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Sorry I hope this isn't too sappy but I wanted to write a big thank you to everyone that came to stream last night and just abosultely obliterated me with kindness and support

For folks who weren't in stream: I had planned on setting up a commission thing on kofi to start tomarrow (today, now, but a day after this chaos event) to raise money to buy myself a christmas gift of a Switch, planned on clearing out a whole few days to try and earn money, but after figuring out to make a goal post thing on the KoFi page and on stream I decided to save from posting commission listings until I had a full day to sit down and stream it all since I had something else planned in the middle of the day

I did an art stream later in the day and let me tell you I was *floored* by kindness and people were just being so nice and im aughsdglhsdsdgsds. Not only did we meet the Kofi Goal, BUT THEY KEPT GOING. I'm scared to look at the total amount and I plan on refunding some folks when they're not looking because I feel so bad because tbh I haven't deserved or rightfully earned the amount of generosity given to me but I just wanted to say like, holy shit. Thank you? Thank you oh my goodness

I HAVE A SWITCH NOW. AND SOME GAMES. Animal Crossing and Monster Hunter: Rise to start. I've played Monster Hunter before so it's a love of mine but Animal Crossing is something Ive only gotten to play the free pocket camp phone version of, and watch videos of, so I'll have to learn the woes and wins of that game and I'm super excited!! And I'll be able to play online with people too holy shit

If you were in stream then you already know but if you werent or maybe tapped out early then I tried to caluclate and make a list of people who wanted doodles for what they donated, and the amount to my old commission list (sorry I haven't updated my examples in 2 years) and I plan on drawing doodles for the large donators and the folks who really just slammed me with love. I have some drawings to post already! If you see me drawing something on stream and finish it and not post it pls remind me because Im REALLY bad at that

Also I promised chat that I wouldn't open the Switch box until I did it with them so we can do that later tonight when I get fully home, but YEAH!

Anyway THANK YOU. I'm not the best with words but oh my god THANK YOU

!!! hi finnie congrats on getting 1.5k followers you totally deserve it!! 💚💜!! im very kindly putting my silly little order down. im giving you creative freedom mostly I trust your judgement!

Delivery, Black Coffee, Question Mark Shaped Nuggies (btas specifically please!), Sweet Potato Fries

I genuinely hope this is enough to work with! congratulations again finnie you deserve all the accolades that you’ve earned so far!

btas!riddler x gn!reader, word count: 350 content (warnings): mostly just hcs about eddie being eddie, kind of domestic (or incarcerated) fluff lol orders open here! 🔞minors dni🔞 • masterlist • kofi link • tag: finnie1500 (to follow or to block) a/n: ah ty my sweet!! i'm so excited to write more of this charming man omg💚

eddie sits at the same table for visitation periods each time

you've never really questioned it, he is a man of habit after all, of compulsions

you did made one comment about how it wasn't particularly the most discreet table

to which you were given a lecture on the fact that being in the center of the action muffles what you might discuss, and the location of the table towards the middle of the room offers less chance of your words to each other being caught in an echo trap

all of which you listened to with wide eyes, chin balanced on your hands, grateful for each word

you were certain that if you didn't have such strong, and persistent, memories of how his touch felt, how his skin felt against yours

that his words would be the thing you missed most of all

and he's more than happy to provide you with those while you're there

he rarely speaks about what he's been doing or how he's been feeling

partly to keep that information from you in a protective sense, not wanting to worry you over his boredom and frustration

but also because admitting it out loud would make it impossible for him to ignore

right now, he can pretend that he's content, happy to wait out his sentence and return to his work

and more importantly, return to you

once he's fed you enough information to have your brain whizzing, he turns his attentions to you and the outside world

always keen to know if you're keeping busy

which you should be, because ever prepared edward nygma was organised

while he would never doubt his own intelligence, he had to prepare for the possibility that he would have been caught

so you're well-stocked with his notebooks, plans and scheme for you to ponder over, to offer him assistance on when he's free once again

and of course, there's the riddles he left behind, each one's answer leading you to a gift, or a place, something special to you

so it never really feels like you're without him at all

hi kit! long time no see lol jk I spend so much time on your blog and ko-fi its not even funny (in a nice non-stalkerish way I promise) I subscribed to your kofi and was wondering if you planned on continuing any of those AUs or were they meant to be sorta one shots? because I *literally* cannot stop thinking about healer anakin going about this day with that brightest blue silk blindfold?? oh all the potential for pining and hurt/comfort and ALL THE ANGST here?? ooof pls I need more - 🦊

hiii kit it's 🦊 again I am back because I just had an epiphany about the healer anakin AU I am obsessed with currently. so is the blindfold like a hijab where your close family (so other healer peers in private I suppose?) and your significant other is able to see you with the blindfold off? I started thinking that keeping it on 24/7 is probably not ideal and there has to be some time that it comes off, and who gets to see you then.. I am south asian so I kinda dig this tbh! 😊 (2/2)

hello hello this is such an interesting ask!! for the first part, i'm really not sure - i think there are fics on ko-fi that i would love to expand and write more for (the healer anakin au being one of them) but at the same time, i think while i am running the ko-fi fic thing, then those stories need to exist only on there - or i need to talk to everyone who supports me monthly on there and see if they would be ok with me posting those stories somewhere else (like on ao3 or tumblr) and expanding on them more. as of right now, they're really just one shots that act a bit like slices of life in the au - just enough information that the characterizations are apparent and just enough setting and premise that it feels like a story but overall stand alone

but yes i too am sorta obsessed with the idea of healer skywalker showing up to healer functions with a bright blue silk bandana over his eyes while everyone else has the standard issue gray or white cloth. of course they wouldn't know, but just imagine like. mace windu attends to give a debrief of the next few battle plans and anakin is just...sticking out like a sore thumb lol

as for the second part, in my mind i'm sort of waving the logistics of keeping the blindfold on for long stretches of time because im leaning more into the fantasy side of star wars tbh - i think it's more angsty as a concept if healers sort of...give their eyes away forever/until they retire and never open them. they change the bandages and shower without them on, but the force is supposed to act as their eyes for menial daily tasks like telling apart shampoo from conditioner and cooking (and they just get used to it)

like that feels so much more angsty because obi-wan will never ever get to see anakin's eyes again and he has to just. make his peace with that which he's obviously struggling to do in the ficlet on ko-fi. he has to figure out how to love anakin as he is, with his vows, or he won't get him at all and obi-wan wrestling with that is a key part of the ficlet. im not sure how strongly that angst would hit if they could reach a certain point of closeness and then he could get anakin the way he had him when they were in the creche, sight and all you know? he needs to accept who anakin is to really have a chance at loving him without getting some other version of him back

but that being said i also do dig the idea of the blindfolds being taken off in the company of one's family or loved ones and am open to it--it explains a lot of logistical questions for sure lol

i just also really like the angst and acceptance that comes from the idea that obi-wan must become ok with never seeing anakin's eyes again....only for anakin, who loves him so much, to break his vows because obi-wan is dying and needs him or obi-wan is dying and asks to see his eyes one last time (only for obi-wan to categorically survive)

You said you're only back temporarily... do you know when you'll be gone again? Will you come back after?

ah i don't really have a plan, i've been doing so incredibly Bad for so long, and i originally didn't want to come back until i was feeling better, but i just. never got better. and then i ran low on food money so now im opening commissions as soon as i can, either this week or next week, and then i was gonna just close this blog once my commission batch was done.

but i dont know if thats something im still going to do, because i didn't expect to get so many messages. i kind of expected that i'd come back, write my pinned post, nobody would read it or send me anything, nobody would have noticed i left at all, and then i'd do like maybe 5 commissions and then i'd shut off the blog again. but i have 89 inbox messages, 52 dms not including the few i managed to answer. everyone has been so kind and supportive and i definitely needed it, i'm very grateful, but i can't respond to everything and i'd feel guilty if i shut down my blog and just left everyone hanging. and even if i did shut down my blog, i'm worried that i'd go back to just, Not Coming Back for almost a year and just sitting alone in my own misery. but at the same time, i don't want people to see me like this, i feel so bad that you're all dealing with me when i'm hurting so much. i'm not myself anymore. i'm trying really hard to look enthusiastic in my responses, use a bunch of emojis like i used to, but it feels like i don't have a right to even talk to my friends anymore. i'm scared everyone is going to treat me the way my ex-friend did, i'm scared everyone is out to betray me. i'm scared that i was treated so horribly because there's something wrong with me and i don't know what to fix about myself to be worthy of kindness again. i'm so broken up. i've been such a mess. i don't know what i'm doing, i'm taking things one day at a time. if i get so overwhelmed that i can't take it anymore then i will probably make a post saying i need to take a few weeks break or something.

it also depends on how i'm going to handle potentially running into triggers. like if i want to look at someone's art blog, and i suddenly see my ex-friend commissioning the artist, and the artist is posting drawings of her S/I with any of the TF characters that she conditioned me to believe would abuse me... it's gonna wreck me, i am inconsolable for days after that. that's the worst thing that i can possibly see bc the images are stuck in my head, and i know she knows i see them, she commissioned all of those Starscream ones back in January just to hurt me, and then i'm paranoid that she's doing that with all of her commissions that she tells artists to make public. the starscream ones won't leave my mind on my worst days, it's like a repetitive Bad Thought that keeps popping into my head and i have to use so much of my energy just to try to push it away. i've done everything i can to block and blacklist everything related to her, but she just, she commissions everyone who's open and she commissions people just about every fucking day. i'm bound to see her. not to mention people's kofi pages and twitter pages, i'm always tensing up when i'm looking to see if someone's shops are open because i KNOW im gonna see her floating around somewhere, acting all nice and sending so much money to so many people. she acts so nice. she acts so kindhearted and all the things she did to manipulate me shocked me so badly, i still can't believe i went through it because she was just. she was so nice!! but she isn't!! but other people don't know that because she sends everyone so! much! money! and she acts! so! nice! and it really hurts that i have to be so on guard about it! i should have the right to look at ppl's artwork and scroll through their blogs without a ton of adrenaline shooting thru my body and giving me that fight or flight response. it sucks. and it hurts when i see someone's art blog and i can't scroll thru it, i'll see a gorgeous starscream painting and i won't look further into their art tag because 99% of the time, i see my ex-friend posted somewhere. and then it feels impossible to heal. if i end up seeing too many things that remind me of her, i'm definitely going to have to leave tumblr for a bit, whether it's password protecting or just simply going on hiatus for a while. but idk if that will even help because i'm triggered so often regardless if i'm online or not. i feel like i can't heal no matter what direction i take because she's Always Here.

i don't know what's gonna happen yet, i wish i could give you a solid answer instead of writing this long ass response, i'm sorry 😓 my hope is that i won't have to leave again at all, i really hope i'm going to improve but,,, man i just have no idea. i've been doing so bad for so long. ptsd is a bitch and it doesn't just go away overnight. and betrayal from someone who claimed to care about you is one of the worst feelings in the world bc there's so much grief that accompanies that, losing someone you were close with while also dealing with the fact that your trust was broken. and then you're stuck thinking "why was i mistreated? i don't get it? was it my fault? did i deserve it?? are other people hoping to betray me too and i don't know it??" and this all happened during a time when i was in the most lonely, suicidal, vulnerable state of mind i had ever been in. i'm incredibly shaken up and i don't know how to get better. so i don't know what i need to do, esp in terms of this blog i really have no idea if i should just leave when i finish the first commission batch or if i should just tough it out. i dont know. im very numb either way.

I wanna open Kofi doodle commissions to the public BUT I am currently like, NOT SURE WHAT TO PRICE THEM AT ASJDHASKDS I have been doing them cheap for friends rn, but I kinda want to like, MAKE money off of them and they also take more work than I initially planned, so I think Im gonna up the price if I open publicly for them...

Help needed

hey! i did this on my last blog but i thought i would just make a new post since theres been an update in the situation.

I'm im college, still living with my ab/sers(u), have new medication and need to buy myself food i can actually eat all among other things. im autistic, closeted and really need to get out to a safer space soon.

i cant find any jobs that are disability friendly, a lot of places hiring are less likely to hire me if i walk in there with a walking stick in hand.

so it would be a huge help if i could get some support on my kofi! i do art commissions, tarot readings, ive got a store open that i hope to add more items to. even spreading this around and donations would be awesome.

any tips like pain management, places i could go to or general advice for keeping myself safe and stuff would also be a big help.

if youre interested in tarot readings i have a blog for it (@tarot-tea-cafe) or if you want to see some of my art i have a bunch posted on @spirits-art and plan on posting more soon.

please help me out, if you cant support me financially reblogging and advice means about just as much to me.

i seriously need all the help i can get right now.

thank you for taking the time to read this /gen

It’s that time again where I get weirdly sentimental about my amazing mutuals so anyway I love you and your art and it’s so good to look at. You’re one of the coolest people on here so thank you for existing! Also you have prints????

helllo!!!! you are adorable and im really happy you enjoy my hyperfixation ride in the fandom :kiss: you are awesome and im happy to know others also enjoy my stuff as much as i do i am fighting with bit of perfectionism streak but i am ATTEMPTING to make prints for small merch store , in January if things go as planned i will open kofi with monthly sticker shipments, and possibly prints, but if you want to print a riko with your printer and slap him on the wall go ahead just show me pics ! have good day !!!!

hey yall! im planning on opening commissions soon cuz this gal is broke 😭 im currently making a sheet with info and prices so look forward to that being posted soon! but if ur also interested in supporting me, maybe check out my Kofi! I'd really appreciate any support 💕

progress update

1st feb 2024

like i wanted to do this year on every 1st of each month, we have a general progress update, what ive been up to, general stats, plans for the upcoming month, how the last month treated me and how i treated this game. lots of personal detail will happen.

january has been the least productive month yet, im trying to not let it get to me, i had to take lots of breaks, my bed literally broke down on me on the 1st and it took over 2 weeks to get the new bed to me. sleeping on the ground made writing so impossible bcs i got chronic pain flair ups, migraines as well as hip pain. it was agony. i did however cleaned my room and got a new bed and this change of paste was really welcome. now that i finally have an actual desk to write on again, I can look outside my window and watch the squirrels while i write, so beautiful. that does mean i didnt finish chapter 7 which is a bummer, but im trying to stay positive. i did publish part 2 in a more rough than usual state, just bcs i needed it out, i wouldve lost my mind if i didnt update it. I allowed myself to take a break from OS since the last update, bcs even if i didnt actively wrote most of jan, i still thought about OS and beat myself up for not writing. And i had some time to work on other things that I plan for the future, others stories i wanna tell some day (im not starting a new wip bcs i will literally never finish anything if i do), and also just, reading and drawing without thinking about OS too much. It were only a few days, but it was a much needed break, bcs since OS went officially online last May, there wasnt really a day where i didnt think about OS.

stats from Jan: I wrote a total of 8.477 words over the 8 days that i worked on this. That doesnt sound much, but its still about 1k words each day. obv the 8,5k words arent the 20k I set out to do in the beginning of January, but im just happy i did something.

The game is now over 70k words long (including code, i wrote that shit imma count it), i know its not as much as other ppls wips, but damn, it feels crazy to me, knowing i sat down, laptop on my lap (in my bed primarily) and just wrote that much in less than a year.

Plans for feb: for the love of god i need to get chapter 7 done. i also set the goal to 10k, since there are less days in february and i know that i might not get the time to write as i will be job hunting, yay. the goal will be adjusted in march depending on if and what job i get maybe. in general im pretty scared of february and march, bcs i will lose the financial aid and im not sure yet how the fuck will i finance myself, since moving back with my mom is a no. and i refuse to open a kofi or patreon. im very against earning money from my hobby and i hope i dont have to resort to it ever. (personal opinion)

Anyway, thanks for listening and lets hope that february will be a good month, ey

intro post!!

helllooo!! before i log off of tumblr for the night i wanted to make an intro post!! :] my names ren! :D i use a lot of neos (coined in the username ;)) and hoard them and i also hoard xenogenders! >:D my pronouns are:

he/him, pup/pups, ruff/ruffself, hop/hops, tail/tails, fur/furs, flop/flops, thump/thumps, fuzzy/fuzzys, grr/grrs, yip/yips, bun/buns, 🐾/🐾’s, fey/feyr/fem, fae/faerie/faeself, dae/daes, whims/whimsical/whimself, spark/sparkself, gloom/gloomy + many more

idc which ones u use or if u only use he/him for me, my preferences for my pronouns change pretty frequently anyways but im going to try to update this post anytime they do currently i feel like animal ones fit me best! im currently accepting art requests! but plan on opening commissions! heres my kofi link if u want to send any donos/tips! im currently trying to get money for college: https://ko-fi.com/neoslogicial im dogkin/caninekin, rabbitkin, and elfkin!! :D my main interests are: -spiderwick -hermitcraft -reanimator -lovecraft -rhps -fnaf -art -good omens my tags: ~ neo yawns <- general posts/thoughts ~ neo thumps <- posts related to being rabbit/bunny kin! ~ neo yips <- posts related to being dog/puppy kin! ~ neo art <- art post!!

COMMISSIONS (open)

idk man

Text from image:

BUY ME LUNCH

get a drawing

Chips and Candy - a sketch, doodle, or similarly low level idea. up to 2 colors for emphasis

Bakery - simple flat drawing, with 1 to 2 traits

Burger and fries - a drawing that has 3 traits

Starbucks Tasty Treat- a drawing that has 4 or 5 traits. I am not supporting Starbucks at this time

Full Meal - a drawing with most traits

Beverage - Add a trait, candy can also be supplemented to a larger order to serve this role

Assemble a meal based on your desired piece, accompanied with the prompt itself. I will then calculate the price accordingly

Traits include: Shading, background(detailed), texture, complex color, additional subjects (this trait can be used multiple times)

Im planning to also use this literally for in person exchanges for lunch, but the price range on each of these is the following

Chips and Candy: 1-3$

Bakery: 2-5$

Burger: 4-7$

Starbuck: 6-10$

Full meal: 15-20$

Beverages range from 2-5 dollars each

Contact me here or on discord, or a secret 3rd location(kofi?)

I might decide to also add a flat-ish rate, because Im aware these are hella low. money is fake but its power is very real. Ill update this post if and when I do that one

I reserve the right to refuse to draw something, at which of course you wont have given me money yet so its no skin off your back

We will discuss details after you initially send me the order, and before or around when i give you a price.

If you are not satisfied with my work right after its completion or for a technical reason, I will be happy to fix it. If it is not for a valid reason, I owe you nothing.

If you intend to use the work in a larger project, or commercial product, the price will be higher, and under the obvious condition of credit.

Do not make me draw a sandwich again it was unreasonably painful to draw that sandwich what the hell.

Just a few more weeks until i graduate 🥳

im planning on making a mihawk comic thats about 10-15 pages, its just a struggle trying to work on that while also handling the last big wave of schoolwork that all of my teachers are throwing at me now. For now, im putting a lot of my bigger paintings and projects on the side and will continue to make quick portraits/sketches until summer break is finally here. I'm also considering opening up cheap Kofi commissions maybe in the future? idk how interested people would be though 😅

DD Needs Your Help!!!

You guys know i hate asking for help, mainly because i feel like i don't deserve to ask for any, but this time i really do need it. As many of you know, my laptop is nearing its breaking point and i also need to buy a new drawing tablet because the one i had broke on me (I'm an animation major). I will greatly appreciate it if any of you could donate whatever you can/want to donate to my Kofi goal.

I'm also planning on opening commissions for something, don't worry, my requests will never be commissioned since its not fair to and its not right for me to do that since i pride myself on delivering work that you guys enjoy.

I'll talk more about the comms im planning later but for now, if you can lend me a hand with this it would be greatly appreciated. I hate asking for help but i really need these things for my classes and my college isn't taking any pity on me.

(If you guys have questions, you're always free to drop them in dm's or my inbox. I'm happy to answer them since i know this is really out of the blue.)

P.s. Im currently trying to figure out my work schedule and fic posting schedule. I'm sorry for all the waiting and delays. I'm still working through event fics and some pre-event stuff.)

I love your rb art, and being honest, it was the reason I started shipping chase x charlie. Also, I´d seen some kade x hw fanart and I also loved it so much. Do you plan on doing more art of them?

aaaa thank you really much٩(｡•́‿•̀｡)۶

its really flattering μ‿μ) ❤

and about the spicy hw/kade, those were kofi commissions!

im still have them opened,[ps suggestive is allowed as long privatte parts are hiden i can draw spicy ☆ ～('▽^人)]