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3-aem · 3 months

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struggling with this piece and every time i open layers i get jump scared by how the coloring looks

#im hungry and sad and angry #but trudging stubbornly through it #bc i am stubborn #when there are two overlay layers you know theres a fight happening #me: YOU WILL BE BLUE BE BLUE RIGHT NOW #colors: *is purple*#was about to say its more art than science and then like DUH #but also it is science i feel bc color theory but im too hungey to think about color theory im thinking about a deep dish pizza and a heavy #HEAVY THICK #heaping of mac n cheese #the kind of meal that has so much lactose it will strap me to the toilet for the next 5 hours

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lunapwrites · 1 year

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bad headspace day.

what's some favorite fics that y'all like to read when you're feeling like shit?

any fandom is ok, i'm flexible. just looking for good comfort fics.

#lp talks #lp got their spirit dragged across the asphalt last night #and is still smarting today #send thoughts and prayers #and good fic recs #bc idk if writing is happening.#but i'm gonna have a crepe #and then we're gonna try anyway #bc i am stubborn #and i have an amount of faith in myself #and operate remarkably well on spite #just need to get to the spite stage.#dog pics are also welcome if you don't know any good ones.

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zkretchy · 3 months

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Look, you gotta appreciate the timing I got for these kinda quests

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kangals · 16 days

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i think the main difference in personality so far between puppy-stellina and puppy-kepler is that kep has a lot more patience.

that brings a lot of positive qualities: he has better emotional control and is less prone to tantrums and outbursts than stellina was (i.e. if i have to stop for 10 seconds on a walk to pick up poo, stellina would yelp and pull and cry at being asked to stop). it also means he has better focus and is more forgiving of repetition in training - he doesn't give up nearly as easily when frustrated. and things that may startle or scare him he's more willing to try again or overcome (e.g. he slipped on my stairs and hurt his foot and didn't want to go back up the stairs for a few days, but eventually started trying again. and when butters slaps him he yelps and backs off, but still thinks she's Super Fun and tries to make friends). so he's a bit more methodical in his thinking.

but it does also bring some negatives too: because he has patience, he does not give up once he's decided something. if stellina was overtired and i put her in a crate, she'd fuss for a minute then pretty quickly go "hm alright then" and go to sleep. if i do the same to kep, he fights it and fights it because he doesn't want to be asleep and that's that. he's much more difficult to redirect or distract, and i have to be a lot more mindful of managing him because once he's decided something is fun or tasty or whatever it takes a lot to dissuade him, and he'll go back to it at the first chance. he's very slow to learn boundaries as a result - i have to do a lot more convincing than i'm used to.

they are still overall very similar personalities, especially as they're the same breed and from very similar lines, but i think so far this has been the biggest quality that i've needed to adjust to. puppy-stellina i had to do a lot of mental adjustments learning how to manage her short emotional threshold and sensitivity, so it's interesting to see what does and doesn't translate over to kep.

#i hesitate to use the word 'stubborn' for kep bc i truly dont think its willful 'oh youve told me no but i will do it anyway'#he just genuinely doesnt get the concept of 'please dont do that'#'dont do thing? but thing is fun. thing is for kep. kep will do. fun!'#the concept of 'i am not allowed to do this' or 'i should not do this' has never occured to him #like with house training: he knows that he gets praise and treats for going outside. he knows that this doesnt happen if he goes inside.#but the concept of 'i have to poop and am inside therefore i should instead go outside' hasnt clicked yet bc he will just always take-#-the first option (poop now)#same thing with sleeping (i do not want to sleep therefore i will Not) and biting stellina etc #its not bad! as mentioned theres a lot of positives it brings too. i just need to learn how to speak his specific language #and when youre bad at dog training it just takes a while lol

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campingwiththecharmings · 6 months

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ever get the feeling some people are just...tolerating you?

#like #they don't really wanna talk to you #but they feel bad if they don't. like they're ignoring you or something.#so they do it out of...some kind of pity #or obligation #or so they don't feel guilty #like pls. if that's you know that i dnw you being my friend out of pity.#and i mean that #if you don't really like me or are meh about me #that's okay #ik i can be a hard pill to swallow sometimes #stubborn af #talking to me is sometimes like pulling teeth #low self esteem and trust issues #lol #i have a lot of issues and i get that people don't always wanna deal with my shit when they have their own #maybe i just need to accept that there's no one who really wants to put in the work it's gonna take to 'crack' me #bc i'm sure it takes hella patience and perseverance #and like for what lol. what am i even offering?#my insecurities? my awkwardness? my trauma?#don't get me wrong ik i have good qualities but #those are the things you'll have to deal with if you want to be close to me #i will make you jump thru hoops. i do not trust easily.#it takes a lot to get me to open up and ik some people will not see me as worth the effort #and that's okay #i wish it was easier for me to open up to people but...it isn't *long sigh*#sorry lol i'm on my period and rly in my head today apparently #ignore me

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b4kuch1n · 4 months

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frog documentation. frogcumentation

I think I mentioned a while back I'd post nibling frog momence after the gift's done given. which happened on the 2nd this month I just forgot lmao. anyways we can do it now. I used the boigameista pattern scaled up to four pieces of A4 print paper and decided to double deck it to a two layer thing, not unlike a pillow, for ease of washin. because it was gonna be gifted to a one year old child

took a long time and made a number of mistakes bc hand sewing makes me worse as a person but this guy was done in time for the birthday occasion and that's what matters. chose non-fuzzy fabrics for it because we live in a dense city in the tropics and from personal experience if I hug something made of fur I would explode. the original plan included felt patterns on its back for bonus textures for baby but that wouldn't stretch well along with the rest of the thing so had to hold that back. eventually we got this

zipper across its ass, the coat type of zipper bc I miscalculated when ordering. but it did have a shape and that's all that matters to me. will be a fun game for the baby to grow up and be severely misinformed about what a frog looks like

happy extremely late birthday to this thing also

#bakuspecial #uhhhh. whats my craft tag. I forgor. update this later #frog plush babeyyyy #I want this thing to last until the heat death of the universe so I felled all the seams down. dont recommend doing this by hand #Im so stubborn lmao I refuse to get a serger I will simply get better at hand sewing instead. damn its taking kinda long #there used to be a Lot more frogs around hanoi. but the lack of clean water ponds and lakes have driven down the population #I live like right at the edge of the city rn tho (will no longer be the case in five years) so there are still a lot of aminals #house robins. skinks. fireflies (!!!!). praying mantises. tree frogs #they love to hang out at the fountain inside the complex right across the street. had to pick em up to return to the fountain #from the hot brick tiled ground a few times #theyre so small. theyre so small....#I miss house geckos they dont show up a lot in our apartment. I wish they would they would love the cockroaches around here #and of course. bc the kind of rice we eat is more short-grained and thus usually not all the way dried like the longer-grained type we have #so many rice weevils. do u know those little fucks do not drown for a Long time #do u know they lay eggs inside the rice grains and that's how u find out ur rice about to become the weevil beverly hill #by washing the rice and seeing hollowed out grains float up. I have become an expert at this.#but I get to see skinks in random bushes so who am I to be pissed about that. skinks rule #this has been baku talks about animals for a mile of tags. thank u for listening #well. its evening and the family wants to go out so that's what we're doin. hope u have a good time too wherever u are #see u this midnight when I reblog every new posts I've made in the last week or so lmao

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surgefairy · 9 months

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rumor has it they’re boyfriends

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feelslikegold · 3 months

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it turns out I cannot even do a basic crochet stitch??????

*crowd boos points and laughs*

#i’m gonna learn this if it’s the last thing I do bc now I am stubborn >:(

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beanghostprincess · 4 months

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I can't believe I just had to explain my last Zolusan (more Lusan/Sanlu than anything but yeah) fic to somebody because they said it was normalizing unhealthy behavior when it comes to starting poly relationships. As if the monster trio would talk things out like normal people. Seriously.

Please NEVER leave a comment like this on a fanfic. If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say it. I am not here to educate people!! I am not your parents!! This is a fanfic site!! Don't expect me to write a manual on how to have a poly relationship, especially when it would be out of character for the main couple.

I'm gonna leave the link to the fic here and what I told them about it because now I am extremely anxious other people won't get what I want to express with this fic and I feel the need to share my thoughts:

#but also?? i've been in poly relationships before #and i am projecting on sanji the whole thing is venting #and people should NOT come to ao3 to learn how to love #and you should also not leave negative comments on fics??? like it's just that obvious???#going insane honestly i think it's just so dumb but i needed to post this #i could've just ignored their comment but i am extremely stubborn #and i'm gonna be honest with all of you i think the fic doesn't have any harmful behavior ???#the thing i can understand is sanji being vulnerable but they're not establishing a serious relationship at all #and sanji is aware of what's going on all the time he's vulnerable bc he's overwhelmed but he calmed down in like the middle of the fic #aghhhhhh i hate having to explain things to people it gets on my nerves #one piece #zosanlu #zolusan #i still don't know what tag to use exactly ngl #lusan #sanlu #bc it technically is more of a fic about them ngl so i'm just gonna tag these two ships

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cheekblush · 7 months

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i'd rather be friendless than to constantly have my boundaries disrespected

#i am so frustrated and annoyed rn #at the beginning of this year my ex best friend reached out to me and i cautiously let her back into my life #things were going great but now she turned a harmless topic into a full blown discussion even though i told her multiple times that i no..#.. longer want to discuss this matter but she kept going & then accusing me of continuing the discussion as well #and tbh i really should've stopped engaging with her messages much sooner but it's so annoying when someone sends you lots of messages with #their opinion although i mentioned several times that i want to drop the topic & then i'm just expected to shut up lol #she didn't respect my wish to move and made a huge fuss about nothing #i stopped replying to her since yesterday bc i really had enough & i should've just left her on read much sooner #but her messages were truly annoying me #her last message now says that we often have different opinions & she thinks she's more optimistic than me & that makes it hard for her to..#talk to me..... i was so dumbfounded when i read that this morning #our initial conversation was about whether a song is more pop or rnb....... & she twisted that into me being negative lmao #she was so obsessed with being right that she couldn't drop the topic even though i told her how exhausting the convo was for me #and like it's such an irrelevant topic... imagine being that obsessed with always being right 😭#idc anymore i'd rather be a negative bitch than someone who disrespects others' boundaries <3 #i thought she changed for the better but she's so self-righteous opinionated & stubborn it's awful #i calmly told her that her behavior is bothering me & we easily could've just moved on but she kept going on and on #and she herself admitted that it's one of her flaws that she always has to be right & she's being petty & yet she didn't stop 🤡#even writing all this down feels so silly to me bc the initial topic was sooooo trivial #am i supposed to feel sorry for thinking a song was rnb rather than pop???? like go touch some grass please #she even sent me a screenshot of the wikipedia page of the song to prove that it's rnb & it literally said synth pop & rnb lol #but i wasn't even mad about that her not respecting my wish to drop the topic & move on even though i said it multiple times really pissed..#me off though.... like girl just let it go it's not that deep!!!#but apparently i'm negative & pessimistic for having a different opinion than her 🤷🏼‍♀️#like imagine starting a fight over smth SO IRRELEVANT but i'm the negative one sure lmao #okay i just needed to get this off my chest bc i don't have anyone to talk to about this & it's just ridiculous to me #☁️

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snowangeldotmp3 · 6 months

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well now i can’t stop thinking about her but i am too tired to elaborate: blind nancy !

#i am Thinking #idk maybe some upside down shit messes up her eyes and she goes temp or permanently fucks up her eyes #me: projecting all of my eye problems onto blorbos: this is so much fun #blind nancy #and it’s always good too bc u know she’s too stubborn to ask for help #love that kind of angst #anyway

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daz4i · 7 months

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ik it's not good to latch onto a mental illness as your defining trait but also. babe i don't have much else going on or any other sense of identity beyond it

#''you don't want to heal from depression bc you don't know who you are without it'' yeah no shit. if there's no depression there's no me #also i got the no sense of identity disorder!!!! so!!!! said disorder is just my only identity ig!!!!!!#ik this is why ppl look for labels and i am no different but all my labels hinge on being vague so like . not very helpful #others i know latch onto their nationality/religion/heritage etc. but i definitely don't feel pride in any of those #dare i even say i feel disgust. i am more defined by my disdain for being jewish than my actual judaism #ppl say to let what you love define you. but. i don't love. i mean i love my cat but i don't think that can define me #also maybe I'm just autistic but i don't really get how one can even be defined by what they love 🤔#and this whole thing is so weird. bc in so many people's head there is this very firm image #and people tell me i seem confident and like i know how i am and that I'm being myself in an honest way #girl i don't even know what myself is!!!! i am more defined by my lack of definition than anything 😭😭😭#or my worse traits like stubbornness and hypocrisy and obsession #wouldja look at that we just circled back to my bpd. see what I'm saying?#vent #ask to tag #sorry for all the vents today 🫡 i am at my worst actually and i fear i may lose it at any moment ✨️

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tomwaterbabies · 1 month

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it is honestly pretty annoying to be treated like im some ignorant, innocent thang completely unaware of, like, specific fandom drama. i wish i Was ! but i am Not. i simply just Do Not Care. yes this is about my dnd varian design being used to just reference weird freak behavior online. stop involving me!!!

#posting #i mean i guess in some ways i am ignorant #bc i dont know Everything that goes on or why the drama is what it is now #my intention with the art is literally just what i think fits him best in a dnd setting #both in reference to his pet donkey and the fact that hes apparentlyyyy influenced by pinocchio. for vat7k at least #and also The Animal fits him. small stubborn strong etc etc #and im biased and love fauns/satyrs a lot thank u

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1-7776 · 13 days

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37 replies on my mario posrt and almost all of them r me debating programming choices

#i hattteee how stubborn i am esp w programming if i do not see the reason for something i assume the person who wrote it was wrong 😭#bc in my head if they were right i would be able to understand the reason just from reading the code or pseudocode #<- this is not how the real world works

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piplupod · 13 days

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kind of considering printing off like three medical reports on how slowly increasing activity/exercise levels does not actually work for long covid chronic fatigue and just carrying them around in a duotang everywhere or something because I'm getting real tired of people telling me that I just need to slowly build up my tolerance to doing things again as if I haven't been trying that for over a year and getting nowhere and as if medical research hasn't already proven that it literally does not work like that for this type of disability 🥲

#im thinking three or more is a good number #one is not enough proof and two is ''well maybe theyre wrong'' but three is a pretty convincing number while not being overwhelming #four might be best but i feel like also maybe ppl might just not look at it then bc its too much #IM SO FUCKING TIRED OF PPL TELLING ME TO JUST DO MORE #IT DOESNT WORK !!! I HAVE BEEN TRYING !!!#I ONLY END UP OUT OF COMMISSION FOR A FEW DAYS BC I DEPLETED MY ENERGY RESERVES #anyways my counselor told me this again and i tried to tell her it doesnt quite work like that but i didnt outright say it #bc i had no Proof or Evidence™ so she would've thought i was just being stubborn or defensive or smth #genuinely considering doing this though bc im so fucking sick of it #i am DISABLED. this is DISABLING. i cant just GET OVER IT.#pippen needs 2nd breakfast

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cognitosclowns · 1 year

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I saw your Robotus NSFW Alphabet post and please GOD elaborate on him having a fleshlight based on Reader's pussy because he misses them. It's driving me insane your ideas are so good

YES ANON OFC I WILL <33 FAVE SHIT EVER ARE YOU KIDDING

nsfw below!! this is gonna be so long I'm so sorry MNSDMS

he didn't expect himself to miss you so much??

Like you're only gonna be out of town for 3 weeks, max. That's nothing. especially in comparison to how long of a life you two are gonna spend together, that IS nothing.

He repeats that a lot to himself during the coming days.

It's about halfway through the second that he starts missing missing you. Proper yearning. Not just surface level ‘wishing you were with him’ NOPE SMDNS

He’s absolutely lovesick. He finds himself missing every little detail about you.

The smell of your shampoo. The little glint in your eye when you flirt with him. Kissing your warm cheeks after you cum, the lazy smile that follows. The way your eyes light up when he makes a joke.

AND ITS STUPID. HE KNOWS ITS STUPID. ITS IDIOTIC YOU AREN'T ON MARS FOR FUCKS SAKES YOU'RE JUST A FEW STATES AWAY. YOU'LL BE HOME BY THE END OF THE MONTH. HE WANTS TO GRAB HIMSELF BY THE SHOULDERS AND SHAKE.

He feels so dramatic but. that changes nothing. he's still stuck in Yearning Hell.

He definitely tries masturbating, because that seems like the easiest way to tamp it down until you're back, but it isn't the same.

Sure, he cums, and it's perfectly fine, but the wanting doesn't go away. There's still that aching sensation.

if anything, he feels worse after because it's not you. It's just a new reminder of how amazing it is being intimate with you and how far away you are.

AND,, WELL,

It's definitely an impulse decision.

(Granted, most of his decisions are impulse decisions, so.)

He's got a full 3D model of your innards bc. of course he does smdnsd.

Shockingly, it isn't even smth he actively kept info about? he just has so many sensors in his dick that it just,, naturally acquires that kinda data, and it gets stored away subconsciously.

Wouldn't even be hard to print out something usable. a few minutes at most...

Yeah after the base idea crops up, he considers it for maybe,, .5 seconds before caving smdnsmd.

He keeps internally scoffing at himself as he sets up the printer, fills in the silicone, inputs the instructions. Sighing his nonexistent lungs out.

Just a constant mental stream of 'you are such an idiot you are such an idiot you are such an idiot' as he undoes his belt MSNDMSD truly he is. Experiencing.

actually,, using it,, oh lordie,,

he hates, hates that it gets a full-throated 'oh fuck' out of him, but it absolutely does.

Is it perfect? Not even close. A pale imitation at best. The slickness of lube is too artificial, there's none of that Human Warmth he's grown accustomed to, he can't cradle your face or squeeze your hips.

Is it just enough for him to pretend it's you? YEP <33

He only gets about 5 thrusts in before his first orgasm, and tbh his artificial cum really helps pull the illusion together?

It stays warm inside his tanks, heated by his motor, and it fills up the inside of the toy in no time.

It cools down pretty fast, but it's no problem because he replaces it just as quick <3

He's split between. feeling absolutely mortified that he's humping a piece of lukewarm silicone like some sort of animal vs not giving a singular fuck because it hits the exact spot he needs it to.

<333333

He isn't entirely sure how long he goes for, but when he's done the sun is firmly in the sky, which makes his cheeks feel more than a little artifically warm.

Thankfully, the toy itself fairly easy to dispose of, since it's virtually unrecognizable by the time he's done.

maybe. he'll keep those designs on file. for future use. just in case.

OH and don't think this spoils the welcome-home sex - think of it as an appetizer <33 just a reminder of what he's had to be away from!!

so. um. *pinwheels into the atmosphere*

#SORRY YALL IDK THIS. HAD AN EFFECT. COULD YOU TELL.#im so obsessed w/. every time AB j.ac.ks off hes like #'this is so stupid you are an idiot this is pathetic you are being pathetic' bc. he just cannot mentally wrangle the idea that #yes its ok for him to have needs.#so instead its a tightrope walk of Embarrassment and Need #also bc the mental image of ab absolutely RAI.LING a f.lesh.lig.ht while internally being like 'I am being so cringe' MAKES ME CACKLE #oh. oh desp.erate ab. is everything to me #we love men who are too stubborn to admit they want 2 b.on.e so instead they just repress it until it explodes in one Big Hrony Moment.#mwa. love that shit.#IDK. is this in character. am i lost in my own sauce. MNDSSM #lmk besties #nsft #minors dni #inside job #alpha-beta #robotus alpha-beta #alpha-beta x reader #robotus alpha-beta x reader #inside job x reader

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