#sorry for all the vents today 🫡 i am at my worst actually and i fear i may lose it at any moment ✨️
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ik it's not good to latch onto a mental illness as your defining trait but also. babe i don't have much else going on or any other sense of identity beyond it
#''you don't want to heal from depression bc you don't know who you are without it'' yeah no shit. if there's no depression there's no me#also i got the no sense of identity disorder!!!! so!!!! said disorder is just my only identity ig!!!!!!#ik this is why ppl look for labels and i am no different but all my labels hinge on being vague so like . not very helpful#others i know latch onto their nationality/religion/heritage etc. but i definitely don't feel pride in any of those#dare i even say i feel disgust. i am more defined by my disdain for being jewish than my actual judaism#ppl say to let what you love define you. but. i don't love. i mean i love my cat but i don't think that can define me#also maybe I'm just autistic but i don't really get how one can even be defined by what they love 🤔#and this whole thing is so weird. bc in so many people's head there is this very firm image#and people tell me i seem confident and like i know how i am and that I'm being myself in an honest way#girl i don't even know what myself is!!!! i am more defined by my lack of definition than anything 😭😭😭#or my worse traits like stubbornness and hypocrisy and obsession#wouldja look at that we just circled back to my bpd. see what I'm saying?#vent#ask to tag#sorry for all the vents today 🫡 i am at my worst actually and i fear i may lose it at any moment ✨️
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