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Any systems out there that have maybe advice or anecdotes about non-corporeal alters, please if you feel comfortable sharing im in a tight spot and could use guidance:
So, I am a ghost. When we were little our hosts had always been human, during our teen years i co-hosted with a human. During our late teens/early 20s i was considered less of a co-host and more of just only being out when we interacted with our abuser, and the human co-host became the only host for a while. Since then that human is no longer host and isnt able to be considered co-host anymore (atleast not for the forseeable future until we get therapy and can unpack some stuff for her) and the role of host falls solely on me. The ghosty hostess with the mostess 😎
So basically tl;dr the first part, ive been in the body fairly often before but its only the last few months i have been here all the time with 'just me' (obv not including random switches/lurking but like i mean in a sense of the body primarily belonging only to me without a break.)
The body deals with a l o t of chronic pain.
Basically i had some thoughts recently where i couldnt tell if i could feel the body pains more these days just because i dont have a co-host/have someone to take it from me when its overwhelming, or because im becoming more connected with the idea of having physicality? Or the pain is just worse/increased because whatever is causing the pain hasnt been medically adressed and my condition has decreased. I have recently stopped taking my uh, 🍀 medication due to financial reasons and since not having it the body just feels worse and worse every day, i honestly didnt realise just how much it was doing for me in regards to just like. Allowing me to go for a tiny 10min slow paced walk without wishing to scream and howl in pain with every step. To let me function, essentially, on a physical pain management scale.
The last two ideas stress me out. I still feel like a ghost, not to get too personal but my ghost form wasnt formed out of a near death experience it was out of a need to have certain words and events 'go through me,' and a deep connected sense of lonelyness and abandonment like those things and people and places who are gone and forgotten. And i carry much trauma related to those feelings which i will not be going into detail about here. But the thought that i have been in this body so long by myself, and have over the last few years found friends and connections to other physical people i want to be around, couldve caused/be causing me to slowly become less ghost and more physically real? That scares and worries me. I still very much feel like i need to be ghost to stop us getting hurt in that way. I worry if i become corporeal, it will be easy for other people to hurt us in that same way again. I worry if i am corporeal that i will have to deal with the bodys physical pains much more intensely than i already do if i am so connected to it, and that i cannot do what i do best to allow painful things to pass through me. Like im made of nothing but smoke because i essentially am. Thats my entire reason for being. I worry if this is the case and im becoming a more physical embodiment of my former self that its out of my control and i dont get a choice. Because i would chose to stay ghost if i could.
The other option is also scary. The body is only 24 years old dude. It shouldnt hurt this much all the time over comparatively small tasks. Or no tasks. It shouldnt hurt this much just to be 'alive'. And if it is because the condition has progressed since the last time i was aware of the body for real and ive gotten worse? Thats almost too much to think about. How quickly is it progressing? Why cant i do anything to stop it? Why wont doctors do anything to stop it, or atleast identify it so i can work on managing it myself? Ive only ever split once (personally i mean not as a system) and the poor entity is full of medical trauma. It makes it so hard to keep going to doctors to keep begging them to take me seriously when they never do. Its so much pain and effort (let alone money) and exhaustion just to get to a doctor. Not even a specialist just a gp. Only for them to tell me every time that i brush my hair and dress nicely and usually wear makeup and i couldn't possibly be struggling in any way, especially physically. Its too much effort, more effort than its worth for that. So i dont really go to a doctor any more, but i need to, i need just one of them to take me fucking seriously. Because i have no good way of knowing if this pain seems so new and intense to me because im more 'real' (physical) than i ever was, or because there is more pain.
Both options suck
So yeah idk any ghostly entities or fluid/non-corporeal/shadow type alters, do you have advice how to tell if you might be becoming physical? Or those of you who used to be floaty who did transition into a more 'sturdy' being, what did it feel like? When did you know you werent the concept of see-through anymore? Do you prefer not having a graspable form? How has this change benefited your sys?
Idk i have a lot of questions just any sort of advice might be helpful here bc im having a rough time lately managing physical body pain in relation to the literal reason i exist and if i still exist like that.
#thats so fkn long im so sorry i so rarely post actual longform stuff on here but ive been thinking about lots lately#plus this is my blog i get to talk about my stuff here. this is my blog i have to keep reminding myself the social rules ive built myself#do not have to apply here. i can be a nuisance on my own damn blog if i wish#im also sorry idk how to do a readmore tho#i tried. i do not know if it will work its the first one ive done and i am on mobile app so im just reslly sorry if it doesnt work#and you get this huge text wall comin at ya#thats a lot of personal stuff i fe a bit weord abt posting so much private stuff openly but i needed to get these thoughts out#in a way where i can maybe get advice without judgement and not just a one sided journaling entry#personal#did#osdd#tw: death mention#tw: abuse mention#tw: drug mention#endos dni#tw: split mention#? idk what to tag as trigger warnings theres a lot of heavy implied stuff here but no actual real details i think#tw: ghosts#gross fuck you if you expect me to tw my fucking self but also. like i get it. i get not everyones cool with ghosts#bc theyre so often linked with deathy concepts#tw: trauma#tw: trauma mention#again not specifically with detail but i just dont wanna upset unprepared folks#next question for myself. if i click dont allow reblogs can people still reply? we will find tf out i suppose#if youre 'endo' you will be immediately blocked upon my finding this out or if youre just a dick about this post or my situation in general#im in a bad place. i have zero fucking tolerance for any kind of hate or even criticism right now. friendly discussions please only#im happy for you to share your stories if you think it relates or you might have insight into my situation#and im asking for advice so unless its very obviously unsolicited or unapplicable to situations like this(airy alters becoming less airy)#please feel free to share whatever you think might help or work within context#system
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One day I'd like to share my A oc with y'all but nervous but also I love him so dearly he's me, he's A, he's stubborn, and childish, and a smart ass but baby...
But also more than being an A oc he developed into just being my own oc and in non-death note universe, as a kid, he helps solve little mysteries around the neighborhood he grew up in with his besties Cole (originally my B oc) and Thomas (my friends oc who was a V oc) and they call themselves the Misfit Knights!!! They're all kinda misfits for one reason or another at their school and slowly become a found family type of friend group and eventually becoming the misfit knights really helps to reconnect with their classmates and community. They solve little mysteries for kids at school or in the neighborhood like "who took my backpack!!" or "the group of bullies are scaring me :(". Tho in that case they kind of just end up diverting the bullies attention to themselves, which in their opinion is a Problem Solved, even if it's Their Problem now.
Their biggest mystery and the one that jostles them all the most is The Missing Pets, which they're just kids and they haven't really interacted with criminal crimes before so they just think someone like stole them or something... ? It's very strange and they don't really realize it's like... Something that will put them in real danger until they're in the basement of the person, and close family friend of Thomas', they think is causing the pets to go missing and they See Scary Things Down There....
Anyway I'm rambling but I love them all so much and I love the idea of them all ending up in the Wammy house in some alternate reality but their bonds are shaken up and broken and weird now cuz they're older and Things Happened after/during the Missing Pets arc that really drew them apart and they either take the wammys house too seriously or it fucks their shit so bad.
#qeyond sucks#also idk how to do readmores on mobile anymore... girl help#genuine tho if yall know the code lemme know in a message or comment or something ; w ;#sorry im rambling but i just love anthony and cole so much...#i have ball jointed dolls based on them and art all over#theyre my babies born of death note but kinda took a life of their own#cole is a quiet fairy tail book worm but the kids dont like him cuz hes a bit weird...#he takes a lot of interest in learning about history and death and things and#he just doesn't make friends well#but thomas and anthony pick him up and he fits in so well with them#anthony is a high grades well off family kid with popular potential but hes a bit of a#butt head and a bit too serious sometimes and most kids didnt like it#but thomas and cole straighten him out and always bring him back to earth#like hey smart ass chill for a second#or make jokes about it and Anthony's like >:(( im being serious guys! and theyre like#yeah we know lmao its okay youll grow out of it pal :3#and thomas is a big super hero fan and adores his older brother whos in a band#i dont know him as deeply as cole and anthoyn cuz hes my friends oc but they#wouldnt be the same without him#hes the one that gets anthony to chill out when hes being a butt#very found family and theyre all some kinda gay but im still not sure in what ways#thomas x anthony tho and cole is like their kid#idk ignore me im just rambling oooghh
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✨💋 REQUESTS CLOSED 💋✨
Requests are now closed!
Rules:
keep me in your heart. i don't mind multiple requests, esp if they're good, but know that the more requests i get the longer it takes me to get through all of them. i'm unfortunately not a writing machine.
give me kisses pls
i don't mind fetish material, but i have limits. if you like something really graphic, such as gas or scat fetishes, i'll have to pass it up. but 'softer' fetishes to do with body parts or sneezing or whatever is fine. i'm not into it but i'll do my best to write it. (don't make me the sneeze blog tho i stg)
nothing to do with minors and no incest pls. you can request like sideswipe / reader / sunstreaker or the like tho, as long as there's a reader insert to sandwich in there and it's not sibling on sibling thank.
i will write the dark shit you want to read but character death isn't my favorite and if it gets too graphic i may make it a readmore? but that's just bc i get nervous about how people will take it.
writing for ships isn't my favorite. a lot of popular ships do nothing for me bc i'm contrary 😤 let's keep it to mainly reader insert stuff.
i will probably, most often, in all likelihood make the reader gender neutral even if you specify afab or fem bc i'm genderfucked and i don't want all my writing to exclude me if i'm not a woman that day lol lmao. if you specify male reader i will write that. i stand with men. i will write you getting your ass blasted, king.
disregard if my writing includes the word cunt or pussy. im so porn-brained that i associate those words with ass, too.
i think that's it. you guys know how to act (i hope). don't disappoint your dog by acting out of pocket in my inbox.
pwaise??? fow me??? 👉👈🥺
I will write for:
Transformers (no live-action, michael bay dies by my hand)
Genshin Impact
Twisted Wonderland
G.I. Joe
Ultrakill
i've mostly cut down what I write for. you're free to offer different fandoms/stuff in my inbox, but these are the things i'm mainly always into and it's easy for me to get interested in. i'm sorry for my weeb shit.
Donation link:
this doesn't affect the rate at or order in which i complete requests, but i've run this blog so long that uuuh idk i decided that taking donations might be nice? i write for the pleasure of it and bc i'm a degenerate, and having others read my shit and love it is the greatest gift tbh! but i'm also just a dude who has like,,, responsibilities and shit. don't feel like you have to! i'll be filling requests for a long time, donations or not.
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Hiii I've been so ill for the newest limbus update please tell me your thoughts about them if you have any/if you've played
I CANT BELIEVE I NEVER ANSWERED THIS IM SO SORRY
OKAY SO long story short: i fucking loved it
its been a hot minute now since ive actually played canto 5 bc life got.. crazy busy for a while since i finished (which is when i originally intended to answer this ask thank u for ur patience OTL) so i might misremember some things + im gonna put this under a readmore since it got a little long BUT
overall i think it was really good!! i really REALLY loved the parallels between ahabs obsession w the whale and ishmaels obsession w ahab herself and like. those two being narrative foils for each other and showing what happens when choosing obsession and hatred over everything else... and how ishmael got through it w support from the other sinners and w her love for queequeg and everything and AUGH
i think my two main gripes are like... i do wish queequeg hadnt died, BUT i also know that like. they did have to keep ishmael on the bus Somehow. if queequeg had lived then ishmael wouldve left with her and not stayed on the bus, which just. cant happen for the sake of the narrative. so like. i get it!! but it did feel a little :(.
my other main gripe is that it... actually didnt feel quite hard enough?? this time?? like i know the proj moon difficulty curve is outright vertical so thats what i was expecting (note: i was playing this post-nerf so idk how it was originally and also got tips from a friend who had already beaten her) so when i beat ahab on the first go it was like. oh. Oh! I Guess I Did It! which was nice but it didnt feel Quite as satisfying as it would have if i had tried and failed a few times before working out how to do it correctly
that said tho i really did like the canto as a whole!!! there were a lot of setups for later payoffs that im excited for too (like ahab joining hermanns crew and SAUDE BEING ALIVE. I MISS HER) + there were some heathcliff moments that had me like Hi Mr. Next-Canto Why Are You Saying That. but overall i really love the screentime that ishmael got and that she got to be ANGRY AND VIOLENT AND FUCKED UP and still get through it okay. i love her
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cant be bothered to make mulitple posts. have one post with many contents, it is like a treasure chest. also whoops got long teehee take a readmore
BOOBS. boobs. tits and boobs. soft and eueueuugughghghgh fun to squish and heavy and smell nice. society if i had someone to fool around with. kissing doesnt sound that appealing but if i played w someones boobs it would fix me i think. sorry. not sorry actually #liveyourtruth. whaever im 19 i can post abt whatever i want n what i wanna post abt is boobs
not to hammer home an old thought but god i wish i lived in a town or a village or a city... theres literally fuck all to do here unless i wanna bug my parents for a ride into town so instead i just sit inside n its kind of detrimental to my social life n indepence. like on the plus side, i might have considered taking up vaping in a calculated 'swapping one vice for another' way if living in the middle of a field didnt make getting my hands on any on a regular basis so utterly implausible, so like its good detterant in that way, but also like man do you know how psyched i would be to be able to walk to the cinema. walk to any store where i could buy things. u know how long google maps says it would take to walk to my local library? two hours. cant even go anywhere to hang out on a whim or without enough reason to justify bothering my parents abt it. like all going well ill hopefully be in the city for college come september but like. killing and bitingggggg
graduating in a week and AUGH on one hand out the gap waheyyy only a month until exams are DONE FOREVER (until college) but on the other hand, fuck man im never gonna see this school again, i barely hang out w my friends outside of school unless its someones 18th which in practice means that after the debs thats IT!!!!!oh my god im going to DIE, i need to go find cliodna on instagram so i can follow her because shes nice. ill be sitting in random classrooms in school lately n be hit w the fucking melancholy because im like oh boy soon i'll never see this place again and its like... intellectually i know that i am not one to dwell on shit like this after its happened, as evidenced by the 'oh god my friends are all going off to college, itll only be me and the kiddies in the youth theatre next year' crisis i had last spring, after which i was Fine Actually and rarely even thought of the ppl who left bcos i have the object permanence of a 2 month old, and in practice this summer is gonna be the same as every summer is and i didnt see a single one of my irls during summer last year and i was fine but like.... idk man knowing its the end.... kills
speaking of which, oh my GOD the leaving starts in *checks watch* 22 DAYS. FUCK. like the points i need for my course are actually pitiful like but 🥺 wanna do good... do i regularly and loudly disparage the english course and maintain that the only real measure of one's writing capabilities is your own evaluation? yes! do i still want a H1? also yes! it would be the easiest thing in the world if i was less opinionated but luckily i AM that opinionated. also god. biology the day before history.... death. ive not been paying attention to either class for literally the past few months, im gonna have to kick it into high gear when i graduate bcos lbr im gonna get my shit together enough to pay attention until im not in school anymore.
thinking about boobs again. would like to hold some. an irl's school shirt keeps shifting so i can see her boobs thru the button gaps and im heeueuugueugh
eating a mini viennese ice cream or whatever its called n its good 👍🏻 hard to type w tho
boobs again. hhhahwhauhghah!
my ass hurt. done.
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hiii im your caratblr secret santa! sorry for not sending an ask before i was a bit shy but!! im here to ask u some questions!
- i can do both digital drawing and graphic design so i want to ask if u have any preference! like if u want one instead of the other for your gift
- i want to know if u have any preferences like for the vibes or theme
- also do u want it to be related to one of the holidays or season (like winter, summer idk)? if yes which one? if not just say no :)
- do u have any favorite colors?
- do u have a favorite book or movie? i could make it related to it if u want to or could just be u giving me recommendations of things to watch and read!
- also if u have any favorite songs that u would like for it to be related too
if u want me to have all the creative freedom over it and have everything be a surprise for u its alright! i just prefer asking to know what u want, so if youd like to know nothing just tell me, the same if u have preferences and stuff
i dont know if i have more questions 😭😭 so for now thats it thanks for your time byeee <3
hi hello welcome!! don't be shy i promise i don't bite 😭 i'll put a readmore bc this might get long!
- ooh that's very cool! i'm very much a non-artist i'm always amazed at how talented ppl can be with art 🥹 i would love either one whatever you're more excited about!
- hmm vibes. just like. soft, i guess? like cozy comfort cute :) however you feel like interpreting that hehe
- i'm fine with any holiday! winter is my favorite season but it doesn't have to be related yk
- if you couldn't tell from my blog lol i love neutrals and earthy colors! that's not very helpful sdgkjsh but like. browns, greens, muted yellows are nice. i also really like pastels like lavender or pink! pretty much any colors that aren't super bright or extreme are nice to me :)
- favorite books ooh good question i might steal that for my gift exchange person lol! i have SO many favorite books and movies tho omg this is hard to choose. my favorites recently are "a man and his cat" by umi sakurai (manga series), "from lukov with love" by mariana zapata (ice skater rivals romance), "these violent delights" by chloe gong (historical action/mystery/romance), "warcross" by marie lu (dystopia action romance), "the rain sparrow" by linda goodnight (romance), and literally anything by sarah dessen or debbie macomber (i went thru a Phase in middle school but they're good authors okay!). honestly this is just me giving book recs haha but i tried to give a good variety of genres if that helps! (also reading back over this list makes me realize i read a lot of romance 🧍♀️) i don't really watch a *ton* of movies or tv, but recently i've been bingeing the good doctor (even tho medical stuff makes me very squeamish sdgkfsh) even with some of the gorier parts i would 10/10 recommend it!!
- my favorite svt songs are fear, fallin' flower, heaven's cloud, and run to you, but you don't have to include them!!
i'm super indecisive so i will leave most of it up to you but! i hope this helps at least a little :) lmk if you need anything else from me i'm happy to do whatever i can!
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sorry if this is random but i was just curious about your thoughts on sai? i know you have a lot of thoughts on yamato fhdjdlfn and his and yamato’s relationship always seemed so interesting and really underdeveloped :[ theyre both really similar but yamato was able to get out of ROOT before sai was, and i was just wondering if you had any thoughts on that/him to share. sorry if this is weird or out of the blue djshfkfj love your art!!
that's not weird at all!!! actually the day u sent this question in i had finalized the thumbnails (and started on the pencils!) for a comic wherein Yamato comments on how Sai is handling his transition out of ROOT differently than Yamato himself did! I don't want to lay all my thoughts on that out here, because I think i'm much more clumsy with textposts than with comics, but I appreciate the question and I will share some thoughts!
under a readmore tho bc. this got Long...comics force me to be concise but w/ a keyboard under my hands i just chatter
here's something I've been thinking abt! I think they had fundamentally different experiences in ROOT, and this is reflected in their attitudes towards Danzō, as well as the way they interact with the people outside of ROOT.
Sai seems to have no real loyalty to Danzō. He does what Danzō says because Danzō gives him his orders, when he practices his fake smile in front of Danzō, Danzō immediately tells him to cut that shit out. I don't think there's a lot of love lost there—when team Kakashi catches up to him in orochimaru's hideout, and they kind of confront him, and. also kind of. "give him the option" of abandoning his mission (and ROOT along with it) or. you know. facing shinobi consequences. he doesn't really seem to think much of it?
honestly. i imagine he was probably a little more relieved than anything else. Add to that him remembering how he wanted to finish the drawing of his brother—
actually wait hang on thats another point I want to talk about. Sai was pitted against the person he was closest to in order to traumatize him into numbness! wack! I think that's kind of at the root (help.) of why I see him as a fundamentally angrier character than I see Yamato—and why I interpret some of his behavior not just as Not Knowing How People Work (although he does have trouble with this! it's a very different vibe. like. him trying to comfort Naruto and Naruto thinking Sai was coming onto him was an entirely different kind of situation) but as like. intentionally inflammatory sometimes...like. he's insulted the bodies of most of the people around him in one way or another, he knows it pisses them off, he does keep doing it.
I think him Causing Problems On Purpose is sometimes just a way for him to try and experience catharsis for a fury he doesn't really know he's repressing.
Like. idk. it's one thing to be forced to hurt yourself, that's deeply upsetting, disembodying, traumatizing, but it's another to be forced into a situation where you're to hurt somebody you love
(regardless of the outcome) like. idk. its a kind of powerlessness that hits different at least ime, and frustration and resentment are extremely normal reactions to a situation like that.
i think. a number of things could be appealing to him abt trying to get others to get angry at him—whether it's Him being the one to Cause another persons anger (which could confer a kind of. feeling of control) or him seeing himself reflected in their anger (like a "boy howdy i recognize this emotion. it's very clear. very understandable") or even seeing how they handle the anger.
kishimoto definitely doesn't care nearly as much about Sai's anger. but i found the implication of it compelling as a kid, and I find it more compelling as an adult! anger can be an incredibly healing and protective force sometimes when dealing w/ trauma...and I wish kishimoto knew what he was writing about or that we got to see it explored more!!! ack!
yamato (as kinoe) had a wildly different experience when he was in ROOT.
we know he knew how to fight against sharingan, which. I think implies he was training in combat with Danzō, or that he worked closely with Danzō, or at the very least that Danzō used his sharingan on him. We also saw that (unlike Sai, who was rebuked for even fake-smiling) that Kinoe (at first) was not told to feel nothing, but instead instructed on how to feel by Danzō specifically.
Like, mostly telling him to Feel Grateful etc, but I think him being told to experience specific feelings according to what Danzō thought was appropriate would lead to a different relationship with his emotions than Sai, who was told explicitly to repress them all at all times, and to not even attempt to preform them.
He also like. Thought. Highly. of Danzō, not just as a leader but as a person...it's kind of undeniable that Kinoe saw him as right, was willing to brand his own feelings and intuition wrong if it crossed Danzō's, openly sought Danzō's approval, when he fails his mission to secure Kakashi's eye, his reaction is. essentially immediately to return himself to Danzō to face whatever new dehumanization Danzō's got for him—
even when Kakashi and Hiruzen drag him out of there he thanks Danzō for everything, and he seems genuine about it, despite. everything. He's more expressive than Sai for sure, He had like. a moment of anger, when he said that he wanted to be Tenzō, and Danzō denied him that basic self identification...but it's quickly squashed. Messy. Messy. I think. I think he has a little more trouble getting in touch w/ his anger than Sai bc of his emotional closeness to Danzō.
i think. because yamato knows that he was something more like Danzō's favorite, and that conveyed a vastly different experience than Sai's, he might feel a little complicated about being like "So...ROOT trauma, huh? Hell of a thing!" but. i also like to think that he's very quietly kind of trying to observe and support in a way which mostly allows Sai to figure himself out—I think when they are older they would probably talk about it more (also because then their tongue-seals will have finally disappeared. Thanks sasuke!), once Sai has close friends in the village and everything
Just a lot of like. "I have friendships down. I have teammates down, easily—but what am I to the old woman I buy my cabbages from. What degree of friendliness do I exhibit to her."
"I think...whatever you're comfortable with is fine. I know neither of us had particularly normal upbringings, but you don't have to execute every interaction perfectly for people to care about and respect you."
anyway god this is so long and soooo based in my own personal HCs. I hope there was something in here that was interesting to you!
#artagans#yamswers#sai#sai yamanaka#he was my favorite character as a kid and the only character i actually remember#as a ND kid i obviously definitely related to the social issues. also he had a crop top and was a bit of an asshole#so i was like fuck yeah this guy rules and he DOES and i still love him a lot#also. sakura and naruto are really good influences on him i think and contribute to him learning quickly#both of them have such BIG feelings#and also are quick to say ''HEY the way I'm being treated SUCKS and I've HAD IT!!!!''#which is really good for sai to witness and experience#they both also like. are quick to express anger but its very healthy...they set boundaries#and they also like. clearly know he's having trouble with some things and forgive him the small stuff#idk i have a lot of feelings abt his relationship to the other team seven kids. its nice...#all of this under the disclaimer that like. this is only my experience of sai and naruto#even if kishimoto WERENT an incredibly inconsistent writer (which he is) my interpretation is not gonna be to everyones taste
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Look I'm not one of those people who believe Kishimoto decided to have Hinata and Naruto end up in the middle part of Shippuden. I believe he decided in the very last arc but he wanted to sound smart so he said he decided earlier on. Otherwise, they obviously would have more scene together. In Shippuden, they have only three scenes together ; when Naruto came back, the pain attack and the neji death scene. That's it. In the original Naruto, they probably have less than ten canon scenes not including fillers.
So I'm sorry I'm one of those who wasn't convinced by The Last. They literally had a basic villain go after Hinata who was cringe btw (the villain). They gave Hinata op powers which she doesn't have in the novel 👀. Despite having op powers, they made her the damsel in distress. Very "The hero saves the princess" cliche. Again, to justify them being together. I mean Naruto can't differentiate his love for ramen and romantic love so how??? He was just being nice to Hinata just like he does to everyone. He stood up for her just like he does for everyone.
Don't get me started on the Sakura Sasuke relationship 🤣. Cringe. They never knew each other. The whole Sakura's love for Sasuke saved him doesn't make sense. They spent barely a year in their genin year before sasuke left. Sasuke tried to kill Naruto and Sakura multiple times. Then at the end of the war, Kishimoto tried to do the "oh they have such a deep understanding between each other" which comes off as cringey. He gets her pregnant then leaves for years. She's literally a single mom who's broke.
Every relationship in Naruto is so cringey and forced except shikatemari. Kishimoto should've focused on the main story and fixed his potholes and leave the ending open.
Naruto would not have been perfect but at least it would've been remembered for staying true to its vision but instead it's remembered for cringey relationships, dumbass villain (except pain and madara) and a story that lost its core which is a shame coz I used to love Naruto. I was inspired by its messages but now....
OKAY LOL WAIT I ACTUALLY HAVE THIS LONG ASS RANT PREPARED XD
BUT FIRST Ive read what you said and I lowkey agree :p
HOWEVER
I DRAW THE LINE AT TONERI SLANDER. BECAUSE WHY
TONERI?? CRINGE?? THIS SEXY MOTHERFUCKER??
LOOK AT HIS WHITE FLUFFY HAIR AND HIS CERULEAN BLUE ORBS STARING DEEPLY INTO YOUR SOUL
SAY SIKE RIGHT NOW?!#*@*#&@*
okay lol now for the juicy part click readmore and beware I shall be brutally honest so yea enjoy
I mean, Naruto in general is a mess, not just the ships if we're being realistic. Alot of plotholes, rushed endings, this and that, the w a r a r c, Kaguya, the way they rushed Boruto ehhh. Honestly, getting into Naruto is literally my biggest regret of 2020 :"DD
Im an NH shipper as you can tell by my hotmess of a blog but i fully respect your opinion and understand your point of view. I also know a bunch of nh stans who have their complaints with their development. I wish Kishi gave more attention to his female cast really, thats all I fucking ask. If he did that one single basic thing, then maybe the endgame relationships wouldnt have been an asspull and theyd be given propper screentime with their love interest, both Sakura and Hinata. The Last tbh i think the writers played it safe and stuck to the whole Naruto shounen vibe thingy, so im not surprised it was plotted that way. Typical cliché shounen movie.
But does that bother me? No! The Last was a mess, their development was shit, they definitely needed more screentime but hey at the end of the day theyre cute as fuck, we have that kiss scene, flirting scenes, a shit ton of official art, three kids, Seiki's gif :33 and a whole ass arc for their wedding all that for just a shounen anime so eh. Compensates for it i guess xD theyre not toxic, unhealthy or whatnot. Theyre wholesome, soft and vanilla as fuck and exactly what i need in my hectic life rn. No drama, just two kind souls who are adorable as heck and theyre dynamic means so much to me and I will love them until i shall leave this earth.
Anon, im not even gonna waste my time and defend their development because i think it sucked too xD but if you wanna know why i love them so so so soooo much, Id be more than willing to tell you :33
Sasuke and Sakura on the other hand eeeehhhh i can see why people like them. Sasuke's hot, he's your typical hot bad boy aad Sakura's hot and pretty too. Basic blue and pink trope. Aside from their canon interactions, fans have all the opportunity to play around with their dynamic but for me, its just sooo basic and so hetero and can easily appeal to any 16 yr old teenage girl, no wonder it has an active fanbase on twt and---- AM I MAKING ANY SENSE? AHDBAJJE LIKE ITS SO-- BASIC, your usual bad boy x pretty girl trope that you get to read in YA and coming of age novels. Not only that, but going back to canon, they have too many negative interactions for me to like them together :p The least Sakura can do is put down her own foot and yell at him for not contacting them for god knows how long. I also dont like how he always gets easily forgiven >=[[. I mean at least He's compensating as a dad good for him but ehhhh i still dont like him and Sakura together :v And im not falling for that "Sakura is the reason why Sasuke isnt lonely anymore" because thats NARUTO AHHH. Sasuke said that Multiple times. HE LIGHTS A FIRE INSIDE OF ME. HES MY SUN. MY ONE AND ONLY FRIEND. LIEK?? THATS NARUTOOO romantic or not, Naruto was the reason for his not so lonely existence anymore smh >=[[
Sasuke almost murdered her and Naruto and made their lives a living hell but hey its all good!! He's my best friend and Sakura loves him!! So set him freeee into the worldddd~~
Sasuke left his family without even simply contacting them but can easily contact Naruto through a hawk but hey thats fine! His and Sakura's feelings are connected afterall! Sasuke gave her a ring and said thank you! Who cares about leaving your family. She loves him and he loves her so yey!!! All is forgiven :D
DID I MENTION SASUKE ALMOST MUREDERED HIS OWN DAUGHTER AND HE WASNT CALLED OUT FOR THAT@*#&@??!?#,*@#,#
Sasuke gets too many life points this isnt fair >=[[ But tbh he's nerfed so bad in Boruto manga and anime power wise. Like in that time travel arc and the manga. The rinnegan kunai thing was still so funny to me even if it was Borushiki. I just idk its so funny to me lmaoo
OKAY WHAT ELSE. I dont even know any more. Im tired of complaining about Naruto and just when Ive finally gone a little bit away from Naruto, Hinata fucking pulls me in again 😩 she has me on chokehold pls send help. Watch castlevania!!! and one piece!!!! ten times better than this anime about a loud blonde boi who wants to be president. Trust me
overall, i dont fully agree but i lowkey agree i guess. I do respect your opinion tho :))
EXCEPT WHEN YOU CALLED TONERI CRINGE. HOW DARE YOU CALL THAT SEXY MF CRINGEY---
#like at this point if you complain about naruhina to me id probably complain along with you#but at the end of the day#i really do not care lol#theyre CUTE AS FUCK AND I WILL COMMIT MASS MURDER FOR THESE PRECIOUS KIDS AND WOULD NOT FEEL AN OUNCE OF REMORSE#also i have like zero energy to find all those manga panels and debunk shit and stuff#i just say the first thing that comes to my brain and fart it out on my lonely tumblr blog#anon#hey hey anon ask me about why i love naruhina so much come on come on *aggressively bounces knees*#unpopular opinions
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Exactly! Crestoria is not the only game they don't really keep tabs with. A while ago i played a saint seiya game by them and it had many many issues. If you cannot have multiple games with quality than please don't. Is bad for us and the employees, those poor people must be going crazy :c
At first I liked kasque, quite different than what I would expect from a goddess, but I ended disliking her...
I feel kinda bad for aegis just being a punching bag for jokes and Yuna just being there to look pretty, they have a lot of potential for the story. Like you said Yuna had a great point and a good reflection moment but whatever eh? Aegis too, I felt his story like a punch on the gut because I tend to be like him and the queen, but again, whatever...
I do the arena for the free stuff too! I am not competitive at all XD
hello again anon!! im going to do another readmore gksghkeg
yeah i honestly...ugh. i have just a lot of issues w bamco in general but i also Do Not want them to pay attention to me jic they tell me to stop making memes or something stupid like that— like genuinely instead of making the game more functional or adding like...idk. any story or shit that makes Sense they just added things like the transcendence board which is just. for ppl who already maxed out their ascension boards?? after like 6 months??? Y'ALL... ik for a while too the phantom tower was Waaayyy too difficult but i think they nerfed it back to normal considering i can now clear thru level 40 at least :/ but overall the game is just. geared towards ppl who drop fucktons of cash on it. if you look at the ppl in the top 3 in arena rn? you KNOW they've spent hundreds if not thousands of dollars on this game. what the fuck.
also minor gripes are just...they don't add very many new units anyway, compared to like even asteria, and i get that there's effort for the whole models or w/e but...i mean if rays can do it... and i don't mean that in the rate that banners are released, bc those are...kind of annoyingly often as of late (looking @ all the crestoria cast alts) but the fact they're only for 1 or 2 charas who are Only ssrs, and it genuinely makes r and sr stones and sr charas just...obsolete and useless imo? like i genuinely have EVERY sr AND r full awakened/ascended which. is probs partly due to the drop rates being Absolute Garbage, but thank god they implemented a pity system, right? ...right? [tired sigh] i've saved enough for julius who has been in crestoria for 228 days, bamco, fucking release h—
i also want to add that i've contacted support MULTIPLE times abt issues w the game and they have legit just told me "hm sucks have u tried playing the game w all other apps closed" like yes, bamco, but that's not the problem??
SORRY for several paragraph rant abt the gameplay i just have some very strong opinions LMAO
i understand not liking kasque! tales antags...and characters in general, actually, are rather hit or miss. i personally just love evil women so im rlly in love w her GSKEHGESKHG
but as for the aegis and yuna things... YEAH. i rlly love them both and it's been extremely disappointing to see how they've been treated by the story :( like even if yuna's acting silly to cover her own feelings, it would be nice to get those scenes we get in other tales games (like...idk even the scenes in xillia like where alvin and elize sit and talk in the park, and leia talks w i think jude or milla depending on the route?) considering it's like...is penelope going to be okay? can she ever go back to her?? is she okay just crossing the sea and leaving her, even if there's really no choice??? sorry for the character introspect i just have a lot of thoughts—
aegis too, it's like. i don't mind teasing to an extent, but i really feel sometimes they go too far w it :( esp in like. events and the character episodes moreso than the main story (tho i could be remembering incorrectly) which makes me wonder if they just have different writers for each but even THEN like the main story still fails to act like yuna and aegis Exist half the time?? and JEEZ yeah i am constantly thinking abt aegis and queen rebecca, esp imo it's just a very... well first of all, that has to be Traumatizing As Hell but second of all i strongly headcanon he was unable to say it bc he didn't mean it and also i have a headcanon that the whole event has kept him from ever saying the words "i love you" ever again so that's that on THAT. (these are my headcanons pls don't send me hate over them they're not canon i promise—)
and honestly same!! i used to be sss rank and then i stopped caring abt arena for a bit and dropped a couple ranks...oops. i'm currently s-5 and had to FIGHT to keep myself there this season. it's not that i rlly care abt winning or being high ranking. or first, even, i just want the prizes from being at a certain rank/placing tbh. which is why.....................................oh im so tired of the ppl with lvl 120 fully awakened new ass units like i GET IT you have MONEY but i am not spending that much on a mobile game!!
ANYWAY thank u for coming to my ted talk omfg im so sorry this is so long (again)
#mod.txt#SSSSSSSSORRYYYYYYY#if u disagree w me pls don't yell at me im sensitive—#these are just my onions i pr#anyway i again apologize for a v long post where i just. bitch abt crestoria ig that's my life now
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3, 4, 6-8, 11, 13-17, 19-22, 26-30 uwu
WOO LAD THAT’S A LOT THANK U!!! this got long and i wrote an essay or two LOL so im putting it under a readmore!
3: Best game you’ve ever played? WEEEELLLL.......let me preface this with two things: one, i am a FAKE GAMER as in my laptop is not at all made for gaming, it’s piss poor, so a big chunk of games i’m interested in is because i watched a playthrough of them lol. i have a 3ds but only 3 games on it (animal crossing new leaf, tomodachi life, nintedogs & cats). second, i’m very bad at choosing favorites of things.....BUUUUT .....i choooooose, in no particular order, OFF, pigeonetics, elder scrolls oblivion, pathologic classic HD!! i’m more than likely forgetting a few though, so sorry about that
4: Worst game you’ve ever played? as i said above, cannot choose favorites, neither can i choose whatever the opposite of favorites is but...uhh, does lif even count as a game? like lif, the stupid little furry flash game i remember playing on some shady website. it was surprisingly very active with a BUNCH of people there but i kept dying like every 5 seconds....AWFUL
6: A game that’s changed you the most? WELL define Changed.....ummm aha first thing that comes to mind is OFF. it’s one of those things where you never knew you wanted something so fucking bad until you saw it--and it’s like that for me. i NEVER knew i loved that odd, surreal, colorful, “looks playful and simple in some parts but incredibly violent and unnerving in other parts” aesthetic til i played it. like aesthetically i love that game to BITS and something about it just stuck with me til the end of time.
later in life (meaning, past year or so) it changed me because it taught me a lesson about storytelling and creative endeavors. a very useful lesson. which is: things don’t really need to have a meaning. stories, art, music, writing, whatnot, while it CAN be deep and meaningful, while you CAN use it as a way to communicate with the world about all kinds of heartfelt things, it can also be...nothing, really.
once i, as usual, got ridiculously overwhelmingly sad about small things. specifically seeing other people around me come up with all kinds of deep and meaningful characters and stories, sometimes putting them into webcomics or writings of theirs, and they were all so well-thought out and detailed and what i envied most was people put a lot of themselves and their experiences into them, venting and coping through them, whilst also making these larger-than-life grandiose complex stories and worlds and so on and so forth.
it made me look at my own ideas and get mad/frustrated at how shallow they were. but then i remembered OFF and i felt better because Fun Fact, mortis ghost has a now-abandoned dA account and if you go through the comment section on his profile, he answers a lot of fan questions and he mentions several times that the game didn’t really have a “meaning”, it didn’t really have a “deeper story” or moral or anything, really. i’m paraphrasing this but i vividly remember him saying “i wanted to make a game, so i did”.
that made me feel a lot better because it made me realise that sometimes art--especially stories, in my case-- doesn’t NEED to be DEEP or have MEANING...sometimes it can just BE!!!! sometimes it really can just be all about AESTHETICS like who GIVES a shit if there’s a hidden meaning if you take the first letter of all of your characters’ names and put them backwards, sometimes all that matters is if they just VIBE with you y’know....
yume nikki is similar in this regard bc that game doesn’t have any story other than “collect egg” and yet it’s so impactful. that game doesn’t have a story or meaning it just IS........ :) GOD THATS SO LONG IM SORRY ABOUT THAT but yeah. funny violent ghostbusting baseball man is a game that changed me :)
7: A game you’ll never forget? OFF AGAIN LOL,,, it’s just so memorable because of how unique it is. visuals, soundtrack, story, everything is so memorable. unforgettable. oh god you can tell how much i love this damn game can’t you
8: Best soundtrack? yakuza 0, OFF, there is a picture (another game by mortis ghost, again composed by alias conrad coldwood who also composed OFF), pigeonetics (the entire soundtrack of which is here), jojo’s bizarre adventure all star battle and eyes of heaven, silent hill 2 & 3, undertale....probably forgetting more but all of these...earcandy
11: Hardest game you’ve played? i am a shitty gamer so this is Most games i’ve played lol!! but uhh..well you see. hardest game i remember playing as of recent is pathologic classic hd in which it’s...not only hard to understand what any character is saying at any given time lol but also, i don’t think it’s HARD it’s just...you need to focus. you REALLY need to fucking focus and pay attention in this game. so i wouldn’t say its HARD, but i’m only putting this here bc it’s in recent memory.
i say recent memory because the true answer is susceptible to “yeah, but now you’re older, it must not be so hard.” as in if i played it now i think i’d have a way easier time. but when i was around....10-12 years old i had several ps3 video game adaptations of animated movies and i had SUCH a fucking hard time with them. g-force, bolt and up in particular were fucking HARD. like genuinely, the hardest time i had EVER had in my live playing video games is tied to these three fucking games. g-force and bolt ESPECIALLY. one particular level in bolt took both me AND my sister around a year to fucking finish.
again, i was baby, so i bet i’d have a much easier time with them now that i’m 17. but for now, in my experience, bolt and g-force for the ps3 were harder than pathologic classic. i think icepick lodge should take a few notes for them for pathologic 2.
13: A game you were the most excited for when it wasn’t released yet? STREETS OF KAMUROCHO...i spent the entire day of its release anticipating its launch lol
14: A game you think would be cool if it had voice acting? hmm..most games i like and know about do have voice acting so i dunno....i guess it would’ve been kind of cool if morrowind had like, full proper voice acting. but i can understand why it only voice acted things like greetings and battle insults because GOD that game is SO...complicated...and as a result, the conversations are so lengthy and text-full. playing morrowind is really like a goddamn book! if it was voice acted i’m sure all that information would have to be shortened bc i know no one is going to fucking voice act two whole paragraphs
15: Which two games do you think would make an awesome crossover? pigeonetics and yakuza in which instead of being about the criminal underworld it’s about shady and unethical pigeon clubs, breeding, racing, etc etc...a lot of illegal shit does happen in the world of pigeons especially when it comes to racing; prized racers have been kidnapped and held for ransom before. and then there’s Avian Cucking: The Sport, where people breed the sexiest pigeons (horseman thief pouters), release them outside to seduce other people’s sexy pigeons, and bring them back and keep ‘em, drama ensues. will kiryu ever escape his past as a professional pigeon-napper, and find solace in his new life as a pigeon hobbyist? find out now by playing YACOOZA......
JOKES ASIDES i don’t know i really don’t....umm, pigeonetics and animal crossing somehow?? :O... like, instead of managing your own town it’s managing your own loft!...orrrr, the jojo games (all star battle & eyes of heaven) with yakuza, because i think they’re somewhat similar because they’re both haha Wacky Silly AND serious over the top fighty-fighting.....or maybe a crossover with OFF and discover my body, which, despite being an incredibly short and obscure indie game i still love to bits for what it’s worth. WAIT ANIMAL CROSSING AND MINECRAFT THAT WOULD FUCK SO HARD OH MY GOD
16: Character you’ve hated most? From what game? i can’t think of any character i like, HATE...with a burning passion.. there are a few i dislike or have a complicated relationship with though.. i’m not interested in the series anymore but ouma from drv3...i’ll admit that he is a bit fun sometimes, especially in the very early beginning he’s a likeable brat but as the game progresses he becomes more irritating than anything and i have an issue with him in regards to writing, despite the fact that i have never been awake in any english class ever lol. it’s too long to put in this already long post but i’ll keep it at that. if you like him, well, good for you for finding joy in something i couldn’t! but he just doesn’t do it for me.
AH I JUST REMEMBERED....MINE......FROM YAKUZA 3....maybe i’d change my mind if i watched a playthrough of y3 again, because i think you always absorb something better on your second watch (tho i honestly Dont have the energy to do that all over again, the yakuza games are too fucking long), but i really hate his writing. spoilers for y3 but, i think mine’s writing, alongside other things in the game, were super messy...and a big part of why i hate him is that not only is he one of those “could’ve had great potential but fell flat” sorta guys but also his love for daigo is seen as some fans as good gay rep and i?????/.............um....WELL let’s just say that, i think people nowadays will see any gay character ever in any circumstance and say it’s good gay rep just based off the fact that A Gay Character exists....he was Not, good gay rep imo....he was not, let alone, Good. .........
17: What game do you never tell people you play? can’t think of any games i wouldn’t tell people i play.. idk exactly what this question’s asking. does it mean what game you don’t tell ppl you play bc you’re embarrassed about it...? i’m not very embarrassed by any of them. the only thing that comes close, i guess, is uhh lioden and wolvden. i’ve only interacted with those communities a LITTLE TINY WEE BIT, yet of what i’ve seen it’s a goddamn dumpster fire and i’d never want to be associated with them lol
19: Which game do you think deserves a revival? i’m well aware it’ll never happen and that it’s more a wet dream than anything but...PT/silent hills..... on a more realistic/”could happen” note, PIGEONETICS!!!! SERIOUSLY, it’s an amazing game about amazing animals and it teaches genetics in a very simplified and efficient way!! genetics is SO hard for me to understand, i fucking hated studying it but this game really helped me understand how it works AND its super engaging and interesting!! HOWEVER, of all the pigeon genes we know of, only a handful were seen in pigeonetics and i’d LOVE a sequel that employs new game mechanics AND new genes!! i wanna learn about bronze and stencil genes! i wanna learn about phenotypes like grizzled and pied!!! genes like sooty and dirty!!! @ UNIVERSITY OF UTAH GENETICS DEPARTMENT PLEASE IM BEGIGNG YOU
20: What was the first video game you ever played? earliest memories of Gaming involves me at my aunt’s house playing two games: super mario brothers and some kind of trapeze game. i don’t remember anything else though
21: How old were you when you first played a video game? i can’t remember but i must’ve been REAL tiny.... 6-9 years, maybe??
22: If you could immerse yourself in any game for one day, which game would it be? What would you do? immerse myself meaning go into their world...? huh....on one hand i’d like to go in the world of yakuza 0 to play in the arcades and do whore related activities but i’d also love to go into the world of animal crossing (and i’m pretty sure i’d be some sort of generic dromaeosaurid in that game!!) and shop, chat with villagers, do chores for them, go fishing, bug hunting, eat delicious fucking food like the apples mangos peaches cherries etc etc.....OH AND FOSSIL HUNTING THAT’S THE BEST PART!! though it would definetly be a little weird, to be a little dinosaur and finding a fossil of a...little dinosaur....i guess the non-sentient species went extinct and the dinosaur i am is some kind of, descendant of a sapient non-avian dinosaur that survived the k-pg extinction event...oh but who cares all i want is a cool little ambulocetus fossil or something. and some cherry pie :)
26: Handheld or console? my old ps3 just went kaput one day years ago so i haven’t used it in years so i can’t compare well... but i’d say handheld, because it lets me like DO stuff more...would love to get a console one day, a ps4 maybe but i’m kinda worried it’ll make me stay in one room all day wasting away my time when there’s other stuff i can do, y’know? but something handheld like my 3ds, on the other hand...i can do stuff with it. i can take it to my room and play it between breaks i take as i clean the room and fold my clothes, i can watch something on the tv and play the game during ad breaks, i can take it outside too if it has charge to last me a while! so....handheld i guess
27: Has there ever been a moment that has made you cry? yakuza 0 and undertale in particular have ALMOST made me fucking bawl with many of its moments....yakuza 0 especially, after that Fucking Ending i had trouble sleeping because oh my fucking god. video game people SAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
28: Which character’s clothes do you wish you owned the most?
29: Which is more important, gameplay or story? HMMM....well, if i were to play a game with a shitty story but really good and fun gameplay i’d probably continue playing it for the gameplay. but if i played a game with shitty gameplay but an interesting story, there is a chance i’d play it more for the sake of the story but also i might just quite and see the rest of the story on youtube or something. i’m more likely to go through a boring story for fun gameplay than go through boring gameplay for an interesting story, so i guess gameplay is more important to me....that is, WHEN i actually own and play a game as opposed to when i just watch someone play a game because i don’t own the game but wanna know abt the story lol
30: A game that hasn’t been localized in your country that you think should be localized? i have no idea how video game localization really works....but i assume localizing a game in india would mean something like, removing content according to cultural norm and also somehow translating it into the 22 official languages..? or just two or three language if it’s tied to a particular state, which seems way more doable. i honestly have no idea? i’ve never interacted w the indian gaming community that much to be honest, all i know of it is of the video games i’ve seen sold in some game stores and a few whispers about like solid snake or whoever from my school’s cafeteria....the most popular games here, to my knowledge, are those very streamable games like fortnite and PUBG and your call of duties and whatnot. those generic shooters. and even then, that honestly isn’t the “indian” gaming community bc this country is so FUCKHUGE, it’s just tamil nadu. one state.
soooo, according to what little i know of gaming interests in where i live, i don’t think any of the games i like should be localized here bc i don’t really think there’s an audience for it as far as i can tell :( maybe animal crossing? it’s a fun little games for all ages and i think it has a chance of becoming popular here, so maybe that is worth a shot! but i can’t think of any other game that i like that really has an audience here (other than Me lol)
#asks#stommevrouw#THANK U EVIE THIS WAS SO FUNNNNNNN#WOOF haha this made me tired#im probably hitting the bed now! thank u!!
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&& watching treasure planet (1/2)
the menu music is giving me some lil How to Train Your Dragon vibes and i am already Happy
THX NOISE
the music! is so! pretty!
“the aethirium”
ship creaking asmr
THERE HE IS
man if that ponytail ever came undone thatd be an interesting visual huh
10/10 would wear that outfit irl it wouldn’t even be cosplay
dude’s got the laws he breaks memorized
“BACK! OFF! SIR!”
the angst begins already
how old is this child? he is TINY
he might have a criminal record but idk i think it’s sweet he immediately runs to try and help
love how this dude’s like “beware the cyborg” and then not only do attackers show up immediately but then Delbert and Jim immediately go join a crew with the exact Cyborg dude was trying to warn them about like. the odds.
the shot of Sarah looking back at the burning inn is Too Much. I die.
*unlocks the sphere w/o even trying* jimmers
the spaceport is making me dizzy oh heck oh no
love the Cap’n and Mr. Arrow
Her face when she gets the map OwO
just say ma’am Jim it won’t kill you
SLOUCHY
come on Jim he might literally be the exact cyborg you were warned about but don’t be all judgemental.
MORPH
im cry how did Delbert manage to hire the crew that burned down the inn tho like. DUDE.
Jimmer trying to be clever and figure out if That’s The Guy but Silver’s Poker Face is Too Strong
DELBERT DID YOU NOT BACKGROUND CHECK ANY OF THESE PEOPLE YOU’RE ABOUT TO HAVE AROUND SARAH’S KID FOR MONTHS ON END
i’m so nervous. Protect Him.
DUDE STOP
i’m uncomfortable
dude: *commits violence against a kid* the entire damn crew: “HECK YEAH THIS IS GREAT”
“What’s all this” I’ll tell you what it was Rocky it was the crew being a bunch of FREAKS is what it was
“Pick your fights” DUDE WHEN WHERE THERE AN OPTION. WHEN. WHEN DID YOU SEE AN OPTION? i mean yeah he didn’t HAVE to sass the bug guy but MY DUDE? FELLA? HE WAS ALREADY IN THE PROCESS OF GETTING MURDERED IDK WHAT YOU WANT
restraining orders. restraining orders everywhere
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII AM A QUESTION TO THE WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORLD NOT AN ANSWER TO BE HEAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRD
OR A MOMENT
THAT’S HEEEEEEEEEEEELLD
IN YOUR AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARMMMMMMMMS
@ jims dad die pls u suck
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII WANT A MOMENT TO BE REAAL
WANNA TOUCH THINGS
I DON’T FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEL
WANNA HOLD ON
AND FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEL AVALON I BELONG
“Now you know me, and I’m not afraid” no but i am WEEPING though
I WANNA TELL YOU WHO I AM
@ jims dad YOU SUCK. YOU’RE THE WORST. HOW DARE
AND LIES THAT I’LL NEVER BELIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIV
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII WANT A MOMENT TO BE R
SILVER YOU ARE THE RAT BASTARD OF THE YEAR DON’T BE SPEAKING TO MY BOY
DON’T EVEN LOOK AT HIM DUDE
were they about to have a nap together
the sheer terror of “SILVER-!” when dude falls off the thing someone please hug this kid
Delbert said this voyage would be ‘character building’ but what he really meant was “we’re gonna go collect some TRAUMA”
FIGHT ME MR SCOOPS THAT WAS COMPLETELY UNCALLED FOR
“I have a lot of help to offer, anatomically” DOPLER SHUT UP
LIKE HELL HIS LIFELNE WASN’T SECURE SCOOPS FIGHT ME. DENNY’S. THE INCOMPREHENSIBLE BASTARDRY OF YOUR ACTIONS IS APPALLING SIR
Silver, “It’s not your fault” doesn’t cut it. You’ve got to actually tell him, “So it turns out ya didn’t get a man killed, Jimbo. It was actually murder as a direct result of the mutiny I’ve been planning this entire time. Also, I’m A Horrible Person”
BABY
SILVER YOU DID NOT EARN THAT HUG
overhearing all that DX Jim i’m so sorry DX
cutting for length bc tumbl refuses to let me put a readmore
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all 100 questions but ONLY if you want to or have the time to do it :3
hello tumblr dot com
i skipped the ones i didnt want to or didnt know how to answer also im gkdfngkdf sorry i dont think this is very amusing to read and gosh i hope the readmore works
1. What is you middle name?
dont have one ✌️
2. How old are you?
19
3. When is your birthday?
uhhhhhhhh april 19th but dont tell anyone
4. What is your zodiac sign?
aries
5. What is your favorite color?
GREEN
6. What’s your lucky number?
i dont think i have one? 25 is pretty cool tho
7. Do you have any pets?
not currently :(
8. Where are you from?
ukraine ✌️
9. How tall are you?
5’4 i think?? idk we use meters here
10. What shoe size are you?
i have no idea
11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
more than 7 idk the exact number akjfnkdgndkf
12. What was your last dream about?
i was lost in a video game maize and it was green thats all i remember
13. What talents do you have?
singing i guess??
14. Are you psychic in any way?
if “sending the exact same message as my partner at the exact same time” counts then yeah i guess
15. Favorite song?
phoenix by burnout syndromes is GOOD
16. Favorite movie?
mamma mia here we go again (2018)
17. Who would be your ideal partner?
my partner is my ideal partner uwu
19. Do you want a church wedding?
nooooo
20. Are you religious?
not really? i think god might exist but i dont vibe with any religion i know of
21. Have you ever been to the hospital?
haha yeah twice
22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?
not yet
23. Have you ever met any celebrities?
nah
24. Baths or showers?
showerrrrrrrrrr
25. What color socks are you wearing?
baby blue with blue snowflakes hehe
26. Have you ever been famous?
do i look like
27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?
i would like my music to be known but being a celebrity myself sounds exhausting
28. What type of music do you like?
ah yes my two favorite genres, haikyuu ost and lemon demon
but in general my music taste is a bit of everything i think. i dont vibe with everything but i do vibe with a lot
29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?
i have no idea what this means and im too scared to google
30. How many pillows do you sleep with?
a single pillow
31. What position do you usually sleep in?
no idea
32. How big is your house?
its just an apartment and theres like. two rooms, kitchen, and a bathroom. so. not that big i guess but not the smallest either kgjdfnkgd
33. What do you typically have for breakfast?
sandwichesssssss
34. Have you ever fired a gun?
nah
35. Have you ever tried archery?
when i was in middle school my friend and i would pick up sticks and make bows out of them and use other sticks as arrows and it was really cool
36. Favorite clean word?
love
37. Favorite swear word?
shit
38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?
about 48 hours
39. Do you have any scars?
if you count 1 or 2 scars from chickenpox then i guess
40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
gdnkfgdfgdf i guess you could say that
41. Are you a good liar?
apparently no kgjdfkjgndfkg
42. Are you a good judge of character?
nope!
43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?
i can do a ukrainian accent i guess and also say some words with a british accent but thats it i think
44. Do you have a strong accent?
i dont think so
45. What is your favorite accent?
i love languages ok every accent is so fascinating to study
46. What is your personality type?
infp-t i think
47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?
i dont think i have any expensive clothes, theyre mostly second hand kgjdnfkgd
48. Can you curl your tongue?
i guess??
50. Left or right handed?
rightie
51. Are you scared of spiders?
i like observing them from a safe distance but i dont particularly enjoy being close to them
52. Favorite food?
fried chicken,,
53. Favorite foreign food?
i like ramen but im not sure if the one i tried was a real one or not
54. Are you a clean or messy person?
it depends!
55. Most used phrases?
quotes from songs
56. Most used word?
love
57. How long does it take for you to get ready?
QUITE A WHILE KDNDKDBDN
59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?
i dont eat lollipops gkjdfngkjdf
60. Do you talk to yourself?
yeah a lot
61. Do you sing to yourself?
yeah a lot kjdkdndks
62. Are you a good singer?
people say that yes
63. Biggest Fear?
losing my friends
64. Are you a gossip?
nah
66. Do you like long or short hair?
cutting my hair real short,,,,, my biggest most unattainable dream 😔😔😔
67. Can you name all 50 states of America?
i am. not american ksnkdnddk
68. Favorite school subject?
math
69. Extrovert or Introvert?
introvert
70. Have you ever been scuba diving?
never
71. What makes you nervous?
everything
72. Are you scared of the dark?
yeah
73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?
i used to but not anymore
74. Are you ticklish?
y yeah why are you asking
75. Have you ever started a rumor?
nah
76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?
i was my class representative in middle school but nobody ever listened to what i say and i didn't really say anything and i was only doing it because nobody else wanted to and our teacher thought im very responsible so this probably doesn't count
77. Have you ever drank underage?
yeah but only with my family and ive never gotten drunk
78. Have you ever done drugs?
no
79. Who was your first real crush?
haha let's just say they didn't like me back
80. How many piercings do you have?
just my ears and i regret it
81. Can you roll your Rs?
yeah man im slavic kdndkdn
82. How fast can you type?
real fast
83. How fast can you run?
not real fast 😔
84. What color is your hair?
dark brown
85. What color are your eyes?
dark green
86. What are you allergic to?
idk i used to have some allergies i don't have anymore and i know im still allergic to something but idk what it is
87. Do you keep a journal?
i used to! but it got too exhausting and time consuming
89. Do you like your age?
not really
90. What makes you angry?
injustice
91. Do you like your own name?
yeah willy is a good name :)
94. What are you strengths?
i think im a good listener
95. What are your weaknesses?
do you want in alphabetical order or
96. How did you get your name?
from jay :)) (thank u Jay)
97. Were your ancestors royalty?
i doubt it
100. Color of your room?
white kdbdkdb
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1. Would you rather be blindfolded or blindfold me?
mm either is good but when i was w my ex i asked them to try blindfolding me. we never got around to trying it tho
5. Which part of your body do you consider the most sexy?
um.. idk hgbfdh sometimes i can get my thighs to look ok in a kinda sexy way ig
7. Who do you fantasize about when you’re alone?
@you-better-make-me
12. When was the first time you masturbated?
um, like, ever, or like in a way that actually felt good? bc i went thru a bunch of stuff when i was younger that led to ppl telling me to masturbate and it never felt good bc i had NO idea what i was doing and they certainly were more focused on their pleasure. but when i actually figured out how to get it to feel good i was like. 16?? in the bath. and i discovered my clit sfhskdjf
15. Do you sleep in pajamas, underwear, or nothing at all?
pyjamas! tho if its summer then sometimes jus boxers
16. If you had a sexual “to-do” list, what would be on top of the list?
can i just say @you-better-make-me skdfsdkj okk being serious tho it sounds dumb n simple maybe but i really wanna try penetrative sex bc i haven’t done it yet and its something i just LOVE the idea of even if its also a lil scary
27. Something that never fails to make you horny:
hickies / my neck being bitten, im a simple man
31. Whats the fastest way to make you horny?
see above
36. Three spots that drive me insane:
like? that its easy to make me horny messing w?? my neck, my nips, and idk my clit or if thats not allowed then my hips
37. Do you like it when your sexual partner moans?
absolutely 100% if we’re in a situation where we dont have to worry abt being quiet do not hold back its super hot and also lets me know im doing the right thing shfdsjk
46. Spanking: turn on or turn off?
unpopular onion mayb but more of a turn off tbh idk i get weird abt my ass being touched sometimes especially like that and theres no appeal to doing it to someone else either really
48. Biggest sexual fantasy?
oof im.. very tired so this isnt gonna be super in depth but i guess lately its been a lot of, being collared, a lot of taking ur time, mayb some cockwarming like jus,,, sit there and cuddle and make out and mayb some teasing till we finally give in and jus fuck and yknow,, mayb repeat that process,, sksdjs sorry this is super vague im v tired and not all that horny rn so its hard to think abt but also like if u wanna know what i wanna do theres a whole bunch of posts on this blog most of them are that. yeah
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im watching the projared explanation vid rn n i'm gonna keep adding to this as i watch. think of this as like real-time commentary? even tho it’s not real-time at all like i’m just pausing the video to make lil comments. here’s vid btw.
but geez it'd be weird if all he did was cheat (like it's icky i’m def against cheating... but how would that matter to you if it doesn't involve u personally?).
TLDR (this was written after the fact):
i’m rly leaning towards believing him about not doing the underage stuff. and i wished i had listened to my initial gut on that. i could care less about exchanging nudes with fans if they were 18+. i also could care less about any relationship drama.
anyways i watched all of it and wrote a LOT. it’s kinda interesting (not rly) to see my opinion change over the course of the writing? i was really tearing into jared at first ahaha. but i’m putting it under a readmore. it’s not written well at all so read if you dare...
just started watching. first of all i will say it feels very scripted (is he lying/acting/performing? or is it just well thought out??) idk and LOL at him purposely looking unshaven and like a mess... like THAT was at least on purpose and makes me immediately not rly trust him? but idk i can't actually judge him based on this rly... then again what a sappy fucking thumbnail.
aw geez IT'S LIKE HE'S DOIN A REG COMEDY VIDEO like stop acting dude? i know he's... well he’s weird and seems like a very “scripted” person if that makes sense? but... it's just a rly weird move to try and make a "here's the real story/apology" video this way. not how i’d do it at all (and i’ve been there to a much lesser degree so)...
oh and i know he's SUPER mad at the two (at the time) underage ppl? and justifiably so if they lied. but idk his claim that the only reason for them to remove their accusation posts was "bc they held no water and they knew the timing was right to safely do the most damage"? uh dude you're one of the more well known youtubers like IMAGINE all the ppl that were harassing these guys? well at least they were both lgbtq etc and the gaming community has a traditionally open mind about that (sarcasm).
btw i kinda hate the term "the tea" too? soo much. but just bc it's another appropriated term white kids overuse... but even still i probably wouldn't have opened up a vid like this... well i'll just say it...
was he straight up pointing the finger at gay ppl etc for harassing him n bein shallow n only enjoying the drama etc? like idKKK it just felt like he was calling out sassy gay ppl ONLY like why did he even say that??
yeah bc straight white gamer dudes NEVER gossip about drama. they NEVER act shallow. dude ur fanbase is like... some of the most shallow, gossipy ppl out there. i can't TELL you how many AWFUL videos i watched of your fans n other youtbers talking about you. and how... INSANE? it was? that they only rly called you out for "cheating on your cute wife" bc the accusations of underage shit n manipulation yeah nbd! but god forbid you cheat on your "attractive cosplay wife".
srry i'm rly tearing him apart here... i'm not meaning to. almost every gaming personality has shit fans. even i? me. a nobody. have to double check new followers to see if they're nazis etc? it's so common... anyways i'm not actually damning him in any way yet even if i'm bringing up so many lil issues i have w this vid lol srry?
btw i used to follow his tumblr. there was WEIRD shit going on, esp right before it shut down. like the "i got hacked" thing seems really convinient? IDK srry it's just my gut but he reminds me of sociopaths etc i used to be friends with. how he explains things and talks... like they all sound a lil like dennis from always sunny? idk my gut is tellin me he's full of shit i'm sorry. gonna keep watching.
wait he really WAS hacked? i mean i guess i believed he was hacked at first bc the guy posting awful shit and claiming to be a pro-hacker was... well he was too crazy to be made up. a real fucking maniac loser.
as time is going on, unless all of this stuff is fabricated? he seems ro have found a crazy amount of proof that he didn't do the underage stuff. like... maybe the weird vibes he gave off is this stuff drove him insane? like... i’ve been friends with/dated quite a few fucked up, gaslighting assholes? trying to figure out what the fuck is going on can drive you a little nuts.
he's kinda winning me over here a lil... again if the underage/manipulation stuff is untrue? i could care less about the other stuff. and i LOVE ross? but srry... who cares about that other stuff...
to explain what changed my mind: most ppl that he reminds me of are sociopaths etc. or rather, people that really fucked my life up. so i have a lotta baggage regarding them? and they're bigger in my mind than the other types. i won't lie the way he explains things and argues points REALLY bugs me? but i know ppl like that who are good people. or at least not psychopaths. immature, basic idiots at the worst (not that im callin HIM an idiot). anyways that alone doesn't make him guilty. watchin more now.
i was about to bring up that its actually really... cool? that he's focusing on the underage shit rather than the cheating/drama? bc thats all that needs to be explained rly? but LOL he just got to the "game grumps" part n in losing it. am i rly about to drown in this drama? fuck dude lol noooooo....
okay finished it. fuck man idk i feel stupid. right at the start i even was like "noooo he couldn't have!" but the underage stuff is like... like that shit makes my brain boil n stop working n go into “ill kill him” mode. and jared was so silent and so i figured he was doing damage control (ignoring it until it went away) rather than research to show people this was all fake/getting legal advice?
i kinda think he didn't do any of the real icky shit. i still get a vibe he might be a weirdo. and i don't think heidi necessarily made ALL of that stuff up? and i could care less that he was getting sexually involved w his fans like even I have been flirted with due to running a game gif blog (god knows why). and like FUCK it's so normalized for ppl in bands to sleep w fans? so why on EARTH would people think youtube gamerz are “too good for that”? anyways...
my point is, i think i mighta been wrong about him n the underage stuff. idk what to believe about the other stuff? the only thing i know for sure is that ross o'donovan is a very sweet n nice guy. and i'm so glad the drama between him and jared was imagined. it was prob just shitty to have fans ask him about it over and over...
okay lol if you just read all of this please go do something more fun and interesting now lol! i'm gonna put this all under a readmore and put a tldr on it! and... go to bed bc fuck its 2am OOPS!
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[DONT RB] ok so there’s no way for me to talk abt this that isn’t gonna make me look like an absolute dumbass but im in the middle of a creative existential crisis and i rly need help figuring it out :•( this is gonna get SUPER LONG so im putting it under a readmore. thank u to anyone who reads this!!! and double thank u to anyone who can give some input / advice, i rly rly appreciate it. im sorry abt the length!
aight so for some background.... ive been drawing n writing poetry for abt 5 yrs now and both of those things r rly important to me. in school im an english major w a creative writing minor (for the poetry) and i work as a graphic designer (for the art) so ive been growing a lot as an artist and writer esp in the past 2 yrs and im kinda workin towards one or the other (or ideally both somehow!) as a career. one of the biggest dreams ive had since i started seriously pursuing both of these hobbies 5 yrs ago is to publish a book of poetry that i design / illustrate myself, and also to have a portfolio online where ppl can read all of my poetry and see all of my artwork (both professional / work stuff but also archives of all of my sketchbooks since those r rly important to me!!!) and maybe even make some sort of online shop where ppl can buy my art (stickers, keychains, etc!) and my poetry books!
that sounds pretty simple right? WRONG!!!!!! why? bc im a fucking idiot! and there are several dumb things i do that make this dream completely impossible for me to achieve! love that for me!
so for starters... ive been posting (almost) all of my art and ALL of my poetry online for all 5 yrs ive been creating it. that’s bad because:
ive hardly ever used my real name (which i would want to use for the book / shop / portfolio), it’s been under my usernames / aliases that go along w them (p*pe, pep, pea, etc and related usernames that shall not be mentioned) and i started going by my real first name only abt a yr ago, but still maintain those usernames for the most part in conjunction w my real name
my work has been primarily been posted to d*viantart and tumblr which aren’t exactly the most uh... professional places to do that. not that there rly are many i guess lmao but still
my online persona on these platforms is rly like. lax and loose which is Cool And Quirky when brought into a professional setting if it’s done right i guess.... but im just immature and unprofessional. i swear all the time, i shitpost constantly, im incessantly tmi? and that’s not even it like it’s just a whole mess!
SO there’s that whole set of problems and like im just concerned because... i stopped posting art online last yr for the most part and a lot of the old stuff that’s on dA (since that was rly where i did it most) is bad and not worth sharing like that anyways, so im not as worried abt that. but my poetry.... i still actively post that online in all my messiness and candidness here and like. it’s rly not that hard to find me? like if u copy a poem of mine and put it in google it’ll pull up my dA right away! and that’s like.... GOD i just am embarrassed for anyone irl to see that or for that to be connected with my irl / professional self in the future, but i don’t want to stop posting my work there (or here!!!!!) bc the community is so supportive and ive made some rly good connections / built a lot of traction over the 5 yrs ive been doing it. (PLUS for the online portfolio i wanna do specifically... i kinda want to post all of my art and poetry there, like everything ive ever done (specifically poetry, ive written almost 500 poems over the 5 yrs ive been doing it!), but i feel like that’s not rly the most professional thing to do and idk how to even gauge whether it is or not :-/)
but that’s not all!!!! because there’s another part to this and that is: the very nature of the content i produce is Not Good! for my art it’s not as much of a problem bc since I work as an artist rn a lot of what i make is professional, but for my personal art... a lot of that is either self portraits or my characters and a lot of my characters are like. animals. like specifically pepe (who is basically Me As A Cat).... i draw her constantly and so much of my best work is of her but it’s just like? embarrassing i guess for my ocs to take up so much of my portfolio and sketchbooks and stuff and share that. like i know everyone has characters and it’s not bad to do that and share that but i feel like ppl will judge me :-( so it’s made me rly hesitant to post stuff to my art ig for example bc i just don’t fucking know how to act, like it’s bad enough that i can’t type the way i want to and i have to type in proper caps n whatever instead bc irls i don’t know / trust as well follow me (including some ppl from work? Yikes?)....... but i feel like i can’t share my sketchbook stuff for example bc it’s all cats and my characters and visual shitposts and im uncomfy to share that bc like... im almost 20 and i don’t want ppl to think im immature or whatever? i kno i should feel like it’s my account and i can post wot i want but like. i fucking can’t bro i just can’t!!
and THEN.... my poetry. that’s the biggie bc like for my art? even tho im uncomfortable i don’t mind sharing that w ppl i know irl but for my POETRY.... it’s very easy to find like where i share that i guess? (the google thing i mentioned earlier but also its linked to my art on here and dA too... f) but i literally never actively share my writing w irl ppl unless im performing @ an open mic or workshopping in class bc im fucking terrified of the possibility of irl ppl finding my poetry. it’s almost ironic how public ive been w it online but how private i am abt it irl... it’s like im living a double life and it’s fucking terrible but it’s the only way i feel safe. bc like art is what i do for other ppl and also to destress and vent when i need a quick fix on my own time. but poetry.... that’s personal, it’s where i feel most like myself, it’s how i talk abt my life and ppl in it and make meaning of things and talk abt things authentically and Get Deep. and my literal worst nightmare is for ppl (who have the explicit ability to by virtue of Knowing Me) to read into it and Understand what im talking abt and have that power over me and see me differently for feeling the way i do or doing what i do. ive actually already been burned by this before after my mom read some work of mine that had been published irl (i don’t want to get too into it but basically i retroactively outed myself thru her reading that poem for what it was and it was Very Very Bad) and as paranoid abt it as i was before, it’s even worse now that it’s actually happened to me and could happen again at any time, esp if i decide to take my work further.
that manifests in a few ways too, like my writing is so cryptic and vague and very heavy on metaphors / symbolism and shit partially out of that deep fear and need to shield myself and my work. sometimes in spaces where i do feel comfy sharing, ppl have a hard time understanding my poetry unless i give context. online and on stage and in workshop ppl don’t rly know me outside of a context where the only thing we have in common is self expression thru poetry, so i don’t rly mind sharing more when it’s appropriate. but if i were to share my work as a book or w/e, ppl im close to (who maybe don’t always think like a poet / artist does bc they aren’t that) would want to buy it and read it and might ask abt what it means and i don’t even know what i would do in that situation. and if ppl were to read my work and see themselves / others in it, whether it is abt them or not, im scared it could genuinely damage relationships like it did with my mom.
SO UH.... idk where im going w this rly, i kno it’s long and rambly and melodramatic and im probably overthinking it and making a mountain out of a molehill and nobody even knows / cares abt me AND my work @ the same time enough to read That Deep into it. but it just fucking sucks that im so uncomfortable and insecure that i can’t comfortably fulfill literally the one single long term goal / life dream that i have. andthe thing that sucks is i can’t talk to Anybody abt this except like... my sister and brother bc they’re the only ppl i genuinely tell everything to, but they don’t have the knowledge and expertise abt art / poetry that like... my poetry prof does, for example. and my poetry prof is one of the best ppl ive ever met and the Only person ive ever met irl who respects and understands my poetry in the exact way i need someone to. she and i have been talking and she rly wants to help me publish my poetry bc she sees merit in my work and knows how bad i want to / how successful it’s been already, but i don’t know how to talk abt this to her bc im embarrassed to tell her abt posting online and being ashamed abt my muses and all that and it just!!! sucks so much bc i kinda want to publish my work @ least once before i graduate and do it semi regularly for the rest of my life? but there’s so much in my way and it’s just! FGGFHDGJGGGG
#purrs#DONT RB#lms if u read please!!!#ALSO!!!! i sound so dumb but i rly hope i didnt offend anyone.... i dont judge anyone but myself for the stuff i do and as for being uncomfy#w sharing my work.... its literally not u its me and my deep dissatisfaction w who i am as a person. and in a perfect world i would b comfy#sharing things abt my life w other ppl but im not and its on me and not bc of anyone else (w the exception of my mom lel)#i guess the aquarius moon rly did jump out 😔#god i feel so dumb and mean and conceited for posting this but if anyone has suggestions / advice / anything rly i rly appreciate it!#and thank u so much to anyone who took tje time to read this @ all bc like. its a lot i kno im just. a lot
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baby (i don’t think i actually know??), calm, cutsie, glow, ladybug, smile, treasure, whiffle !!!
thank u erica !!!! u are so kind thank u for these !!!
baby: favourite colour
i rlly like purple but also pink is rlly nice it is hard tho bc i like most colours usually
calm: favourite scent
i rlly like the smell of flowers so floral scents i guess? but also vanilla smells rlly nice or that bakery smell or the smell of like a spiced dessert cooking u know when u can smell cinnamon and nutmeg and stuff that is a Good Smell
cutsie: what makes you happy
i rlly like being able to sleep in so days where i dont have anything planned and dont have work make me rlly happy bc i can just sleep and then do whatever and then a bonus to that is when im home alone too that is a Good Day + i also rlly like spending time with my friends (@ u and taryn especially u guys are good) + i actually have a rlly good time on our drives like those make me rlly happy always
glow: list the top 5 things you like about yourself
1. i like my eye colour i think not my actualy eyes bc theyre stupid and blind but the colour is nice
2. i like my baking abilities i can do that pretty decently which is nice
3. i think i am pretty loyal which i think is a good thing like to my friends and stuff u know
unfortunately that is all i can come up with right now sorry :((
ladybug: what’s your favourite artist to listen to when you’re sad
i dont think i have one artist but i do have like a Sad Playlist bc im like that and i choose certain songs based on the type of sadness u know but Greatest Hits off of that are probably eulogy by charlie allen; if i get high, soda, and particles - piano version by nothing but thieves; and muscle memory by lights
smile: what is one thing that has greatly affected you
not to sound gay but probably being gay and like growing up with the family i have and stuff i think it has had a big affect on me and the way i think of and treat other people idk if that makes sense but thats the first thing i thought of
treasure: what was something that made you smile today
first thing was when my history teacher told us standing up too fast scares him sometimes (as a joke about being afraid of heights and how he’ll never sky dive) and him playing the final countdown and announcing we are almost done the course + when u brought me an idog
whiffle: if you could have a magical power, what would it be
i have thought about this many times and i would LOVE to be able to shapeshift like honestly dream power u can do so much with it like i think maybe half my problems could be solved by having a shapeshifting ability
#thank u so much for these they were so fun !!!!#i love doing these !!#asprinkleofmermaids#ask#ask game
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