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skullstarz · 3 years

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Class 1a with a reader who make dark jokes to cope with their trauma

classmate who makes dark jokes

-> class 1a and gn!reader

i rlly do not like how this turned out im so sorry. i might make a separate post retrying this request, but for now this is what it is :/ fjbiyqvwprovbi im a FAILURE omg im iwkhgru UGH its fine wtv anyways here you go >:T

warnings: dark joke about abuse is made, vague mentions of dark jokes, over all concern over reader's mental health and past traumas.

word count: 481 words.

alternative title: class 1a: uh... mf are u ok

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♡ at first everyone kinda just shrugged it off.

♡ with all the classmates they have with past traumas and underlying mental illnesses, they’re used to hearing a random self deprecating joke every now and then.

♡ along with that, they aren’t strangers to dark jokes. with their line of stressful and action packed work, an odd sense of humor is necessary for them to stay sane and mentally stable

♡ every now and then someone will make a poorly timed joke and receive a “too soon, dude” or make a joke with a good balance of funny and painful, making some people laugh and cry at the same time.

♡ that being said, they just thought you had a dark sense of humor, something many of them had if you really paid attention, like tokoyami or todoroki.

♡ they started taking it more seriously when you all were trying some pastries satou made, and everyone said “wow this is so good!” and you said “wow, this almost hits as hard as my dad”

♡ literal fucking silence. you had to apologize before walking away or the tension in the room would’ve gotten so heavy it would be suffocating

♡ the more you made these jokes, the more everyone worried, but it was much more worrying when aizawa went out of his way to ask you if you were okay and whether or not you needed help

♡ todoroki tries to make it less tense for you, making dark jokes as well, so you feel like there’s someone you can relate to.

♡ one time found denki putting milk before the cereal while walking into the dorms with you and he said “are you my dad? cause what you’ve done should be criminal”

♡ a for effort, he’s a bit awkward with the delivery but its the thought that counts

♡ once you open up to everyone (or your group of friends within the class) they understand why you joke the way you do.

♡ they’re less uncomfortable with the jokes and sometimes even laugh if you give them permission to, so you feel comfortable.

♡ they dont tell you to stop, because they understand that the jokes are a coping mechanism and you’re just trying your best to feel better.

♡ uraraka gives you cuddles. read somewhere that physical affection helps produce what she calls “feel good” chemicals so any time she can, when you’re comfy, she’s giving you hugs.

♡ iida never tells you the things you say are inappropriate (whether they are or not is a different story), and midoriya shows you pictures of baby animals a lot.

♡ denki, sero, and kirishima pull funny pranks and show you funny videos to get you laughing

♡ overall, everyone just ignores or laughs at your jokes and focuses on trying to help you feel better.

♡ aizawa even offers to help you, maybe with getting you therapy, or lending a shoulder to cry on- whatever you need.

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wychive · 4 years

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𝙪𝙣𝙨𝙥𝙤𝙠𝙚𝙣 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙙𝙨

summary // you found your pile of ‘letters’ to hyunjin that contain thoughts that have never been said and decided to write to him one last time.

pairing(s) // hyunjin x gn!reader, hyunjin x oc, slight minho x reader

genre(s) // angst, letter fic

warning(s) // mentions of food, themes of being forgotten, vulgar wording, humiliation, overthinking

word count // 2.0k

author's note // happy birthday @noya-sannnn !! im sorry this was so late hhh you know how i am irl,, but i hope you enjoy this! i love you so much, jane <3 i apologize for the many grammar mistakes gn. i recommend listening to iu’s ending scene while reading this! btw y/n/n means your nickname.

[10/01/14, 3:55am]

dear jinnie,

hi there! it's y/n <3 i hope you're doing okay - i mean of course you are pfft anyways, just writing this short letter (more like paragraph) sort of as a venting mechanism? for things i cant tell you about lol im not so sure how you would call it, since you're so much better at words than i am. basically were like:

hyunjin: ow a brain freeze!

me: haha brain go brrrr

anyways haha yea <3 it's 4am so like,, ill see you at school!

signed,

your loser,

y/n/n

[15/02/14, 12:34am]

yo heartthrob!

im back with this kinda stuff haha it's been a whole? week? since ive written one of these so like yes..hi! i just wanted to say thanks, for today. you really know how to cheer me up huh? you really outdid yourself by setting up that little picnic for us. congrats on making the strawberry cake so perfectly <3 this day will always stay as a core memory in the back of my brain. you're too caring sometimes,,, istg you'll pay for this [maybe hugs?] >:)

signed,

your partner in crime,

y/n/n

[30/02/15, 01:29am]

jinnie-senpai~~

LMAO you hate me calling you that, doesn't change a thing though. hehe,, nways i hope you enjoyed your birthday present :) i got you that really cool skateboard that you wanted. i worked my ass off for that in my mother's garden so like,, you gotta thank me for that a thousand times :D nah jk, its a sincere gift, from me to you. i rarely do this for ANYONE so consider yourself lucky to have a best friend like me -3- also, seungmin is like….kinda the cutest person ever. introduce me to him pls, thank!

signed,

<your bestest friend3,

y/n

(p.s. you're kinda cute too,,,, ig,,, still stinkee tho)

[13/04/15, 9:04pm]

hey 'baby' (HAHAHA ihy for this)

i hope your day was okay! i didn't see much of you today (which was sort of a bummer but wtv) so like…. uh yea. you told me you were doing okay over text, which kinda surprised me because like?? we always video call lol this is kinda the first time,, but its okay, i trust you! (i really hope youre doing alright tho, i'll beat anyone up if they make you sad >:( ) you also called me 'sweetheart' today which was like…. omg wtf haha????????? that was so weird to me for some reason… a good kind of weird :D we haven't done those kinds of nicknames in a while so…. happy to know that they're back in session <3 i talked to the new girl today, she's really cool! like she knows the bean song on tiktok so like its a total win heh, ill introduce you to her tomorrow! you'll love her a lot

signed,

your 'lover',

y/n/n

[08/06/16, 10:23pm]

hey howl (hehe go back to that movie night we had)

this spring break sucks so much,, esp because youre not here (you still couldve brought me along :'[ ) but wtv i hope youre enjoying yourself. ive been hanging out with yeonnie lately and i found out she likes conan grey too like pls i love her sm. can we adopt her?? please???? she told me you guys have been video calling too and that makes me so happy!! you two are getting along so well aaa my precious babies </3

what if you developed a crush on her? haha…..jk unless?? (no jk dont shes all mine, stay away >:) ) anyways, i hope the three of us hang out soon. maybe go to that ice cream parlour where they serve the best cookies and cream?

signed,

your daisy,

y/n/n

[19/07/15, 01:23am]

peepee poopoo hello

heyheyhey!! (heh, haikyuu thingz) i hope youre doing okay! i mean sure you are, with everything going so well. also i feel like you're not telling me something. maybe it's just me? is it? i hope it is because you tell me everything,, we've been talking less these days but its okay! i know how busy you are, especially with your dad always bugging you,,

also, i think yeonbin likes you :0,, she keeps talking about you whenever we hang out. don't get me wrong, its not bad that she likes you but...something doesn't feel right. i feel like i'm being the third wheeler here and like ugh idk. haha laughs yea i think its just me.. im sorry, i didnt mean to do you like this,, anyways, ill see you soon + her too ofc- yall are inseparable lmao

signed,

your moonlight,

y/n/n

[23/07/15, 01:56am]

greetings, kind sir

lol more like mean sir but like aight KSKSK,, anyways,, how have you been? we haven't really talked in a while,, our convos are always so short with it being one-sided :/ i wish you were online more. yeonnie is ignoring me,, do you know why? i think you do,,, but when i asked you just said you didnt know. did i do something wrong? pls tell me..

she blocked my contact the other day and she won't even smile at me when i pass her in the hallways. its,, sad and stressful especially because she was the only one that would genuinely talk to me. i hate to say this,, but i miss you. us, hanging out like the best trio we are, yknow? but i dont think you miss me the same way. sorry, im getting out of hand. i know im just overreacting. im just gonna sleep ig,, good night! sweet dreams,,

signed,

your pink lemonade,

y/n/n

[25/07/15, 03:25am]

hi there

i heard you and her got together?? congrats, jinnie! im so proud of you,, especially because you never had even considered getting a girlfriend a few months earlier lmaO you really woo the ladies huh? anyways,, i hope you've been well since we last talked,, how many days has it been?? i would say nearly a week or so but honestly it feels like a hundred years,, considering you and i used to talk every day. but you have her now to keep you company.

keep this a secret but can you possibly tell me why it hurts when i see her? or when i mention her or even think of her?? is it because she's connected to you? but.. you're my best friend, so why? is it because i miss you? is it because im alone now? is it because you left me with a simple 'i have to go now,, bye y/n/n.'? im not sure either. im being silly, i apologize. ill figure it out sooner or later. sweet dreams, jinnie

signed,

your asswipe,

y/n

[25/07/15, 04:30am]

jinnie

it's because i love you.

signed,

your butterfly,

y/n

[??/08/??, 05:??am]

you

i miss your lame jokes. i miss your smile. i miss your laughs. i miss your funny faces. i miss the way your eyes twinkle. i miss th way you would make me happy just by doing the bare minimum. i miss the disaster you made when cooking breakfast. i miss the night when you snuck me out just to go to that pretty lantern event. i miss when you would call out my name everytime we met. i miss when we would share earbuds in train rides. dont you get it, hyunjin? i miss you.

[??/??/15, ??:??am]

asshole.

please tell me that isn't true, please. you're too kind to do these kinds of things, right? + i was your best friend,, then, why, why did you hurt me like this. i didnt do anything wrong.. you couldve just told me you didnt like me,,, why did she have to tell me? out of all people.

youre so pathetic for this,, i thought you were brave, bold - but youre just a fucking coward. i loved you, i really did. and i realised too late… im sorry. she,, i shouldn't have talked to her in the first place, right? i bet you knew she humiliated me, in front of everyone. of course you did, you were the only one that knew. you told her. fuck, i hate you so much (yet why do i long for you on a night like this?). you know how much that'll affect me and yet, there you are, laughing about it with her.

signed,

fuck off,

you know who i am.

[31/08/15, 03:41am]

ah, jinnie

please tell me this is just a nightmare. please, please. stop just reading my texts, please answer them. jinnie. i miss you so much. i dont care bout her, please just let me be in your arms. i dont care if you love me back, please just talk to me at least. tell me what i did wrong,, jinnie,, please,,, clear these tear stains on my cheek with kisses.

signed,

your fuck-up,

y/n

[15/09/15, 04:59am]

jinnie

why do i keep crying because of you? its been a few weeks since everything has happened. please, nothing has changed. i still love you the same even with all the hatred i have pent up in this stupid brain of mine. i wish i could just walk back in time, to where it all began.

when i first met you in third grade and you pushed me while playing soccer or maybe when we took those ridiculous prom pictures, remember those? i hope you still have them,, because i do too. i hope the pictures of us on your wall still hang there,, it'll remind you of the happy times. hm,, maybe you don't need them.

you already have millions of pictures with you and her,, i bet you printed some and replaced those with ours right? sly dog.

signed,

friend,

y/n/n

[04/02/16, 12:57am]

hey

i went to the park today and saw both of you being happy. it's nice to see your smile again. im sorry i didnt go up to you,, i just thought it would be awkward. when i heard that adorable laugh of yours, it made me realise that i lost something special. but it's okay isnt it? as your happiness matters more than mine.

signed,

y/n

[06/01/20, 08:00pm]

dear hyunjin,

im doing fine here. how about you? gosh,, how long has it been? years? since we last talked to each other. i havent heard from you since. i would just like to say i still think of you sometimes, when watering the plants or dancing while making pancakes. sometimes i think you're here with me too, just being the pals we were.

sometimes i'd see you out, just reading a book in the park or buying pasta sauce at the grocery store. it's nice to see you having a stable life. im not sure if you're still with her or not, but its good to know that you still have that large friend group. also! you're never gonna guess who im dating--

it's minho! do you remember him? the one that i used to hate,, uh yeah. he asked me out the other day- you may wonder how tf,,, i too do not know how tf but he gives the best hugs ever. he gave me the love i wanted from you. he stitched my heart back together after it broke,, i love him so much, jinnie..

it's snowing,, do you remember when we would skate on the frozen lake in front of your house? are your parents well? i wonder if your mother still has those earrings i bought for her birthday. i never told you this but your laugh and hers sound so similar.

i would just like to say thank you, for everything. you were a big part of my life, up until now. when we see each other after this, we would just be strangers. maybe flash a little smile or give a little wave whenever we greet each other but nothing more. some memories of us would flow in every now and then but it'll just be a short teaser. well, i'll be going now. smile for me, okay?

signed,

the one that loved you the most,

y/n.

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cocona · 5 years

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you have a moon mercury square? that SUCKS i have it too... i blame astrology too sometimes, especially my saturn aspects... why are they so harsh :/ my mom has a virgo moon like you , i don’t know why i’m telling you this it just came to my mind sksnsk i hope everything will work out with your therapist, i’m sure you’ll find someone great who will help you a lot 💫 🍃

YES ugh its my tightest aspect nd also my strongest since my moon is in my 1st nd my merc in my 10th.....it SUCKS !!!!!!!!!!!! u understand my struggle....loving 2 talk but struggling 2 reach out,, having difficulty wording feelings but being told what u say is v witty nd sensitive... high emotional intelligence but being a general fool....being a good listener nd having a fast intuitive mind... idk there r lots of perks 2 this aspect but mostly is TENSION nd FRICTION nd NERVOSITY............. ftgyhu i once read tht this made up for the moodiest ppl bc it literally makes u unable 2 pick between feeling nd thinking. idk if it’s why im so moody but anyway i hav.. the moodiest placements so it’s rlly no surprise...

nd u have saturn aspects !!!!!! which ones omg !!!!! it seems tht we have similar placements...tbh i Could make ur chart knowing ur bday nd ur age but id rather let u tell me. most of my saturn aspects r conjunctions nd oppositions so im having a BLAST esp knowing tht its one of the highest lords in my chart ! its lots of fun to always feel guilty no matter what u do 🤡

ALSO... it’s weird how ur mom and i share a moon sign when u nd my mom have a cap sun nd a significant cancer placement (asc for u nd moon for her...)....HM... also i can already tell tht theres a lot of libra energy in ur chart so def ,, lots of venusian nd saturnian influences (saturn being the esoteric nd former ruler of libra).. omg i wonder in what decan ur aqua venus is. if its 3rd decan ..fetgy it means ure a libra powerhouse !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol just 2day i learnt tht libra was the most compatible sign w a profile like mine ,, nd it makes sense considering tht we’ve been talking for six months now nd tht my best friends r also libras....... interesting. i, however, am Not a libra. no placements at all in tht sign, no aspects to it nd whatnot..ftyguhijo my chart’s p much empty

astrology is a great tool bc it helps ppl 2 get 2 know themselves better....yanno. u grow into ur chart when u discover it, acquire its lessons, nd grow out of it nd past it in a better way !!! it’s so nice ! i have yet 2 get past most of my struggles tbh but i realise tht a lot of what ppl seem 2 find hard 2 deal with (saturn aspects nd transits mostly) dnt affect me as badly bc ive always had to function with this exigeant nd demanding mantra tht tells me to work until i cant go on anymore... luckily i feel tht saturn gives us a lot of endurance nd strength,, a harsh teacher w great lessons nd morals . at the end of the day,, we grow mature faster nd become the best of ourselves faster as long as we dnt ignore it’s messages. i mean,, my sun is conjunct saturn nd theyre all together in the 10th house (which also happens 2 b a saturnian house 🤡), a strong saturn/pluto opposition tht makes creates this weird tension of fear nd authority issues rooted deep within me....nd also how cld we forget my generational plague ! saturn trine both uranus nd neptune ! these arent the worst but u know. it rlly feels like theres a net on my face any time i try to look up nd be positive.... this is sth im growing out of, though....

i just read a lil desc of a pluto/sun opposition nd rlly DRFTGYUH it’s Exactly what ive been feeling during the past days ! i suppose tht it’s bc several planets r contacting this part of my chart now tht the sun is in taurus but still.... tht inner violence nd the tendency 2 have deep crises ... spying nd guilt nd power struggles nd tension nd a need for truth nd excellence... lol life is fun. wtv tho ! thts how it is ! nd like all pluto aspects, theres a Lot of potential for growth, rebirth nd enlightening destruction... i miss being good @ analysing placements n stuff ! i miss being an astro blog :( i remember tht u once told me u admired how knowledgeable i was abt astrology,, mayb i shld work harder nd learn even more things so tht i can talk abt it w u nd help u to understand more complex aspects of this field......

#tilia anon🍃#i almost put a clown instead of ur leaf bc it was in my clipboard. tht wldve been funny fghj #this summer i can tell i'll b rediving deeep in astro nd tarot bc i got a new deck nd tht i feel this Call 2 go back 2 my roots #nd thts one of the best tools 2 do so #mayb one day i'll get 2 do an extensive chart analysis without much struggle.....until then i'll have my books + my notes + google 2 help me #💌

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