jokingly calling the divine comedy a fanfic is funny, but people seriously believing it (or stuff like the aeneid) is fanfic makes my brain hurt. there is a world of difference between the divine comedy and fanfiction, they are not comparable in any way. and i say that as someone who writes fanfic.

most fanfics can never be published because they deal with copyrighted material written under a capitalistic hellscape and must follow the laws about it. the divine comedy is using aspects that had influenced western culture for millenia to tell a serious story about the corruption and flaws dante saw in italy and religion. not to mention that religion and greek mythology weren't fandoms back then.

Zuko was a child when he met Agni. Then, the spirits started coming to him. Eyes hidden in the hallways, voices pleading for help, for recognition, for remembrance.

Zuko could see Agni. He could see the broken remains of a Great Spirit and the empty smiles of amnesiac ghosts.

And they could see him in return.

my new OC: cempaka!

she is based on the story/universe that my friend @haydardotjpg's OCs indra and yuwei exist in! pls go checkout haydar's art he is amazing!! his ocs can be found more easily on his ig but if you're lazy this is his oc indra (cempaka's one-sided love interest) and yuwei (indra's fated lover)

also, cempaka means "magnolia" in malay!! (she gets a flower name bc my name is lilly which is also flower c:)

bonus first iteration under the cut!

i accidentally had "poinsettia" flower in mind when i did this iteration instead of an actual magnolia, hence the color scheme. but yeah, this is as self-insert as it gets LOL like she's literally MEEEEEE but still very different and i love her as she is <3

If we for a moment forgo canon events and disagreements then I do wholeheartedly hope and believe that Todd and Neil get married during the '70s. It's a sunny afternoon on the perfect day in mid-spring and the light is at its thickest and most golden and Charlie got registered as an officiant just for this day and not everybody's present - Meeks can't make it from Switzerland on short notice, but they get a photo of him and prop it up on the coffee table at the perfect angle to see. Neil keeps wondering if he's going to get the pre-wedding jitters and does end up pacing around the living room early in the morning, but it's less cold feet and more impatience. (Turns out it's kind of hard to get cold feet when your almost-husband is sitting drowsily on the couch to keep you company and he keeps almost nodding off and you keep remembering all the ways in which you love him.) Ginny barges in at noon with hairspray and a sewing kit and insists on making bouquets with shitty grocery store flowers for both of them and Todd's suit ends up with a hastily added elbow patch and Neil's tie doesn't match his pocket square, because one's from Cameron and the other's from Knox. (Something borrowed, something blue...) It's perfect. In the end they go out on the balcony and Charlie's wearing this really tacky priest outfit, just really shitty fabric so that he's probably sweating bullets, and the collar's come untucked, and at the last moment Chris shrieks, "You forgot your bouquets!" and throws one with such good aim it hits Todd in the face. But they get through the vows and both of them only cry a little, because Cameron cries enough for all of them combined, and then that's it - over - and married. And as Charlie beams and says they can kiss there's a well-timed shower of rice from the balcony above, and congratulations, from some upstairs neighbours and well-wishers. Pitts catches the kiss on his expensive video camera and he also catches the cheering, which is so loud that, four blocks away, a lone man packing up his street food van pauses in closing boxes and thinks that there must be a party going on. He's right. And at the end of the night when the last loved one leaves and shuts the door gently behind them to not disturb the newlyweds lying together on the couch, silent with happiness, it's still perfect. At that moment it doesn't matter that there is no piece of paper, or no registry office, or that if Todd has an accident Neil might not be able to visit him in the hospital room. There will be tears for those things, but they come later. For now they're married. The beautiful thing never changes.

writing kepcobi fanfic the way i see them is so fucking hilarious to me because i usually write from jacobi's perspective. and to literally any other person kepler is either reprehensible, annoying, barely tolerable, or just straight up goofy silly. but to my fucked up jacobi with all his misplaced loyalty and his complexes, he's like a mythical being. a terrible ruler on a twisted bloody pedestal at which jacobi worships like a dog. and it's so goddamn funny

A text I sent my friend as I spiraled (haha jk) over vampolitics regarding vague plotlines about a multi-chapter suckening fic that diverges after episode 4 and explores an au in which Edward's plotline doesn't play out quite like it did and there's other plays for power alongside his own and what if some key events still happened but, like, a little to the left and within the context of this slightly altered version (an au if you will) and what if the twins and Gref went with Arthur to London and found more and what about that guy Uncle Lazarus huh something up with him and what if the twins leaned more into their royal status and did something with it (or tried to in a more concerted effort) and Mary Davis will be there (mirror Mary sorry this is after ep 4) and obviously Vex & Viv and what if there's a touch more domesticity cuz I'm a fool for that and what if Gref realizes he's been manipulated and they have to confront this and it's messy and awful and necessary and there's layers guys layers and what if I just speculate and make up lore for the stuff that will probably be answered in season 2 anyway hm and what if and what if—

I’m right where you left me

Aaron should have expected this. He should’ve known that this is going to happen. Every single good thing that he has never last. He will never be good enough. Katelyn broke up with him because “being with Aaron is too much.” And Aaron understands, his psychotic brother and derange boyfriend, his trauma and the stupid fucking foxes. Of course it will all be too much. He doesn’t blame Katelyn.

So why is he completely shattered when Kevin left him for Andrew and Neil?

Kevin and he are nothing, just two guys fucking because they have nothing better to do. So it is Aaron’s fault for falling. And how can he not? When Kevin is the one to take care of him and make sure he is okay after they fucked every time. When they go out and have dinners and watch movies and take late night walks at the beach. When Kevin helps Aaron to study for his finals, making him food and reminding him to drink water.

Aaron has no one. The broken deal he had with Andrew left him with no friends. He had Katelyn, but now, he only has the fucking foxes. So of course it will be Kevin.

Aaron is not delusional, they explicitly say that they are only friends with benefits. Kevin tells Aaron many times how much he looks like Andrew. Kevin whispers to Aaron that he likes Andrew but Andrew is with Neil and Kevin cannot decide if he likes Andrew or Neil more. Aaron knows all of these. Kevin can never hide it well when he is staring at Andrew and Neil.

Aaron notices Andrew noticing. Aaron just did not expect Andrew to talk to him about it.

“What is going on between you and Kevin?” Andrew asks Aaron one day, when they are somehow alone in Andrew’s room.

“Nothing,”

“Don’t lie to me.” Aaron does not answer. But andrew will not budge and there is no one more stubborn than Andrew maybe except Neil.

“We are just friends with benefits.” Aaron snaps.

“Kevin likes Neil and I.” Andrew casually says, taking a cigarette and lighting it.

“I know,”

“Neil and I don’t mind,” Aaron’s entire world collapses right there and then.

“Okay, I don’t care.” Whatever pieces of Aaron’s heart that are left have burnt up to ashes.

Andrew looks at him, but Aaron has been in therapy with Andrew long enough that Aaron knows how to hide something from him.

Without another word, Andrew left Aaron, taking the ashes with him.

Aaron stands there stupidly. He feels like crying. He does not want to cry. He cannot cry. His chest is burning and his eyes are watering and he cannot breathe and he needs to get out of Andrew’s room before anyone comes back and go back to his room and lock it and-

The door opens, Kevin comes in and one look at Aaron’s blank face he envelops him in his arms.

“What’s wrong?”

Aaron cannot talk, his throat is so tight that if he speaks then all that will come out of it are screams.

Aaron wants to pull away, before the remaining pieces of his soul are ruined. But he is selfish and desperate and a masochist. So he allows himself to stay in Kevin’s embrace. He hugs him back tightly.

“What’s wrong?” Kevin asks again, sounding very concerned.

“Just terrified of my finals,” Aaron mumbles into Kevin’s hoodie.

“You will ace it,” Kevin says, “I’ll help you.”

No you won’t. You will be with Andrew and Neil.

“Okay,” Aaron says.

Then Kevin kisses him. And one thing leads to another and they end up in Kevin’s bed.

Aaron wakes up to an empty bed. He should get used to it. But he already misses waking up in Kevin’s arms. Aaron cannot help but lingers in Kevin’s bed before getting out.

Aaron tries to go on as usual. He goes to classes, he goes to practices, he studies. He tries to ignore Kevin. Kevin is confused at first, seems even a bit hurt. But then he spends all his time with Andrew and Neil. And Aaron knows that Andrew and Neil told him.

So there is nothing left for Aaron. Once again Aaron is being left.

The ai discourse in fanfic writing only exists because people view fics as products for consumption and not works of art.

The same curse that plagues visual artists, youtubers, musicians, etc etc is starting to creep into fandom circles, because people don't appreciate the art form that is writing as much as they gobble almost mindlessly work after work without absorbing. It's almost like the high of binging a series and being left numb after is done, realizing you didn't savoured the story as much as just simply rushed to the end.

Fic writers will never work as fast as some stupid ai does. It's a labor of love that will, for the great majority, earn us no money or notoriety. The minimum any writer wants is connection and respect.

the way i have thought about trafalgar law such an ungodly amount that like. the brain worms have come up with headcanons and i am becoming so delusional im like no it's canon dont you know. like. ofc law doesnt kill people look he's being haunted by the memory of all the people he killed as a child in his anger he literally named his sword after them. and i wont even pause to explain how tf i came to all these conclusions but i promise you they make so much sense to me.

me, delirious: the heart pirates did so much PR to not let it slip that law is a big softie he literally is a doctor look listen to me he reclaimed his parent's legacy and has a sword that doesnt cut and an ability that cant kill and you mean to tell me th-

i'm not really one to post snippets but... you know, since i'm unlikely to publish any of this anyway... i was going back through my fics and i am thoroughly charmed by how much i forgot i wrote. in about two minutes i'm going to forget i'm a fine writer and i enjoy my work again but for now i'm riding the high... such is life

:-P

Looking for anything not grian-centric on ao3

1) good taste in music 2) super sweet 3) very fun to talk to 4) easy to switch from joking to talking seriously about the State of writing fanfic on tumblr these days 5) always has an aesthetically pleasing blog theme 6) is SLAYING college 7) loves atsumu (better twin) 8) incredible writer 9) lovely presence!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thx for coming to my ted talk this has been my 9 favorite things about elise

Lia I'm going to hug u to death if u don't stop this I'm so serious

Had a fantastic fic-writing experience when my brother visited

i'm bad at watching shows but i'm interested in their characters/plots so i've decided to try and guess canon based off of reading a bunch of fanfics. so far i don't think i'm very close because it's something my sister has watched and the characters i keep reading about are like. the sidest of all side characters. but i will find canon somewhere

'he would not fucking say that' meme but its derufin and duilin