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beehunterkisser · 1 month

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fred compilation because she's the funniest character in this show

#hamster and gretel #fred grant #video #dwampyverse #im sorry for this but i think i only have a little shame #phineas and ferb #I love the black cloud nihilism. shes such a downer tumblr kid.#If she doesnt turn out to be gay im gonna have a breakdown #ignore the kimcartoon logo.

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islanddads · 7 months

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when tj klune casually drops my most anticipated book announcement ever then dips

[BY THE WAY. ZOE CHAPELWHITE AND HER GIRLFRIEND MAYOR HELEN WEBB? HE DID THAT FOR ME!!! IT’S ALL I HAVE EVER WANTED. THE ISLAND WIVES ARE COMING BACK TO ME CONFIRMED 😭😭😭]

#HEY IS ANYONE ELSE FINE?? IM FINE #CERULEAN SEAQUEL LETS GOOOOO #i’m having a gay breakdown #the house in the cerulean sea

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shrimparts-blog1890 · 7 months

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As promised, the ✨brainstorm frenzy✨

#elsamaren #honeymaren #elsa #frozen2 #frozen fanart #frozen #lesbians #ask me stuff #bodyguardhoneymaren #gay #elsa is having a mental breakdown #I also have absolutely no clue what Elsa’s door looks like I’ll have to check out the concept art #god help me #wish me luck #help me im going insane #these exams are KILLING ME

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even-disco-baby · 1 year

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SOLA — Her Innocence, Sola— the anti-innocence— turns to face you. In the distance, you hear the tattoo of propellers, turning, sucking all the air. A strong wind whips her long, dark hair around her face. Her simple black gown billows behind her. The same gown she wore the day she resigned.

She has your eyes.

“Hi, Kim,” she says simply. “You don’t look well.”

PAIN THRESHOLD — Her voice is so familiar, and yet the moment she stops speaking, you cannot recall its sound, no matter how hard you try. And you have tried. Innumerable times.

AUTHORITY — What makes her think she would even *know* the difference between you looking well or unwell? She’s being presumptuous. She doesn’t even know you.

INLAND EMPIRE — She never will.

“I’m doing great, actually. Never been better.”

“Hey, I’m trying my best.”

“I’m *not* well. I’m so fucking unwell. I can’t take it anymore. Please, help me…”

“I’ll live.”

SOLA — “Hm…” She smiles apologetically. “Well, that’s all we can really ask for anymore, isn’t it?”

EMPATHY — She wishes more than anything that this was not the case. That you could ask for the world and have it.

RHETORIC — She tried to give it to you, and this is how you repay her? You’re gonna be in *deep* shit trying to explain that insignia you stitched onto her jacket.

“Um, about the jacket. It’s not what it… well, no, it *is* what it looks like. But I don’t— it’s— there’s nuance.”

“Is that really all you have to say to me?”

“I don’t know what to say to you.”

“Where are you going?”

SOLA — Her Innocence looks away from you, toward the wind. “Away,” she says, her voice distant and strange. “Yes… I’m stepping down, you see. The world doesn’t need me. It never needed me, really. It’s best for humanity to think for itself. No… it already *does* think for itself.”

She turns back to you with a small smile. The thought brings her peace.

PAIN THRESHOLD — But what does it bring *you?* She’s leaving you forever. Abandoning you for lofty ideals.

AUTHORITY — Let her go. Let her see how little you care. Don’t give her any satisfaction.

HALF LIGHT — Stop her. You won’t be able to live without her.

VOLITION — You have already lived almost all your life without her. You don’t need her. You have *never* needed her.

“What if the world *does* need you? Who are you to make that decision for the entire world?”

“Fine. Go. It’s none of my business.”

“So you’re just going to leave me behind again.”

“Please, don’t go. *I* need you.”

SOLA — “What else is an Innocence appointed to do?” Her smile turns wry. “You see? This is why I’m stepping down.”

Distant propellers turn and turn in endless circles. She glances toward them.

YOU — “Fine. Go. It’s none of my business.”

SOLA — “I suppose not.” Her voice and her face betray nothing. No sign of remorse.

YOU — “So you’re just going to leave me behind again.”

SOLA — “That was never my intention,” she says softly. “Surely you know that.”

INLAND EMPIRE — You will never truly know. No one will.

SOLA — She stares out at the horizon through the tendrils of hair that almost seem to threaten to swallow her. Her expression is strange and ambiguous, shifting every time you try and look directly at it.

YOU — “Please, don’t go. *I* need you.”

SOLA — She looks at you, and her eyes are full of what might be genuine sadness. But they could also be full of anything else.

“Oh, Kim… You must make do with what you have. I don’t know what else you want me to say…”

RHETORIC — What?! There are a million other things she could say! Forty-one years worth of possibilities! She could say *anything!* Anything at all… Even if she’d only left you a single word, it would be better than this…

VOLITION — It’s pointless to wish. Please, no more of this. It’s too sad.

“You could say that you’re sorry.”

“Say that I turned out all right.”

“Say that you’re proud of me. That you love me.”

SOLA — “Then I’m sorry.” She closes her eyes. “It was terrible of us to leave you alone.”

Her voice is utterly calm and emotionless.

PAIN THRESHOLD — No… Wrong, all wrong…

YOU — “Say that I turned out all right.”

SOLA — “You’re a good man despite it all. That is all I ever hoped for you.”

Again, there is no warmth to her words. No conviction.

VOLITION — Lieutenant… Please, don’t do this to yourself.

YOU — “Say that you’re proud of me. That you love me.”

SOLA — “I’m so proud of you and everything you’ve accomplished. You wear that jacket well.”

Her eyes have nothing behind them. A pair of two millimeter holes in the world.

“I love you.”

PAIN THRESHOLD — Your lungs seem to constrict at her words. Your chest hurts more than it’s ever hurt. This wind is hard to breathe in.

YOU — “No! Don’t you fucking get it?! You don’t love me!”

SOLA — “Then I don’t love you.”

YOU — “You should be *ashamed* of me!”

SOLA — “Then I am ashamed.”

YOU — “I betrayed you! I betrayed everything you stood for! I’m a fucking cop!”

SOLA — “Then I am betrayed.”

She proclaims it as dispassionately as she proclaimed her love.

YOU — “For god’s sake, *say something real!*”

SOLA — She just looks at you. The propellers keep on turning.

DRAMA — She can’t speak for herself, sire…

LOGIC — Of course she can’t. Of course…

PAIN THRESHOLD — Your lungs feel like they could collapse. Empty, crumpled, dark. Hot tears prick your eyes for the first time in what feels like a long time.

SOLA — “Do you understand now?” she asks gently.

LOGIC — She cannot speak for herself because you do not know what she would say.

There are many memories that you have been slowly recovering, little by little. Your mother will never be one of them. Her, the revolution, the aerostatic brigade— they all died before you could even comprehend loss.

AUTHORITY — You did not become a detective so that you could find your lost mother. You became a police officer because you did not want to end up like her.

VOLITION — She can neither forgive you, nor condemn you. She is dead, Lieutenant. She can only be what you make her.

RHETORIC — You’re asking your own echo for answers…

SOLA — “Humanity must think for itself,” she says again, turning again toward the wind. “What point is there in asking me where to go from here? I’m a failure. We all failed…”

RHETORIC — The revolutionaries failed their children, and the children are failing their parents, and all of them are dying, dying, dead… What’s the point in any of this anymore? I cannot argue in favor of any of it.

VOLITION — There is a point. There is a way forward. But you won’t find it here, Lieutenant.

“I hate you. You made me everything I am and then you just *left.*”

“I miss you… How is it even possible to miss someone you never met? It’s like someone ripped a part of me out and all I can do is bleed.”

“I don’t know what I am. I need you to tell me what I am.”

SOLA — One last time, she turns back to you. She slowly bridges the gap between you and reaches out a hand to cup your cheek. Her fingers feel like your own.

“You are whatever kind of animal you choose to be,” she says, so quietly that you don’t know how you can hear it over the distant roar of engines. “I cannot make that choice for you.”

EMPATHY — She died hoping that you would grow up with the freedom to choose to be whatever you wanted. Instead, the world that raised you hardly let you dare to want anything.

VOLITION — But you can still make a choice. Humanity can still think for itself.

#disco elysium #kim kitsuragi #swap au #should i tag sola? i kinda doubt i’ll ever need to use that tag again LMAO #anyway um. yeah.#tbh as fun as the swap au stuff is i wasn’t all that interested in it until my brain was like. SWAP DREAM SEQUENCE #and now suddenly i have like. lore for swap kim.#his breakdown isn’t bc of a breakup it’s over a crisis of identity #at first when he wakes up and starts inspecting stuff like his jacket and his notes #he starts finding out things abt his mother (a revolutionary aerostatic pilot who died and passed down the jacket to him)#and at first he’s like ohh i see im investigating her disappearance!#but he’s not. she’s dead. she died when the moralintern crushed the commune #kim grew up resenting both his parents for dying in a failed revolution #leaving him to grow up alone as a gay disabled seolite orphan #he became a cop and drank the moralist koolaid bc he didn’t want to be like his parents #and also bc he wanted to not be so powerless (and to be able to take shit out on other ppl just like canon kim)#but also just like in canon his experience in the rcm was just more of the same shit #he felt constantly humiliated and like a hypocrite and just compartmentalized hardcore #then he came to martinaise and saw the scars of the failed revolution and finally just snapped and broke down #he doesn’t even know what kind of animal he is other than he doesn’t want to be it anymore #so he pulls harry’s epic mind wipe binge and etc etc #anyway. coughs

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andiisdead · 26 days

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This is how there gonna find me when the new season of interview with the vampire comes out:

#amc iwtv #amc interview with the vampire #iwtv 2022 #iwtv s2 #interview with the vampire season 2 #gay #im so normal #i totally did not have a level 10 mental breakdown when i watched the trailers idk what your talking about

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pinkorchidsinspring · 11 months

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Don’t blame me for what you made me do.

Isn’t it fascinating the almost blantantly jaded breathy pointing she does to us -the audience? The same people that make her money? The same people that keep her at the top?

But we all know we don’t keep Taylor at the top. Taylor keeps Taylor at the top. Taylor hides away the deepest most true parts of herself just so she stays on top. Because her team believed the public would demantle her if she comes out. Or if she even admits that any of her songs are about a woman. Let alone more than one.

Taylor has admitted many times that when she writes songs she knows how they’re gonna be preformed, and she can envision the music video while writing them. Taylor knew she was gonna point directly at the fans during the “don’t blame me” performance, at The Eras Tour- the tour of her past eras, experiences, emotions, and obstacles.

Taylor will go down in the history books, not only as one of the few female artists that has made the switch from country to pop, but as an artist that did everything to make her fans happy. Even if it means sacrificing her happiness in the process.

I mean Taylor even wrote a song about it! In one of her most vulnerable “fantastical” (otherwise known as stories about her real life but she can’t say that) eras. It’s all right in front of us. Evermore brought us some of the most sad break up songs of the sister albums, and happiness is one of them.

I see this for what it is

She sees the relationship for what it is.

But now I'm right down in it, all the years I've given

All the years she’s given? Not lost, she chose to give them up.

Is just shit we're dividin' up

All the hiding and effort means nothing now that it’s over.

Showed you all of my hiding spots

All the places away from the public eye where she could be herself without fear.

I was dancing when the music stopped

She thought everything was fine, and that the partner was perfectly okay with her hiding for her reputation.

And in the disbelief, I can't face reinvention

She can’t face the idea that her partner was so done with her hiding that they left. She cannot find it in herself to do what she did from 1989 to Reputation, or from Lover to Folklore. She can’t simply gloss over the pain she’s in, and not explain why. She cannot go from in love to sad, jaded songs again. She can

barely find it in herself to lie again.

I haven't met the new me yet

She hasn’t met the new her, the single her, the out her. She still hasn’t met the her that Miss Americana was supposed to out.

I can't make it go away by making you a villain

She can’t vilify her partner for not wanting to hide anymore. It’s not fair.

I guess it's the price I paid for seven years in Heaven

Happiness was the last song written for evermore, only a week before it’s release on January 7th, 2021. Most likely started in 2020, and finished New Year’s Eve/day. Written in 2020. 2020 - 7 = 2013

Which supermodel did she meet that year?

And I pulled your body into mine

Every goddamn night, now I get fake niceties

She had her for a while, every single day of those 7 years, and then in this break up era of their relationship in 2020, she only gets surface level attention. The “how are you?”, “What’re you doing right now?”. As if Taylor wasn’t sleeping next to her for 7 years.

No one teaches you what to do

When a good man hurts you

Karlie was a truly good one, but once again Taylor uses “man” instead of the truth.

And you know you hurt him, too

Taylor knows that she hurt karlie, and she just reinforces that by using a male pronoun instead of a female pronoun. By hiding instead of telling the truth.

By keeping the fans and her reputation happy whilst sacrificing her love for this person and in tandem sacrificing her own happiness.

My other song analysis’ if you’re interested <3 they’re not as sad promise :)

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averysmolkirbo · 4 months

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i so desparately need therapy but that sounds really hard and why confront your demons when you can become friends with them and look at gay lawyers instead???

#i need therapy #but gay lawyers? just as good as therapy #im definitely fine and totally didnt just have yet another breakdown #everything is fine #this is fine #no seriously dont worry about me #i may have mental breakdowns and arguments on a weekly basis #but i assure you i am totally coping #through tumblr. and yaoi memes.#i dont need better coping mechanisms you do #mental #my mental state is in little shattered pieces and im just a-ok with it 👍🏻#ace attorney #brainrot #welcome to the brainrot chamber #where braincells come to die

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adharastarlight · 1 year

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Regulus never actively tried to shut people out, at least he didn't to begin with. As a child, he was one of the bubbliest kids he could have been in his circumstances. In fact he was always better at making friends than Sirius was until he wasn't.

No, Reg never blocked himself off until he had to. Because sometimes you realise too late that your whole life you've been taken advantage of because you're warm and bright. And sometimes the brightest people become the coldest people, the ones who are near to impossible to reach.

Regulus Arcturus Black was not a cold person. The world froze his warmth time and time again until he couldn't bring himself to fight back.

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nychthemeron-rants · 2 months

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I am so close to making a Hazbin AU where Angel is Niffty's dad because making this post and THIS vvvv

Fucking image made the idea go from "huh, funny coincidence" to full on brainrot.

#Angel is Niffty's dad now #im sorry for already going off the deep end #but its happened #I know it has zero canonical backing besides the speculated birth/death dates of these two #but it would be cute #and kinda sad #but cute!#Angel Husk Niffty and fat nuggets forming a little family unit #eventually getting redeemed and getting to meet aunt Molly #for angst you could have Alastor using this to manipulate Angel similarly to how he fucked with Lucifer #except Alastor actually has been more present for Niffty than Angel #and the fucked up extra edge of him owning Niffty's soul #not to mention that Angel 100% has no fucking clue he ever had a kid #like he's gay #and died in the 1940's #sure he's slept with women a few times for various reasons #but that was rare since again he's got no interest in women #so the chance of him having an illegitimate child was never even a thought #besides sex education in the '30's and '40's wasn’t exactly stellar #finding out he's a dad would be a complete shock and probably cause him a whole breakdown #meanwhile Niffty would either not care or just be excited to finally meet her dad #hazbin angel dust #angel dust hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel angel dust #hazbin niffty #niffty hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel niffty

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suddenrundown · 6 months

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massive pizza mukbang is hands down my favorite dan and phil video

#saying this just cuz youtube decided to rec it to me and now im rewatching haha #its just them fresh off interactive introverts utterly exhausted eating pizza and talking #in hindsight its kind of funny because they talk about how that tour nearly didnt happen partly because ''dan was having a breakdown'' whic #we know now what that was about poor thing lol #and then at the end phil's like where's your main channel videos dan and dan's like #i need to chill for a couple weeks and then ill get back to it #and then reader he did not lmao for an entire year while he was working on his basically im gay vid #anyway....loved all that for them haha #d&p

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minamotoz · 2 years

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when will the boy meets world queer renaissance occur so society opens its eyes and becomes shory-pilled

#boy meets world #jeric stans got their fun in 2020 w Those Videos. you know the ones im talkin about #now its time for shory to get their time in the spotlight🙏#im genuinely shocked at how unpopular reading cory/shawn as romantic is #ig its because corpanga is so iconic and shawngela is just as loved in its own right #but also u have to be willfully ignorant if you can watch BMW and not read their relationship as romantic especially in the later seasons #ok 'willfully ignorant' is stretching it a bit #but i just have no idea how you can watch episodes like its about time or IYCBWTOYL or an affair to forget #and not be like. ok those boys r in gay love #i dont think cory wholeheartedly interpreting shawns extremely romantic poetry to be abt himself #or shawn having a full on BREAKDOWN over cory getting married #or any of whatever 'its not you its me' was #is heterosexual behavior in the slightest #but i am biased soooo………

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s0lar-ch3ri · 3 months

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CHERI !!! I GOR INSPIRED BY YOUR REBLOGS ON MY BAKERY AU POST AND MADE SOME DOODLES THAT IM GONNA POST TOMORROW BUT I JUST HAVEE TO SHOW YOU THIS ONE RIGHT NOW. ITS ABOUT THE ONE YOY SAID,, GILLION LOSING PREZTEL AND IMMEDIATELY THINKING HE FUCKING COOKED HER ON ACCIDENG

SORRY IF THE TEXT IS HARD TO READ I CAN TRANSCRIBE IT IF YOU NEED ME TOO

SOUP I LOVE YOU AND HATE YOU FOR THIS IM GONNA SOB OMG JAHDBFJFNF

for others if its hard to read

gillion: I cannot find her Chip! if she's not here and she's just finished mixing the butter, I- I fear we have made the gravest of mistakes!

chip: no, no, it's- it's fine! She's probably just- right over here!

MEANWHILE

with a line pointing at pretzel with the text ABSOLUTELY FINE

yeah gillion makes sure pretzel isnt too close to ovens now

#answers from the aster caster #soup bubbles on the blr #also im so so sorry but uh #*points at me* GAY #HOW DOES GILLION LOOK PRETTY WHEN HES PROBS HAVING A BREAKDOWN #AND CHIBO??? I WOULDNT MIND BEING THE DOUGH FOR HIM #YOUR ARTS GREAT THIS IS WHAT I MEAN

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toytulini · 1 year

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the fact that captain james flint from black sails, poorest little meow meow to ever walk this earth, was not even on the poor little meow meow vote is a almost a hate crime honestly

#toy txt post #JOKE THIS IS A JOKE IM JOKING IF YOU INTERPRET THIS POST IN BAD FAITH TO START SHIT I SWEAR TO GOD #tumblr's plmm contest #captain flint #james flint #black sails #its okay tho bc he and vriska are the same person. a vote for vriska is a vote for flint #this is a joke i know its bc the black sails fandom on here is like 3 ppl 😔#despite my fucking efforts #ITS A GOOD SHOW. WATCH BLACK SAILS #thats the next tag crawl. ill break from vriska just to post black sails #please watch it for the love of god the THEMES. THE STORY. + GAYS. MULTIPLE. SOME DIE BUT OTHERS DONT #and the ones that do are not in a byg fashion #the tradgedy....the comedy............#if you like ofmd but you also Like Angst.............listen to me.....its on hulu........or go bonkers like me and buy the boxset #of blurays uwu #or pirate it. they cant be mad at u if you do. its a pirate show you cant expect ppl not to pirate it imo #also also also i know this post is about flint. but legitimately there are beautiful wonderful amazingly written nuanced female characters #as well. id also nominate anne bonny black sails for poor little meow meow. sopping wet covered in blood in a big hat with a sword #having a gay little breakdown thats not an exagerration she literally does and then they handle #a throuple with. a delicateness i never expected honestly. they did that real well all things considered #anyway. black sails is a good show w plmms as far as the eye can see #i would recommend looking up like cws (or i can try to give u some off the top of my head if u ask ! just cant remember everything)#it does have a lot of. Intense Shit

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heinekenskyw4lker · 1 year

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precious babygirl™ wearing a flower crown and a big radiant smile 🌼💖

@random-cryptid this is for you <3

#HAPPY GAY SANDERSON SUNDAY SIMPS AJSJDJJS #listen. this girl has me in steel tight grip like a pitbull. she aint willing yet to let be have lungful of air anytime soon #bestie and i spiraled down the idea of giving sarah braids and a flower crown last night #best mental breakdown we suffered together and it keeps going strong #SHE'S SO PRETTY AND IM A DUMBASS #this is also dedicated to all fellow sarah sanderson simps <3 #may sarah always run amok in yall hearts #hocus pocus #sarah sanderson #natty draws 🖌#art

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captain-dina · 1 year

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ORV SPOILER CHAPTER 400+

READING ORV CHAPTER 466 WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPOENING IM SL CONFUSED IM SO FLABBERGHADTEF DO I CRY DO I NOT CEY WHAT HAPONED TO 999 MY MNA JUST WHAT RHE FUCK I AM MINDBLOWN CONFUSED HORRFIEF SAD WHAT IS HAPPENING IT ISNT 3RD TURN BUT ACTUSLLY 1864???? WHAT THE DUCK IS HAPPENING IM SO CONFUSED AND SAD AND WHAT

#orv #what the fuck #im going to have a breakdown #joongdok #i hate gay people #omnicient reader's view point #what the fuck my mind is blown #im so confused helo me #Spotify

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caruliaa2 · 8 months

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what if you needed reassurance abt smth very specifc . and you wanted to go to a specifc person for the reassurance. but that person is so busy ad talking abt and getting reassurance abt this thingwas also a topic that you know your upsetness abt lead to them feeling bad too becuase hastag every single thing i touch become sick with sadness or whatever but then you where like oh i know. i have what they said writen down someonewhere in mydrawer my drawer of things theyve said to me i think its actually at the very top of my drawer even so i dont have to do searching thru things and then im like oh yeah my drawer is in a room with a bunch of my other shit and the key was stolen by someone whose refused to even listen to me when ask if they can maybe unlock the drawer and this has been the case for THREE WEEKS NOW STAFF UNSHADOWBAN @CARULIAA NOW !!!! @staff @support @joebiden @taylorswift @god @carmensandiego

#im going to blowed up NOWW im not even jokingg uh !!!#flappy rambles #EDIT: IM REMOVING @MISHACOLLIONS WHY DID IT ATUALLY AT HIM. MISHA IM SO SORRY #LOVED UR WORK AS GAY ANGEL CASTIEL IM JUST HAVE A MENTAL BREAKDOWN SORRYY #its @ing taylor now idc i dont thts rly her still running her acct. or if it is HII TAYLOR ILYSMM IM SO SORRY UR MUSIC IS THE BESTEST EVER #edit. oh my god @joebiden isnt the offical acct run by the intern its just an empty url. please not be used in years please #dont be a popular blogger whose gonnsa screendshit this and mock me #if you are look okay i didnt fucking know thisi was actually gonna @ a real person so if you make fun of me ur just a dick #and ik u already are if you where going to but like. look dm me ill start a sideblog and post whatever stupid shit u want there #and u can screenshot that to make fun of. pls just leave me and my acutal moment of vunrubilty alone please okay

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