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managed to go through all the blogs I'm following and cleared out most that haven't been updated in at least a year (moots are safe from this jic they migrate back to tumblr)
#it's the yearly cleanse#it was like 600+ blogs that got deleted#been wanting to interact with moots more but decided to tackle the archived blogs & old blogs first#gg.txt
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9 people you would like to get to know better tag meme
except I'm starting a new post because the one I got tagged in was long as shit. I was tagged by @tacofuus, thanks so much!
Last song: Batter Up by Babymonster. It's a solid 6.5/10 check out
Favorite color: violet/lavender. Really any shade of purple
Last tv show/currently watching: I honestly don't really watch TV. I genuinely cannot remember. The last series I actually watched was Death Note with my best friend and that was last year/beginning of this year. I used to be into anime when I was in middle school and this felt like a return to my roots lmao
Sweet/spicy/savoury: I go with savory most of the time, but my favorite is sweet for sure.
Relationship status: narilamb
Current obsession: Writing fanfic for cult of the lamb. It's been just about a year and a half now and I don't see this dying down anytime soon, cotl has squarely entered full special interest status for me so I'll be here for at least another 3 years. I have a bad habit of making a new fandom blog every time I get a shorter-term hyperfixation, writing for it, getting kindasorta recognized in the fandom, then abandoning my works and deleting the blog when I'm not interested in it anymore. Maybe some of y'all followed me in my previous fandoms and y'all would probably never know bc of orphaned works that I can't find anymore. ...anyway. I've made too many close friends in this fandom to pull that stunt again. the-one-who-lambs and my cotl fics are here to stay. I'm rambling
Last thing you googled: 600 cc in cups (I was making soup but all the good noodle packets from China+Korea give units in cubic centimeters. It's about 2.5 cups btw)
Uhhhhh I don't know who to tag so I'll just pick the most recent 9 mutuals in my notes who haven't been tagged already by taco or the people they tagged lol. Don't feel pressured to do it, though! @artsycryptix @just-a-random-demon-official @miallurk @pikos-den @tokyonymph @mianing @bamsara @coffincrows @fanged-cotl
#hannah's rambles#y'all already tagged pavi juliet megsie piper lori but I'm thinking of yall too. barkbarkbarkbarkbark
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Hey y'all it's me Serenity. I don't know if y'all noticed but I deleted all of my OC art. It's frustrating to see my work gets an average of 50 notes and no, I don't blame my audience. Rather, I blame myself for not putting as much effort for it to be pleasing for my audience. It hurts when I think this piece or that piece will at least get lots of viewers but in result, it only has little. It's also quite embarrassing how envious I get when I think about how others have followers and half of their followers or even a quarter of them interacts with their post while I have 600+ followers yet my art rarely gets 100+. Just with my latest Fein post, if it wasn't shared by a big blog then it would've only gotten 20+ notes. I know I shouldn't be comparing myself to others but I can't help it. I sometimes even pray and hope it'll at least reach 50 notes but I have to learn things the hard way maybe. Probably the lack of support and the internal disappointment discouraged me?
I'm so so sorry for sounding so ungrateful, I really really am sorry but I promise you all that every support I get is treasured within my heart so so so much and I will forever be grateful for those support. I don't blame most of y'all for not liking my art when I know myself I don't put much effort in them. The anatomy isn't right, I can't do lightings, my coloring isn't that good, my poses aren't dynamic, my poses are stiff, and my drawings in general are boring. I'm sorry I disappointed y'all and those who followed me who expected good posts but got what I give instead.
I don't know if this is just part of my mental breakdown or because I'm just nervous and stressed for my research defense but I've actually been wanting to do so. I'm writing this with tears in my eyes, just thinking about how my 2 year old posts will be deleted but all of those kept a big memory in my heart as Tumblr is the only place I'm so comfortable sharing those posts. I may sound dramatic but when I deleted Dior's profile, I cried hard because he was my first ever (official) twst oc I made a profile for 2 years ago
Please know that I'm not begging for y'all to give me likes, I want to earn them but I don't think my work is worthy enough, I'm just disappointed with myself and my art. Again, I'm sorry y'all
If ever you're wondering why I have to delete them, it's so that if ever I draw my babies again then my blog will have a fresh start, a clean and fresh one.
Once again, I'm very sorry for this sad dump post I did, please continue to have a great night/day! Very well then, Serenity here is taking a little break from drawing her OCs probably? Love you all 💛
#serenity💛💛💛#no I didn't delete them as in I'm trashing them away now#cuz they're still my babies and always will be#tho I'm not refraining myswlf from talking about them
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Oops I didn't mean to post that anonymously. Yes, if you have the time to post more about giffing, that would be awesome!
Okay so I'll make a quick tutorial and I hope it's easy to understand ksjsk. It's very image heavy and I apologize for any typos. We'll be making this:
So I start by taking the screencaps with Potplayer. Just open your video (preferably 1080p x264). The shortcut to take your screencaps is Ctrl + G, it'll open this window:
(those are my configurations, it's in portuguese but it's easy to understand)
I usually create a folder in Documents for each gif. Also remember to start capturing a little earlier because it takes a few seconds to start, same thing when you finish.
Now it's time to open it on photoshop! Make sure you have your timeline set up, if it's not showing up go to Window > Timeline. Now go to File > Scripts > Load File into Stacks
When this window opens, just choose your folder and click okay after it loads (might take a while if there's too many files)
So when it opens, you'll click on the 'Create Frame Animation' option in the timeline
It'll create a single layer, so go to the little button at the side and click on make frames from layers
they'll show up backwards, so go back and choose reverse frames
Now you're all set. It's time to delete what you don't want. Since tumblr accepts up to 10mb, I usually keep it between 60 frames. Really it depends on the scene and the dimensions you're gonna make your gif. (for example, if after your coloring, the background of your gif is completely black, you can go up to 175 frames, even if you make a 540x gif, i did that once lol)
So when you have your scene ready, select all frames and set your frame delay to 0,05.
Then, with all your frames still selected, convert them to video timeline
Go to your frames, select all of them and convert them to smart object
So after that, you can crop your image! Check the tumblr dimensions here. When making big gifs I like to use 540x400, 500 or 600. Just what I think it'll fit best. For 2 per row, I usually use 268x180 or 268x200. For this gif I used 540x400 and cropped it, I always try to crop the borders so there's no risk of the gif having that weird white border around it.
Then go to Image > Image Size on top of the screen
Set to the dimensions you used when cropping, so for me it was 540 x 400:
I use bicubic smoother to resample but honestly i don't really know the difference kdjsk
Now let's sharpen it! I usually use this one for big gifs (comes with a better tutorial than this kdjsk) but it's got a lot of steps to it that i like to do it myself, so i just use to sharpen it. And if you're following this tutorial, we already did all the steps on the action, so just click on the Smart Sharpen.
I also recommend this action for when you're making 268px gifs (two per row). I love this action too. Btw if you're just downloading your actions, you have to load them on those 3 little lines:
So for coloring! I use a base for most of my gifs and I edit them from there. Here's a great blog for coloring psds. If you want, I can make a separate tutorial on how I color my gifs, because it won't fit it all in 1 post.
Then I added my subtitles. Make sure the subtitle layer is on top of the coloring one so it doesn't look weird. Here's the settings I'm using for this one:
Now we're gonna add blending options. Go to the bottom of the screen with your subtitle layer selected and click on that little Fx:
I added drop shadow, outer glow and stroke:
When you're done, you're gonna want to Save for Web. The shortcut is Ctrl + Shift + Alt + S. All at once. This window will open up:
This is how I like to save them. Don't forget to make sure your gif is set to forever and less than 10mb (you can check at the bottom of the screen, below your gif, mine is 5,5mb). And you're done!
Or not. I don't know why I have this problem, but after save it, my photoshop sets the frame delay back to 0,07, and that's too slow. So I open my gif again in File > Open. Or Ctrl + O.
Select all frames and set your frame delay to 0,05 again
Do not convert to video timeline. Just Save for Web again. And now you're really done.
#gif tutorial#i hope this is not too confusing#im a terrible teacher#but please lemme know if you have any questions or if i didnt touch on something you were wondering
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My Year in Writing, 2023
And this is another situation where I wish I could pull up last year's post to use as a pattern, but I can't because my writing blog got deleted, so I'm feeling a little lost.
But I can at least see the graphs I made last year in my writing progress tracking spreadsheet, so that give me a bit of a hint as to what I would normally post here.
I wrote 183,465 words on 2023. It's my third year in a row of increases (thank you, Julie and the Phantoms!) and my first year over 150k, which was my goal for the year. I'm at 856,124 words since 2017.
I'm also super excited about winning NaNo for the first time since 2017. November was my most productive month, followed by February, when I spent most of the month working on Baby, This Rain Changes Everything, which I guess I was just excited about because I had a lot of 1k+ days.
Part of the 44k increase from 2022-2023 was due to NaNo, but I also increased my average daily word count for non-NaNo months from 291.8 to 387.5. And I do write every day--December 31 was day 2,395 of my write-ever-day streak.
What I Wrote
Other than 2% of my words for the year for Garfield, a Teen Wolf Movie fix-it fic, everything else was for Julie and the Phantoms: 81% on various scenes for Electric Boogaloo, 12% for Baby, This Rain Changes Everything, and 5% on two different AU fics that I may convert to original fiction instead.
Plans for 2024
So, the saying goes something like, "Write a million words, throw them away, now you're ready to be a writer." I didn't realize it until I was writing this up, but I'm going to hit a million words next year.
And I have to admit, in the last few months, I've started to think about writing and publishing original fiction. And that's partly because the JatP fandom is dying--I'd think the drop in kudos was because I suck, but I've seen declining kudos for new fic by big name fans, too, so it's not just me. No judgement on the fandom, it's just the nature of things. I've left a couple of fandoms myself because of a new hyperfixation. But at the same time, I had this AU idea in the spring, and thought to myself, are you really going to write a whole novel-length fic for 20 kudos?
I think I'd rather earn a couple hundred bucks instead, which seems like about what I would net if I self-pub. And I'm poor, so any little bit helps. Plus, I don't know, I just feel ready. It's partly because I read some pretty bad books this year, and it's like, OK, this got published, and in one case it got optioned and made into a TV show, and I feel like I can do better.
So, my plan for 2024 is:
Write the last ~9 scenes for Electric Boogaloo.
Write season 3, AKA the Electric Boogaloo sequel. Boogaloo is probably going to reach somewhere around 300k total, but I'm aiming for something more like 150k-200k for the sequel.
Finish the two Arrow fics I still can't give up on, even though I haven't worked on them in years. One just needs another 2k, and the other maybe 15k.
Transition to original fiction, taking the idea I had for a JatP boy band AU and "filing off the serial numbers" as I go. (Or something else--who knows what I'll be most interested next fall!)
In terms of word count goals:
I want to hit 50,000 for NaNo in November. For April and July Camp NaNos, I want to write 1,000 a day, so 30k and 31k.
I want to take it somewhat easy in the three months after NaNo events, so May, August, and December - 600/day, or 18,600 words/month.
For the other six months out of the year, I'm going to try doing "NaNoWriWeek" or 1,667 words/day for the first week of the month and then 600/day for the rest of the month, which will get me around 25k per month.
All of this totals up to about 300,000 words.
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I colored one of my Kinktober drawings. It took me this long to make Bron-Char/Korath, that’s a shame.
This year, I think I will move on from tumblr. Out of more than 600 posts last year, my highest post got about 100 notes, and most got less than 10. It’s no one’s fault, social media just isn’t built for making connections. I never got ‘whispering in the tags’ and slogging through unrelated text posts to find art was just not worth it. (and boy did I dodge a bullet never having to figure out twitter!). Plus I’m tired of covering up the porn.
So I’ve made a personal discord. Think of it like my homepage with a really big comment section. I will post all my art and other stuff, anyone can hang out and chat and post their stuff. It seems weird, but, I’m on discord more than anything so I think its worth the try! https://discord.gg/43SpA4gpvP
I will post some more of my backlog here (what can be posted uncensored) and I will not delete the blog because I need to find things here XD. But yeah, moving on.
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i fixed the links!!! (at least i think i did. theres always the potential i broke them instead)
i also finally got the thing i wrote about where im at writing wise from my drafts and in to my pinned and located my list of wips.
and deleted some of my drafts on this blog (there are still like 600 its out of control)
still. feeling proud of myself
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Keep a Link Garden!
The Internet is Big
Like, REALLY big. You just won't believe how vastly, hugely, mindbogglingly big it is - or how much this intro has been overused since Hitchhiker's Guide has been a thing.
But it is big. Big enough that if you don't have some kind of system for keeping things you want to remember, there's no way in hell that you can remember it. What is a "thing you want to remember" though?
For me, it's everything from interesting blogs and webcomics, to YouTube favorites, to pin on Pinterest, to random shops I'd love to buy things from if I had money, to cool examples and inspirations - that kind of thing.
Each platform kinda has a way of letting you organize your favorite stuff - but it only works on that platform.
Enter the humble bookmark. Remember those? Before revamping my system I had nearly 1000 of them. YIKES.
But bookmarks are just SO GOOD at being the one thing that always works to save stuff for later. No matter the platform, every piece of content has a unique URL - that's how it has to be. And with unique URLs, bookmarks become the best way to save stuff in one place no matter the platform.
Personally this became a problem for me a couple of months ago. Because of my work and general techie interests, I switch web browsers all the time. I've used 'em all. Most recently I was trying out Arc browser. It's generally quite nice! It took the spotlight/global search sort of approach to literally everything, which tickles my brain in the right ways.
There's still a big problem with Arc though - no way to export stuff very well. (Pro tip: before you commit to a software, make sure you can leave the thing easily!) And because Arc's philosophy doesn't really do bookmarks (I just had a space on the side with hundreds of "pinned tabs"), when I finally found a stupid, roundabout way to get my list of bookmarks out, it was just that - a plain old list. The organization was gone. It was just hundreds and hundreds of links all piled together into a bin with no sorting whatsoever.
So I decided that this was the time to really start organizing this pile of links. It's like the inside of my brain, covered head to toe in random sticky notes, half of which don't make sense anymore. To start things off, I found Raindrop.
Raindrop is a place to put my bookmarks that, first and foremost, isn't married to a particular browser. Whether I'm using Arc, Firefox, Safari, on any device, doesn't matter - I get to my bookmarks the same way.
Another benefit is that Raindrop's app lets me share links and stuff to it using the phone's built-in sharing function, which makes saving the bookmarks way easier!
The icing on the cake? You can upload files to it as well. Images, documents, whatever. This got me thinking. I have a rather large collection of images saved on Pinterest...
By the way, Pinterest also sucks when it comes to exporting things. I had to use a downloaded tool that crawls the account and downloads the resources it finds, which felt gross. But with my stuff out of Pinterest, it meant one less corpo-site I relied on, so I'll take it. Uploading all those pins back into Raindrop was nice and simple. Raindrop even has a "moodboard" view mode, which looks suspiciously like Pinterest's masonry look, but without the ads and tracking scripts.
After adding my old pins to the collection, my bookmark garden is now just shy of 2000 links and images. I've been spending the past couple of weeks going through the giant pile and deleting old ones, sorting the rest into fresh categories, and giving things meaningful tags. That's another thing, I love that Raindrop uses and encourages tagging! Regular browsers take note - when there's a lot of something that someone will want to find again - support tags. Please. Not that I'll be doing that since I have transcended browser bookmarks, but you know.
Lots of stuff yet to sort and tag - about 600 links and 1000 images left to go - but it's coming along. And I'm tagging things as I continue to find links to add to the garden as well. Once that process is done, I'll have that nigh-perfect system - never needing to forget something again. If I want to browse some shops, I won't go to Etsy, I'll go the shops section of my private link garden. Carefully and lovingly curated. :)
Bonus points - if Raindrop gets enshittified, they have a couple of great exporting options, including a good old OPML file that every other bookmark manager can use.
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The end of tumblr
Back in 2018, tumblr got caught with their pants down and bums exposed when it made the news, the BIG NEWS one of their blogs posted child porn. All the higher up execs and staff panicked, risk of losing their place on every platform avail, they banned nudity and pornography from this site in an attempt they were ‘doing something’ about it. Tumblr has always been a place where anything goes. Well, ALMOST anything. Despite tumblr’s community guidelines we all agreed to, blogs were breaking rules daily and if you trotted off into the dark side of tumblr, you found hideous things. Scary things. You found things you’ve never seen before or wanted to see. To this day some images have stuck with me. Some images so unbelievably gruesome and disturbing, I wish I could forget. Some blogs that posted certain nonsense were deleted. Or a post was simply removed. Then some blogs weren’t and by some magic twist of fate slipped under the radar basically forever and got away with murder. Then some other blogs were deleted with no warning or no good reason.
Then a light at the end of the tunnel? As of this year, tumblr has reinstated nudity. This unfortunately has not saved their site. The good blogs that left after the great ‘females presenting nipples ban of 2018’ didn’t come back. The posters that post haven’t been posting as much. It’s been too little too late. Oh, now you’re sorry?! Four years later?!! Nice. The blogs that were labeled ‘explicit’ stayed explicit and weren’t given the option to be rebirthed to have a site again. If you’re an explicit blog, you’re dead to tumblr. You don’t even exist.
I’m sorry to say after all that tumblr has done to try to save their site, they are hanging on by a very short thread. In an attempt to regal feelings of old, this site gets goofy, but in the most pretentious way. As a feeling of a stale corn flake that no longer serves it’s purpose. We had the click for frogs thing for no reason which was stupid. Or an old windows 95 desktop blocking half of the damn page. To keep it all hip and cute for the kiddies, now we have a tumblr store selling random, useless and stupid items. What? Nonsense. And as a cherry on the shit sundae, there is now tumblr live. What in the hell is tumblr live? Well, it is nothing more then a bunch of random and i mean RANDOM yo-yo’s who have no idea what tumblr is or who don’t even like tumblr who are streaming for no good reason whatsoever. Oh, so that’s what that is. And every week after you snooze the annoying banner of icons of the most hipster jerks you’ve ever seen in your life, tumblr live turns on again for you and it appears like some horrible thing. So you go back in your settings and have to turn it off again. You have to turn it off every week so you don’t have to look at the most horrible thing you’ve ever seen in your life: Other people. Ewwwwwwwww. What? We don’t want to see other people. We want to see what we like to see. Which is whatever we want why we’re here! Art! Old time hollywood! Movie gifs! Other shit! What the fuck does live streaming nobodys have to do with tumblr! You know how tumblr’s Q&A is basically Q&A with people you’ve never even heard of in your entire life? Same thing except much worse.
Even after all these changes, additions and ‘improvements’, would you believe that child porn blogs still exist on this site? You’re kidding? Nope, I am not. You might be asking yourself, how do you know such things? Well, I happened to have followed the wrong blog which I no longer follow which reblogged garbage. I also became aware of another blog I followed that also posted and reblogged garbage and from there saw who they reblogged garbage from and so forth and so forth. Tumblr cannot possibly handle this. Or can they? How many blogs are on this damn thing anyways? Well, after an extensive google search which was literally 3 seconds, over 500 millions blogs exist on tumblr. But how many REAL blogs is that? 500 million blogs nearing 600 million? This counts blank blogs, spam blogs and blogs that haven’t posted for ten or more years. So now how many blogs does that leave? Would you say 100 million or less actual users?
I still can’t help but feel tho with so much to oversea, there is still a right way and a wrong to handle this. What would be hard about having a special ‘team’ separate from the regular tumblr team to seep out the garbage? SO, you’re just going to keep letting pedophiles post trash?
After me reporting dozens of these blogs and even an e-mail to the CEO, these blogs are being erased one little bit at a time and some not at all? Why would tumblr have time to get rid of trash when they have to worry about designing stupid stickers or cashing in so hipsters can buy 20 checkmarks that mean NOTHING. Tumblr’s priorities are in the wrong place. You need a solid foundation first before you go off bullshitting and fucking around. And to make a functional foundation you need A: Having a functional site. B: Have it run fast. C: Fix your damn bugs. D: Make sure you’re not having a whole host of the wrong blogs. And ‘speaking’ of the wrong blogs, for a site that doesn’t allow porn there sure is a lot of it I come across. Not only porn gifs from random blogs, but full on porn blogs that reblog nothing but porn. Well, imagine that. I remember the welcome back e-mail from CEO Matt Mullenweg, who told us that now we can not think of nipples as a bad thing anymore, but allowing porn on a blog site basically doesn’t work. It SEEMS to be working pretty good for some peeps? Tumblr can’t seem to weed out it’s own troth of minions violating it’s community guidelines. How do you fix this? We don’t need a tumblr filter again. We remember what a disaster that was. Liars. You would appeal a post that had nothing to do with adult content at all and a promise it would be reviewed by a real human, only to receive an e-mail a half a second later informing you your post IS adult content and will not be restored. BOY, those tumblr staff real humans sure are quick, aren’t they? But why regal the things of old. The point is, this site is dying and not as exciting as it used to be.
Some blogs that suffered a cruel fate or having their blog labeled explicit or deleted and started a new blog found they were being targeted on the new blog and still being punished by having their archive wiped out or random posts disappear. What is that about?
Knowing there is a whole community of sick blogs that got tumblr in trouble in the first place and that got us punished means nothing has changed other then a four year gap where nakedidity (it’s a word) meant your ass. The fact that it took as long as it did for word to get out this site has blogs that post illegal crap is incredible it took that long. And now at this point we find that there are still illegal posts that a four year hiatus on tits did NOTHING.
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One thing people that I have networked with since I came into streaming things all start from blog tv I meet someone idk if that's true what he said to me is only god knows. We have been everywhere. you now bought a blog tv. you now and then +youtube just watching videos. . justin tv, twitch, mixer,trovo now kick. When I knew about streaming these stupid kids were not even born.
I made a connection with people and befriended and today I am still friends with her like a sister from another mother fact we exchanged numbers cuz we connect since blog tv now. we watch each other grow into women. Alongside, I have been associated with people I have traveled around streaming.
These people get ego by dick ride to get famous and they get recognized for the ego getting into their heads. and all sudden they think so fucking highly of themself, they forgot themself. when they nobody it all view botted. the fact is the admin himself. told me this
So this issue is on kick. this admin is a doll. He has been very doll with so far. and came back to when he could. So if they get rid of view botted all these people who think so highly of them will lose their viewership to fucking to 10-15 viewers. They fucking, not train or knut both are ogs from twitch or adin get natural viewers. none of them. So this full issue. as I have posted what I gave context and their multi told their person that knows to code and owns live bot. This kinda behavior ain't going to make kick look good. I am not one making it look bad only those with check mark goes around harassing other because they are butthurt cuz I call them out directly to the person that is view botting 600 views or 200 views their chat fucking dead. they would be like my boat just 10 viewers without a view bot. he try to gaslight me and tell me I am confused. Mr nobody even said he ain't nobody. You got somebody to get fucking target with the view bot. hater usually never want to see anyone successful why would they view a bot when it's so clear you friend the person that owns the live bot. he tries to claim that he ain't allow talk as blame on kick staff. that he is not allowed to tell me how u cheat the system? so that's what he said to me in the DMS.
That is from the admin picture. I am a blurry name cuz he has been a doll. he has done me no wrong. I am fucking call out those people who do me wrong and pretend to be supportive when they are not actually preaching.
I am like you do me wrong I will speak my mind and call you out with receipts. I have blocked all of them.
Pathological lying, also known as mythomania and pseudologia fantastica, is a chronic behavior in which the person habitually or compulsively lies. These lies often serve no obvious purpose other than to paint oneself as a hero or victim, depending on the circumstance.
this is what they all are. Doing the crime and playing the victim when they got zero proof I already leak all the dm. I have not deleted anything. they nickname calling me. I am not perfect but when I am wrong I going to defend myself. I never said I was perfect. nobody is fucking perfect.
As I said, they can twist, and flip the narrator to their liking without fucking proof. that i have harras them. Point my views about how kick left and right getting it cuz they got verified suggestion channel is fucking the dumbest. The thing should be earned. not given. you can see in DMS convo with igypc and i. This thing.
the fact they are willing to click on hot tube streams and sit on their chair with zero life hating on women cuz their content. DONT FUcking watch then. As long they dont show porn. and if that was not allowed I am pretty sure would be not verified or allowed on the kick. These people fucking hypocritical when it's their circle friend that does titties and only fans they are cool with it. But when others dont dick suck them and agree with everything they say. they going for your neck and harassing u.
IF you are a female with logical fucking brain thought kick preach the rules you are mistaken. The fact one of the people harassing brag about knowing Eddie and that if he told Eddie or other higher up he would have my ban. IF that case. They going proof my point. I came to try this platform because I honestly thought I would be felt welcomed and not harassed as I experience on twitch. But the difference about it was twitch actually did something about it when I send screenshots and proof just like I did with this one.
I am not saying Eddie or this owner or higher-ups are like this. I judge people by their actions. if they actually like that this individual aka baba. as you see in the video vod i post on youtube u can hear that guy scream telling his friend to go over and tell that B** what she does.
I am not gonna personally shut up about it. I will tell and show everyone I connect with and my network I know over twitch anyone I meet this what actually encouraged and these streamers all are a group that vouches for each other and gets stupid verified bruh. they are the ones entitled to what they deserve to get without earning it. some of them earn it cuz of their socials got a big following but I notice in discord multi people check saying they got verified and they spam even in general to people that are in the same boat and dont stream that much. just cuz she is helpful I am helpful too. I dont go around asking people to vouch for me. checkmark is fucking badge of verified not a partnership and another hand they say it is. I would put a pass on them msg kick staff for not even give a shit about me because of how hateful they are. the loudest outspoken person they feel threatened.
people don't like me because I am brutally honest and speak my mind. I don't follow fucking trends hate or wave of these big streamers or celebrities. have my own mindset and personality and opinion.
Nobody on that call they did on stream literally was the support they turn the whole shit on me. They flip and twist shit my words that I never said. just cuz she most sub and I know she probably bloc and ban me. and does not handle is m going to call her on it for flip whole attitude her ego has gotten into her head. she never came with an open mind and even if she ask if want join in her chat on the call I said no. That means no. it's like asking a person to be in the same room as their rapist. if you want me to be on the same call as all the guys that were harassing me. and mocking me as me watching the whole vod u can see in her vod real talk vod title. she say a lot and I was in tears. u expect me fucking be able to talk when I am not ready mentally and emotionally to talk about it.
It is an insult to the victim to have him/her explain why the behavior and/or actions of the bully hurt him/her! The behavior/actions of the bully should be self-evident of wrongdoing without the need for the victim to explain how exactly they hurt him/her! Imagine for example bringing a bigot who used offensive and lewd language against another person for several weeks before finally someone stepped in and decided to resolve the conflict. And that person decided that it was a good idea to bring the victim and the bully to a table to discuss things, asking each party to explain how the actions of the other party affected him/her and in doing so, it influenced his/her actions. How would the victim feel talking about how it felt to be subject to demeaning and derogatory remarks that made him/her feel worthless! Shouldn’t the words of the bully alone be condemning enough without having to drag the victim into it?
just fucking imagine how close minds all of them are.
Narcissists tend to twist the facts to make the things they do seem less bad!!!
and this is exactly what they did.
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I felt this way with the t.w.s.t fandom two years ago, again when i was in a discord server last year for SN that since got deleted, and now again. I thought it would be different because the fandom is so tiny, but here i am getting too attached and then infuriated by everything
and as a young teen i would still vent a lot in my fandom blog of like. 600 followers jfc. but it was different then... every since the pandemic, when i quite literally had nothing else to turn to, this has been my experience. feeling like i don't belong
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I wanna ask something, so like you posted something you made (a stupid edit) and like you're so excited and post it ,but then like it Literally gets zero notes (part of it cause no one actually plays the game maybe?) So you feel really sad and discouraged. How does one cope with this feeling? Especially if it's like the first time ever you posted on Tumblr👀 Asking for a friend
i think the best thing for you to do is shift your focus to posting your content for you. be proud of and excited about your work but if it doesnt get notes then who cares, you know? i understand wanting validation/constructive criticism but you should be doing it for yourself and to make you happy. trying to appeal to/please the fandom is a fruitless endeavour and you'll enjoy yourself way more when you thrive off of your own creativity rather than relying on validation from some choicenators on tumblr dot com 💗
#if you do something for notes you'll probably just end up making posts that you arent happy with 😔 when i first started this blog i used to#make get 600+ notes on each of my 'memes' by making posts that i thought the fandom would like but stuff that i didnt actually find funny#and after a while i got bored and almost deleted this blog because i wasnt enjoying it anymore. then i started posting things *i* think are#funny and even though i get way less notes than i used to i have way more fun than i ever did trying to appeal to the fandom#anyways hope something i said helped even just a little bit!! 💗#asks#anon
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Hey auckie i wanted to tell you my funny autism childhood story idk if yiu wanna hear it but perhaps you might so. Basically when j was like 12 years old i loved the tv show The Nanny, i would watch it on nick at nite like religiously every night. And i also got my best friend into it but she became like even more obsessed with it too we were both like obsessed wirh fran drescher lmao. So for some reason i made her a gift that was like, a paper doll dress up game? Like i printed out a picturs of fran drescher and also printed our pictures of different outfits you could put on her like, cute mini skirts and cardigans she wore in the nanny LMAO. And we called it Dress up drescher, like it was painstaking to make because all i had was my parents windows 98 word to make it on and i somehow scaled all the outfits to size, like i spent like days on this shit dhsvhsvsn..honestly it was cute i was a rly creative autistic child i think she might still have it too! J thought you might appreciate this lmao ✌🏼🧩 (My blog was deleted so ill just send this with email in guess lol)
Aw man they got you too? Anyways this is super cute, LOVE fran, sounds like a very healthy and positive obsession to have had as a kid and an even better outlet for it as opposed to like. Writing a 600 page. Size 80 chiller font story about fran being an elf or some shit, and then exploding your computer like I would’ve done. Here’s to the autists. The rebels and dreamers! Hope you get your blog back. Tumblr never even emailed me back they just got sick of me I think and I feel kinda bad for accidentally opening up like three separate support tickets. It’s a long story I didn’t just do it to do it
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I dont mean to be annoying at all but i sent an ask like 3 days ago and i dont think you saw it? Or you just forgot about it maybe, either way, I hope you're doing better steph 🥰
Hey Nonny!
I get a TONNE of Nonny asks daily/weekly/monthly, so even determining which one is yours without any identifying content is nigh impossible, so I can't tell you if I got it or not. As well, my state of mind coupled with ease of answering determines if I will answer it or not in a timely manner. I have over 600 asks in my inbox, and while I do read every one of them, I feel immense guilt when I don't reply to them. I actually tried to when I first started, and I had to set boundaries because it was affecting my mental health. I am really really sorry... I'm only one person with a full-time day job that I often do unpaid overtime for, freelancing on the side for spending money, and severe stress and anxiety (the same kind that unfortunately plagued my father) so I tend to try to stay off the computer when I'm done categorizing my blog for the day. I have to for my own mental health, these days.
For me, asks are used as content between the daily auto reblogs, so these days I only answer as many as I need to fill the spaces, so usually anything I can "quick answer" are more likely to get chosen.
Other types of asks I get: serious ones seeking my advice on something drain me emotionally, so I can only do one or two here or there. Meta-style asks require me to do some light research. Index asks require me to dig through 8 years' worth of tags. Fic rec asks that contain content that I can make a list for get drafted for later posting, so if it was a fic rec ask, that may be what has happened to it, and it will be an undetermined amount of time before you see it because it's based on how soon I can get a list done for it. Playlist asks are posted in the 2 PM EST timeslot whenever I get them, and one per day until I run out of them. Personal asks that get too personal for my public comfort often get bypassed, as do stuff about gossip, even if I agree with it (sometimes I will answer it if I am in a salty mood, LOL). Testimonial asks get posted right away since they don't require much more than a squee, and hate asks get laughed at and deleted (or occasionally posted if I can offer constructive counter arguments).
I get lots, and again, I am sorry for missing your ask. I try my best, but as I mentioned, one person with a full time job and very rare bouts of free time.
If you let me know which ask is yours, I'll see what I can do. Sorry again Nonny.
#steph replies#my blog#i am sorry#honestly asks like this make me feel like an absolute failure#though I know you meant no harm by it#it's my stupid brain#chatting with nonnies
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Way’! (Hello!) If you’re new to my blog, welcome! Thank you for being here! I initially planned on doing an event for my 100 followers milestone, but we got so close to 500 so fast, so here we are doing it now! I’m so thankful for everyone who’s shown me support and taken the time to interact with me and my posts! Your encouragement is what keeps me going and I really love putting out content for you all to enjoy! In celebration of 5 milestones in one, I’d like to host an event to show my appreciation for you all!
There will be a few options to choose from for this event! Please only choose one!
1. Matchup & Headcanons: I usually host a matchup event every weekend, and since this event will likely spill into the weekend I’m going to reduce my workload and put matchups into the event options!
2. Moodboards: This is new for me! I don’t want to overwhelm myself here so I’m going to list some rules below. But essentially, you will be given a moodboard for you + your character of choice as well as a song!
3. Anime Matchups: Diverging a little from my usual matchup format, this one will be more of a personal and less of a relationship type matchup for those of you who prefer it!
4. Ship Playlist: We all know playlists are my love language, so this will be a mini playlist (5 songs max) for you and the character of your choice created based on the description you give me!
5. Kin Matchups: Similar to regular matchups except instead of assigning you a character ship, I will assign you what character you seem the most like!
All I ask if you’re participating is that you’re following me! Of course if you’re new or just found me through this event, you’re still welcome to participate if you just started following me. Anonymous requests are of course accepted as I know it can be wildly anxiety inducing to come off of anon, but again I just ask that you only request if you’re a follower of mine! Of course this is an honour system type thing. It takes a lot of time and energy for me to do these things and I love doing them so I would like to continue to be able to offer this :) I will be closing this event either when I reach 600 or when I get overwhelmed with requests LOL. Also please only request once and make sure to check out the guidelines below! Any requests that don’t follow the rules/guidelines will be deleted. FEEL FREE TO LIKE/REBLOG THIS POST
PLEASE CLICK THE READ MORE FOR REQUEST TEMPLATES
REQUEST TEMPLATE: SHIP MATCHUPS
Please send the following emoji along with your request: 🌹
Emoji + "Ship Matchup"
MBTI and/or Enneagram
Zodiac (if you want)
A short blurb about your core personality
A short blurb about what you want in a partner
Hobbies or interests you may have!
Please note these will be SHORTENED VERSIONS of my regular matchups to account for the additional volume of requests coming in with the event. If you want a longer matchup feel free to wait until I’m back to a regular schedule!
REQUEST TEMPLATE: MOODBOARDS
Please send the following emoji along with your request: 🥥
Emoji + "Moodboard Request"
5 description words/phrases/ideas that encompass your personality (see my about me page for an example)
5 description words/phrases/ideas that encompass your personal style
A character you would pair yourself with
A colour to define you
Moodboards will be 9 images that I think give off the vibe of you and your relationship with your preferred character!
REQUEST TEMPLATE: ANIME MATCHUPS
Please send the following emoji along with your request: 🍄
Emoji + "Anime Matchup"
MBTI and/or Enneagram
Zodiac (if you want)
A short blurb about your core personality
A short blurb about your favourite genre of anime
Hobbies or interests you may have!
REQUEST TEMPLATE: SHIP PLAYLIST
Please send the following emoji along with your request: 🌚
Emoji + "Ship Playlist"
MBTI and/or Enneagram
Character you want to be paired with
A short blurb about your vibes
A short blurb about your relationship vibes with this character
Favourite genre of music
REQUEST TEMPLATE: KIN MATCHUPS
Please send the following emoji along with your request: 🌊
Emoji + "Kin Matchup"
MBTI and/or Enneagram
Zodiac (if you want)
A short blurb about your core personality
A short blurb about your favourite genre of anime
Hobbies or interests you may have!
#tokyo revengers smut#tokyo revengers#tokyo revengers x reader#tokyorev x reader#tokyorev smut#tokyo revengers imagines#tokyo revengers x you smut#tokyo revengers headcannons#tokyorev headcanons#tokyo revengers drabble#tokyorev
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(feel free to delete this since it isn't in theme!) i just wanted to let u know i agree w/ you 100% on the "so what" thing you left in the tags of the last post. as someone who also has very fluid identities, it's always so weird and frustrating to see things saying one label is all you'll have for the rest of your life and such. idk, seeing ur tags made me feel a lot less alone bcuz i've never seen anyone relate to that before!! wishing you well my friend :)
oh gosh this is so old. sorry. didn’t delete it, i saw it then but it just got buried by like 600 submissions and i forgot.
i’m glad i’m not the only one who feels so weird and frustrated by the whole like... societal Thing around insecurity/”badness” of changing labels. like... my everything is too fluid for me to ever feel like i’ll fully settle in any “one” identity. even the rate at which my gender changes enough that sometimes i’m not sure if i am genderfluid, but recall that my gender is distinctly different than previously.
i struggle with running a blog with an identity people tend to be especially insecure about, because it honestly feels invalidating of the fluidity of my identities when i see people so scared all the time about being “right”. like, am i wrong because my labels shift over time, am i wrong because there’s sometimes just not a label that expresses me, am i wrong because my identity is, by nature, a collection of approximations or umbrella terms with constantly shifting microlabels when I care to find them? and personally i’m far enough in my acceptance that I don’t really worry about it, but it still stings.
also, tbh, if someone doesn’t accept that “oops, I thought I was this and turns out i’m actually something else”, or “I was that and no longer am”, then it is them who need to adjust. not us.
- mod kee
#not aro culture#aro#aromantic#actually aro#actually aromantic#ask#mod kee#not gonna search for the og post#but if someone finds it feel free to link it in a reblog/reply#Anonymous
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