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Working on another big GLaDOS and Caroline piece. In the meantime have this dumb doodle I did
#glados portal 2#portal 2 glados#Wheatley#GLaDOS#wheatley portal#portal wheatley#wheatley portal 2#portal 2 wheatley#I have no idea how to draw people with their hands behind their back#it was certainly an attempt#I think I drew GLaDOS a little scary here
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Thoughts on the thunder wizard again.
Genuinely, I find Gale's relationship with Mystra to be fascinating when you consider all its facets. Unhealthy, imbalanced, definitely poisonous, but also very, very intricate with a lot of blurred edges to it. One of those things where you're both like "wow, what the hell, that's horrible" but also "that makes perfect sense for their characters, and while I would NEVER, I know why they would, and why it happened."
You've got a wizard who doesn't know what real love is, who thinks he's finally being shown it by the person he adores most. His greatest fantasy, his most potent joy, his most heartfelt aspirations, and they were all offered to him.
And he wants to see what all she's hiding from him, because of course he does. She's the keeper of all things forbidden to him. The empire of Netheril reached magical heights that will never be touched again, and all that knowledge is beyond her curtain. She loves him, right? Surely, if he proves himself enough, she'll let him grasp that power he so desperately wants.
And not even in the power-hungry sense! All that magic Mystra's locked up was accessible during Mystryl's reign. Think of all the answers to theories about the universe that are back there. Every question of "can this be done, and what would it do" would be answered, if he could just bargain hard enough.
She loves him, right?
Surely, if he proves himself enough...
And then, on the other hand, Mystra. Once Midnight, her human personality has been subsumed by the goddess of magic and her duty to the Weave. She has a responsibility to magic, she IS magic.
Then along comes this mortal boy who knows how to handle her Weave. Who doesn't try to wrestle with and dominate, who sings to it. He handles it with such ease and grace—it's not just that he could be Chosen, but he deserves it. To put her Weave in the hands of someone so intrinsically in tune with it, who understands its potential with a wonder like no other. Few enough can handle the raw power that comes with being Chosen, but this one? This one is perfect.
And he adores you. And you adore him, like one would a beautiful butterfly that's landed on their finger. And he's willing to be devoted to you in all things, not out of transaction like most of your worshipers are, but out of love for you, your craft, your magic. You're so deeply and utterly charmed by him.
And it's not like Mystra hasn't walked this path before.
She gives him what he desires, because what he desires is her. And, in a different way, she desires him. She wants him to be her representation in the world. She indulges his adoration with her own presence, and takes indulgence herself in mortal comforts. He's never satisfied with her answers, but who could blame him? She keeps a whole world away from mortals, because she knows what such unfettered power might bring about (again).
And the wizarding prodigy's ambition is lit (again).
And the height of power is reached for (again).
And she stops him (again, again, again).
She does care for him. She doesn't want to see her little butterfly burn himself, and she doesn't want to be the one to ruin those wings.
But then he's not a butterfly. He's a mortal, wielding a weapon of murder, of her murder, and he's brought it to her doorstep because she told him "no." And he's cut himself on it, he doesn't know what it is, but it's hurt him—and it's only a fraction of the hurt it could do to her. How dare he want her help after threatening her?
(He didn't mean to.)
(He only wanted to help.)
(He only wanted. How human.)
She doesn't help him. If he wants to pursue Karsus' weaponry, it's his responsibility, his hubris, that led him to injuring himself on it. She's furious. She's hurt. She's cold.
(What fools these mortals be.)
But then, there's a greater threat to her. Something that could drown the Material in Karsus' failings. And that little boy, who nicked himself on the sword he lifted, still wants her help.
It's a fair trade, isn't it? She'll forgive him, let him into her domain again, if he accepts his punishment and goes into battle for her. He picked up a sword, it's appropriate that he learns to use it in her name, right?
If he was telling the truth, he wouldn't hesitate. If he really wanted to serve her with the Netherese Orb, he would jump at the opportunity to do so. He would have to give up a few petty things in the process, ("petty," she calls mortality, as if family and home mean nothing, as if friends and love are finite. Because to her, they do mean nothing. Because to her, they are finite.) but it isn’t atonement without sacrifice, is it?
It's the tactical move. She's not above hurting one man to save a nation. It's not even the first time she's done it.
(Dornal Silverhand sends his regards.)
If he loves her, he'd die for her, because she'd let him into her paradise. If he doesn't love her, he won't, and she was justified in removing him from her grace.
He doesn't love her. Not anymore.
Does he hate her enough to try to take his dues?
Ambition has always been man's greatest folly.
#bg3#gale dekarios#gale of waterdeep#mystra#listen. go watch steven universe where rose says 'i'm not a real person'#pay attention to how rose laughs at greg and how funny and sweet humans are#that's how i think mystra sees her chosen#but she lacks rose's willingness to change and dip into mortal life#gale is cute. gale is precious. gale is wonderful. but gale is amusing.#and he's not equal to a god. certainly not the goddess of magic. and his attempts to insist that he is are only met with a pat on the head#long post#oops i turned a ramble into poetry again. i swear it's not intentional#the parentheses got me :/
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sibling :( always thought about that little fellow where hornet's first fight takes place, poor critter
another sketchy murky one! also, on a completely unrelated note, i am completely overwhelmed by how kind everyone here is, you're all wonderful, thankyou so much
#hollow knight#greenpath vessel#the knight#greenpath#an attempt at the mothwing cloak#this one didn't quite turn out how i wanted but that's okay!#i am thinking that ghost removed the nail stuck into them—i certainly did not forget it :)#queruloustea
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If you remember this post I tried doing it again- 2nd time was the charm!
Alt version with just Volo because by god this was 80 layers of rendering and I'm proud of it-
#pokemon legends arceus#pla#volo#pokemon legends arceus volo#pla volo#pokemon wielder volo#togekiss#pokemon legends#sunset#my art#2ND TIME WAS THE CHARM BABEYYYY LETS FUCKING GO IM SO PROUD#i finally feel confident drawing this crazy blonde man. im doing him proud#am i proud of the togekiss? well there was certainly an attempt#also second artwork im posting with nightshade! honestly not as bad as tumblr killing the quality lol
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sasuke: i’m still glad we made up and all but….
naruto: …..but?
sasuke: us killing each other would have been SO romantic
naruto: i was JUST thinking about that—
#naruto#naruto shippuden#naruto incorrect quotes#sasunaru#sns#uchiha sasuke#uzumaki naruto#the way their brains work is The Same™️#also i think they frequently think about the homoeroticism of their attempts to murder each other#i CERTAINLY do#it’s one of those things i try to sneak in whenever i write fics for them but i dont think it EVER comes across#i want to write a full fic dedicated to it one day cause#UGH#the joy that you get to keep living together versus the regret that you couldn’t die together#the knowledge that the life you were so determined to claim#that you alone wanted to take#will likely be taken by something else#and you’re happy you don’t have to do it but you’re devastated something else will#UGH a favorite theme of mine#i want to explore it narratively i want to explore it narratively SO bad#sorry if this sounds off my meds wore off like three hours ago#and im going insane thinking about their dynamic to distract myself ig
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I feel like The Father and Hell both understand and experience love in all the worst ways.
The Father sought to create a life form that would follow and love him unconditionally. It wasn't enough that he had a great cosmic kingdom of angels who are unquestioningly loyal, no, he needed something that knew suffering and mortality and the threat of oblivion, and would still find love at the end; love for him above all else. But after numerous implied failures at that, in his desperation, he instead created the threat of eternal damnation to force them to love him in order avert that fate. Lucifer's words must have been like a splash of cold water, but by the time he realized sheer magnitude of suffering he had unintentionally set into motion, it was too late.
He could not destroy Hell; he could not stop the cycle of violence.
That guilt drove him to seek a death that, from the looks of it, eluded him in spite of the hollowness consuming him. And now he is... somewhere, helpless to stop his experiments from consuming one another and themselves in a glorious show of blood and violence.
And then there's Hell itself, who seems to recognize love as an act of violence and cruelty. It is something that derives joy only from the suffering of other living creatures. God gave it so many toys to hurt and break and reform, and Mankind gave it new ones. Why would it understand love as anything but? It gave Minos a facsimile of the son he is most ashamed of, and delighted when he cast it, once more, into a labyrinth. Gabriel flattened all the souls within it's confines beneath his heel and gave those that did bend false hopes.
Now there's V1, tearing its way through the remaining layers and creating a spectacle of violence like nothing Hell has ever witnessed before. How could it not love them all for all the entertainment they've provided?
But deep within its recesses, hidden away from the eyes of Heaven, there was a Gutterman. A machine built for war, who eventually came to love that which it gave it life at the cost of their own. Enough to give the human welded within their coffin the mercy that both Heaven and Hell had denied them; enough to write a single love letter to them, even knowing that it would never be read by its intended recipient.
So, as things turn out, you /can/ teach a machine to love. And they will understand and experience it more sincerely than God or Hell ever could.
#ULTRAKILL#ULTRAKILL spoilers#Mind you this is all just speculation#We still don't know if Hell is aware that the machines will inevitably try to consume it too once the souls and demons run dry#and if it is then whether or not it has a plan to stop that from happening or if it actually /wants/ to be destroyed#or perhaps--like Father like creation--it simply thinks it /cannot/ be destroyed#and we certainly still don't know where God fucked off to after his suicide attempt or why#If he left to seek the end of his days elsewhere#Or--as the first testament might imply--if he's got a new angle#Sorry 7-S got my brain buzzing and there's not a whole lot of game left to get the answers to those particular questions#If they are intended to be answered at all or simply left unknown by the blank slate boomer shooter protagonist#through which we all experience this wild ride#Anyways not a lot of this fandom talks about the Testaments effectively being God's vent posts#and I find both amusement and mild horror at their very existence
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April 16th 2023 vs April 16th 2024
A redraw of my first ever hockey bros drawing from a year ago!!
It is also the one year anniversary of my tumblr blog :) totaled-drama has been around for one whole year!!!!!
#total drama#marsh’s td art#total drama raj#total drama wayne#do not tag as ship please#my art style has. certainly changed since then ajshsjsh#you can tell that the first one was my first ever attempt at drawing them 😭 /lh
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tried to draw rakan in the 2XKO style
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#league of legends#league of legends fanart#rakan#rakan fanart#2xko#my art#rakan the charmer#an attempt was certainly made
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Reading pulp fantasy and understanding how it shaped the fantasy genre is extremely fascinating because its like "oh, that's why every Strong Female Character heroine of the 80s-90s fantasy boom was Like That, huh"
#like whoof the fantasy pulps of the 30s were a bad time for literally any female character at all#even when there was any bit of like narrative agency or protag focus given to a character its like WE MUST DESCRIBE HOW SEXY SHE IS! TITS!#like knowing pulps shaped the zeitgeist of ADnD is like#yknow what. i think its a fucking miracle we got any female characters at all out of that actually#like certainly it's uhhhh antiquated attempts sometimes but. holy god.
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A fun anatomy / pose study of my dragon Suns design I did a couple days ago. Still playing with colours and patterns👌
#rain world#seven red suns#dragon iterators#my art#assembly#i had a lot of fun with this one actually#i was just fucking around at first but then i ended up being alarmingly high effort about it#probably the weirdest and most complex pose ive ever attempted to draw#that rarefaction cell is almost certainly too big now im looking at it. but eh. fuck it
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Yukari can come off as a very different sort of character depending on what it is that you personally see underneath the layers of cryptic bullshit
for me, she kind of seems a little pathetic - in an endearing, lonely, and impotent sense, where she fails at making and keeping friends due to being, frankly, kind of awful to deal with on a personal level
Take, mainly, her interactions with Kasen in WaHH ch. 35
To me, it seems like she doesn’t want to - or can’t - internalize that she and Kasen are not friends anymore. Even just before this panel, she plays off Kasen’s rejection like it’s a joke to her and glides past it.
And there’s different ways you can take even that interpretation. For instance it could be a power move, a display of dominance - she doesn’t afford Kasen enough agency to even consider Kasen cutting ties to be valid.
But for me it feels like it’s because it would hurt her too much. Kasen is a friend of very, very, very old. It’s not clear how long they’ve known each other, but they’ve both been active since at least the middle of the Heian era--if they’ve known each other for even just most of that time, Kasen and Yukari have been friends since even before Yukari met Yuyuko and have had, as Sages, all of Gensokyo’s history as a shared experience. It’s possible that Kasen is Yukari’s oldest still-present friend and the friend with whom she has experienced the most (although personally I’d suspect Okina goes back a little further, and has about equal claim to shared experiences).
That’s... a big void to fill. A great, and terrible pain. Especially for someone who, frankly, does not seem to have very many friends left that she can really relate to and even fewer that she can be unreservedly open with.
And what I see is someone who is simply not prepared or willing to deal with that pain. Someone who, to not be overtaken by her own loneliness, needs to convince herself that she and someone who wants nothing to do with her are still friends. Kasen will come back because she has to come back because she wasn’t really leaving.. or else that growing hole in Yukari’s heart will get a little bit larger than she can deal with.
That is the lens that I tend to view Yukari through.
(Of course, a lot of this flows from my interpretation of Perfect Memento as suggesting that Yukari is secretly human - I tend to see her as someone in way over her head, vulnerable and trapped in a web of deception meant to hide that vulnerability)
(as an aside, my other, contradictory, interpretation of this scene is, okay, first you take the fanon that Suika raised Kasen. Second you take the canon that Suika is possibly Yukari’s oldest friend. Third, you assume therefore that Yukari knows Kasen through Suika. Fourth, you conclude that Yukari thinks of Kasen like a step-daughter and thus is here exhibiting something between parental patience and parental lack of respect for autonomy)
#touhou#touhou project#yukari yakumo#yakumo yukari#it certainly adds a certain angle to her attempts to make Ran less computer-like and more person-like#headcanon#meta#A queue in the dark beguiles me
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there's an animorphs book (28, idk why i'm acting like i don't still have that shit memorized) where the animorphs hear the yeerks are developing like a pill or ray or other scifi whatsit that removes people's free will and the animorphs are like "holy shit if they crack this it's game over" and the entire time cassie is like "lol you idiots. free will is inherent to sentient creatures and cannot be removed while an individual still lives" and then at the end it turns out she's right and the yeerk scientists were faking their data because they were scared of their boss (a running theme in animorphs and one of my favorite bits because like yeah actually the idea that one of the stumbling blocks of a ruthless galactic empire would be internal dysfunction stemming from the megalomania of one of their highly ranked officers... absolutely tracks with actual reality). that's how i feel when people are like "can AI write a brilliant novel?"
#no it can't and in ten years it will seem stupid that people entertained this question seriously#maybe - MAYBE - AI can get to a point where it can put together a coherent longform narrative that people with low standards accept as a boo#*book#and certainly i do think that people will come up with ways to integrate AI into their own processes that might result in good shit#and ofc penny-pinching employers in all kinds of jobs will attempt to use AI to replace the labor of creative workers which sucks#but just on the question of 'will AI all by itself achieve artistic greatness?' no#it won't and the question is not worth expending five seconds of thought on
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the problem with dixon tim-steph is that it's written by dixon but it's also really the only time that tim-steph is actually kind of interesting (to me)
#sorry i don't hate tim-steph let me be clear even if i ultimately don't ship them too much#i actually find their messiness in the dixon era very interesting to dissect & very realistic for 14/15 year olds#trying out their first relationships & learning how to be in a relationship#steph and her determination to ignore that a guy she likes already has a girlfriend & her inability to regard ari at all#tim and his culpability in. letting the whole steph thing happen bc things are messy with ari#despite some attempts by him to stop it#just the overall messy & mean way they each treat the other once they're finally formally dating#anyways it's leagues above lewis (sorry. they were certainly. better to each other. but it was far more boring.)#(and that was also a subpar tim and a subpar steph & lewis just had tim tweeing over steph the way fitz has tim twee over bernard in tdr#(so.) (don't make me bust out my lewis run & tdr are similar in all the ways that weaken the story post) (actually i might.)#anyways the thing is that there's so much there in dixon dynamic wise that's like. i don't like those dynamics in things i ship#but it was interesting at least <3
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listen i get where people are coming from when they say that nobody should have expected a radical overhaul of the shinobi system considering the series very squarely set up its main theme as not abandoning friends. that certainly was the setup. but i also think it would be inaccurate to say that the story as it evolved affirmed that refusing to abandon one's friends was the be-all and end-all fix for everything. i cannot emphasize this enough: it's not as though the prior generations we saw lacked devotion to their teammates. the problem was that the larger sociopolitical circumstances obstructed their ability to connect in one way or another. even naruto acknowledges at the land of iron that his and sasuke's positions made it impossible for them to reconcile. so for the series to do a 180 and assert that actually friendship was the solution all along (even though there have been no meaningful systemic changes, even though the source of these intergenerational conflicts has not been addressed) rings hollow. it's especially glaring that being violently beaten in a fight makes sasuke desert his quest for justice without any reservation -- therefore no ideological or political separation was bridged, sasuke was just made to forget what motivated him for the entire series' run. naruto and team 7 succeeding where their predecessors failed was not a function of anything they did differently, but mere narrative convenience.
#like. nearly every prominent relationship in this series is definitive proof that love is not enough!#itachi without a doubt loved sasuke and itachi hurt sasuke more immensely than anyone and itachi did it because of loyalty to the state#if that is how you love... your love is worth nothing#so yeah it just feels really disingenuous to say that the series was about the power of friendship all along#and people expecting anything else were watching the wrong series#when textually the power of friendship has ALWAYS proven insufficient#naruto#naruto meta#team 7#and listen u could certainly argue that the friendship in previous gens was deficient because there was no attempt made#at understanding or compromise. and to really live by obito's nindo you had to prioritize each other over country ALWAYS#but the series didn't do that either. sasuke for all intents and purposes 'lost'#and he was integrated back into konoha by accepting the hitai-ate#nrt had a bunch of weird mixed messaging on that front in general. like hiruzen letting orochimaru go which proved disastrous for konoha#or hiruzen and danzo's whole thing lmao#but whether the uchiha massacre was right/necessary was also left ambiguous so i'm not sure how that's supposed to paint hiruzen
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So, I finished AC The Golden City. And I have thoughts:
Hytham is baby
Basim is a sassy tease
Hytham is bABY
Basim cares more easily for people than he cares to admit
Hytham is my boi, my big-hearted loving boi
Basim will most likely take anything you say he can't do, turn it into a challenge, and prove you wrong
HYTHAM QWQ
Basim calls Hytham "my friend", after almost every sentence <33
I didn't think I could love Basim's brain and Hytham's heart more
"In the grove you were elegant - the picture of grace," Basim said. "Now you fight like a vicious dog. I can't decide which version of you I like more."
"Really?" Basim grinned. "You know I do so love a challenge, Hytham."
"You'll be shocked, I'm sure, to learn that arrogance is a fault of mine." - Basim, and no, we're really not that shocked
"If we're lucky Isaac thinks he's taken me out of the fight."
"Should you be out of the fight?" Hytham couldn't help but observe, as Basim winced again when he tied off the bandage.
Basim smiled at him, and it was not a pleasant expression. "Your sense of humor is one of the many things I like about you, my friend."
#assassin's creed#assassin's creed the golden city#ac#ac the golden city#basim#basim ibn ishaq#hytham#jaleigh johnson#thought#my thoughts#overall I enjoyed the book it was a fun read#nothing world changing but entertaining#honestly I'm just attempting to consume all the Basim content I can get my grubby little hands on#and I'm certainly falling more in love with Hytham in this process precious boi#I'm calling this research
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AU where Gentry and Katy set their differences aside and star the hunt of certain Deer deity.
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#transcript in alt#pocket talks to people#anon#ask game#deer deity#alt text#'how long did it take you to draw these while in bed' no comment next question pls#wow can't believe there was some other impersonator divinity deer. how nice of my friends to take care of that for me#because i certainly am not foolish enough to do anything to get on their bad sides#not that I'm even sure if i could if i tried... katydid much appreciates the dfo stick and gentry laughed at my attempt to make them cry so#there is nothing to fear for my sake little nonny ^^
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