when you read something online and you're just on the verge of crying

pls brain pls don't make me triggered by Hero and Mari over a fanfic....... they're two of my favorites....

-- TAKING A BREAK --

hewwo, im gonna be taking a break from tumblr for the next while.

ive come to realize that im on tumblr wayyyy too much bc of my (newly found) ocd so im leaving for a while to try and deal with it (+ other stuff in the op tags)

i'll be back once im satisfied w/ my progress, but there is a chance i won't be back for months, so if u want to stay in contact send me a DM w ur discord or smthn, i'll check them a couple of times in the next couple days, but after that no tumblr at all.

so yeah, byebyes & i'll see u people later hopefully <3

i was thinking abt how usagi and leo are related (like via their shows) and realized they could technically met bc turtleverse

then i thought abt how that means they have an advantage on miles x mikey but then i realized they dont actually so yeah

basically what im saying is any of these characters could meet (especially bc of miles dimension hopping)

honestly this is kind of lame of us but I regrettably do enjoy how so many people looked at the default hawke designs and decided they were such a slay that we just kept them. like we're sooo picky about character creators 99% of the time but we saw HER

and were like that's such a vibe and better than anything I can do. I mean I think this is largely the fault of the da2 character creator (especially bc this hair is better than anything available) and I legitimately feel bad/mad respect for people who play custom hawkes, they are more original and creative than us in every way. but I can't deny that I absolutely love this strange edgelord goth bird woman and my da2 runs consist of trying to get the 'truest' version of a character that I feel i am interpreting rather than creating

im gonna have to refer to sigma with a nickname when i gush abt him to my irl friends now because i cannot keep dealing with these sigma male jokes please

so are yall excited for the new barbie movie

prompt from this tweet:

never go to vivec city with your stupid crazy ex

what do you think the arakawa fam r like with like. food. like in general. is masato particular abt texture. does masumi put too much salt in everything. does Jo like not eat because he hates himself

jo definitely does not eat because he hates himself why do you think they got tsutsumi to play him. man's thin as a rail it's perfect casting

BUT with arakawa you won't catch him dead eating anything less than eye-catching or remarkable. keywords being Catch Him i know my man would like a burger .... it's just appearances and all ... truly is not as high maintenance as he presents himself when in the privacy of his home

i have an essay about masato and his diet/food preferences but i'll keep it tl;dr and say he's a pampered house cat. do not even breathe the word 'take out' to him he'll shrivel up and vomit on the floor. homecooked meals were as healthy as arakawa and sawashiro could make them so the second masato had the chance to try Actual Food that didnt taste like watered almonds that probably solidified his villain origin story. once he got to taste pork bacon instead of turkey bacon for the first time it was all over.

ohhh i j remember i pulled arcane ophelia when she dropped and just never fuckin used her… i ALMOST gave her tome to odin to fix him up, but…. hehewgahehe laurentttttt i have some shiny new toy for youuuuu come home baby girl come HOME!

actually you know what irritates me (and probably proves I have 0 reading comprehension) is everything suggesting oberon hates people who read stories and then move on from them. Like ??? Wtf do you want us to do with them? Not read them? Not write them? Just permanently continuously read/refuse to finish one story over and over? Never create any narrative fictional art ever just in case someone in it comes to life and becomes orphaned from their cast and purpose??? Like what are we supposed to DO here it’s so???

oooooo please tell me (who knows nothing on the subject) about orv swap au

hehehe. hehehehehehe. hehehehehehehhehehehhheheheh <- guy who is so normal

the premise of orv swap au (name has yet to be finalized) is this: what if kdj and yjh swapped narrative positions (reader <-> character) but very little else? what if a video game player enters a time loop to save his favorite character from dying over and over again and also to end the apocalypse?

admittedly it's not super fleshed out yet (a lot of the changes this premise would introduce are still not hammered out yet) but here are some points under the cut (novel spoilers ahead!)

orv swap au starts with pro gamer yjh who feels :/ abt his job, but hey, it pays the bills. despite (or maybe because of) his relative popularity as a pro gamer and networking with the agency/sponsors/people to impress, he's kind of isolated in a way that's detrimental, a facade of someone he's not whenever he's on camera

something to play around with is the idea of agency? maybe this yjh doesn't feel like he has any and has his hands tied between the lifestyle and being under public scrutiny and not having enough of a support system to leave everything behind. maybe he doesn't know what else he would even do. maybe he's aimless and drifting with nothing to hold on to.

his favorite video game is what i've been thinking of as World's Hardest To Play Indie Game (not based on difficulty but just on the experience of consuming it) a boring, exposition heavy, player-hostile, poorly designed, slightly buggy mess of a barely-playable game: twsa, a game that was not finished upon release and experiences with sporadic updates every now and then.

the ending tree to this game is so convoluted its insane. also theres no save states so if you die (very likely) u restart babeyyy.

twsa (video game) does have multiple endings, all of which happen when kdj, your main character, dies. some are farther into the apocolypse than others, some paths require meta knowledge of future events or character actions or items or whatever. the "true ending" is either analogous to the original 1863: kdj makes it to the end at the cost of everyone he loves, or hsy's modified 1863: kdj makes himself enemy of the scenario to secure a way out for the kimcom remnants.

there's branches on the choices tree where everyone dies and everything sucks and is bad forever and theres choices to make where kdj gets to make a family and they don't really get to settle down but they can get pretty close to it among the ruins of the apocalypse. through all his testing, yjh finds that these endings are nice but peter out - to get to the end of the apocalypse yjh has to claw his way there inch by painful inch, through betrayal and sacrifice, and he still cant fully get past it

i originally wanted to finagle a yoohankim 3 way swap but i couldn't figure it out. swap aus are a lot easier to work with when they're even numbers, at least to me, so this au features a ysa who is a video game company employee by day and by night she really has become god this time (and also a terrible indie dev). and this is how jungdoksang can still win !!!!

also yjh's coworker from Real Life hsy :) i haven't decided if she's like an employee for the same agency, or if she's someone else in the gaming circles that yjh interacts with sometimes (in my heart theyre in like some sort of discord server together), or something like that but she's around. whatever she does she is twitter cancelled for something. to me.

the only other character swaps are lsk and yma. yma is yjh's estranged sister (in broad strokes there's a vague bad parent situation going on here) (they used to be close until they drifted apart and slowly started hating each other [there is an abyss between them that neither of them can bridge]) (he feels that she betrayed him and threw him under the bus so he left [maybe he gets kicked out]) (she feels that he abandoned her to whatever situation they have going on [he didn't even try to take her with him]) and he has to find her when the apocalypse starts. yjh older sibling to yma gives us a whole different little dynamic to explore from kdj ysk (there's different levels of responsibility and guilt and blame when you're talking siblings that are soooooo interesting to me. sorry that i see any set of siblings and immediately try to figure out how to make them worse)

lsk is kdj's mom who appeared into existence at some point with kdj and they were both just adults. that's weird isn't it. oh well. i guess she can become a transcendent later too for funsies

everyone else stays in the same configuration of Real Person vs Character to me this is a very important aspect

this point has no precedent with the swap, nothing particular that would change to cause this, but it would be so funny if lgy was a little gamer boy who is an avid yjh hater. hates that guy. shows up to competitions to boo him. tunes into yjh's silent no-mic speedrunning streams to mald in chat but yjh +mods don't ban him bc its kinda funny.

anyways the apocalypse starts when yjh and his coworker/fellow gamer hsy are on a train to twitchcon and lgy is also there (also headed to twitchcon) and he brings bugs because he likes them but also to sabotage yjh specifically. its just funny if this happened. you understand

instead of having reader-related skills and abilities, yjh's skills are video game player based! he gets flavor text insight on people, location, and items, things like that. notably, he has the ability to reset, to bring himself back to the beginning of the apocalypse

orv swap proper follows yjh as the Player of the Game (Consumer of the Narrative) who lives hundred of lifetimes in this ruined-world-become-reality "replaying" [read: time looping through] the game to reshape it to save his fave character from self implosion (kdj with no dissociation is very prone to dying. all the time.). to revisit the idea of playing with yjh and the idea of agency, of creation, the only way to get past the apocalypse is to go off the beaten path, to choose options that weren't even there in the game. when in space, at his darkest point, yjh becomes a writer. in this story, at his darkest point, he has to become a creator too

please do not ask me how the epilogues go i dont know how the epilogues go (i don't want to throw yjh back into a train for milennia after he Just went through a thousand resets so i'm sending kdj for that but i havent fully planned how or why)

anyways, hope that helps!!! :)

sniffs. what changed 😢

HrrrRRm (minecraft villager noise)

okay so, i have a lot of lore abt the world of LN in general, but it's wrapped up in a lot of my six interpretation, so! i will link you to her blog as well, just to set you up a bit. anyway, let's gooooo--‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎ >the spiral is the cluster of places in the dead middle of the main -lands, a pangea-esque continent that makes up the nowhere as a whole. the land itself twists in on itself, getting darker, more distorted the deeper you go, much like a black hole of sorts. >some kids were born in the nowhere, some kids were trapped there, slowly pulled in slowly worsening nightmares. alone was the latter, originally being a scrapy, young southern girl, living a rather average life in the elsewhere, a less frightening world.‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎ >her nightmares began after her family life began to decline, with her parent's divorcing. then, an subsequent move to a new place, up north, with her mother. eventually, the nightmares consumed her entirely, causing her to become trapped in nowhere after curiosity struck, following the ferryman into the dark swirling mist.‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ >her worldly horror is the north wind, who often referred to her as 'alone', or 'lonely' during their first few interactions, which the girl quickly reclaimed, and is now using it as a new nickname.‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎ >she's been in the nowhere for about eight months, having met low after two, and they have been working together ever since.‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎ >isn't super big on getting back to the elsewhere, though wouldn't express such to low. she can't help her curiosity, wanting to learn this world inside and out. plus, she feels as if she doesn't have much to return to, anyway.‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎ >wants to be a pilot, like her grandfather was. she was very close to him before he passed while she was still in the elsewhere. she has a small toy plane, gifted to her by him, it's still a prized possession. >likes creating gadgets and little robotic friends to help out her and low, taking scarp parts and other debris from their surroundings.‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎

>a la the icon above, alone is missing one of her front teeth, after it was proba -bly knocked out accidentally somehow. she also has little freckles! thank you. >a fact i think is really funny is, if alone ever gets kidnapped, like six in the second game, she would make her captors life hell, until low saves her, or the bitter end. she will not shut up ie asking them questions abt themselves, making dumb jokes and laughing, singing tv jingles from the pale city, etc etc. she knows low will come for her, but if something goes wrong, then... she doesn't want to die angry, crying, whatever. she wants to die smiling, bec -ause it feels like the biggest fuck you to the nowhere, and it's inhabitants.

I hate people with dreams because I wish I could give up mine !!

i know a lot of people are not liking this season, but it’s been fun! I like the twin thing. I’m playing a nice route so mc and her twin really get along. idk maybe i’m only remembering how much i hated last season, and i’m just glad there’s some fun at least.

When I hear my coworkers laughing and talking to each other with such a sense of familiarity, I'm just like wow I'm disconnected from my peers even in adulthood. "Lonely girl who eats alone at lunch" stays with you forever I guess.