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Kill Switch II
part 1
a/n: things take a turn on the journey that is motolip and reader insert. surprise appearance, surprise smut, surprise sad; this arc contains.. things that i will not spoil in the tags!
pairing: reader x kim lip; words: 3.2k ; categories: loona, kim lip, smut, angst, reader insert, longing, motorcycle romance(lol)(?)
Sunday morning was spent at your favorite café, catching up with your best old lady friend. She was entranced, giving you her undivided attention, even ignoring her sudoku game.
"You stayed out that late with her?" she asked incredulously. You'd just finished up the part about driving her halfway home.
"Yeah, guess we clicked," you said happily.
"You'd better let me know what happens; I've run out of dramas to watch on TV," she said before heading back to the kitchen, leaving you with your latte and racing thoughts.
Should I text her? Is it too soon? Would that be annoying? Does she even want to see me again?
A perfectly timed vibration of your phone snapped you out of it.
[08:44]
jungeuniiie: wyd right now
chickenstripper97: at that café i mentioned, wbu?
jungeuniiie: on the way to that café you mentioned ^_^
So she did want to see you again. Thank God... You'd sunk so much time into thinking about her, it'd be a shame for it not to work. The time spent wasn't wasted, either; as it turned out, she was pretty much exactly how you fantasized she'd be. Pretty shy, but willing to talk forever about things she liked, intelligent, talented, and funny. Soon enough, Jungeun walked through the door and headed towards you shyly. She wore a brown leather jacket and her long, blonde hair was down, falling beautifully to her chest.
Don't look too long, don't look too long, don't-
"Do I look good or something?" she asked with her eyebrows upturned.
"O-oh, yeah, you do. Y-your hair's pretty long," you said, and she playfully hit your arm. Her hand rested there for a few seconds too long for it not to mean something. The café owner approached and made a face at you; you shook your head. Hopefully she wouldn't embarrass you.
"Finally found you, huh?" she said. Your face heated up right away.
"Thankfully," Jungeun said. She asked for some coffee and a meal, and you talked about what you'd do next time while you waited.
"Why wait until next time? We're here now, we ought to do something," she said. "It's Sunday, so... Something lazy."
"Wanna watch a movie?" you asked.
"Sure, we can head to your place after this!" she replied.
My place..? I didn't mean at my place..? But I guess if she's okay with it that's fine, but I really meant at the theater, but-
“Hello?” she waved a hand in front of your face.
“Sorry, spaced out,” you said. When she'd finished, the old woman came back and you paid her for Jungeun's meal, who kicked you under the table and pouted. You stood and smiled goodbye to the woman, then opened the door for Jungeun to head out.
"Here, follow me back to mine, okay?" you said. She nodded. The both of you sped down the street, and after each turn you made sure she was still with you; soon enough you made it to your garage. You parked inside and headed up to your apartment, Jungeun close behind. Your heart was racing, you felt sweat forming on your forehead. You weren't sure what this was supposed to mean, but... You tried not to read into it too much. Jungeun eagerly entered your apartment as soon as you opened the door. She looked around the same way she'd looked around your garage, with curiosity, with enjoyment. She wandered over to the window, floor to ceiling and spotless with a view over the city. Her hand hovered over your shelf, scanning albums, books, movies, and settled on one movie in particular. It was a favorite of yours, you knew every line, but you weren't against watching it just one more time.
"You're welcome to sit while I get everything going, want any snacks or drinks?" you asked while you moved about the room. Jungeun carefully sat on your couch.
"Oh, sure, thank you," she said, so you grabbed her a glass and a blanket as well. You flicked off the lights and got the film started. Like at the Bugak Skyway, you were watching her, and she was watching the movie. Thankfully she didn't catch you staring. She didn't move much closer to you throughout the film, and you were too nervous to move any closer to her. The credits rolled.
"I'd never seen it, but I'd always wanted to," Jungeun said. "Weird that you had it on your shelf."
"Coincidence?" you mused. She nudged your leg with hers and giggled.
"Ought to head home. I had a good time, thank you for having me over," she said. You felt sad, but took her down the elevator and opened your garage for her so she could head out.
A hug goodbye maybe? A kiss..?
Jungeun patted your shoulder before pushing off and heading out. Well... It's something. Small thoughts swirled into a hurricane inside your heart on the way back up. What did you think would happen? What did you want to happen? You sat on the couch and played video games for hours before falling asleep with the TV still on.
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The week passed with little to say for it. Work, riding, and radio silence. Friday night came around, and you got off work early. Wouldn't be a bad time to walk around downtown and try to get lucky, right?
Neon signs in windows lit the way as couples and groups stumbled down the sidewalk. The buzz of conversation and music playing from each doorway mixed and weaved into a melody of night life that you'd sorely missed after being busy with your chase for the last month. Your eyes fell on plenty of pretty girls, but... The one you wanted wasn't there. Your last message had been sitting on delivered for days. Once again... Give up, or change your strategy? You ducked into a bar and approached the bartender. You didn't drink, but tonight you would; maybe it would be easier. You threw back the drink quickly and left cash on the counter, reemerging into the street. Now feeling warm from your stomach, you continued your stroll with your hands in your pockets. Every face on the street told you a different story. That guy just got dumped, but he's with his friends, so he's trying to act fine. That girl's about to get married, tonight is her last dance with night life. What story did your face tell? If anyone noticed you, the story they'd read on your face was one of someone full of hope but empty of expectation; someone who was one more inconvenience away from being done with it all, whose patience ran out a long time ago, who just wanted to feel seen and heard, but went without either.
A sharp pang through your chest when you saw that long, blonde hair. And indescribable pain when you saw a red-faced Jungeun, laughing, hands on his chest as she was pulled into a club by another man. Your breaths quickened. Your inner voice tried, but failed to form any sort of sentence, any explanation or comfort to yourself. You picked up the pace and returned to where you'd parked your bike. One helmet and jacket later, you turned the key and got going. As you went down the street you cast a glance at the club she'd gone into with that guy. Someone on the sidewalk yelled to you for a rev bomb, and you gave a solemn turn of the wrist. Finally, you could think. Wind rushing past and rumbling below.
It started with denial.
She's just drunk. He's just a friend. It's a one-time thing. They aren't together...
It proceeded with anger.
Did you really think someone like her would be with someone like you? Did you really expect her to be single, looking like that? You're so stupid...
It continued into bargaining.
He's so much taller than you. He's probably rich. His arms and shoulders are much bigger than yours. I bet he has a huge bike and a sports car. She's probably in love with him. If you were just better...
As you rounded a corner, depression.
I'm so useless. Everything I do is a waste of time. Why do I even try anymore? Why should I? Things aren't supposed to work out for me...
But acceptance didn't come. It kept flashing in your mind, the image of her, face tinted by alcohol, shining with sweat under the neon lights, smile so bright and wide, hands all over him. His hands were around her waist... God dammit. What did you really expect? For a moment you sat in your garage, staring down at the kill switch that you didn't have to swat small hands away from tonight. You were on autopilot as you closed the garage door and took the elevator up.
Many hours and many video games later, your phone buzzed. Couldn't be...
[01:34]
jungeuniiie: sorry, busy week... was out with my friends tonight, i feel bad for answering so late! :-/
Her friends... You tried to be the tough guy who didn't answer right away, but that just isn't you.
chickenstripper97: oh no problem haha
jungeuniiie: maybe we could hang out tomorrow night?
You couldn't do it. Too soon.
chickenstripper97: ohh actually having a rough time lately, probably gonna stay in
jungeuniiie: oh okay, no problem. hope you feel better :-(
You shut your phone off and kept playing your favorite game for way too long, distracting yourself. You tossed and turned, dreams and nightmares, sweat and discomfort, all through the night.
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Corner store coffee tasted great when you didn't have the willpower to cook breakfast for yourself. You trudged back out to the sidewalk and stood looking at the cars that passed while you sipped on the coffee and tugged your jacket tighter around your body. You killed most of the day at the track after your coffee, and hours of hard leans and near misses got you in the mood for some barhopping, hoping it would take your mind off things. The same street from the previous night, but a different feeling. You scanned the people walking around and selected a bar to start with. You grabbed a drink, then trudged to a couch in the corner so you could survey the room. More stories on faces, more thoughts to get lost in, more... Your vision was blocked by an hourglass figure and perfectly sculpted thighs peeking out from a very short dress.
"Deep in thought?" the woman asked. You slowly lifted your head, eyes passing over the form-fitting plaid dress, cropped leather jacket, dyed blonde hair, and gaudy chokers to finally meet the eyes of the stranger.
"Guess so," you answered. She sat close to you and crossed one leg over the other, then turned to you, drink in one hand, your shoulder running underneath the other. You got chills, but she didn't notice.
"What's wrong, handsome? Get dumped? Fired?" she asked away.
"Getting ahead of yourself, what about my name?" you said smoothly. She laughed and sipped her drink.
"With a face like that, who needs one?" she said. You raised your eyebrow, and she relented, asking sheepishly and nodding at your answer. "I'm Heejin. Never seen you before... Now, back to it. What's got you looking like that?"
"Girl problems, I guess," you said. You fidgeted with the watered-down beverage in your hands, and she got braver with hers. The hand on your shoulder gave a squeeze, and she set her drink down to place the other on your leg.
"Want me to fix them?" she asked. Her eyes dragged over your whole body, back to your eyes. Without giving you time to answer, she kissed you fiercely. Briefly pulling back, she asked: "Do you want me to stop?"
"No," you said, and slid your hand over her waist to her back. She smiled into the second kiss and gripped you tighter. Her lips were cold from the drink she'd been sipping, tinged with a light fruity flavor. Her tongue brought the taste of alcohol into your mouth, and you sucked on it hungrily. She hummed quietly as she moved her hand from your chest to take hold of your wrist and guide your hand to her leg, which she was in the process of bringing over your lap to straddle you. Heejin was fully on top of you now, making out with you on the couch in a dimly lit bar, music shaking you to the bone, smell of alcohol seeping into your psyche. Before your hands crept from her legs all the way up to her chest, you stopped yourself.
"Come on," you spoke into her ear. She smiled and got up, holding your hand while you strode to the bar and tossed way too much cash on the counter. The bartender shouted a thank you over the loud music and you stepped out onto the sidewalk with Heejin in tow. You gripped her hand and made your way to your bike; her eyes widened. She watched you pull an extra helmet out of the seat compartment, then stood still for you to slide it over her head. You hopped on and she followed, arms tight around your waist. She held you tighter as you began moving. Soon you were home, stumbling inside, making out in the elevator, fighting to get the key in the door, and finally falling into your bed. Heejin quickly shed her leather jacket and you shed your shirt, your lips latched onto her neck, then her nape, then her collarbones, then even lower. She turned around for you to unzip her dress, then slipped it off to reveal her bare chest; no bra tonight, apparently. She shoved your head lower so you could kiss and suck on her chest, which you did happily. Airy moans made their way to your ears as your tongue swirled around her nipple and you moved to the other, all the while massaging her petite breasts with your hands. Your bulge wasn't a secret at this point, and she squeezed and rubbed you eagerly while you showered her chest with kisses.
A sudden knock on the door. Heejin looked up at you, and you made a confused expression. You placed your hands on her hips to give them slow rubs up and down.
"It's deadbolted, I'm not worried about it," you said. She nodded and brought you back down to kiss you again. The knock on the door nagged at you a bit until your mind was wiped blank by the sensation of soft lips around your cock. You were so lost in thought you didn't notice Heejin taking your pants off. On her knees, she bobbed up and down, and your hands went to her long hair. You took fistfuls, gently, of course, and moved your hips slowly. She took you all the way and gagged, and you lifted her to her feet. You kissed her neck again while you slipped your fingers into the waistband of her panties and pulled them from her thick thighs. She smirked and stepped out of them, so you took the invitation. You lay her down and kissed her muscled thighs while gently stimulating her clit to get her going, and she rolled her hips and moaned approvingly. You gave a slow swipe of your tongue up the length of her dripping pussy. She tasted fantastic; sweet, sweaty, ready. Your fingers slid into her first, curling at just the right point to feel that rough patch inside of her.
"Do you want me to fuck you, Heejin?" you asked and stood straight up to look down at her tight, muscular body. She bit her lip and nodded eagerly, so you leaned down to kiss her sternum, then teased her warmth with your tip. You thrusted into her quickly, the sensation was irresistible. The slick that soon coated your shaft made it easy to fuck her deeply; you moved in and out of her rapidly, the tip of your cock reaching deep inside of the small girl, poking at her womb over and over again. She moaned uncontrollably with each thrust. You laced your fingers with hers so she could squeeze your hands tightly. "You're so fucking hot," you mumbled in a raspy voice.
"Fuck, ah... So... Big..!" she whimpered with each stroke. She let go of your hand and started rubbing her clit, causing her to tighten even more.
"Shit, Heejin, I'm-" she locked her legs around you and you felt her body shudder intensely when she came. Of course, the tightening and influx of wetness made you cum, too, but you were too drunk on pleasure to think much about it. Oversensitivity yanked you from your delirious state and your eyes snapped open. Heejin was still panting, cum dripped out of her and onto the sheets. A quick kiss on her cheek, then you pulled out and moved to the bathroom. You got a towel to clean up a bit.
"Mm... Could you get me some water?" Heejin asked quietly. You heard her rustling around in her purse. One trip to the kitchen later, you came back to give her the glass, and she tossed back a small pill before finishing off the water and smiling to you when you gave her the towel.
"You're welcome to stay, you know," you said.
"Just a hookup though, right?" she asked.
"Just a hookup," you laughed. As soon as you came down from the euphoria of the sex, everything came flooding back. Jungeun and that man... Ugh. You wondered what she was up to, probably with him. You wished the girl in your bed right now was her, and cursed yourself for your bad habit of trying to get over girls by using other girls. The key word was trying: you weren't over it. It'd take a while, considering how much time you already wasted hoping she could be yours...
Wait, the knock on the door earlier. A neighbor? Curiosity got the best of you, and you threw on some boxers and walked over to the front door. The peephole didn't reveal anything, so you opened it up and looked up and down the hallway. Then, you spotted a small basket on the floor. It seemed to contain some snacks, but you were more interested in something else: the note stuck to the top.
sorry I didn't catch you while you were home :-( i feel so bad for not answering you all week. i hope you're doing okay, and that this can cheer you up a little. we should go out soon!
text me,
jungeun♡
With Heejin in your arms and Jungeun in your mind, you couldn't stop thinking as you lay with your eyes open, staring at the wall in your pitch black bedroom. Did a one night stand with a hot stranger really prevent you from meeting Jungeun at the door..? Why did she go to this length for you? Why is there a heart by her name? What does 'go out' mean? You'd ask for Heejin's perspective in the morning; she was a woman, after all, so she might be able to offer some wisdom on the subject. For now, though, you held her close to you, and fell asleep listening to her quiet breaths.
#loona x male reader#loona x reader#kpop fanfic#loona#loona fanfiction#girl group smut#loona smut#girl group fluff#loona fluff#girl group angst#loona angst#kim lip x reader
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i NEEED YVES AND Y/N MOMENTS PLEASEE
Sun&Moon
Pairing-Yves&Seasons!Reader
“G-IDLE IS FOR THE GIRLS AND THE GAYS.” Y/n read while clapping “Yes, we are.” She smiled with a thumbs-up
“Oh! Yves is joining!” She clapped while getting close to her screen and tapping it, a few seconds later the Loona member joined the live “Yves!” “Y/n!” The two grinned at each other
“Girl where have you been?!” Y/n said while pouting at her “here,there, everywhere you know?” Yves said while sitting back “have you eaten?” You asked “Yeah, you?” She said while she read the chat “Mhm.” You mumbled
“Oh! Right have you taken a bath yet?” You said while straightening your posture “no, not yet, you?” She said with a “🤨” face “nope i haven’t, 우리 같이 목욕할까?” You said with a sly smile, speaking in Korean bc it was an instagram live with mostly people speaking English, Yves gasped and covered her mouth after she heard Your words.
Y/n laughed at Yves reddened face “well, should we?” You said smiling, Yves took a second to compose herself and then nodded and said “응 물론이지, 너희 집 아니면 내 집?” She said with a straight face
Y/n’s smile dropped for a few seconds before she let out a laugh “Wow, you’ve never said anything like that before, got me blushing!” She said with a smile as she read the comments quietly
“So do you think that you could be fine with not being friends with Yves?” Kang Ho-Dong asked while pointing to Y/n and then to Yves which made Y/n immediately shake her head
“Could the moon be without the sun?” She immediately said back making Kyunghoon and Sangmin confused and Hodong motioned for her to continue
Yves stared intently at Y/n as she continued “Without the sun, there would be no moonlight, the moon gets its light from the sun and without the sun, the moon would disappear.”
“Yves is my sun.” she smiled as she pulled her sleeve up to show a small moon tattoo and then pulled Yves's sleeve up to show a small sun tattoo
“Wow…who knew y/n was such a poet!” Ho-Dong clapped and then his smile dropped a bit as he heard Y/n chuckling, the camera pans to Yves covering her mouth while wiping her tears, and Y/n hugged Yves as she tried to stifle her laughs as she patted Yves back as she whispered a soft “Are you okay?”
Yves nodded as Y/n pulled away and Yves hit Y/ns shoulder “She always makes me cry!” Yves frowned as she took a breath and continued Almost everyone in the room laughed as she pouted, as the camera panned back to the knowing bros Y/n held Yves’ hand as she whispered gently “its okay.”
ONLY TWO FOR NOW BC IM TIRED
Other workz
(Lso yves cried bc this was around the same time that loona was getting mistreated, she was happy that y/n said sum nice abt her”
#smau#g idle#gidle#seasons!y/n#yves#loona yves#yves x reader#yves loona#drabble#headcanon#kpop gg#kpopidol#loona angst#yvesntual
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Around You (Part 3)
Pairing: LOONA Chuu ft. Heejin, Hyunjin X Male Reader
Word Count: 6997
A/N 1: Hallo Orenjideul! It has been a a while since I released a fic and here it is! it has been a busy month for me so sorry for the readers who made me wait for this series ._. Anyways, hope you enjoy this third part of my "Around You" mini-series and have a great day ahead Orenjideul! <3
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“Hey Oppa! Can you help me here? It’s a b-bit heavy...”
She grunts while lifting her backpack from the floor as it says enough on how she struggles to lift it. You then unhesitantly helped her as you hand the straps and helped her in flinging it in her shoulders as a confused face paints you right after.
“Why are you bringing so much stuff, Jiwoo? You’re not helping anyone and even yourself. Tch…”
“Well, maybe because I’m studying and brought all my books so I can prepare for the upcoming exam, unlike you Oppa. Hmp!”
“Really? I can maybe ace the exam without reviewing, hah!”
“Ace it, huh? Then explain to me how you scored a C on your Pre-calculus exam and exactly said the same things…”
You can't possibly think of an excuse after what Jiwoo had said towards you as you were frozen upon your position. Not only that you were stunned by that, but you were also dazed by her beauty as her hair flew at your sight, the wind helping her to showcase it as her effortless features made you in awe. Time felt like it ran slower as you could just hear her faint voice echoing around your ears, reverberating as you came back to your senses slowly while still looking at her with a genuine smile on your face.
“See Oppaaaa??”
“Jiwoo-yah…” you said in a soft and caring tone until you snapped yourself back to reality.
“W-what?”
“Uhm, n-nothing, j-just your books. Here, get it, now.”
Your sudden cold demeanor intimidates Jiwoo as she glares at you from daydreaming while she’s talking with you. She knows that you often space out while talking with her but little did she know, those were the signs that you’ve already fallen for her.
“Why do you mean get it? We’re still nowhere near my-”
“Nope, look behind you Jiwoo.”
She then looked back as she saw that she was now near her house, just near the vicinity of it. A gasp came out of her mouth as you smirked at her and chuckled right after.
“How c-come we are here already? We literally just walked like a few minutes a-ago.”
“Well, maybe because you were talking too much to the point you didn’t notice that we’re already near your house.”
You then teased her as you clicked your tongue multiple times with disappointment painting your face sarcastically. You can see her mother waving cheerfully through the glass window as it’s the sign that the both of you are parting ways.
“You’re no fun Oppa! Hmp! Anyways, see you tomorrow?”
“Why are you questioning me? Of course I’ll see your face tomorrow, as always, pft. Anyways bye Pengo…”
She pouts and sulks on the spot as she brings her textbooks with her, playfully stomping her feet on her way to the door of their house.
“Bye Pengo, stop tripping okay?” you said loudly, a chuckle escaping your mouth as she glared at you like she’s about to slap you at any time because of your annoying teases.
She’s always used to it and it’s most likely the charm of your relationship as best friends, mostly how the both of you are notorious in the whole school for acting like cats and dogs to each other. Your cold demeanor earlier doesn’t mean to intimidate her but just to burn the image of you being allured in her charms from both of your minds, mostly hers. You’re showing her signs but those seem won’t work as you dismiss her compliments towards you too, thinking that she’s really joking and always prefers calling you a “pabo” all the time rather than the both of you being locked up in a room for a minute or two.
“How could she be blind? Aishh, nevermind, whatever…”
Frustration is evident in your tone as you hurriedly walk your way home as all you can think of is to take a rest and freshen yourself up as the exams are nearing. After minutes of walking, you then arrived at your apartment, unlocking the locks hurriedly as you prepared yourself to take a rest: eating a right amount of food, taking a shower, brushing your teeth and making the bed—you’re just tired and wanting to take a rest as soon as possible.
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Two days. Only two days left before your finals exams as the students rush in their classrooms as soon as the bell rings. Most of them were busy chit-chatting, reviewing, teasing and a lot more yet you’re the complete opposite, you’re just laying down at your chair comfortably as you peeked outside the window, reminiscing the memories you made with Jiwoo for the past years you’d been friends with her.
Heejin notices this as she comes towards you and sits beside you. She then asked why you’re looking out of place as she knows you’re feeling eerie by the small expressions of your face.
“Nothing much, it’s just, Jiwoo…”
“What’s with Jiwoo Oppa? You haven’t confessed to her yet?”
“Shhh, quiet, we’re still in the classroom, they may hear us…”
“Sorry ‘bout that Oppa.”
It’s true that you wanted to confess to Jiwoo. It may seem unusual that the feelings you’ve developed with each other are late yet now your heart speaks up for the truth as you wanted to be with her in all of these years. You’ve witnessed her cry over a failed date due to a rejection up to the pointless quarrels the both of you made, you can’t slip it off your mind and wanted to take it a step further. You’ve been talking about this with Heejin for a long time and only the both of you know it.
Heejin knew it. From the start he met you and Jiwoo, you know something’s going on between the both of you as she can sense some signs that the two of you only knew and the connection the both of you are oblivious of. Also, with Heejin’s strong connection between the both of you, she knew that her gut feelings were true as the both of you always talked about each other and the thing is, the both of you had feelings towards each other. She’s been playing it wise as the both of you are oblivious about having some feelings towards each other as Heejin almost spilled the tea one time when Jiwoo and her were talking about their ideal types. Gladly, Jiwoo didn’t mind it and slipped it off her mind.
“But, Heejin…”
“What Oppa?”
“D-do you think I c-can do it later?”
“I trust in you Oppa. You can do this. There’s no harm in trying, right? Besides, she’s still your friend at the end of the day whatever happens, you got nothing to lose, Oppa.”
Maybe Heejin was right. There’s no harm in trying, right? You have nothing to lose and Jiwoo will still be your friend at the end of the day if you did.
After a few talks, you thanked Heejin for a quick talk as you’re always grateful for having a friend like her, alongside Jiwoo, of course. The class is about to start in a couple of minutes as you prepare for what’s coming next with Jiwoo still revolving around your mind.
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Dismissal time. The bell rang and after a few minutes, students were scattered around the campus grounds and across the quadrangles, cafeterias and most of the students are now rushing towards the gate to go home yet you’re in an opposite way—a sudden bet with Heejin earlier as the cause was your non-stop teases about her highschool crush. Both of your competitive spirits ignite while talking about the bet as Heejin’s sarcastic sulking face makes an introduction to you as you jokingly tease about her bad luck with bets. You became so confident about winning to the point that you let her choose what will be the bet for later’s main event.
She’s not giving up easily and rather found your pride as her ultimate advantage. Like the smart bunny she is, she thought of a bet that surely will make her win as she uses another advantage against you and now is the time for her to prove it.
“Now that we’re here, what’s the bet that you had in store against me?”
Before Hyunjin could say anything, she was stopped by Cheongsoo as he ensures the bet that you’re going to be in and its consequences for the both of you.
“Are you sure about the consequence, Hyuk?”
“Yeah, why? Like she’s going to put some make-up on my face? No chance!”
“Yah! Don’t underestimate my friend like that, Oppa!”
“Are you sure about the consequence, Jin?”
“It’s not like I’m going to treat him what he wants, for a day. No chance!”
“Well, without further to do, let’s get started!”
You’re aware of the saying about “jinxing yourself” yet you didn’t care about it because pride took over your body, complacent on how easy you’re going to win the game without any effort wasted.
“Well, what’s the bet you have in store for me?”
“Are you ready to lose, Heejin?”
“I should be saying that to you but let’s see, Oppa.”
A chuckle escaped your lips as you locked your eyes on Heejin—your competitive spirit igniting every second you locked eyes on her. Her eyes also ignited the same as yours did but more of a teasing one since she can’t hide her chuckles everytime she sees you.
“Well, shall I reveal the game that we’ll be playing?”
“Go on Cheongsoo, reveal it!”
Cheongsoo then winks to Heejin—a sign of a “teammate” advantage towards you; finding it unfair but the deal is sealed and there’s nothing you do about it—as he places four bottles, four ten-thousand won bills onto the table and a couple of coins. Curiosity paints your face as you are taught of the possible game that they made against you and gladly, you know what game it is yet do you know how to win against her? You're familiar with the game yet you exactly don’t know how to beat it and with that in mind, you’re nervous as you don’t want to walk like a clown in the campus as you can imagine what can happen next.
“Well, you two will get the bills without any of the coins falling off and there are four bottles on the table. The winner will be declared if they got the bills the fastest under a minute or if the other one didn’t finish all the bottles or who’s the player who got the most bills at the end. So… goodluck to you two!”
After Cheongsoo’s plain yet punctuated explanation about the game the both of you are playing, you can’t help but feel lost and stunned because of what is presented at the table. As you’re feeling uneasy and off, you wanted to get out of this, close the deal and escape the bet yet you’ll be feeling guilty after that—not to mention how cute Heejin’s face is when she’s sulking and frustrate and thanks for being her classmate for months and being her close friend, you can came up to that conclusion accurately.
“Well, because of Hyuk’s confidence earlier, why don’t we let him do the bet first?”
“Wha- Why m-me? No, no, l-let Heejin go first, not me!”
“Well, don’t you want to beat me, right, Oppa?”
“Nah, ladies first, remember?”
“And be a gentleman, hmp!”
Heejin pouts as she crosses her arms, pretending to be sulking and you know that it’s your biggest weakness as you can’t help but fall for her. How could you not feel bad if she’s sulking? Of course, you always want to cheer her up and enlighten the mood whenever she’s like that and without wasting time, you just do what can make her smile.
“*sighs* Alright, I’ll go first…”
Coming nearer to the table, you positioned yourself and adjusted your stance as you thought of a possible way to get that bill between the bottles without letting the bottle fall. It may seem challenging and impossible as you doubted to give it a go and asked Cheongsoo if this is really the game the both of you will be playing.
“Yeah! That’s the game we’re playing! Well, show us the confidence you showed earlier…”
“Just shut it…”
With no other choice, you then stepped near the table and played the game without knowing how to beat the game efficiently.
“Well, what can I say? Let the games begin!”
As the game starts, you step in as the timer starts to tick and Heejin faces you in order for her not to gather any possible techniques that she may use against you. Every second ticks and pressure can be felt from your veins as stress starts to rise up.
“No, no, I should not do it fast because the coins will fall off.”
Strategies and all of the possible techniques that you can think of is all that you need to win this bet as you don’t want to go home embarrassed with make-up on your face.
With a single try, you managed to get halfway through a bill as unfortunately, the coins fell off the bottle as you were frustrated by the sight of it. Hope starts to fall off drastically as you feel that you just need to accept your fate—you already know that all of them are against you in order to make you lose, intentionally—yet you didn’t think of that as there are still three more bottles to go and Heejin may lose two or more if it’s her turn.
45 seconds left as you went to the second bottle and did the exact same strategy yet this time, you’re not rushing it and pausing at random intervals in order for the coins not to fall.
“Just do it nice and easy Hyuk, you got this! There aaaand… yes!”
After an intense moment, you managed to be successful with your made-up strategy as you got the bill out of its restraints yet you still have two more to go as the time is ticking—every second counts here.
28 seconds left and you feel like it’s an eternity as you just want this to end yet your competitive spirit ignites and lets you think the opposite.
You just did the same strategy—pull the paper bill slow and concise for the coins not to fall—as you were successful on the third bottle. You smiled to yourself as you were satisfied with how your sudden strategies are working despite the zero experience of playing this game yet the game is still ain’t over as there were just 14 seconds left for the last bottle.
10 seconds was only left as you were only a quarter of the bill done as all of the students began counting down to zero which just sent gasoline to the flames. Intense pressure can be felt as you upped the pace of your strategy which earns a skip of a beat in your heart.
“Come on! It’s halfway done!”
“5 seconds left!”
“Nearly finished! And…”
“Time’s up!!”
“Argh!!”
You let out a frustrated roar as you were just close to finishing the last bill yet time interferes with the sudden hype you’re feeling as it subsided, feeling defeated and accepting your fate on facing the consequence later.
“They're literally cheating, I swear! Ugh…”
“Well, I think that’s it for the most confident person here!” Cheongsoo shouts as he teases you, earning an annoyed glare at him which earns a laugh from him. Heejin then mischievously grins as she knows exactly what to do to beat you—not to mention how all of them set you up to basically win the bet and let you have the consequence. You can maybe foresee the future as you know how bad this bet is going to end yet there still hope for you to win this as you could only hope for Heejin to mess up. If she messes up…
“It’s now Heejin’s turn for the game! Will Heejin make him go home looking like a clown or will Hyuk make her wallet wail? Let’s find out now as we’ll start the game again!”
The timer starts as soon as Heejin steps up near the bottle, trying to do a different strategy that probably your friends had said to her earlier. You watch her with fire in your eyes as anger ignites the flames inside it which just paints a put on your face.
As she tried to flick the bill at lightning-speed, she wasn’t successful enough as the force applied is felt by the bill and as a result, the coins fell down resulting in a rough start for Heejin. As you watched her beat the game, you noticed how uncanningly familiar is the techniques she’s using and that’s when an imaginary lightbulb pop above your head as you remember a lesson about Physics in your Science lessons and also, thanks to Jiwoo for teaching you that when you’re failing years ago in Physics.
“Ahh!! Inertia! I knew it! How come I didn’t think of it earlier?? Aish, I'm so bad…”
Regret revolves the entirety of your mind as Heejin now moves to the second bottle as there was still three-quarters of a minute left. You sat down there, eyebrows scrunching as you know what Heejin will do next, feeling defeated.
You’re still amazed about “her” ingenuity and the application of inertia to beat this game and it never fails to make you smile—it can’t be helped since you’re always feeling soft towards Heejin.
She now tried to do the same technique earlier yet this time, she positioned her index finger like she’s about to chop the bill in order for it to work with a higher success rate.
Well, that trial became successful and it’s way faster than what you have expected as you were caught off-guard once she aced the rest of the bottles in a span of a small period of time as there’s still 37 seconds left on the timer. With a stunned face and a flabbergasted reaction, Heejin knows how you didn’t see that coming even though you’re half-expecting it.
“Well, that was fast and it looks like we knew the winner already!!”
Laughs and smiles painted their faces as gray clouds revolved around you as you know that you’re facing the consequence and they don’t even need to tell who’s the winner. As you face the inevitable, you glared at Heejin as you shouted, “Heejin is not unfair! She cheated!”.
Well, she didn’t cheat yet technically, she did yet the game is now over and as much as you want to whine about it, the favor isn’t going to end well for you as Hyunjin laughs at the corner, knowing what is going to happen next to you. As you’re still dumbfounded and lost, Heejin then approaches you as she drags you somewhere as Cheongsoo shouts, “You lost, Hyuk! Better luck, next time!” while the others are still giggling on your reaction to your sudden loss.
“Guess someone’s getting lucky…”, Hyunjin whispers to herself and your friends are still laughing as Hyunjin waves them goodbye, knowing how early she should be going home yet the fun earlier was worth more of her time. Not so long after, the people at where the event happened started to wave goodbyes and thanked each other for an exciting and a funny game which all of you enjoyed,except you.
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“You cheated Heejin. That's just unfair.”
“No, I didn't Oppa. You let me pick the game we're going to play and sadly you lost the bet.”
Heejin's face is on the verge of laughing as she applies more makeup on your face. You didn't mind it at first yet she's applying more than what you expected, making you yield and complain between her words of joy.
“You lost it! Just accept it! Haha, you looked better in this!”
“You played unfair! That wasn't right!”
“You played it badly, Oppa! Accept it!”
“Yet I know all of you set me up!”
You rolled your eyes in discontent as she applied more blush-on to your cheeks, making you feel a sting in your brain to yield again but her visuals made you in awe as you didn't mind her putting all of it onto your face as your glares and dissatisfaction masks the fluster your heart is experiencing.
"I think t-that's too much, Heejin. Stop it. I'm looking like a clown, probably."
"No, I'm not making you a clown, Oppa. Also, don't move that much or we won't be finished. It'll end soon, just trust me."
"Fine, whatever you say Heejin, tch."
Gladly, it was dismissal time once the consequence was fulfilled as you can’t afford to be teased and laughed at by the whole campus as you know that you’re looking like a literal clown right now. With regrets spiraling over your mind, you can’t wait to remove your makeup when you get home as the nightmare of all things is coming near—Jiwoo teasing you endlessly and how annoying it is.
Just a few retouches left and Heejin giggles in front of your face as she pulls a lipstick on her makeup bag and you’re not liking what’s going to happen next.
“Oh-OH! No, no, you’re not putting that on my lips!”
“Yes, I will because it's the consequence, Oppa…”
“No! Y-You said you’ll just put on makeup on my face, that’s it! The-”
You were paused as Heejin shuts you with lipstick brushing on your lips, marking a strong red tint. You’re aware that she’s probably making you a clown yet her reassuring tone dismisses all of it. After a couple of seconds and retouches, you’re finally done with the hell you’ve been through.
“And there! It’s done!”
“Fu- I shouldn’t have done that stupid bet, gosh…”
“Wanna take a loo-”
“No, thanks.”
“Oh, alright… Anyways, see you tomorrow! And, be better next time…”
Heejin then sticks her tongue out as she gestures goodbye towards you, still giggling on how you look which earns a frustrated face from yours—you rolling your eyes and exhaling a deep sigh right after.
“Gosh, Jiwoo will laugh at me non-stop. This isn’t good…”
You then remembered that you’re going to escort Jiwoo on your way home and looking at yourself right now, you know that you’ll get teased by Jiwoo and it’s just misery thinking about it.
You then course your way to her classroom with your face hiding your makeup as you surprisingly, you stumbled with Jiwoo on your way there.
“O-Oh, J-Jiwoo, I t-thought you were in y-your classroom?”
She didn’t respond at first however, a cold invitation sends shivers down your spine as you’re not liking what’s going to happen next.
“Let’s go home.”
“This isn’t good. She’s acting differently. Did I forget something again? Ah, come on now Hyukie what are you doing??”
Those questions lingered around your mind as she’s not usually like this—not like this when his ‘best friend’ is looking like a clown right now. You ultimately want to end your incoming suffering earlier, just thinking about the thought of how Jiwoo would tease you like it’s her last but it was the complete opposite—no teasing at all.
“Maybe she’ll tease after a few minutes but I hope this goes on but why is she acting like this?”
Your eyebrows scrunch just by thinking about what could be the possible root of her uncanningly random sulk. You are puzzled by such an unprecedented introduction of a new ‘Jiwoo’ as the awkwardness between the both of you doesn’t help you—you just wanted to see the Jiwoo you know.
“Why are you like this, Jiwoo?”
She didn’t respond yet she clicked her tongue in annoyance. You’re confused and baffled at her sudden behavior as she glared at you right after and at that moment, you knew that you did something wrong.
“Is it about me, huh?”
No response as the both of you continued walking until you stopped in front of her, making her do the same action too.
“Answer me Jiwoo! Is it about me?”
A response from her is not futile yet you won’t give up and you’ll do everything to get an answer out of her. She ignored you and continued walking as you held her wrists, making her gasp as she glared towards you.
“Let go of me…”
“Answer my question first.”
“I’m going to scream! Let go!”
You let go of her wrists as her threat against you worked. She continued walking as you questioned yourself on why she is like that, again and again. You’re definitely getting frustrated by her childish and selfish actions as you asked her once again yet this time, with a different tone that’ll send shivers down her spine.
“Answer my goddamn question, Jiwoo. Why the hell are you so stubborn, huh? Is it about me? Then speak up and stop acting like a child.”
“Y-u’re s–h a j–k…”
Mumbled words can be heard from her as curiosity paints your face, needing to find an answer on what she has said.
“What did you say?”
She faced herself against you as she was annoyed at your clown-looking face that she can’t afford to make eye contact, not even a second.
“You know what? You’re such a jerk! I’m finding you everywhere and you’re not even there! How stubborn are you! I said just stay in your classroom!”
You could definitely tell how annoyed and frustrated Jiwoo is: her deadly glares and her slightly-high tone says enough—not to mention how she’s still refusing to make any eye contact towards you because of how you look—yet you can’t help but think that she seems off and something’s wrong with Jiwoo.
“Well, you I literally said we’ll do something in dismissal and you said “Alright, I don’t care…” and there you go. Also, I don’t really know why you are acting like a child with a tantrum, Jiwoo.”
“And why the hell do you look like that? You look ugly, aish…”
“I know Jiwoo and don’t change the topic!”
“Can’t help it since you’re looking like a rejected clown which probably, you are, maybe…”
“How am I rejected? Huh, what are you even saying, Jiwoo?”
“Don’t play dumb Oppa, I know you like Heejin.”
Jiwoo really knows how to change the topic—or maybe, to really piss you off—as she pulls out an assertive smirk that she knows exactly how well she flipped the table between the both of you.
“What do you even m-mean? I- I don’t have feelings for her! And besides, if you keep teasing me I’ll shout that you like Che-”
You were paused by a sudden raise of Jiwoo’s arms, ready to slap you as gladly, your reflexes acting faster than the speed of light, preventing her from hurting you as you involuntarily flinched as a response to her actions.
“Shut up, you jerk! Aish!”
You can see how annoyed she is, not just by the look of her face but also the tone of her voice which you rather find cute—even though you know how cute she is in whatever she does and that makes your heart flutter. She then punched your shoulders as you didn’t have the reflex to dodge nor to prevent it as you can see her face on the verge of crying before she walks away to you slowly, which you don’t expect since you know how fierce and brave she is whenever she’s with you. You were stunned at your feet as you feel guilty for the reason for her sudden shift of mood and you don’t like when she’s at her lowest times—you’re getting concerned and thoughtful towards her since she’s your best friend… Your best friend.
“Yah, Jiwoo…”
She didn’t answer at first—knowing how much she’ll laugh and tease you with the makeup you’re on—yet you know how she’s feeling bad for you being too concerned for her. It almost feels like the both of you telekinetically knew each other’s feelings and there weren’t any teasing or joking around. The mood suddenly changed within a blink of an eye as you slowly patted her back to make her feel reassured about the current situation as she looked back, her eyes forming a glare as she softly murmured between lips, “You’re so blind Oppa…”
Now you realized something that you never knew that would come. You realized that she’s been holding it in and that she’s hurt every time she sees you with her friend, Heejin. You were dismissing everything: from her playful teases up to her cheerful moments with you, you didn’t know that she’s feeling the same way you do towards her—the both of you have feelings towards each other.
---Few Minutes Ago (Dismissal Time)---
*distinct chattering, bird chirps, wind breezes*
“Oh my gosh, where the hell is he? I’m going to hit him when I see him!”
A pissed penguin is definitely not a sight you want to see. Despite her cute demeanor and her vibrant aura, she’s a total opposite when she’s frustrated with something and that frustration is all about… you. It seems like the both of you didn’t understand each other—and most likely Jiwoo’s fault—yet she’s still determined to find where you are.
A few walks, a few chit-chats of various gossip around the campus—she does not even bother eavesdropping a single syllable— as Jiwoo sees a familiar figure with a girl, face-to-face towards each other in a cafeteria table. She’s piqued at the sight as she waddles her way slowly towards those people as she hides behind the wall near them in order to not get caught.
“...”
Silence interrupts the boisterous nature of the campus as Jiwoo was frozen at her place. Jiwoo taught herself that she shouldn’t have been too curious to know it because it just hurts for her to see it with her own, two eyes—it’s you and Heejin, together.
She's not dreaming and nor are you. Even though the both of you are much of a cat-and-dog relationship towards each other, it still hurts for her to see you with one of her closest friends being so close to each other. She may act tough; her heart is unscathed yet deep inside, it’s shattering slowly, piece by piece and she just can’t afford to do anything since it would be awkward for all of you. She doesn’t wanna lose you as she wants to step up the relationship between you and her, a lot more.
Jiwoo just wants to shout just to call your name but she can’t—she wants to know what the both of you are doing as she doesn’t want to end in an awkward situation as she wants to know more. As she sees you moving your right hand to hold Heejin’s left shoulder, she can’t help but feel anger and jealousy in every move you do with Heejin. She shouldn’t be because the both of you are just friends, right? Just friends…
“Hey Jiwoo, what are you do-”
“Ah-AH! Hyunjin! U-uhm…”
Jiwoo was startled by the sudden appearance of Hyunjin as Hyunjin sensed that something’s off the bat here—probably on why Jiwoo was hiding behind a wall and looking for someone.
“Oh-ohh, what are you doing here Unnie? I thought you went home after we met earlier…”
“Ah-ahh-AH! I w-was just, y’know, like— uhm, checking the ambiance here for tomorrow so I’ll know if I’ll review here since the exams are coming...”
“B-But you, uhm, just don’t mind it Unnie, I’ll go home, okay?”
“Okay Hyunjin! Bye… Phew, that was close.”
After Hyunjin left, Jiwoo then continued to stalk the both of you by sneakily peeking behind the wall as she feels like her world is collapsing everytime you and Heejin are with each other, close to each other.
After about two minutes, Jiwoo is still peeking behind the wall as she’s seeing something that’s not right which only piqued her interest in being hooked into an uncanny occurrence—you and Heejin, close to each other with both of your lips just inches away. She can’t bear looking as she already saw enough of anything and it’s breaking her heart slowly. She rested her body against the wall as a tear escaped her eyes as she felt defeated—having the thought of losing you is something she can’t think of.
Sniff after sniff, she feels lost as she regains her confidence and wipes the tears that are coming out of her eyes. She stood up as she said to herself, “I’m going home, alone. It doesn’t matter anymore.”. Guess it’ll rain on Jiwoo’s after that sight…
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“And I know I can’t do anything because it’s too late for me… Just why? Why are you so blind Oppa?”
She breaks down in front of you as she knows how she lost you—as if to know that you have a relationship with Heejin now. You were baffled in your place as she slowly hugs you, whining about how you're blind to see every move she makes just to know that she has feelings towards you. You’re just oblivious about it and always take things with Jiwoo as a joke, little did you know that those were small steps that lead onto something more.
“You’re such a jerk, you know that? You’re such a jerk, you’re such a jerk, you’re such a-”
She keeps on hitting you, frustrated about what’s happening as you pull her deeper in your embrace, her muffled words and whining toned down and so is her hits towards you. You then cupped her cheeks as you wiped the tear that came out of her eyes as she didn’t make eye contact with you—you totally understand her and you would do the same too if you were in her shoes.
“There’s nothing between us, Jiwoo, never was. It was all just a bet yet in fact—”
“—there’s something I wanted to tell you for a long time…”
Jiwoo’s eyes widen, eyebrows scrunched as you clear your throat yet her hand stops you from saying anything and surprises you with something that you’ll forever cherish.
As you are about to speak, she reaches for your collar as she pulls you into a deep, passionate kiss. You were baffled at the moment you locked lips with her as you wanted to pull out—panicking on a sudden action that you’re new with—yet her full, soft lips are letting you do the opposite.
Adrenaline pumped in your veins as you can see how you’re new to this situation yet you’re not complaining—her soft, full lips are irresistible—as you deepen the kiss until she pulls out, a smile now forming on her lips as she did what she’s been longing for.
“I-I-I’m s-sorry for that Oppa. I was j-just gotten away”
“N-No… It’s fine, Jiwoo, and I’m sorry for making you uncomfortable about the kiss. I’m really sorry…”
“No, it’s fine Oppa, I just can’t say it in words but I think that I’m too late…”
Jiwoo sighs in defeat as she thinks that everything is over. You then step closer to her, cupping both of her cheeks as you inhale deeply and sharply and then say, “The truth is that, I love you, Jiwoo…”
Silence reverberated around the area as Jiwoo is speechless upon her place, stunned about those eight letters that you’ve said that now revolves around her mind.
“Jiwoo, this time—I’m for real, I do love you…”
No words can explain what Jiwoo is feeling right now, at this very moment as it is evident in her eyes that she’s incredibly flustered—you can see it. There weren’t any hints of teasing or jokes between the both of you as it feels like the both of you knew each other’s feelings involving telepathy. The both of you exchanged smiles as you can see your sunshine being herself again, enough for her smile to infect you. She then suddenly kissed your cheeks; you were caught off-guard yet you didn’t complain as some words escaped her mouth in the form of a whisper: “I love you too, Oppa.”
Your grin widened as Jiwoo laughed at your state: you looked like a clown because of your make-up yet it didn’t matter as she sees everything but beauty in every inch of your face.
“Why? What was that, Jiwoo?”
“A little gift, just for you, Oppa…” her cheeks rosy-pink from her statement as she lightly hit you, making your heart skip a beat from her adorable actions as it’s just you being soft towards your best friend—maybe now your girlfriend.
“Let’s just go home, shall we?”
“Heh, alright Jagi~”
Jiwoo was baffled by an uncanny word that’s new to her ears as your eyes widen, flustered yet nervous on what’s about to happen next yet you remain calm and composure in order to slip off what you’ve said.
“What did you say, Oppa?”
“Nothing, let’s just go home.”
“You’re no fun, Oppa, argh!” Jiwoo playfully hits you as if you didn’t bother to dodge—it even makes your heart flutter and you love it.
The both of you then walked on her way home as teases, laughs and joy emanated the air, unlike the gloomy and defeat earlier. This day never had been special because of a sudden confession and a memorable bet that will be forever cherished and you loved it even though you faced the consequence and deeply regretted your life decisions.
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Chirps of birds and boisterous noises resonated your eardrums as the sun shines through the blinds on your window, signaling that it’s time for another day to begin yet this time, this feels uncanny. It’s normal for you to feel this way when waking up and it’s nothing new, so you dismiss it yet you still think of her after what happened. A smile paints your face as you stir your coffee and sniff it, the aroma brushing within the tip of your nostrils, sending dopamine all over your body.
Drink it slowly as the warmth of the coffee stings your tongue lighty which you always prefer, pairing your favorite morning drink with two toasts. Even though you dismissed the earlier thought, it can’t be helped that you still feel defeated about the thought of something. All of this feels like a fever dream yet you need to wake up to reality.
“Did I dream again? About her? About… Jiwoo…”you say to yourself between abrupt words of confusion as there’s a single sip just to finish your coffee, hoping to wash off all of these feelings but it doesn’t seem to be the solution..
You did dream, all about her, and her friends—a lucid dream to say the least. Was the girl you saw from your last nightmare was her? Is it her foreshadowing things that will happen? Patterns can’t help here as it may mean something yet these are all just made up by your mind—it does make sense because these were just dreams.
Between the idyllic ambiance around the room, it rained on you, knowing that there's nothing you can do but to accept that all was just a dream—and it may not come true. You sigh heavily as you grab your phone to check the time as there is still more or less an hour left before you go to school with Jiwoo.
You then hurriedly eat the remnants of your toasts as you wash the mug you’ve used as you prepared yourself on your way to school and to fetch Jiwoo yet you calm yourself down, knowing that you shouldn’t rush things as there's still time for you to catch up.
Lay down on the couch as you browse the internet on your phone, a series of delighted emotions can be felt as it enlightens the mood of yours yet that dream of yours still rings your head—it almost feels like it’s tattooed. Not so long after it, you proceed to take a shower as you notice how time flies fast—only 40 minutes left until the both of you meet.
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Lock the doors—even double-checking them—as you nonchalantly walked your way onto Jiwoo’s home to fetch her. Now inches away from her doorstep, you ring the doorbell as the door opens quickly which earns a baffle from you. You are then greeted by a cheerful Jiwoo, her vibrant smile illuminating the dark side that you’re currently feeling which paints confusion on your face. Not so long after, she closed the door as she waved goodbye to her parents.
“Hey Oppa! Morning~”
“Why is she sounding like that? Sounding so coy? What’s with her? Hmmm…”
“Morning Jiwoo…”
“Hey, are you good, Oppa? You seem stressed or whatever…”
“Yeah, I’m good Jiwoo. It’s just maybe my mood swings…” you said an excuse just to play it off as Jiwoo seems convinced, earning a relief from yours.
“Oh okay, anyways, we’ll meet later huh? So we can review the lessons, okay Oppa?”
“Alright Jiwoo, whatever you say…”
The both of you then coursed your way onto your school as you feel revitalized as Jiwoo’s vibrant and contagious smile is the reason—you blame others on why she’s such a social butterfly and the bringer of good vibes.
The sun is already shining at the horizon, signaling that a new day will start as you’re unsure of what fate could bring you. There’s nothing new happening yet you’re still not ready on what could happen between the both of you, maybe the thought of you losing her yet all you need now is to focus on what’s about to come—your finals as it’s nearing with only 2 days to spare.
Will you be friends until you part ways or you will act up and share what you’re really feeling about her? You don’t know what to do and you’re just hoping for the best of both of your worlds. Hopefully…
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A/N 2: I know I said this will be only 3 parts yet we'll see... *smirks*
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loona reaction to accidentally revealing your relationship
☁️ :: mainly angst
♡ :: heejin 희진
as heejin was excitedly talking to her fans on vlive, giggling amused at the way the comments would go crazy as soon as she did something as innocent as simply brushing her hand through her hair or biting her bottom lip as her eyes skimmed through the comments. a little "oh!" left her lips as a viewer pointed out a few new additions to her drawings neatly taped on the wall behind her. "yes! i added some recent pictures i drew lately" she exclaimed as she rolled with her chair closer to the wall and carefully removed said drawings from it, with the intention of showing them to her fans. "i've been drawing traditionally a lot, actually" she explained, resting the drawings on her desk. "but i have some... fairly recent digital pieces as well" she continued as she pulled out and unlocked her tablet. smiling at the screen she finally chose what to show her viewers, pulling out this pretty landscape view she had worked on for the last few days. flattered by the positive response, she felt like showing more, sliding her fingers on the screen in the wrong direction, accidentally revealing what many people immediately recognized was a portrait of you. you were wearing the same outfit as the most recent music show you and your group attended to... and overall some kpop fans would have recognized you regardless. her eyes shot wide open and her expression didn't really leave any doubts to the viewers. something was definitely up between the two of you. "that's...! they're just... i just admire them a lot and..." she would ramble before changing the subject and attempting to keep her live going, but the comments were not letting her off the hook so easily... so much that she eventually had to end it, and with a shaky sigh and teary eyes proceeded to text you.
♡ :: hyunjin 현진
hyunjin acted without thinking. and the shocked expressions on her members' faces or the stern look from her manager, and complete silence that fell over the whole room should have made her understand that she had messed up big time. it was a live interview, show, kind of thing, and the hosts were this group of over middle aged men, thinking that making fun of young girls is somewhat entertaining, and crossing many many lines while doing so. during a specific moment in the show, the girls were all called together to take a picture with the mcs, who didn't even think before grabbing some of them by their shoulders and pulling them closer. hyunjin was one of them. and she quickly pulled away, faking a smile. "oh what happened?" the host tried to joke "you have a boyfriend or something? is he jealous?" he continued while laughing in her face, at which she replied "yes, my s/o wouldn't be happy seeing you touching me like that", storming out of the set. unprofessional, she knew that. but she couldn't bear it any longer. you, who were watching the live from your phone, had your mouth wide open, not a single idea in mind about what you were supposed to do at that moment, until you got hyunjin's call. "i have to figure things out with the company about what just happened. i’m really sorry, love".
♡ :: haseul 하슬
she was peacefully on vlive, probably in her own dorm room with no supervision from any of the staff or even her manager -who was however watching her live just to keep the situation under control. she was answering questions from the fans, giggling and scolding her own members for leaving comments lovingly making fun of her, she even sang some songs that were requested by the viewers. she was having so much fun that she almost forgot she had invited you over at a certain hour, when she was almost sure she would have finished by then, but it wasn’t the case. she soon heard your voice on the other side of the door; you were surely being entertained by some of her members while she was still finishing up her live. she got so excited at the thought of going out with you, that she made a rookie mistake: she said her goodbyes, she thanked her fans for keeping her company, and she swore she had ended the live, but she stood up so quickly that her hand slipped and never properly clicked. she ran to greet you and loudly exclaimed “i missed you so much!! oh my god come here” and kissed you just loud enough that it was clearly heard by the viewers. then her phone would start going off with calls from her manager and she would get so confused but soon understand the situation and you could see her face going pale in an instant.
♡ : yeojin 여진
you had spent the whole afternoon together, drinking milkshakes while sitting in front of the ocean on the beach. you had cuddled the whole time and taken so many pictures as well, especially yeojin. it was a time so dear to her because for the very first time in months her schedule was free, no promotions, no fan meetings, no interview, no radio, no variety shows... she almost couldn't believe it was real, spending time with her s/o like this, without anyone's from her company supervision, without having to leave at a certain hour. "you look so good like that!" she exclaimed, snapping a picture of you, "oh my god the sunset! pose like this for me!" she continued, moving around to get your best angles. you chuckled, covering your face from some of the sand she was accidentally kicking around while moving, "let's get a picture together instead, you have enough of my face in that phone, i think" you suggested, extending your arm to invite her next to you. snapping a quick picture together, you admired how cute you both looked sharing the smallest peck on your lips, making yeojin shriek in embarrassment. "don't you think it looks good?" you asked, "i might post this!" you joked, to which yeojin surprisingly replied "you can". you raised both eyebrows at her "huh? this could be very risky for you, i don't want to ruin your career...", getting interrupted by your girlfriend "you have your profile on private anyways, right? here, i'll do it" grabbing her phone which was connected to your instagram account too, posting it and closing the app. "ther-" not even one second later, she got a call. from her manager, which instantly made her heart drop. you watched her expression with a puzzled look on your face, wondering what was happening. "i i accidentally uploaded the picture on the loona account and it got immediately taken down by the company, but 300 people had liked it already and there's probably screenshots around" she cried into your arms as you did your best to comfort her.
♡ : vivi 비비
for the first time after a while she had decided to do a live all by herself in her own vocal room, showing her fans new paintings she had worked on or planned on doing, and she would cutely get closer to the screen to see the comments, before pulling back and giggling, and then answering. "when was the last time i went out with the members?" she read the comment out loud before puffing her cheeks and glancing upwards towards the ceiling for a second, clearly trying to recall the event, then letting out a "oh!" of realization and pulling out her phone, fiddling with it a bit before showing it to the camera she was streaming on. "this is a picture i took last week when i went out to drink with loona 1/3... subunit hangout" she giggled while zooming on the faces of each member present in the picture. she stopped chuckling all of the sudden, her heart stopped and her face visibly turned pale as a notification popped up on the screen, big enough for every viewer to see. from: the love of my life; <are you still up for that one date you promised me~? 💕>. the chat was going so crazy that she thought the whole app would freeze and stop working, or something... she was furiously giggling and looking around for any help, trying her best to cover it up, "that's my,, my friend yeah they.. they are joking, i mean-" but the sheer despair on her face was way too much to hide, and the tears welled up in the corners of her eyes weren't helping her case at all. then suddenly the door to her room opened just enough for only one hand to be seen, inviting her to step outside and she closed her live in a hurry, apologizing profusely in a shaky voice.
♡ : kim lip 킴립
it was a dumb mistake. very dumb. and she could never forgive herself for potentially ruining your life, other than completely destroying your privacy. she was doing a live for her birthday, and it was now well past midnight, reason why she couldn't stop yawning to save her life, apologizing every time she had to cover her mouth to release another one. but she had promised to stay up at least until two in the morning, and considering she had no schedules whatsoever the next day, she wanted to keep her promise with her fans. and despite some of them complaining that she should rest and go to bed, she wasn't letting go of her little personal challenge to stay up a bit more. "don't worry guys, we can uhm... listen to some music, i will stay up" as if she hadn't been playing songs for the last three hours already. then a comment caught her eyes, "what time is it?". it was written in english, meaning it was from an international fan with a different timezone, most likely. after reading it out loud, she pulled out her phone and pointed it directly at the camera, turning it on and showing the bright screen to her viewers. maybe it was her lack of sleep, or the fact that her hand was covering part of the screen, but her reflexes weren't fast enough and her brain didn't process fast enough that her lockscreen was her cupping your face and kissing you right on the lips, your cheeks puffed and all. it was a cute picture indeed. but not in that particular moment, when she suddenly realized and pulled her phone away from the camera and clutched it with both hands, resting it against her chest. her lack of explanation was loud enough for anyone to put two and two together (although the picture of her kissing someone on the lips was a very clear indicator that she had a romantic relation with someone), and at that point she cleared her throat and said awkwardly "it's 2am, time to go bye!", and turned the live off to plop down on her chair and cover her face with her hands, defeated.
♡ : jinsoul 진슬
jinsoul loves you. she loves you so much she is literally unable to take her eyes off you. and despite how romantic it sounds -and it is- it can indeed end up causing you two some troubles, especially considering the type of industry you both worked in, how demanding and scary it can be. that being said, it happened from time to time that your groups had a comeback at the same time, often meeting on the stage of music shows. you'd look so hot with your makeup done, you hair all pretty and your stage outfit so sparkly, you'd steal all the spotlight. at least to her. that one episode in particular was no different. while the winner groups' member were doing their speech, her eyes were constantly pointing in your direction, and she wasn't even being subtle about it, since her members would occasionally pinch her side to get her attention back. once the encore began, and everyone began moving around and greeting one another, she took it as a chance to swiftly make her way to you, ignoring gowon's hand trying to keep her in place. you ever so slightly bowed to each other as to not raise any suspicion by being to friendly or whatever, and she gently grazed her hand against yours, causing your blushing to increase. it's not until you both got off the stage that she decided to be bold about it and steal a little peck from your lips, which caused you to gasp loudly and look around frantically, as other idols who were able to see what went on looked at you weirdly. jinsoul simply chuckled, unknowing of the fact that you were indeed caught on camera, at the very corner of it, but it surely didn't go unnoticed by some viewers...
♡ : choerry 최리
as affectionate as she is, she would still try her best to behave around you, especially in public. she would literally teleport to another dimension away from you if she saw someone holding a phone, afraid of the possibility of being caught even just staring at each other. and it would be extremely painful to her, especially considering how one of her favorite activities of all time was clinging to your arm for as long as possible until you physically have to remove her. this time she really couldn't refrain herself, and the consequences of such a tender moment would probably haunt her for the rest of her career. you would usually spend your time with her and the rest of loona by passing off as part of the staff, so it wasn't weird for you to be "caught" with the girls during some of their schedules. this one time, however, choerry was incredibly worn out after a particular mv filming day that took so many takes to finish, that as soon as she saw you she wrapped her arms so tightly around your neck and her lips immediately found their way on yours. unconsciously behind caught on accident by one of the makeup artists filming an instagram story that got posted without much of second look, or review of it. as soon as the video began circulating, she would become insufferable, blaming herself to no end, even advising you to break up with her because she "ruined your life". tell her it's not her fault ):
♡ : yves 이브
she's so romantic. she has heart eyes whenever she looks at you and she can't even control it. bless her. however, because of this exact reason, the two of you could rarely ever hang out in public, since it'd be hard to believe you were just a friend of hers or a staff member. even when she sang love songs on stage, her voice was so filled with such emotions that not even her fans would believe that "she was thinking of orbits while singing". she is so full of love. it was after one of their stages that she was complimented about her voice, and the host commented how "it seems like you really resonate with the lyircs, huh? are they perhaps dedicated to a special someone or...?", he would inquire. yves would get so defensive it would be obvious she was trying to hide something. "oh no! haha, i mean... you know, friends and family, huh- my members yeah, and overall everyone who has supported us along the way" and she would start rambling to the point where one of her members had to stop her by physically placing a hand behind her back to prompt her to slow down. there would be a lot of speculations about who could be this "special someone" of hers, and it would get so stressful to the point where she felt like she couldn't do a vlive in fear of slipping up on her own words. until it happened. she got a call during a live while she carelessly had her phone on the desk with the screen facing up, and the word "love♥️" shined brightly on the screen. as she grabbed the device so fast it almost slipped out of her hands, her face turned as pale as a ghost and she began clumsly trying to explain herself, "that's haha it was my huuuh cousin-" but none of the viewers were buying it, so she had to quickly turn the live off and called you in between tears, apologizing before you could even ask what was wrong.
♡ : chuu 츄
she would constantly keep you on edge, jumping up on you from behind, hugging you unexpectedly, holding your hand while the possibility of being caught was still there, and if she happened to be needy enough she would even be so bold to kiss you somewhat publicly. your stress levels would be through the roof, to be honest. there wouldn’t be many rumors going around at first, nearly everyone was aware of her bubbly personality so her linking arms with someone other that her members wouldn’t be too big of a shocker. at least not so much that her agency had to make a statement or what not. she even went as far as to introduce you to her fans on live, giggling and telling her viewers about the way you’ve been friends since high school and still keep in touch. which wasn’t exactly wrong, except for the fact that you’ve been more than friends for a few years... it was during one of those lives that it all went downhill. you had been sitting behind the camera, looking at her and silently giggling from time to time at her antics, careful of not being caught by the viewers. but i guess you were looking a bit too adorable to her, reason why she just couldn’t wait and told her fans she had to go to the bathroom real quick, and therefore she had to momentarily mute her mic. except that she didn’t. and the sound of smooching was loud and clear to everyone. of course it didn’t take her too long to figure out what had happened as soon as she sat back down on her chair. immediate response was to shut down the live, get up suddenly to go talk to her manager, while ignoring your yells asking her what was wrong.
♡ : gowon 고원
she was at a radio interview when it all took place, her and the rest of the girls were each asked to describe their ideal date, and haseul suggested that gowon replied first. giggling at the request, she excitedly adjusted herself on her seat before leaning slightly closer towards the mic and began replying, explaining how bad she wanted to have a picnic in a field of pretty flowers, but the weather hadn't been on its best behavior to do so. the whole time her mind was wandering to you, thinking about how much you had begged her to go on a picnic, as you liked being outdoors so much. almost forgetting where she was, until the radio host asked her "ah so you like flowers?" to which she mindlessly replied with "ah my partner really loves th-" and as her breath suddenly cut short and her heart began pounding so hard, she started frantically looking at her members for help and comfort. they were trying to give her reassuring glances, sharing looks with the radio host too, who immediately caught on to what was happening and broadcasted the next song. gowon soon enough took off her headphones and stood up to call you, not even caring that the rest of loona was shouting her name. she profusely apologized to you on the phone, loudly crying into the speaker.
♡ : olivia hye 올리비아혜
she could not, for the life of her, explain how it all happened. she was careful, she has always been careful. protecting you was what had always mattered to her the most, as long as your identity and your own career was preserved, it wasn’t important what happened to her. not a single glance in your direction during music shows or music awards, not even a single reaction to your performance. it was fine, she would shower you with compliments and feedback about your stage once the night was over, maybe backstage, maybe on your way back, through messages, or phone calls. sure it was hard, you craved affection and she also felt guilty for having to ignore you more often that not, but what could she do... her job required this sort of behavior. it all went downhill during a vlive with the rest of the yyxy members, during which one of the fans asked if they had any other kpop idol they looked up to and why. she wasn't sure if she should've said it, but regarless, she said your name. and lowkey went on a tangent about how good you were at your job and how she liked the way you danced and performed. her own members started playfully teasing her, "ooh it looks like hyeju has a crush" and gently elbowing her. hyeju just chuckled in embarassment and before she coule deny it a flood of comments appeared before her eyes. <what? she's dating y/n?>, <omg haha this is crazy>, <i dont think they'd make a good couple actually>, <no way y/n managed to pull hyeju hahaha>. rather than being anxious about her relationship being exposed, she was getting more and more pissed by the second at the comments saying she was too good for you, and the ones badmouthing you. she stood up slamming her hands on the table, startling her members. "the one that's too good is y/n, you have no right to speak about them, so get their name out of your mouth. it's none of your business if we're dating or not!" and stormed out of the room, not wasting a second to call you, more angry than upset.
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[ 14.24 ] art-student!heejin — angst
warning/s: fem!reader (also a student), mention of a pen knife and a small scar from it (dropping it in class), heejin is implied to be taller than reader, reader is said to have hair that reaches at least their chin, sad lesbians, this actually feels quite intimate wait, internalised homophobia(?)
the light in the bathroom flickered, still broken from jinsoul and sooyoung’s fight months ago, the bulb was due a change but you could still see her face perfectly.
heejin stared at each paint mark as she carefully wiped your face with tissue she had taken from the stall behind her, being much more careful than she was with her own face just moments ago. one of her hands held your cheek, under your hair, while the other went back and forth on your other cheek.
she drops the now red tissue into the sink, keeping her grip on your face, as she picked up a new piece and put it under the tap briefly. she leaned in closer this time, her eyes soft and full of an emotion you can’t quite understand.
“i’m sorry about yerim.” she begins to wipe just above your eyebrow as she speaks but you aren’t listening.
her thumb begins to stroke a small spot and you realise how warm her touch is. it’s not from sweat or how long she’s been holding you but from how it makes you feel inside. butterflies are everywhere and you feel fuzzy. she makes you feel fuzzy and warm and cozy and at home like she always has only this time it sends your heart to your stomach as you realise what it means.
heejin stands up fully to blow the small wet patch on your head dry. she teeters back and forth for a moment, hesitating while thinking about her next move. she can feel how intimate the atmosphere has become and she’s seen your eyes trained on her as she cleaned up, although she notes that it wasn’t a shy stare or a cautious one.
slowly she puts her other hand on your cheek, you don’t seem to mind that it’s not dry and heejin sees you slowly melt into her hold. both of you stare at each other and she steps as close as she can, all while watching you for any movement but nothing comes. you’re chest to chest and she leans down to become face to face with you.
there are mere centimetres between the pair of you. you can feel her soft breath on your lips as hers slightly part.
you’re almost 100% sure she can hear your heart beating, you know she can feel it, but it doesn’t matter because if you listen close enough you can hear hers too.
slowly you lift a hand to rest on her wrist and your thumb copies her movements from minutes ago. your eyes wander from her face to her collarbone and you notice a small mole you’ve never seen before, then you look at her empty wrist and notice a small scar you’re sure she got from a pen knife in class.
then you look back at heejin’s face. her eyes are glazed over as she observes you. her cheeks are a light shade of red, and not from your thumb. her lips were still parted as she looked for the right words to say.
after a moment she speaks. “don’t look at me like that.” it comes out as a whisper you can barely hear, the closeness making so you can just catch it. there’s a small break in the sentence and you watch a tear fall from her face however you do nothing to stop it.
“i wish you were a boy.” is all you can reply.
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Sunsets and secrets
LOONA Kim Lip x reader
One girl, one secret, one phrase
author’s note: I would like to thank all of my followers and the blogs who liked my previous stories. also, credits to my friend who helped me in some parts and pushed me to write this story. I TRIED to shorten this but still ended up having 6k words...i’m sorry
Part Two here
warnings: angst??? mention of anxiety
A new academic year has begun means your school will select in senior-level to participate in an exchange program in Korea for 3 months. They held this event every year, and this time they picked you.
Sincerely, it doesn't surprise you that they choose you. You are the best student at your level and also a citizen of Korea. However, it was your first trip to Korea that wasn’t for vacation. You look forward to returning to that country to visit your relatives who live there and to experience studying there. Your mother frequently provided suggestions and lists of things she hoped you would do while you were there.
This certain school is somehow you know. It is your parent's and your other relatives' alma mater
You anticipated that it would be difficult for you to make friends, yet it appears that everyone is more kind than you expected.
Sooyoung, mostly known as Yves, was the first one you met on this campus. She was the one who was tasked with keeping you company during your first week of classes. Because of her aura, you initially assumed she had an attitude and was mean, but it turns out that she is really silly, compassionate, and one of the group's mood setters.
It was lunchtime when the two of you met in the teacher's room. She thought that it was a good time for you to meet her circle of friends. You also got to know Haseul, Vivi, Jungeun, and her girlfriend Jiwoo there. They gave you a very warm welcome that you weren't expecting when you joined their group.
You discovered at that time that you are all classmates. Every time you have a vacant, they always end up showing you about the campus; if not, you all gather in the garden where they sit and they enlighten you with stories, typically about other students and teachers. Being around them is a lot of fun and entertaining.
After a month and a half of your stay in Korea, your teacher announced the upcoming midterms which will happen exactly 2 weeks from now. The six of you decided to hang out in your apartment before everyone went busy.
Have I told you that, Haseul and Vivi are the leading students in your batch, thus they're also part of the student government council? They always study and prepare earlier for any exams influencing the other three.
You are in your kitchen preparing some kimchi fried rice when you felt someone approaching you.
You didn't have to turn your head to know who is it. By the smell of her perfume, it is for sure her.
"It's almost finished, Kim," you said to her.
"Well, I was about to ask.." her tone was surprised. She placed her right elbow on your left shoulder and slightly leaned on it.
Not expecting to become this close with her, to be completely honest. She seemed all snobby when you first met her, but she soon developed a talkative side that you weren't expecting. Additionally, since the other two pairs were couples, You two eventually ended up together.
You and Jungeun get along despite having different personal preferences for various aspects. When the two of you had to decide on particular issues, she decides the majority of the time. You weren't sure why you so carelessly let her make those choices. Maybe it's because you like watching her smile when she won arguments between the two of you. Or perhaps you're starting to like her and only thinking about making her happy.
It was not hard for you to confirm that you are slowly falling for her. You have been honest and patient with yourself in your entire life. You experience both enthusiasm and comfort at the same moment as you acknowledge your feelings for her. Still, many things remain to be discovered. So, you should take your time to completely learn and discover the unique pieces that build her up as a whole.
Jungeun hears you mumble, "Say ahh," as you place the spoon with the right portion of the fried rice in front of her mouth after gently blowing it.
She took a bite of the dish and nodded, "Delicious. I should let the others know so we can have the table cleared." You agreed to her and turned off the stove.
To Jungeun, these humble acts of kindness matter a lot. Since you two became friends, you have been taking care of her, which she cherishes. Her heart is so filled with gratefulness.
You take enough bowls and plates for everyone from the cabinet while you wait for assistance, then you place them on the kitchen counter.
While Jungeun was in the kitchen, someone secretly observed you mischievously. She keeps silent as she watches the two of you, preparing to tease you later.
Your apartment's living room quickly fell into silence, save for the occasional sound of the spoon striking the ceramic. You're all concentrating on eating the food. It was quiet until Haseul asked, "It's Saturday tomorrow. What are your plans?"
Yves and Jiwoo, the couple, said they have a date because it is their anniversary. While Vivi makes plans with her Chinese pals, Haseul would attend a family reunion. You simply gave them a shrug as a sign that you were uncertain. While Jungeun just said, "Probably napping. This week drained my energy,"
Yves cheekily said, "How about you and y/n go out tomorrow." She suggested, and her girlfriend grinned and said, "She's right! Have a date too." Sooyoung and Jiwoo turned to face each other and gave each other a high-five. In comparison to their date, they appear more enthusiastic about their suggestion.
"I agree with them, how about Jungeun tour her around the city", said Vivi.
These recommendations force your blood to start rushing to your face. Even so, you didn't have high expectations because she had previously stated that she only wanted to spend the day in bed.
"Why don't you just date each other? You'll make a cute couple together." Haseul said out of nowhere.
You think that every minute their suggestions are getting out of hand.
Jungeun muttered, "Seul." she is currently quite shy. Even though she made an effort to conceal it, her face is flushed.
"LOL, looks like our Lippie hasn't moved on yet..." Jiwoo playfully rolled her eyes to Jungeun, "Oops, sorry." she said regretting that she brought up that topic.
Oh? She was in a relationship?
you murmured to your mind.
In any case, Jungeun's love life hasn't been a topic in recent weeks. They might be avoiding it because it's a sensitive subject to them.
"It's not that easy, Jiwoo, you know," Jungeun said with a hushed tone.
All of a sudden, the room was silent. Nobody is willing to talk.
Vivi asked to lighten the mood, "Are you guys finished eating?" Everyone nods as everyone assists Vivi in cleaning the table.
After some time, when you all decided to play some games you had, your apartment was once more filled with yells and laughs. Jiwoo and Yves are responsible for the noise that is possibly audible outside.
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You were awakened by your doorbell on Saturday morning. You checked the digital clock on your nightstand and saw it showed "11:15 am.".
While putting on your glasses and yawning, you headed to the door to check your morning's disturbance.
Opening your door, you immediately regret thinking of her as a disruption.
Jungeun is waiting patiently and waving at you, "Good Morning!"
You responded with a smile and added, "Good morning! You should come in. That looks heavy." as soon as you saw the bags she was carrying. You flung the door open and reached for the bags.
"Oh yeah, I got some food from our house. I informed my Mom that I'm visiting you today. Sorry, I think I made you woke up." She apologized, feeling bad for her unexpected visit.
"It's okay." laying the lunchbox on top of your coffee table in the living room and saying, "Have a seat, Do you want to watch Netflix? I'm just gonna take a quick shower." you get the remote control and turned the tv on.
Jungeun entered the living room and took a seat on the sofa. She said softly and grinned at you, "Take your time."
Not long after, you went out of your room in your baggy t-shirt and cotton shorts. Jungeun briefly glanced at you while seeking an interesting movie before returning her focus to the television.
"You should eat your brunch first before we watch some movies or drama."
Following her order, you sat beside her and opened the lunch boxes that Jungeun brought for you.
The food was neatly organized and very appetizing for you. It is also obvious from the smell that it is indeed delicious. There's even a bunch of side dishes that are authentically made. The meal has meats, veggies, and of course, rice. You assume that the food she gave you will last for three days.
"Omg, This looks amazing." you said, "Please tell Auntie Kim that I'm so grateful for this food. I appreciate you bringing this as well."
Jungeun informs you, "She said that you might be missing some authentic homemade foods so she packed you some when I told her that I'm going here." She is glad that you appreciate it so much.
To begin eating, you went to your kitchen to grab some utensils.
"Oh, and why did you come today, by the way? I thought you were too tired to leave your house."
Jungeun stopped browsing Netflix and her face starts to become red. She was baffled for a second, thinking of a great excuse to use.
"W-well, u-uhh...I-i got...I realized that I want to hang out, and you're the only one that is free so yeah." She nodded, trying to convince herself that it was a solid explanation.
She was relieved when you seem to buy her excuse. You hummed and just nodded too.
Jungeun noticed your glasses getting moist from the steam of the food she brought.
Cute
You keep eating until you are so full that you can’t breathe. After that, you immediately clean the table so that you two can watch a film or a drama. You exit the kitchen with sodas and chips for the two of you.
Jungeun slightly leaning on the arm of the couch saw you and suggested, "Is it okay if we watch some web drama?"
"Sure," you agreed softly before giving her some chips and placing the drinks on the table.
The two of you soon feel completely comfortable. Jungeun is curled up on the sofa, her head resting on your leg. However, because you just ate, you are unable to lie down.
When your back started to become tired of the position, you tried to recline on the other end of the sofa without bothering Jungeun. Naturally, this won't work, and when she realized this, she stood up from lying down and slightly leaned on your shoulder instead to share the blanket you had given her because she started to be cold.
You immediately felt the warmth of her body and blanket. Additionally the warmth she has given you in your heart.
It feels domestic.
You begin to believe that the universe is conspiring in your favor. This day is a special one, and no matter how it ends, you're very delighted.
The two of you were so engrossed in the drama's storyline that you were unaware of the passing of time. You learned that Jungeun is the type of girl that leaves side comments in almost every scene. She always has something to say, like she's also part of it.
Which you find so adorable.
You two decided to go for a stroll. No specific places to go.
The first stop was in the ice cream shop. Jungeun complained that she needs her daily sugar intake. Which caused you to respond, "But sugar is present in almost all food."
"You don't get it", she said, rolling her eyes at you. Which you replied with a chuckle.
Your mind began to wander off. For the past month with Jungeun, you felt a lot of things. You experienced being her seatmate, partner in crime, cafe buddy, and many more. Especially, on what it feels like to fall in love with her. She could be a great girlfriend.
Then, without realizing it, you began to picture her as your girlfriend. Creating all of these scenarios wherein you'll never star in.
You ask, "Should we watch the sunset?" since you're both headed to Hangang Park anyway. Sunset plus with Jungeun? It makes you feel the butterflies in your stomach
Jungeun nodded and slightly grinned, "U-uhh s-sure, I think it will be great."
Jungeun is honest enough to admit that she's not sure if she was okay with this.
The place will just remind her of memories from her past. She always went back there, only for her to end up going home with a heavy heart. But now that she has a companion, things might be different.
I'll be fine…I hope so
She thought to herself
You two continued to tease and argue with one another the entire time you were heading to the park. Both of you decided to sit on the grass, so you went out and purchased a mat to sit on and some food because she keeps complaining about being hungry.
The colors of the sky as the sun sets draw the attention of both you and Jungeun. Orange and slightly pink hues were beginning to fill the sky.
"So gorgeous." You have loved sunsets for as long as you can remember. You're not sure why, but it always makes you feel comfortable.
Its colors, which made the sky entrancing, change constantly.
Sunsets are like days every week; each one is special in and of itself.
On the other hand, there's Jungeun, lost in her thoughts. Someone who enjoys the opposite of sunsets comes to her mind. Despite leaving her broken, the person she misses dearly.
Her expressions were reflected in her eyes, which simply conveyed sadness.
You questioned Jungeun, "Heyy, are you alright?" but all she did was gaze at your worried expression.
"Can I tell you a secret?", She spoke abruptly before returning her attention to the sky.
You mumbled your response, "Uhmm sure."
"This park is our very special place." She opened up.
"with your ex?"
"Technically, she left before we became official so I don't know if it is counted as ex, but yeah..", "Sorry, I shouldn't saying and ranting this to you." She replied, unsure of if she will continue to let her feelings out.
Her tone of uncertainty caught your attention. "It's fine, Jungeun. I'm your friend you can vent out your emotions with me right now."
Setting your feelings aside. You are willing to spend some time with her to soothe her heartache and comfort her.
The most important matter for Jungeun right now is letting her emotions out. She needs a friend, and you are that friend. Jungeun doesn't need a response. She simply requires someone to listen.
She breathes heavily, "Well, I want to tell the others about what's going on in my mind and about what I feel, but doing so could make them dislike her even more, which I don't like because after all, she's still our friend. So, I just keep it to myself...", you nod as she speaks.
"Of course, it was difficult for us, especially me. She disappeared like a bubble. After that, I questioned myself if I did something that made her leave. I overthink so much. Thinking many possible causes of her disappearance."
Jungeun left a big sigh, "Two days before it, we were happy. We even had a sleepover at Vivi's place. Then, She suddenly stopped attending classes which made us worried. We tried everything to contact her but we can't. But like an idiot, I've continued to message her up till now. We even asked her parents also, and they said that Jinsol told them that they should not tell us and she'll be having some break."
"The most upset person was Yves. Despite her being her best buddy, she has no idea what the heck is going on. Since then, Jinsol became a sensitive topic to us."
"At that time, I don't know what to do. I was left broken. For me, she was my greatest love."
"The happiness that I experienced with her is very different. I began to wonder if I would ever feel the same level of happiness that I did while we were together if she didn't return. Because with her, I felt incredibly loved and secure. Will I ever meet someone who can give me those feelings?"
You absorb all of this info from her. The sadness and anxiety they felt are evident, especially to her.
By now, you are sure that Jungeun is really into her. And her feelings are strong enough to the point she's willing to wait for Jinsol's uncertain return. That she's ready to forgive her despite those heartbreaks.
"She's very lucky." Her stares landed on yours as you muttered those words.
Too lucky to have you.
"She'll come back, for sure.", you added.
It's her loss if she didn't.
"Perhaps she's having trouble figuring out some things on her own as well. Because sometimes, there are problems that only yourself can solve."
Jungeun deeply looked into your eyes, understanding your point, "I just really wish right now is for her to come back." She turned to look at the sky, which was getting dimmer by the second.
"Y/n, Thank you so much for listening. I needed that. It lightens the weight of my concerns." She smiled still looking at the sky, too shy to face you.
"You're always welcome, Jungeun. Everything will be fine." You said and gently tapped her back.
"You should share a secret too." She said playfully to you and giggled.
"Maybe, next time" you smirked.
The night had grown entirely dark, and the breeze had grown chilly. The two of you quickly decided to return home. You accompany Jungeun to the bus stop, where you wait until she got a ride.
It was a calm walk.
Everyone is silent, just taking in the chill breeze.
In retrospect, you can see that your day was an emotional rollercoaster. Another rush of experiences and perceptions.
From afar, you saw a bus approaching. Jungeun got up from sitting and then got ready for it.
Both of you take your goodbyes, "goodbye, Y/n. today was a special day." Jungeun said.
"Thank you also," you answer her with a soft smile, "Uhm by the way, can I ask you for a favor?" you asked.
"oh sure, what is it?" she replied waiting for your response.
"Please message me when she returns." This caught her off guard hence she nodded her head.
Before she got on the bus, you two waved and smiled at one another one last time.
//
Now that a new week has started, everyone is once busier. They are occupied finishing up their backlog and studying for their approaching midterms. Haseul and Vivi are very active on the student council. Since you are an exchange student, you have to do some other assignments from your additional courses. Even though it was simple, there are too many to complete in one sitting.You’ll also take the exams in a different room with a different schedule.
You six can hardly hang around together. Yves, Jiwoo, and Jungeun are left together when you and the other two are busy. Occasionally, it was you and Jungeun who were left when you cannot find the other couples.
After what happened in the park, you and Jungeun became closer than before. Sooyoung once saw you trying to tutor Jungeun in the library, but the latter fell asleep and you were busy staring at her, peacefully sleeping. She thinks that something is going on between the two of you. Well, it was just her assumption since she never asked.
Yves has been shipping the two of you since you and Jungeun became close last month. She keeps teasing both of you. Looking back on what she saw in the library, She thought that her ship is sailing.
Maybe, it is. Her ship is sailing but as a friend.
//
You were attempting to go over all of the notes that were piled up on your study table on a Friday night. You think that time went fast these days. You had just completed and turned in most of your homework earlier that day. Reviewing all the subjects from the previous month and a half is now your responsibility.
Studying was never a problem for you because you enjoy learning new things. Every time you receive a high grade, you feel immensely satisfied.
You were too caught up in your studies that you forgot to check your phone making Jungeun's message left unread.
//
The next day, you woke up on your study table. You cannot remember when did you fall asleep and on what subject you stopped.
Leaning on the backrest of your chair, you felt the pain coming from the back of your neck and this made you hiss. You are sure you have stiffed neck from sleeping on your table.
Your phone vibrated indicating that someone is calling you.
The caller's id shows it was the head of the school.
"Good Morning, Ms. Jung. How may I help you today?" you politely said.
"Good Morning, Ms. Y/n. Can I meet you today at my office? I need to discuss some things regarding your program."
"Sure, Ms. What time should I go there?"
"Around 10 am, will do. Thank you."
"Noted. Thank you."
You wonder what she'll talk about with you later. Since you haven't encountered any problem there since your stay, you are unsure of what the issue will be.
Checking the time on your phone, it shows, "8:56 am"
After that, you checked your inbox and read it one by one.
The first and only caught your attention was Jungeun's message last night.
Despite being brief, it stayed in your head for hours.
She's back.
You tried to shake it off and lay at ease but it was harder than you thought.
Why am I feeling this way? I already know and accept that she'll never be mine. There is nothing to be disappointed in.
You drag yourself grumpily to the restroom. Furious that you're feeling that way. Even though you are still happy that she is back, you find yourself hating the thought of it.
Opening the hot shower to relax. You must proceed since you have a meeting with Ms. Jung.
You have known from the morning that today will be difficult, and after the meeting, that prediction comes true. The school's head of administration notifies you that the exchange program's duration will be shortened. You get a week of preparation before returning to your original school after taking all of the examinations and additional subjects.
Laying down on your bed while taking some soothing music. Your breathing is heavy and slow. You've been trying to use your phone less since morning. You felt like you're gonna pass out from all of the things you had today.
You can't even start studying, too distracted to absorb all the topics.
It's too draining.
Besides that, you are unsure of how to inform others of your departure. They might not comprehend also that she has returned right now. You don't know for sure, though if they are aware of this news.
You heard your doorbell ring in your apartment.
The intercom shows a girl in her jeans and cardigan in front of your doorway.
"What's up?", slightly confused about her sudden visit.
"Can I talk to you? Sorry if it was too late but...I want to talk to you." a hint of persistence is evident in her voice.
"Ohh okay, come in."
Yves went to your living room while you go to the kitchen to find something she can drink.
"Are there any drinks you'd want to have?" You questioned, wishing she wouldn't hear the fatigue in your voice.
"Do you have a beer?" You heard her faint response. Fortunately, you still have the two cans that were extra from the previous day.
While you opened your can, you handed her beer. "So, is there any problem?" You sat down on the sofa across from her and asked calmly.
She has no idea how to express what she wants to say, "Well, Uhhh... I simply want to know if you have heard the news of Jinsol."
You could tell she was worried by the way she spoke. You nod your head in response to her question.
"Have you admitted your feelings to Jungeun yet?" You were somewhat taken off guard by that, but you anticipated it.
You took a sip of your beer, "No, and I don't truly have a plan to."
After hearing your reply, Yves fixed his gaze on you. She attempts to read your facial expressions and feelings, but you are too composed to even say anything. "Why not? Even just a try?" she asked, shrugging, "...you know just to prevent future what-ifs."
"Well, right now my heart just wants to follow where my mind is free," you sigh as you shake your head.
"Why is that so?"
"From the beginning, I can feel how important she is to Jungeun. She always thinks about her and longs for her presence. Jinsoul reminds her of almost everything." You explain.
"But when the two of you are together, she appears to be having fun and looks to be enjoying herself." The latter tries to point out, "When she's with you, it seems like she's with Jinsol."
"She is just distracted, Yves. She might be having a good time with me but her feelings are not the same. There's no point in telling her about my feelings. It will just complicate a lot of things, to be honest. And I know that Jinsoul loves her just as much as she does."
"I'm opposed to that. She even ghosted and left Jungeun without saying anything."
"She has her reasons. I don't know exactly what are those, just trust her, please. Perhaps, she's still your friend. She needs that time to realize things on her own."
"How can you even say that? As far as I've known, you two haven't met yet."
"Jinsoul... She's my cousin," you chuckle a little and smiled bitterly
Yves's loud gasp broke her control. She gives you a bewildered look.
"To be completely honest, Jinsoul frequently likes to tell me about this girl that she finds very endearing. How much she loves her and wants to keep her safe."
You down your beer, "I hope I realized sooner that she was referring to Jungeun. She loves her to the point where she begins to doubt herself. Because Jinsol uses this nickname, I didn't realize it until Jiwoo called Jungeun by that name. I now understand how she felt when she fell in love with her."
When you thought back on how complicated this was, a small pang of sadness arose in your heart.
Yves was left lost in thought. She still finds it hard to believe what she just heard.
What a tiny world
she thought
"But why didn't you tell me that you are related?" She gave you a dissatisfied expression.
"After discovering about her relationship with you guys, I decided it wasn't nice to bring up.”, you tap her shoulder and stare into her eyes, "I am genuinely sorry about my decision that causes your disappointment."
She simply nods while averting your look. She finishes the last of the beer before getting up.
"Okay, I understand." She whispered.
Yves was ready to put her shoes on and walk up to your door, " I'm going now and I'm sorry for crashing this late."
"Sooyoung, I have to tell you something." You speak again causing her to pause and face you
"What?" she mumbled.
"I'm leaving Korea in two weeks." You said giving her a sad smile.
Sooyoung holds both of your shoulders slightly aggressively. "What?!"
Too many revelations in a day. "You're joking, right? you still have like a month.", she says as her head begins to ache and she questions whether she can handle further information
She finds it all difficult to believe. Not expecting you to go earlier than anticipated. You grew to care deeply for them, and vice versa. She is aware of how much they will miss having you there.
"The program's period has shortened due to some circumstances, please don't tell the others, yet" you explained briefly, tapping her hand.
Your heart aches just thinking of leaving them. Even though you have buddies back home, you became fond of them. Their bond was unique. It is a very special one.
"You should go now. The night is getting older," you said goodbye to her, she was brought back to reality by this to which she replied with just a nod.
After your conversation with Yves, you had some relief. That evening, you also begin to consider confessing to Jungeun.
Sooyoung has a point. I should confess. Last chance
Minutes of spacing out, your phone blinked, displaying a message from Yves informing you that she had reached her house safely.
Going through your contacts, you clicked Jungeun's and sent her a message.
Can we meet tomorrow?
After a couple of seconds, she replied.
Jungiiee sent you a message (10:15 pm)
Sure, Where are we going to meet?
You replied, "Hangang park, 5 pm."
That night, you slept shortly after. For someone who has gone through a lot that day, it is a much-needed rest.
//
The color of the sky begins to shift to one that is more serene. The colors pink, yellow, sky blue, and orange collide making the sky even more beautiful than it was. The tranquil hue of the sky reflects on the river, enhancing its beauty.
You were so preoccupied with the sky that you failed to even notice when she arrived.
"Did you wait too long?"
Your head immediately turns to the girl asking. "Hey, sorry. I didn't notice you sooner."
Jungeun laughs because it was obvious that you forgot about your surroundings for being engrossed with the sunset.
She has already seen you from a distance as you were busy grinning and taking in the mellow sky before she ever comes close to you.
Jungeun thought it was an adorable scene.
"It's fine. You look like a kid watching her favorite scene in a cartoon," she said trying to tease you.
You glare at her, "Between the two of us, you know that you are the kid here, Kim."
This statement made you earn a big slap on your arm. Which you just laugh out.
She rolled her eyes and sat beside you.
"Oh yeah, why do you want to meet with me today?" She asked curiously.
Your grin has slightly softened. This simple question made you silent for a moment.
"Wait..let me think." You put your hand on your chin pretending to think. She laughs at your antics thinking you're just being playful.
You chuckled when you notice that she bought your joke. However, the reality is that you don't know the answer.
Why? I'm not sure, though.
Perhaps I just want to be with you?
to spend some time alone with you before I go?
Before you return to her?
or perhaps because I want to confess?
These are the thoughts that are going through your head.
Jungeun then begins to look up at the sky, where the color is beginning to become saturated.
On the other hand, you're also just quietly taking in the breathtaking scenery. The main factor that made you feel sincere happiness while remaining in Korea for the last few weeks was the scenery that you are currently gazing at. She leads you to make choices you never imagined making, such as letting go of something you wish you would have. You grew more mentally and emotionally thanks to Jungeun.
"Can I tell you a secret?" you spoke abruptly not putting away your attention on her.
"Uhmm sure," she replied.
Deja vu
This already happened in the past.
Last week.
Saturday.
The only distinction between you and her is that you are in her position.
In anticipation of your secret, Jungeun gave you a quick look.
She turned to gaze back as you turned to face the sunset with a contented smile.
"The sunset is beautiful, isn't it?" You mumbled under your breath.
The latter simply nodded her head in agreement with your claim, and her only reply to you was, "Hmm."
Her response was too short to determine if she understood the phrase or not.
The silence was broken by Jungeun after a little while.
She gave you an impatient look, "You know, I'm still waiting for your secret."
She was still viewing the sunset as you laughed at her. You felt a little more at ease knowing she didn't understand.
I knew she wouldn't get it
"I already said it."
She said, feeling extremely lost, "But you just asked about how lovely the sunset is, which is not a secret, by the way."
Chuckling at her, you ask, "How about let's buy some food? I got hungry waiting for you." trying to annoy her.
"Well, I didn't know you were earlier than expected time. You didn't even bother messaging me, so it's not my fault." She said seriously which made you chuckle again.
The rest of your time in the park was spent having a very typical picnic. You both attempted to ride bikes and explore the park. She then took multiple pictures. Jungeun and you were also amused by the pets there. You two talked about a lot of random stuff and cherished each other's company.
Will she remember everything we did and the places we visited while I was here?
This might be your last quality time being alone together, so you savor this moment 'til it lasts.
You wish again that this day would not end.
When she received a message notification, the moonlight was already reflecting on the two of you.
Her face beams as she read the message, "Oh, it's Jinsol." she said.
"We should go home then." You smiled at her and offered to take her to the bust stop again.
What you hoped earlier was not fulfilled. Everything comes to an end.
Since the moment was too lovely to remember, you didn't even get a chance to inform her about your connection to Jinsol and your departure.
As you make your way back to your room, your thoughts begin to drift once more to all the alternatives.
What if I met her before Jinsol?
What if I am her?
Would Jungeun still love me the same way?
Would she wait for me as well?
You need someone's assistance to bring you back to reality because you are quite lost in thoughts.
You were alone once more on this chilly evening to cope with your agony.
You may have already believed that you were used to it, but deep down you know that what you are feeling is genuine.
So this is how saying goodbye to your first love feels like.
While on the bus, Jungeun seems bothered. There is something that makes her wander through her thoughts. As the bus goes down the highway, Jungeun talks to herself.
The sunset is beautiful, isn't it? wait I must have read it somewhere.
She tries to remember the meaning behind those words.
Suddenly, it's her stop. She walks down the street leading to her home. Still thinking about the phrase that you said.
“I can't think straight, I am not myself at this exact moment. I better be cleaning up and take some rest", she said whispered to herself.
After taking a warm bath, Jungeun jumps straight off her bed.
As she was browsing on her phone. You texted Jungeun. "Did you get home safely?".
The message appeared in her notifications tab. Jungeun was about to answer your message when she saw a video about phrases and the hidden meanings behind them.
" ‘The sunset is beautiful, isn't it?’ means I love you, but I am letting you go...."
She then realizes what you wanted to say to her. Staring at the ceiling for a couple of minutes, still processing what you said.
Instead of answering your message, she replied.
"Did you mean what you said? If so, why didn't you tell me much earlier?"
You immediately saw her reply, and there are many things that you want to say. But you decided not to express it.
"Things are much better this way. Furthermore, I am leaving in just two weeks. So you weren't able to see me for a while. No, this might be the last time that we can talk. Jinsol is back and I want you to be happy with her, Jungeun. That's all that matters"
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OMG IT'S YOU WHO WRITE KIM LIP!PRINCESS (injury au) ONE SHOT OMMMMG I ALWAYS REREAD THIS MASTERPIECE 😭😭😭
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universe . olivia hye x gn!reader
about . 669 words, angst + fluff
warnings . rejection
you don't have the heart to face hyeju, but the universe has other plans.
confessing to her at the university festival might've been the worst mistake of your life, but you're glad you don't have to spend time pining over her anymore. the many years you'd spent by her side, trying your hardest to hide lingering feelings had now ended, and although she'd run away from your firework-lit confession in the blink of an eye, at least the torture was over.
however, it was now replaced by an even more painful question. was the confession worth it to stay true to yourself, or should you have hidden in a mere attempt to have her somehow? the gaping hyeju-shaped hole in your heart used to be filled with the semblance of friendship, but now you have nothing to disguise it anymore.
but the ping on your phone seems like a figment of your imagination, because how can the very person that has been the object of your demise for years suddenly want to meet up? whether real or true, it has you rushing out of your physics lecture ten minutes early, bleary-eyed in disbelief.
and somehow, the hole starts to overflow with something new. hope.
the university's central water fountain hasn't changed, reminiscent of the times you'd meet up here with hyeju to walk her back to the dorms, but the people that frequent it have. hyeju sits on the ledge with her hands in the pockets of her oversized hoodie, head hung low and eyes scrunched shut. the sound of your shoes hitting the pavement makes her look up, wide-eyed and fearful.
"y/n," she whispers, standing up as you draw closer to her.
you can't tell whether it's the harsh wind or her mere presence is making your eyes blurry, but you might have the slightest guess as to what it is with the pang in your heart. she looks so beautiful that it's easy to believe this is just a dream, and despite the weary features the both of you adorn from sleepless nights, you feel anything but tired.
"why are you here?" you mumble, afraid to speak any louder in fear that your voice will crack and tears will overflow.
"i... i wanted to apologize."
the hope in your heart starts to dwindle.
"for rejecting me? it's okay, you can't force yourself to feel the same way."
"no!" she exclaims, grasping your folded arms and holding on tightly as if it was all she could do to make you stay, "i'm apologizing for running away. i was just in shock, and i was so scared to face you because no words were coming out of my mouth. i didn't want to disappoint you."
"well, you already did. you could've at least rejected me instead of running away; it would've hurt less."
the words are harsh, but it was something she needed to hear. communication was extremely important to you, and you'd at least assumed that you'd be given enough respect to be verbally rejected. if you were going to gain closure now, you needed to let her know how much it meant to you.
"you don't understand. i didn't run away because i was scared to reject you, i ran away because i was scared to confess to you."
the world seems to spin as you find yourself at a loss for words.
"confess?" you speak, your throat dry and hoarse.
"yes. i love you y/n, and i'm so, so sorry i couldn't tell you that night."
the glistening tears on her cheeks are the last thing you see before you pull her into a hug, wrapping your arms around her middle like you'd done for many days together. the cool breeze doesn't affect the two of you anymore, and as you stop shivering and start embracing, the wind seems to quiet down to let you have your moment.
the universe did indeed have other plans for you, but this time, you're thankful.
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I am afraid.
-Kim Lip x Reader
-little angst, fluff
-Woomanna 2023.ver
(Do you remember the first time we met)
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" Y/n,are you even listening to me ?" Jungeun hit your shoulder as you looked at your phone.
"It’s hurt! Lippie, you are saying that your boyfriend is busy so you want to give him some coffee and visit him, right?" You rolled your eyes.
"That’s right, help me to choose which shop is cheaper and taste good?"
You and jungeun are best friends since high school and getting into the same university. You know you love jungeun so much that you want to confess to her but knowing she has a boyfriend, you just hide all your feelings behind. You always stay with her as she will share all of her sadness and happiness to you as a BESTFRIEND. You hate this word.
You know you should be the one who held her hands not that man… you know she is straight more than you think. She only sees you as a friend nothing more.
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You was going to the library to search for the essays but you heard jungeun’s voice and her boyfriend’s too. You saw them stand outside the room and you hide yourself behind the corner.
"You know I am busy, right? You can’t come here as you want , you will distract me!" Her boyfriend seems like annoyed what her girlfriend did.
"Yisup oppa,I just want to make sure you are fine and have your meal on time…" Jungeun sounds so sad what her boyfriend said.
"Please don’t come here next time…" then that yisup guy go inside the room and jungeun turn around and leave too.
You immediately walk away and go to the library instead. You didn’t talk about this even after she talk to you, you pretend you didn’t know what she said.
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3 days later
Jungeun tell you her boyfriend broke up with her and the reason is because he is too busy to maintain the relationship and work.
" You know how I love him, I love him so much…"
"It’s okay, bro. I’m here for you! We are best friend, aren’t we?"
"I thought everyone want a caring girlfriend but turns out it wasn’t like that, because they will consider it as annoying or bothering them."
"I doubt that, I wish I could have a caring one like you, you know how clumsy and forgetful I am "
"Y/n, you are really my best friend! I am glad that I have you! Well I hope you can find one too!" Jungeun hugs you.
The one is you…
It’s hurt, hurts so much. You celebrate her birthday, graduation, Christmas etc. When her boyfriend was busy with his freaking jobs. You are always here for her. But you are still her friend, her best friend.
She tells you next day she will meet her boyfriend. She call you after the meeting.
"I will be there 5 minutes, wait me !" You ditch your friend chaehyun and minji to look after your best friend.
When you arrived at the bar. You saw a bag with a doll and some other stuff that you can tell it’s present from jungeun on the table. Jungeun is silently crying and you hugged her so tight.
"Don’t cry, at least not for him, you deserve a better one. You stupid bear" Jungeun rest on your shoulder.
" hey! Who’s stupid bear…I’m not stupid…" jungeun hits your arm.
"So your are bear now?" You chuckled.
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A week later
You will also join the dance practice of her dance team. You was going to have dinner with her after the practice today, you saw that yisup guy was talking to jungeun.
"I am sorry, lip, I realised that I can’t live without you. Can I have one more chance please?"
"I am sorry, I am still scared…" jungeun bite her lips.
"I will wait you at 1/3 cafe at 7 tomorrow." Yisup leaves after finishing what she said. He bumped into you but he didn’t bother to look at you.
"Lippie, are you okay?" You worried about her.
"I am ok. Just oppa told me to meet him tomorrow!" You frowned.
" are you going to meet him? Again? He hurts you so much…"
"I don’t know… I am scared… there is no way I could hate him."
"… please don’t force yourself on it. How about I accompany you tomorrow if you are really going to meet him?"
"Thanks, y/n"
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Next day
Jungeun did go to meet with her ex-boyfriend. You just look at her outside the cafe.
No one’s Pov
"Lip, I really love you, I hope we can get back together like the past."
"Oppa, I am scared, what if you are busy with your work? Will I be dumped again?"
"About my work? I will try my best to adjust it for you" please trust me"
"Thank you, but I am not sure if I can go back to the past with you, because I am too scared of being in love right now, I am sorry, I need to go now. Oppa, goodbye." Jungeun stand up and leave the cafe.
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You saw jungeun walking out of the cafe. She saw you as well so she waved to you. You two just walk back to the university while not saying anything.
When you two walk to the central rest area of the university.
"Jungeun, I want to say something to you that I think about it long long time."
"What do you want to say? You can always tell me."
"I like you." You timidly said.
"Ah, I like you too, my best friend." She said while looking away at you.
"Not like that, I like you more than friend, I like you as a girl." You can tell jungeun is a little bit taken aback when you said you love her more than friend.
"Since when you in love with me?"
" Since long time ago , I was hurt when you telling me about you held hand with that man… I know you are not like girl like me but I still want to tell you that." you look down at the floor.
"Ah, is that so… y/n,I am sorry… I always tell my things to you as my best friend . What should I do now? I love you too. But what if we break up after we are together ? I’ll lose my best friend and my love. Because I love you so I can’t answer you. I am sorry…" Jungeun was going to walk away but you hold her hand to stop her.
You also afraid of losing your friendship with jungeun, but you want to fight for it yourself.
When jungeun turn to you. You pull her in your arms.
"We can still be friend." You whispered.Then, she hug you back.
After that night, you two didn’t contact each other. Even your friend is curious about what happened to you. You just randomly say something to change the topic.
I just destroyed my own friendship with her. I am so stupid since she only loves me as friends and she is straight, how come I will expect her to accept me. You did heard her saying she loves you too but you are not sure if she has the same feelings as you. I am so selfish to not think of how you will feel about it. I don’t think we will see each for awhile. But we will mass around each other soon? I guess… I am scared too.
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2 weeks later
You focus on your study these days because you did lose your best friend. You need to distract yourself from the stupid things you did.
[y/n, can we meet at 1/3 cafe at 6, your lecture end at 5:30 right?"]
You hand shaking when you received the message from jungeun after 2 weeks.
［sure.]
-1/3 cafe
You are so nervous to see her, your best friend after you confess to her.
When you walk into the cafe , you see her wearing a orange sweater siting at the corner of the cafe. You slowly walk towards her and sitting down. She smiles when you sitting down opposite to her.
"Y/n you are here! I miss you a lot."
You miss her too.
"I am sorry, I shouldn’t run away like this. Please forgive me."
"My friend will never wrong. I am sorry too, I didn’t mean to scare you when you are still hurting."
"I realised that you are the only one who always by my side. I am so stupid to realise that now. Can I still be the one you love now?"
"No, you are not stupid,is just, is just… wait! What did you mean be the one I love?" You panicked
"How come you are the stupid bear right now? I mean I love you!" Jungeun blushed while teasing you.
"What? What? I-I didn’t prepare this. Am I just dreaming? " you still not believe yourself when jungeun said she loves you.
" Seo y/n I love you, this is not dream, I love you, I love you, I love you!! Is this enough?" Jungeun raise a bit her voice. You immediately stand up and you just sit next to her.
"So, Kim Jungeun, will you be my girlfriend?" You asked.
"Yes! A big yes, my best friend! No, my best girlfriend!" Jungeun hugs you tightly.
"Jungeun yah, there are so many people looking at us." You feel embarrassed all the sudden.
"How come you become embarrassed now, stupid bear." She chuckled at you.
"We are bear couple now, both of us are bears who in love with each other." You joked. After that, you just eat something with your girlfriend together and take selfie together to show both of you become official now.
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You got the couple bracelets for jungeun and you, there is a bear charms on the bracelet, which represents you and her as a bear. Everyone who know you or jungeun will call " Pabo Bear couple" when they get to tease you.
You can’t tell when is the first time you meet with Jungeun, she either knows. But she remembers how upset you were when she told you she held hands with her ex-boyfriend. So it may be the first time you noticed your love for her and she realised that now.
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“Regret”
A.N: Thank you for reading this, thanks for the support given by my friends that helped me create this fic!
A.N. No.2: If you know the reference of this fic, you’re the best!
TW: Angst, Hurt, Hurt/Comfort
And if your broken heart’s heavy when you step on the scale,
You’ll be lighter than the air when they pull back the veil.
The thoughts lingers in your head, on and on. You can’t get rid of it, your pain has already begun to reach its peak, with nothing else to ease it.
How can you get rid of it?
Alcohol, smoking, thoughts of leaving this world be it’s too much for you. While the solution you can think of before is a quick getaway from it, it just won’t settle things, it can only worsen the pain and inflict it on another person.
“I don’t even have anyone that cares about me anymore” your brain tricks again.
You have someone, don’t you?
Well, let’s correct that.
You HAD someone.
It’s just that this “someone” is no longer with you.
The struggle you have to face, the pain you have to deal with, the despair you have to survive, all is stored inside your dying heart, facing nothing but looming darkness.
This person, the one that made you the way you are now, is no longer here. The sunshine that once melts your heart, the moon that once brightens your darkest thoughts, the planet that orbits you every day, 24/7.
You still remember her name, isn’t it?
As much as you try to forget about her, you just simply can’t.
Kim Jungeun.
Your everything.
The sudden remembrance gives you that pain again, the panic attack starts to occur, suddenly the world stops, leaving you alone.
Your heart starts to ache,
The tremor in your fingers begin to worsen,
The shortness of breath is leaving you tired,
You can’t think of anything.
“Relax…. take a deep breath”, you said to yourself, “leave those thoughts be, think of something beautiful”.
But that something beautiful, is Kim Jungeun herself. You can’t get rid of her, of course. She’s the one that encourages you to “live your best life, prove to everyone that you are not the person everyone thinks you are.”
You remember those kind words of encouragement, you remember it clearly, the day she decided to leave you alone in your own world.
You start to remember again.
That day, was the day your heart decided to leave your body and soul.
Your mind decided to abandon all hope.
Everything turns into a sinking ship.
I̴t̸’̶s̸ ̵o̷k̵a̴y̵…̴…
I̷͙͗t̷͙͋’̷̹̌s̴̫̉ ̶̲̓o̴͈͗k̴̺͐a̵̮͋ÿ̸̬́…̸̻͛
I̵̢̢̟̬͚̮̹̥̯͈͉̞͚̝͊̾̎́̔͆̂̓̽͘̕͜t̵̛͙̙̦̘̤̹͌̈́́̍̈́̀̀̓̀̒͑͜’̵̧̛̭̫̥̝̪̥͖̗͛͒̈̔͒͌̽͑͗̃͛́s̴͍̞͕̭̜̼͋͗̀̂̐͋͗̿̓̂̋ ̵̘̬̱͑͒̓͒̔̈́̂̾͒̾̊́͂̽͘͘o̶̧͇̻̺̮̙̹̬̹̭̠̿̾̒̐͊̓̚͜͜—̸̲̟̲̯͇̓
…
Ņ̸̙̻̰̩̗̞̠̹̭̣̈́ͅͅƠ̷̮̰̘̪̺̩̩͕̗͚̪̽̇̋͋̌͂̈́̽̚͜͜͝͝T̴̞͓͊H̴̡̥͚̊͋͌̉̽͘͜Į̸̦̱̦̔̍͘͜͠Ṅ̷̦͉͈̰͚͈͈͒G̷̡̫̗̘̰̔̓ ̷̧̹̦͚̻̠̫̣̽͂̇̎̎͛̍́͊̄̏̚I̴̥̣̣̜͉͌̏̀͐͗̔̇͆̅͆̆̍͘͝ͅS̵̯͓͎͙͔̝͓̎͛̐̐̽̌͑͌̿́̕͠ ̴̦̱̥̱̼̩͂̅͊O̴̢͓̯͔͔͍͐̀̀̾̏̑͜K̵̛̛͈̆̈́́̌̊̐̚͠ͅĄ̵̫̃̏̉̄̔̔̒̔̒̽͝͝͠Ÿ̴̬̝͚̫͇͎́
The scream in your heart constantly repeating “I WANT THIS TO END” over and over, but you deny it, you don’t want to let it consumes you, although it has chipped your mind bit by bit, pieces by pieces. You know there’s nothing else you can do about it, except for accepting the tragedy as a “moments in life”.
But you can’t.
You still can’t accept it.
“Hey, everything’s going to be okay, alright? I believe that you are capable of facing this, it’s part of life, after all”, her words echoed, it has no volume, yet it sounds very loud that it may as well numb your ears, deafening everything this world has to offer. “How can I get past this, Jungeun? I can’t, I just can’t…” your heart rejects the darkened reality, blinded by the sadness that you have stored inside. “I wish I can… I wish I can join you there, we could be ha –” before your heart finishes its thoughts, you cut it with your own mind, rejecting it. Jungeun would’ve cried seeing you like this, and you know it, and so you decided to bury those thoughts deep, six feet under.
Literally.
And so those thoughts begin to fade away, the pain stopped, the tears dried out, and the heart stopped screaming. Instead, you’re being shown something, a vision? a dream? “What is this?”, you ask yourself. And as the vision reveals itself, you realized that Jungeun is still there, still smiling, still living her best life. You began to wonder, what is really going on? Where are you?
“Oh….”, your head starts to clear bit by bit.
“That’s right…”, you start to realize.
Your body starts to feel calm, the weight that rests heavily on both of your shoulders lifted itself, the pain that you always feel, fading away…
“I know where I am now….” The thoughts getting clearer.
Thanks for everything, Jungeun.
Thanks for letting me see the world from a new perspective.
Thanks for making me realize that there is happiness somewhere.
I can see it now…
And the tears in your eyes, finally gone, decided to open both of your eyes.
I’m in purgatory, after all.
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I don't need no garden of Eden.
An angst loonaverse!hyewon AU.
Pairing: Olivia Hye / Son Hyeju & Gowon / Park Chaewon from LOONA.
Word count: 459.
“Let's grow old together, Olivia.”
Leaves scattered all over as the wind gently caressed their skin — Gowon smiled so bright that it left Olivia stunned in her place; helplessly engulfed in that warmth. But then she felt the corners of her lips tickled... Slowly formed a slight upward curve followed by shy nods and sparkling eyes full of excitement.
It was so warm.
And Olivia could never ask for more; that one sentence was enough of a motivation for her to get through her most hellish days, the only cure to her sorrow when it felt like the world was against her.
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Time shifted.
The bright sunny day was replaced by a neverending darkness. No more sparks in the eyes, just a hollow veil of grief; no more chirping birds and windy weather, just the sound of galloping feet in the yard... And a faint crack in the heart.
Olivia wished her vision was lying to her at that time, and how much she wished she wasn't there... Staring blankly at the sight of three lassies running away from the building she was standing in.
No, Olivia wouldn't be this frustrated if she hadn't recognized that wavy blonde hair right away, illuminated by the faint twilight beneath the clear sky.
She just wished it wasn't true.
But the moment that blondie glanced at her with clear uneasiness in each of her step, yet quickly turned away before even meeting her gaze... Was the moment Olivia's entire universe fell apart and crumbled into pieces.
It was Gowon.
Without a single doubt, was running away from her... And vanished behind the trees.
No words, no farewell, she quietly escaped and left Olivia behind without even bothering to tell; without explanation, without signs nor warning, as if her existence meant nothing more than just a thin air. Meaningless, probably just like all the time they spent with each other all these years.
Was it all just a lie? Was everything we had meant nothing to you?
It convinced Olivia about the fact which she tried so hard to refute, a stinging feeling that she wished wasn't true all along; that she wasn't needed anymore. She wasn't even worth of a single goodbye from Gowon, let alone her love — even though it was the only thing that had been keeping her sane all this time, the only thing that kept her head up despite the distress and suffering chasing after her.
Their promises, plans and visions about the future...
Now it's all have gone into misery.
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“Just one last word... One last moment to ask you why you left me here behind.
You said you'd grow old with me?
Or was everything just a lie all this time?”
#olivia hye#park gowon#loona#loona gowon#loona olivia hye#hyewon#loonaverse#loona angst#hyewon angst#gowon#fanfiction#loonaverse au#loona fanfiction#loona au#Spotify#hyewon au#golivia au#golivia#golivia angst
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Hot & Cold
a/n: requested! yves and reader insert have to keep their relationship on the downlow because of yves' mother's high standards for the people yves dates. reader insert is fine with it and thinks things are going great, but doesn't realize yves is feeling guilty about the situation.
kind of weird jumps in time, hope it's easy to follow; was not sure which direction to take this, hope you enjoy anon
written with male reader in mind but could be read by anyone
pairing: male reader x yves; words: 1.9k ; categories: loona, yves, angst, reader insert, secret relationship(?)
Sooyoung sat a foot or so away from you on the couch. The TV played commercials, and the vivid colors fell over the floor and the walls. You drank the last of your hot chocolate and set the mug down gently on the table next to you, then looked over at the woman you loved, loved so much. Her gaze was directed at the TV, but her eyes seemed to be looking past the screen. You wondered what thoughts were brewing behind them. As you stood to take your mug to the kitchen you touched her shoulder, and she looked up at you, seemingly dazed, tired, just plain out of it.
"Want anything from the kitchen?" you asked. She gave a weak smile.
"I'm good, honey," she replied. Well, okay. You went to the kitchen and put the mug in the dishwasher, then returned to the living room where Sooyoung still looked... Off. You sat close to her and looked her up and down, but she didn't seem to notice.
"You okay? What are you thinking?" you asked. After a long pause, she squeezed her eyes shut and a silent tear escaped.
"I can't keep doing this," she whispered.
"Uh... Doing what?" you asked incredulously.
"This." She gestured between the two of you.
"What are you talking about? Did I do something?" you scrambled to find answers.
"No, just... Hiding. I can't keep... Hiding," she said slowly. Your mind was flooded with images, memories, feelings.
-
It was hot on the day Sooyoung brought you home. She'd warned you beforehand that it might not go well, but the both of you decided you wanted to try anyway, just in case fate was on your side for once. Her mother was strict about relationships, even though Sooyoung was very much an adult now, and especially strict about the kinds of guys she wanted her daughter with. You didn't really meet the criteria.
"We don't have to, you know. I don't want to mess anything up for you," you said in the car before walking up to her house. She pushed her hand through your hair, resting it on the back of your head.
"We have to, baby... If we don't now, she'll find out through someone else, and that would be worse. It'll be okay," she said hopefully. It wasn't okay. The door wasn't open for five minutes before it was slammed in your face, all the while a screaming match between Sooyoung and her mother raging.
"You can't be with him!" "Why not?" "It's a disgrace upon our family!" "But what about me?" "You're a part of this family, you fool!" "I don't understand, why can't this just work out?" "It's not supposed to!"
Returning to the car with your arm around a shaken and tearful Sooyoung, you heard her mother call after you.
"Come here together one more time and you'll never come back again!"
You quickly made arrangements at a hotel in Busan and the two of you crashed there for the night. Neither of you got much sleep, as you were busy rubbing her back, and she was busy sobbing into the crook of your neck. After a few hours, she regained some sense of composure, sitting up and placing her hands on your shoulders.
"What do we do?" you asked.
"I guess we keep it secret... I'm so sorry," she said with another sob. You brushed her hair from her cheek, stuck there by her tears. "If you don't wanna have to do this, I would understand, you know. If you'd rather be with someone else-"
"I-I can handle it, we can do this, Sooyoung," you said. You weren't confident, though. Eyes and cameras were on her at all times. How would you do it? How would you not crack under the pressure? As unsure as you were, you tried, and for months you maintained a successful relationship undercover. The power of a hat and a mask would soon reveal itself to you, as she could walk over to your apartment without much notice at all, you could go on short dates sometimes, even. You thought you were doing a decent job, at least you didn't notice anything wrong. But even though you didn't notice, it was there.
-
Sooyoung was dancing in the practice room. Jiwoo was walking past, about to leave for the night, and she stopped in to talk to her.
"Sooyoungie! It's so late, how come you're still here?" she said cheerfully. Her tone changed, however, when she noticed Sooyoung's expression; it was serious, contorted in thought, maybe even in pain.
"I just don't want to be idle. That's when I start thinking too much. Trying to keep myself busy," she replied and paused the music. "How come you're still here?"
"Did some extra, I guess. What are you thinking too much about?" Jiwoo asked and set her bag on the floor. She leaned against the wall casually.
"You know, the whole thing with the guy I told you about. With my mom," she said, still catching her breath.
"Oh, right. Is it going badly? I'm sorry," Jiwoo said and moved closer.
"No, no, it's not necessarily going badly, it's just... It's hard. He's fantastic, he treats me perfectly, but... Having to keep my family life separate from my life with him is hard," she said.
"I know how much you love them both, unnie, it can't be easy," Jiwoo said. She looked to the older girl for approval before moving in to hug her.
"I feel like I love him too much to do this secret relationship thing with him. I feel so... Guilty. He shouldn't have to live this way, Jiwoo... Constantly hiding us. He should be able to take a girl out like normal and post photos with her, the way he can't with me. He has to be getting tired of this, right? I love him, but I don't think I can give him what he deserves," she said. Her voice began to break towards the end of her last sentence, and Jiwoo squeezed her tighter.
"Don't say that. I'm sure he's happy to do whatever he has to do, to be with you. He loves you, too, you know," she spoke into Sooyoung's chest.
"I know."
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The bar you and your friends frequented was usually pretty quiet, and tonight was no exception at all. In fact, it might have been more dead than usual. When you looked at the time, it was later than you'd thought, and you felt a pang of worry when you realized Sooyoung hadn't texted you yet. She usually let you know when she got home or got to your place after work. You texted her to ask if she was alright, and she responded very quickly, just saying she was doing some extra practice today. You were relieved, and sent her an 'I love you' before getting back to your friends. They asked you how it was going with her, and you said it was pretty damn good. Who wouldn't love Sooyoung, with her dorky and sweet personality on the inside, and smoldering hot face and body on the outside? You'd disclosed your relationship only to your closest friends, as you trusted them well, and they respected the privacy of it. The privacy... Right. It really didn't get to you much, though sometimes it ate at you when planning dates, having to keep in mind the time of day, location, how many people would be around. But you didn't care; you loved her too much to care. You'd hide underground with her if you had to; you'd make it work with her until the end of time.
And you really thought it didn't get to Sooyoung, either. You might have been oblivious or stupid, but you genuinely didn't notice any signs from her that things were going wrong, until she said those words to you when you were watching TV together after you both got home, you, from the bar, she, from work.
"Hiding. I can't keep... Hiding. You shouldn't have to hide."
"Oh. I, I'm sorry, Sooyoung, I didn't realize it was... Getting to you," you said.
"It's not even that, it's... The guilt. I wish I could be the girl you deserved. I can't stop thinking about you with someone else, someone you wouldn't have to be so secretive with. I can't stop thinking about you being happier that way," she said. You reached for her, hoping to comfort her with a touch, a hug, a kiss, but she shrugged you off. "No... I have to start letting you go now, before I can't anymore."
"Wait, does that mean-"
"I have to go," she cut you off.
"Sooyoung please, just stay the night, I'll sleep on the couch, if you want. It's freezing, you can't go home now," you said and tried to grab her arm as she stood. It really wasn't the best time for her to storm out; you took note of the snow falling outside the window.
"Don't touch me. I'm going now," she said and frantically collected her things. You pleaded with her, following her from room to room as she threw objects into her duffel bag, now in tears, every word dripping with desperation. She swung the door open and you grabbed one of your coats to follow her.
"You are not dressed for this weather, Sooyoung, for God's sake, wait!" you said and followed her down the hallway. You made it all the way down the stairs and onto the sidewalk before you caught up with her.
Fuck it.
You took a firm hold on her shoulders and stopped her where she stood, and she protested, but you got her to be still eventually. She held her breath as you draped the coat over her shoulders. You smoothed it out and her eyes slowly raised to meet yours.
"I love you, Sooyoung... I'm sorry I couldn't... Make this work. I love you so much. You have my key. My door will always be open for you," you said with tears still falling from your eyes. "I wouldn't be happier with anyone else. You're my everything. You're my absolute everything..."
"It's not your fault," she whispered. Then, she turned on her heels and left. She just... Left. About a block down, you saw her pull your coat around her tightly and push her hair back.
It was cold on the day Sooyoung left you. It didn't take long for you to lose feeling in your fingers and toes. You watched her until you couldn't see her anymore; and you drank up every step she took, watching her like you did when she danced. You thought about running after her. But all you could do was stand there. How could this happen so suddenly? No warning, not even a day. You wondered if she was lying. Was it really not your fault? Maybe you weren't doing enough for her. Maybe she wasn't attracted to you anymore. Maybe this was just a cover for a reason like those. It had to be your fault, right? It was a waste of time to wonder, you thought, and trudged back to the stairs, slowly making your way back home. Upon entering your bedroom, you noticed a hoodie left on your bed, a pink hoodie. It wasn't yours... You fell asleep that night with the hoodie pressed to your face, threatening to suffocate you, inhaling all that was left of Sooyoung's sweet smell.
#loona x reader#loona#kpop fanfic#loona x male reader#loona fanfiction#yves x reader#yves x male reader#loona angst#yves angst#kpop angst
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Helluva Boss as textposts part 2/?
1 / 2 / 3 / 4 / 5 / 6 / 7 / 8 / 9 / 10 / 11 / 12 / 13 /14 / 15 / 16 / 17 / 18 / 19 / 20 / 21 / 22
#helluva boss#I uhhhhh sorry for the angst#It will happen again#Blitzwhore shitposts#Helluva boss as textposts#helluva boss incorrect quotes#helluva boss memes#Helluva boss shitposts#Stolitz#helluva boss blitz#helluva boss stolas#helluva boss fizzarolli#helluva boss millie#helluva boss moxxie#helluva boss loona#blitzfizz#fizzblitz#no image description#loona helluva boss#moxxie helluva boss#millie helluva boss#stolas helluva boss#blitz helluva boss#fizzaroli helluva boss
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it’s so over for me | aeri uchinaga
pairing : nonidol!giselle x nonidol!femreader
synopsis : aeri ‘hottest girl on campus’ uchinaga, aeri ‘it girl’ uchinaga, aeri this, aeri that. y/n was sick and tired of hearing and seeing that girl everywhere. what was so good about her? she was a mean bitch, average looking and just a little rich, why were people freaking out over her so bad? aeri knew that y/n didn’t give two shits about her, and she didn’t like that. at all.
tags : college au, aespa, smau, crack, fluff, smut, some angst, wlw, giselle x femreader, they’re all mean girls, y/n is a nerd
warnings : smut, angst, aeri is mean at first, very mean. swearing, overall just mature themes. also the sex is very kinky (bdsm, degradation, spanking etc.)
profiles : whores, sewergang
featuring : heejin from loona, kazuha from le sserafim + every other member from aespa
status : discontinued until further notice— [GUNSHOTS]
updates : whenever i can!! </3
a/n : THE BANNER EXISTS GUYS!! i tried my best by no means am i a graphic designer, this is all you’re gonna get help😭also, not even gonna lie i’m kinda figuring out the plot as i go LMFAOAO
1. she ain’t allat
2. eng lit class
3. manga collection
4. too pretty to be acting like this (half written)
5. blasted
6. scaring the hoes
7. starbies~~ (half written)
8. mischievious [devil emoji]
9. it’s disgusting stop it
10. loser ass bitch
11. closet (half written)
12. wdym y/n’s drunk? (fully written)
13. painting
14. hold hands and kiss
15. hiding spot (half written)
16. okay but why?
17. YOU’RE GINGER?
18. do you thinks
19. popular bitch
20. a date.. shivers
21. a date!! no shivers (fully written)
22. i’m going first! (fully written)
23. desperate times call for desperate measures (fully written)
24. thanks queenie!
25. how romantic..
26. so now what
..coming soon :]
taglist : closed!
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Pairing: LOONA Gowon X Male Reader
Word Count: 6595
A/N 1: Hallo! It's me again and sorry for the delay! This should have been posted yesterday but I slept so... yeah. Anyways, enjoy this fic of Gowon and this is F1 related! I'll be posting more of my fics in the future and have great day ahead and stay safe Orenjideul! woooop!
A/N 2: Also, I swear, this is a fluffy one and maybe sprinkle of angst? hihi
!! Warning !! : Swear Words/ Strong Language
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“So Box now for a set of softs, we’ll try and catch up to the Ferrari ahead at the uppercut.”
“Why? I’ll lose some places if I do and I think I can handle the tyres up to the end.”
It had been a hard time and a challenge for you in this Grand Prix as you started from the last row as an unfortunate qualifying ended your session quickly while doing your second hotlap in such horrendous conditions. A crash after Eau Rogue is not the start you want to have as you felt bad for the team for such an unbearable mistake you had ever done in your debut year in Formula 1. Luckily, a great start even with subsided rainy conditions made your life easier because of your car finding a better pace and you’re grateful for it.
Conditions got better after almost two dozen laps which you had been grateful for after a difficult and a painful struggle that you wished to end and gladly, it did. Risks and gamble from each team had been pulled out. From risky gambles from pitting for a new set of softs or even staying out in wet tyres on a dry track is not a new thing in this sport.
You were leading the race for a few laps now after a pit from the leader for softs, gambling for a possible win or even a podium from the degrading tyres as your team wanted to do the same. Something isn't right, always it is. As much as you want to stay out, team orders are inevitable and could even help you from the worst of situations. A 4-stopper is not the sight you wanted to see yet it could have been the possible strategy that can secure a first win in your Formula 1 career. With a short contemplation, you decided to pit to softs from your 11-lap old mediums.
“A possible undercut from the McLaren from the pacing Ferrari ahead should be worth a risk or maybe not, as the Red Bull is catching up to the McLaren quickly as he will get a DRS on the long straight.”
Now with a DRS on the car behind, you heightened your senses as he gains a few tenths up in the straight as he gains more in each sector. The good thing is that while he is gaining, you’re storing up energy on your battery as patience is the key in these situations. This is not how the plan that you and the team are expecting yet it’s better to be safe than sorry.
“As we can see the Red Bull gaining and gaining into turn 1 as down the inside the McLaren goes as the Red Bull didn’t make it on a late lunge.”
A successful defense against the threat is always a great outcome for the team as the battle is nowhere near as done. Through Eau Rogue and Raidillon the both of you go as the battle ignites the fire that lies beneath the tyres. Scorching heat and a blazing heart fuels the both of you to keep going as the Red Bull gains a few tenths from the DRS as you enabled yours too, managing to keep defending like your whole life depended on it. Through Turn 5 the both of you went as you managed to be ahead by a car length and a half as the cars danced on the circuit of Spa-Francorchamps.
“How o-old are t-the Red Bull’s t-tyres behind me?”
“Okay, so the Red Bull behind is in a 10-lap old mediums and probably will go through at the end of the race.”
Vibrations can be heard on the radio are evident enough on how porpoising affects the quality of communication yet it doesn’t affect you from gathering information from the threat behind.
“Gap o-of the Red Bull b-behind?”
“As of now, the Red Bull is 1.2 seconds behind, no DRS for the next lap. You’re the fastest man on the track.”
“Okay.”
*engine roaring, echoes, cheers*
As the battle is still occuring from the both of you from a lap or two, you’re successfully defending for your position against the Red Bull, putting him at bay which made the driver frustrated at how aggressive and precise your defending is.
*Red Bull’s Radio*
“That’s s-some dangerous d-driving right there…”
“Don’t fight for the position if you’ll hurt the tyres that much, he’s gonna be faster now on softs and we just need to be patient.”
“Okay.”
Team orders are team orders. With no choice to fight with your pace advantage, the Red Bull had backed off as the skirmish of almost two laps had ended. A sigh of relief had escaped from your mouth as the tension cooled down, securing yourself into P2 as the golden trophy awaited, making the fire in you to keep going.
“The gap of the car ahead?”
“The gap as of now is 9.8 secs behind the Ferrari, he’s in a 12-lap old mediums and you’re still the fastest man on track.”
“Okay.”
With a faster and fresher tyre, you are able to catch up to the Ferrari ahead whose mediums are now degrading. With a pace advantage to your tyres, you’re now giving everything you got, pushing hard for a maiden win that you’d been longing for.
“Holy shit, man… How many *pants* laps to go?”
“7 laps remaining if you cross the line.”
“Okay, thanks…”
“He is gaining tenths and tenths in each sector and this could have been a chance of a win if he’s going to gain more yet the Ferrari won’t let it happen, aren’t they?”
“Yes they wouldn’t and I’m sure that Ferrari will do something about this incoming threat.”
With a miraculous pace advantage and fresher tyres, you tried to catch up to the Ferrari as the gap was now closed after almost 2 laps of intense racing action.
“The gap now?”
“The gap now is 7.8 secs behind from the Ferrari, 5 laps to go when you cross the line.”
“Okay.”
The fire in you ignited more as you saw the gap is closing, seeing how adrenaline is coursing through your veins in every twist and turns at the circuit. As the track was filled with roaring engines and spirits as the crowd’s cheer erupted, an unexpected event had happened.
*crowd gasping*
“As the Williams is making a move on the Aston- as, oh! Oh! That is an Alfa Romeo, on the barriers at Turn 14 after a lockup and a spin right after. These are unfortunate times as the driver wasn’t able to countersteer and just accepted the inevitable.”
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*Alfa Romeo’s Radio*
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*sound of gravel, vibrations*
“Fuck! I’m sorry guys… shit…”
“Are you okay? Are you okay?”
“Yeah, sorry ‘bout that.”
“Turn off the engine, please.”
“Yeah…”
Lap 40. Now heading into Les Combes while chasing the Ferrari, you asked for the gap of the car ahead, hoping to hear some improvements in your lap and sector times against the race leader.
“The gap now?”
“As of now, the gap is 7.2 seconds.”
“Okay.”
*breathing, engine sounds*
“Yellow flags, yellow flags, keep the delta positive, there’s an Alfa Romeo at the barriers at Turn 14. Expect debris around there…”
“Fuck man… That could have been good..”
Not so long after, the race control had announced that in the next lap, the race will be under a safety car as the car had left debris around the vicinity of Turn 14. As the hunt subsided, the tensions calmed down as you took a deep breath under the helmet, sprayed with moisture right after that faded away after some time. Despite the sudden serene ambiance at the track, the adrenaline is still running through in every twist and turn of the wheel in every corner as you come across the area of incidence.
“So slow down, keep the delta positive, there’s a lot of debris at the track.”
“Yeah, yeah, I can see it from here… It’s just unfortunate..”
A sigh of disbelief came out of your mouth as you heated up your tyres as you neared the bus stop chicane.
“Should I box?”
“No, I think the tyres are pretty good at the moment so we’ll stay out. Some of the teams also pitted, including the Ferrari ahead.”
“With soft tyres? Fresher ones?”
“Might be their option.”
“*pants* Okay…”
As the cumulonimbus clouds filled the sunny skies, it didn't shine on your visors as it rained on you, worrying prevailing all over your body as it’s evident on the tone of your voice. With gambles in each team, you can’t help but feel butterflies in your stomach as you feel the world is rooting on you, the rising rookie in the field of Formula 1.
Now that the track is now under a safety car, things tensed down as heartbeats decrease in speed as most of the cars now heat up their tyres as the marshalls are cleaning the track as fast as possible for no more further accidents on what happened in the preceding times.
Radios are filled with drivers being fed with information or chats about their possible dinners, mostly filled with murmurs or sternness, no matter what the situation could be. Deep breaths as the clock ticks every second, staying at the nth gear at most times as complaints, now shower the radios.
“Is it normal for this safety car to be this slow? The tyres will be cold if this will remain in the longer run…”
“Copy, copy, the safety car will remain at that speed until the end, before the start of Lap 42.”
“Okay…”
The ignition never stops, not the car yet the adrenaline that fuels your racing heart as you throw a sight to the Ferrari ahead of you, planning the possible strategies and mind games that you can offer at the table. You wanted the win and you’ll get this no matter what could happen next. You’ll take risks if it can benefit you as you always hope to bear a great outcome.
“Never play safe, never play safe…”
As every twist and turn of the wheel in every corner, you can’t help but think of the people who always got your back, the people that kept you going even in the ups and downs of your career, also in every physical endeavors and achievements, you always thank them whatever the outcome the race could be. Your family, friends, supporters and your loved ones yet there is one woman who keeps you going and keeps your ego boosted, no matter what your mood is. The sunshine of your darkest days and your most protected treasure that you’re always grateful of, meeting her in a convenience store after a cheat day in your Formula 2 days, almost making a scene because of a possible slip, due to your clumsiness.
Up to her shyness, crunchy yet a soft-toned voice and a clingy yet loving personality, you can’t help but fall in love and get allured in her charms, even if you tried to deny it. It almost feels like the two of you are matched for each other maybe because of the accurate similarity of your personalities.
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–Flashback–
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“Hah! Uhm, thank you…”
A shot of espresso is all you’ll ever need after a tough day in your final race in your Formula 2 days as you got offered to drive for McLaren for the next year’s season. Not a heartbreak yet an mediocre performance which you are aware of and also a frustrating result for the team made you feel that their efforts had gone into waste after a spin in the opening lap as well as the inconsistent lap times that shattered your ego throughout the whole race under the lights of Abu Dhabi, from a month ago.
Voices of submerged memories of that grand prix spun around your head that you wanted to forget but just won’t leave you be.
“I’m way too greedy and stupid. *sighs* When will I ever learn?”
As you talked to yourself and battled over your demons, a soft voice made you startled and pause from saying anything further.
“Hello…”
“Ah! U-uhm, hi…”
“A-are you good?”
You let out a deep sigh as disappointment still paints your face, you tone stern yet shy because of an angel asking beside you.
“N-not really, just g-going through something, I guess…”
She pauses for a moment as she senses that something’s not right. Yeah, her sixth sense is definitely right as she became worried of a stranger that she’d never met before. She’s usually not an interactive person and a shy-typed one, an introvert to say the least yet a spark ignited between the both of you that you’re mostly unaware of.
“I hope you’ll get through that…”
“Thanks…”
“And… w-wait, aren’t you the Formula 2 driver t-that’s going to move to McLaren next season?”
You were shocked as those words came out of her own mouth. You’re not really startled about it to say the least yet what are the odds that a stranger would know you.
“U-uhm, y-yeah, but h-how do you know me?”
“Maybe the tattoo on your hand and your e-eyes?”
She giggles right after, her face forms almost a pout as you can’t help but find her cute as she involuntarily winks while smiling at you. It feels like you’ve met an angel that you’re surely thankful about.
Yes, your girl types. A modest, simple, shy, adorable and a soft-voiced one. You couldn’t ask for more for this girl as your cheeks redden right after and you’re aware of it, hoping that girl won’t notice it as you’re feeling embarrassed.
“O-oh! Yeah, it’s me, b-but, you gotta keep it quiet…”
“Oh my, it’s you! It’s you! I’m a big fan of your wor-”
“Shhh, please, k-keep it down, b-but thanks though…”
You put your finger on her lips to shush her from her inevitable happiness of seeing you. She noticed you blushing, even behind your mask as she can’t help but paint a genuine smile on her face.
“I’m sorry about that, b-by the way, my name is Chaewon, Park Chaewon…”
“O-oh… Nice to m-meet you Chaewon…”
“They also call m-me Gowon and I’m a b-big fan of yours. I just c-can’t believe I’m going to see y-you here…”
You can see the pinkish tint in her cheeks as you formed a smile, getting flustered upon meeting this girl. You can tell that’s not joking about being a big fan of yours as she stammers upon her phrases. You’re also stammering by the butterflies you’re feeling but it doesn’t matter. You’re getting interested in her and nothing’s gonna stop your curiosity, even the media or even your friends. You wanted to know her more and you’ll be doing that now.
“Oh, t-thanks and I suppose, you know m-me already, right?”
“Yeah…”
Giggles emanated around the room as the negative energy that once you’ve possessed, had been wiped out within a blink of an eye. Her optimism despite her shyness can be seen at how she became interested in you as an embarrassment from earlier still makes you nervous on how to feel with her, knowing that she saw it and can’t help to overthink about it.
“I’m sure you won’t slip again, right?”
“Yeah, yeah *giggles* anyways…”
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“Thanks for a g-great talk!”
“Thanks too, Gowon… ”
As you were about to leave the store, something slipped in your mind that you almost forgot as you clicked your tongue about it.
“Go… Gowon-ah!”
“W-what is it?”
You sighed deeply as you prepared yourself for what you’re going to say.
“C-can I get your number?” “Are y-you getting my number?”
What could have been the odds of her thinking the same way as you did? Surely, she had read you like a book quickly enough for you to notice while engaging in fun conversations with this social butterfly. Well, she isn’t one. Probably, it’s just a matter of fact that the both of you are meant to be with each other as she made the first move towards you.
“Oh…”
“A-ah…”
“Uhm, I think, I should-”
“No, no, it’s alright, I-I wanted t-to get yours too…”
In such awkward situations like this, you always wished to put an end to it but it seems to be the opposite, even in the oddest of situations.
“Don’t mind if I should… Like, this…”
You felt your hands going numb as you shook from nervousness but you did what you needed to do, and so is she.
After another quick conversation and the exchanging of numbers, you went out of the store with a smile painted on your face, a sincere and genuine one. You then exchanged goodbyes as you can see her modest smile in her face through the glass window. It had been a while since you had one and you’re thankful for this. It feels like a blue moon illuminated around the sunny skies as the stars perfectly align for this. You can’t describe how much dopamine had been released on your body as your cheeks redden again, enough to know that it is how hot it felt.
“I’ll get to know her, and I will…”
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–End of Flashback–
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“As the safety is ending! The safety car is ending at this lap, before lap 42 of the race! Now, it’s the McLaren and The Ferrari on the front row, side by side as the race now starts, again!”
The both of you got away really well from the restart. A single overtake is all that you needed to lead the race and hoped to bring it home, a maiden win in your career that you’d been longing for since the start of your debuting season.
Going to the outside of Turn 1 didn’t make your overtake a success as the Red Bull at the back tried to make a divebomb, but is also unsuccessful, considering how well you’re defending and how narrow the space is being given.
You're fighting to win here, and so are the other nineteen drivers as you can’t afford to lose a position that can cost a win, or even a possible podium. A podium should be enough yet the fire in your heart now fuels the ignition, pumping it faster and faster as the adrenaline and concentration now peaks.
Now in Eau Rogue and Raidillon, the Ferrari leads from you by about a car length or two. The camera angle depicts a great shot on how fast F1 cars took those corners, just like how fast your heart races in every second. You’ve never felt so much pressure on your back but you stayed calm and composed, focusing on the race like it’s your last.
Now having DRS for this lap, you activated it as unfortunately, the Ferrari also had one as your pace matched his’, hoping to be in his tail as you took things slowly, like a hunter waiting on its prey. The right attack can reward a fruitful outcome and that saying you’ve heard in a coffee shop is now forever tattooed in your head.
Patience is the key to victory as you tried any possible attack in Les Combes and Bruxelles but too much commitment can cause you a cheeky drift or an unfortunate oversteer or even worse, a crash. You don’t want to act dirty and to ruin someone’s race like that, you’re not selfish, you know for yourself but you gotta take a risk as after Turn 11, you opened up your ERS to gain speed upon your stored energy as the Ferrari still defends like a lion.
As the prey still managed to get away from his predator, another battle has commenced as your teammate managed to overtake the Alpine who is in his older set of his mediums as your team’s gambles for pitting in softs made a reward, a rewarding 4th place.
“I need more power…”
“You’re the fastest man on the track, stay calm and be patient…”
“Okay…”
As time goes by, you’re still at the tail of the Ferrari, not losing time nor gaining, just a gap being maintained steadily and patiently from both parties. It frustrates you on how you’re being so impatient with these as you now meet the famous chicane in this track, marking the start of Lap 43.
“What is happening? Why is the car heavy?”
“Can you describe the problem?”
“The car’s just heavy at the front, feels like I’m steering a fucking boat…”
“Copy, copy, we’re checking, we’re checking…”
“Fuck…”
“Just keep pushing until the end, if you can…”
“I can’t! The engine seems strange, what the fuck is happening?”
Anger, frustration and questions lingered in your mind over this situation. You can’t afford to lose as you’re fighting for the golden trophy here as you seemed a black cat had cursed you in this race, finding one as you caused your way out of the hotel earlier.
As you tried to push, up to the maximum, you tried to fight against the Ferrari again as the both of you went out of Raidillon, using your stored up energy on your battery to attack, being wheel-to-wheel in the whole course at Kemmel Straight, despite the struggle you're currently facing.
Now going in Les Combes you went down the outside as you braked later, almost locking up at the process as you were successful on the overtake as the Ferrari respected the space allowed for him to defend, which is now pointless as you lead the race with an issue being faced which you’re still really frustrated of.
“Then tell me what’s the problem, is it a battery-related issue?”
“We’re checking now, we’re checking now. Is it heavy on all sides?”
“Yeah, most likely on the front, it feels really strange.”
“Copy, just push until the end if you can.”
Now up to Pouhon up to Stavelot, panic starts settling in as you’re worried about what to happen next as the Ferrari starts to attack you as soons as he hears the conflict you’re facing.
He tried to attack after Stavelot as he went for the outside but was unsuccessful, the both of you almost going side-to-side as the battle heats up for this race. Now in Blanchimont, you were two car-lengths ahead of the Ferrari as the pressure in your body is now in its utmost peak. Saving the left up energy on the Ferrari’s battery store, catching up on you slowly and surely, but you stayed calm and collected as he catches up, almost going wheel-to-wheel again, hundred meters before the Bus Stop Chicane, braking just at the right time at the inside line as the Ferrari was forced out, not wanting to cause a tragedy that can ruin each other’s race and self-esteem all throughout the remainder of the season.
Lap 44, the last lap has started as the engines roar alongside the crowd’s cheers in the grandstand. You’ll push until everything is over as the anchor from your ship can stop it from sailing further, you’ll do your best even in the worst of times. For the team, for your supporters and for her.
“I’m losing power! Fuck…”
“Keep pushing if you can…”
“I can’t man! I’m trying to…”
Now as the Ferrari catches up, you start to panic as your fingers tremble because of the overloading adrenaline you’re currently feeling. As you went to the outside of Turn 1, you were about to defend your position as the inevitable happened.
“As there is a lil’ bit of jockeying down at the back of the grid as THE McLaren has spun round outside of Turn 1!”
“I lost the fucking engine! *pants*”
“Sorry about that, turn the engine off please…”
“Really sorry, *pants* ‘bout that. Just unfortunate…”
“Keep your head down, share your feelings there, mate. There’s nothing we can do about it.”
Things tensed down as you stopped for a moment of silence. Frustrated and heartbroken on what happened, you turn off the engine with weight on your fingers as you punch the air, ruminating and contemplating on what just happened. You then unplugged and removed the steering wheel hurriedly and exquisitely, still the fire in your heart raging over this heartbreak.
As an invitation for your first win has slipped out of your hands with an engine issue and you’re miserable. You just wanted this day to end and refrain from thinking about it but it happened, and it marked your very soul.
You then come out of the car as the marshalls guide your way out of the track, walking with you as your head’s bowed with emotions that are running through your veins. It feels like you’ve lost everything and let down everyone that has been on your back since you’ve started. You felt bad for the team as they shared the same emotions towards you.
As you walked your way to the pit entry with the guidance of the marshalls, the leader now rounds the final corner as the engine roared cheerfully, marking Ferrari’s first win in this season. Your teammate, however, managed to overtake the Mercedes with his remaining energy in his battery store around the course in Blanchimont, claiming up a possible podium finish.
One by one, the drivers now met the chequered flag as some of them cheered in joy, dismay or even rants in their own radios. You became grateful and happy for your teammate’s podium finish as it should have been your first win if your engine did last longer. It wasn’t just you who was grateful as the whole team cheered for your teammate on the pit wall as smiles were painted from their faces from his second podium this season.
You now entered the garage as you got yourself a bottle of water to drink and a towel to wipe off the sweat that heated up your whole neck and your face. A deep sigh of exhaustion and frustration came out of your mouth as the ending ceremonies will begin in a couple of minutes, so are the inspection, interviews and a lot more. You just wished for this day to end as it feels like your heart is weighing again, hurting yourself as you wanted to cry and release everything but not today, you gotta stay calm and collected for what’s about to happen next.
“Here we go.”
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*wind breeze, whistles, peaceful music humming at the distance*
“Oh shit… Huuuu… I don’t know. Ahhhh...”
Whistles and whimpers from you can be heard across the room as you contemplate on what happened earlier. It shattered your ego throughout the whole day, really evident and obvious on how you answered such questions from the interviews and how cold you interacted with the interviewers.
It has been a rough day for you, a day to forget yet a day to be remembered. You’re now distracting yourself by watching some of your favorite action movies, playing guitar or even playing some sim racing games just to destress yourself but it doesn’t seem to be the move. You just wanted this suffering to end as if you thought about it more, the deeper the cut marks on your heart.
As you’re almost halfway through the movie, a muffled knock has gotten your attention. You didn’t mind it at first as you thought that’s just the normal hotel service, waiting for your room to be cleaned up until a familiar knocking pattern heightened your senses.
“Who is it? Come in.”
You didn’t mind peeking on who it was as you’re on your way back to the couch after unlocking the door. As you were about to jump back, a soft voice stopped you from those actions.
“Oppa!”
“C-Chaewon? Why are you h-here? I t-thought you were in Korea?”
“Well, I really did surprise you by unexpectedly coming here. The tickets were just in time for me to go here and bought it just to see you, Oppa. Gladly, the security let me in as they knew that I would come for you.”
“Woah, well, thanks for coming. Come in then, I won't bite…”
“Oppa…”
You joked for a second as a forceful smile was printed on your face. Chaewon then released a cute, crunchy giggle that you adored the most.
“Well, I was watching this movie and d-don’t you mind joining me?”
“Uhm, I mean, sure I’ll join with you, Oppa.”
“Okay then…”
She then sat back on the couch as you went to the fridge to get some drinks for her and some food to make herself feel at home.
“You want some Sprite? Beer? Water?”
“I’ll take some Sprite and-”
“The fries?”
“Yeah Oppa…”
You then hurriedly got what the both of you needs as you hop in to the couch, placing those foods and beverages at the table as you wrapped your arm around Chaewon’s neck, causing her to blush as she dug deeper to your chest, making it like a pillow for her to rest on.
Despite the affection the both of you are showing to each other, Chaewon senses that something isn’t right as your cold replies and talks to her says enough. She then suddenly remembered that you had your grand prix today and thought that it would be a good talk for her to start an interesting conversation.
She rushed her way onto your hotel that you’re currently staying in as soon as the plane landed. She didn’t have any time to check about the latest updates on your race as she became determined to get to you as soon as possible. She missed your hugs, stories, bonds and your loud laughs with her as she wanted to see it today, experience it and embrace it.
Little did she know that today is the day that you’re heartbroken, not because of a love-related one but a heartbroken win that slipped within the grasp of your hands. You don’t wanna talk about it but it feels like she’s about to do a regrettable move.
“How’s the race today, Oppa?”
“*sighs* Not the best. Just like, meh… pft… I just don’t wanna talk about it.”
Chaewon now knows the root of your sudden cold demeanor. Being the clever girl she is, she didn’t want to ask or expand on what happened as she’s afraid of leading this into an argument that can hurt the both of you.
No, she won’t shut up about this. She’ll play it right, calm and collective as she wants answers and she’ll get what she wants. She knows you well and reads you like a book as she now formulates a series of questions in her head.
“Oppa…”
“Yeah?”
She reached the remote in your hand in one swift motion as she didn’t get it, but rather made your hand a guide to pause the movie the both of you are watching.
“Speak up to me, Oppa. I know there’s something wrong and you don’t need to hide it from me.”
“W-why would I speak u-”
A quick peck on your cheeks made you pause from your sudden and apparent excuses. You blushed in return as it can be seen, thanks to the fluorescent light bulbs up in the ceiling.
“How about that, hm? Please, speak up to me, Oppa. Pwease?”
How can you deny her? She attacked with a weapon you can’t counter, and that’s her cute little pout from her cheeks and lips as her gray, silky hair gleamed, making you in awe, looking at her distinct features.
She’s a literal angel that you’ll protect at all costs and you’re committed to it. No one comforted you and understood you like her. You’re thankful for having her as a part of the chapters in your own book and she’s everything a man could ask for.
Well, you thought to yourself that if you tried to make more excuses, it would be pointless as she knows what’s up with you and all you had to do is to say the truth and share it with her.
“Uhmm… F-fine! Fine. It’s just a- W-wait, you haven’t read the news?”
“Uhm, I didn’t mind checking them as I wanted to see you Oppa. I was in a hurry, I’m really sorry if I can’t catch up…”
“No Chaewon, it’s alright. I’m even glad that y-you didn’t know what happened…”
“Well, with that being said, what really happened Oppa? Is it another heartbreak or what?”
“Guess you had read my mind then, eh?”
“M-maybe, *giggles*. So, a heartbreak, huh?”
You were paused from saying anything as all of those memories are coming back together, again. Who wouldn’t be hurt if you’ve led almost two-thirds of the duration of the race and just ended the last-lap lead after an engine issue? There’s nothing to blame here and your team talked about this in your debrief earlier that it was just an unfortunate mechanical issue that’s inevitable.
“Yeah, just an unfortunate engine issue at the last lap. I led the race and it just went nuts after. Ws spun round, engine’s just… Dead… ”
Silence emanated around the room as she pats your back while still resting her head onto your chest. You let out a forceful and despondent smile as she digs deeper in your chest, feeling really bad for your heartbreak as you almost broke down beside her.
“Oppa…”
“Why?”
“I’m s-sorry I asked you about that. I d-didn’t know that was the case…”
“No, no, Chaewon, it’s not your fault, never was. No one can stop it and those are just unfortunate times.”
You then caressed her silky hair, enough to smell her shampoo as you pull Chaewon in a heartfelt embrace. She was baffled by your sudden actions but she’s not complaining. She wanted to comfort you and to make you feel good but you weren’t the ones who initiated these kinds of affections, so she’s baffled to say the least.
You almost broke down in tears as streams of water came out of your eyes involuntarily. You’re always soft and protective whenever you’re with Chaewon. Even with your cold yet optimistic demeanor on camera, it seems that Chaewon are the ones who can make you feel your true self as you always feel delightful meeting with her, despite any situations you’re facing.
“I’m so bad, I’m so bad, I’m s-so bad…”
“No, no Oppa, you’re not. I’m sure you did your best, as always.”
“I d-don’t know why the w-world is a-always against me. It feels l-like I bear bad luck…”
“Stop saying that, I’m here, we’re here to support you. You’ll get through this and it’s no one's fault. Just let it out, Oppa.”
You break down more as you tighten the embrace right after, not putting too much pressure as you’re always gentle in your every move with her. She then caressed your hair, hoping you would feel safe and collected whenever beside her. You’re already as you calmed down, pushing her out of your embrace as she wipes your tears with a tissue, gently and slowly as you felt your ego reinvigorating by her kind and comforting words.
“You’re the best in my eyes, Oppa. I don’t care what people say about you, you’re talented and nothing can convince me that you’re not. I couldn’t ask for more when I’m beside you, Oppa. I-”
“I love you, Oppa.”
Those words. Those 3 words and 8 letters that send shivers down your spine. That simple sentence that makes you feel hundreds of emotions in a matter of seconds. A pinkish tint in your cheeks says that you’re feeling her affection and you love it. Even though the both of you are engaged in a 11-month old relationship, saying those words feels like you’re risking something as it feels like the both of you can’t have the will to say it to each other yet today’s a different day. She’ll make you feel special and she’ll do it now, despite whatever you’re feeling.
“I love you so much, Oppa. You may not know but I d-”
A quick peck on her lips made her startled as she smiled in joy, her eyes winking as she hid her face using her hands, embarrassed by what just happened. You didn’t care about that as you showed affection towards her by a sudden embrace and a genuine smile, this time not a heartbroken one but rather a thankful one as you are really thankful being with her.
“I love you too Chaewon, thanks for being with me and understanding me. I thank you so much, sosososo much…”
The both of you exchanged smiles as your voice was almost inaudible, burying your face at the crook of her neck after a sincere confession.
“I loved everything about you Chaewon. I-I c-couldn’t ask for more and thank you for everything. Even if our schedules are a big conflict, you always find a way to meet me and I thank you for that. You didn’t even need to but you chose to, so I really thank you. I wish I could give you something in return, b-but I can’t.”
“No Oppa, it’s alright. I want this and I don’t need something in return to strengthen our relationship. I chose this path and your smile, your genuine smile is enough to make me happy, Oppa.”, she then caressed your hair as she placed her right hand on your right cheek and said, “I’ll always love you, Oppa.”
“I’ll always love you too, Chaewon.”
You then pulled her body towards you as you initiated the kiss as the dark evening lit up by the affection and the love the both of you emanated around the room. You then pulled out as the both of you exchanged breaths and sincere smiles, her smiling of you getting better from your heartbreak as you got flustered upon this act.
You then cuddled each other as you didn’t even mind to do anything but to take care of this puffball of optimism. It feels like you’ve never gone through anything. It feels like a spell had wiped those heartbreaking thoughts earlier.
As time went by, the calm music sang a lullaby to Chaewon as you noticed her deeply sleeping peacefully. You then carried her on your way to your bedroom as you placed her down gently, her still sleeping soundly as you kissed her forehead and caressed her hair that’s falling over her face as you whispered, “I love you Chaewon, I won’t let you go, remember that.”
A day to remember yet a day to be forgotten, the ignition that filled your heart throughout the race now cools down as it now beats for the one you love. Your utmost treasure, the paramount of all of your inspirations, Park Chaewon, the girl who made you the man that you are today as you’re always thankful for her existence. You can’t imagine your world without her and you won’t let her go, no matter what happens, even at the end of time.
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╰┈➤𝐇𝐎𝐖 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐂𝐔𝐃𝐃𝐋𝐄 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇
𝐇𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐔𝐕𝐀 𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒.ೃ࿐
{𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘶𝘢𝘨𝘦, 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘴𝘵, + 𝘴𝘦𝘹𝘶𝘢𝘭 𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘵𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘴}
*ೃ༄𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐈𝐄
• Millie is all about cuddling, even bringing the action up beforehand
•She'd love to brush your hair if you felt comfortable with it as she puts your consent above all else
•After brushing your hair she'd whisper sweet things in your ear:: "Doll, remember you're absolutely amazing." and "I don't know what I'd do without you."
•Millie and you would take turns being big spoon and little spoon. Most times though Millie takes the bigger role
•If anyone interrupted your time together Millie would no doubt throw something at their head
•Most times it hits them
•Millie would fall asleep holding you in her arms. She's a very sweet S/O and puts you before the likes of herself. If you cry she's there with tissues, if you don't eat she won't either, and if you feel angry she'll give you the space you need
•When you wake up in the morning breakfast is already prepared and on the nightstand
*ೃ༄𝐌𝐎𝐗𝐗𝐈𝐄
•Poor Moxxie wouldn't know what to do if you asked for cuddles
•He'd be more than happy to do so, however, the poor IMP would be shy
•Most times while cuddling you'll be a big spoon since I can't imagine Moxxie being that type
•"Y/N, do you think I'm useless?" he'd ask you while nuzzling into your neck. He constantly thought bad about himself and it made you upset
•"Of course not Mox," you'd say kissing his forehead. "I think you're far more than enough."
•Moxxie would eventually get used to the feeling of cuddling and embracing you. All his life he was constantly put down by others. Millie and you are the only two that cared enough to stand up for him.
•At times you might think he also likes Millie because of the bond they share. Regardless, that's not the case. Moxxie is very verbal about his attraction to you despite how others may see it.
*ೃ༄𝐁𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐙Ø
•More than likely Blitz has had a bad/long day at work. So if you asked him to cuddle 100% of the time the answer is, "I would love to!"
•Blitz would wrap his tail around you subconsciously. He wants you close, his mind finding ways to make sure you won't up and leave
•You like to touch the white spots on him, outlining the various shapes
•Eventually, you get sad, remembering all those white spots are from him getting hurt
•"Y/N, that tickles" he'd say laughing in between the embrace you two shared
•Big spoon, little spoon, no spoon. Fuck Blitz didn't care he just wanted you to be there for him and love him for the way he is. Just as he loved you for you.
•Yes, he can be an ass at times but he has problems just like everyone else
•And you adore them
*ೃ༄ 𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐍𝐀
•"You want to cuddle... Me?" Loona would have a look of confusion on her face with red on her cheeks
•You may think she lost interest because of the way she acts but that's not the case my friend
•Definitely big spoon
•Loona would hold you against her fur not saying anything for a while. When she finally got the courage to speak she'd say, "ya know, you're the first person to make me feel like this."
•You must remember the remarks and insults she gives you most of the time are a form of love. Loona doesn't like to seem weak, especially in front of you
•More than likely if she catches you upset or down by something she said get ready for apologizes and love when you are alone
•"Hey, you know I didn't mean what I said right?" she whispered into your ear, never moving her position from beside you
*ೃ༄𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐋𝐀𝐒
•This man is touch starved so when you bring the idea up there's no turning back
•"Oh, my dear! Why didn't you say so sooner?!"
•Big spoon when he's happy and little spoon when he's sad (Stella more than likely being a bitch)
•Stolas would hold you so close that he could feel your heartbeat. In exchange, you could feel his blush practically spreading.
•"I love you so much Y/N, please never leave me." he would say in a somber voice. "Stolas, I don't want anyone else besides you." you'd remind the owl.
•Some nights you guys would fall asleep while a romance movie played in the background.
•But there are other nights you two get a little freaky if you catch my drift;)
•Honestly, you know many people are against Stolas but to you, there's no one else like him
*ೃ༄𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐎𝐒𝐈𝐊𝐀
•Verosika is painting her nails when you ask for cuddles. When she hears you say the final word, a smirk would form on her lips
•"Aww, does my baby want loves?" she'd tease
•Verosika is the most dominant in the relationship taking the form of big spoon. Although, if she had a bad day or was feeling self-conscious you'd step in
•When cuddling she'd play with your hair, twisting it around her slim fingers
•Verosika would most definitely take photos of you and post them on her social media. The captions would be things like, "better than my ex" and "no one comes close to my beauty as they do."
•Self-confidence is important in your relationship. If you're down because of someone, Verosika wouldn't hesitate to beat a hoe.
•The girl would probably claw the shit out of them ngl
•"You're the cutest thing to walk hell!" she'd tell you, going back to looking through her gallery while you drifted off to sleep.
*ೃ༄𝐅𝐈𝐙𝐙𝐀𝐑𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐈
•"Fizz, can we cuddle?" you'd ask the male
•He looked at you very confused, you two were basically cuddling already. "Y/N, I'm literally sitting on your lap... How much closer could I get?"
•This bitch is lowkey a little baby but would make sexual remarks while cuddling
•Little spoon for sure and he would never disagree with that
•When you guys do cuddle (him not sitting in your lap) you'd listen to his puns and jokes
•Fizz finds your stomach to be soft and the perfect place to lay his head. When he's not there the next place he'll lay is on you. His legs tossed over you, head resting on a pillow, and his hands holding yours firmly
•There's a good chance he'd force you to fall off the bed when sleeping because of the amount of room he hogs
#reqs open#ask me anything#headcanon#helluva boss#moxxie x reader#millie x reader#loona x reader#blitz x reader#stolas x reader#verosika x reader#fizzarolli x reader#gn reader#some angst
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Helluva Boss Random Post “Sad Things I Realized About Helluva Boss”
-blitz wants a threesome with moxxie and millie because that’s really all he knows about intimacy, he doesn’t know to be emotional intimate with someone, he desperately wants what they have, and he hopes that a threesome can give him even a fraction of that
-moxxie’s self esteem was damaged alot in his child hood and he stills struggles with it to this day, so when he was telling loona that he lost two pounds, that was mostly him trying to reassure himself that he wasn’t fat, like him trying to reassure himself that’s he’s not pathetic and weak, and that’s probably also why striker affected him to much
-in ep 1 when Moxxie couldn’t kill the family, he was literally reliving his childhood because when crimson killed his mother, his childhood was ruined, like this man was having a full blown breakdown over the fact that he had to shoot a mother, (I was confused as to why Moxxie had such a hard time killing a mother when he’s literally killed countless of other humans before)
-whenever Octavia is dismissive or is embarrassed of her dad, stolas probably feels like he’s being a terrible father and that his own daughter hates him, which is even more sad considering that Octavia is all that he has anymore
-after when Chaz and blitz have a one night stand, you can see blitz all curled up on his own side, I think part of the reason he agreed to have sex with Chaz was an attempt to get over stolas, sex in general can be used as a distraction, but you can tell he hated the sex and also felt very wrong to him
- this one is a bit of a stretch but I also think that blitzo hated the sex with Chaz is because he felt bad for having sex with someone else that wasn’t stolas, though i don’t think he was lying when he said that chaz was terrible in bed, this man has fucked a scubas pop-star and a royal prince of hell, i think he would know or two about good sex
(IM NOT SAYING BLITZ CHEATED ON STOLAS!!, THEIR NOT A COUPLE!!, IM JUST STATING THAT MAYBE HE HATED IT BECAUSE HE FELT LIME HE BETRAYED STOLAS EVEN THOUGH HE HAS NO REASON TOO BECAUSE THEY ARENT DATING)
-if asmodues and fizz ended up on the news for being a lovey dovey couple, it’s possible that the whole “Ozzie’s scandal” with stolas and blitz is on papers as well
-loona is basically blitz in her own way, she wants to be loved and have a family, but is scared so she puts in an aggressive angry facade to protect herself from getting hurt
#helluva boss#helluva boss moxxie#moxxie and millie#helluva boss loona#helluva boss octavia#stolas#helluva boss stolas#Blitz#stolas x blitz#stolas x blitzo#blitzø#helluvaboss#helluva boss angst#chaz#helluva boss blitzo#helluva boss blitzø#fizzarolli helluva boss#asmodeus#stolas goetia#octavia goetia
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