there needs to be a chart somewhere for people like me who have a lot of special interests, which lists the starting costs for every type of hobby, and then tells you exactly why it would be a bad idea for you to start that hobby.

I just think it would help me if every time I got the sudden, sharp desire to start something new, I could go to a website that says something like, "really? you think you can afford a kiln? you think you can make room for a kiln? think again! go use up all that yarn you bought two years ago, or the seed beads, or the darkroom chemicals, and then we can talk."

hey gang, do we all agree that ten's massive ego and god complex (or rather those traits being especially prominent in his regeneration) were a direct result of what happened in Parting of the Ways?

"marlena what the fuck do you mean" okay well think about it; ninth doctor. fresh off the time war. thinks himself unlovable, unworthy of love. just did a double genocide, including against his own people. he's returning to his old ways of lallygagging around helping humans in a more-than-desperate attempt to repress his feelings and try to mimic the person he was before the war. he's so vulnerable.

enter rose tyler. to him? she's the most amazing person in the universe. he loves her, full stop. she makes him feel like maybe he's still capable of love, but does he really trust her love for him? after all, she doesn't really know him, does she?

all that comes to a head when rose tyler becomes the bad wolf. in that moment, she sees everything. everything everything. the doctor's past, and the doctor's future. every horrible thing they did and will do.

and in that moment, with all this truth streaming constantly into her brain, most amazing person in the universe rose tyler looks at him and goes "i want to save you. you are worth saving."

bro no fucking shit ten has a motherfucking god complex, jesus christ i would too!!!

now personally i think nine would have rationalized it and been relatively Normal 'bout all that noise had he survived onwards, but unfortunately he didn't, and so when the doctor's subconscious and the universe were holding hands deciding what their new little guy should be like... well, we're already making him just for her, and she loves him.

rose tyler loves me. she loved me even when she knew me.

i'm just saying, that "Bad Wolf chose to save me" to "the laws of time are mine to command" pipeline is a straight vertical drop only a few feet long.

Sometimes being the resident pred just means you have to put up with your buddies using you as a tent every winter

Davey likes to complain about it, but truth be told he doesn’t mind all that much. At least it means he’s full right?

anyone else ever get like emotionally dependent on a certain hyperfixation? like your main and nearly only source of joy comes from that thing and content for it and it’s like the main thing you think about or that’s in the back of your mind all day? and it’s like you’re so dependent on it, and you’re aware of it, to the point where it’s like you’re blissful but also deeply sad at the exact same time when thinking about it or consuming it? it’s like a bone deep euphoric melancholy… and it’ll consume you for a while until you slowly become less dependent on it. and it’s like you don’t get to choose when that is. it just happens. either slowly or all at once. maybe another hyperfixation takes it place or something. anyway, yeah, i get like that sometimes. never know how long it’ll last.

Work Rant

God I just remembered the soon to leave manager (as in this week is literally her last week) took off tip points and then messaged in the group chat about how I had to do inventory Every Week and I just fucking. Blew up at her. Barely contained rage. I tried my best to keep it civil but

The real issue was she didn't fucking look to see when payroll would need processed and I ASKED HER on Monday whether Thanksgiving would affect the processing time and she was like "no, I think it's just on Wednesday like normal" so I was like OK and planned for doing the tips distribution (first step of payroll) after my shift if I needed to but NOOOOOO she then let me know During my shift that it had to be processed THAT NIGHT (Tuesday night) and I was like Fuck bc I couldn't do it after work. So I was like "OK ill move it up in priority" and so instead of doing inventory I got the tips distribution done (which includes all the finalizing of shifts/hours too) and was doing some other tasks and THEN the POS was wigging out so I spent the last half hour of my shift on video call with my boss trying to figure it out. And I TOLD. HER. I would be leaving like right after my shift that day bc im visiting family this week.

And she doesn't bother checking with me about any of this. She notices inventory wasn't done (it's been something that wasn't 100% necessary in the past so I figured it'd be OK for one week), immediately deducts tip points from me (and not a small amount either!!!) and THEN goes and messages Me, Directly in the fucking GROUP CHAT to publicly shame me!!!!!

Like was this really fucking necessary? Was this Really fucking necessary????

And this coming from the girl who was messaging literally half an hour before payroll was due saying she Just sent the payroll invite to the new employee & to have him fill it out (WHILE HE WAS ON SHIFT)

Fucking bitch is so hypocritical and disorganized and yet she expects us to be 100% perfect all the fucking time. I'm so fucking sick of her and SO happy she's leaving soon. Because holy fucking shit. She's insufferable.

thinking thoughts but unable to put it into words... oughhh im just rotating scenarios and characters in my brain around and around and around

Getting drunk on company time 💅🏻

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Update 09/24/22

I've started using Arcweave to map out the locations in Signal Hill, trying to get a solid baseline in place before I continue fleshing them out. I got Skid Row done, and made a good amount of progress on the Red Light District. Everything else is just sort of being sketched out. Hopefully I'll have the chance to work on them more when I get home.

Dark green represents potential player homes, light green represents stores, yellow represents conversations, and pink represents stories. A red line means an additional option at a different location can be unlocked by doing something in this location.

How development is planned to work, I'll flesh out each area to a certain extent in the first demo, and then as time goes on new locations will be added and new content will be added to the existing locations. The goal is to progress the game with the players, meaning all of the content in the demo will be aimed at new players and new content will get more difficult/have more requirements to access it as time goes on.

Of course, this is all just a sort of rough sketch of the world. Beta testing this game is going to be very... interesting. A lot of the questions I'll ask are going to be things like "which places do you feel are the least interesting?" and "do any of the places feel less fleshed out?" and hopefully that'll help me perfect the world map.

somebody i follow for fandom reasons was talking about having bought an adult tricycle, and it got me wondering abt pros and cons and why adult tricycles aren't more of a Thing, so i did some reading and got halfway thru a very talky post laying them out and then abruptly realized: none of u care, lol. like dgmw i'm sure a number of u would very nicely click the lil heart like the collection of good eggs u are but like. what would i be achieving by writing that up. this is not a bicycle interest community.

(short version is that a bicycle behaves more like it's part of yr body in a variety of ways, and so as long as yr body works well—big 'if' obviously!—that often makes for a smoother and more intuitive ride: balance around corners is the really big thing here, but also tricycles apparently require you to (1) compensate for road camber with yr steering; (2) keep three different wheel trajectories clear of surface hazards instead of just one; and (3) remember that the vehicle you're maneuvering is wider than your body and requires more clearance. that said, if you have trouble balancing on two wheels, and/or srs bzns Cargo to carry, then a trike may be the bike for you!)

(ok obviously i lied abt not making that post but i guess i really wanted to make it so. there u are. click the lil heart like a good 🥚.)

guy who needs to get medicated badly after having a particularly bad episode a day ago but also looked at a funny dog picture and got my ID back in the mail and also just finished a comm -> things are looking up for me!

also ever since i thought of hypotheticallyyyy making this a game, i also realized i can get a little more detailed with the designs since, as a primarily VN game, i’d of course reuse the assets like the character halfbodies, backgrounds, and all…

i’ve also been thinking of some minigame ideas… not much yet but i feel somewhat obligated to add pinball out of nowhere.

also if this were to have a battle system (which. i’d really want it to so yeah bhgk) i’d want it to look similar to a game called 7th Dragon. Its basically a front-view battle system… until your character actually does their action for the turn. When they do, a little picture or animation of them swinging their weapon/casting magic/etc appears. I think a style like that wouldn’t be too demanding🤔 YYANNO IF I ACTUALLY COMMIT TO MAKING THIS A GAME LIKE MAYBE MAYBE NOT IDK

girls who want soooo badly to be haters and to really truly Hate but to do that theyd have to admit where the hate Comes From and. well. 💀💀💀

Because of the energy levels within I'm potently alluring

managed to start getting paranoid enough that i consider walking the wrong way down the hall when getting out the elevator at home cause my apartment is. right in front of some one of the elevators, and sometimes im like "what if the people on this elevator decide they hate me and that theyll come and break into my place specifically"

once again desperately googling how to tell if i just have a very unhealthy attachment , a crush or a squish on somebun (nawt actually bc how tf is google gonna know . sadly nawt all answers can just be typed into a computer . maybe i should hire a mind reader /silly)