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dollarbin · 23 days

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Sandy Saturday's #13:

Pass of Arms

I'll bet there are already far more words written about T. Swift's new record than in all of the Mahabharata (that's the Hindu holy book that contains the Bhagavad Gita; it's around 13,000 pages long).

The opposite can be said for Pass of Arms, a 1971 half hour film that contains two stand alone Sandy Denny songs. The film does not have a Wikipedia page and is not available in any form anywhere as near as I can tell: it exists but you literally cannot watch it.

Having a Wikipedia page is a pretty low bar. Without knowing, I bet there are extensive ones dedicated to Chewbacca's family tree and Joe Biden's dog. I'm right on both counts of course: I just looked.

But google to your hearts content: the internet confirms that the short film existed, that it claimed to be "award winning", and that a guy who worked marginally on the 80's buddy flick Spies Like Us, in which I seem to remember that Dan Aykroyd and Chevy Chase save the world from nuclear destruction while failing to make us laugh, directed it; and that's it.

Happily, we can still hear the songs at least, something I've never done with any real focus until this moment. Let's start with Here in Silence.

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Okay, I'm digging it so far. I picture a knight in his pensive non-warrior boy clothes looking longingly at his maiden, fall grass billowing between them in slow motion; but then that scene gives way to that same knight, now in full armor, gearing up for gnarly battle and then we realize this is actually a film about the Children's Crusade, or maybe it's all a chunky metaphor and it's actually about angsty and hirsute teens in jolly old 70's England: they're looking to stick to the man, or bloke I guess - this is England - and, well, maybe there's a reason no one other than me is angry they can't watch this film anymore because this song, which Denny clearly did not write, kinda sucks. Sandy sounds glorious, as always, but I'd rather hear her sing The Wheels On The Bus.

Have some faith though, people. We've got the marginally more famous Man of Iron track left to consider. I've definitely heard this one before, but I can remember nothing about it other than the fact that it's really long and moody with strings. Here goes!

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Yeah, those are strings alright. Today the students at my tiny high school were all bent out of shape - it's Spring and everyone's either breaking up, thinking about it or striving to create similar drama in their life asap, so I led a full school game of musical chairs on the basketball court and declared in advance that I would win at all costs. I did not win but I shoved a bunch of giant teen boys aside in the effort and everyone laughed at their weird teacher and got into it.

We're a pretty cool school so one of our tenth graders, who's already a semi-professional cellist, played whatever came into his head for each round, which sure beat dancing around the chairs while T. sang 65 new songs about her loser boyfriends or whatever. My student's cello sounded, some of the time, a bit like the vibe that starts the track, only better. Then for the next round he'd play Mozart at triple speed.

But now there's a whole mess of fifes involved and this thing is starting to sound silly. Bring in Sandy Denny soon, please.

Oh thank the sensitive medieval Jesus who probably repeatedly appears to the lead character in this film swathed in psychedelic splendor: here's Sandy, and she's brought a whole pack of Cinderella's helpful birds with her to twitter about, somewhat helpfully.

But these lyrics are unbearable. When I was in seventh grade I committed the cardinal sin of writing an earnest original poem about "the roller coaster of life" and then turned it in to my earnest, no clue teacher who of course then read it to the whole class while on the verge of tears - someone had finally attempted something, anything, of marginal note in his earnest but lousy class - which turned my pimply face red, then white, then putrescent purple with shame as the other 13 year olds around me murmured then moved on to mirth and then on to all out rage: never would I be forgiven for writing sensitive poetry in earnest. Jeff Stimpfig, the school's stock character bully, declared me both gay (it was 1989; "gay" equaled uncool and homophobia equaled cool; what a dumb world...) and soon to be dead through his potent fists. Anyway, my seventh grade poem was surely terrible. But it contained far fewer cliches than this claptrap.

Was this end you chose Sir Knight?

Was this why you were born so bright?

The wolves will chew your bones tonight...

Sandy clearly needed a sizeable offered payday to have ever uttered these words; Trevor Lucas, or perhaps Stephen Stills, surely talked her into the whole gig. The guitar is nice though... I wonder if Sandy plays it. Sounds like her...

But good grief, now we've got a stomach churning drum thing going on. I'm starting to think this whole film may have been a Stephen Stills vanity project: it probably centers on Stills's broriffic relationship with Joe Freakin' Lala; they're on a quest to no longer suck and it's going nowhere fast as their stuck in a room of lemons, all of them worth sucking, and buxom ladies who admire them for no discernible reason whatsoever; and then, at the end of the film / this terrible song, aliens in sunglasses descend and take Steve and Joe to their leader for an extraterrestrial blues jam complete with wolves and low production value fake wind. Clearly, they didn't have Neil Young's budget for fake wind: he's got a huge budget when it comes to producing fake wind.

I'm guessing that Sandy's estate is responsible for insuring this film can no longer be seen by anyone. Indeed, The Dollar Bin itself may soon be hacked so as to eliminated this entire post one conniving letter at a time in their nefarious quest to separate Denny from any observable connection to the film Pass of A....

#Youtube #sandy denny #sandy saturdays #stephen stills sucks #joe freakin' lala #I demand to see Pass of Arms

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shivunin · 10 months

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gently tosses you Fenris and Sebastian for the character meme

Carefully catches them both, but Fenris is kinda prickly and I fumble him a lil bit.

(Thank you for asking! c:)

(Character Ask thing)

Fenris

First impression: oh fuck did he just rip that dude's heart out through his back 😳(i am absolutely projecting this reaction onto Maria haha)

Impression now: I mean. there's no going back at this point lol. Dude altered my brain chemistry permanently. He is an asshole, he is deeply flawed, he is so hurt and angry and funny and so shockingly poetic. He is gorgeous and so unsure about anyone caring about him (platonically or romantically). He is loyal to a fault. He is still figuring out how to be his own person. He's the reason I got back into reading fic, and thus the reason I started writing fic and participating in the fandom at all. I don't even know what my opinion is anymore because that is how much I have thought about Fenris. I am rotating him in my mind at shocking speeds.

Favorite moment: It's a tie between the moment after he rips out Danarius's heart and turns to look at Hawke like 🥺-and- his final monologue. I also think his conversation w the mabari is really sweet. Or lol his "I was just glad. To see you. That's all." from the Legacy DLC

Idea for a story: *gestures to fic idea mountain* haha. But as for ones I have not written, my favorites are my "worst road trip with my future sister-in-law ever/fenris gets kidnapped" story (which i am writing very slowly rn) and one where there's some sort of double of Hawke and he has to determine which is the real her (I love this trope)

Unpopular opinion: Oh man. I have no idea. I guess that I enjoy the Bitter Pill -> Questioning Beliefs quest order version of the romance scene, but I also like the other one. There are painful pieces to both of them and that's what it's all about for me.

Favorite relationship: Fenris and Isabela. I love that they're constantly needling each other.

Favorite headcanon: The bodies in his foyer are practice dummies dressed in robes.

As funny as "Fenris lives in a literal mansion of corpses is," that level of squalor does, in fact, make you sick. Also...after six years, there are no signs of decomposition? With how many rats are sure to live in Kirkwall? I don't think so.

I like to imagine someone broke in at some point, saw the corpses on the floor, said "oh, no thank you, actually" and dipped, and Fenris went "Hmm. Now wait a moment, maybe I'm onto something."

So: that's my headcanon. The bodies are fake and he lets everyone think they're real/everyone jokes that they're real because it's a good bit. Now, does he leave his bedroom a hot hot mess always just because? Yes. But I think the bodies are fake.

Sebastian

*With the caveat that I have only started one pt with Sebastian because my console hates me (has to be plugged into an internet port directly to run the Exiled Prince DLC and there isn't one in the room with the TV) and most of my initial information was based on the fandom:

First impression: Ah, he must be the designated Religious Character for this game as a counterpoint to the dude who hates the Chantry. Got it.

Impression now: I am shaking him in a jar. He is such a wild study in contrasts?? When you do the quest in the Hahriman's mansion and one of the dudes is getting with the maid and Sebastian apologizes to Hawke for exposing them to it---I said "Excuse me, sir???" out loud. Like what? In a ~dark fantasy~ game, this guy is apologizing for you seeing some slap and tickle?

I think he wants so badly to believe that the world is black and white so he can do the right thing, and when confronted with all its variegations instead he creates exceptions. Lots of other characters do this, too (see: Fenris and Hawke/Bethany being "good" mages because they are stronger than the others and thus not tempted by demons/blood magic) but I think Sebastian particularly plays in the grey spaces in an interesting way.

Also, I think the running theme of him wanting vengeance/wanting to not want vengeance is fascinating in the light of that final scene at the Chantry. He's talked about trying to forgive before, but when it comes down to it he wants to kill Anders or march on Kirkwall if you won't let him. That is fascinating to me. I do really want to finish this playthrough with him so I can see the rest of it play out, but...we will get there.

Also, I think it's a bummer that he frequently gets left out of companion round-ups and lists. I get that he comes from a DLC, but love him or hate him he's a really interesting character in 2.

Favorite moment: I don't have a favorite, but anytime he's talking tbh. He has a really lovely voice

Idea for a story: I have a half-written thing about Sebastian and the role that faith plays in Hawke recovering from Leandra's death. A lot of it is coming to terms with the fact that Hawke doesn't really believe in Chantry doctrine...but it does genuinely help her to know that someone who shared Leandra's faith is praying for her in the way she would have wanted. He also does the service for Leandra even though Elthina offered (it was like. the only thing Hawke asked for: Sebastian has to do the service).

(A lot of this is inspired by the fact that he is one of the few companions who has lost his parents---not "never knew them" or "hated them and now they're gone" but actually lost them, complicated as their relationship was. And I think it's something that would help her in that moment)

Unpopular opinion: I liked bringing him on Anders' act 2 quest. Not only because of my own internal narrative (Maria asks Sebastian to kill her if it seems like the templars will take her because she is terrified of being made Tranquil and because she knows he'll do it if she can make him promise; all of which I find delightfully angsty) but because I think the conflict between Anders and Sebastian is exceptionally interesting if you've taken them on this quest together.

Favorite relationship: Sebastian and Fenris. I think they each challenge each other's ideas about the world and I like the way Sebastian treats Fenris. It feels nonjudgmental to me.

Favorite headcanon: Sebastian wanders Lowtown trying to help people in his off time. I refuse to believe that he actually hangs out in the Chantry all the time, and it seems like something he would find noble. I like to believe he spends time with the refugees after befriending Hawke, trying to connect them with the resources they need to find stability.

#Thank you for asking!!#i have more sebastian thoughts than i realized sdakjnf #sebastian fascinates me i was not joking about shaking him in a jar #ask response #ask game response #but here's what happened re: fenris #started reading ship fic with him because the game wasn't satisfying enough -> found damn good fic ->#romanced cullen in inquisition -> could not find fic i wanted to read -> guess i'll have to write it myself #(but haha i will never write fic for fenris that would be silly; look at all the good stuff that already exists! what more could *i* say?)#-> so much fic. so much. -> okay maybe i will just write a little bit of 2 fic -> now (gestures to fic pile)#anyways. i love him and i can't romance anyone else in 2 no matter how hard i try

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worthlessnepenthes · 1 year

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This is not gonna be a Jiang Cheng bashing post, imo, but it will be a JC critical one.

I’ve read the novel, but not watched any of the shows. So if I say something that doesn’t line up with the shows, but does with the novel, that’s why. That’s where I am pulling from.

So anyway, I like Jiang Cheng. Fanon Jiang Cheng, where he’s a tsundere angry grape.

Canon Jiang Cheng is someone that constantly yells and screams, threatens violence, IS violent, is a serial torturer/killer, and is just. Not a pleasant person to be around. Pretty sure he is kind of a shitty sect leader too, I seem to recall an innkeeper talking about how he never goes on night hunts unless someone dies? Ugh.

I honestly do not see how you can have a yunmeng bros reconciliation with canon Jiang Cheng. I don’t LIKE to have a reconciliation with canon JC, to me it lessens WWX’s character to have him make friends again with someone who WHIPPED AND TORTURED people for thirteen years. Maybe if you go for a canon divergence early, at the cloud recesses or maybe even the Xuanwu. Once he strangled WWX for, you know, having the absolute GALL to be alive when his parents were dead though? That’s pretty much the end for me, I can’t stand the guy after that, unless that’s what shocks him into realizing that he is in fact a terrible person and needs to act better.

Oh but he has trauma and his sect was just destroyed and his parents died! And? LXC had that happen and he didn’t strangle Wangji. Vice versa. They are brothers.

Not to mention him constantly threatening Jin Ling. Hated that the whole time too. Hecking awful. Canon JC is a terrible man.

Fanon JC is awesome and some people write him great and I can really enjoy stories where he is tsundere and not actually hateful. Where he realized his family is kinda toxic and treats WWX better.

Just…I hate post canon fics that take canon JC and then try to patch the relationship up and WWX and JC turn into friendly loving brothers. It just doesn’t work for me.

Okay I’m done. I don’t feel like arguing with internet strangers but I know that Jiang Cheng is a controversial topic sometimes so if you wanna go off, that’s fine. But like…maybe provide evidence other than ~he had trauma~ because so did literally everyone and the only other person to kill a sibling was Jin Guangyao.

#mdzs fandom #jiang cheng #this isn’t bashing but it isn’t friendly #just fucking bullshit #mdzs

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merlions · 9 months

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I genuinely need to make a side blog for fan related things to keep this space decluttered cause I have done that w separate ones per fan thing in the past but abandoned them all to the annals of time. But my brain is totally detonated today from Symptoms Disorder and Problems Disease and I just chugged good omens season 2 and then a huge amount of Internet and Opinions relating to it so I'm read more ing a whole bunch of thoughts I cannot get out of my befogged brain. About the Situations

No but I mean like I Just Think.

Crowley's "I can't ever be forgiven" in s1 and aziraphale thinking his bitterness is because he actually does want to be forgiven.

And then aziraphale in s2, trying to tell him, "[I love you! I love you too! I want you to come with me, and be happy again. And since the power has literally just been given to me to do so, officially,] I forgive you. [You are forgiven, you don't have to be an outcast anymore! Don't you want this gift I'm trying to give you?]" [And maybe - "But we can't have a physical relationship in heaven, why are you trying to change our relationship after all this time and ruin this salvation we've been offered?"]

Also it has been driving me kinda crazy but -

I think it was so easy for Gabriel to be fine with being with beelzebub and cast down to hell cause like Crowley says, the sides are both trying to do the same thing. Like whether it's the demons killing people or the angels letting them, or war that sterilizes the earth from both sides, they don't care about people, they literally only care about the rules. So Gabriel being in hell means almost nothing to him; same shit, different master. No risk.

Aziraphale and Crowley don't feel safe getting caught cause if they do what they believe in, BOTH sides will be angry at them, theres no way to keep being good to people if they're caught. They're on the side of PEOPLE. And it sucks that Az is so convinced heaven is better, but also it's true that if he fell, he would have to listen to new rules he didn't know how to safely break yet; he would be kept under a close eye and forced to do things he didn't believe in or risk being erased from existence; and *there's a nonzero chance they'd take his memories too and he wouldn't even know Crowley or remember their 6000 year past.*

Crowley, as many have said, is not totally right either. They also can't leave everything behind like gabriel and beelzebub, cause ultimately crowley and aziraphale will never be happy just letting the powers that be torch the earth. The rest of the universe's destruction comes next, anyways, per the s2 opening; they won't even stay safe for long if they run, more than likely!

And in Az's defense, both of them going to hell as kinda underlings, if Az's cast from grace, is a very different situation than HIM being allowed DIRECTLY to appoint Crowley as an angel, be in control enough to know no one can wipe his memories during the process, and be given (what he thinks is) SO much control over what heaven does; to try to fix it from the inside cause there's literally nothing else he can see that will ACTUALLY let them live, together and free.

He just doesn't understand at first that becoming an angel is not an option for Crowley; that becoming an angel again, even as a simple strategy for safety, would fundamentally and irrevocably change who he is as a person, to the very core.

I don't think aziraphale is actually making any decision to reject crowley's confession, even with the "I forgive you". He's just overwhelmed with so much, so fast, that his reaction and processing time slows to an absolute crawl. I think he literally doesn't even really get what Crowley is saying, and isn't able to fully communicate what he means - that "I forgive you" to him means "we're saying the same thing, that we want to stay together and I, on behalf of heaven, officially forgive you, so you can stay with me."

I think he's scrambling, just crazy scrambling, trying to figure all of this out, through the elevator ride - the soft grin, then not, then frowning, back to soft grin, and repeat on loop - is him processing the fuckin rollercoaster of emotional turbulence, from utter relief of being given what he thinks is FINALLY a way for him and Crowley to live and be safe, and the utterly terrible breakup and rejection of his plan for them to be safe, and the utterly incredible revelation of crowley's feelings (and maybe his own?).

Like there are two most likely options for what that final, jubilant smile means, in my personal onion.

1. He drank the [coffee] Kool aid. He is baffled and hurt that Crowley abandoned him in this moment of triumph but it's just a symptom of Crowley poisoning him against heaven all these years with temptations and he is clear and finally realized his purpose: he will be the fuckin major general overlord over the armies of heaven, leading them to final victory against evil. Crowley will probs have to Fix him during s3 again, possibly to stop him from ending the world. yikes boy

Or, imo more likely,

2. He finally processed everything that happened, including that Crowley was confessing love, the kiss, all the shit that went down. And he's finally clear and realized his purpose: gonna tear that shit ALL the way apart. Crowley can be mad for a while, but he can trust Crowley to still be around when he comes back and to forgive him. But Az's gonna have to play the long con to make this work. And he'll have to do it solo, but by the end there won't be any power in the universe that can keep the two of them from spending eternity together, safe, humans safe again.

(A joking 3. He's like "oh ok wait. Theres no way Jesus won't be like hells of down to get me back with Crowley and defend us against this bs. That gay ass? That human lover? Please. Metatron doesn't know WHATS about to hit him")

And the last thought I wanna add here is the book shop thing, right at the end.

Aziraphale's "nothing lasts forever" means, in that moment, "I would rather lose the book shop than lose you."

He then realizes Crowley isn't coming with him, so to try to delay all this shit happening with Metatron, give himself more time to process, he uses it to try to stay with crowley without attracting too much attention: "but what about my book shop?"

I can't see any other real reason for that flip-flop, especially when the book shop is SUCH a recurring thing. Like not to be up star treks assed hole forever and always but I keep thinking of things that parallel the whole az/Crowley situation and especially I wanna reference here Jimothy "In this universe i love literally nothing more than the USS star ship enterprise" Kirk. Blowing up the USS star ship enterprise to be back with Spock. "His soul is my responsibility. [...] As surely as if it were my very own."

Feels to me exactly like the book shop for aziraphale. In both cases: "I would never ever do anything ever to lose this Home of mine, the representation of everything important to me in this universe. Unless it means losing you."

Anywayssss

#good omens #good omens s2 spoilers #chronic illness flares once again serving my one track mind agenda to infinitely spew words and Opine

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zolwbozydar · 2 years

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so since @bitchthemed tagged me on her post i guess im coming back from my hiatus for a sec to list my six albums ive been listening to a lot lately. ive allowed myself to only list one album from each performer as to not embarrass myself too gravely. hdsbhds. still embarrassing myself here because i dont have that much of a diverse or interesting taste

1. Because the Internet by Childish Gambino

(sorry that the gif is so small compared to the other album covers btw. i just wanted it to be a gif and this one is of a satisfying quality) literally listened to it when i saw the email notif. what a great album istg. its really interesting musically, it has a particular plotline (that i sadly havent payed that much attention to that but im planning on focusing more on that in the meantime) and a lot of lore behind it and im so excited to dig into it. its really interesting considering Glover's acting / directing history (actually, interestingly enough, i started getting more interested in him as a musician only after watching Community, where he played). one of my friends got that cd as a birthday gift and since then i kinda went back to listen to this album more. its really, really interesting, both musically and lyrically. one of my favourite albums in general (although that will be a trend here. i keep on relistening to my fav albums these days)

2. Folié a deux by Fall Out Boy

i wore my folie a deux tshirt two days ago so i really really had to listen to it. it was my fav fob album back in middle school and man it still holds. makes me feel very. free and maybe angry but in that joyous way. more. energetic rather than angry i guess. it both reminds me of a particular time in my life and just sounds amazing. ive read a tumblr post abt it so im not gonna ask the question of why was it badly received back in its time but yeah i cant help but disagree with past fob fans. its. probably still my fav album of their? although its hard to decide. infinity on high and from under the cork tree are both similarly close to me (with a slight leaning to infinitys direction) and both could probably be on this list as well if not for my selecting choices

3. I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love by My Chemical Romance

sigh. is anyone surprised that mcr is here. i liked them for some time now (started during the first pandemic i think?) but since foundations of decay got released and they toured and their concert in my country was getting closer i started REALLY getting into them. like downright obssessing. bullets was the hardest to like as a newbie but over time it really really grew on me and ive come to appreciate it a lot. things that felt a bit too rough to me before have uncovered their beauty before me and the roughness feels appropriate considering the subject matter. it also has a couple of songs that feel really appropriate considering the teenage angst im going through these days. sidenote: other mcr albums that couldve been here are three cheers for sweet revenge and the black parade. man. beloved

4. Razzmatazz by I DONT KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME

what a truly original sound. idkhow captured me by the. weirdness? the quirkiness of its topic, and as i was joyously singing along to songs about murderviolence and whatnot i was subtly dosed with an unimaginable amount of softness hiding beneath. truly a heartwrenching experience. its still a joyous listen and 80s (? im guessing. im not a musical genius, sadly.) vibes are. yesss

5. A Fever You Can't Sweat Out by Panic! At The Disco

yes i know panic just below idkhow is a pretty ironic choice. but we're not talking abt brendons endeavors here. that album is so beloved to me. i really like the. uhh. victorian aesthetic of it? sorry i have little to no idea what im talking about. i do like the aura it builds, a vibe. lyrically its a feast, i wish i could wield words like Ryan does. i used to hold a feeling of guilt related to this album (and mcrs three cheers for sweet revenge) because it reminded me of a person i hurt. i dont really feel that way anymore and i only feel excitement when i listen to it now. what an album!!!

6. Born To Die (The Paradise Edition) by Lana del Rey

so this one is a bit of a reach because i havent been listening to it that much that recently but i kinda mostly. listen to my biggest playlist on loop and also i didnt want it to just have fall out boy and my chemical romances discography in random order. anyways, i have a soft spot for this album. it reminds me of my childhood (oof thats a sentence) not because i relate to the experiences that much but rather because i listened to it a lot when i was like. twelve? thirteen? before you call social services, english isnt my first language and i didnt really. get that deep below the surface. i was just. noises nice d-_-b. anyways. yes yes i know problematic romanticising whatever. i like its main character okay? sometimes you just listen to a girl that is Unwell and you nod and say "so true bestie" despite not relating at all. say whatever you want about lana but this album is a vibe and it stays dedicated to it

uhhhhh i am now realising how long my post is compared to juleses. sowwwyyyyyyyy

im supposed to tag people but honestly i wouldve tagged only my dear mutual ania @dictatorgoddess69 and since prev post did that already its kinda. pointless (still tagging because idk. hope you dont kill me ania)

#please tell me its not too personal. i cant help but be talkative. im in a Place right now #this post is me coming out as having a basic music taste. apologies to anyone who wouldve thought otherwise #but if you thought otherwise you either dont know me well or are really blind and deaf socially. sorry

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agentofagony · 2 years

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The fact that they try to pass S*lki off as "self love" and that "it makes sense because he's a narcissist" honestly disgusts me. Loki's NOT a narcissist lmao we see so clearly all that self hatred and sense of unbelonging getting buried under an over-the-top stage persona. Self love and acceptance is such a huge part of not just Loki's journey in the comics but in the mythological/historical figure as well-an outcast among the gods not just for having a giant for a father but for "flaunting" their fluid identity and refusing to adhere to societal norms. Nothing is more tender to me than Loki gently kissing their alternate self on the forehead and reassuring them that everything will be all right and that they are loved. Sickens me that the MCU has taken all of that away.

Gonna start this by saying I don't mean to turn this ask into a vent but It just came out like that.

Honestly, I realised after a while of thinking that I'm not a therapist so I can't really talk about what mental illness does Loki has.

But what I know is being a narssist is not a bad thing. the show and people on the internet are treating narssissam as a bad thing and this is very harmful.Especially to people who has the disorder, they're humans too. Not all narssist are bad people and it's sad people keeps trying to single them out as such.

The message of the show is kinda terrifying. Especially to people like me who's questioning why they act the way they do. I'm now considering whether I am one or not and I'm too scared to go check therapy because of the termeant everyone and the show has to this personality disorder.

Loki didn't learn self love in the show. The one who learned self love is sylvie, she's the one who got the pep talk and she's the one getting someone by her side willing to forgive her for her mistakes because they understand how she feels.Someone Loki never had in his life, someone who won't beat the shit out of her every time he finds out she's not dead someone won't try to disregard her feelings for someone else, someone who's cable of giving praises to her giving her all the emotional support he has. What Loki learned is his feelings doesn't matter. Hopefully season two would fix this by having sylvie knowledge her treatment of Loki is bad or apologizing to him.

I personally don't even understand where does narssissam even take place in the story. It's literally not even a plot point. The whole story is that Loki got told his life was a lie AGAIN.Instead of getting angry this time he gave up on everything because really what is he supposed to do? Then he found sylvie as his new will to live and spent the entire time simping for her minewhile she looked very uncomfortable :/.

People are like "but she cares about him!" bitch and? Good she cares for him now can she physically show she does? Maybe a hug? Maybe praise Loki? Maybe try not being mean? I literally can't ship this if there is no equality between the couple. The man shouldn't be the only one doing the heavy lifting in the relationship .They don't sound or feel like a happy cute couple to me.

I'm willing to give the ship a chance if in the next season sylvie is gonna be actually good to Loki but for now I hate it.

#loki #loki 2021 #Loki series #Anti-sylki #loki rant

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leewonkyeom · 6 months

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Naurrr i literally shed my blood sweat and tears trying to come up with a username 😭 like all the usernames I typed in were taken somehow (even the most down bad ones like Jaehyunleftbuttcheek)

YOU'RE SO RIGHT Chan is being a real threat nowadays 😭😭 he is a good brother figure but like...he been looking a bit TOO fine recently... especially that one back it up performance pic of his (you definitely know what I'm talking about I'll still put that pic in tho)

This was my last straw.

Pls not shua bias wrecking both of us like damn dude don't do this to me T^T vernon and hoshi are fighting for their spots in my svt bias unit 😭 (or they just have to make more space)

I love how we both had vernon in mind when Spiderman au was mentioned lol he fits in a bit too perfectly <33

with the Jeonghan one I was saying that if anyone decided to make a Spiderman au with him he would be Mary Jane or Gwen Stacy and the reader would be in the place of Peter Parker! (It's biblically accurate cause I'm the one down bad and desperate for hannie) If Vernon is Spidey then ofc reader would be his mj/Gwen

Ooh a Avengers au sounds interesting!! It could either be a serious fic or a crack smau I kinda had a similar idea for a while now but instead of Avengers it's teen titans! i would eat the Avengers au up if you ever decided to write it anyways which Avengers would be who? I'm assuming cheol would be iron man and Woozi would be Cap??

Oh Scandinavia! I have heard those things don't phase ya'll much but i didn't know ya'll were chill like that! The culture I'm from is more sort of reserved?? Things like that are very taboo so in a million years i would NEVER watch any media with adult scenes with my family T^T

I was able to sit through sex education (on my own ofc) it's actually a pretty good series but i haven't watched the recent episodes yet

Ida is still a very cute nickname I love it!! I was gonna go by my government name too but it's kinda weird to pronounce and just doesn't suit as much as Jolene does 😭

WAIT YOU'RE A JOJO FAN?? omgomg what are your favourite parts and characters⁉️

lmao i love that😭😭 i love those jaehyunsleftbuttcheek names on some level, but the name you have now is sm cuter!! i think it turned out well

NO CAUSE ALL I'M ABLE TO SEE IS THAT DINO PIC I AM NOT WELL😭😭 dino literally shows up in all my pulls😭 like i have two carat versions of this guy😭 AND HE ALWAYS LOOKS SO FINE

i agree. personally my bias line is ot13😌😌 always room for everyone

vernon is absolutely perfect😭 so perfect that i didn't even really think about reader being a spider creature instead of him😭😭 but that actually sounds like a good idea... i'll think about it. also seems easier to execute than a whole avengers type thing😭

i agree that cheol would be iron man, but cao is 100% shua😭 like he's captain AMERICA. i imagine woozi more like hulk😭 ig wonwoo or mingyu would fit too, but they don't get angry often enough tbh. so mingyu's more of a thor maybe?

like i watched the entire game of thrones series with my mom😭 like it's awkward still, but definitely nothing more than that. like i am shocked the way some people on the internet treat sex, bc in my culture it's seen as such a normal thing🥴 i'm also not caught up on sec education lmao

thank you!! no, but that'd definitely fair. besides i love the name jolene so i get it 100%

i feel like almost everyone who likes kpop also likes anime? but yes!! my fave part is part 4 (i've only watched until part 5 though whoops, but i know who jolyne is dw) and fave character is josuke. what about you?

#ask ida #⭐️mutuals #🐱jolene

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Hellsite Nostalgia Tour 2023 Day 192

Heaven Can’t Wait/The Bells of Saint John

“Heaven Can’t Wait”

Plot Description: Dean and Castiel investigate a series of spontaneous human combustions, while Crowley helps Sam and Kevin translate an ancient tablet

Would I Survive the First Five Minutes??: idk what that dude’s whole thing is, but…I don’t think I could stop him if he wanted to explode me

Cas studying and imitating human behavior is adorable. You are CORRECT, miss manager lady, he IS special!! 💖

GWORL. I know you got a crush but holy shit. Wait…no. She…might not? The kiss was confusing but I think she actually wants Cas to babysit for a date she’s going on

Why are the splattered remains Barbie pink??

GWORL (Dean), you didn’t just wanna bail on research. You wanted to see your boyfriend

Well, damn, if an angel came and exploded me any time I exaggeratedly said I wanna die?? Yikes.

I’m sorry. Dean. You don’t get to be like this about Cas’s situation when you kicked him out of the bunker…

I can’t believe Sam is actively manipulating Crowley….yeah.

Dean, you get NO SAY in what Castiel is going through unless you take him back to the bunker. He is doing his best with what little people skills he has. He is content right now

Yeah. He’s being called in to babysit

He has responsibilities, DEAN. Like cleaning the restroom

Can you spit out why it’s so bad BEFORE what would be a commercial break? No? Cool.

Omg…Dean telling Cas how to dress for this (not-a-)date

It’s gonna hurt to watch Cas get shut down……..at least Dean won’t be there to watch exactly…

Don’t worry, Cas, it WAS a confusing proposition. I get she was excited for her date, but she shouldn’t have kissed you.

It’s sick and twisted that Crowley wants to use Kevin’s blood to call Abaddon. He should not have to go through this…

Castiel is adorably bad with this baby. He’s TRYING but like………oh. No. He’s not bad with her, she really likes him. I…this is so cute. He can weirdly relate so much to being new to being a human.

No no nonononoooooo. The angel who’s been exploding people found Cas by the amount of emotional pain he’s in

Omg Abaddon is so hot

Literally could not care less if everything she does gets labeled wrong by the story. Don’t care that Crowley gets mad that she’s invalidating his contracts and that she’s screwing up hell. She can do whatever she wants

Bets on whether Metatron’s spell being permanent:

1) actually IS permanent, and

2) is a thing Dean tells Cas RIGHT NOW instead of keeping it a secret?

Do you have a crush on him NOW, miss manager lady???

Yeah. Kinda knew Dean wasn’t gonna be the MOST upfront

Hmmm…I’m betting this isn’t a “I want to FEEL human again” blood injection. It’s probably a “if I’m human again I can escape this bunker” one

“The Bells of Saint John”

Plot Description: The Doctor’s search for Clara Oswald brings him to modern day London

(There’s a lot to hate about the Big Bang Theory but I will never fault the show for pointing out that, though the Doctor has access to all of space and time, he sure does like modern day London (or sometimes Wales) a whole lot)

Oh yOuR sOuL’s BeEn UpLoAdEd To ThE iNtErNeT?? Kay…what else is new?? And why are you clicking on weird wifi networks? Did no one teach you anything?? And like…SO MANY people did that

This episode is making me so angry…just as someone who spent most of their day with our IT department trying to get them to take me seriously about my persistent internet issues. Yes, the internet SHOULD JUST BE THERE. I wish I knew why it isn’t but I am also not an IT specialist. (I could spend the next hour ranting about how I cried on the phone because I couldn’t get them to do anything beyond basic troubleshooting and then the second it was back for even a moment they were like ‘well, now I can’t escalate it because it’s back. If it happens again, call back’ even though that WAS a call back because I’d had the same issue the night before…..but I do need to actually watch this episode)

Ah, damn, Clara, you clicked the wrong WiFi……

Ugh…they’re doing it again. They’re too much alike. Not to rush Matt’s time but I need it to be Peter Capaldi now.

These people remind me too much of Naomi and her reign over heaven in spn

Bestie, RUN.

Maybe if the Doctor had gotten a tonsure, he’d think monks are cool

I do like the little flair the bottom of the Doctor’s jacket has now. It’s a twirly jacket

Ohhhhhh there really isn’t anything like a freshly opened package of jammy dodgers though

This is framed in a way that’s supposed to be cute and because it’s the Doctor, WE know she’s actually safe but if a strange man broke into my home after something happened to me, carried me to my bed, laid out snacks, took all my messages for me (including interacting with people close to me), and then told me NOW I was safe…I would not think I was safe. Also, the music is rather romcom-y and that’s weird because he’s several hundred years older than her

“I can’t tell the future, I just work there” is a really good line though

Ok no. This is creepy af. People should not be hackable

Is…the great intelligence behind this?? The bad guy from the last episode?

Oh these people are going to regret taking the Doctor’s likeness to get to Clara

I miss when the Doctor was a little less of an action hero. He shouldn’t be allowed to ride a motorcycle up the side of a building

I was RIGHT?? The Great Intelligence was behind it?? HOW LONG WAS HE KEEPING THAT WOMAN HOSTAGE?? HOW LONG HAD SHE BEEN HACKED?? She sounded like a little kid when she came to

#hellsite nostalgia tour 2023

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Something I’ve been thinking lately about how wild it is that a lot of people seem to think that telling someone to kill themselves is a pretty normal thing to do on the internet. Maybe it’s just that I wasn’t really on the very early Wild West internet where there was zero regulation for what you could put online and people were also just discovering the joy of being an anonymous voice that could say anything without consequence, but it actually kinda shocks me when I see it. Like I’ll see an example of suicide bait someone sent a person and it make me think about the mental state I’d have to be in to do that. I literally cannot imagine wanting to tell someone to kill themselves, definitely I can imagine being angry at someone and maybe even wanting them to die in the moment. But deciding that you hate someone so much, likely over just one thing they said, that you take time to type out a sometimes lengthy message telling them to kill themselves, and after the time it takes to do that sending it to someone is just not something I think I could do.

It also sometimes makes me think about the kind of person that would send suicide bait, someone who’s distanced themselves from other people so much that they either forget that they really are just talking to other people or that they can’t even consider what a normal response/reasonable to someone saying some they don’t like is. It feels sad to me.

This is kinda just stream of consciousness so I don’t really have a point to all of this, maybe it’s just that the inherent depersonalization of the internet hit some people harder than me, which does suck pretty bad if it’s the case.

#sorry if this comes off as a bit holier-than-thou that wasn’t the intention #I just genuinely don’t understand the mindset of people to send suicide bait #if someone’s written an academic paper or something like that on this topic I’d be really interested to read it

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x-rds · 2 years

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[Lio] Tetsu is dealing with some shit because we had someone on a different blog of mine interact who had a big huge dni list and his source was on it. Which is like. I only casually interact with his source at all, and I kinda get it, but - he’s feeling a little fucked up about it?

[Tetsu] Yeah idk. I’m just upset because like, I guess I do see my source as “me” in a sense you know? And seeing people cast a moral judgment of me based on who I am but not technically who I am at all really sucks. I feel shitty and gross and it’s making me not like myself. Obviously I am not anything that my source has done (and tbh, like, I don’t think it’s a case of any real actual harmful shit, just content/jokes that people might find a little weird or contentious in a normie internet humor way, at least as far as I’m aware, I could be wrong) but I also still have that connection to, y’know, this is where I came from, this is who I am, and I’m already struggling with the whole factive shit where I can tell it’s a hella touchy subject for people.

And I get it y’know, people obviously should be allowed to make boundaries about literally whatever the fuck they want. But man it sucks feeling like people hate you without even knowing you. What do I even do about that, you know? Just change who I am entirely on a base level, even though I’m pretty sure that ain’t possible when I literally came into existence like a few months ago and this is all I have? I’m already doing shit all the time to hide myself? Because yeah, I DO know that there are some people who would treat me like shit, I do know those people would treat the other guys in here like shit, even if most people either wouldn’t care or would understand that I’m something separate but also still have that history with my source, I don’t want to have to expose myself or others to that. I already go out of my way to try and make the now-me someone different because it’s better for everyone involved if I do.

And that’s my choice by the way, I wasn’t harassed into it by anyone else and I wasn’t shamed for being who I am but I was informed about the situation and I was free to make the choice on how I wanted to adapt, and this was it. But it just sucks to think that yeah, even doing all this to make myself a unique person, I still feel hurt and I’m affected when people judge the place I came from.

Also part of it is, I think everyone in here has different thoughts on who we are and why we’re here, and in my opinion I’m here as a psychological phenomenon. I can pinpoint the exact situation I exist to help the overall brain cope with. I’m meant to be a positive force, a fun guy, I brought in my source’s positive experiences because that’s what was needed and I’m cool with that and it doesn’t mean I’m less of a person, but it does mean that I feel more shitty about feeling shitty because that’s not what I was supposed to be here for.

[Lio] I’m going to be honest, this is not a ‘you’ thing. This is a systemwide thing and if you look at our system on a meta-scale you’ll see a very common pattern of the brain needing something, introjecting someone who can perform that job, but then because they don’t exist in a vacuum they tend to get deeper selfhood - which is a good thing, I feel, but it leads to them ending up being affected by the brain’s issues and/or their own issues in a way that sort of ‘neutralizes’ their ability to do the job the brain summoned them for and then they often feel upset at this. And I don’t think they usually are genuinely failing their assigned job, they just aren’t hyperfocused on it anymore because they became more intricate people. Not to say your feelings on this are incorrect or aren’t significant, but rather to make the point that you aren’t alone in this and it’s an issue that comes up time and again for us. I mean shit dude, I was a big angry protector facet who only fronted to defend us for years before I got my own individual selfhood and a big pile of mental problems on top of it.

[Tetsu] Aight well. I guess that’s fair lol. Sucks though, and I wish it didn’t! Being a person is fucking difficult

#tetsulog #liolog #xrdslog

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jackwalten · 2 years

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the whole debate over trying to categorize the riddler as a leftist or alt-right or whatever is kinda futile in my opinion. as much as i liked the batman it still has its faults and like its literally a super hero movie and the way they handle real life issues in them isnt the best most of the time.

if matt reeves was trying to make the riddler a white supremacist and show how dangerous online hate groups can be i dont think he would then go and say in interviews that "he didnt want to make the riddler a villain" and that we are meant to sympathize with him. also the riddlers whole character is supposed to be a parallel to the batman and in the deleted scene the joker literally tells us that batman thinks that riddlers victims deserved what happened to them but he cant admit it to himself. even selina agrees that he was right to go after them. it would be a very weird choice to make the hero of your story, even if not directly, agree with a leader of an alt-right group and to throughout the whole movie try to show us how similiar they truly are. plus whenever reeves is asked what inspired his riddler from what i know he only mentions the zodiac killer and idk maybe thats just me but i think if he meant the riddler to represent racist white men on the internet he would talk about it or at least subtly mention it somewhere and i only really saw him say that hes supposed to represent people who feel isolated and who turn to the internet as a subtitute for actual contact with others and that it was supposed to be relatable to the viewers

calling him a leftist ignores the whole fucking city being flooded because of him and how poor people like him get hurt the most because of it. to be honest they do the whole "villain has a point so we make them do something really reprehensible like killing a child so people dont agree with them" thing and many people say that it was out of character and i can see why some people think that i guess but in my opinion it really wasnt. hes an angry man thats angry at the whole world for all the suffering he had to endure and never reciving help so being focused on getting his revenge and wanting to destroy the place where he suffered instead of actually trying to make it better does make sense because to someone like him its just not possible. he doesnt believe that it can be fixed unless it gets destroyed and rebuilt again and he doesnt care if he hurts innocent people in the process because to him its the only way to make real change. even before the flooding plan reveal he makes a whole car drive into a church full of people not really caring if someone gets hit lol

#dont take this post as some super well thought out analysis or something its more like me just thinking out loud #also im literally writing this at 1 am #op

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I'm honestly 1 straw away from barging into the comments section of the fic to rip cap a new one after reading your notes on the latest chapter. This is DISGUSTING. Imaging telling a genocide survivor it's their fault because they didn't do their responsibilities.

Along with the racism, sexism, and ableism. I think it's safe to say that Cap isn't just a bad writer but an asshole too. Because not once when writing this did he ever think "hey this may not be ok to write". I feel that he genuinely believes this stuff deep down.

Honestly I welcome the day the internet rips this fic apart.

(sorry if this may be harsh. I just love the lettuce fam alot and seeing this stuff be written down knowing how popular this fic is and how it's seen as cannon to many just fills me with rage)

Different nonnie: You know, I mostly just roll my eyes at the fic and enjoy the commentary. The fic rarely makes me truly angry. But WHAT THE FUCK.

Different nonnie: I could not even read through that last part with your notes. I’m just disgusted. Remember kiddies! If someone would rather protect their family than grovel at your feet they are irredeemable.

Lemme preface this with saying that I still don't condone going to the fic and leaving disparaging comments, and that I still try to maintain that since I don’t know Cap'n irl I can't make any sound moral judgements of his actual character.

What I can say with confidence, however, is that at the very least, his writing - intentionally or not - is some of the most genuinely morally repugnant I've seen written in a fanfiction that wasn't deliberately meant to be such (like in a dark!fic). The constant and consistent victim blaming of literal genocide survivors that not only never goes away, but will go on to somehow get even worse, is some of the most uncomfortable I've ever been reading a fic. And not because it was meant to make me feel that way, but precisely because it wasn't.

That anyone - let alone multiple people - can sit there with their full chests and say "yeah, genocide was kinda cringe, but the survivors of the genocide didn't react in the way that most benefited the race that genocided them! They didn't consider how their actions would affect specifically the protagonist and her friends when they made their choices a thousand years before these people were born! And really, maybe they had it coming with how they must have mistreated humans beforehand! Really, they're no better than the people that genocided them!" and mean that, in a positive connotation is just. Disgusting? Let's go with that. It's very disgusting.

And also, just. There’s like. A very strange and manipulative theme of “ignoring/shitting on someone until/unless they can be used to make yourself look better” that goes on from Woobiegard’s side of things. Sylvain’s suffering and his reaction to it as he sets off to kill his own older brother on the orders of his own father? Treated as an inconvenience to Woobiegard, until it can be used to distract from Dimitri’s rightful criticism of Woobiegard. Ingrid's father? Repeatedly and unendingly called misogynistic, awful, verbally abusive, until he can be used against Seteth, because Ingrid is “a daughter” and thus Seteth fighting against her to protect his own daughter is somehow hypocritical. Like liege like knight, I guess.

And just. The whole “If you REALLY cared about Rhea you’d stay by her side no matter what!” mentality is just. It says so much about the fic’s narrative. No, Seteth, actually, you should have endangered the life of your only daughter, because otherwise you aren’t completely and utterly loyal to your sister and thus you don’t actually care about your family. No, Byleth, actually, you should always stay by Woobiegard no matter what she does to you or your friends or to Fodlan, because otherwise you failed her and don’t deserve her love and you have to keep earning her love (ohhh ho ho can’t wait for THOSE notes to drop lmao). No, Black Eagles, actually, you should always center the world around you and your problems to the exclusion of everyone else, because otherwise you will all become emotionless husks who are all incapable of caring and loving yourselves. There’s this unnerving theme of absolutism, a completely stark black-and-white “if x then y” cause-and-effect where if you don’t do this morally questionable thing that has been presented as the One Good Moral Option With No Nuance Whatsoever, then you will suffer immensely with no question or way to stop it.

Like, this fic has had a lot - a lot - of problematic elements to it, but it’s when the Nabateans get involved that things take a nosedive. The racism goes from something that could be picked up but possibly explained away to “yeah no Woobiegard is feeling rage and disgust just from looking at Flayn explicitly because she is a Nabatean.” The victim blaming is ramped up to 11 billion, straight up saying that genocide survivors are on par with the people who committed genocide against them because Marianne Was Sad Too Once (because her ancestor was one of the people who directly benefited from said genocide and rightfully got fucked for doing so). Misandry is just straight up a character trait at this point, repeatedly physically assaulting Seteth whenever he dares step out of Ingrid’s line (and he’s not the only man who’s gotten or will get this sort of treatment - remember, in Chapter 36 Ingrid also threatened to use Luin against Sculptor Guy because he made her Mad and nothing else - but he’s the one where it’s portrayed as the most righteous that it happens).

If this were intentional, I’d applaud the fic for steadily building the moral bankruptcy from something that could maybe possibly be explained away if you’re being really generous (and/or naïve) to outright and blatant racism, sexism, religiophobia, etc. etc., because watching this shit slowly get worse and worse until the crescendo of “these genocide survivors are no better than their genociders,” “physically assaulting men who step out of women’s lines is morally righteous,” “looking at someone and feeling disgust and hatred due to them being a certain race is understandable because their race as a whole is to blame for the world’s problems” is like. Such an unnerving thing to read. But it. It like. Wasn’t intentional though. Everyone doing the horrific things is treated as a paragon of morality and goodness and righteousness, and their victims painted as their abusers, and it’s like. Played completely straight. So it’s like. Yeah I can definitely understand the anger

#ask #anon #exqueuese me princess #o captain my captain #like wow. WOW. it's indescribable how awful this fic is #its rhetoric is genuinely disgusting

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I've been debating making this because this is definitely not what my blog is known for and I was worried that people wouldn't want to see it, but with the amount of shit im seeing on twitter it's compelled me to make this because I'm so frustrated.

I feel like I could make 100 posts about 'Cancel Culture' and it wouldn't be enough, so I'm just going to focus on what caused me to write this tonight - the Tommy situation. *Warning for a VERY long post below*

To be clear, Tommy has been in 'hot water' on twitter for the past couple weeks, roughly starting with the KSI collaboration where he made a joke about dream stans.

Last week, when the SBI 'exposing account' got made and twitter hyped it up, someone made a Tommy account and made a thread of things he needed to be '''educated''' on: https://twitter.com/idktommyinnit/status/1379158964148002821?s=20

I'll let you read it for yourself (and come to your own conclusion) but to me.... half of this stuff does not require a twitter thread? Breaking it down accusation by accusation:

1) 'The Mexican accent' - the clips show he is clearly only doing it when copying big Q (who famously exaggerates his own accent) and there is zero malicious intent (Big Q is also IN the 3 clips mentioned in the thread, and obviously didn't tell Tommy it was offensive). There's debates in the comments from people who think it is offensive and people who don't, so I'm not trying to pick a side. To avoid accidentally offending anyone, maybe it is best for him to stop, but the way twitter acts as if he was purposefully doing this to offend people is just not true.

2- 'Making a slave joke' - Even saying that feels wrong, because it suggests Tommy is doing something awful. Instead, they are referring to the 'bit' that Tommy, Techno, Tubbo and Ant were involved in, when Tommy and Techno took Tubbo and Ant as their slave. People are taking this vod and using it to accuse Tommy of being insensitive to Black people, but I think people are just assuming the worst. Slavery existed long before the transatlantic slave trade and still exists today. This is a role-play server - Tommy 'forced' Ant to work for him and used the word slave, which to me is exactly what was happening? People 'murder' others on the SMP, people 'kidnap' on the SMP, people are 'terrorists' on the SMP, and all happen without issue. To add, Ant is a WHITE man. Tommy taking a WHITE man as a slave is not something uber problematic.

3- 'His reply to Techno's 'murder is bad' tweet'. - I get people saying that Techno's initial tweet was insensitive, but saying Tommy's agreement to this from almost over a year ago is something notable and worth addressing is just super nitpicky and is clearly only in there to pad out the thread. It also makes me wonder what other CC's interacted with it and if THEY should be cancelled too (according to twitter).

4 - 'The saying slurs' tweet / jokes about 'whats the worst word you know' - This one I can kinda see how people might not like it. However, it's clearly a 'poke' at his friends, making them seem like bad people. To me, its in the same vein as 'Tubbo is a Tory' or when Tubbo shoots back that 'Tommy is a Nigel Farage fan'. They're obviously not, but its making fun of your friends by saying they are, and mockingly making them out out to be bad people.

5- 'Covid jokes' - People are taking jokes he made about him 'having covid' and saying he shouldn't joke about this, even going as far to linking it to asian hate crimes. I don't even know how to explain that that this is just? not a 'cancellable offence'? I'm sorry but if I hear anyone in my family coughing I make a little joke that 'they better not have covid' and I know other people do. I have someone in my family who is extremely vulnerable to Covid and if they caught it, would quite literally die, but I can understand that jokes like these are harmless. The whole internet had a running joke that we were in a 'panoramic' or 'Panera' or 'insert any word that sounds like pandemic.

This thread got a lot of attention and anything he tweeted afterwards was spammed with the link and there were so many people upset that he hadn't addressed it. I saw so many people say how 'upset' and 'disappointed' they were in him.

Going on to today, this happened: https://twitter.com/khasiid/status/1380611890104139776?s=20

I get it, it looks bad. But for context (which the tweet doesn't give), the reply was only up for less than a minute. It was obvious to me, even BEFORE Tommy addressed it in his stream (clip here: https://twitter.com/cowrpse/status/1380640046202593283?s=20 ) that it was a mistake. In the clip, he clearly acknowledges his mistake and seems embarrassed. To me, this situation should just be laid to rest because a mistake does not need this much attention, but twitter disagrees.

In case it wasn't obvious by now, the tide is turning against Tommy and people are less willing to ignore genuine mistakes and assume the worst.

Today, during his birthday stream people were clearly already waiting for him to mess up. Around half way through, he started saying 'finna' out of context and Tubbo joined in. This led to tons of tweets telling him he was misusing AAVE, and while there were plenty of people willing to be patient and educate, there were also people seeing this as an example of him being a 'bad person' and someone who should be 'without a platform'. I think people forget that not everyone has the same internet upbringing as they do. In general, I think its noted that the misuse of AAVE is something that has just recently been brought to attention. I learned about it through tiktok and stan twitter, and I don't think it's unimaginable that a British 17 year old boy (who is not active on either) has never heard of 'African American Vernacular English'.

Just for a fuller picture, today has also brought about another 'criticism' that I just had to address.

1) 'Tommy made a KKK joke' - Like the 'slavery' point, saying this is extremely misleading. It makes people think the worst. Here's the clip: https://twitter.com/ghostburz/status/1380673589612011522?s=20

Here, Tommy and Tubbo are both joking about Tubbo's 'bit' of naming his alt streams 'aaaaaaaaaa', 'bbbbbbb', 'cccccc', etc and how it would've been bad if it was 'kkkkkkkk' (for obvious reasons). That is literally it. It is a less than 20 second clip. Acknowledging that people woulda thought about the 'KKK' is not him 'not understanding Black issues', its a throwaway joke about the obvious.

Lastly, someone on twitter has made a tommyinnit (address asap) doc - https://docs.google.com/document/d/1tZEZtBzikS-EYYkssfFtwVOoFqOwCK0zhStLe6H1wCc/edit

I've basically already covered everything in this document, but I wanted to mention how extremely 'guilt trippy' the whole thing is. I struggled to come up with the perfect word for the situation, and I am open to hearing other peoples opinion, but as I have mentioned none of these things Tommy has been accused of were done with malicious intent, and some I believe don't even need addressed at all.

'slavery is a source of astronomical trauma for black people, and isn’t something to be taken lightly if you’re to look into the horrors of the slave trade."

and "Oftentimes they are the last words we hear before we die and it really is not Tommy’s place to joke about words that affect us so negatively."

Are extremely emotional words for a 17-year-old boy to hear on his birthday, for stuff that I believe has been taken out of context and blown out of proportion.

I really feel bad for him, because such a large proportion of twitter (which ofc is the loudest side of the fanbase) is angry at him and is demanding (as the document says) ''either a stream or twitter thread/twitlonger to addressing this' and 'a long and serious apology instead of a short statement pre-stream'.

We all know how twitter works, and unless his apology is perfect (which to me means apologising for stuff that he should't have to, as explained in the thread), twitter will continue with this weird hyper focus on everything he does, and it's not going to end well.

Twitter's mentality of 'putting everything this person has done that could ever be considered problematic' into one neat little thread is so unhelpful and counter intuitive. I got overwhelmed reading some of the stuff people were saying about him, I can't imagine how he feels.

I feel like I have more to say but at risk of writing an essay longer than my actual work I have to do, I'm going to end here.

#this was incredibly cathartic to write #turns out im not just a c! Tommy apologist LMAO #tommyinnit #dream smp #tommyinnit neg #tommyinnit critical #tommyinnit crit #Tommy crit #Tommy neg #twitter neg #cancel culture #mcyt crit #mcytwt crit

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lustrdustr · 2 years

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why does adastra deserve hate?

*sigh* I probably should have expected someone to ask this eventually, but if you really wanna know the gripes I have with the game, then stick around:

To start off, I just want to make it clear that I don’t hate it, but I definitely don’t think it should be praised as much as it is. I’m just a guy on the internet with an opinion

- For starters, the main relationship (Marco x Amicus) is just sooo juvenile and kinda dubious when you really think about it. Hell, the game starts with you getting kidnapped by amicus. No amount of good traits can make me think positively of or even emphasize with a character who STARTS OFF by kidnapping you and getting you into life threatening danger. But we’re just supposed to write it off as “hehehee big space himbo.” No. He’s not a himbo, he’s genuinely just a dumbass and a bad person, whether he realizes it or not.

He developed so little, if at all. In the beginning of the game, he thinks of you as nothing more than a dumb ape and still thinks that by the end. But he’s just like... in love with you now? Which has me questioning why he’s actively pursuing a relationship with a creature he doesn’t even believe is on the same intellectual level as him but whatever

Their relationship was so fake and unbelievable. Which is to be expected, bc it’s not really a relationship. It’s an extremely unhealthy power dynamic packaged as a “true love” story

- The writing is good but really bad at the same time. None of the character interactions feel natural and all the conflict just didn’t flow right. The writing is bad in the sense that the overall material is bad, but it’s only pushed up by the flowery wording, y’know? It’s like covering a bad smell with febreeze

- The characters themselves were nothing remarkable but OH MY GOD they did Virginia so dirty. This is a thing I’ve noticed with the echo project in general is that they really do the bare minimum with their female characters. And yes I know it’s a gay furry game targeted at gay furries, the women aren’t gonna be the main focus...

But like, you can still have good female characters...

Seriously, tell me one interesting thing about Virginia (or any echo project woman in general). You could swap them all out for guys and literally nothing would change.

- Neferu. I’m not gonna say too much about him because talking about him too much makes me angry, so I’ll just list off points:

> He pretty much forced himself on amicus in their first interaction (Yes, amicus got a boner but like, that’s not an excuse??)

> He’s kind of a home wrecker (though it was amicus’ fault, so I won’t harp on that too much. But he still used the situation to get sex out of him. Which of course is scumbag shit)

- I didn’t know where else to put this but this really bothered the fuck out of me:

the whole blackface metaphor they did as a joke. Like they literally had Marco put on makeup to look like tiger stripes and they straight up were just like “isn’t this blackface lol”

That was out of pocket and completely unnecessary! Actually, a lot of things were unnecessary. In my opinion, this entire VN was just a mess and just mediocre.

There’s a lot more, but I don’t feel like typing it all out lol. But yes, these are my thoughts on Adastra as a whole. I could also mention amicus simps and how annoying they are but I ain’t getting into all that lmao

#furry #furry fandom #adastra vn #echo vn #echo project #amicus #ask me things

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scorpionyx9621 · 3 years

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Do you think Jason Todd fandom is kinda toxic? Because it seems like NO MATTER what DC do, there'll always be complains. Forget the bad adaptation like Titans. Even Judd Winick cannot escape the criticism with how he potrayed Robin!Jason. They just never satisfied.

SORRY, IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO RESPOND TO THIS. I just moved from Washington D.C. to Seattle, which, for my non-American friends, that's 4442km away. And I DROVE THERE ALL BY MYSELF. And now I'm trying to find new work in a new city and trying to stay mentally healthy and positive. Life is exciting but hard and scary.

*sighs*

As someone who was a fandom elder with V*ltr*n. I've seen some of the worst when it comes to fandom behavior. I'm talking people baking food with shaving razors and trying to give them to the showrunners. I'm talking leaking major plot details and refusing to take it down unless they make their ship canon (I am looking at you, Kl*nce stans) For the most part, DC Comics has had a decades-long reputation of treating their fans like trash and not caring what they think so from what I've seen, we all just grumble and complain in our corners of the internet about how we don't like how X comic portrays Jason Todd.

The challenge with Jason Todd is that he's your clinical anti-hero, the batfamily's Draco in Leather Pants, he's a jerkass woobie, and on top of all of that, he's a Tumblr sexyman. It's a perfect storm for a very fun but frustrating character to be a fan of. It doesn't help that every writer decides to re-invent the wheel every time Jason comes up so his canon lore is confusing at best and inconsistent as a standard.

I guess starting with a general brief on who Jason is and what is uniform about him with every instance he's appeared in comics/media.

Grew up in a poor family in Gotham with a dad who was a petty-mid-level criminal, and a mother who dies of a drug overdose.

Survives on the street on his own by committing petty crimes and potentially even engaging in sexual acts to keep himself alive.

Is cornered by Batman and taken in after Dick Grayson quits/is fired

Becomes the second Robin, but is known for being the harsher, more brutal Robin.

Is killed by Joker after being tortured, but somehow comes back to life and regains senses through the Lazarus Pit

Resolves himself to be better than Batman by basically being Batman but kills people.

Where there has been a lot of conflict in the fandom is the fact that Jason Todd is not a character that is written consistently. DC Comics loves to go with the narrative that Jason was "bad from the start" and was the "bad robin" when, yes, he has trouble controlling his anger, but he also still is just as invested in seeing the best of Gotham City and trying to be a positive change for the world as any other DC Comics hero.

Where I get frustrated with the fandom is its ability to knit-pick every detail of a comic they don't like while completely disregarding everything that makes the comics great and worth it to read. My example being Urban Legends. To which most people had pretty mixed reactions to. I was critical of the comic at first but as it went along I ended up really liking it. I have a feeling DC Comics went to Chip Zdarsky and told him he had 6 issues to bring Jason back into the Bat Family, and honestly he didn't do a bad job. Did it feel rushed? Absolutely. I wish there was more development of Jason and Bruce's characters and their dynamic as a whole. However, where I see a lot of people being angry and upset with Urban Legends is that they feel Zdarsky needlessly wrote Jason as an incompetent fool who needs Bruce to save him.

Whether or not that was the intention of Zdarsky is up to debate. However, and this may be controversial, but I don't think he wrote Jason Todd out of character at all. For as fearsome, intimidating, and awesome as Red Hood is. Jason is a character who is absolutely driven by his emotions. Why do you think he donned the role of Red Hood? As a response to his anger towards The Joker for killing him, and towards Bruce for not taking action against The Joker and for seemingly replacing him so quickly after he died. Jason didn't care about being the murderous Robin Hood or for being the bloody hammer of justice against N*zi's and P*d*ph*les. He only cared originally about making The Joker and Bruce pay. It wasn't until he trained under the best assassins in the world and realized most of them were horrific criminals who trafficked children and were p*dos that Talia began to realize that the teachers that she sent Jason to train under started dying horrific and painful deaths.

The entire story of the Cheer story in Batman Urban Legends was started because it finally forced some consequences upon Jason. Tyler, aka Blue Hood's father was a drug dealer who gave his supply to his wife and kids. And when Tyler's father admitted he gave the drugs to Tyler, it immediately made him fall within the self-imposed philosophical kill-list of Jason Todd. And Jason, well, he proceeds to kill Tyler's father. When this happens, Jason is in shock. Tyler's dad fit the bill to easily and justifiably be killed by Jason. We've never seen Jason having to deal with the consequences of being a murderous vigilante on a micro-level. When Jason realizes what he's done in that he's murdered Tyler's dad, he's shocked. He tells Babs the truth. He does a rational thing because he's in shock. He doesn't know what to do, he never has had to face the consequences of his actions as Red Hood and now the gravity of befriending a child as a vigilante hero who kills people just set in when he killed the father of the same child he was just introduced to.

(Oh here's a little aside because it had to be said, Jason would not have been a good father or a good mentor to Tyler and absolutely should not have been his new Robin. Jason is a man who is in his early 20's (not saying men in their early 20's can't be good fathers at all) who is a brutal serial killer using the guise of a vigilante anti-hero to let him escape most of the law. the complications of having the man who murdered your father adopt you and make you his sidekick are way too numerous for me to explain in a long-winded already heavy Tumblr essay post. There's a reason why we don't advocate for a story where Joe Chill adopted Bruce Wayne or one where Tony Zucco took in Dick Grayson.)

The next biggest argument is that they feel that Jason is giving up his guns as a means to just be invited back into the Bat-Family. To which I will tell anyone who has that argument to go actually read Urban Legends. Already have and still have that argument? Please re-read it. Don't want to? That's okay, I will paste the images from the comic where Jason specifically says that he doesn't want to give up his weapons for Bruce and his real reasoning down below since the comic isn't exactly readily accessible.

Jason gave up the guns because he felt the gravity of what he had done and knows how it'll effect Tyler. Thankfully his mom is alive and in recovery. But Tyler doesn't have a father anymore. And Jason killed Tyler's father. It may have been in accordance to Jason's philosophy, but it was a case where it blurred the lines. Jason Todd isn't a black and white character, just very dark gray. He doesn't kill aimlessly like the Joker. If you are on Jason's list you probably have done something pretty horrific, and also just in general, being in his way or being a threat to him. Mind you, in early days of Red Hood and the Outlaws (Image below) Jason almost killed 10 innocent civilians in a town in Colorado all because they saw him kill a monster. That being said, Jason isn't aimless in his kills.

(Also can we just take a moment to appreciate Kenneth Rocafort's art? DC Comics said we need to rehabilitate Jason Todd's image and Kenneth Rocafort said hold my beer: It's so SO GOOD)

That being said, the key emphasis in the story of Cheer asides from trying to introduce Jason Todd back into the Bat Family and give an actual purpose for him being there, other than him just kind of being there ala Bowser every time he shows up for Go Kart racing, Tennis, Golf, Soccer, and the Olympic games when Mario invites him, is that Jason and Bruce ultimately both want the same thing. Jason wants to be welcomed back into the family and to be loved and appreciated. Bruce want's Jason back as his son and wants to love and protect Jason. Both of these visions are shown in the last chapter of Cheer while under the effect of the Cheer Gas. It's ultimately this love and appreciation they both have for each other that helps them overcome their challenge and win.

Jason Todd is a character who, just like Bruce, has been through so much pain and so much hate in his life. The two are meant to parallel each other. While Bruce chose to see the best in everyone, giving every rogue in his gallery the option to be helped and give them a second chance, hence why he never kills, Jason has a similar view on wanting to protect the public, but he understands that some crimes are so heinous they cannot be forgiven, or that some habitual criminals are due to stay habitual criminals, and need to be put down. But at the end of the day, the two of them both try to protect people in their own ways.

I am aware that through the writings of various DC Comics authors such as Scott Lobdell and Judd Winick, the two have had a very tumultuous relationship. And rightfully so, I am by no means saying that Scott Lobdell writing an arc where Bruce literally beats Jason to within an inch of his life in Red Hood and the Outlaws, nor Judd Winick's interpretation of Under the Red Hood where Bruce throws the Batarang at Jason's neck, slicing his throat and leaving him ambiguously for dead at the end of the comic is appropriate considering DC Comics seems to be trying everything they can to integrate Jason back into the family. That being said, a lot of these writings have shaped the narrative of Jason and Bruce's relationship and have an integral effect on the way the fandom views the two. It doesn't help that Zdarsky acknowledged Lobdell's life-beating of Jason by Bruce at the very end of Cheer by having Bruce give Jason his old outfit back as a means of mending the fence between the two of them. That does complicate a lot of things in terms of how they are viewed by the fandom and helps to cause an even greater divide between the two.

Regardless, I want to emphasize the fact that Jason Todd is a part of the family of his own accord. Yes, he's quite snarky and deadpan in almost every encounter. However, Jason is absolutely a part of the family and has been for a while of his own will. There's a great moment in Detective Comics that emphasizes this. Jason cares about his family because it is his found family. Yes, they may be warry about him and use him as a punching back and/or heckle him. At the end of the day, we're debating the family dynamics of a fictional playboy billionaire vigilante whose kleptomania took the form of adopting troubled children and turning them into vigilante heroes. Jason Todd wants a family that will love and support him. This is a key definition of his character at its most basic. This was proven during the events of Cheer and is being reenforced by DC Comics every time they get the opportunity to do so.

Now, none of this is to say that I hate Judd Winick. I do not, I don't like the fact that in all of his writings of Jason, he just writes him as a dangerous psychopath, and Winick himself admits to seeing Jason as nothing much more than a psychopath. Yet Winick is the one who the majority of the fandom clings to as the one true good writer of Jason Todd because 'Jason was competent, dangerous, smart' Listen, friends, Jason is all of that and I will never deny it. However, what I love about Jason isn't that he's dangerously smart of that writers either write him as angsty angry Tumblr sexyman bait or that they write him as an infantile man child with a gun. There's a large contention of this fandom that has an obsession with Jason Todd being this vigilante gunman who is hot and sexy and while I definitely get the appeal. It is very creepy and downright disturbing that all of you hyperfixate on his use of guns and ability to be a murderer. It is creepy and I'm not necessarily here for it.

What I love about Jason Todd is that despite all of the pain, all of the heartache, all of the betrayal, and bullying, and death, and anguish. Jason Todd is one of the most loving and supportive characters in all of DC Comics. Jason has been through so much in his life, but he still chooses to love. He still chooses to see the bright side in people. Yes, he takes a utilitarian approach and chooses to kill certain villains, but at the end of the day he wants to see a better world, and he wants to be loved. It takes so much courage and so much heart to learn to love again after one has been abused or traumatized. I would not blame Jason at all if he said fuck it and just went full solo and vigilante evil. He has every right to, but he still chooses to be with the Bat Family of his own accord. That's something that I see a lot of in myself. I have been through a lot of trauma and yet I try to be a better person myself in any way that I can. It is extremely admirable of Jason to allow love back into his heart when he really doesn't need to. He kills and he protects because he has this love of society. It may have been shaped by anger and hatred, but Jason has found his place amongst people who love him and value him. I think Ducra, from Red Hood and the Outlaws put it best in the image given below.

To end this tangent, I love Jason Todd and all of his sexy dangerousness, but it's far more than that. As much as Jason may be dangerous and snarky, he loves his family without a shadow of a doubt. I look up to Jason Todd because despite all of his pain and all of his trauma, he still choses to love. Jason Todd is a character who is someone I love because despite all of his flaws and having a very toxic fandom, he still serves as a character filled with so much heart and so much passion. I wish more writers would understand that. But for now I will live with what I have. Even though the fandom may be vocal about it's hatred for his characterization, I choose to love Jason regardless because he is a character who chooses love and acceptance regardless of his pain. Jason Todd is by no means a good person in any sense of the word. He has easily killed upwards of 100 people by now. He is a character who is flawed and complex but ultimately is one who powers forwards and finds love and heart in a place from so much pain and anguish. That is what I love about Jason Todd. After all, to quote a famous undead robot superhero, "What is grief, if not love persevering?" Jason Todd chooses to love despite all of the trauma and pain and grief. Yes, he is hardened in his exterior, but inside there is a man with a lot of love to give and someone who deserves the world in my eyes.

#Long post GOD #Jason Todd #Red Hood #Bat Family #Batman #red hood and the outlaws #RHATO #RH:O #Batman Urban Legends #Red Hood Lost Days #TW Voltron #TW Death #tw murder #TW Klance #Gotta love how i am pouring my heart out onto jason AND calling out the Voltron fandom #Regardless love Jason Todd people

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