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3-aem · 3 months

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struggling with this piece and every time i open layers i get jump scared by how the coloring looks

#im hungry and sad and angry #but trudging stubbornly through it #bc i am stubborn #when there are two overlay layers you know theres a fight happening #me: YOU WILL BE BLUE BE BLUE RIGHT NOW #colors: *is purple*#was about to say its more art than science and then like DUH #but also it is science i feel bc color theory but im too hungey to think about color theory im thinking about a deep dish pizza and a heavy #HEAVY THICK #heaping of mac n cheese #the kind of meal that has so much lactose it will strap me to the toilet for the next 5 hours

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bittermuire · 6 months

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I’m cursing your bloodline, ao3 user vanyamoon

#however many months ago when i saw their PATHETIC rip off of my fic i was like. better let it go. whatever girl. it’s fine. BUT NOW IM NOT #SO SURE BECAUSE WHAT THE FUCK #you’re going to take my child my firstborn my canon adjacent sad angry resigned nesta x reprehensible hungry wanting rhysand and STEAL IT??#at least do a better job of hiding it!!!!!#anyways it’s chill it’s chill whateverrrr #(im shaking with rage)#(i had one of those magical iced coca colas from mcdonalds and it’s IN my bloodstream. i’m prepared to fight)#<3 #have a great wednesday

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doctor-says-im-alright · 3 months

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Ive been wondering lately if I really do have bipolar with psychotic features or if I have schizoaffective. Idk why the idea of bipolar though is so offensive to me lol. I think its because I never really feel grandiose and thats just an unfair part of the bargain.

The main difference I found is psychosis symptoms outside of mood episodes. Ive been trying to figure that out, but as my moods are really long, Im not sure. I was thinking maybe that is true because this year I seem to launch into paranoia in a single afternoon instead of over months. But thats associated with a stressed mood, not anything neutral? Idk. My paranoia is generally after Ive become fully stressed, but honestly, it is possible I have delusions constantly. How do you even know? I know I have OCD but I am so fixated on death that it might be more delusional than just OCD - like I do have rituals but its mainly just stressful thoughts that Im being haunted and the proof was a dead bug.

But the past week I noticed I shifted into a different phase. Im suddenly energetic or agitated. Like laughing hysterically, talking a lot, becoming really upset or angry, sad, overwhelmed, and constantly unreasonably scared. Everything is a threat. I seem to be really focused on fires happening for some reason. I am sleeping way more than normal, actually my sleep is suddenly really stressful. I dont go to sleep unless I take meds but thats normal for me, but now I cant get up. Ill wake up and its like Im magnetised to the bed and am stuck for awhile until I actually wake up. I sleep 12-14 hours but when I look at my Fitbit data its somehow only 5-6 hours in that time Im asleep. I know it, too. Its like Im not asleep and am in my room but dreaming in it. I didnt even realize I was so upset about this until I saw a post by someone talking about training their service dog to wake them up properly and asking how to do it and I could cry with the relief if I could figure out something mine could do to help me with it.

I generally always get told Im too self aware to have any psychosis issues and I think Im good at sounding self aware but Im actually not at all. I have no idea what Im thinking or feeling, Im guessing based on any knee jerk things that may have come out. Like last year I was in the psych ward for paranoia, but I hadnt even noticed or was able to communicate, but can see it now, that I was actually in danger of attacking people because I believed they were going to kill me first, and that had been my motivation to go in. And it wasnt even the person I said I was paranoid of.

I cant even figure out if my hand hurts or not. I have no idea what Im thinking or feeling. I know Im jumpy and on level 100 of agitation. I just suddenly start crying, Im overwhelmed with proofs of life and death. If someone tells me a joke I literally cry laughing. My words are mixing up and I feel like I cant say anything. I read things Ive written and even Im like what?? What does that even say. I know I am having PTSD symptoms - thats a given with me. I know for months Ive been hyperfocused on it, its been a source of anger outbursts.

Like for some reason the thought of romance or sex or any relationship sends me into a flying rage. My dog licking my other dog disturbs me so deeply I immediately lose it and have to run outside or throw something. People talking about love and needing people makes me feel so revolted. Ive been half dating someone and they mentioned kissing and Im ready to set myself and everyone else on fire. I cant stand the thought of desire and needing someone and craving them it is disturbing and I want to be sick thinking about it. But Im not normally like this at all. Not at all.

I am asexual and aromantic and my friend keeps making sex jokes and referencing my being asexual and I swear to god Im going to throw up on him or hit him with a wooden spoon. Havent decided yet.

#does anyone else get disturbed by proofs of life #i made a list recently #mainly food bothers me the most #like people being hungry or eating just sparks deep fear in me because that proves they are alive and its a risk #its the strangest thing #because it can also completely snap me out of a rage episode #like if im mad at someone and I see them #pouring a glass of water #then i am suddenly desperately sad and scared instead of angry #how can you hate someone who is pouring a glass of water #half eaten food in the fridge is one of the most disturbing to me #but also the back of the head is a proof of life and terrible

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mariemariemaria · 4 months

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Does anybody else feel the waves of history crashing over them constantly and like they can't escape the generational trauma that permeates and poisons every interaction they have or do I just need to chill and have a drink lol

#'our day has come and we are here. we are alive here. we've built this place. we suffered and starved here.#we own not an acre of land we belong to it. the land of cú chullain and macha. ní muid 'hungry crocodiles'. we are full.#full of knowledge. and talent. and success.#full of drink. and drugs. and stories.#agus beautiful ceol. that spills on sundays. from the windows of ancient pubs like smoke #tá vóta agam. tá acht Gaeilge agam. agus táimid sa rialtas.#we are the landscape. we are the trees and the rivers and the mountains. an integral piece of someone else's infrastructure.#growing strong between cracks in the concrete.'#and whatever else seán an seanchaí said.....#would recommend his instagram. his posts always hit #ngl tho when men post stuff like this about ireland i always think...do you see the similarities between this and patriarchy tho?#but maybe im better off not knowing the answer #whatever!!! we will persevere!!! we will help one another and build trust and relations and improve no matter what governments say or do!!!#just like generations have been doing before us!!! and we who have benefited from our parents making this place better will work to make it #better for our children. who will make it better for theirs.#and maybe i need to stop shying away from difficult conversations. maybe we all do. and maybe then we'll be okay.#my thoughts on mental health + the north + my own personal experience is such a mish mash of several different things #im only truly starting to realise that it's all connected. yes i got depression because i was lonely and vulnerable. but also because of th #trauma my family's been through. and sometimes i feel so angry thinking about what certain family members have been through #and there has been too much silence surrounding it. but maybe i just have to feel the anger and sadness and allow myself to feel it #but continue reaching out and trying to talk and having cups of tea and walking my dog and making memories.#memories that aren't political or based on trauma. to get out of my head and realise that yes this was a terrible thing #but there's so many good things too. and the best thing i can do is to try to make life better for those who lived through the worst of it #and make society better for those who are too young to know any of it yet.#instagram is actually a tonic for me sometimes. would never get such taig specific posts on here like the one from seán #which is probably a good thing lol

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echo-s-land · 7 months

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Someone told me that he 'like hanging around with me' and he 'love my smile' today

#years after my birth im finally finding out the genuine joy of making friends #also relief. ive got so used for my mere existence to be an annoyance to other people as a child so its so important to me when people say #they like to have me around #had to turn down a very big socialization opportunity bc i was hungry and i couldnt come with him - will try to make up for it next time #what he said was totally platonic btw hes gay and im not a man #he also told me 'when i first met you i thought you were trans' and the urge i felt to come out to him and say 'YES ACTUALLY (but also here #the nuances:') but it came out of nowhere and there were bystanders so i didnt want to risk it and just. 'honestly im not sure' was the bes #half-truth half-lie i could muster #but hey he made me comfortable with coming out to him so one day perhaps #gosh i wish im not going to mess up this newly forming friendship (?) with my little to non-existent social skills #man also has the same dumb humor as me. i have to find a way to keep him around #my mom would burst into tears if she knew how much i smile talk and am open around him. not my fault he is a person whom you naturally feel #safe around #normally people ask me if im 'angry/pissed/annoyed/sad' because i have a resting bitch face and dont talk much to anyone #the surprise people must feel once they get to know me better.. granted i cant name any but whatever lol

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notahorseindisguise · 1 year

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im so angry at everything and the world is a terrible place. oh Nvm im hungry ig

#my body doesnt get hungry so ot makes me angry instead #i know thats a normal experience #but its extra for me cause i have meds that just make me be Not Hungry #so when i should be experiencing hangry #i dont get the hungry #i just get Angry #and then after angry i get light headed and angry #and then i get light headed and sad #and then i get light headed and sad and angry (where i am right now)#and then i finally realise ou im hungry #and then i eat #but im in the car rn and cant eat anything filling and i wont be home for another 15 minutes #so now im just lightheaded and sad and angry #someone come here and cuddle me ill try not to yell at u but i need cuddles #i assume everyones stopped reading at this point this why im putting my yearning in here #sigh #corntent

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nullio · 2 years

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brb, I'm walking blindfolded near a cliff

Girl...

I'm absolutely not saying that Cavill was the sole reason I watched the show- but I can say that after season 3 I'm gonna throw out the whole tv and burn my body with it ✌️

Mr. Cavill breathed SO MUCH life into the character and did so much upkeep and just 🥲🥲 idk,,, I'm not saying that noone else can or could've played Geralt, but who we got was Henry Cavill and there's nothing in this world that can replace him

I'm allowed to have a little cringe 🥲 as a treat

#the witcher #henry come back #please baby #was it something i said #she speaks #SHE MOURNS #SHE SCREAMS #rant #henry cavill #geralt #geralt of rivia #netflix #im so sick of ppl thinking we can just replace actors #im angry and tired and sad :(#and hungry #and i have a headache

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joyofmissout · 1 year

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BRO WHY I CANT EAT IM SO MAD

#i am hungry i need to eat but i simply cant cause im too sad THIS SUCKS ASS SO MUCH #IM SO ANGRY @ MYSELF I NEED TO GET BETTER #idk what to do anymore i really dont what if i never recover from this what the fuck #my body is like please girl go eat something while my brain just wont let me!!!!!!!#wishing this guy the worst vibes ever for doing this 2 me #i really dont know what to do anymore i just cant eat i cant feel better #i cant smile sincerely i cant move on! AND I NEED TO MOVE ON FOR THE LOVE OF GOD #IM SO ANGRY

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iphisesque · 1 year

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btw one thing about me is that i am ALWAYS crying. i mostly don't do it in front of my friends so they don't think I'm a weirdo but the SECOND i am left alone the waterworks WILL start and that is a promise

#i cry because im happy i cry because im sad because im tired im excited im angry i had a fun time im hungry or sleepy.#im basically like a baby except i can speak. which is extremely embarrassing but it's fine

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i-love-u-loser · 2 months

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And the world's biggest fuck you to my job who somehow CANT FIND anyone to cover the shift after mine so I have to work 6a-6p with little sleep.

"I can't find anyone to work it, I can have the guy come in four hours early." Fine!!! Okay!! Sure!!!

And then I am not even free to relax at fucking HOME

Fuck me fuck this fuck work.

#dont reblog #venting #aaaaa #shit!! sucks!! ass!!! aaaaaa!!!!!!!!!! ofc I need the stupid ass hours because otherwise id tell them to kick rocks.#im like so tired sad angry.#this is tiring and jf sucks and also im hungry but I dont want to order door dash again but im here for 12 goddsmn fucking hours #this company can eat an egg and feel fucking relieved a manager doesn't have to cover what little contracts they have left.#sincere fuck you get lost.

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teamfreelunch · 5 months

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wow i feel bad

#my posts #i really need to get back to working on my paper im just so :(#idk i just feel sad & stressed & angry #im also hungry so thats not helping #i knew this two deadlines in two days thing was gonna suck but eugh

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senselesssims · 8 months

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People are being nice to me and it's making me emotional 🥹

#I'm a cryer #sad cry #angry cry #happy cry #anxious cry #hungry cry #if theres one thing im gonna do its cry

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transducttape · 9 months

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I'm so tired of my bank account being empty. I want to eat whenever I'm hungry and whatnot. I want to stop feeling guilty because money doesn't last as long as it used to

#im an awful mixture of hungry and angry and sad and i feel like a piece of shit

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fabulouslygaybean · 2 years

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currently stuck on my kitchen floor because the idea of going back up to my bedroom to work makes me feel genuinely sick

#im hungry and exhausted and stressed and angry and scared and sad and just. overwhelmed. very very overwhelmed.#i need to work but i cant. i just cant. it should be easy but im stupid and it's not easy for me.

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hazybisou · 2 months

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❛ WHAT ONCE WAS ❜

🍊💌 and we both wanna say i’m sorry

pairing ; fem!reader x quinn hughes

summary ; it’s been 1 year and a half since the breakup. of course they’ve both changed since that night. quinn just never expected to see her doing the one thing that reminded him of her.

authors note ; hi. so uh long time no see. honestly idk what came over me but like i js completely abandoned you guys. aside from that i’ve been busy with school and mid terms were what took up most of my time. but i’m back👌(for now at least). hopefully you enjoy this. anyways this has been on my mind for a while now and like i had get it out: orange peel theory!!! idk if i would consider this angsty or not but you decide. enjoy! <3

it was extremely hot. the windows were open, letting in a slight breeze. he was laying on the couch in front of a fan. he laid there eyes closed. there was something about the heat that made him want to close his eyes and let the day get away from him.

slowly but surely his eyelids began to shut. all of a sudden he heard a pair of keys jingle, his head lifting off the couch as he watched her figure come into view. “hey, how was work?” he asked y/n who smiled at him. she toed off her shoes before making her way over to quinn.

he opened his arms as he felt her climb onto of him, head laying on his chest. she sighed, “it was good, surprisingly,” she closed her eyes, “how was you day?”

“it’s was fine. went out, ran some errands, bought some groceries.” he mumbled as he dug his face into her hair. “speaking of groceries, i got you what you’ve been asking for this whole week.”

her head lifted up from his chest. “oranges?” he nodded and she squealed. “oh, how i love you.” she began to pepper his face with kisses.

he chuckled and held her closer. “i love you too.” he pressed a peck to her lips.

he began to sit up with y/n in his arms as she climbed off of him and onto the couch. he stood up and she let out a yelp as she felt his arms wrap around her thighs and waist, picking her up bridal style. she tucked her head into his chest as he carried her towards the kitchen.

“where we goin’?” she whispered.

“kitchen.”

“why?” she lifted her head off of his chest.

he smiled at her and pressed a kiss to her forehead. “im a little hungry.”

he turned walked towards the counter and set her down, y/n going to sit on one of the barstool. her eyes were trained on quinn who began to heat up leftovers from the previous night. her eyes suddenly caught the sight of the color orange. she smiled and reached out to grab the fruit.

y/n held it in her hands trying to peel it. as much as she loved having oranges available, she hated the hassle of having to take the peel off, especially with her manicured nails.

“quinny..” she trailed off. he turned around and hummed. she held the orange up with a small smile on here face. “open it, please?”

he shook his head and smiled before grabbing it out of her hands, complaining her request. one the last bit of the orange peel was off, he grabbed a couple of pieces for himself.

“quinn!” she whined but nonetheless took the orange back as he handed off the fruit to her.

he chuckled. “you asked for something, you pay the price.” he held the slices up. “this the price.”

she rolled his eyes but smiled at him and he grinned before leaning across the counter, cupping her face in his hands. he leaned down slightly as his lips found hers. he pulled away for a second before going in once more, this one with a lot more passion.

he pulled away and looked at her. “i love you.”

“i love you too.”

he hated it.

he hated this feeling he felt in his chest. was he sad? no. was he happy? definitely not. it was complicated, he didn’t know what he was feeling. all he could do was watch.

quinn was angry. angry at himself, at her. no..he could never be angry with or at her—only himself. he let her slip away and didn’t make the effort to bring her back.

quinn sat there across the room, watching her. watching as her head was thrown back, laughter coming out of her lips. she didn’t even realize it. he wanted to laugh. yet he couldn’t.

he still loved her.

after almost 2 years, he couldn’t get her out of his mind. she was like a plague. stuck in his mind and heart forever. he never saw her after that day. not a single text was sent. not a peep.

she had completely vanished from his life.

or, at least he thought she had.

yet there she was right in front of his eyes, sitting at a table with two other girls.

he looked down towards her hands and watch as her nail dug into the piece of fruit. she slowly began to peel it off. she was so delicate with it. she always was. with everything.

he watched as she peeled it all off completely before taking the trash to the garbage can. she took a piece and put it into her mouth.

he laughed.

he. laughed.

she had done it.

he knew she didn’t need him anymore. she never did. she just needed to learn how. and she did.

i hate this. good night. isn’t 🙅‍♀️ proofread 🙅‍♀️why tf do i only write at night when ik i’m tired and running on 2 hours of sleep???

#quinn hughes #quinn hughes x reader #quinn hughes imagine #vancover canucks #nhl #nhl hockey #nhl imagine #hockey #isa’s works 🦭

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flwrshee · 8 months

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✉️ NIKI AS YOUR BF

duo ﹒ niki x fmr genre fluff wc 05k warnings kissing , nicknames note 💬 happy birthday yua

the sweetest boyfriend ever

he always has your back

you forget something? niki probably has it

you are hungry? niki will take you to a cafe

you feel sad? niki has so many ways to cheer you up

the smile on your face is what he wants

he loves making you happy, if you are happy he is happier

his love language is playing pranks and annoying you

before you started dating they weren’t that bad

but oh god, after you started dating they grew worse everyday

its like he enjoys your suffering

but they are really light hearted because he knows you can get mad

he adores playing with your hair

he likes how soft and relaxing it is

he gently taps your head and you already know what he wants

you lay down on his lap while he strokes your hair

seeing how long and pretty it is makes him happy

niki is the boyfriend that only lets you do certain things that others can't do because your his girlfriend

first one is, borrowing his hoodies as much as you want

he hates sharing his clothes with others but your his only exception

he loves how oversized they look on you

it makes him laugh, seeing how cute you are

second on the list, letting you purposely win in a game

niki is very competitive when playing but he doesn't mind if he loses against you

he pretends to do bad just so he can see you smile from a victory

last one on the list is physical affection

his love language is acts of service but when you want cuddles or kisses niki never says no

like i said, your are his only exception

he gives the best hugs ever im telling you

he will scoop you up and wrap himself around you until you can't breathe

and his kisses are really soft and delicate

he loves to give peppery kisses all around your face

because he loves to tickle you

on the topic of tickling, he will tickle you until you scream for help

it's like he has a special way of making you run out of breath

he just loves having fun with you

he's will always be a little kid at heart

niki is the clingy type of boyfriend

he always wants to be next to you, every minute of the day

even if it means having your attention on him

he just loves you so much and he wants to show it

but when you get mad or angry at him he is quick to apologise

he usually hugs you or kisses your cheeks

niki is defientely a spam texter i just know it in my bones

if you don't reply in a minute he will calling the ambulnace

hey can we go out please 😋🙏🏼

he is the biggest fan of late night walks

just walking around with his hand in yours makes him the happiest boy alive

dates with niki are usually simple ones where you two enjoy yourselves to the fullest

amusement parks, carnivals, picnics and cafes are your go to spots

he loves to enjoy his time with the person he loves

niki also loves using nicknames

its his favourite thing about being able to date you

he uses cheesy names just so he can get a reaction out of you

"sugar pookie dookie bear, can i have my shirt please?"

he loves seeing your face blush and turn all red

but when he uses them really lovingly aswell

i feel like he would use 'love' because he loves you so much

niki best boyfriend confirmed

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