. You take off your eye mask. And pin him on the bed and go sit on top of him. You find the right rhythm and you both come undone. You both collapse on the bed and tell that you love each other. The night starts to fall. You two order room service and go to sleep. The next day starts after a perfect night of sleeping. You two go downstairs for breakfast. While you are eating, you see Darma. He asks if you two are enjoying your stay. You two are, everything is perfect. He also reminds you two that the hike to the Volcano leaves in an hour. You both finish your breakfast and go back upstairs to get ready. There you get to choose your outfit. There is only one outfit to pick. Then, you decide also to bring the water bottle with you. Rayan and you go downstairs. There you notice that you forgot your phone. But you have no time to go back upstairs. Rayan and you go on the bus. It takes you both to the start of the hike. There, a guide welcomes you with instructions. Then you two start the walk. While you two are walking, the guide talks about the surroundings. You get to take a break when you can see the volcano. It is beautiful. Rayan and you are holding hands. You two wish to be alone. Rayan sees a path and you two start walking it. You both find your own little paradise. Rayan and you are hugging under some trees. You enjoy this moment a lot, but it is better to get back to the group. You two try to find your way back. But when you are back, the group has already left. You don't hear their voices anymore. Rayan takes out his phone. He has no network. But you have to find the group and start walking. You two have to continue the direction you took. Then you suddenly hear a voice. You both think it is the guide. Turns out it were parrots. You think you need to find a safe place. But it is too early for that, maybe you can still find the group. Rayan and you walk further. You have come to this place for the fourth time. Conclusion, you two are lost. It is already four o'clock. Three hours left until the sun starts to go down. Rayan sees it more likes a game. You make him clear how serious the situation is. Rayan and you need an overview of the place. You two decide to go back to the place with the beautiful view. There you see the volcano again. It is better to go there than to stay in the jungle. You are going to use the phone as a compass. Rayan and you find a waterfall, there you see some fruit. You take the big hairy fruit. Rayan and you walk further. Then suddenly a small tiger moves a cross your path. Rayan stays calm and establishes our dominance by looking at it. You two start to count and clap at the same time. Rayan takes a step towards the tiger, and it goes away. You are really proud of Rayan. You both walk fast away and find some water. There you take a little break. Then you find your way to the volcano. At volcano, you find a cave you two can stay in. You two use Rayan's shirt as a filter for the water. So you two can drink. Then you two need to make a fire. You are going to collect some wood. You walk to some trees and take the lowest branches. It took you awhile to get some, but you found enough for a fire. Now you need to get the fire on. It was a good idea to take your bottle with you. With a stone, you cut off the end of your bottle and use it as a magnifying glass to get the fire started. It keeps on burning and you have fire. You are proud of yourself. The night starts to fall. Rayan stand up to watch the sunset. You go stand next to him. He wraps his arms around you. You two stay like this until sunset. Then you need to eat something. You look at the fruit you took with you. A monkey comes towards you, and you share the fruit with it. The monkey leaves. And Rayan and you go sit in each other's arms. You could have fallen asleep like this, but something keeps you awake. You go sit back, up again. The stars look beautiful. Just like a real painting. People used to think that those stars were souls from people who died. You ask if Rayan still thinks about his wife. He does, the story he has with you is beautiful. But Rayan believes that she shines a light from above up on him. You ask Rayan if he is still sad about losing her. No Rayan has recovered from that. And after that, you came into his life. Because of you, he knows what love really means. Rayan thinks that if his story has been different. That he met you before he met his wife. His wife and he would have been good friends instead of love. If fate wasn't so cruel, this would have happened either way. Rayan thinks that his wife is happy to see Rayan this happy right now. Rayan thinks now of her like a friend that has gone too soon. You wish you could have met her. But she is now a star up in the sky. You two hug each other in the light of the fire. Rayan and you must have fallen a sleep. The light of the sun wakes you up. The view of the sunrise is incredible. You were probably the first ones to seen it for a while. You stay hugging each other for a few minutes while enjoying the view. What should you do now. Rayan still has some battery left on his phone. He walks up to the volcano to get some signal and opens up a map to make a path back. You could lose signal again. But it is better than nothing. You start following the path. You two found the waterfall from yesterday. These means you are on the right track. Then you hear a sound. It is the sound of a motor from a car. You two run towards it and find a jeep with the guide in it. They were looking for you. You were not the only ones who were worried yesterday. The guide brings you back to the hotel. Darma is there waiting for you. He is so happy that you two are back. Because of what you went through, you don't have to pay for your stay and the extras you want to take. That was the least he could do. Darma brings you two back to the room. Rayan takes the first shower, and then you go in it. When you get out, you put on your bathing suit. Rayan is already in the swimming pool. You go sit on the side of the pool and take off your bathing suit in front of his eyes. Rayan swims towards you and stands between your legs. You two share a kiss and you get the illustration. His kisses go down your body. You open up your legs. Your fingers are lost in his hair. He keeps filling your desire while you lean backwards. He knows you by heart and knows how to please you. You let out a moan of pleasure. Rayan gets out of the swimming pool and goes to lie upon on you. Rayan looks so beautiful with the sun behind him. You kiss each other while he enters you. You both keep on kissing. With each movement, you feel his desire. You both come undone. He goes to lie next to you and keeps you in his arms. He will never let you go, the episode ends.

I miss you my loves

hello! do you have any headcanons of Castiel reaction when Candy is in danger/injured?

Castiel, Rayan & Nathaniel’s reactions to Candy being injured 

N/A : It wasn’t specified in the request in which season of MCL this was supposed to happen so I chose UL (and while I was writing it, I wanted to include Rayan and Nathaniel). I hope this is okay and that you like it anon !

𝙲𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚎𝚕 :

As we know, Castiel is often very busy in UL (which was a shame because it kept us from spending quality time with him in the game for most episodes)

Therefore, he doesn’t have much time to spend with Candy (as I just said lol)

His reaction could depend on whether him and Candy are dating at this point or not but in my opinion, it wouldn’t matter much 

It’s obvious that Castiel has a soft spot for Candy no matter what, right ? 

When he hears about Candy being injured, his brain just stop 

He’s a bit in shock as he didn’t expect this and he’d ask immediately what happened 

Then he’d rush to see her, wherever she is (if she’s in the hospital for instance, you can be sure that this boy basically jumped in his car)

He’d feel awful seeing Candy in pain and he’d feel even more awful because he knows he’s often not available for her

Really he’d be mad at himself because he realises that it needed for Candy to get injured for him to clear his schedule and go see her 

He’d promise her that from now on, he’d make more room for their relationship and for her in his life 

Starting by cancelling everything he had planned for the next few days so he could stay by her side 

At this point, he wouldn’t care much if his manager or even the members of the band are pissed at him because yes, his career is important to him but not as much as Candy is 

Also, he knows that if it was him who got injured, Candy wouldn’t have hesitated twice to do so, hence it’s the least he can do

Honestly, he’d take good care of her and would absolutely do anything she asks 

She needs a glass of water ? Give him two-seconds and he’s back with one. She wants to eat or get something but can’t do it herself ? My boy is already on his way

If she got injured because of a domestic accident or anything, he’d tease her a bit about how clumsy and careless she is (that would depend on the gravity of the injury of course)

If it is because she ended up getting involved in Nathaniel’s business while trying to help him, he’s mad af

He’d ask her to stop trying to help this bitch (his words not mine) and tell her to stay away from him (when I say « ask » it’s putting it mildly because the truth is that he basically forbid her to do so and he’d feel guilty about it later as he doesn’t want Candy to think he’s trying to control her. He’s just very worried and he knows that she doesn’t go half way when it comes to help a friend so he’s scared that it could go even worse)

But in the end, they both end up helping Nath somehow so that didn’t work so well, lol

However, he wouldn’t tell Candy about it but he definitely went looking for Nathaniel at some point (and it’s not a declaration of love he yelled at him, as you probably assumed)

𝚁𝚊𝚢𝚊𝚗 :

He would hear about it through Chani

Whether she came to him to justify Candy’s absence for the past classes or whether he asked her himself, that’s how he’d hear about the news

He’d try to keep his composure as Chani briefly explains him the situation and would try to act as any teacher would 

But we know that him and Candy share more than your average teacher-student relationship 

He’d try to wait for his classes to be over to reach out to Candy but he’ll end up cancelling them (and he’d get sermoned by Director Cullan once again but this is the least of his worries for now)

I mean understand him, this probably brought up to the surface some traumatic memories

He already lost in wife in a mall shooting, imagining something happening to Candy is unbearable to him 

He doesn’t want to go through this a second time and not knowing exactly  how she is has been eating him up all day 

Yes because he couldn’t really ask Chani for much details since it would have been suspicious (and he didn’t know that Chani already kinda guessed about their relationship but anyway)

If she’s in the hospital, he’d go see her (but he wouldn’t know what to tell to the receptionist. Like is he supposed to introduce himself as her boyfriend or ?)

But no matter what, he’ll make his way to Candy (even if it cost him to lie and say he was her father, which made the receptionist looked at him weirdly like « you look a bit young to have a grown-ass daughter ??? » but it doesn’t matter, she let him pass whatsoever)

He’d be relieved when seeing Candy and even more knowing that she’s going to be fine

He wouldn’t want to come across as too pushy, especially since she seemed to have been through a hard time (no shit Sherlock) but he’d still ask her to tell him what happened 

If it’s a domestic incident, it’d be alright, he’d take care of Candy as much as he can (let’s not forget that, officially, she’s just a student of his) and would make some arrangements for Candy to receive the classes she missed, and the ones she’s going to miss, online (he’d take care to warn the other teachers about her being incapable to attend their classes and it’d save Candy from having to spend countless email, lucky girl)

If it’s because of Nathaniel, she’d have to tell him the whole story and he’d insist for her to do so. Like if she was assaulted, he’d want her to press charges so that the police take care of it. But if she tells him that she can’t because it’d get one of her friends in trouble, he’d be like « excuse me what ? »

So she’d better tell him because he really don’t get it. How could one of her friends let her get in this situation ??

When he hears the whole story, he’d urge Candy not to get involved further and advise her to completing cut ties with Nathaniel 

But he wouldn’t impose it on her because he knows he has no right (and if she tells him that she can’t give up on her friend, you can be sure that this situation is going to worry him every single day from now on)

Give this man a break pls

𝙽𝚊𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚒𝚎𝚕 :

- If it happened because of his «  job » (and let’s say it is because I want the angst y’all), saying that he feels bad wouldn’t reflect even in the slightest how he actually feels

He’d be completely shocked and he probably never hated himself more than at this moment 

(And we know he’s already not big on self-love lol. Ok,  that’s sad, I shouldn’t laugh about that, my bad)

Bonus point if Candy got injured with him seeing it or not so far (ok let’s not do that, this would be actually way too sad omg)

But if he wasn’t there at the time, as soon as he hears about it, he’s running miles to go check on her

He’d have to make sure she’s ok or that at least, she’s going to be fine before being able to think of anything else

When he’d see her, he’d be completely silent and would be waiting for the moment where she tells him that she wants him to get tf out of her life 

He’d be so ready for it happen that he can feel some tears threatening to fall down (bbg no)

Imagine his shock when Candy’s actually glad or relieved to see him (if she’s at the hospital and according to what kind of injury she has, she’d probably on painkiller so girly would be happy about anything lol. If you have ever been hospitalised, you know what I am talking about)

If you thought this would make him feel better, you’re wrong. He’d feel even worse because now he’s like « I don’t deserve her » (and he probably felt this way even before the accident/assault/whatever because we know that his self-esteem isn’t at its highest during UL, but now it’s x2)

I’d like to say that he’d stay by her side no matter what but let’s be honest : Nathaniel’s defence and coping mechanism is running away from any issue and hardship he faces (luckily he grows out of it by the end of UL)

So Amber (or Kim ?) would end up being the intermediary between Nathaniel and Candy 

Because even if he’s not around, be sure that he’s constantly asking for news about her (and whether it’s Amber or Kim, they’d be tireddd because bffr Nath, just go yourself)

And he’d want to go himself but he wants to find a solution before (which is why I believe that he’d get involved with the police even quicker if something like that had happened)

You can be certain that this won’t happen again and he’d won’t let this slide either 

He’d finally go to Candy after making an arrangement with Eric to tell her that he’s going to fix everything and that he’ll become someone she deserves to be with 

Afterwards, he’d keep an eye on her anytime, everywhere 

(If you remember, in episode 2 of UL, if Candy refuses to let him walk her home, he follows her to make sure she’d make it safe and sound. Well, now every time he spots her in town, going back to the campus on her own , he’d do the same. He basically her hound dog)

I’d love to write some prompts with this scenario because y’all the potential for angst with this damn (there weren’t that much of it in the game somehow)

I hope you guys liked it !

I am struggling with some requests but some other are almost done so they should be posted very soon !

The Love Interests

So, as many of you know, I got the bright idea to edit the Easter Sprites of the main 5 Love Interests after I successfully edited Nathaniel. Well, ever since Alternate Life became a thing, I’ve wanted to make sprites of the AL boys and Eric to match the main 5.... But, alas, I there weren’t any Easter Sprites of them for me to edit....

So, I commissioned @candysweetposts to make them for me! Granted.... I think her sprites look better than mine... But I’m still proud of it all!

new edit 💝

same picture, different characters. :)

*disappointed but not surprised*

I can't stop thinking about the cave dialogue in which Rayan talks about Chloé, his ex wife, therefore I went back to read whole scene back from University Life episode 8, because what Rayan describes in episode 17 of LL is too diferent from that UL episode and from everything I could remember about it.

It's not to say that I caught some sort of insane discrepancy and AHÁ!

It's more because I find it interesting and I thought maybe others would find it interesting as well. So first I wanna show you what Rayan says in episode 8 of UL (which I never translated before until this post):

In my playthrough of it, back in the day, I asked him directly if he have a wife, which he answers yes first and then the proceeds to talk about it...

"And she will forever be my wife. But the last time we saw each other was seven years ago. Already… seven years… My wife, Chloé, died seven years ago. In a terrorist attack. Some savages came in shooting. No fixed target. In shop windows, in people and even in children."

"There were many wounded, and fortunately few dead. But Chloé is one of those who didn't survive… All that happened seven long years ago. It took me time. At first I didn't want to move. I wanted to keep everything, the smallest memory."

Now why I am showing this 4 panells?

This is important to understand how she died, how sad Rayan showed us to be about her death and his attachment towards Chloé.

He even goes as far to say:

"We met in high school and we got married at 23, in a hurry. We didn't tell anyone. But I'm not going to lie to you and say that everything was all roses."

Candy asks him, how so?

"We often quarreled. We stayed together for a long time, we didn't get to know anyone but each other and, sometimes, we even doubted. But when she left… I was torn apart."

Now we will never know why they used to fight, what made them marry so young and so quickly to the point where he implies they didn't even had a wedding ceremony.

Which makes this difficult to understand what compelled both of them to take such actions - maybe they they were just impulsive, but without a reason behind such impulsivity it's hard to tell if it was warrant or not.

But then, the actual panel that made me do this post in the first place eventually comes up in that same conversation with Candy:

"I loved her with all my soul. Before anything else, she was my best friend. But, sorry… I opened up too much…"

And I believe he did, regardless of anything else, because it makes sense for Rayan's character to marry someone for love.

That's the kind of "person" he is, that's why when he falls for Candy, he's ready to assume so many risks and even later talks about leaving his job for her just so they could have a less tense relationship.

This sets up him to be someone that would intensily love another person and do everything for them - they being Chloé or Candy.

I could say this is actually the point of that whole conversation: to show that he isn't someone that takes love lightly or shallowly, which helps us readers to trust his intentions and to believe that, yes, for love he would indeed be honorable, truth and passionate, instead of a player or a man that just wants to have fun with one of his students.

Not mentioning that he presents himself as a tortured soul that lost a wife tragically and never fell in love ever since, but falls in love for you, the reader, because you're special and irreplaceable, is something very flattering and, even, I dare say, romantic.

Meow meow is sad and you're the only one who can fix that for him.

Personally, I don't like how mcl writes grief, I don't think they know how to dose it without losing their hand, so it comes off as shallow for me, but I guess it serves as another thing: Chloe was loved by Rayan, but Candy needs to be special. The player needs to feel special.

Which brings us to this part of the conversation:

"Every women had something of her own. I saw her everywhere. And yet, it's been seven years. Since then, I have been unable to get involved with another woman, in a new relationship. Even in a simple friendship."

"Until… I met you. I don't know… For the first time, I met someone who has none of her. For the first time, I felt entitled not to think about her."

I understand why in an otome game is important to get the romance right and make the player feel compelled to play the character's route, after all, who wouldn't want to feel special, even if it's only on a game - that's why we have so many MCs or main characters in videogames that are heroes, that cares of others or the place they belong to.

However, I will say, maybe they should've worded it differently, maybe it's not so much about feeling entitled to not think about her, but when I realized, I wasn't searching for her traits on you, I wasn't thinking about her anymore, I was ready to move on. But this is just how I would've done it, just so it would come from Rayan the agency of the "healing" - in another words, he had healed himself before he met Candy and falling in love with her was just another evidence of that.

Which brings us back to episode 17 of Love Life, our Honeymoon episode (and pay attention to the parts that I will mark in blue):

"Y'know, I honestly didn't think I would get over losing her. And then after you got in my classroom and into my life. So, yes, I should have a star up there shining for me. Because, with you, I understood the meaning of true love. And it wasn't the same of what I had with Chloé."

"Sometimes, I think, if the story/timeline was another, if I had met you first before I met her... She and I would've been simply friends, without anything else between us. If fate hadn't been so cruel with her, it would've ended like that anyway, actually. I think she would have been happy to see me so happy these days."

"Just like I would have been in seeing her meeting someone else just as important as you're for me. And when I think of her today, is in this way: as a friend that left too soon. And that, of course, I still get a little with my heart tight. She was someone wonderful/beautiful. There's still some of her in me. But, when I met you, I was like a ghost."

Only Rayan to friendzone the dead.

"Thanks to you and our love, she just became a beautiful star, just like my father..."

At first I thought he was saying that he never really loved Chloé and that Candy made him realize that (How? Don't ask me, he doesn't say how), but thinking about this post and re-reading everything made me rethink my first impression of it.

It's not so much that he didn't loved Chloé, but admittedly, and for reasons that Rayan didn't say, he thought love was something else and he thought he loved her because of that notion, and then his notion of love changed because he met Candy and now he thinks that love is truly what he feels for Candy.

I, as someone that played all of his route, can't really say or even figure out how he would've come up with that reasoning.

Was it because for the first time ever, he had put someone else on his top priority, or at least in a more important position than his reputation and career (which he deeply cares for)? But wasn't he a passionate person to begin with? So isn't it natural for him, once he was sure he fell in love for Candy, to put her as his top priority?

Was it Candy presence alone in his life, simply being there, what made him create that notion? How she taught him that?

I don't know, because the way they fell in love was pretty quick and pretty normal I would dare say - normal not in the sense of, he was her teacher, normal in the sense there was nothing remarkable about their dates, the way they sneak around or in their conversations.

I think if he had realize that falling in love with someone new meant that he had "healed" from his past trauma, that he only had feelings for her because he was ready to have feelings for someone again and the sense of normalcy and easiness he felt in being with her was all he ever wanted after going through so much sadness and heartbreak, then, it would make more sense and sound more realistic, maybe?

But again, they wanted to spin that Candy was special, she needed to be the one that changed him, that was like gravity to him and he could not resist the pull of her.

“... It's just that, with you, I never got under the impression of playing any kind of game. Because I had a lot to lose. Before I met you, I had accepted to never love again. I didn’t want to ever risk lose someone ever again... And, above all, you came to enroll in my course. I looked up and knew that my certainties were worthless...” (episode 14 LL)

That's why I talked about his career before.

They set up Rayan to be someone that loves his work, that cares about his reputation and his career, if not, as he only thing he had since he moved away from his family and was living alone.

Risk it all for Candy was to show that he wasn't playing, he wasn't just trying to get a kick out of it.

And knowing how he got after when Marina actually got him fired, how much of a mess it made him, this put things even more in context, it shows that truly, risk it all for her was no joke, even thou, they used to be pretty reckless about it (never gonna forget their first kiss, crazy, both of them).

Which brings me to one of my favorite parts of dialogue in Rayan's route, episode 15 LL, the marriage proposal dialogue:

"It’s funny... for a long time I thought that love was like a burning fire. And I even thought that, in my case, all that was left was ashes of it. Until I met you and I understood that I didn’t know anything. That I have got it wrong in my whole life. With you, I understood that love is like a stream/flow. A wave that breaks again and again without stopping. And that drags everything wherever it goes. You imposed yourself on me like an evidence. In the calm. I knew it right away. But I only understood it this well later on."

Think that love was like a burning fire: it lights up, it shines bright, it consumes itself, then it becomes ashes and there's nothing left of it.

Ouch, Rayan. 😢

Not to mention the destructive nature of fire, but I don't think Rayan or the person who wrote this scene thought it like that necessarily, I think it had more to do with how fragile and how it consume itself, which feels more how like I would expect from how Rayan described his relationship with Chloé before: intense, too quick to think everything through, the fighting, the feeling that it wouldn't last anyway.

Meanwhile Candy is like a strong wave or a strong stream, his love for her dragged everything with it: all his reasoning, his principles and scruples, the risk of losing his reputation, his career, AND breaking again and again, because it didn't matter if he had build any walls to keep her out in the begining, she somehow brought it all down.

Two kinds of love, one feeling less truth and lasting than the other.

While it would've better, in his head, to have remain just a friendship with Chloé, with Candy, there was no way for it to have ended just in friendship, it would always be more.

You can see the contrast between his feelings for Chloé and his feelings for Candy, how it was different and the key word should always be different.

It surprised me to see him talking about their wedding too, Rayan and Chloé married young and in a hurry (we will never know why), meanwhile, Rayan found Candy in a stage of his life when love wasn't even in the table and when it finally came back to the table, Rayan wanted everything, he wanted celebrate it having a proper wedding ceremony and all.

But those are little subtle things that they left out in the air, instead of saying it so clearly like they did so many times before.

Personally, I don't think would've make any sense for Rayan's character to haven't love Chloé, considering they built a life together before he even met Candy, the same way, I don't think we could've ever thought that Rayan loved Chloé more or even the same way he loved Candy.

Cuz, Chloé and Candy not only met him in different moments of his life BUT ALSO, they totally two different women, it would go without saying it.

But I guess, they wanted to make it even more screaming that it was the case, which I can understand why.

I mean, people thought that Rayan had really tried something with Marina, outside of his route: which for those people I always told it would be impossible.

It would go against what they presented to us about him during that first dialogue in episode 8 of UL and it would represent a contradiction in the writing itself. It would bend the rules that they set themselves to follow too grotesquely. Not to mention, MCL never gave other love interests to the Lis that stayed on the side lines.

Unless, of course, they had set things up that we would understand that Marina was such a special existence is moving like Candy - which, okay, I could've accepted it, but they didn't so. That's why I was so sure of it.

Y'know, have to read so much back in his route to make this post made saying goodbye to his route so hurtful but also so fulfilling, I always loved how they wrote him, despite having my criticisms, I am happy that I got to experience Rayan's route from the start to end.

If you haven't played his route like ever, I totally I encourage you to do it now that we got it all. xD

some nana backstory ✌️ nothing but suffering this time lol

@sowhumpshaped

nana liked the hallway closet.

it was cramped, and dark, and smelled kinda musty, but if she put down an old blanket and curled up real small, it was sorta comfortable, and it was her home.

master didn't like it when she was in his way, and the hallway closet was the most out-of-the-way place she could think of. he left her alone when she was in there, so she figured she chose well.

she whimpered softly as her injured tail brushed up against the wall of the tiny space. the throbbing ache hadn't gone away for weeks, and she had started to resign herself to the possibility that it never would. the rest of her ached too, most of the time, but this was different.

nana had been born a little under twenty years ago, in the home of an unregistered pet breeder. she'd been taken from her mother from almost the moment she could survive without her, and handed off to the first person who'd forked over the money for a puppy.

she'd been maybe three years old then, scared and confused, in a crate in the backseat of a stranger's car. she'd started to cry, missing her mother and her siblings and even the breeder who'd sold her off, until her supposed new owner shouted at her to shut up. trembling with fear, she'd clamped her mouth shut and cried in silence for the rest of the trip.

once they'd arrived at her new owner's house, it was revealed that she was meant to be a birthday present for their daughter. but she was so overwhelmed by all the people crowding around, the blaring music and colorful decorations and strong smell of food, that she cowered and urinated on the floor out of pure terror when the couple's daughter tried to reach for her. which was clearly not the reaction they wanted.

she got used to her new home, with time. but the first impression stuck, and the little girl she was meant to be a present for didn't seem to have as much interest in her as her parents had hoped. that, along with the parents themselves becoming annoyed by how much more work it took to care for her compared to a normal puppy, led to them putting her back up for sale after only two years.

her next owner trained guard dogs, and bought her in the hopes that a dog and human hybrid would give better results. she disappointed him. greatly.

her first kick in the ribs came when he caught her playing with a duckling by a nearby pond. she'd been tied to a post in his backyard - to get her used to being outside for long periods of time - but the lead was just long enough for her to get close to the ducklings. she'd been trotting around with one on her head when her owner came back outside, and gotten an earful and a boot-shaped bruise for her trouble.

he'd kept her for a long time, hoping that maybe as she got older she'd get more aggressive, even taken to starving and beating her to try and provoke her to attack, but it never worked. she just felt weak and achy, and became even more docile in the hopes that it would stop.

once she hit seventeen, after twelve years of trying and failing miserably to turn her into the perfect attack dog, her owner finally gave up and sold her to her current master.

she was around nineteen years old, now. at least, she was pretty sure. master didn't celebrate or even acknowledge her birthday, so she wasn't entirely sure if it had passed or not.

"DOG!" she heard her master shout. she whined and curled up even smaller. he sounded angry.

she could hear his footsteps stomping down the hall, and squeezed her eyes shut, like he would just go away if she didn't look.

she felt the whoosh of the door being wrenched open, and then she was being yanked out of her tiny sanctuary by the arm and roughly tossed against the wall.

she yelped in pain at the impact, cowering with her ears pinned back as he loomed over her.

"the fuck are you hiding for?!" he shouted. he reeked of alcohol, which only made her suppress a whimper as she hunched to make herself look even smaller.

he kicked the wall right next to her head making her frantically scramble back and cry out in terror, huddling as close to the ground as she could, ears back and tail tucked, trying to look as docile and submissive as possible. his kick left a hole in the wall, which only served to make him angrier.

"fuck, now look what you made me do!" he bellowed, and he made sure his next kick didn't miss.

she felt her nose crunch against the toe of his shoe, blood spewing onto the vinyl floors. she didn't even fully register the next few minutes, just a barrage of pain and fear. she didn't even notice when he stopped at first, curled up in a ball trying to protect her vitals, bruised and bloody and trembling. only once she dared to lift her head again did she notice that she was alone.

the carpet was stained with her blood - something he'd probably yell at her about later - and every movement was agony, but she needed to get back to the closet. she needed to be out of the way.

so, she forced herself up on her hands and knees, even if the bruised limbs shook under her, and dragged herself back to her little nest. blood kept dribbling from her nose into her mouth, and she'd hate to stain the blankets, but she couldn't get it to stop.

she wasn't even entirely sure when she fell asleep. just that she laid there, panting and dazed, until her consciousness tapped out.

Does Melody have any special reaction if you dated Nathaniel in high school then Rayan in univeristy?

(headcanon) what would mcl routes smoke

catiel: reds or parliament (1 pack per day)

nath: grape marlboro and weed like EVERYDAY (in an annoying way)

armin: lucky menthols

ken: he really refuses to, he's really annoying saying did u know that u can die?

lysander: yellow camel (social smoker or when he's stressed)

rayan: Marlboro gold or parliament

priya: roll on cigs (vainilla or cherry)

candy: parliament slim

alex: marlboro double fusion summer (watermelon) (gay)

Summary of MCLLL Episode 17 of the dialogue from the choices that I didn't put in the illustration summaries

This summary only contains the dialogue that changes. I also put behind each choice the route of the Love interest that you can get this dialogue on.

Seems like a perfect introduction to me! (Hyun) Hyun and you are discussing what to do first at the hotel. Hyun suggests getting dinner in the restaurant. It seems like a perfect place to go. Hyun and you go to the restaurant. The view of the landscape there is perfect. You look at Hyun, he was already watching you. He still loves you and is so lucky that you crossed his path. Hyun could spend hours in your company. That is very sweet, but he should start eating. Otherwise, you are going to eat his food. Hyun is happy to share. You two have an amazing meal at the restaurant. And to think that it is only the first day. What a great idea! Let's hurry, if we want to take advantage of this sumptuous light. (Priya) Priya and you are discussing what to do first at the hotel. Priya suggests going to swim. You find it a great idea. Priya and you dive into the water. She swims towards you and takes you in her arms. Priya is so happy right now. And to think that it is only the first day. You two kiss while the sun starts to set. To be honest, I had a different kind of sport in mind. You shouldn't have provoked me with your little striptease... (Nathaniel) Nathaniel and you are discussing what to do first at the hotel. Nathaniel just jumped into the pool. You saw him undo his clothes and are in for something wild. Nathaniel comes with lightning speed out of the pool. He takes you in his arms and cares you into the bed. You both quickly take out all your clothes. Nathaniel lays next to you. You start kissing each other while your hands go over his body. Nathaniel takes the lead. You have to let out a few moans before he finally enters you. You let your hands wander in the sheet and close your eyes. It doesn't take long before you both come undone. You lay in Nathaniel's arms. Everything is perfect. Oh, don't worry! I'll enjoy you even better by being totally relaxed. (Rayan) Rayan and you are discussing what to do first at the hotel. You suggest getting a massage, while Rayan wants a wild moment. You tell him you would enjoy that even more after a massage. Rayan tells you that he never had a real massage. He means by a professional. He thinks that a massage from you isn't very conventional. You call them, they come up to your room. You lay next to each other while they are busy. Rayan asks himself why he waited so long. This is amazing. After the treatment, Rayan feels 10 years younger. But age doesn't matter to you, you will always love Rayan. You both go lay down on the bed and kiss. You fall to sleep in Rayan's arms. Okay, Mick. Let's go! We're here to enjoy ourselves, right? I'm going to heat up the jacuzzi. (Castiel) Castiel and you are discussing what to do first at the hotel. Castiel want to go into the jacuzzi. And you agree with him and go hit it up. 3 minutes later, Castiel joins you, and he has champagne and two glazes with him. He asks if you want a glass. You can choose your answer. This moment together in the jacuzzi is perfect. You are sitting on his lap, his eyes look emotional. Castiel never thought he would be this happy. He is so lucky you two met. You are his only destination. You feel the same. Castiel and you kiss. Well, for the occasion, a glass! (Castiel) Castiel asks you if you want a glass of champagne. For this occasion, you want to. He hands you a drink. Gladly. And the waiter too, please, young man. (Castiel) Castiel asks you if you want a glass of champagne. You want one gladly and also one for the waiter. Castiel gives you a glass and takes one himself. Actually, I'll have a glass of mango juice. I want to keep my mind clear... (Castiel) Castiel asks you if you want a glass of champagne. You want to have a mango juice instead. Castiel gives you a glass of mango juice. I totally feel up to it, but to tell you the truth, I had other… activities in mind, rather than a walk! (Eric) Eric and you are discussing what to do first at the hotel. Eric suggests going for a walk. But you want to do another activity. Eric doesn't understand what activity you mean. So you look at him and drop your towel. You go stand in front of him and start to unbutton his shirt and take off his pants. He grabs your butt, and pulls you against him. You put him on a chair and go sit on him. He held your hips while you had your arms around his neck. You start kissing each other while you find the right rhythm. Then he suddenly stops you. Eric wants to change position. You go sit on the chair with your hands on the railing. Eric goes to stand behind you. Eric puts his hands on your hips. You let out a moan while he enters you again. You close your eyes to surrender to your feelings. Eric finds soon the right rhythm and you both come undone. You kiss passionately, to think it was only the first day. If we want a refuge, shouldn't we... try to build one? (Priya) We should build a hut, or any shelter, don't you think? (Castiel and Nathaniel) How about using the time we have left to build a shelter? (Eric, Rayan and Hyun) Your lover and you are lost in the jungle. You two have come to the same place for the fourth time. Maybe you two should build a refuge or some shelter. Your lover will tell that it is kind of impossible to build a shelter. What you really need is an overview of the place. So you two can find a place where you can stay for the night. We have to make a weapon to defend ourselves in the event of a bad encounter. (Eric, Nathaniel, Castiel, Hyun and Rayan) If we have to defend ourselves... Shouldn't our priority be to make a weapon? (Priya) Your lover and you are lost in the jungle. You two have come to the same place for the fourth time. You two need a plan for the night. Maybe you should make a weapon. It is better to find a hiding spot. You two should go to the breathtaking overlook.   We should make marks on our way to avoid retracing our steps inadvertently. (Priya, Hyun, Nathaniel, Rayan, Castiel and Eric) Your lover and you have found the breathtaking overlook. You two decide that it is better to go to the volcano than to stay in the jungle. You suggest making marks on your way. It won't bring you forward. But it will prevent you from going the wrong way. Eric will suggest using a phone as a compass. You will agree with him. We have to try to find a stream. (Eric, Castiel, Rayan, Hyun, Nathaniel and Priya) Your lover and you have found the breathtaking overlook. You suggest finding a stream. Your lover agrees and you two start to listen to the water and try to find. Except Eric, he suggests using his phone as a compass and you agree. Yeah… You're probably right. Oh well, we'll make up for it later, when we get back to the hotel. (Hyun) Hyun and you are walking through the jungle. You think that it is wise to get some food. Hyun doesn't want to try out his luck. You agree with him and don't get any food. When you find the waterfall, you will fall and hurt your angle. Hyun will help you walk to the volcano. Since you two didn't get any food, you two are hungry after making the fire. At the moment, you have nothing to eat. You two just wait until you try to fall a sleep.   Yeah, but we don't know when, or even if, we'll be rescued tomorrow. (Hyun) Hyun and you are walking through the jungle. You think that it is wise to get some food. Hyun doesn't want to try out his luck. You tell him that you have no idea when you will be rescued. You two will get hungry and die from it. Hyun tells you that the human body can go several days without food. The guide told that there are some dangerous fruits, it is better not to try. You give into to Hyun. Hyun and you walk further. When you find the waterfall, you will fall and hurt your angle. Hyun will help you walk to the volcano. Since you two didn't get any food, you two are hungry after making the fire. At the moment, you have nothing to eat. You two just wait until you try to fall a sleep.   True, but... we can't take risks. (Priya) Priya is suggesting getting some fruit. You are afraid that it is too dangerous. You have convinced Priya and won't get any food. Since you two didn't get any food, you two are hungry after making the fire. At the moment, you have nothing to eat. You two just wait until you try to fall a sleep.   I don't know if it will make enough noise, but it's worth trying, I guess... (Castiel) Castiel and you find some coconut shells. Then suddenly a monkey tries to take your camera. You scream, but now there are monkeys all around you. Castiel suggests making some noise with the shells. You are not sure, but it can't hurt to try. But he didn't just make noise, he tried to make a song with it. The monkeys like it and start dancing. No one is watching you. You secretly find their fruit stake and take enough from it for the night. Castiel will tell you that you have done well. He keeps playing some music, so you can get away, and then he joins you. Together you walk further. No... I don't think that's a good idea. They look super pissed off. I'm going to give them my camera... (Castiel) Castiel and you find some coconut shells. Then suddenly a monkey tries to take your camera. You scream, but now there are monkeys all around you. Castiel suggests making some noise with the shells, or throwing them at the monkeys. But you think it's better to give the monkeys your camera. Better to loos pictures then to lose your self. Castiel agrees with you. You put down the camera gently. Castiel and you run away, while the monkey gets the camera. Castiel and you run until you find the river. Because you ran away and didn't take any fruit with you. Castiel and you have nothing to eat after making fire. You two just wait until you try to sleep.

Is there really a debate to be had? Already an ordinary bee sting hurts like crazy… (Priya) Priya and you try to get some fruit. But there are large bees looking creatures on the fruit bush. Priya asks you what you two should do. You think it is better to go. You don't want to test out their stings. Priya and you were so close to the goal. But you are probably right. Priya and you walk further to the volcano. Since you two didn't get any food, you two are hungry after making the fire. At the moment, you have nothing to eat. You two just wait until you try to fall a sleep.   Eww, those stink! Do they smell like… gas? But maybe that doesn't mean anything... (Nathaniel and Rayan) Your lover and you are trying to get some fruit. But you don't know which ones you should take. You suggest the fruit with the smell. We don't know if it is good, but we will find out tonight. You and your lover take the fruit with you. You still eat the fruit after making the fire, that dialogue goes the same. Those, maybe… They kind of look like little coconuts. But can we be sure..? (Nathaniel, Priya and Rayan) Your lover and you are trying to get some fruit. But you don't know which ones you should take. You suggest getting the coconut looking fruit. You two will find out tonight if the fruit is eatable. Your lover and you take the fruit with you. You still eat the fruit after making the fire, that dialogue goes the same. Do you think... that they are hungry? What should we do? Do we share our harvest? (Nathaniel) Nathaniel and you have come across an animal. It doesn't look that friendly. You ask your self if it is hungry. Nathaniel takes out one of his fruits and gives it to the animal. The animals start to eat it, and looks really cute. You stay watching for a few minutes before you continue your trip. Throw the fruit at them, Nath! They might be interested in it! We… we should run! (Nathaniel) Nathaniel and you have come across an animal. It doesn't look that friendly. You think you should throw fruit at them. Maybe then you and Nath can run away. You already started running. Nath goes after you and asks what you are doing. To Nath it didn't look like you two were in danger. Instinct came over you. You both have lost the path. It will take you half an hour to find it back. Nath leaves the food behind when you start running away, and he goes after you. You two have no food after making the fire. At that moment, you both stay hungry. And just wait until you try to fall a sleep. No, that's ridiculous! It's just going to upset it and it'll eat us alive. (Rayan) Rayan and you have come across a small tiger. Rayan tries to be dominant and make noise at the same time. You think that it is not going to work. Rayan is really surprised by your answer and turns his back to the tiger. You feel like that tiger could jump any minute on Rayan. But then suddenly a monkey jumps between Rayan and Tiger. The tiger goes after the monkey. It saved Rayan's life. You hope the monkey survives it. Rayan collapsed, you go over to him. He is okay, just a bit shocked. You two walk further together.  WAIT! I have an idea. HEY! OVER HERE! (Rayan) Rayan and you have come across a small tiger. Rayan tries to be dominant and make noise at the same time. But you start to make some noise on your own. The tiger turns towards you. It worked, it is not looking at Rayan anymore. The tiger comes closer to you. But you don't give it time and climb into a tree. You tell Rayan to do like you and also climb into a tree. The tiger comes closer but can't climb into the trees. The tiger looks very angry. You two stay in the trees for a while. Then a monkey climbs down from a tree. The tiger goes after it. You two have a clear path and get out of the tree and run away. After you two are safe, Rayan is happy and angry at the same time. Because the tiger came after you, it could have killed you, but you also saved Rayan's life. A real heroine. Together you continue your walk. Wait! Above all, don't move! It's still far away... Maybe it didn't see you. (Eric) Eric is trying to get coconuts from a tree. In the same tree, a snake has climbed and is blocking Eric's way down. You tell Eric not to move, maybe the snake hasn't seen him yet. Eric froze, but it turns out the snake has seen him. You tell Eric to jump. Eric fell backwards, he landed with a crash. You go over to him and ask if he is okay. Eric is, the flowers broke his fall. You were both scared. Eric tries to take you in his arms, but the flowers he fell in smell. You both start laughing. The snake has gone further up in the tree, it has already forgotten about you. When you have found the volcano, Eric will go for a swim to get the smell away. You need to find at that moment the wood and rocks for the fire. No choice! Jump! (Eric) Eric is trying to get coconuts from a tree. In the same tree, a snake has climbed and is blocking Eric's way down. You tell Eric to jump. He jumps down and land in some flowers. You go over to him and ask if he is okay.  You were both scared. Eric tries to take you in his arms, but the flowers he fell in smell. You both start laughing. The snake has gone further up in the tree, it has already forgotten about you. When you have found the volcano, Eric will go for a swim to get the smell away. You need to find at that moment the wood and rocks for the fire. I've racked my brain... but I really don't see anything we can do. Well… (Castiel, Nathaniel, Rayan, Eric, Priya and Hyun) Your lover and you have found a save place. You two need to drink. But you don't really have an idea how to filter it. Your lover and you will use a piece of clothing as a filter and drink from it. Do you mind bringing branches? There's a grove of trees over there. (Priya, Nathaniel, Castiel, Eric, Hyun and Rayan) Your lover and you need to make a fire. You ask your lover to get some branches for you. You will get some stones for the fire. Your lover goes into the jungle to find some wood. You stay in the gave and put some stones in a circle and keep one as a souvenir. Your lover comes back with wood under his/her arm. (There must be dead wood on the ground, I just have to look under the leaves.) (Castiel, Nathaniel, Rayan, Eric, Hyun and Priya) Your lover and you try to make some fire. You are in the forest to get some wood and try to take some dead wood from the ground. You get beaten by a plant on the ground. Your lover wants to save you, but you tell him/her to stay where he/she is. You free yourself and go back with some wood to your lover. We could use two branches and rub them together. (Priya, Eric, Nathaniel, Castiel, Hyun and Rayan) You and your lover try to make fire. You start to rub two branches together. It takes a very long time before something happens. But in the end you get the fire working. If you choose to take the sunscreen with you. You have taken your whole toilet bag with you. You find there in a nail clipper to make the branches shaper. It will make the fire go on faster. At least this trip will give us great memories for when we're old. (Hyun) Hyun and you try to sleep, but you both can't. You go sit back up again. At least this trip will give you some great memories. Hyun doesn't look so happy after you said this. It's something his parents used to say against each other. We know what happened to them. But you want to stay at Hyun's side while you grow old. The divorce was really hard for Hyun. It is better now, but still weird. They all see each other a lot. But when the moment is over, they both go to their separate houses. And Hyun sometimes forgets that. On one side he wishes that his parents get back together and on the other side he wishes for them to be clearer about their break-up. You find it very good that they are still friends. Hyun just has a more radical conception of love. You like that about him. They were more friends than a couple in their relationship. The restaurant kept them together for a long time. But it makes Hyun appreciate more what you two have. And you survived this jungle. Next year, you two can climb the Mount Everest without a guide. You were just kidding. You two kiss in the light of the fire.

Somehow, this story allows you to put things into perspective. We are lucky to be alive... (Hyun) Hyun and you try to sleep, but you both can't. You go sit back up again. This story will put things in perspective. That is true. This morning, Hyun couldn't think how things would change. You two should make a wish. You look at the sky and there are no shooting stars. Don't you need that to make the wish work? That is not the kind of wish Hyun was talking about. Hyun was more thinking like a good resolution. If you two come back a life, you will swear to do. But if you come back, you have been through the hardest part. Tomorrow, help will come. Hyun knows, it's better to choose a credible resolution. But also something special like the day we just had. You choose to say that you want to go to Amsterdam and see the van Gogh museum. In your studies, you worked a lot with his work. He is one of your favorite painters. And one day you would see his art in real life. But it is too far away, and it costs a lot of money. And in the end it will always be pushed back. But Hyun promises you that the next vacation trip will be to the museum. But Hyun has one condition; no tourist expeditions. You are okay with that and are curious about Hyun's wish. Hyun wants to get back into dancing for good. You know, he has some really great moves. The dance he did in your room, you found it funny and sexy at the same time. And not to forget the wet t-shirt contest. He loved to dance when he was a teenager. Hyun hasn't talked about that much, and that is because he didn't like that he stopped. He loved it, but he wasn't very good. So he couldn't do it seriously. And then real life came in the way. But now he has some time left since his sisters are also in the business. He still has to decide which style he wants to do, when he is back. You tell him to just go with the flow. Hyun stands up and goes dancing and asks you to be his only dance partner and join him in lessons if he needs a partner. You agree. You two kiss in the light of the fire. What a day, right... It makes you reconsider quite a few things, don't you think? (Priya) Priya and you try to sleep, but you both can't. You go sit back up again. This was an interesting day. It makes you think about things Priya was thinking about last year. She kind of misses social law a little. Crowstorm took all her time. And defending artists against who wants to exploit them fits Priya well. Priya wants to go back to it. The whole thing with Rayan shook it up. Priya regrets the most that she got corrupted by Renate. It was her idol, you understand it. But it is also the motivation why Priya wants to go back. Priya will probably meet Renate in court and then Priya could beat her. Priya wants to bring people real justice, instead of what Renate did. That is why when Priya goes back, she will always have one pro bono case. You remind Priya that you first have to finish your honeymoon. Priya has lots of energy for both. You two kiss in the light of the fire. We must still be a bit on edge. I've never been as stressed as I was today. (Priya) Priya and you try to sleep, but you both can't. You go sit back up again. You have never been as stressed as you were today. For Priya, there has been a moment where she was more stressed. When she visits the Louvre for the first time. Priya never told you about this moment before. Because it was not very glorious. Priya was 16 Years old and lived in Belgium. She went there with school, and had all kinds of things in her head to do that weren't on the program. Tara, one of her classmates, had an aunt in Paris. They were both invited for dinner. At that dinner, Tara went to the bathroom and called with her aunts phone the teacher. She pretended to be the aunt and arranged that Priya and her could stay at her aunts house for the night. Tara and Priya said goodbye to Tara's aunt and got into a taxi. They were thinking about going to clubs the whole night. They were outside and saw that the Louvre was having a late night opening. Tara and Priya went into the museum. But it was already late, and they couldn't see much. So they came up with the idea to get locked in at night in the museum. Tara and Priya went to the bathroom and waited for the museum to close. After the museum closed, there wasn't much light to see. They used their phones as light. But they saw security right away. Priya and Tara realized that what they did was wrong. Maybe they would have been seen as art thieves and be moved from the country. So they tried not to get caught, and they succeeded. But when Priya thinks back now, she thinks that the guards were very easy on them and probably knew what was going on. The next morning, the light was turned on for cleaning. They manged to get out of the museum that morning. Priya and Tara never went again to the Louvre. Too afraid to be recognized. You realize that you are married to a burglar. Now there are no more secrets between you two. You two kiss in the light of the fire. What a day... I was constantly on edge because of the potential dangers... (Nathaniel) Nathaniel and you try to sleep, but you both can't. You go sit back up again. It was quite the day. You don't know how Nath does it. Going undercover, thinking that everything could go wrong at any moment. Nath doesn't think about that, the only thing he thinks about is not getting caught. Plus, he always had Eric as back-up. He trusted him. You don't know what to say. You haven't talked much about Eric lately. It doesn't hurt Nath anymore. He can still see the beautiful moments. Eric was a friend and mentor to him. He does miss what Eric and him had. You think it is excellent that Nath looks at it in that way. Nath smiles and asks if he told you how they met. Nath was arrested by his coworker. They didn't have much against him. Nath was at the wrong place at the wrong time. The cell was overfull, and they hand caught Nath next to Eric's desk. Eric was playing chess on his computer. He didn't know much about chess. His wife suggested playing it. Nath gave him some tips that day. A week later, Eric saw Nath and Nath couldn't hide the stuff he had with him. But luckily, that is not what Eric was here for. Eric saw potential in him and offered him help. The rest of the story you know. You are happy with how this changed Nath's life. Nath and you give each other a hug. You two kiss in the light of the fire. Still... look how far we've come since Sweet Amoris! (Nathaniel) Nathaniel and you try to sleep, but you both can't. You go sit back up again. You two have come far since sweet Amoris. Who would have fought that you end up here in this situation. Nath thinks about that a lot. What would have happened if you didn't come back into his life. Nath would have become a heartbreaker. Living on the street and in the gym. You are probably right. But without you, his world is empty. But Nath didn't seem lonely when you found him. How many women did he had at that time. Nath doesn't understand that you want to talk about that. He doesn't want to talk about it. But you are curious and start to count. But Nath doesn't really know the number. He was not in a good place at that time. Nath is ashamed of it. The only thing he tried was to forget you with those women. But he couldn't and from some of those women he didn't even know the names. He felt empty until he saw you again. When Nath is with you, he can be himself. You wish things had gone differently. But now you are with him until the end of time. Nath already knew back in high school that you were the one for him. He had to be who his parents forced him to be. But you were so happy, so free. He wanted to feel like that. Since then, he tried. You two kiss in the light of the fire. So, my darling, were you trying to run away from me? (Rayan) Rayan and you try to sleep, but you both can't. You go sit back up again and ask Rayan if tried to run away. You know very well that Rayan hasn't succeeded in that. And it is not like he didn't try. You were just joking, but now you are curious what he means. When you two met, it wasn't like there was a possibility for a relationship. It was even a little shocking. You don't know, You don't ask your self many questions. That is because Rayan pleased you very quickly. You start to like him from his first lesson. It was the same moment for Rayan. You remember the whole lesson and the encouragement after it. The same evening, Rayan was thinking about you, more than he should. Of course, back then he tried to lie to him self. Say like there was nothing going on. But after some time, Rayan had to admit. Your charm stimulated the relationship as your intellectually. Rayan felt like he was 15 again. But he wasn't and he was your teacher. He also had some strict principles in this area. But you both felt it and both couldn't run away from it. And now you two are here together in front of a fire on your honeymoon. You two kiss each other in the light of the fire.

Makes you feel very small, huh? The universe is so mysterious... (Rayan) Rayan and you try to sleep, but you both can't. You go sit back up again. The universe is so mysterious. These times make Rayan miss his dad the most. Rayan doesn't talk about his dad very often. Rayan's dad often said that he was just smart enough to realize his ignorance. Rayan drew inspiration from his dad's humanity. Rayan is smart himself. And he knows that and shouldn't be ashamed of it. Rayan is smart in culture. His dad was an astrophysical researcher. Because of his dad, Rayan wanted to do something in the university area. You ask Rayan if he was interested in the science, Rayan was. But the rebel in him made him choose art history. You ask how his dad took it. His dad supported him in what ever Rayan wanted to do. His dad had a great way of reading paintings. Rayan learned a lot from his dad. You would have loved to meet him. Rayan is sure that his dad would have liked you. You ask Rayan if he misses his dad a lot. But his mother misses his dad more. And if things are true, his dad is now in the sky as a star. You hug Rayan, and then he kisses you in the light of the fire.         Still, what a day. Can you imagine if... Well, if... We hadn't made it? (Castiel) Castiel and you try to sleep, but you both can't. You go sit back up again. It was quite a day. What if you didn't make it. Castiel says that you shouldn't think about that. He would collapse on the spot. The only positive thing about it, is that he would have ended up by your side. But to think about how his parents would feel makes Castiel really sad. He is their only child. You tell Castiel not to think about it. Castiel and you two are safe here at the fire. You ask Castiel if he ever wanted brothers or sisters. Not really, it forced to build himself outside. With his parents not being home often. You ask Castiel if he missed them a lot. For most of the time it was fine, but he does wish they to be there on certain occasions. But Castiel did have a happy childhood. And they enjoyed great vacations together. And trusted Castiel to be alone so much. It gave him a lot of self coincidence. And this way, he had a lot of time for his music, and his first step to get a band. If Castiel could do it again, he wouldn't change much. The only thing Castiel did regret was leaving you after high school. It goes the same for you. But you found each other again. You two kiss each other in the light of the fire. So... You don't regret giving up your life as a single rock star to end up stuck here with me? (Castiel) Castiel and you try to sleep, but you both can't. You go sit back up again. You ask Castiel if he regrets being here with you instead of being a rock star. He doesn't regret it. He would have done it all the same, except to find you sooner. You are curious what happened in those years that you two weren't together. But Castiel doesn't feel like telling. He also doesn't want to know what happened with your love life at that time. It is in the past. You tell Castiel to relax. Then he tells you, that there weren't many girls at that time. The only one that matters is you. Then you ask him when he fell in love with you. He didn't like you at first, you were on a mission for Nath. But he got to know you. You always had so much energy. Didn't let you comment around and still try to help others. You also didn't like him at first. You thought he was too sure of him self. But you got to know him, high school was just a step for him. One day he will grow up. But he already had responsibilities. Castiel took care of Demon. You were teasing Castiel a bit. Pancake and you are very lucky with Castiel. He has become the best version of himself. You two kiss each other in the light of the fire. 

You and your coffee... I'm going to end up believing that you only got close to me for that. (Eric) Eric and you try to sleep, but you both can't. You go sit back up again. Eric thinks he could sleep if he could have a drink of coffee. You think that maybe that is the reason that Eric got close to you. Of course, who would otherwise help you close the café. He first did because he liked helping you. You ask him when his reason changed. Eric doesn't know exactly. It took a while before he gave into it. But there was one night he kept repeating the conversations you two had. He was trying to see that night if you felt something for him. It would make it easier for him to admit. Those little evening moments were also the moment that you started to feel something. After the dinner in the restaurant, Eric knew his life was going to change. But you were in a complicated situation at that moment in relationship with someone else. It was time for Eric to change, so he did something he thought he would never do. You both would regret it, if Eric didn't set that step. You two kiss each other in the light of the fire. When we met, did you imagine that we'd end up here, in this situation? (Eric) Eric and you try to sleep, but you both can't. You go sit back up again. You ask Eric if he thinks you two had ended up here, in this situation. It would have been this or a traveling circus act. Eric didn't imagine this, really. His sentimental horizon was darker back then. You ask if he still thinks about his last relationship. Eric doesn't and isn't sure what that says about him. You understand him. They were married for years. The only thing that tied them together was their home. They could never make each other happy and didn't spend much time together. Eric still hopes that his ex has found happiness. But now that he is with you, he knows what happiness really is and very happy that the last relationship ended. You ask if it really was that bad. Eric has to think a bit and then says that happiness is something to be experienced. It can't be planned. You know you two can drift apart, but to hear Eric's story. Eric and Melissa build their story on a misunderstanding. They met to mutual friends and shared some interests. Melissa thought it was great that he was an inspector and loved his field stories. And Eric liked to tell them to Melissa. So they got married. The problem is that having a detective boyfriend is exciting and original. But detective husband isn't. She wanted children, and he didn't because it wouldn't work with his job. Eric stayed on the same line as before the marriage, but Melissa changed after it. Eric tried to change two, but he couldn't. Arguments became their daily life. He needed you, it is that simple. You two kiss each other in the light of the fire.

Perfect! That means we're on the right path! And don't worry, I still have enough energy left... (Hyun) Hyun and you are trying to find your way back after sleeping a night in the jungle. You two have found the waterfall from yesterday. You are on the right track and Hyun asks you if you need a break. Yesterday you felt and hurt your angle. But since you are going on the right track, you have enough energy to keep walking. So Hyun and you walk further. Good... Because my ankle still hurts. (Hyun) Hyun and you are trying to find your way back after sleeping a night in the jungle. You two have found the waterfall from yesterday. You are on the right track and Hyun asks you if you need a break. Yesterday you felt and hurt your angle. You rest a bit, but then you hear the sound from the jeep. Hyun and you run towards it. I'm exhausted, I only want one thing: to sleep! (Priya) I think we deserve a good night's sleep! (Nathaniel) I'm exhausted... I think I'm going to enjoy the best night of my life. (Hyun) Your lover and you are back from the jungle. Your lover suggests having a wild night, but you feel more like sleeping. He/she totally understands. You two go lay in the bed with your arms around each other and the episode ends. You can take my spot, if you want. (Eric) Eric and you have come back from the jungle. You are siting in the bad tube. Eric wants to join you. You tell him he can take your place, you want to sleep. Eric understands and goes with you to the bed. You two lay in each other's arms and the episode ends. 

Aren't you tempted by a good nap instead? (Rayan) Rayan and you are back from the jungle. Rayan is swimming in the pool. While you are laying on a pool seat. You ask Rayan if he wants to take a nap. Rayan would enjoy that. But maybe you first want to get in the pool. You join him in the pool for a while. After getting out, you go sit on a chair together. Let the sun dry you up. You both feel totally happy here in each other's arms. The episode ends.     I'm sorry, but I only want one thing: shower and then sleep! (Castiel) Castiel and you are back from the jungle. You went into the shower. Then Castiel joins you, but he is not here for the shower. You are sorry, but you just want to shower and then sleep. Castiel understands and waits his turn. After both your showers, you lie in each other's arms on the bed. The episode ends.

Ahw cuuteee 🥰 But I miss Eric and the Alternate life boys

Can you do kissing headcanons with nathaniel,like how he would kiss, where he likes to be kissed, where he likes to kiss you and often you kiss

Kisses with Nathaniel - HSL

N/A: Well that sound like some wholesome headcanons so there we go !

𝙸. 𝙷𝚘𝚠 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚔𝚒𝚜𝚜𝚎𝚜 

Delicate. Sorry but when I think of Nath in HSL that’s the word that comes to my mind (mostly because it is his first relationship where he is that emotionally invested so he doesn’t want to mess it up by rushing things. Especially with Candy that wants to keep their relationship a secret)

Therefore, I believe that he would be quite cautious when it comes to kissing Candy

However, once the relationship is no longer a secret and that he and Candy have grown comfortable with each other, it wouldn’t take long for Nathaniel to become more daring

Sometimes eager even

I mean, having to be so cautious all the time ultimately lead to some frustration settling in and it is likely that it would show at some point

He genuinely likes Candy and he feels like he can be himself around her so he’ll end letting down the walls he built around himself (just to rebuild them in UL lol 💀)

He would still keep his composure at school though. Don’t expect him to engage in make out sessions in the middle of the hallways (he’s still the Student Body President so he’d rather not getting caught indulging to such activities lol)

So he would give Candy little pecks here and then, sometimes he would kiss her forehead or the back of her hand while he’s holding it (cuteee)

But in private, I would say that this a different story

Candy and him could just be sitting here doing anything and he’ll feel an urge to kiss her. And this time he wouldn’t restrain himself and just go for it

He’d be testing the waters with a few kisses to see if she’s in the mood and if she is, he has no problem to initiate a make out session on the spot (and eventually, depending on what stage of the relationship they are in, he could let things take a more intense turn)

Nath is actually pretty good at maintaining the in-between kisses-eye-contact (and let’s be honest that would make Candy a little shy at first but that also be a major turn on because we’ve all seen Nathaniel lustful stare and it’s no joke lol)

Also, he likes to let his hands wander when kissing her. Whether it is resting his hand on her jawline, caressing her cheek during a slow and sensual kiss or grabbing her waist to bring her closer in a more eager one, he has to have his hands on her somehow

Nath’s probably a good kisser (up to you to think that he is a natural or not but in my humble opinion it would be because he is focusing on making it good so he can enjoy seeing Candy blushing at his kisses)

𝙸𝙸. 𝚆𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚑𝚎'𝚍 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚎 𝚔𝚒𝚜𝚜𝚎𝚍 

Okay so, kiss him on the cheek and he'll turn red instantly

He doesn’t really know how he feels about it because it’s really makes him feel like he’s cute you know ?

But he doesn’t want Candy to think of him as only cute (if you know what I mean), yet it’s enough to give butterflies because it’s just so lovely and pure despite all

Ofc he loves it when he and Candy lock lips, I mean do I really have to explain that one ?

However, if Candy’s feeling a little bold and start to gently bite his lower lip during the kiss, he’s the one flustered now (and turned on)

Also, he loves it if Candy places a quick kiss on his shoulder when holding his arm (yeah because I have this Headcanon that Nath prefers when Candy hold onto his arm rather than holding his hand and sorry but that’s just so sweet because we know that he doesn’t like his arms so having Candy holding it makes him forget that)

Bonus point : if she kisses his bare shoulder or place a kiss on his collarbone after a little fun time (and by that I mean the devil’s tango)

Kisses in the neck are also a big yes for him but no hickeys though (because once again he’s the Student Body President and he doesn’t want to explain to anyone how he got this because imagine if a teacher or worse, MRS SHERMANSKY, notice THIS)

𝙸𝙸𝙸. 𝚆𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚔𝚒𝚜𝚜 𝙲𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚢

About the kisses him the neck, be sure that he returns the favour to Candy

I said it already but you know a little kiss on the back of her hand or a gentle kiss on her forehead are a way to go (it would happen the most when they’re in public or when Candy needs some comfort I think)

Would also leave kisses on the corner of her mouth (most of the time to tease her lol)

I think I already said a lot in the first part so this part will be a bit empty since I think you guys already got a good idea of how his kisses are

𝙸𝚅. 𝚆𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚠𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚔𝚒𝚜𝚜 :

In public, not that much honestly

A little kiss when they see each other or another one to say goodbye

In private though, it would be more when they both feel like it

He’s clearly touch-deprived so he loves when Candy takes the initiative and comes to him

He can be quite random with his kisses (as I think I already mentioned above) but don’t get it wrong, whether it’s a short or a longer kiss, he doesn’t always does it because he wants it to lead to something else (just sometimes he has these moments where he wants to remind Candy of how much he likes her, like a sudden burst of affection) - adorable !

That's it for this request ! I am still learning how to do proper headcanons since it's a first for me to write in this format but I am getting used to it !

Hope you enjoyed it ! <3

My Candy Love Love Life Christmas 2022

I had to speed through this event due to my laptop causing me issue... I did try to spend time reading Nathaniel’s dialogue... It was sweet.

I love the illustrations! They’re very Christmassy and warm. I’ve been looking forward to a mistletoe illustration with Nathaniel for years!

The outfits are kinda... Meh. The Warm Awakening outfit is my favorite. I really love the drinks! The bank outfit has the best wig.

I have my candy in something similar to what I will actually wear on Christmas. Something comfortable with a Santa hat.

questo è stato uno dei momenti più belli con Nath. Mi ha trasmesso diverse emozioni, tra tristezza per quanto gli è accaduto e tenerezza per il profondo discorso che ha rivolto alla dolcetta.

Man mano che vado avanti con gli episodi, mi accorgo sempre di più che, dopotutto, il Nath del liceo è ancora dentro di lui, basti notare la sua continua tendenza protettiva e premurosa nei confronti di chi ama, ma me ne rendo conto anche quando comincia ad arrossire nel momento in cui prova ad esprimere i suoi sentimenti verso Candy.

Per adesso, la storia che mi sta coinvolgendo maggiormente a livello emotivo è proprio quella di "campus life": la trovo avvincente, commovente e tenera -sempre in riferimento al rapporto tra Nath e la dolcetta-, purtroppo girovagando tra i diversi social mi sono "spoilerata" alcune scene degli episodi successivi (e poi ci sto giocando contemporaneamente con Love life quindi ormai conosco più o meno i momenti salienti della storia, ahimé. 😂)

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this was one of the best moments with Nath. He conveyed various emotions to me, between sadness for what happened to him and tenderness for the profound speech he addressed to my candy. As I move forward with the episodes, I realize more and more that, after all, the Nath from high school is still inside him, just note his continuous protective and caring tendency towards those he loves, but I also realize it when he begins to blush the moment he tries to express his feelings towards Candy.

For now, the story that is involving me most on an emotional level is precisely that of "campus life": I find it compelling, moving and tender - always in reference to the relationship between Nath and Candy -, unfortunately wandering around the various social networks I had to deal with several spoilers of the following episodes (and then I'm playing it with Love life at the same time so by now I more or less know the highlights of the story, alas 😂)